#whoisshe W
I went through a quiet struggle in my childhood. My voice was shut down before I could speak or mumble a word. I had no say in anything that involved my feelings, emotions, personality, thoughts, or just even food. I was raised in the 90s, so all the 90s babies know what I mean. I was taught how to be Akita Kafora Adamson. Whoever and whatever my parents said I was, that is who I was to be.
Q. Who do you see when you look in the mirror? A. Before I answer, I take a glance in the background, and I see my younger self smiling at me. She is proud of the breakthrough and overcoming. In her eyes, I see the tears of joy that have been waiting to pour over and wash us clean. I can finally look at myself and see Akita Kafora Adamson. I thought I had been looking at myself for so long, but I was only looking at the burdens I carried.
Q. At what age did you begin to feel comfortable in your 5’0 110lb frame? A. At the age of 16-17, I moved to Louisiana, and that is when I started the process of loving all of myself. It took me leaving my hometown to see the beauty within. When I arrived, I questioned why they liked me so much. Do they not know that I am the Wick Witch of the West? The whole time I was a beautiful swan. I told myself that I would be that swan. I woke up loving myself and removing childhood trauma each step of the way. I moved back to Alabama, but I was not the same ugly duckling everyone remembered; I was an ivory swan. My senior year was
hen I look into the mirror, this might seem cliché, but I feel beautiful. Trust me, it took a while to get to this point in my life. I feel a sense of pride inside. I am proud of the woman I see looking back at me. The struggles, heartbreaks, insecurities, and uncertainty are no longer staring back at me.
Q. Have you always felt this way? A. As I said before, it took me a long time to see the reflection of Akita.
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epic. I started setting boundaries and walked with confidence. This continued into my college years. When I entered college, I was a force to be reckoned with. My confidence brightens each day. But of course, during your glow, a narcissistic male comes along and loves bombs.... here is the ugly duckling again. Once I left that toxic, abusive marriage, I relearned Akita Kafora Adamson (it is okay to have to start over again; do not beat yourself up. Some people do not have that amount of strength). This time was different; I was a mother. It was challenging but worth every pain, and I cried through the process (I will have to write to you guys later for the full story but know that I understand your pain. I am here). It took some depressing time alone to grasp who I was transforming into. Shadow work was the hardest; well, it still is. Lol. My spiritual growth is where I reached the point where no one could feed me any negativity about who I am. I am AKITA KAFORA ADAMSON. PERIOD!
