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Getting To Know Us Mission Statement: Restoring souls, not just through God but also through God’s soldiers, gifted and anointed. Hello, my name is Tashara Gilyard. I am the CEO and Founder of Love’s Compassion Magazine. As a young person growing in Christ I came to learn it’s not always easy to dedicate yourself to this walk of life. There are a number of reasons for this: the fear of the unknown, having to let go of things we believe we enjoy, trust issues caused by past hurt, observing hypocrisy amongst those in the church, feeling like you’re too young… let’s face it the list could go on forever. I came to learn it is very difficult to be busy for God and the enemy at the same time, (“No one can serve two masters, either he will hate the one and love the other, or he will be devoted to the one and despise the other”) sounds familiar? Matthew 6:24. I have made up my mind to be busy for God.
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We all have gifts and talents of some sort. There are some things we learn and things the Lord just blesses us with for His purpose. My gift from God is words. He has given me the ability to take someone’s life’s journey and bring it to life on paper. I am able to listen to someone’s cries of pain and or joy and pour those feelings into a poem/spoken word piece for another to hear and relate to. With this ability combined with the compassion God has placed in me, He has given me a vision to start a ministry where souls can be restored and hearts can be mended. What better way to do this then by sharing of ourselves for the kingdom of God. There are many that refuse to step foot into a church today for a number of reasons and it’s not always because they don’t believe in God. There has been so much hurt caused in and by the “Church.” People decide they would much rather take their chances in the street getting hurt, rather than going into the church where we are supposed to be able to receive a healing, and instead receive a spiritual homicide. They are often judged, ostracized and made to feel as though they are counted out. I don’t know about you, but if I walk into a hospital, blind, lost and wounded; I would expect assistance, guidance and a great effort of aiding my needs. Anything less would most likely discourage me from ever returning to this hospital or even seeking any assistance from anyone affiliated with it. The vision God has given me is an open line of communication between God’s children, both lost and “found.” It is time to take back all that the enemy has tried
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to destroy. It is time to get the beam out our own eye, time to remember we did not come out of our mother’s womb carrying a bible, speaking in tongues and walking upright with Jesus. We too were once dirty, broken, battered, abused and or abusing others. Had it not been for an obedient vessel of God allowing themselves to be used for the glory of God and the building of His kingdom we would still be the mess we were before we began ministering the message to another. This magazine is creating an opportunity to see where the “Church” has gone wrong and rectify the situation. What have we done to discourage God’s children from coming to visit Him in His house? We are creating an opportunity to hear the broken hearts cry out, allowing them to release their pain instead of living a selfdestructing life. Be an example and share our testimonies. Allow them to see they aren’t in this alone and that our God is still in the business of healing. Provide them with spiritual food so that they no longer have to starve. Provide them with help and prayer to come out of their situation. Reach out to them with non-judgmental arms and embrace them with a warm and open heart. Love them the way God loves us, unconditionally. Remember how you felt the first time God embraced you, wiped your tears, and showed you were loved. Do everything in your power to help them feel that same way. Most importantly this is the opportunity to assist those who don’t have a relationship with their heavenly father and encourage and teach them how to. God
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loves us with compassion and now it’s time for us to love our neighbors the same.
Founder/CEO: Tashara Gilyard
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Loving God and Allowing Him to Love You Exactly Where You Are What is Love? Love is the thing everyone wants, but don’t know what to do with it. We want to be loved, but don’t know how to give it. At times we don’t even know how to receive it. Mark12:30 reads, “And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength: this is the first commandment.”
I believe we, as Christians do not know how much God truly loves us. He does not have a list of requirements. He loves us just because. He loves us when we are good, bad, and or evil, His love does not change. We have to remember that God is not human; He is not petty, like can be. We need to transform our minds and just let God accept us from where we are. All God requires is our hearts and our truths. Have you ever read the sinner’s prayer? The first thing that was confessed to God is acknowledging that I am a sinner. At this point you are being honest with God and confessing what you are. (i.e. I am a whore, I am a liar, I am a cheat, I am a substance abuser). It is at this moment of confessing; God accepts your fault(s) and opens his arms to you. He accepts you just as you are. One of Satan’s biggest tricks is throwing your past in your face. He will constantly remind you of your shortcomings just to keep you stuck. There’s more love in God for you, than there is sin in you! We have been taught that God hates sin and yes that is very true. When Jesus took the sins of the world on the cross, God had to separate himself and for the first time Jesus did not feel the presence of God. Many times we feel that God hates us because he hates sin. Know that He hates the act of sin, not the sinner. It is time for us to be honest with ourselves and open our hearts to God. Admit our faults, our sins and our truths to God and allow ourselves to rest in our Father’s 6
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arms; allow him to totally direct our paths.
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Preface When I was in my late teens I was very rebellious. My parents both worked & couldn't keep track of my every move. I yielded to alcohol & experimented with marijuana, especially at parties with my friends. I cleaned up my act long enough to start a career & enlisted in the Army. But when I got to my permanent duty station and during AIT, I continued to drink alcohol to relax & unwind because I thought I deserved it after a hard days work. I managed to perform my duties to standard & served for approximately 3 years, but continued to drink during the evenings/weekends.
A Testimony of The Grace of God I was born & raised in Ohio. I had a fairly good childhood, was raised with good morals & values. I went to Sunday school as a young child & was saved at the age of 7, but as I grew I went my own way. I joined the Army at the age of 19, which was a good start to my young life because I wanted a career. I excelled in the beginning, but without acknowledging the Lord in my plans, I 8
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progressively became an alcoholic. Then, in 1992, I received an honorable discharge from the Army while stationed at Ft. Huachuca, AZ. I chose to live in Arizona to stay involved with the wrong crowd of people and did what I wanted to do without regard. I just kept spiraling downward, but I couldn't see it at the time. Life was a party to me. Suddenly, in 1993 I lost my dad to suicide, because he was a manic depressive w/bipolar tendencies who refused to acknowledge his shortcomings, get the right medical care or seek Christ to help him in life. I grew increasingly depressed because I also didn't acknowledge my shortcomings, nor did I deal with his passing in a healthy way. I was drinking massive amounts of alcohol, more & more, building up my tolerance level to it. I would also smoke marijuana & on occasion snort methamphetamine’s trying to numb the pain of it all - to escape reality. I really thought it was helping me to deal with life, & I didn't care what anybody said because I didn't see what it was doing to me. I just kept falling deeper into a hole with no hope in sight. Additionally, I lost a long-term (8 year) relationship w/my best friend, which led me to make even poorer 9
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decisions because I was so depressed. So, with my mounting debt, I changed jobs & moved out of town & in with a virtual stranger I had just met on the internet a few months before, which I never in my wildest dreams-nightmares would've thought I'd ever do. Regrettably, not seeing any other way to deal with my escalating problems, on February 3, 2000 I tried to take my own life with a .380 auto handgun. There were many things wrong in my life & I didn't see the way out. By the grace and mercy of God, I did not succeed! The next thing I remembered, I woke up in a hospital bed (after being in a semi-coma for several days). Then, looking at my mom's sweet, but sad face, it dawned on me what I had done. This was not just another stupid drunken act that I would be able to quickly recover from. It turns out that my bloodalcohol level was more than double the legal BAC limit at .29. I was told that I spent about 1-1/2 months in the hospital initially, going through several major & some minor serious brain surgeries to save my life. The neurosurgeons at UMC in Tucson worked to try to get the majority of the hollow-point bullet out of the 10
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right back part of my brain, and put in a Ventricular shunt so that my brain could function more normally. See, I apparently came just a fraction of a millimeter away from taking out the neurons that control my sight (there had to have been an angel there). However, I did sever the neurons that control my left side (hand, arm, & feet, toes). Mom said at first that my face was temporarily disfigured, the left side was drooping, but it didn't last. I also had a hard time communicating. The doctors told my mom that I would probably be in a "vegetative state" the rest of my life. They didn't expect me to be able to think or talk, let alone walk again. But mom stood on the Word of God & refused to accept their prognosis. They all thought she was crazy & just in distress over the situation. Well, she was in distress, but she wasn't crazy! She fought Satan long & hard with God's Word & many prayers. Mom & my grandma had many people praying for me. All-in-all, I had a total of about 18 surgeries, most of them serious brain surgeries to get the right size/position of shunt in place so I could function as normal as possible. After being discharged from the 11
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hospital the first time, I was sent to a physical rehabilitation center for about 2 months. Which was a miracle because I wasn't "supposed" to get to go to this nice rehab center; it was some kind of mix-up with man, but right along with God's plan to help me. I worked hard, with the therapists & mom pushing me because I was tired & distraught. She interjected God into our conversations, but she didn't push me too hard about it because she wanted it to be my own decision-she didn't want to push me away because I was rebellious at times. Later she told me that she just continued to pray & praise the Lord for saving my life. What wonderful grace & mercy God has! What a wonderful gift of a mother God gave me! I was finally released from the rehab center to outpatient therapy (still in AZ); I think it was around May 2000. I was in a wheelchair for a short time. Then by God's wonderful grace & a lot of hard work, I miraculously started using a quad cane to walk & build up the strength in my left side. There was a lot of "physical" (working with my left leg) & "occupational" (working with my left hand) therapy, as well as speech therapy. I had 12
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to start from "infancy" to retrain my brain to do everything that I used to do automatically. Consequently, getting back to my life/apartment, I started to realize how my socalled friends were. You learn who is really a friend when something tragic happens - I didn't have any "friends" there! Mom had to go back to Florida shortly before I was discharged from the in-patient rehab center, but she called me every day to stay in touch with me to see how I was progressing. After much convincing I finally made the decision to move to Florida & live with mom around July/August 2000, but it wouldn’t be until the middle of September when I would actually arrive. One day, shortly after returning home from my outpatient therapy (still in AZ), I had to be rushed to the hospital once again because the catheter from the shunt came through the skin in my abdominal area. This time, I walked into the hospital (using a quad cane). While filling out the paperwork I had a seizure due to the shunt malfunction. To make a long story short, the docs had to take out the old shunt & put in a different shunt (Ventricular Peritoneal or VP Shunt) with larger tubing. I think I was only in the hospital about a week at the most. The same doctor 13
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who told my mom I would be a vegetable was the one who performed the surgery--I talked to him myself about the procedure & things like that--what a testimony of God's grace & love! This surgery happened about 6 months after the initial surgery. God's timing is perfect because shortly after the surgery I agreed to move to Florida. So, on September 19th 2000, I arrived and I was set up with a neurologist, a psychiatrist, & therapists as well as all of the gadgets I would need to do everyday things like eat, bathing, etc. I had to take some strong medications for a while. Over time & with God's wonderful grace, I was able to get off of many major medications and take just what was needed to sustain good health, as well as be released from the care of a psychiatrist. All-in-all, I completed just less than 2 years of professional physical and occupational therapy, and continued to do therapy at home on my own regularly. It took a lot of work & organizing for mom to pull all those resources together. Everything had to be in place when my foot touched the Florida soil. There was so much more to it than I realized, I know now that God 14
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(through the Holy Spirit) guided her through every step. Finally, on October 13th 2000, I rededicated my life to the Lord & have been working toward living for Him ever since. Through reading God's Word, I have recovered from many short- term memory problems, can comprehend what I read, and am able to speak fluently. I am still partially paralyzed on my left side, but I can walk fairly well, I only use my cane when I go out of the house and at night when I get tired. I've learned to do many things with one hand, through trial & error that would normally require two hands. I am learning every day how to live, & trying to keep a positive attitude (some days are harder than others). A lot of people might view me in a negative light after learning this, but I've come to realize that although I had a moment in time (of deep regret) where I allowed my circumstances/emotions to rule over me, something like this could happen to anyone, given similar issues. {Judge not, lest ye be judged & He who is without sin, cast the first stone} I allowed the evil to come in & try to kill & destroy me, but I thank God that His mercy & grace prevailed!! It's been over 16 years now 15
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& I'm blessed. {Though I know that "There is therefore now no condemnation to them that are in Christ Jesus"} It is with deep thought & great trust that I'm sharing this with you in hopes that it may, in some way, help you or someone you know. I want to say in closing that I'm very sorry for all the people I hurt along the way (especially God, my mom, my family). If I had the chance to go back in time & change it, I certainly would! I'm just so sorry that I wasted so much valuable time, energy, money... and I'm so sorry that it took this tragedy to bring me to the awareness of the power of the love & forgiveness of God & to realize that no matter how bad things seem, give it time & you will see things in a different light. I'm so thankful for God's great mercy. I hope that I can honor God with my testimony & maybe help someone else who may be going through a similar situation. I'm not perfect, I make mistakes all the time, but I'm learning & growing in faith. As Joyce Meyer says: "I may not be where I need to be, but I thank God I'm not where I used to be, I'm ok & I'm on my way." By: Anonymous 16
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“Then The man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God called the man, “Where are you?” He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; So I hid.” (Genesis 3:8-9 NIV) One might wonder why I started with scripture and or why I started with this scripture. My answer would be two things, 1) Because when asking God’s help to write this for you all, it’s the scripture He dropped in my spirit. 2) It’s where I am. This issue of Love’s Compassion Magazine is reflecting “Loving God and Allowing Him To Love You Exactly Where You Are.” I know most if not all of you have heard “God says come as you are.” Well guess what… THAT’S NOT SCRIPTURE. Search your entire bible and you will not find a scripture that says such. You will find multiple scriptures that one may interpret or feel means “come as you are” but none that actually says such. Now what IS in the bible is, “For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.” (John 3:16-17 NIV) ~Freeze Frame~ I lost my footing. I woke up one morning after serving and believing in God for more than half my life and knew not where to stand. And so I hid. I hid from man, I hid from ministry but I had one problem, I couldn’t hide from God. You see we all have vices, or something that we “struggle” with. We all have that thing(s) we tell God or ourselves “When I stop this…” or “When I get rid of this… I’ll come to you.” What happens when that “thing” is 17
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bigger than you? What happens when you die before ever getting rid of that “thing”? Or what happens when you realize that “thing” is not a thing, but rather it’s you. I have “struggled” with having an attraction to the same sex for as long as I could remember. I use the word “struggle” because of the world. When I first realized I had this attraction, not only was I too young to understand said attraction, but it was also during a time homosexuality was not so accepted by society. And the CHURCH forget it. Just grab every stone and line us up, because they definitely had their take on where we were going. For these reasons a piece of me remained hidden. I met God for myself when I was 15yrs old. I began to get to know him by my own personal choice, not my family’s. It was then I developed my own “puppet relationship” with God. (What is that?) A puppet relationship is when I operated the way man\the church wanted me to operate. The decisions I made and things I did or didn’t do were influenced by what the church told me about God. Now I don’t blame this solely on the church or people of God, because the word does say, “Study to show thyself approved unto God, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth.” (2Tim 2:15 KJV) I can’t blame someone\anyone else for my choices when all I had to do was study God’s word for myself. But being so young in Christ and in life I did like a lot of youth do. I saw something I liked and followed it, so I thought. I would listen to the pastor’s or elders around me. The ones that had been what we call today “about that life.” I would do things or say things based on what they would tell\teach me. I’d pay attention to what they said about the many 18
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things we dealt with in your average teenage years in life, such as: peer pressure, smoking, drinking, partying, being accepted, sex, etc. Let the truth be told those aren’t just adolescent things, hell it’s life for any age at this point. I wasn’t a person that would bring my direct questions and or struggles to the leaders, I was the one who would listen to others pose their issues and tune in on the lessons taught that reflected issues I could relate to. And from tuning in and observing, it was clearly taught homosexuality was wrong even worse, you’d burn in hell for it. So what did I do? I hid. In fact I suppressed it and carried myself as if it did not exist in me. I have been a tomboy my whole life. I’ve always embraced boy clothing over girl clothing, boy toys over girl toys and even preferred hanging with boys over girls. My swag has always had everyone around me questioning my sexuality. Which is crazy to me, how one’s appearance would earn them a label, but hey that’s society. No one could ever prove I was gay. I only showed an attraction to boys. I always denied being attracted to the same sex when asked. I never openly acted on my feelings of attraction to the same sex. I went to a high school where I’ve always said many went in one way and came out another. I went to Fashion Industries High School in NYC. This was one of the most diverse schools I had ever seen. I’m not just talking nationalities. The school had many talents: drawing, interior design, fashion design and such. But what stood out to me was you had, heterosexual, lesbian, gay, bisexuals and trans genders in the school, out, open and free. People may have had their own opinions as we all do, but I don’t recall people hurting one another because of their 19
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differences. I remembered girls entering the school with boyfriends but by the time we were seniors they had girlfriends. I remember students starting out as males but by the time of graduation was identified as females. Fashion Industries H.S was a school where you were able to be free, but I chose to hide. I had been ministered to and prophesied over through out my life, repeatedly told; “There is a homosexual spirit trying to attach itself to you.” I would always feel something spark inside of me when told this. I couldn’t understand it. I would feel bad, scared and guilty over something I didn’t ask for, it just was. I did everything I could to run from it because I didn’t want to go to hell. I didn’t want to disappoint God. No matter what I did, how hard I prayed I just couldn’t rid of this “thing.” I would try and reason with man, talking to spiritual leaders trying to get them to see where I was coming from, but for what? They weren’t whom I had to answer to. So I begin to study the word for myself and research homosexuality. I read the scriptures used by “the church” to teach against homosexuality, but I just didn’t agree. Now I know me agreeing with or disagreeing with what the church teaches doesn’t mean I’m right and they’re wrong. I’m not saying that… I continued to live my life, but hid this portion of myself because I had been taught it was wrong. I partook in heterosexual relationships through out my life, even got married and had children, but always had this “thing.” I could be out with my (husband at the time) and see an attractive woman and I’d do one of two things: look on the low or bring it to his attention how attractive she was and 20
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we’d both look together. But I would never do it in a sexual way. I had become one of those people who lived a lie and was willing to live that lie until I took my last breath, but my marriage came to an end. It wasn’t due to me cheating with a woman either, for those who may think such. We were young and we weren’t compatible. After my marriage I continued to live my life and continued to attempt to live as a heterosexual, but there was always something missing. “Church folk” might try to say I was looking to fill a void that only God could fulfill. But I would say they were wrong. I had a relationship with God. I had been studying the word for myself and our communication level was great. My love for God was greater than it had ever been. But this piece of me that has been suppressed for years had grown stronger and stronger. Now what’s crazy is it’s taught in church feeding a spirit is what builds and strengthens that spirit. If you stay in your word (constantly study the bible), and continuously pray, you would strengthen your spirit man. While at the same time developing your relationship with God. We have also been taught to fast. Deny\starve your flesh and strengthen your spirit man by reading the word of God and praying. It’s like showing God you love Him so much, or what ever you decide between you and God you were fasting for, it is saying I’m going to make this sacrifice and give up “this” for the sake of “that.” I’ve tried this plenty times, but NOTHING. I’ve attempted to fast, pray and starve these feelings over a course of my life but nothing ever changed. I’ve even tried therapy. I remember being asked, “What if this was your thorn? The thorn in your side that will never go away.” I broke down crying as I said, 21
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“I’d rather die.” Could you imagine loving someone so much but had been told you were a disappointment to them? Or loving someone so much but you were hurting because you knew you had been lying to them their whole life. That was me. I loved God with every fiber of my being but had been taught he frowned upon homosexuality. I also love myself but wouldn’t allow myself to be true to what was in me. How could one really live this way? I couldn’t… I was literally dying from the inside out. God had one day given me a vision of starting a magazine. He showed me so much that would come from the magazine within ministry. I was hesitant, but knew God wouldn’t keep showing me something and leading me to do it if He didn’t indeed want me to move forth. I had all types of reservations as many of us do when thinking about moving forth in God\ministry. I began to write out the blueprint for the magazine, now known as Love’s Compassion Magazine, with the help of God of course. I was excited and scared at the same time, but I moved on faith. I remember talking to an author friend of mine and her family about LCM’s vision and ideas. I also remember being adamant in saying the one topic I would never address in LCM is homosexuality. She asked me why not? I responded saying; “Because it’s too much controversy that I don’t want to deal with.” I brought this up because I remember the look she gave me and until this day I don’t know her thoughts behind that look, but I remember mine. Lying yet again and this time while discussing the vision for the ministry God gave me. SMH I love God and I love ministry and doing either can’t have limits. You could 22
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never run from what you are called by God to do, and you can never run from who God has called you to be. Scripture says: “I knew you from before you were in your mother’s womb.” So it is no surprise to God that I have attractions to the same sex. It is no surprise to God that I hid from the world, just as Adam and Eve hid from Him. There is nothing we can do to surprise our creator. He knows all there is to know about us, the good, the bad and He still loves us. He loves you\us as we are. So stop making him wait. He called us while we were exactly where we are, and exactly who we are, so trust He wants you as such. I personally believe that’s where “Come as you are” derived from. One thing I can personally testify to is; as my relationship with God grew and my love for Him grew stronger anything He wanted from me became my desires. The things He told me hurt Him became things that hurt me to do. I have been able to hear from God for a long time. He himself have poured into me through the Holy Spirit and my dreams. He has shown me things that displeased Him and with His help I’ve been delivered from many, many things and have grown so much spiritually. But when I think back over all he has revealed to me himself, I can’t say He has ever told me my sexual preference, or attraction to a woman was His problem with me. It was always man\the church that told me that. I pose a question to you, as I had to also realize and answer myself. Does God’s word say: “For God so loved the world that He gave his one and only son, that who so ever believes in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His son into the world to condemn the world but to save the world through him… 23
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with an exception of those who (place your thing that’s holding you back here)? And when you realize you have not been counted out, I challenge you to not only love Him but let Him love you exactly where you are, exactly how you are.
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You have read Love’s Compassion Magazine issue on “Loving God and Allowing Him To Love You Exactly Where You Are.” While developing this issue of LCM I was challenged from the start to the finish. I had allowed man to get so deep into my mind I started believing God no longer desired to use me, that He no longer had use for me. But we were created for God… So can you imagine feeling like the one who made you no longer had a purpose for you? That’s a tough pill to swallow and a lost place of being. I felt like I existed but had lost everything, all because I acknowledged my truth and began to live in it.
Someone else out here feels the same way. My journey with God may be just a little different from some. I don’t have the testimony of saying, “When I rid of this I’ll give my life to God.” I had already given my life to God and now decided to accept ALL of me, all of who God had made me to be. That’s the opposite of your average person. I wasn’t walking away from the unknown for the sake of a life with God (i.e. a life of sin as we know it for a life of righteousness) I was giving up on running from myself and making the decision to love the person God has loved all along. I’m not so special that this only applies to me. In this issue we are encouraging you to love God and allow Him to love you exactly where you are, because we know He’s done it for us. So many people say, “I’m a go to church when I stop… (Drinking, smoking, cheating, gambling, etc.) Or we say, “I’m a give my life to God when I get it together.” I hate to sound cliché but tomorrow isn’t promised. If it’s one thing I hate to see is someone giving his or her life to God on his or her deathbed. I know someone might say well at least they got it right before He 25
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called them home. This is true, but I hate to see someone who lived a hard and painful life, give their life to God on their deathbed, never getting to see and experience the power and greatness God had for them. You get to see in “A Testimony of The Grace of God” the writer was given a second chance at life. But look at their life prior to that second chance. The writer dealt with alcoholism, drug abuse and depression. Let the truth be told a lot of us deal with depression we just don’t know it. We result to substances to try and mask the pain or feelings we have from things such as: past relationships, current relationships, failures, lost and all types of life’s challenges. God is the substance we should be resulting to. Instead of drowning our day to day in things and people we use to escape that thing that keeps us bound, let us allow God to sustain us. As you read in an earlier piece, what happens when that “thing” is bigger than you? What happens when you die before ever getting rid of that “thing”? Don’t find yourself always wondering or feeling like God doesn’t love you, or God has counted you out. We are All still special to Him. I challenge you to consider yourself that one lost sheep. You are the one lost sheep He gave His son for. You are the one lost sheep He went back for. You are that one lost sheep He’s been waiting for. Remember He knew each and everyone of us before we were in our mother’s womb. He knew all that we would go through, how we would go through it, the mistakes we would make and all that we would come out of it with. But notice I said, “Come out of it.” God never puts more on us than we could bear. He sees us making it out of everything. It is not His will that we go through all that we endure, for 26
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those of us that blame God or ask God if He loves us why did He let this happen to me or them? I must remind you, God isn’t a puppet master. He will not take away the freedom of choice that He has given us. This is where the horrible things in life often take place, with a person’s freedom of choice. Some people choose to do bad things that hurt people and leave chain reactions that result in generations being hurt. I’m asking all of us that are hurting or even have fell victim to hurting others, allow God to love you past it all. He knows your hearts hurt, He knows the evils that have festered from said hurt and He still loves you. In fact you may not realize it but He’s hurting too, because that wasn’t the plan that He had for you. But know that He is a way maker and history started with Him, so who better to change your future than the one who began it all. I challenge you; I don’t care where you are and what you are doing, do it with God and watch what He does for\with you. Thank you for reading our work. If you found yourself in any of what you read we would love to hear from you. We are here for prayer if you want it. Don’t feel shy or uncomfortable reaching out to us here at LCM. There are NO judges here. If you want to reach out to us anonymously, feel free. All are welcomed. May God Bless You All Call or text Phone: (346) 866-0370 Email: lovescompassion@gmail.com
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