Experiences of
The MASTER/STUDENT
Relationship Nityanandaji & Mataji
Sai Kaleshwara with stu power journey, Febru 01 Table Of 02 Content
Swami’s Darshan of Baba
Master’s Testing During Swami’s Yoga Samadhi
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udents during extended uary 1998, Hampi, India
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A Saint Comes for
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Swami’s Help
04 Purification Before Darshan of Mother Divine
Mother Divine’s Power Object in Bukkapatnam
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Guru Raghavendra’s Jiva Samadhi 3
The biggest pain in his life is that his guru is not in a physical body. Mataji: We were working with Swami late into the night. I was looking at him, asking in my mind, ‘Who are you?’ Many times, I’ve wondered that. In that moment he looked at me and said, ‘Who are you?’ “Well, I’m thinking that of you.” “I know, I’m using my psychic. I’ll show that. It’ll be the last touch up.” Swami has said the biggest pain in his life is that his guru is not in a physical body. When he talks about Baba, you feel the devotion for his master. He knows the blessing of sitting with the master. But Baba didn’t give that to him in this lifetime. He did that in another life, but Baba gave him a
painful to hear. He was demonstrating how to be with soul mates. You have to share. You have to be totally yourself and honest with at least one person. He was teaching us about Shiva and the Shiva leelas. Of course, Swami is completely like Shiva. He demonstrated that that night. As we were sitting together, he received a phone call. We were listening as the caller told him about a tragedy that had taken place, a terrible accident where many children were killed. He was talking in Telugu, and you could see by his facial expression and tone of voice that it was serious. He got off the phone and started translating his conversation, all these children had been violently killed. He was feeling the pain of the parents. Tears came to his eyes. He surely like Shiva in that moment, receiving the pain of the children and parents. We were just listening and watching him. He said the souls of the children were coming to him and he was releasing them. All of that was happening as we
different duty in this life. Swami said that is what he really wanted to do, just serve Baba. He doesn’t have the happiness of serving Baba. He said, “I just want to sit and talk to him, I just want to tell him, you know? I want to cry out my tears to him.” The master takes your suffering. Of course, only advanced souls have a guru not in the physical body. But still, it is painful for him. Nityanandaji: You remember, he did get a beautiful experience with Baba in the physical form. Can you tell that story? It was not too long ago. Mataji: It was in January. Nityaananda and I were working with Swami. We were sitting with him in his office for many hours. He was sharing his frustrations some students’ behaviors. He shared heartfully some struggles he was going through. It was a blessing to share that in that even though it was
Sai Kaleshwara worshiping his guru, Shirdi Sai Baba, 2001, Penukonda, India
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I heard talking in a strong and very interesting voice. I remember thinking, wow, what is that?
watched. He was taking care of the suffering. As a human being to hold that pain – he’s also a father – what that would be like. You could see he was also experiencing that. It was a very intense evening. After a long while, he got up to go to his bedroom and said good night to us. He left us there, straightening up. Soon after, I had gone past his bedroom door when I heard talking. I heard talking in a strong and very interesting voice. I remember thinking, wow, what is that? But I quickly turned back as I didn’t want to intrude by focusing my attention there. I came back to the office. After a sometime, Swami was suddenly just standing there! Without our notice he had slipped by us, and we were all was standing next to the refrigerator. He was standing very close to Nityaananda. It was a little startling and unusual behavior for him. He blurted out, “Great, great good news! Baba came!” The energy was just pouring from him. His happiness and joy were a dramatic contrast to earlier in the evening. “Baba came! He appeared to me! I
Shirdi Sai Baba 1838-1918
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him, feeling my confused state inside. Before I could say anything, he said, “Are you happy?” That seemed to be the most unexpected comment he could’ve made! It shocked me. Then he said again, “Are you happy?” Then I got it. I got it! I realized something new. What I realized was, I actually was happy! I was happy to be sitting in his presence. I was happy! I realized I was happy without being attached to any physical ‘thing’. I didn’t need some object to be happy. I didn’t say anything. It was a blessing like an arrow hitting me. Sai Kaleshwar always says, the greatness of the master is their use of sankalpam to heal a soul, to create something great, like sculpting a raw diamond into a priceless gem. That was a stroke like that. Then the rest of the group came over, and he gave a beautiful talk. To this day, I have no idea what he talked about that evening after the others joined. I was in bliss. After the talk, as we were walking back to the Baba mandir, he put his arm around me as we walked together. He said, “What do you want?” I said, “Only what you want to give me.” From this experience I learned a priceless lesson in spiritual morality. We all know it is important to tell the truth. But from the spiritual point of view, what matters more is helping the soul, lifting the soul whatever it takes to do that. Swami had given me something of much greater value than any object could ever be. He demonstrated to me what is truly valuable and what’s not. I am so grateful for this experience.
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Sai Kaleshwara meeting with Mataji and Nityanandaji immediately before taking yoga samadhi, May 18, 1998, Bangalore, India
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