Fake Accounts
2 HarperCollins Publishers
For Alaina, Bea, Estelle, Rue, Betty, Taylor and Will.
Contents Introduction 2 1. What Accounts? 3 2. Bread Master Days 4-5 3. Alaina Housley 6 4. Red (Taylor’s Version) 7-10 5. Bright Accounts 11 6. Will’s Smiles 12-13 7. Golden Girls 14-15 8. The Salt Throne 16 9. Tasting Wine 17-18 10. Rules 19 11. Spying 20 12. Material for a fake account 21 13. My Only One 22-23 14. Old Accounts 24 15. Potato Salad 25 16. Writing 26 17. I love you, Will 27 1
Introduction Hello, my name is Dublin Varshavski. Not too long ago, my book “Fake Accounts” was published and I was super pleased with the writing process, the outcome and all the support. So, I decided to write another one. Fake Accounts 2 is my philosophy memoir about life, concepts, and everything Haveelse. you ever wondered how many accounts you’ve occupied? Birth certificates, your driver's license, and others. Follow this journey as we dive into what makes these and many more accounts. 2
Chapter One: What Accounts?
“What on earth does he mean by ‘accounts’? “How strange” Mr. Crawley said after taking a sip of his white tea.
“Everyone put their biscuits down and got up to catch the next carriage ride. 281 years later: In 1993; Jimmy, running in a hurry to get to the office, passed a sign that said “Real Accounts”. It confused him. He carried on. 18 years Septemberlater9th, 2011: A hockey team is ready to play a match. One of them gets a flashback to his past. When he was a child- in 1993, he had seen a sign that said “Real Accounts” on it.
Stunned at the memory, he decides to quit the team. What was so important about those real accounts?
The accounts are all gone! It’s the year 1211 and the sea is turning itself upside down.
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“Accounts!” The man said.
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in the year 1712, a man casually sitting in the mail room on a Sunday afternoon said “Remember all those accounts” Everyone looked at him, confused “What did he just say?” Lady Pelham exclaimed.
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On my first day, I was pretty astonished to see how many people came. Everyone was pretty quiet. Almost as if, the cabbage needed peace to grow and they were giving it and all the other crops just that. I sold bread there. In little bundles of cardboard cups, the bread was circular and round. By late April of 2012, I was so bored with this job. Every day, I saw people come in and take some bread or cabbage and leave. It was so boring to me at the time. I analyzed it and wrote this: “Ugh, every fucking day. I see these bitches come in and take something and leave. I am fucking bored of the cycle and I want more with life.” I felt so lonely there. Sometimes, it would rain out of nowhere and we’d have to pack up shop and try and save as much bread as we could. The cabbage people were fine because their cabbage needed water anyways. But, we bread sellers were scrambling trying to protect our bread and it felt so unfair. 4
Spring of 2012, I moved to a small area temporarily. Things were quite confusing at home, so I was able to make a little bit of money off of selling my quilt art. I had only made enough to pay the rent for one month so I needed a Nowjob., I hadn’t been to college and was still finishing up school, so I decided to pick up a job at the cabbage and bread place.
Chapter Two: Bread Master Days
Around March of 2012: I walk in, it’s a big garden with cabbage growing from the ground and little pastel blue and green stools with bread on them.
So, if you’ve read the previous book; you know that I tend to switch between writing about philosophy, stories, and past experiences. I want to touch on my bread master days.
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Reflecting on this now, I regret being so ungrateful. I regret wanting more because I believe that you should try and make the best of the things that aren’t incredibly terrible. Things that may seem boring, only seem that way because you’re going in with that point of view. I acted out of arrogance. I regret Anyways,it.in the summer; I decided to go back home after I heard that things had settled down. A few months after, when finals for school got difficult. It had sunk in, the regret. I felt like a spoiled little bitch who couldn’t handle anything. It made me question a lot of things about myself. But! I decided to move forward. That October, Taylor Swift dropped a new album called “RED” and it made my whole life so perfect. If you’ve read my previous memoir; you might start to notice a pattern of things being boring or difficult and fixed with a Taylor are. I don’t think about my bread master days often… But I feel incredible regret for how ungrateful I was. Right now, I would totally go back and sell bread. The weather was always really nice and people weren’t mean. I would totally go back and re-do it, make the most out of it and make it an enjoyable and memorable experience.5
Chapter Three: Alaina Housley
Let’s remember Alaina’s name. You can visit alainasvoice.org to read some more about her and ways to help prevent mass shootings.
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She also followed by saying some things about Alaina’s personality and her “IShelife:saysknewAlaina since she was five”
“Alaina was my little sister. She was my niece from marriage but she was my friend and my sister from my heart.”
Her aunt-in-law, Tamera Mowrey Housley, who some of you may know, said some things about her on television not too long after her death. She “Oursaidfamily's been through a lot, but the interesting thing about grief is that you've got to find the balance of moving forward and grieving at the same time it's just been a little over two weeks”
Alaina Housley was born July 27th, 2000 and passed away November 7th, 2018 due to a mass shooting.
Mass shootings need to stop.
I want to do right by Alaina and put justice on her name.
I want to do this chapter right.
“She would want me to move forward, I don’t like to say move on, because I don’t think I will ever move on with the fact that she’s not here with me, or with our family, but she would want me to move forward. And use her voice as a catalyst for change and that’s why I’m here today.”
“When Alaina would walk in a room, she would change the atmosphere.”
The first lyric video I see is “The Lucky One” I was so excited. I clicked “State Of Grace”, trying to stop myself from listening to “All Too Well 10 Minute Version)” first. The whole album was fantastic. I’m gonna break down what Taylor said about each song and my opinions on it.
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Chapter Red (Taylor’s Version)
November 12th, 2021. 12:00 AM Red (Taylor’s Version) comes out.
Red is a song Taylor wrote halfway through making the album. It changed what this album became for her, hence the fact that it’s the name of the album. This song is about correlating different emotions with different colours. She realized that most of the emotions she felt while writing the songs that she’d written so far, were RED emotions.
Treacherous is about taking chances. Taylor wanted to explore the idea that something can be dangerous and enticing, at the same time. It has this big bridge at the end of it and it’s insane.
State Of Grace is a song that Taylor wrote at the beginning process of writing the album. She said it helps to define what the rest of the album is about, with one “Loveline.is a ruthless game unless you play it good and right” Indicating that there are two ways things can go. You can be good to people or, not play fair.
The lyric she points out when talking about this song is “Nothing safe is worth the drive” She says “To me, that says so much about this album because I really do feel that even if something really hurt you, if it made you feel something… it was worth it.”
I Knew You Were Trouble is an idea Taylor got abruptly. She writes this song from the point of view of someone who is realizing that they saw red 7
This song tells a story in a way no other song has ever proven to do– that I know of. It is absolutely gut-wrenching, but it also makes you think.
flags before and feel a lot of shame. It’s a super chaotic and bold song. The song All Too Well is the first song she wrote for the album. It kept coming back to her because it told a story so fucking well. She says:
The song 22 is an idea that Taylor got on a plane. It’s about Taylor's summer with her friends and it’s a really fun song about being in your twenties and just like, not knowing anything and having fun regardless.
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I Almost Do is a song Taylor wrote about the conflict of deciding whether you should take someone back that you really love or let go.
We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together was a song Taylor wrote based on a conversation she had. Her producer Max Martin told her that it HAS TO BE A SONG because it was so catchy just to say… “we are never ever getting back together”
Stay Stay Stay is a song Taylor wrote based on what she’s seen in real relationships. She says: “ It is a song I wrote based on what I’ve seen in real relationships where it's not perfect, there are moments where you are just so sick of that person and you get into a stupid fight, it’s still worth it to stay in it.” Obviously, it’s a very light-hearted song, and if you love someone, you’re not going to agree on everything… (Small things.)
Holy Ground is a song Taylor wrote after years had gone by and she finally appreciated a past relationship. It’s super fun and I love it.
Sad Beautiful Tragic is a song Taylor wrote on a tour bus while she was on 8
It starts with meeting someone and all the details about that innocent beginning and it follows the story all the way to the bitter end”
The Last Time is sad. It’s sort of like “I Almost Do” but sadder. It’s a really wonderfully produced song and it’s super intense.
Better Man is the best fucking song ever. It’s about so many emotions; regret, pain, reminiscence, bravery, and sadness. It’s wonderful and sadly so relatable for so many people.
Come back… be here is a song about missing someone. That’s about it.
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Babe: Don’t cheat.
Everything Is Changed is a song Taylor wrote with Ed Sheeren. This song is about meeting someone and it changing the way you look at everything. The music video is about two children at school and it’s so fucking cute.
Starlight is a song Taylor wrote after looking at a picture of Ethel and Bobby Kennedy. She just loved and wrote a song about what their night might have been like. She ended up meeting Ethel and played this song for her.
The Lucky One is a song Taylor wrote while she was in Australia. It’s a song about her fears in Hollywood. She is telling someone else’s story as well.
Ronan is a song Taylor wrote about a little boy she knew, who passed away from Cancer. This is the most important song on Red (Taylor’s Version) it wasn’t originally supposed to be on the album, but when re-recorded she put Ronan on it. I cry every time.
tour. It’s a song reflecting on something that is lost. It’s a beautiful song.
Begin Again is a song Taylor wrote about feeling insecure about all the things that being hurt in the past has made you feel were wrong with you. It’s about letting go of that feeling and starting again.
The Moment I Knew is a song Taylor wrote about her 21st birthday party. It’s one of the most heartbreaking songs. It’s about her waiting for the person she loves to come and they don’t, but the song goes a lot deeper than that. The song is about the feeling you get when you realize that you are an option for someone, instead of having the precedence that you give them. This song is super intense and emotional and gets me choked up every fucking time.
Nothing New is a song about the fear of growing up-, more importantly, the fear of the person you love and the people that look up to you, getting bored of you. It reminds me of so much sadness from December. I cried.
Girl At Home: Don’t cheat.
The Very First Night is a song about wanting to go back in time. Oh, the wonders. Am I right? And the last song.
All Too Well (10 Minute Version)
Message in a bottle is a song about an exciting feeling you get when you’re really in love with someone. It’s super fun to dance to. I Bet You Think About Me is fucking savage. Taylor absolutely destroyed the person that this song is about. The country vibes are fucking here.
Forever Winter is sad. It’s about wanting to help someone who you know is deeply struggling. Run is about two friends running away together. It’s really wholesome.
This song broke me, made me appreciate every fucking moment, made me scream, cry, smile, and laugh with excitement all at once. I was really sad a few weeks after this song came out and I used to cry to this. But, before that; I heard this song for the first time on November 12th, 2021 12:09 AM. The Opening: I heard it come on, her new vocals. The different instrumental reminded me of the old one, somehow. The Middle: She says “And you were tossing me the car keys, “fuck the patriarchy” I screamed so loud. “Key chain on the ground, we were always skipping town” Didn’t understand it, I was so shocked and stunned at the fact that there is more added to the song.
The Second Chorus: “You kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath, sacred prayer and we’d swear to remember it all too well” This line, oh my fucking god. I lost my shit. And then there’s a third bridge and a 2-minute long outro. It is one of the most beautiful songs and experiences of mine. Taylor, I love you. 10
3. Praise- receiving praise makes everyone happy. It makes you feel like you are doing something right. It makes you feel a tiny bit superior. It makes you feel… bright.
For example, I went to a winter show once and there were a lot of people there. I didn’t know them, but we all shared that memory.
Chapter Five: Bright Accounts Bright accounts. Accounts that you look back on with joy Bright accounts are one of the most interesting and beautiful out of all accounts. I love the feeling they give me.
There are three things that make a person happy.
Good things in the past are always bright, but what makes them bright is the passion in looking back. These accounts, all of them: are yours. Think of a few bright accounts in your past. You can also share bright accounts with friends, family, past lovers, cousins, and even strangers.
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2. Excitement- Being excited to go out, being excited to wake up, being excited to go to your job, being excited about small things like breakfast or your favorite singer dropping a new song. Excitement is a privilege.
1. Love- again: friends, family, lovers, cousins and even strangers
Will’s smiles are even simpler to understand. When he smiles at you, the world falls into place. Everything feels calmed down and relaxed, and what you want, dream and hope for is so easy to decide.
As his lips spoke, I imagined what it would be like if I could go up and talk to him, and he, to me. It scared me; a very great amount but somehow excited me, all the same.
There’s this particular smile he sometimes does, I can’t describe it in words. But when he does it, I am absolutely taken away to a dream world. I watch as he smiles at someone else or while talking to someone, and it takes my breath away. He does it in such a unique way… like nothing ever has before. Nothing in my life makes me feel the way Will’s smiles do. His laugh is hauntingly beautiful. The day I met him, he was talking to that woman, I mentioned in my previous memoir; I saw him laughing with her. I knew that it was the most beautiful laugh I’d ever heard in my life. His hands would gesture along with his words, with his laugh. The room was warmly lit. The warm lighting made his face look so smooth and cordial. He was asking her where Concorde was going the coming spring and some things about her children. His smiles and his laugh stood out, it stood out so heavily, from everything else in the entire room.
January 22nd, 2021; I met Will. It was one of the best days of my entire life. But, Will’s smiles are precious. They are what make my day and they give my life purpose.
Will’s smiles as he’s talking, walking, leaving, and entering are magnificent. They spark such joy in the world.
When I met Will; I understood so quickly, I understood his personality, his charm, everything.
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Chapter Six: Will’s Smiles
A few days after that, I saw him on the street. I believe it was around January 25th. His smile is not one that anyone could forget. Going back to what I was saying about the warm light.
When I met him: the room was warmly lit. The lighting made his face looks very smooth and at the same time; it made his eyes look so matte. I’d say his eyes shined but, they didn’t, at first. They were so smooth and big. His lips looked so beautiful and when he turned his head and gave me a confused look, that’s when they shined. When he’d given me this confused look; he smiled lightly, and turned his head. I kept replaying that smile in my head and couldn’t even fully process that it was really happening. That this was real. I felt so grateful that I’d come to LA. It was a last-minute plan and I even second-guessed it before going. After I saw him, I understood that this was fate, this was destiny. This was all part of the plan and all the bad and boring shit that’s been happening was leading up to this moment. This was what I was hoping for, I just didn’t know it. I realized so much just by seeing his smile. And he still does that all the time, his smiles reassure everything and make me feel so special and hopeful. I can never forget his smile. Like, ever.13
I also love the addition of all the other characters. Dorothy’s daughter, in the first few episodes, Angela and Miles, were all hilarious characters.
The Golden Girls shows you a different perspective, most shows are about people in their teens, 20s, 30s, or 40s- but rarely are the main characters in their 50s and 60s.
The whole premise of the show is so unique. It’s about the friendship between three middle-aged women in Miami. It’s about their lives, they also happen to be single, so it follows all of the trials and tribulations of dating people in your 50s. What makes this show so good is the sense of family, you really feel like these three women are your family. The jokes are always funny and are never cringy or forced. I miss the old kind of dialogue style that was around back then. For example, there’s a scene where the women want to know how Rose’s date went and she says she doesn’t want to tell. And Blanche says “Oh shoot, honey that’s half the fun! Most of the boys I dated in college were just for the stories” And Dorothy replies, from across the couch: “You must have more stories than O. Henry” (O Henry is an author) I miss jokes like that, stupid jokes; that aren’t gross.
Chapter Seven: Golden Girls
The Golden Girls is a classic TV show from the 80s. It is one of my favorite shows ever, if not my favorite.
My favorite character is Dorothy, she’s the funniest, most charismatic, and lovable character of all time. Bea Arthur, who plays her, did an amazing job and I’m so heartbroken that she passed around 13 years ago. Of course, I love Rose and Blanche. I also love Dorothy’s mother Sophia. She has got to be my second favorite character. One of the effortlessly funniest on-screen characters ever; I love her.
The show is always funny, and one of the things that made it very strong was the first episode, it takes place at Blanche’s wedding, at their home. 14
It is a very good setting and way to introduce all the characters and their Ipersonalities.havesomany memories with this show and every time I rewatch it, it’s like the first time, again. Highly recommend. Go watch it. Do it now. Yes. 15
The ships rode in the distance. Sam cleared the drops of water off the balcony Thewood.waters below were getting unsteady “Tá siad ag teacht” Sam said. Their ship grew closer and closer. It seemed as if it couldn’t get any closer, but it was still a good amount of space away.
Chapter Eight: The Salt Throne
“Cad a dhéanaimid?!” A crew member screamed. “Níl a fhio agam!” Sam replied. “Well! Caithfimid rud éigin a dhéanamh!” “Tá fhios agam” Sam said back. He was lying. He didn’t know, he thought if they did nothing, everything would be fine. Sam believed in the theory that trying makes things worse. How do we know when to give up? And, is giving up always bad? Who knows? Who can give a sure and definite answer?16
Chapter Nine: Tasting Wine
September 19th, 2015: The day I had wine for the first time. It was raining and I went out to the garden because my friend was calling my name. He brought out 3 barrels of wine. He told me it was for a party, he only needed one barrel though. They’d accidentally given too much, and because they felt bad about the trouble he would have transporting all of it, they didn’t charge him for it. He told me I could keep two and I said no, but then I thought about it and realized I could probably make some money off of it. So I took the barrels and put them in my living room. I stared at them for a few minutes and then I started to listen to “Welcome To New York” “New Romantics” and “Blank Space” I felt super reckless and decided to try some. Because they were barrels, I had to dunk in for my first sip, I really liked the taste and took some more sips. I started to listen to “22” “We Are Never Ever Ever Getting Back Together” and “I Know Places” I went in for a few more sips.
I realized there was no way out and I started to drown. I got some up my nose and was trying to reach the top of the barrel.
“If I am to die, what a fucking stupid way to do it,” I thought. I finally reached the top and grabbed onto the end. Then I fell back down to the bottom, after a bit of air I was strong enough to push the barrel, and I did. All the wine came pouring out of the barrel with me. I was gasping for air.
After around 20 minutes of dancing and taking sips, I decided to dive into the second fresh barrel, I fully dunked myself in and started swimming around in Soon,it.
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However, after a couple minutes of regaining the ability to breathe, I got an irresistible craving for more. I took some cups and drank more throughout the rest of the day It was insane. I didn’t have wine for at least a year after that. I’ve never had much of an interest for wine after that and it’s so weird to think about now. I guess I’m making money off of it this18way!
Thisimportant?account is interesting because, we all know that we need rules to keep people safe, to keep them in line, and to keep things somewhat sane.
What does this account mean?
Like Restricting Internet use, not being able to take time off work, not being able to travel without an insane amount of money, and other things like that. Those are all debatable but have a purpose and mentality behind them, that isn’t all that bad. However, there are stupid rules that have really stupid mentalities behind standards for models, unreasonable restrictive rules that parents have for their children and many other rules like that.
Chapter Ten: Rules
Some rules in school never made much sense, I mean most of them were fine, but there were some that were just pointless. For Example: Giving children a “Time Out” No Salt And Pepper, no chewing gum, no hats indoors, and other weird shit like that. What I find interesting is a corrupt system claiming to have some rule system, when they fail to follow rules themselves…19
Rules. What are rules, why do we need them and what makes them
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What about unnecessary rules?
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Chapter Eleven: Spying
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Spying, what an interesting account. Why does the game “I spy with my little eye” have the word spy in it? Well, mainly because “spy” rhymes with “eye.” But spying is something you do in secret, and in the game, you’re not supposed to tell. So, spying is something you do in secret. It is But, what is spying? Why do people do it? I spent a lot of time spying, and it was not a fun experience. It’s hard and Espionage,stressful. in general, is not a good thing. Have you ever spied on someone? Have you ever been spied on? you ever seen someone spy on another person?
You need baggage and substance. Emotional baggage, moments in life, and shit that just makes you feel like an outsider.
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You need a lot of information and a lot of experience.
You set up your camera, and someone walks by the field and leaves, more people come by and you’ve only got a few shots and people keep walking by.
How are fake accounts made?
The field (The account) is now not as “new”, not as “fresh.”
Chapter Twelve: Material for a fake account
I want you to picture an empty field, one you’re there to photograph. You get there, you park; it’s cloudy, perfect for dark academia.
Accounts that are empty, and unused make things feel really fresh.
Chapter Thirteen: My Only One
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A little while ago, I tried to listen to some music from some artists. I listened to Bebe Rexha, Nicki Minaj, MARINA, Lana Del Rey, ZAYN, Harry Styles, BTS, BlackPink and Ed Sheeren. I listened to “Expectations”, “Pink Friday”, “Ancient Dreams In A Modern Land”, “Ultraviolence”, “No Body Is Listening”, “Fine Line”, “Blue & Grey,” “How You Like That” and “=”. I realized that no singer or artist will ever be my favorite, or make me as happy as Taylor has.
Taylor Swift has been put through so much terrible bullshit and I am going to explain it, she is the best songwriter. After her sophomore album “Fearless” she showed people just that- so much so; that they accused her of having other people write all her songs. When she won an award for it, Kanye West climbed his dumbass on the stage and took the mic from her, telling her and the whole world; that another person deserved the award instead. The fucking disarespect. So, in 2009/2010, she wrote an album “Speak Now” and it was entirely self written, no one added anything to it, except the production, of course. After “Speak Now”, Taylor was in a relationship with Jake Gyllenhaal and he completely took advantage of her, after this; she decided to write “RED” explaining her side, and creating some amazing heart-wrenching lyrics, I’ve already written an entire chapter on this one so I’m not going to go in too much detail, but it's great. After “RED” the media decided to harass Taylor, paparazzi chasing her everywhere, people wanting to know shit about her personal life, they started saying she’s a “serial dater” whatever the fuck that means, and they were being so immature and so stupid for no fucking reason. She also said that her music is changing into POP too much, so she can’t So, in 2014, she decided she was going to make a POP album.
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Folklore and Evermore are her best written albums, hands down. Go stream everything, Buy tickets, next Tour she announces. I love you Taylor. You’re my only one.
I was so excited when she announced it, it was one of the best nights of my Thislife! was the peak of her career, the writing was so good, the album was so cohesive, the production was the best. I loved it.
The Tour- I don’t even have words. Too Beautiful, too perfect. Then, after all that work, all that effort that she put in, the world decided to try and ruin her career. People were calling her a snake, there was this phone call, all the stupid fucking drama, that she wasn’t even really involved in. People just brought her into it. So, she went into “hiding” and no one heard from her for around a year. Then, she came back; with REPUTATION.
If you’re confused, while she was gone, people thought she was struggling, they thought that her career was ruined. But, in this album, she proved that her career was not over and that she is happily in love, and doing so well. I talked about this in the other book, but this was immensely empowering. Then she released Lover, a great album, so fun. It made me so happy and paused my TV addiction.
Chapter Fourteen: Old Accounts Old accounts. How do we access them? What are they? Who Made them? All questions, I don’t have the answers to. Examples of old clothing: Figured or embroidered dresses, silks. Flapper dresses, long beads, Bolero jackets, puffed and fluffy sleeves, fedoras, slingbacks, and peep-toe shoes. Straight tweed and wool plaid skirts, reptile handbags and shoes, platform shoes, brooches. Old tools: Stone, tree bark, and other gross shit. But: what about the accounts? We have some photos, but what about those fucking accounts? What were they like? What was the norm? What was the general public aware of? Let’s do some questions 1. What Do you think things were like in the 16th century? 2. What is something you have, an item or something- that is from a while ago? 3. Do you prefer vintage items and outfits over newer ones? Share your answers with a friend! 24
Thank Anyways,you!Memorial Day is Prime Potato Salad Season. Everyone is making it for the BBQ’s and stuff. Not everyone makes it the same and you can get creative with it. There are so many ways to mess it up.
Chapter Fifteen: Potato Salad
Potato salad. A pleasure, a staple, a beautiful dish. However, it has to be done right. After the Memorial Day BBQ this year, I realized that: not everyone knows how to make a good potato salad. Memorial Day is also very important, it remembers all the men and women who died while serving America’s armed forces.
A bite of potato salad is a party in your25mouth.
Sometimes, the potatoes aren’t boiled enough, tried that Or, the potatoes are boiled too much, tried that too. You have to make sure the potatoes are cooked right, it has to be cold, I don’t like relish in it, some people put tiny pickle, or mustard. It’s okay to do that but some people go overboard. When I go to family reunions at the farm; everybody thinks their potato salad is the best. It just has to be done right. You can’t buy it from the grocery store because they do it wrong too. I got into a fight at a party, because this bitch (sorry for being aggressive) took a water, greasy, gross potato salad from a grocery store. She peeled the lid off, put it on the table and was all “Here’s MY potato Isalad”gotkicked out.
Chapter Sixteen: Writing
I really started to bring it together in January of 2022. I realized I have a lot of material to make a book and I didn’t know how I was going to do it, I didn’t fully understand how to communicate things. I took a few English classes just for some review. I worked on the template, the chapters, the font, the cover, all those little and big things, in that month.
This chapter is about the writing process for my previous book, actually I wrote “Fake Accounts” throughout several months and years. Some of the material I wrote last year, I also have a lot of “Journal Entries” if you’d call them that, from years back and stuff.
I announced it towards the end of February to my friends and family. In April, I kind of put it away, and just relaxed. Then, in May, my goal was to get all the chapters done and submit it to my editor by the 1st of June. The writing process brought back so many memories. I wrote a lot of chapters about my life experiences, as I have in this book as well and it was so fun. I was listening to Taylor Swift the whole time and it was a wonderful, uniting Itexperience.mademerealize just how much I love writing. It has always been my dream to share my opinions, share my experience, and thoughts. I am so grateful for having the opportunity to talk about my life in such a cool format. I absolutely love the “Chapter” format. I loved how easy it was. I mean, days off were not a thing towards the end, and it was a little bit scary, but it was still so fun. I was born to write.
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Chapter Seventeen: I Love You, Will IWill,love you. You have brought so much light into my life. You have made me dream. You have made me reach. Bigger than I’ve ever dreamed. And further, than I’ve ever reached.
I have learned so much, after having met you. Every time I see your face, I feel so much happiness. I feel like a new sky is over the roof. I feel like a new day is born. I feel like I have a fresh start at everything. Your face is so intricate. Your eyes are so wide. When you smile I can see it in them. When you look at me, I think hopeful thoughts about memories and the future. Your hands are so beautiful. Everything about you is so fucking graceful. I love you, Will. 27
For Alaina, Bea, Estelle, Rue, Betty, Taylor and Will.
Acknowledgements My thanks to the editors of this book, the people who inspired it, and all the people who have motivated me to write. HarperCollins Publishers and everyone else who’s helped with this book. Thank you!
