Personal
Growth
Mumpreneur Wisdom
RECLAIM YOUR POWER BY RECLAIMING YOUR FEELINGS By:Lisa Entwisle
Being a mum has brought me closer to humanity than ever before. I feel the collective resonance and recognition in being part of one of the most powerful, fierce groups on the planet Some days I want to run away to someplace beautiful and get lost. Where part of me that wants no one to ever find me and yet another part of me wants everyone to search for me. Motherhood truly is a paradox. But a mumpreneur is a paradox on steroids. Being a mum has brought me closer to humanity than ever before. I feel the collective resonance and recognition in being part of one of the most powerful, fierce groups on the planet. Yet, at times I don’t feel this power at all. Instead, I feel alone, deflated, flat, fragile and undervalued. Leading up to becoming a mum, I chose selfemployment. The idea of being an employee felt too restrictive, and being the type of woman I am, I could not surrender to being a mum and a homemaker.
What was I trying to prove and to who? Was I using work to escape from motherhood? Did I have enough support? Was my strong, capable woman persona getting in the way of my true values? It was time for some solid, honest reflection. So, I let the false notion of flexibility as an entrepreneur justify my choice. But, what I didn’t realise, was how difficult the balance of ‘holding on and letting go’ is, and the ripple effect that would have on my selfworth, my mental state, and my ability to achieve the high standard I wanted in life. I also soon realised that keeping on top of personal health and maintaining selfcare is tough, and that feeling like a failure at times is inevitable. But despite all of this, being a mum brought me closer to my humanity than ever before:
Do you feel drained by living a life where you have so much responsibility to be everything but don't know how not to be? You want to relinquish control and just allow, trust and flow, but you can’t detach yourself from trying to control the outcome of everything! I think the truth is, as a mother, someone else’s wellbeing holds as much or more importance as your own, so the possibility of compassion fatigue is a real thing.
