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samSoblos me qarTul fesvze amosuli patara rto var, kldeTa kalTidan avlenili iis surneli, gangebis nebam saukunod SenTan damtova da siyvaruli Semeyara ganukurneli... Seni vazi var saqarTvelov, Seni suro var, moxuci mwyemsis salamuris Cumi wuxili, RvTisgan nakurTxi sveticxovlis kiriTxuro var da mtrebis risxvad movlenili mexis quxili! me vefxis tyavze dawerili didi leqsi var, `nikalas tivze mtkvris niavis wamotireba~, me im aragvze davibade, sadac erCivnaT layuCaxeul kalmaxebis damorCileba... guli mTlianad Cavawure Sens siyvarulSi, Seni mTawmindis mTvaris Suqi fiqrebs miamebs, gelaTis taZris saZvalesTan da qarTlis gulSi didi daviTis da Tamaris droSa frialebs! Cemo mamulo, daamsxvrie mZime xundebi, goriscixeze natvris cecxli rom gavaCaRo... mjera, odesme kvlav erTmaneTs CavexutebiT, sulze utkbeso afxazeTo da samaCablov!..

sicocxles gavcvli... qarSi virwevi, rogorc lerwami da simwriT viTmen aTas natyviars, samSoblos varams rom moveswari _ guls mourCenel daRad atyvia. mamulo, SenTvis Tavi gadavde, eg Wrilobebi mtkiva Zalian, nikofsiidan darubandamde mindixar! _ es ra dasamalia... msurs daviurvo grigali avi, afra gavSalo, rogorc marao da zRvas Seveba patara navi _ soxumisaken rom miqanaobs!.. Tundac elodes ocnebas marcxi, sanam var qveynad, fiqri maqvs erTi: saqarTvelosTvis sicocxles gavcvli da Semeweva amaSi RmerTi!

natvra Senze vloculob, mSobelo miwav, Seni siwminde macocxlebs, manTebs, gnatrulob, gagrav, gnatrulob riwav, ikorTas welsac ver vanTeb sanTels!.. ise ar minda qveynidan gavqre _ ar vnaxo, javis mTebs rogor aTovs... ocneba qarSi auSvebs afrebs, rom erTxel mainc ewvios aTons. iqneb rogorme amixdes natvra _ moeRos bolo am yofas naTrevs; soxumis zecav, zRaprulo gagrav, me Tqveni vali sicocxliT mmarTebs!..

agvisto - 2008 samSoblosaTvis gmirulad daRupul gogita makraxiZis xsovnas

goriscixeze viT maxvili _ me var Sebmuli! daRupul gmirTa saukunod vinaxav xsovnas. agvistos xvatSi gaxveuli Cemi SerTulic ver gadaurCa mterTa risxvas da uxamsobas. tankebis gveli Semoertya ganwirul sofels, dawves, dafliTes, mainc idga, mainc ver sZlies... RmerTi da xati gauwyreba mis uarmyofels, Cems mSobel xalxSi mSiSarac ki ver moviZie! SerTulis miwas jojoxeTis ekida cecxli, almodebuli ca iqnevda gvelis maTraxebs, sisxlian liaxvs elvareba warstaces vercxlis _ ros velurebma samaCablo gaapartaxes!.. samSoblos xati rom esvena gulis ficarze _ gogam nabijic ar dauTmo mters TviTmarqvias, ver daetia ase didi, dedamiwaze, is saqarTvelos ukvdavebas naTlad adgia!..

samaCablos wvimis civi nemsiT davikemse yofa, TiTqos qveynad davrCi mwuxarebis mZevlad, es sicocxle, gulo, aba rad meyofa _ ikorTa da java Tvalze amecremla... morevia xavsi nazvrev-nasaxlarebs, saficaro miwav, uxseneblebs darCi! dauRamda mzera da mSobliur mxares Semoaklda siTbo _ Cvenze dasaxarji... gauRobavT qarTli pirsisxlian svavebs, mama-papaT saZvle abalaxda gaRma, roca rkinis Zelebs aqeT-aqeT svamen _ mikvirs, mglebis mada riTi veRar gaZRa! glexi kacis saxlis marnebsa da Wurebs, albaT, sevdis zvavma amouvso piri, monatrebas davZlev, fiqrebs daviurveb, jaWvis perangs virgeb, ki aRara vtiri... gangvirisxda zeca, veRarafers gSveli, dagvtrialebs Tavze CrdiloeTis Zera, tirifonis veli qarTvel gmirebs elis da saomar sivrces Zu vefxviviT vzverav!..

daclili xeobis patara liaxvs bevrjer udardelT agviwkeple wvrili kanWebi, axla riyeze amovardnil klaviSs magoneb, moparul kakliT Sens napirTan davinaWebiT, Sen gulmokluli samaCablos fiqrs miagoreb... Sulauridan, farazidan, TviT SerTulamde, netav sad gaqra bednieri Cveni sicili, SuaRamisas, roca Sens xmas mivayuradeb _ bedi qarTlisa suls mifatravs sevdis simZimiT! gavyureb soflebs iavarqmnils da vitanjebi, riT vanugeSo, riT vuwamlo mSobel mTagorebs, Cemo liaxvo, minda mwamdes, rom gadavrCebiT, Sen ki mosTqvam da samaCablos cremls miagoreb!..

fiqri soxumze afxazeTze dardi da usityvo glova... zRvas fiqrebad dasdis Toliebis Tova. sanapiro farTo, mzis sxivebi mwveli, mwuxarebiT maTrobs ca _ qarTuli feris. TeTri Rrublis zvavi, sios nazi TrTolva da niSani zavis _ Toliebis Tova...

Cemi leqsebi Cems samSoblos mainc darCeba... mtveri dafaravs daviwyebis irgvliv yvelafers, Cemi fiqrebis salocavTan CurCulebs qari... da siyvaruli, ocnebiT rom gavaferade _ ganadgurdeba daundoblad siberis brWyaliT! atirdebian qariSxlebi gaZarcvul velze, sadac yvaoda gazafxuli ferad farCebad... Cemi sicocxle warmavlobis demons Tu ver sZlevs _ Cemi leqsebi Cems samSoblos mainc darCeba!..

tao-klarjeTi taos miwas dagikocni mTeli Zveli sazRvrebiT, winaparTa naterfalebs waSlis kvali atyviaT, sinanuli momeZala gulSi ganusazRvreli, iveriis ZirZvel kuTxes mosavs Savi mantia... taov, xanZTav, sanukvaro, oSko cremliT naxulo, yvelas Tavze dagtrialebT wyeuli qaraSoti, mtris jinaze gulis kari arasodes daxuroT, gagvicocxle, saqarTvelov, daviTi da aSoti!..

me Senze vfiqrob... me Senze vfiqrob... ros wyaros piras amosuli nazi balaxi netarebiT daiwyebs sunTqvas. me Senze vfiqrob... ros qarebi dauberaven kuStad Sekrulni. me Senze vfiqrob... mTvarian RamiT, ros varskvlavebi wydebian wamiT... me Senze vfiqrob... ros mocaxcaxe ia sinaziT natrobs mzis xilvas. me Senze vfiqrob... roca foTlebiT moifineba irgvliv quCebi. me Senze vfiqrob... ros Senze natvriT acimcimdeba Tvalebze cremli. me Senze vfiqrob... ros zamTris susxi SeWirxlavs minebs, me Senze vfiqrob... Senze ocnebas Zveleburad vagrZeleb isev. me Senze fiqriT vaRameb dilas da Senze fiqrSi vaTeneb Rames da SenTan gulsac uCumrad vatan abrialebul, cecxlovan mTvares...

Seni Tvalebi Sens cisfer TvalebSi Cemo, zRva gadmoxatula mTeli, me SenTan cxovrebas vrCeob, moTmeniT mxolod Sen geli... zamTari Zalaobs urCi, ra dalevs ocnebebs ulevs, gazafxuls uWiravs funji da mwvane ferebSi urevs. sonetebs mogiZRvni dResac, (Cems leqsebs rarigad Sveni!) gveZaxis uRrublo zeca _ Sexvedris adgili Cveni...

netavi, romel varskvlavze saxlob... fiqris varskvlaviT Rame gamavsebs, qars moswyenia tirifis rweva, mTvares ki sevdis did Tass vamsgavseb da RamieTis sxeulze vwevar... dRes ocnebebTan lxins gavaCaReb, bebero Ramev, kvlav rogor axlob! gaumxeleli dardi mawvalebs _ netavi, romel varskvlavze saxlob?..

Seni wyalobiT locviT daRlili mzis embazSi ganvibanebi, da Cems ocnebebs mogabareb, rogorc saganZurs, o, mag TvalebSi molivlive mwvane yanebi axal sicocxles ubruneben fiqrebs daxanZruls... rogorc kandeli, ciur naTliT sulSi minTixar, eg sispetake saukunod guls exsomeba, sagaloblebad mefineba Seni mSvidi xma, Seni wyalobiT bavSvad SevrCi sastik cxovrebas!..

Cems suls taZarSi daginTeb sanTlad... CemTvis arsebob, Tu ar arsebob _ o, sul erTia, miyvarxar mainc... Tund modi CemTan, Tundac nu moxval, rogorc genebos, me moval mainc... cxadSi arasdros rom arc mixilo, netar sizmrebSi mewvevi mainc. me ukanasknel amosunTqvamde guliT gatareb _ ocnebis rainds! Cems suls taZarSi daginTeb sanTlad da meyvarebi uCumrad mainc...

rogorc Tolia... me var mzis sxivze moqanave TeTri Tolia _ Seni ocnebis horizontze rom dafarfatebs, xaverdovani zRvis napiri lurji molia, Senze fiqrebma Cemi sulic aalaJvardes!.. amayvavile da uecrad gamapoete, am siyvarulma sivrceebSi gamiyolia... rwmenis namcecebs vakowiweb, ise mogende, Seni erTguli _ frTafarfata TeTri Tolia.

uecrad modis... Rameebs aTevs monatreba Sens fanjarasTan, gazafxuli ki awkrialebs aprilis zarebs, ise damSvenda Cemi qarTli, ise ganazda... vgrZnob, siyvaruli Semomimtvrevs sacaa karebs! cidan kiskisiT Camoirbens wvima farTxuna, me TmebgaSlili vegebebi laRi mindobiT, yayaCoebiT qarma ise wiTlad daTxupna _ veRar vicani siyvarulis mwvane mindori... isev daaTrobs Cems ocnebas Seni zmaneba, vici, rom bolo moeReba usazRvro lodins... rom gulis kari aRarasdros daigmaneba _ ...rom siyvaruli gazafxulze uecrad modis!..

bilikebze gazafxuli waqceula... bilikebze gazafxuli waqceula, dahbnevia iebi da enZelebi, siWabuke ra uecrad gaqceula, dasakargad fiqrSiac ki meZnelebi... me, aprilis Sariani nasesxebi Semiciebs bilikebze ia-iebs, Senze fiqrs da Senze natvras ar vexsnebi da uSenod mivdev dReebs ria-riebs... male, albaT, Semodgoma Tavis farCebs qarTlis mTa-bars qarvisferad gadauSlis, Cems siyvaruls erTaderTs da Senze naCvevs _ daviwyebis civ Rameebs ar gavucvli... gixseneb da kvlav imedi mesaxeba, xar am gulis ocneba da ganZeuli... da Sens mosvlas elodeba Sesaxvedrad _ bilikebze gazafxuli waqceuli!

iseTi gulTbili Ramea... iseTi gulTbili Ramea, fifqebic imgvarad cviva, rom guli uecrad dagwydeba, raRaca saocrad gtkiva... iseTi lamazi Ramea, galoba moismis cidan... Tvals cremli uecrad mowydeba _ raRaca inatro, ginda. TiTqosda bavSvobis siyvaruls moeli Soreul gzidan, sul cota alersi gWirdeba, sul mcire, sul erTi cida! iseTi saamo Ramea, iseTi nazi da wminda... da mainc, raRaca gaklia, da mainc, raRaca ginda...

sanam... sio hkocnis enZelebs, gulSi sevdam imata, minda, isev geZebde, dRemac gamoimarta... tyis bilikebs davivli, uSenoba madardebs, mogitane yvavili, nu daxurav darabebs. wamo, isev vicinoT enZelebis siciliT, SaragziT davifrinoT mokrZalebac, sircxvilic!.. sanam guli damidna, sanam cremlma imata, siyvarulis amindma sanam gamoimarta...

molodini uSenoba _ Tvalze cremlis mZivi, Semodgomis xeivnebi farTo, me vusmendi Toliebis wivils, mivyvebodi daclil napirs martod... elvarebda zRva laJvardze sufTa, mexleboda xetialiT daRlils, suli isev monatrebiT swuxda, magram rogor mogawvdendi Zaxils... da mzis sxivi qanaobda wyalze, irweoda qarze talRis kalTa, guli mqonda sispetakiT savse, mxolod Seni siaxlove aklda!.. 24

dReni gaCenis roca simarTles golgoTa elis da sinamdvile sikeTes xanjlavs, satanjvelia qveyana mTeli, kvarcxlbekze vxedav avsa da ajams... roca cxovreba xdeba sulerTi, radganac eSmam siyvaruls umtro. vinac viwame viTarca RmerTi _ odes micqeris avad da undod... amqveynad ukve arafers veli da isev marto vxvdebi alions, unda rogorme sicocxlis dReni Senze locviT da fiqriT gavlio...

gancda... sevdis gvirgvini momtaca qarma. Sors gaitaca usier tyeSi, tanze memosa ocnebis kaba da cisartyela meWira xelSi... biliks mivdevdi Cumi RiRiniT da varskvlavebze ufro cimcima _ TvalebSi menTo Seni Rimili, gulma eg saxe ver moicila... viRac gvlocavda TiTqos maRlidan, yirmizisferi tyeebi TrTodnen... da qarborbala tanze mayrida gamotirebul noembris foTlebs. 26

es gza es gza Senamde ise Soria, xandaxan kidec ase mgonia, rom monatreba sevdis bralia, drom yvelaferi moinania... es gza Senamde ise axloa, minda, movide, mogeaxlo da gagagebino, rad tiris qari _ es, martoobiTYSeSlili qali! es gza Senamde _ ise Soria... ise axloa... _ ase mgonia...

nostalgia Zvel sizmrebidan idumali Cveneba modis, uSeno dReebs gaocebiT rom uTvalTvalebs. bolo ar uCans martoobas, amao lodins, mwife yanaSi qari varcxnis savse TavTavebs. minda, mogZebno, dagikocno Rawvebi mkrTali, me Sens magivrad mefereba qari ronina. rogor mominda, mkerdze frTxilad dagado Tavi da Seni guli Cumi cremliT gamaTbobina...

Tovli movida!.. var uxilavi isriT daWrili, o, martooden Seni bralia, rom qveynad daval, rogorc aCrdili, rom menatrebi ase Zalian... gadabardnila es aremare, isev iTovos, dae, amaRam, gamovaRviZeb warsuls mTvlemares da martoobis wlebs gadavlaxav... viRac meZaxis TiTqos Soridan, Sensken mixmoben zamTris qarebi, Tovli movida, Tovli movida! da siyvarulis reken zarebi... dgas karnavali jadosnur ferTa, mReren fifqebi uxmo bgerebiT, sizmris sinaziT me moval SenTan da usasrulod mogeferebi!..

es vardobisTve... qarma dafxriwa gazafxulis Wrel-Wrula kaba, tyemlis yvavilTa guda uceb zurgze moigdo, es vardobisTvec, albaT, ise uCumrad wava, rogorc midis da (ise martod), rogorc modis dro... mze zenitSia da Crdilebi sadRac gacocdnen, mxolod bilikis Suawelze agdia Crdili, es gazafxuli aRtyinebiT gulze makocebs _ da Sens saZebrad usasrulod vivli da vivli!.. netav, uSenod rogor unda Sevxvde zafxulebs, Takara sicxe damblasaviT daeca miwas, mze eWvebisgan daosda da Tvals afaxulebs, axla martoden ocnebebi mifaravs, micavs... saiT midian es fiqrebi umisamarTod, eh, monatrebis tkivilisgan qaric atirda... me migamgvane miuwvdomel, Soreul mnaTobs _ da brwyinav, rogorc siyvarulis kariatida!..

vedreba mogonebebi... da RameTa kvlav TeTrad Teva, vgrZnob, martooba Cems wamebas isev apirebs! davrCi, viTarca samoTxidan devnili eva, da sevdis talRa sadRac SoriT gaminapirebs... ...me ki uCumrad vevedrebi mowyale ufals: ocnebis cidan ganmifantos Rrubelic momcro, sveti naTlisa Cems Saragzas daadges Suqad _ rom sanatreli naterfali imediT vkocno!..

savse dumili... mze miefara mTis mwvervalebs, Suqi gakrifa, savse mnaTobi Serevia Rrublis nafleTebs,’ qari qurdiviT gaiZurwa Cemi fanjridan ...da SeRameba mouqargavT cicinaTelebs... Cems dumils cremlma CamoafSvna Senze fiqrebi, roca SenTan var, miuwvdomels mivwvdebi mwvervals, da gaxednili suliT mudam Sens gzebs mivyvebi _ qaraSotebSi gamovlili babuawvera. ...warsulis xsovnis idumali sarkofagidan auxdeneli ocnebis da survilTa miRma, iqve, Wadrebis mTenTav rulSi gamomTvrali da SeniT gamTbari, SeniT savse dumili idga!..

martooba bneli sawuTro isev mruSobs da Sens Tavs marTmevs, sulis cremlebi rom davfaro, avikrav niRabs! apriliseul ocnebebis RrublebSi naTevs, gamaxsendeba is dReebi, ros CemTan iyav... Sens molodinSi manadgurebs grigali urCi, am siyvarulma moZaxili ver dagawia... viT gandegili ganvmartovdi gulis qvabulSi, _ rom aRar mtanjos wuTisoflis gawamawiam!..

zamTrispiria... usaxur dReTa mdinarebas morCilad viTmen, civ RameebSi Wotic rogor sazarlad kivis... da miusafar bavSvebiviT moseul riTmebs TandaTan vumxel saukunod dagrovil tkivils! zamTrispiria... yirmizisfer foTolTa cvena, noembris velebs gazafxulis gascliaT feri, gauCinardi... veRarasdros mogwvdeba mzera da Cemi guli ukanasknel simReras mReris...

soneti gamouTqmeli sinanuliT da gancvifrebiT vumzer, sawuTro unugeSod rogor Ramdeba... hqreba imedi, rom odesme erTad viqnebiT, es siyvarulic Tan damyveba, rogorc braldeba! ra saocari kaeSani damepatrona, viT mindvris yvavils, memuqreba cxeli agvisto, ver aisrula Cemma gulma, rasac natrobda, sulis ufskruli mwuxarebam cremliT amivso! Cems myudro binas Seni siTbo Semoelia, mowyeniT sxedan aivanze mercxlis gundebi, magram Tvalebi Cumi natvriT mainc gelian, TiTqos sjerodeT, rom odesme damibrundebi...

... mierekeba udrtvinvelad dro Tavis raSebs, sikvdili mijobs _ Senze fiqri ocnebad damrCes!..

noemberi simartove Semomxvda, moagavda lands sulis, qveynad uSenod yofna bedia _ dasasrulis!.. cam kiviliT dawewa motortmane tirifi, ubinao qariviT mogdev tiril-tiriliT... ugzo-ukvlod xetials ar daadga saSveli! gadefara noembers Tovli, miwis saSleli... 36

Cveni dReebi yvavilTa fifqebs momaTovs qari, aprili baRSi alublebs pentavs, da martoobiT daRlili qali, am gazafxulsac Sevxvdebi kentad... mexma igrgvina ocnebis cidan, fiqris zvavebma xevSi ixuvles, ver vpove siTbo _ sul erTi cida, da gulis kari mWidrod mivxure. uazro wlebi sadRac midian, CemTvis ciskari veRar aenTo, tirifis totze oblad hkidia _ Cveni dReebi uerTmaneTo...

damemSvidobnen gazafxulebi!.. dadumebulan Cveni gulebi, suli daRlila Cumi godebiT... damemSvidobnen gazafxulebi, aRar dameZeb, arc gagondebi... gadian wlebi tanjva-wvalebiT, TiTqos amqveynad aRarc gegulvi! atirebulan Cemi Tvalebi _ Senze ocnebiT daRamebuli...

siSore jvarcmulis xvedri Tu meloda, risTvis viSobe? dabadebamde, albaT, qveynad viRac mwyevlida! dRes, Sens magier, ferwasuli mimzers siSore _ alublis kdemiT gadmosuli Cemi cremlidan...

dasrulebula... me martoobis dReebs mivdev, dReebs naRvlians da bedisweris gawnul silis kvali matyvia... suls mwuxareba Semoevlo, rogorc mantia, sasomixdili sevdiT vxvdebi yovel ganTiads. mzis sakocnelad aRar iltvis imedis kvirti, dasrulebula unazesi maT Soris flirti... usaSveloba warsulis jaWvs uRonod lokavs da sadacaa daiwyeba sikvdilis rokva!..

kameliebi... SenTvis mindoda Cemi leqsi, siTbo qaluri, me giambobdi CaZinebul Citebis sizmrebs... Jamma marguna guldawyveta da sinanuli, fexdasxltomili siyvaruli umweod mimzers. gafrenil warsuls saukunod TiTqos mivebi, axla raRa var? martoobis erTguli mona! Sen rom odesRac momiZRveni kameliebi _ dResac awyvia Cems larnakSi daumWknar konad!..

maxsovs, odesRac... wvimis xmauriT Semoxvedi Cems arsebaSi, maxsovs, odesRac rom miZRvnidi aprilis rtoebs! mitovebuli avtirdebi, ise, viT bavSvi _ romelic uxmobs xelgawvdili, sanukvar droebs... mogonebebiT Cemi suli cremliT ivseba, var mindobili qariSxlebis Tavneba qrolvebs, Sena xar Cemi yvela dardi, yvela Rirseba, da amitomac Senze fiqri arasdros mtovebs!..

Ramis yvavilebi Cems sasTumalTan SuaRamiT modis Cveneba uTqmeli sevdiT damwuxrebuli... da myudro oTaxs efineba zRaprul ferebad daRlili mTvaris sxivTa krebuli. jadosnuria Rameuli es silamaze, sizmar-cxadia? (gulSi gavivleb). viRacis xeli idumali, sarkmlis rafaze uCumrad awyobs mindvris yvavilebs... am saocrebas uflis garda veravin amCnevs, maRliT damyurebs zeca livliva... da samadlobels vugzavni gamCens _ yvavilTa saxiT Seni suli rom momivlina!..

napirebi Rameul bindSi meZaxis qari, dasetyvil sulSic qarebi qrian... da me odesRac ocnebiT mTvrali vTeTrdebi, dros ki Tavisi miaqvs... Jamma muxTalma uwyalod mgvema, gaminapira, Sengan gamriya, gauCinardi sicocxlis tkenav, ramdeni gZebne, netav, sad iyav? marto var isev, o, rogor miWirs, vuZleb cxovrebas avad Tu kargad, es aRsareba ra Zvirad miRirs... da vgrZnob, TandaTan Tu rogor gkargav. Rame Camdgara axla Cvens Soris, qari dacxromas aRar apirebs, me mainc moval pirveli ndomiT da SevaerTeb obol napirebs!..

qarTlisadmi qarTlis taZrebTan gazafxulis macne mivida, simwvaneebis sixasxase moedo kordebs. sadac wavedi, Senze fiqri amiRimilda... da mindor-mindor mzisguleba gvirila momdevs... ufliscixesTan dagdgomia kdemis naTeli, yayaCoebis vel-mindvrebze SemofeTeba, atenis sions danTebuli Senze sanTlebi gorijvris kalTebs uflis sxivad SemoenTeba... vsunTqav liaxviT, goriscixiT _ marTlis mTqmelebiT, ras Sevadaro mtkvris livlivi, romel dinebas... o, Cems ZarRvebSi qarTlis mTebis, qarTlis velebis dauSreteli siyvaruli moedineba!

SerTulis Rame mosarkul caze zenaari varskvlavebs xatavs, ardaberebis naTels afens kopwia sofels, liaxvis xmebi mSobliuri, gulamde atans, suli eZleva idilias, ocnebis momgvrels... gavyureb sivrces, male leqsad amoduRdeba rasac ganvicdi am zRapruli Ramis yurebiT, SerTulis miwas usayvarless, rogor uxdeba aq Cavlil qristes uwmindesi nafexurebi!..

`ciyvebi~ (sofel SerTulis salxino adgili) sufra gavSaleT mwvane balaxze, CamovarigeT Rvino doqebiT, da Rame ise gavalamazeT _ yaraCoxlebsac SevetoqebiT!.. savse yanwebi gadirevian aladasturis JiniT mTvralebi... da varskvlavebic Tavs dagvcqerian, rogorc bebiis Tbili Tvalebi. ra enam aqos es silamaze, mTvarec dagvxaris RamismTeveli, rogorc nikalas zRaprul naxatze _ mwvadi SiSxinebs viT sakmeveli... Cven vadRegrZelebT SerTuls da liaxvs, RviniT ivseba jami beberi, `Cakrulos~ guguns zecaSi miaqvs qarTuli miwis sadidebeli! Zvel simRerebiT daRlil fandurebs bevrjer SevunTeT hangi giJmaJi da mamapapur lxinSi garTulebs wamogvepara qarTlis riJraJi. dilam bneli da Suqi gahyara, Woti umweod kivis riyeSi, vercki gavigeT mTvaris gaparva, ise Cagvadna Rame `ciyvebSi~!..

SerTuls miyvars Seni liaxvi titlikana bavSvebiT, mSobliuri niavi bevri fiqris amSleli... miyvars SaSvis farTxali, foTlebSi rom WaxWaxebs, bade kalmaxiani _ da kocons gavaCaRebT! miyvars Seni yanebi yayaCoebnarevi, Seni orRobeebi erboqilas TvalebiT. miyvars soflis naxiri, riyeebis ubani, alublebis Zaxili lalisferi nugbariT. soflis meqorwineTa ZvelqarTuli mayruli, eklesiis ezoSi mTvaris Suqi zRapruli! miyvars TeTri xididan SesarTavis yureba, aq, patara liaxvi dids rom eCurCuleba... yanebis nawveralSi davdev cicinaTelebs, Senze leqsis weraSi Rameebs gavaTeneb!..

olia bragvaZes wlebi daaTovs nagubar sevdas, rarig uxdeba mag Tmebsac Tova... adamianad moaqcev mtersac _ vinc ki Senamde rogorme mova! sikeTis nacvlad arafers iTxov, etrfi samSoblos Zvirfas saxelebs, Seni gulidan daZruli siTbo CemsaviT albaT bevrs gaaxelebs!.. TavdadebisTvis marad iswrafvi, vali qveynisa guliT gigrZvnia, qarTul Teatris raindisaTvis sicocxle msxverplad rom migiZRvnia... Sen uangarod sikeTes xarjav, dardob TviT wvimis wveTebis tkivils... ...rom ori muzis msaxuri xar da Seni samSoblo yvelafrad giRirs!

nodar mdinariZes swuxs, imedisgan suli daclili, litoni sityva ras gagaxarebs, adgilis deda mwared dastiris samaCabloSi navenaxarebs... viT Sevardeni, risxviT gahyureb mtrisgan aklebul qarTlis sanaxebs... miwa tanjuli rom ar gaxundes vaJkacur leqsiT daabalaxeb! goriscixis da gorijvris kalTebs gsurs moacilo dardis nislebi, Sens guls _ samSoblos vali rom marTebs, leqsad dacli da isev ivsebi! raindis sityva vinc dagiwesa _ Tavs muzaradic unda dagxuros, ar daJangdebi mdinariZesTan, xmalo, saomrad gadanaxulo!..

Cems Svils - leqsos mzis sxivebad davdnebi dedamiwis garSemo da siyvaruls uzomos daerqmeva saxeli, mxolod Senze vocnebob, mxolod SeniT varsebob, mudam SenTvis minTia gulSi wminda sanTeli. CemTvis ise tkbili xar, rogorc hangi ZirZveli! Cemi guli dneba da... isev SeniT ivseba, gulze rom migikari, pirvlad maSin vigrZeni, rom yvelaze wmindaa dedobrivi Rirseba... am RvTaebriv siyvaruls minda, sul win mihyavde, Cemo erTaderTo da Cemo wminda sanTelo, Seni miwa, Seni ca, Tavze metad giyvardes, dagxarodes maradis mSobeli saqarTvelo!

Sen, siyvarulis usasrulobav!.. SviliSvils

Sen Cem sicocxles mateb sixaruls, ciur angelozs gigavs Tvalebi, suli moiltvis, rom Segiyvaros _ mag siwmindesTan naziarebi... Sena xar Cemi momavlis Suqi, Cemi dReis da xvalis dideba, me saukunes vicocxleb, Tuki Seni alersi ar momwyindeba!.. mxolod Sena xar, vinc ki mamTelebs, Sena xar Cemi azri mTavari, hgavxar samoTxis cicinaTelebs _ zRapris axdena _ Cemi Tamari!..

Cems megobrebs `ar gamibrazde, RmerTo, amxela TxovnisTvis kalmis Tamam mosmaze: rac me damrCa, im wlebis naxevars xom ver miscemdi Tamar lomsaZes?~ jemal injia

axla, sulSi imedis qariSxlebi dahqrian, bedi, rogorc rvafexa, veRar momdebs sacecebs! netavi am siyvaruls macodina ra hqvia, leqsic sixarulisa Tqvengan movinamcece... ciskris amonaTebam gamibrwyina Tvalebi, aRar memuqrebian avi qaraSotebi, Cans sicocxlis bilikze Tqveni naterfalebi, niSnad erTgulebisa _ arasdros dagSordebiT! meored dabadeba minda yvelas gaxaroT... Tqvenma siTbom dasZlia Zveli yofa verani, aba, ase mdidarma, rogor davTmo samyaro _ roca dedamiwaze megulebiT yvelani!..

Cemi dis - veras xsovnas ...axla uSenod daiwyeba welTa aRricxva, es meramdened sevdianma zarma Camohkra, am wuTisoflis gzebze daRlils zeca gamiwyra da Cemi suli mgloviare, Sens suls gamohyva... damwuxrebula ezo-karic, rarig dardoben! soflis velebze susxiani qarebi hqrian. dao, rogorme gauZeli mag simartoves, isev SevxvdebiT uflis nebiT, adre Tu gvian...

monatreba lali mebaduris xsovnas

Se sifrifana, TaflisTvala, TeTro gogona, rac migvatove, martooba dadga namdvili... da usaSvelo, saukuno sicarielem wlebi waSala, menatrebi TeTri mandiliT... erTmaneTs vxvdebiT megobrebi, xSirad gixsenebT, xan sevda gvipyrobs, vmxiarulobT kidec xandaxan... da Tu zeciur saufloSi leqss aRmerTeben _ tyuilad geZeb, uciloblad vici, manda xar!..

risTvis... risTvis movedi qveyanaze? yvelafrisaTvis... rad movevline am samyaros? arafrisaTvis! mware kiTxvebi suls daaCnda naiarevad... or poluss Soris moqceuli Cemi cxovreba, rogorc aCrdili _ fexakrefiT daiareba.

roca iqneba!.. ...bediswera ki dRe da Rame koWis ZafiviT atrialebs sicocxles Cemsas. ama cxovrebis manqanaze Cems yofas keravs _ da ar iRleba... roca iqneba _ koWze Zafi gamoileva...

ori asuli fanjridan mimzers ori asuli, ori Relva da ori warsuli... sulgawewili dardi avsuli, maTi tkivili camde asuli!.. ori Relva da ori warsuli, fanjridan mimzers ori asuli... 58

kalTa mfarveli... elva aiWra caSi svetebad, Rrublis nafleTebs qari fantavda, wvima sdioda Rrubels cremlebad, mware sinanuls wveTebs atanda... qari anCxlobda, ise kioda, rom irweodnen saxlis svetebi, TiTqos meZaxdnen saiqiodan _ landebi elviT danafeTebi!.. wvima mosTqvamda guldawyvetili, mware sinanuls qari fantavda, xatis win videq muxlmodrekili da uflis siTbo gulSi atanda...

sakuTar Tavs barbaceben qarebi tyidan amooxvrilni... saiT miveqanebi welSi ase moxrili... sadmes gaviriyebi, rom cremlebi davmalo... golgoTamde mimyevi _ sulo, CorTiT mavalo!..

sanamde vcocxlob... Cemi leqsebi ToToebi, jerac uTqmelni, Cemi ocnebis piramidebs SeeSendeba, muzebs Tu zogjer vaxelebdi, zogjer vuTmendi, msurda striqonebs dahyoloda sityvis mSveneba! minda, maradJams vyvavilobde, viT gazafxuli, cisfer muzasTan dedofloba raxan meRirsa, _ sanamde vcocxlob, sul viqnebi sityvis msaxuri, RmerTo, arasdros ar momaklo JrJola leqsisa!..

ganwyoba kvlav Camoreka leqsma zarebi, gulic Setokda _ ocnebis bude... midis cxovreba... xan ganazebiT, xan veli sikvdils, sastiks da mrudes. Senabindari cis Zaxili var, SemoyuJuli sulmosaTqmelSi, Cemi striqoni xan maxvilia _ mtris Sesamusrad guldanageSi! aRsarebisTvis taZramde vivli, (Tu ram gamaCnda qveynad codvebi), zecas gavandob Cems gulistkivils da RvTis ganaCens davelodebi!.. 62

sazRvari me var sazRvari... Tanac mcocavi, ganvlilsa da darCenils Soris, sadac dRiTidRe is darCenili _ pataravdeba... me var sazRvari... sikvdilsa da sicocxles Soris, raTa sikvdili gadavarwmuno _ male movides... me var sazRvari... simaRlesa da dacemas Soris, rom dacemulma wamoviwio, maRlobs Sevudge (metwilad marto, an TqvenTan erTad).

me var sazRvari... siyvarulsa da sicocxles Soris, rom erTnairad gavuZlo maT, _ Tan Suqi vaqro... me var sazRvari... cas da zRvas Soris, sinaTlesa da sibneles Soris! roca sazRvari gadameqceva usazRvroebad, avdgebi, CemSi Suqebs Cavaqrob da Severevi maradisobas!..

sikvdilis Semdeg... sikvdilis Semdeg, sulo Cemo, rom waxval caSi, me Tan gagatan dauwerel leqsis striqonebs da RmerTebamde amaRlebul umwikvlo gancdas... rom uxilavma mowyalebiT ifiqros masze, vinc aq darCenil did siyvaruls gvirgvinad adgas!..

maradiulis karibWesTan Cemi fiqrebis Releebi Sens mindors altobs, Sors, laJvardebSi miscuraven Rrublis tivebi, ase mgonia, kvlav mewvevi senakSi martos, sicocxlis xeze raRac droiT isev mivebi... da moWriWine Rameebis silacicidan gadareuli aCrdilebi erTmaneTs Wamen, sevdanarevi bindebidan dila micrida _ gorijvris mTebze amoxeTqil daburul Walebs... TiTqos velebis gadaqargva wilad argunes _ agvirilebul gzebiT midis qarTlSi zafxuli. Tuki sikeTe codvis yanebs gaanadgurebs, mwams, ar viqnebi arc mSiSara, arc dazafruli... roca warvadgen am cxovrebis Wrel-Wrula ruqebs, ara mgonia, vinme sxvisi imedi mqondes, _ da Cemi qveynis siyvaruli Semimsubuqebs maradiulis karibWesTan awonil codvebs!..

bavSvobis monatreba fiqrs askinkilas veRar vakaveb, caSi mze Rrublis qafSi banaobs da rogorc maSin, saTonis kavze, xis saqanela isev qanaobs. avyvebi biliks am Saragzidan da WriWinebis momdevs WriWini, Cveni tyis panta ise gazrdila, raRas eyofa wyali WinWiliT! ficris wisqvilTan keTili papa, isev gvirigebs naZvis xis kevebs da fefe babos Wrel-Wrula kata beberi kaklis CrdilSi isvenebs. baRis kuTxeSi TeTr iasamans mosZalebia fiqri ramdeni... bebiaCemi mkbenara mamals Robis gadaRma cocxiT gadenis! dro iferfleba... rCeba nacari, Cemi bavSvobac ise wavida _ damSvidobebac ver movaswari da mogonebebs viwyeb Tavidan...

sizmriseuli... mezoblis gogo gaparula Turme wuxelis. Tan gahyolia iasamnis nazi surneli... gulsatkenia wuxandeli sizmris axdena, da silamazis sxva ubanSi gadasaxleba...

ise Zalaobs marti!.. rogor Zalaobs marti, gulebs uxeTqavs kvirtebs, tuCgapobili, mardi, mwvane mantias irgebs. sulSi SemoWril qarebs ubrwyinavT Tvalze cremli, zogjer imediT mavsebs, xan ki uRmerTod mdevnis! me Cems siyvaruls vandob, am naz yvavilebs natvriT, vici, damamCnevs ambors, ise Zalaobs marti...

modi... winwkal-winwkal, wvima-wvima Sens nabijebs viTvli, bilik-bilik, mival-mival ocnebiT da fiqriT. rodis-rodis Semoivlis sixarulis rTvelSi, yviTelfoTolSemosili Semodgoma CvenSi. male wava qudmoglejiT, dRes rom CvenTan rCeobs, modi Cqara, sul mogeli, sanatrelo Cemo!.. siyvarulis klde-lodebi fiqrma SemoTova. modi, vidre gelodebiT me da Semodgoma.

Sen miyvardebi... ise Znelia monatreba, ocneba Senze, me ucabedad gavifiqre, rom Semrisxavdi... ra usaSvelod matyveveben Seni Tvalebi! vercki vigrZeni, uneblied rom Semiyvardi... ra gzas davadge... ver avuSvi xomaldze afra, mowyenil zecas daswolian avdris nislebi. aRarc ki vici, ra vifiqro, an ra viRono, mgonia xolme, rom ver gxedav _ gardavicvlebi... TiTqos damdgara gansacdeli sabediswero, umzeo dReebs gavayole cremli ramdeni... o, rogor vcdilob, rom TandaTan gadagiviwyo, magram piriqiT: ufro nazad Sen miyvardebi!..

xan mocinare... adidebula monatrebis Smagi mdinare, qarebi sduman da dauwydaT Zafi moTmenis... Sena xar vardSi dilis nami xan mocinare, xan ki sevdian RameebSi Cqami foTlebis...

varskvlavebSi ocnebebSi gadagkargav, mogiyvebi miTebs, gvirilebiT mogiqargav usayvarles TiTebs. qaris raSiT aval mTaze, agiSeneb imeds, varskvlavebis Saragzaze gaseirneb imdens... suls amivsebs enZelebiT Seni mzera Tbili, mere erTad gavuyvebiT siyvarulis biliks...

Seni naxva mominda mTvare Tavs imZinarebs, TiTqos gagviorpirda, me da quCis Cinarebs Seni naxva mogvinda. geficebi, gzas vikvlev varskvlavebis TvalebiT, sio sarkmels gamiRebs ise Segefarebi. Semodgoma movida nair-nair ferebiT, Seni naxva mominda, moval, mogeferebi... 74

mwvervalebze es ucnauri siyvaruli SenTvis naferi, Tvalmiuwvdenel mwvervalebze maRla avida. me aRar minda, rom ocnebis TeTri afrebi avi yiJiniT SeaSfoTon im mTis gaRmidan... viRac momixmobs sivrceebSi, viRac xels miwvdis, suls aRar ZaluZs simaRlidan dabla daSveba... es siyvaruli netav male Sens mwvervals miswvdes, _ ToTo xelebiT aTamaSon Cvenma bavSvebma!

me SenTan moval... me avtirdebi, Sen atirdebi, Cven avtirdebiT wamiT. me SenTan moval, viT gazafxulis velze mbrwyinavi nami... Cven uspetakes yvavilebiviT surnels davafrqvevT ulevs... da RrublebiviT SevaduRabebT elvad anTebul gulebs.

rekviemi rogor giyvardi didi xnis winaT, drom mouRera im dReebs celi... fanjris rafaze wkapunobs wvima, dardis udabnos asvelebs cremli. me Sensken viwvdi uRono xelebs _ noembris sevda rom dahfeniaT, SoriT gafrenil warsuli mere ocnebis meti ra damrCenia... o, erTaderTo Cemo nugeSo, viqnebi Seni zRapris feria, araferia _ yofna uSenod, SenTan sicocxle _ yvelaferia!

ase rom mevlo... Sebindebisas me is davlande, misdevda Saras fiqrSi wasuli, TiTqos ar hqonda mis farul sevdas arc dasawyisi, arc dasasruli... martoden mzeriT gavyevi ukan, ra iqneboda, gverdiT vxlebodi! ase rom mevlo mTeli sicocxle _ albaT, arasdros daviRlebodi...

polusebi telefonis yurmili... da siSore didi... mere didxans dumili... mogonebebs vSlidiT. guli ramis gaCerda, Seni xmaa mSvidi, axla sasomixdilni ganvlil dReebs vTvlidiT... Rame ise mSvidia, cas rom vuTvalTvaleb, cali TvaliT hkidia mileuli mTvare. telefonis yurmili... zamTrispiri, bindi... Cven sxvadasxva polusze mogonebebs vTvlidiT.

vidre damSrala... oqtombris mzera mindvrad mwvane ferebs gakortnis da Seagrovebs mTis kalTebze Seseul nislebs, cremlis Tavsxmidan gamovaswro, Zala ar myofnis, Tavs damtrialebs Semodgomis Rrubeli mqise. Cems bedisweris wyaldidobas Sevebi _ urCi! CiTis kabaSi unda gavyve soflis gza-Saras, isev viwamo sicocxle da laJvardi lurji, adidebuli nakaduli vidre damSrala!..

Semodgomis simRera CaaSrialebs qari verxvebs nacnob hangiviT,’ oqtombris baRSi gaaCaRebs foTlebis xanZars da siyvaruliT dasetyvili, dardiT amdeniT mtvergadavlili nabijis xma Cemamde atans... Cveni orRobis Worikana qarebma vnebiT xmeli foTlebi Saragzaze ariv-daries, Semomisies sevdiani mogonebebi, TviTon ki isev udardelad mReren ariebs.

uCinardebi... uCinardebi Cemi yofidan, bolo akordze daxri wamwamebs, es ganSorebis wami yofila _ me saukunod rom gamawamebs!.. da ganwiruli trfobis xididan gamogayoleb umweo Tvalebs, Ramis loyaze cremlad hkidia sevdiani da mwuxare mTvare...

zamTris preludia am Semodgomam vel-mindvrebi ariv-daria, alvis xeebi gaZarcvulni _ darCnen SiSvlebi... o, myudroebav, dRes iseTi celqi daria _ gza rom gavigno, rom gadavrCe, Sen Tu miSveli! mierekeba qaris mernebs es noemberi, da foTolcvenis siyviTleSi fiTrdeba fiqri, CemTvis sanukvar mogonebebs mZevlad vnebdebi da martoobis uxmo dReebs moTmeniT viTvli.

ar daijero... Seni danaxviT gulma ritmi Tu ar icvala, Tu safeTqlebTan veRar igrZno nazi Sexeba, Tu Cems TvalebSi cisartyelebs veRar ixilav _ ar daijero rom... me var!

Sens Sesaxvedrad... am martoobam ise damRala, rom qveynad yofna meqca arakad... da suli Cemi Sens Sesaxvedrad cicinaTelad alaparakda...

sevdis ablabuda nacarmiyrili wlebi sduman gardacvlilebi... SeSlil RameSi gahkivis Woti. zecis calTvala ciklopis Tvali _ pirsavse mTvare damyurebis maRliT. Ramis simSvides xSirad arRvevs qofakis yefa. acaxcaxebul foTlebs Soris qviTinebs qari... daZrwian irgvliv aCrdilebi Rameul sulTa. da isev sevdis ablabudaSi uSenod vsunTqav…

miacileben... procesiaze gamosula uklebliv yvela, Cemi erTguli megobarni rigSi wyobilni: cremlebi, fiqri, dardi, ocneba, locva, sicili, elda, sevda da gaoceba... ulmobel mzeriT Sav frakebSi gamowyobilni... da moTminebis gzajvaredinze Cems siyvaruls miacileben...

sabediswero... erTi wuTiT Semogxede, erT saaTSi gakoce, erTi kvira sanTlad venTe,’ erT TveSi gamaoce... ...weliwadSi gamiwyeri _ ver gavige ra mWirda... mere Sens gadaviwyebas saukune dasWirda!..

damSvidobeba... gemSvidobebi rogorc mnaTobs mTebs iqiT Casuls, Tan mogyvebian ocnebebi, rogorc nislebi... me Senze fiqriT Sevexizne sevdian warsuls _ da momavalsac Senze fiqriT Sevexiznebi!...

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