I came back from my travels and started looking at
If you could see my personality in those days. Early
my palm leaf books. I had the ancient knowledge in
morning 3 a.m. in winter season, I had to take a
my hands, but I still felt left out. To be honest, in the
cold bath, sit in the nature, meditate for one or
beginning stages of my spiritual life, I didn’t know
two hours. I didn’t have resistance power; it was
what I was doing. I was in the desert searching for
super easy to get sick. A day, one banana, a glass
water and there was huge aching in my painful heart.
of milk, done. Chanting, chanting, chanting. After
Some palm leaf books had been given to me. It was
I saw the ancient information, the law says kill
a miracle; they came to me from Baba. These books
some comfort. Not getting attached to comfort.
were 500, 1,000, 2,000 years-old with formulas
Whenever we sacrifice our comfort, something
and practices to create miracles and unbelievable
you can gain.
energy. That’s what they wrote about. I keep reading
Finally, I had a lot of experiences in the energy
That’s the only mission. I really want to see each individual soul as a master. Not a healer – as a master
and practicing that knowledge, doing a diksha with the mantras and yantras. First, nothing happened in me but still I kept doing it. I kept chanting the mantras in different ways. I believed in it, and at the same time, I didn’t believe. For almost two years, I did my sadhana continuously, but nothing was happening. I was not feeling any energy. Complete zero, dead. But somewhere I felt very strong and confident and had faith I could get success and I could win. Even though I was in the beginning stage, the first stage of illusion, I never missed my program. I never neglected what I was doing. I kept faithfully doing my dharma. In the manuscript they said you had to chant the mantra for 101 days, done. I didn’t have faith in the mantra, but I had faith in the manuscript. They wrote it 1800 years back and science is only from hundred years back. Before that, there was no science. In the beginning stage, everything was just God’s power flowing.
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channels, connecting to angels, seeing souls, seeing spirits, listening souls’ weeping, and having discussions with them, and, finally, experiencing Mother Divine. The wind really started to flow. After my enlightenment, and after I saw a few miracles and things I couldn’t believe, I began using these channels on the people. I wanted to contribute to my student’s kingdom, to take care of them in a beautiful way, to spread
Sri Kaleshwar reading palm leaf manuscript, 1999, Hampi, India
