moody menace vol. 1 fakefeminist
sometimes i feel like i’m a fake feminist whatever that means kathleen hanna says that feminism is a verb it’s not really an identity she’s said that she doesn’t try to convince people to call themselves feminists and as much as i look up to her i’m stuck with that gen z feminist mindset where if you don't call yourself a feminist you're against us but if you do call yourself a feminist and you don’t like another girl or you don’t get along with her or she really annoys you that must be a sign of internalized misogyny and that makes you a bad feminist that makes you a fake feminist
there’s this girl she kind of drives me crazy but my feelings about her change everyday and my words vary depending on what group chat i’m in in one, i’m professional in another, i complain about her to one of my friends, i talk shit about her to her, i act like we're cool it makes me feel like such a bitch i can’t believe i made fun of my roommates for doing the same things i’m doing
though to be fair they were flat-out vicious
“she looked like such a slut today” “there is not a lip on that face” *cue exaggerated impression of a valley girl accent* i sat in my dorm cringing flames practically coming out of my ears
“this bothers me because i’m a feminist” i say "feminists don't talk bad about other girls"
while i post on my private story all the cruel words about them that i could’ve kept to myself they were homophobic she called gay people loud and messy she compared using neopronouns to identifying as a dolphin she said bisexual people are only attracted to looks because pansexual people are attracted to “everything”
another said all pronouns are stupid everyone should go by they/them i can almost guarantee she never once thought of the dysphoria that would cause "she's not a real feminist" i thought "real feminists support any identities" but maybe she just doesn't understand maybe she just doesn't understand that it’s people like her who think they’re being so woke so progressive so revolutionary that are actually setting us back so many years they’re being homophobic transphobic biphobic and just kind of stupid
but does saying that make me a fake feminist? a bad feminist?
am i a bad feminist because i didn’t go out there and correct them?
am i a fake feminist because i talk shit about them?
am i a bad feminist because some girls i know really annoy me?
am i a fake feminist because i dog on that girl i go to school with when really she’s just determined?
one could call her a little TOO determined and for lack of a better term she’s a little power crazy but shouldn’t i applaud her for that?
i don’t want to but maybe i should maybe disliking a woman who's in power because of her determination makes me a fake feminist
it’s crazy to me how instead of focusing on the war against women the criminalization of uteruses the terrifying rise in rape culture and focusing on doing everything i can to lessen the effects of these I'm fixated on my interactions with a girl i barely know i’m focusing on a girl ive known less than two years and how my slight dislike for her makes my entire ideology fall apart it doesn't matter how many articles i write how many zines i make how many fundraisers i repost how many gender studies classes i take i don't like a girl i go to school with and that makes me a fake feminist