Nicaragua Journey to
A young girl’s dream shattered and found Words and Pics by Natasha Lazdins
Once upon a time I was a little girl with Big Dreams. I promised myself I’d make my dreams a reality one day - I imagined travelling to the places the educational system never taught; the experience of self, through worlds unseen by the eyes and languages unspoken. No fixed compass, no one direction, never complete, yet whole. I wanted to feel free in the exploration of falling in love with everything and everyone. I believed the nature of life should be valued immensely, exploring all depths and dimensions; never changing the framework of my reality,
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but coming into realisation of experiencing myself as an individual. I could feel an internal riptide pulling my spirit towards where the jungle edge meets the blue sea. But can anyone just pack up and move their entire life across the other side of the world like that? It takes something different, a certain type of strength, and surrender. It seemed crazy yet inspiring. I worked a seemingly ‘successful’ job, but believed maybe I could find someplace where money didn’t matter, where the jungle was life, living simply on fundamentals
and depth of the natural surroundings. In April 2007, I packed my bags and quit my job. I had to be my own best friend and support my decision. I had to choose to trust in myself, rather than listen to society’s impressions. Knowing whatever I chose to do, I would share my greatness in all the places that I would go. The world was mine to wander and I knew that, as long as I was living my truth, with ‘what felt right’ in my heart, everything would always work out for the better; and I would discover all that unknown beauty along the way.
