moody menace vol. 2 the coadunation
coadunation noun
the union (as of dissimilar substances) in one body or mass
my friend group is starting to change suddenly the liberal gays are with the trumpican athletes it really grosses me out we used to make fun of them relentlessly we called them the straights and we were disgusted by everything they did they defended rapists and reposted andrew tate and wore that stupid fucking “women for trump” shirt but i have to admit that shirt made my day every time
but now he’s hanging out with them at lunch and at football games their parking spots are next to each other and it’s just so fucking weird i swore them all off my freshman year because i feel at this point you either support human rights or you don’t and i don’t want to associate myself with someone who is so blatantly misogynistic i just can’t imagine willingly hanging out with somebody who’s said women that accuse men of rape should go to prison if he is not convicted somebody who’s probably calling you slurs behind your back somebody who’s supported a fascist president this is a nightmare scenario for me i can’t even look at them in the hallway without having a strong wave of emotions and now they’re on my friends' snapchat stories? it just just doesn’t make sense.
i know it’s because they all smoke and that for some reason forms a bond and i'm sure this is from a place of insecurity because their "filler friends" are always quantity over quality but i know they think i’m lame because i dont and they call me a goody two shoes because i’m not slowly killing myself “i have enough health problems” i say i’m tempted sometimes but i really don’t want to i'd feel like too much of a little bitch i'd do it if it was on my own accord but because i’ve questioned it so many times if i started now it’d be because of peer pressure and i'm too cool for that
i know i’m gonna break eventually i know i am i don’t necessarily want to but i feel like im destined for the stoner life or alcoholism i don’t have self-control but i'll gonna try to hold myself back it’s so stupid that i have to be 21 to buy edibles i can serve in the military but can’t buy some gummy bears? it’s bullshit the military doesn’t want me anyway even if it wasn’t for the autism or dysautonomia or the pansexuality i just have a very hard time doing what people tell me to that’s really the extent of my teen rebellion
that and having a strong aversion to conservatives call me crazy call me a feminazi
i don’t give a shit
i don’t care if all my friends somehow merge into that group i will find new friends i will not tolerate bigotry
i will not tolerate prejudice i will not tolerate hatred
i will not tolerate the friends of bigots even if those friends were once my own because they are very aware of their beliefs and they find it acceptable enough to form a relationship with them and that, to me, is unforgivable
if that means i’m alone my senior year that’s okay i would rather have no friends than have friends who aren’t disgusted by that behavior i would rather be alone than be indifferent to my own oppression
moody menace
coadunation by lexibusss
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