You are allowed to want better for yourself Written by Kerstie Blue
If you are stuck in a lifestyle, job, or relationship that you
But lately, you feel guilty because you don’t want to be
loathe, the only thing you know for sure is what you do not
constantly giving your time away to things that you
want. This feeling can be overwhelming and sometimes
don’t want to give it to. Such things may include, the
initiate the occasional panic attack. It's not fun to be
job that you hate, the responsibility you took on but it
miserable – plain and simple. On your bad days, you feel
doesn’t match who you are at your core, or even the
like you’re out of control. On your good days, you want to
little tasks that drove you mad but you sacrificed and
make things happen in your life. And between it all, you
did them for your beloved. Realizing this, reflecting
want to make your own decisions and feel empowered.
back with just a smidgen of regret and remorse, you decide you want to be focused on yourself. You want to
Whether your “everything is perfect” fantasy life feels like
be making your own decisions. You want to be
a big dream or a little dream – a daydream, perhaps – you
autonomous. You want to call the shots. You want to be
want to be able to make it happen: to have the time, the
the CEO of your own life. You already have the vision.
autonomy, and the energy. You’re in a space, and you’ve
Now, you want the resources. You want to have the
been in this space for a while, where you feel like so much
ability to make things grow and to manifest the things
of your life is just about giving. It’s just giving away and
that you dream of. You want to become your own
giving away and it’s supposed to make you feel good. This
version of what a Good Person is, without sacrificing
is how you were raised. It’s what you were told would
yourself any longer.
make you a Good Person.
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