With Endings, Comes New By Lisa Van Groningen Beginnings
This story starts just over 20 years ago with a 24 year old girl from the California Central Valley finding her prince charming after a childhood of searching for love in everyone besides herself. For the greater part of two decades I found myself doing all the “right” things, in just the way I was “supposed” to or at least what I saw in the books, sermons, friend circles, retreats and well.... you get the idea.
my bff anxiety would try to take over, I would blame my childhood, and since I was the only broken one in this perfect show. It would be time to fix yet another part of me. So why did life always feel like something was not right no matter what I fixed in me? At times low-key not right and other times, majorly not right! Like on my knees snot sobbing, heart wrenching, gut agonizing, excruciating pain, confusion and chaos not right.
Strong capable husband...check Beautiful happy children...check
After many years of this emotional nonsense, during one summer, my body started giving out, my hips locked up making it hard to do anything mobile and even harder to think. Doctors ran so many tests and the odd thing was, the cause of this pain and dysfunction was undetectable. My diagnosis? Stress. This did not make sense. I had a perfect life.
Comfortable home...check Church, Friends, Adventure, etc. I mean seriously. In my playbook of life, SUCCESS!! I loved all of it so much! Interestingly though, my body and gut were screaming at me. Food was not my friend, but anxiety sure was, that girl wouldn’t leave me alone. My mind alone was running the show and running the “show” well. When Breathe Magazine
After much reaching for answers and grasping at straws, I was presented a reality 28
