Musical Director’s Message

“How do you continue to be so patient about these things?”

A chorister sent me this message after a particularly trying virtual session. They went on to say that issues like the one that took place in that particular meeting were uncalled for and “had it been them” they would… well, they wouldn’t be as passive as I was in the situation. I think my response was the equivalent of a shrug and “people will have feelings and they won’t always have a handle on those; as long as persons are respectful, the aim is for this to be a welcome space for all of us.”

While I think that answer correct, it may not be as sufficient. So to her question I dedicate my message this year, as well as to those who aren’t with us on the live stage.

It has been hard this year to not feel like Sisyphus. Mistrust, conspiracy theories, misinformation and discord are now landmines in the paths of previously innocuous conversations. Patience became the virtue most tested, and caution in ever decreasing supply. We have essentially been awake to a certain reality: we do not get the luxury of a world where the common good is universally accepted or agreed upon, and many believe our privileges and access are indisputable.

Photo Credit: Theon Graham

© Saul Ramlal for The Trinidad and Tobago Performing Arts Network

Being largely at home, separated and out of (physical and metaphorical) touch, there is a bleakness that can leak into our soul. Now, I do not think this is rare or new. I believe we are constantly faced with this dark underside to human nature and interaction. However, where before we had ready access to hope, we now are more likely to see the inverse. How many of us would have bad or heavy days at work or out and about, that got immediate relief just sharing space with a friend? How many could feel the immediate calm of a tight hug? To enjoy the release of a belly laugh, slapping your partner as you try to catch your breath, tears in the corner of your eye.

We miss connection and touch; we also miss the feeling of power over our circumstances.

Knowing this, I offer these simple reminders:

• if you are tired, rest where and when you can. • if you can help, do so enthusiastically. • if you can be a light in someone’s darkness, let your heart shine to banish loneliness …and when you feel short on patience, especially when righteous indignation is your helm and battle cry, do me a favour? Play your favourite song. Contemplate your favourite painting or even a new series of mixed media art. Take in a dance video or dance where you are to music you choose or only you can hear. Allow yourself to be beautifully human, and to appreciate what that creates. It is hard to change a mind, it is a matter of connection to change a heart. And if the only heart you change is your own, for that moment, accept it and refresh yourself.

Peace and Love I leave with you.

Bless,

Carl-Anthony December 2021