Soon Before The Sun
Published by Fontana
First published in Great Britain by Kindlight 2014
Copyright ©Mark Binmore 2014
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A glimpse into summer.
Soul Of All Things
A room of white pure marble this is where I start my journey
I let my body fill with love and the voyage starts to begin
The every widening expanse of my mind takes me through stars and universes
Sinking in the ocean of soul
memory enchanted by imagination realms
Enhanced by thoughts of you wrapped in a veil of mystic wonder
Faceless faces beyond the mask
Angel’s words spoken in jest
Heroes with swords of shining light tell me stories not yet revealed until my heart is touched by the soul of all things
I know my life is yours now
we are all a part of our each other
No dream or nightmare is separate and no action is for us alone
No fear is apart from another fear we feel only eternal love
Away From You
Away from you
there is no music
There is no sunlight
the world is grey
The world is silent away from you
The clocks are frozen and time has lost its way
The people I meet
Well...
they might as well be statues
The words we exchange might as well be Greek
The room that I live in may be bright and cheerful
But to me
it can be heavy, dim and bleak
I'm half alive until the moment the door swings open then you appear
Now my world starts to glow like a stained-glass window
And what was old and cold is warm and new
And so you see why I can never be away from you
Away from you
the world is lifeless
as though creation has gone on absent leave
The trees are bare there are no flowers
The fields are empty the streams are dry
We live you and I for a breath of sunlight
So brief an escape from a world of grey
Our moments of warmth have been touch and go
But tonight we will touch And stay
Now my soul is afloat on a wave of music
That I could feel such joy I never knew and so you see why I can never be away from you
Soon Before The Sun
I crossed over the line and I have no regrets
There are some who think the same
I give love
I give love soon before the sun
Before the sun begins to rise
I know that I must give so that I can live
There are some who never give the love back Some say it was pain or was it shame
soon before the sun
Before the sun begins to rise
I know that I must give so that I can live
I give love
I give
After All The Dreams We Made Summer
when the day is over
there is a heart that becomes a little colder
Someone once said goodbye
but you never knew why
Somewhere there is someone keeping all the tears you have been weeping
Someone once said goodbye
but you never knew why
Maybe there is there a reason when a broken heart begins to cry?
Maybe there a reason you were lost although you don't know why?
You are always looking for a meaning and all the time you keep believing
I don't know why you won't say goodbye
Even when the sun is shining
you never see the silver lining
Someone once said goodbye
but you never knew why
Maybe there a reason why a broken dream can never fly?
Maybe there a reason you believe and then you close your eyes?
Tell me why you hide away so much inside
because I don't know why
Maybe there a reason why a broken heart begins to cry?
Maybe there a reason you were lost although you don't know why?
Someone once said goodbye
but you never knew why
It's only now when words are said that break my heart in two.
I wonder how you can endure all I ever say to you.
You are always so strong, so brave so true to bare the hurt I sometimes gave
I know it tears your heart in two
after all I've said and all I say to you
After all the words are said after all the dreams we made
Everyone a precious one and every one is a summer sun
A moment lost is a moment forever gone
It can never be recaptured again
You know how much you mean to me
After all you said after all you gave all your love to me
Air & Earth
You cascade and shape me carry water to me
You bring me content and with your help I grow
Holding you close
I cause you to stay
Never letting go our lives are a bond
Stronger than love stronger than life
Without me
You would leave Without you
I am without life
You are the air
I am the earth
We must be together you and I Apart we feel so remote and both of us seek danger
If I lose control I could destroy all this
Our power reign supreme which no one could ever wish
All that we desire on the edge of one another
You are the air and I am the earth
Just Like The Sun
Another sun in Tangier with the sun is high in the sky the winter has been laid to rest
The day is getting brighter setting out just like the sun
A day without the rain stepping out we're homeward bound
And we will never be the same we lay our hearts wide open we encounter mysterious things
The spell of the sun cannot be broken we drink and sing
The attics and bars are full of European writers they are all working on a new novel under the heat of the sun
There's plenty to think about Shine again Arabian Moon and be the guiding light
Life is changing like the dunes just like the sun
We lay our hearts wide open we encounter mysterious things
The spell of the sun cannot be broken we drink and sing
Moments Of Pleasure
It starts with next to nothing. Shapeless noise invading my unwelcoming brain, it’s sharp edges don’t seem to fit and causes the annoyance of a headache. But a bit of intrigue seems to seep through and I find myself being drawn to you. I reluctantly give the noise another chance. Its edges bend and twist, finding their way into the grooves of my brain. My memory senses this power, a kind of raw beauty and soul. My mind tells me to give in, to start moving, to bob my head in approval to the music. Vibrations take over. They start in my toes, making me tingle, my feet start moving, and my organs start dancing. I didn’t even know that my organs could dance. And in these moments of pleasure, something funny starts to happen. The dull world around me is transformed; a world of imagination appears before me. I become lost there. Suddenly my soul shifts, changes, I take a deep breath and wait for the rest of me to catch up.
The Stone Sun
Eclipses the statue of Athena
Stone is cold to touch
Her flesh is alive and warm to hug
And when you need to feel her arms or crack
She will hug back
Hallowed Skies
Grey skies like flashing steel cover the sun. The clouds white and silver march westward while some, like wisps of smoke curl behind treetops.
A fleeting ray of sunlight warms me for a second while soft gusts of wind ruffle my hair and cool down my face.
The rain clouds are approaching me and all the grass and languid oaks shift in the quickening breeze.
When I feel the first drops of rain, I will be cleansed by these hallowed skies.
The Empty Bullring
You disappear through a window and out of my mind
I was always trying to keep you at home
Out into the streets into the early hours leaving me here leaving me at home
You are going to the empty arena
You took your red cloak
you wanted to regain something back
Look at yourself in the mirror
there is killing in your eyes for the Toro
Thought you had shut the door to glory and gore
The throw of the rose
it's all you lived for oh Lord....
Beekeeper
Forward into the mysterious beauty of spring
The crocuses
melon-dawn yellow snow-purple veined saffron and milk-hearts and birdsong
becoming audible, trilling and chattering in symphony
Spools of song
sweet canticles in taunting magniloquence melodious code
Like an angelical speech
like golden divination and ambiguous dreamlike augury
And I came upon a beekeeper
And he said do you know you can have it all?
The blessed bees vibrantly humming stung with nectar and honey
stinging and healing our ache and our sweetness
Our love and our hurt
Extraordinarily
the honeybee came upon this
All so beautiful
and I feel as if spring has touched me and saved me
Atlantis
In that ocean
wide eyed and deeper in your gaze
and bluer than the bright that's in the cave
There is a city
Came out from you, Atlantis
In ruins, sunken below the waves
But in the city where there is no one
what's the point of being free, eh?
when there is nothing there to tie me down
Oh, no more here
The bluest city covered in coral and coral
On sea chests
and sealed Jamaican tales
There is nobody
to count the soldiering meandering whales
With a shoal of herring amongst the sails
But in the city
where there is no one
what's the point of being free, eh?
when there is nothing there to tie me down
Oh, no more here
There is the city Atlantis
Bliss
A shimmer of classical dread bearing the pressure of the sunlight’s dew
Every slender ray of light makes the tears shed every horizon and every raindrop is new
A dressing of morning clouds slides a hand over the soul created paintings among the golden ground Cast value throughout the land breaking the toll
The sky is drowning in a haze of bliss
And the rivers are studded in gold a taste of this is a jewel filled kiss sent from the demons protectors of weak and bold
A shred of fear always reaches the evil's devious ear
Bloodstains of the past cover the eyes to the world creating a blur
Everything do you have to fear your decisions are afflicted by the temptations
All in the blackness' murmur
The Longships
Strange how my heart is found beating and I find myself standing by the shore. Strange how I still feel my loss of comfort never gone before. Cool winds wash over and drift away with dreams of my youth. So golden time is stolen. I cannot hold you long enough as I feel lost in the city. And so this is where I should be now with days and nights falling by. I know of a dream I should be holding with days and nights falling by. Soft blue horizons reach far into my childhood days. And I see you rising to bring me my forgotten ways. It is funny how I falter and I find I'm standing in deep water. Strange how my heart is found beating and I find myself standing by the shore. Cold as the northern winds on September mornings, cold is the cry that rings from this far distant shore.
The summer has come too late and it’s too close beside me. How can I chase away all these fears that I hold deep inside? My light shall be the moon and my path will be the ocean. My guide will be the morning star as I sail home to you. And out of these dreams, a boat I will sail home to you.
I Give Thanks
I give thanks to the woods and how they tell me again who I am, and all the paths that stray through my life.
I give thanks to the chicory that blooms despite being mowed, and the old paved road so broken and the gravel under my feet.
And I give thanks to the mourning cloaks. See them rise up on their wings like daggers in my heart. They stop my breath and remind me of those who are gone from me.
I give thanks to my feet that keep moving though I cannot see, and to the tears that fall to the quaking aspen whispering in this slight breath to remind me fall will come again.
And all those days of spring and summer and the fall which fell on me.
I give thanks to February when the light began to change my heart and the crunch of snow is all I heard.
And today I give thanks to the sun falling between the leaves. It finds its way to touch my face reminding me of the love I have.
And I give thanks to the rubber band I wear. Just one snap and I stay on track, just one step after the other, just another path, just one more step until I can find my way back to who I was.
And I give thanks to the thunder coming again just as they said it would and the clouds gathering and even to the rain which will fall.
I’ll tell my mother.
I’ll tell my father.
I’ll tell my loved ones.
In My Secret Place Of Paradise
In my secret place of paradise
I’m searching for my perfect lover waiting for the right time for us to be together
And I still believe in you
I still believe in you
You won’t let me fall you won’t love me after all
Don’t let it show you know our love will love
This is where paradise is
I know I’ve been searching forever
I know the answers lie in my secret place of paradise
There’s a rose that grows there is a flower that will not break
In this place, we can’t be discovered that we’re here to love another
If we wait for the time when everything is right in this place of paradise we’ll be together tonight
Will I pass the test?
Will I make number one?
I know I’ve been searching forever
I know the answers lie in my secret place of paradise
There’s a rose that grows a flower that will not break
In this place, we can’t be discovered that we’re here to love another and I’m still looking for the rose that grows
The Star
I know of a secret place where we can be with whoever we wish to be
And as we take flight through Augusta’s white night
I travel far
I fly to the star
Flying around in the absence of a moon with astronauts
we will cry when we fly high up to the stars
I miss you as if I miss summer who can know the reason why?
And all too soon, the spaceship has touched down I have travelled far to my own happy star
If I Had The Heart
We drift on a wave
a breeze
thoughts forever caught in time
Tears a kiss
a dream of tomorrow
We climb and we fall
Pushing pulling
every lap of life's ebb and flow
And if I had the heart to tell you would you have the strength to go?
Sunset above us the stars in a crimson night
You close my mind
love
A future that died
Climb fall pushing pulling
every lap of life's ebb and flow
And if I had the heart to tell you would you have the strength to go?
And if you don't want to tell me
I guess, I don't need to know
Climbing falling pushing pulling every lap of life's ebb and flow
And if I had the heart to tell you would you have the strength to go?
Climbing falling pushing pulling every lap of life's ebb and flow
And if I had the heart to tell you would you have the strength to go?
Watching You Without Me
Empty as I lie against the ground
Stupidity collapsing in my mind
I walk over to the lake
I fall
I see you standing but you never saw me
A last chance before I end this game a last cry before I die with shame
Emotionless tears start to fall
I pick myself up
I fall into the water
Watching you without me
I cannot believe you did nothing to help
Floating but I am falling deep
Deep down in the lake
my feet nearly touching the depths
I cannot breathe
drowning
I am watching you watching me as you peer into the lake
You’ll Never Have Another Fear
Darling go to sleep now
Don’t you weep
hey, it’s alright now
Turn over go and dream now
hey, it’s alright now
I will be here all the time with you
falling asleep against the blue
Speak to me
tell me what I should do
Hey, it’s alright now
don’t you cry now
Let me wipe away your tears
you’ll never have another fear
I’m here all through the night
I won’t leave you
I’ll be here until morning light
Speak to me
tell me what I should do
Darling go to sleep now
Sweet Clover
Such promise such ruin
The smell of smoke in the air
the soil still too damp
How did this summer pass through my fingers?
How did I forget who I am?
I forgot my place in this small yard
in the sun with the green grass
How is it that the fields have begun to grow
Where the sweet clover always lay?
Has it been that long?
The season has come and gone and the sun on my back can remind me
I am still this person
This boy who grew the trees and bruised the mint to smell
I am my father's son
who listened to the call of the owl strangely woken in the day
This boy who crossed the brook and walked into the woods
Who forgot the stones and the path?
Who forgot the sound he was following and became lost in the tangle?
Peace At Last
Do not let anyone see you cry sleep until the light
Even when you are feeling down and your life is falling apart
Be strong let love hold you on think of your love in a different light And after these dark days have gone you will find peace at last
Please do not let me be you could be anyone you want to be Even when the time comes for your second chance do not turn this against your heart.
Be strong let love guide you on think of yourself re-birthed without despair
So when these dark days have gone, you will find peace at last
When a star’s shining out for you this is the time I found peace at last
I hope you find peace
