of turning 40... little did I know that my
tionship that was the deciding factor
ing attachments put me in a position to
expectations would be sidetracked by
for China. Everything just happened in
accept the challenge.
disappointment.
perfect order. I feel by closing doors that
On the morning of my 40th birth-
weren’t meant for me to walk through,
raveled the way that it did. Even though
day, I got a wakeup call alerting me, that
opened doors that were more suitable
everything happened faster than I was
the plans that I thought we had for an
for the divine life I desired.
capable of wrapping my mind around,
amazing celebration had changed. He
it was excellent timing. I could not ask
hadn’t requested to take the day off,
at a Bible study, I was encouraged to
for a more perfect 40th birthday present
even though he had previously stated
revisit my dreams of grandeur that I had
from the Universe.
that he would. Instead he indifferently
forgotten. On my way home I stopped at
suggested that he make it up to me by
a gas station and had a friendly conver-
saw to be true at 40 was the beauty of
taking me out the following week.
sation with a stranger from Houston who
going with the flow. Not fighting against
was currently living in Los Angeles. Their
the current has been my most valuable
a surprise to his calendar, this casual
discussion about their amazing adven-
weapon in living life thus far. I know now
proposal left me dissatisfied and shaking
tures while working and living in China
that there is purpose in everything, being
my head. A timely, “Babe, I’m working
for 10 year relit my fire for living abroad.
single, divorced, childless, being in a
on your day but let’s make plans on my
Soon after, I excitedly sent my
career that may be lacking something…
scheduled day off” would have been
resume to a corporation I respected in
absolutely everything works towards the
appreciated. In fact, this small detail of
China. They quickly interviewed me and
fulfillment of the divine life that we were
consideration might have saved this
matched my enthusiasm with an offer
created for. God is just waiting for our
sinking ship but it didn’t happen and
of a supersized salary, stipend for rent,
agreement. So to anyone and especially
neither did we. This was the last of a
among other perks that sealed the deal.
those of us in our 40s I will be the first
sequence of miscommunications that
Mind you, I had been looking for another
to say our best days are in front. Let’s
gave me the courage to say “goodbye
job opportunity within the US, for more
continue to say, “YES,” and go with the
relationship”, “Hello 40s” and 2 month
than a year, so when China fell into my
flow into the foreign land of our 40s
later, “Ni Hao” to China.
spirit, everything seemed to fall into
and stay rooted in knowing that the
place. China came as a perfect fit. I was
time is now, to receive the blessing of
ready for change and having no loom-
promises fulfilled.
Due to my birthday not coming as
Don’t get me wrong, it wasn’t the
after taste of the disappointing rela-
Two weeks after the break up, while
I’m so grateful that everything un-
The first lesson that I learned and
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