Dawn Powell Prizes/Kate Carter Awards Publication

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Table of Contents

Dawn Powell Prizes

Dawn Powell Student Poetry Director's Choice Emilia Diaz………………….5

Dawn Powell Student Short Story Tie Winner by Sarah Turniski……………6

Dawn Powell Student Short Story Tie Winner by Justine Stanley…………..23

Dawn Powell Student Poem Winner by Eleanor Ramos…………………......30

Dawn Powell Student Poem Runner-up by Bond Brewster………………….31

Dawn Powell Alumni/Faculty/Staff Winner by Laura Greenwald………….32

Dawn Powell Alumni/Faculty/Staff Runner-up by Taylor Thorpe………….33

Kate Carter Awards

Kate Carter CORE Award Winner by Graham Lofstead…………………..35

Kate Carter CORE Award Runner-up by Emily Moran……………………41

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Dawn Powell Student Poetry Director's Choice

My Bird

Fruitful. Bright. Colorful. My bird. I bring it with me everywhere that I go. I like to play. I run around and around. Six years old. Father calls me to his room. Says that he has a stomachache. Pluck. I keep on running. I keep on playing. Seven, eight, nine, ten. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. Father always asks for my help. Pluck. Don’t make Father mad. Pluck. Running. Running fast. No destination, just run. If I’m running, Father can’t get mad. Pluck. Sixteen. Sweet sixteen. Special sixteen. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. Pluck. Snap. Blood. Finally free. I run. I run so fast that I fly away. Fly away to freedom. Bare. Dull. Gray. My bird.

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Dawn Powell Student Short Story Tie Winner

Do Not Be Tempted

In the year 1118, the Templar Order was founded by a French knight, Hugues de Payens, to protect Christian pilgrims in their journeys to and around Palestine. It would then last until 1312 when Pope Clement V dissolved the Order brutally. The Order was founded amidst the Crusade years, a time plagued by death and war for the Holy Land, the birthplace of Christianity, Islam, and Judaism. With the Middle East in constant turmoil, other cultures sought the chance to take the lands for themselves as it would be easier with the Order beginning to lose sovereignty while the Crusades came to an end. Many historians have theorized that there were many artifacts held by the Templars that were perhaps related to Jesus himself and other religious figures; some have been discovered in ruins while others have yet to be discovered. Alongside these stories, Middle Eastern folklore and stories have been tied to the jinn (or djinn), who were thought to be angels fallen from Heaven as they helped Satan in his quest, only for them all to fail. The jinn appear in many old Arabic manuscripts, and it was believed that one must protect oneself from deception and powerful abilities. This work of fiction takes place in 1291 at the last stronghold held by the Templars in Acre, Israel; located north of Jerusalem on the coast of the Mediterranean Sea.

When you believe in something wholeheartedly, you expect it to protect you, and be with you through every moment. As I turned the corner, I gripped my torch as the small flame lit my way through the dark tunnels.

I was sent to check on the underground tunnels to ensure the passage was still easy to

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navigate to get to the port on the Mediterranean Sea just beyond the fortress wall. I was not overly fond of the dark tunnels, so I prayed to the Lord I would be safe. He and I seemed to get along, but recently there have been things I have begun to question, sometimes too often to really think about.

When I was young, my mother would always tell me that I should never fear the dark, for Sindbad the Sailor was never afraid of anything.

Without much else to check on, I rerouted myself back up to the temple itself, tracing my hand along the damp tunnel walls as I walked. The dampness felt colder to the touch since May brought nights of chillier weather and warm days, but I missed seeing the snow of Paris in the colder months and the beauty of the endless flowered gardens in the hot summer.

There were heavily locked wooden doors to the unknown that made my hand skip over the brick texture, gently brushing over the aging wood. I only heard rumors of what might be found within the secret rooms. There were always rumors, but none of us in the lower ranks could be sure. The Ark was told to be kept in Jerusalem while the Grail was in Egypt, and the bones of our Lord were perhaps shipped to Rome. Recently, it had been said that an artifact once thought to be lost forever remained in the Teutonic Order’s care.

“It is a golden crown with beautiful jewels from faraway lands,” one Brother said, “Brought before the infant Christ by one of the three wisemen, Melchior.” Another voice chimed into my thoughts as I recalled the brief conversation from a few years ago, “It has a special power, it is why they hide it! I wonder why else they would because it truly must serve a powerful purpose.”

I, of course, was not one for conspiracies. We had other problems to worry about. With an accomplished flip of my Templar cape, I re-entered the Temple of Acre through the secret

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passage in the wall. I pushed against the stone wall with ease, not using any brute strength to push the correct stone for the opening. Then, I placed my burning torch back in its place within the metal sconce on the wall nearby. As I thought of visiting my dearest friend, it was easy to hear the GrandMaster and some commanders speaking in the room nearby. They were speaking almost quieter than usual, yet the door was ajar as if they wanted someone to hear.

With a quick glance over my shoulder and down the hall, I stood beside the doorway, pressing my back to the wall as tight as I could manage.

“There is no question that our fortress could be in possible danger. Acre is the last of our order still standing, we need fortifications,” a stern, yet hushed voice declared. I recognized this voice as one of the commanders, Bartel de Marron.

“We don’t have the resources,” another voice said, “And what of the artifacts that are beginning to be lost?” Then there was murmuring.

I leaned in to listen closer when a hand fell on my shoulder, “Brother!”

I quickly spun around and hushed my Templar Brother, Hugo. His green eyes widened as he leaned over my shoulder, listening to the meeting at hand.

“Our spies have confirmed it, and as our Lord as my witness, the Mamluk army is preparing for something that could put even The Grail at risk.”

Hugo grasped my shoulder tightly, whispering, “Salih, come on. I have heard them talking about this before. I won’t lie to you, I feel something dark coming just as I see it in your eyes as well.”

I stared at him for a moment, wondering what he meant.

I blinked. He motioned for me to move on. The two of us walked outside to the training grounds, and we exchanged glances before he headed off in the other direction. I, however, head

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into the city. I was greeted with smiles as I walked along the road, returning the happy gestures. I nodded gently to those who welcomed me, and of course, there were others who quite frankly wished the Lord would smite me out of existence, a thought courteously given to them by those who rejected our sacred order.

Without much of a warning, a small explosion was heard with smoke filling the air above a little stone house. I ran towards it with my heart pounding, but everything seemed fine. Just a little smoke coming out of the windows from the aftermath. As I threw open the front door to the building, my best friend flew into my chest as hard as a mule.

“Watch out, Red Acacia!” he shouted with a wide, mischievous smile.

“Hulim, what did you do now?” I demanded, pulling him to his feet by the back of his maroon tunic. Hulim was very light, almost delicate by nature. I, on the other hand, was what he referred to as a “human bull,” but I was just built from rigorous Templar training. That, I have explained to him more than once.

He dusted off the front of his tan apron as I followed him back into his house where the two of us fanned the smoke out. Hulim poured water over the small, kitchen-like fire as I patted out the small embers with the toes of my boot.

I shot him a glare, “When will you stop working with gunpowder, you already-.” He stopped me with flailing arms, “I am aware! Calm down, will you? I am on a scientific discovery! There are talks of new weapons being developed in the Ottoman Empire as well, and I wonder…” With a brief silence, he followed his frantic reply with sympathy, “What troubles you, my friend? You are never this… shall I say irritated?”

With a deep sigh, I sat down in a chair beside his table that was filled with scientific tools and concoctions I dare not touch, “I just can’t help but feel something is coming, Hulim. I hear too much. I see too much. I fear for Acre.”

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“Salih, whatever happens, I will be with you always. If He wills it to be so, we must surrender to His will.”

“Is that what you say when you play with fire every day?” I asked.

He laughed, “I pray every day he protects your soul, my friend.”

We were quiet as he went back to his experimentation in his secret alchemy he disguised as scientific weapons.

“Would you listen to me if I told you to leave the city?” I asked quietly.

Hulim nearly dropped the mysterious glassware in his hands, “What?”

“Hulim, I want to ensure your safety when the time comes. You go straight to my parents, and flee the city, do you understand me?”

Hulim looked down, touching his hands to the table, “What about you? Why are you so worried?”

“Don’t worry about that. I took an oath and I will follow it until the end.” He lifted his head, and his expression was full of fear and sadness at the same time. “Don’t regret it in the end, then.”

My stomach twisted every time I remembered seeing that look on Hulim’s face in the days that followed. I couldn’t help but remember his words. I was distracted all through my times of prayer, and it made me feel as if I had said something I shouldn’t have. To make things worse, my suspicion of something unfortunate coming only got stronger. There was something I couldn’t shake, no prayer that would change my mind. I spoke of my concerns to our GrandMaster frequently, but he never assured me of whether or not I was wrong. My prayers to Him seemed to go unanswered.

Today I was tasked with some fellow Brothers to pass out grain and blankets to those who needed them. The town itself seemed to be under less ease as rumors began to spread that the

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Templars were planning to further involve themselves in meaningless politics. Nearing the official end of cold and rain was one of reconciliation and new beginnings, at least it should be.

I grabbed one of the wool blankets from our cart and handed it to a man clad in a dark brown robe. He graciously took it, but in doing so, he grabbed my arm with his other hand. I was not stirred. The man had startled me, such is human nature of being yanked without warning.

Without panic, I stared into his old, lowered eyes, “Do you need something?” The man tugged on my arm so I knelt down in front of him. His raspy voice spoke quietly, “Do not be tempted by the jinn.”

I was intrigued.

“What do you mean?” I asked, “The jinn, like the ones fallen from heaven?” His grip around my arm tightened, “Do not be tempted, boy. They will make an offer you cannot refuse.”

“Brother Salih, we must carry on,” Brother Hugo called. The man let me go as I stood up, facing my Brothers who began to depart. As I turned back around to question the man further, my heart dropped.

There was no man.

There was no trace of his black robes, no trace of the blanket I gave to him. I looked around quickly, bewildered by the event that just occurred. What in the Lord’s name was happening to me?

“Are you alright?” Hugo asked, flicking my short, tight ponytail. I pushed his arm away, “I have to follow up on something.” He seemed concerned, “Do you want me to come with you?”

I hesitated with my reply because deep down I was frightened of what I might

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discover on my own. “No, I will be fine.”

He nodded and went to catch up with our Brothers. As he was out of sight, I broke into a full sprint into the city. I was careful as I maneuvered around the hundreds of citizens and their busy schedules. When I came to it, I ran through the door of my father’s ironwork shop. He immediately stopped what he was doing, “Salih!”

I caught my breath for a moment, “Hello, father. Where is mother?” “She is tending to the horse. Something has struck your mind again. I can tell. Go to her, my son.” I touched his shoulder as I walked past him to the backdoor, and made my way into the stable. My mother was carefully grooming the beautiful brown Arabian horse I had come to know and love as Pazuzu.

His own name came from stories of oral tradition. He was as fast as the wind itself. Mother turned to me, and my heart pained that we could barely touch due to my vow as a Templar. The two of us secretly held each other’s arms in a brief silence. “What has come to bother you, my boy? Tell me what it is that you see.”

“Something strange happened today, and it made me feel more uneasy than I have ever been. Before I ask anything, you have to promise me that if Hulim comes to your door that you are ready to leave.”

She agreed, “I trust you, Salih, now ask.”

“Do you remember you told me of the fallen angels, those demons who listened closely to the angels of Heaven?”

“Of course.”

“This man told me to not be tempted by them.”

“You search for the jinn,” my mother explained. “They are not good nor evil, and yet you have been warned. Strange, isn’t it? They warn a Templar above all others.” I nodded, “So

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what do I do? I can’t tell those around me of it.”

“It will be up to you. I cannot tell you whether or not to trust one thing over another. This spiritual journey is your own.”

Her gentle hand touched my cheek with warmth for a split second before I set out to go back to the Templar castle. On my way, my thoughts were interrupted as I wandered into the Enchanted Garden that was in the middle of the city. This place held special meaning, and it was the place where I first let go of my favorite possession I was forbidden to keep upon entering the Order.

As part of the entrance that led to both the city and the temple, I stood in the middle. I stared at the tree whose roots grew wildly across a stone table. I knew that if I touched my possession, I would be tempted to keep it again. My heart would not let go of my small toy knight made of nothing but wood. My parents had given it to me when we were in Paris, but that was many years ago.

“Boy, why are you here?”

Too many people were looming over me, rapidly appearing, but I was trained to never hesitate or flinch. Not even at the mercy of the sword.

A woman, young and fair, stared at me from the entrance of this particular part of the gardens. I bowed slightly, “Hello, young maiden. I am simply passing through, I am heading back to the temple in a moment.”

She didn’t smile but rather approached me without fear or any type of expression. Her frail hand suddenly grabbed my chin, holding my jawline in her cold fingers, “You are one of few as many fail to understand. Trust in me, boy, and you shall be spared.” Her own skin seemed to change color to a pale blue. Like some strange, witchcraft-tainted woman.

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I shook out of her grasp, reaching for my longsword. I felt threatened as a sense of dread came over me. The hairs on the back of my neck and upon my arms stood on end. I felt the same sensation the man from the other day had passed on to me.

Just before a lump welled up in my throat, I spoke, “Are you a jinn?”

“You are in grave danger. Make your decisions wisely. I need you to do something for me.”

I grasped my sword tighter in my hand, white-knuckling the handle.

“Bring me the artifact from the temple.”

I drew my sword then, “We have no artifact.”

We were always told to deny others of these secrets we might know of; our lives were worth the risk over the darkness that plagues this earth by one angel who betrayed him. The woman only smiled, “You know of which I speak. It is one of the last artifacts that has not been lost to your pointless crusades.” She turned herself around, her long black hair flying around to meet her back as she turned a corner. I cautiously ran after her. And yet, as mysteriously as she came upon me, she was gone. I blinked once and there was nothing but the gardens in front of me. I touched my hand to my chest, my heart pounding against my ribs.

I walked back to the temple emotionally tense. It was nearing the evening, but I was too caught up in my thoughts to even think about sleeping. I decided to make time for individual prayer. One in which I would demand answers to this uncertain feeling.

“Salih,” a voice whispered, “Salih, wake up.”

I opened my eyes as I awakened on the cold floor of the chapel.

“You fell asleep in here again.”

I pushed myself up, Commander Bartel knelt down on one knee beside me,

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“You demanded of Him again, am I right?”

He stared into my eyes, and he seemingly received an answer. “Up with you, then. I have tasked your ranks with unloading supplies from the ships at the port.”

I nodded, heeding my orders. Neither of us said another word.

I lifted the hood of my cape over me as a gentle rain began to fall upon entering the port. In the distance of the vast Mediterranean Sea, my home of the great city of Acre on the ground of the Holy Land seemed small and penetrable.

Do not be tempted.

“Salih!”

With a quick turn, Hulim approached me atop Pazuzu. I stopped my horse from running further, grabbing a hold of the reins. “Hulim, what has happened?”

I knew the look on his face before, for I had seen it twice before. Those eyes…full of despair and guilt. The first being when we were young. His parents seemingly disappeared into the desert without a trace. The second was when he burned me, forever marking my left elbow with its reddish-pink stain upon my light olive skin. “Salih, you were right.” I looked up at him, “Hulim, I told you that if I-.”

“I did what you asked of me, and they are safely on their way to Tripoli as of last night. We have to leave the city.”

I shot him a glare, “I took an oath. You were supposed to go with them.”

Hulim looked down at Pazuzu, “I won’t leave without you. You are all I have, Salih, and you need me with you.”

“Brothers! We have direct orders from our GrandMaster!” I shook away my current thoughts as we were called back to the temple.

Hulim pleaded with me. “There is nowhere for me to go. You have to understand,

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the Mamluks are at the temple wall.”

Those Mamluks from the east. They had taken nearly all of our Holy Land, claiming it for their own. My body became heated with anger at the thought of losing my home. The Mamluks claimed the lives of too many of my Brothers-in-Arms. There was no running. There was only blood to be shed now. My stomach twisted, “Stay away from the wall, and stay near the port.” Hulim was distraught. “Will you meet me here, Red Acacia?”

I felt him tug at my heart with those words. That name which I only allowed for him and my own mother to call me; it killed me to know that he was frightened. Without replying, I quickly spun around and ran towards the temple. I was to be stationed on the wall and for right now, I had to think and be one with my thoughts.

“Have you decided then, boy?” A gentle yet familiar voice questioned me, “Will you trust me to ensure that you will not die?”

The same woman from before stepped into the prayer room where I had decided to spend my short and brief quiet period. She had dark, long hair that was well-kept behind her, and a figure that could draw in any man who was instantly tempted by what was before covered by her oversized clothing. I drew my sword as she let out a laugh.

From the other side of the room, the man I had met on the street stepped into the doorway. “Do not believe her, young knight. Trust her with nothing!”

“Tell me who you are!” I demanded of both of them, “I am confused!”

The woman released a frustrated sigh, “I am the jinn, Jaari.”

“I am the jinn, Zaastera. I bring truth to the eyes of the tempted.”

I lowered my sword, “This has nothing to do with me. I have no reason to trust either

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of you, you are the fallen ones!”

“We are a part of you, Salih,” the man said as his eyes followed me to the door, “You were connected to our string of fate the moment you were born.”

“You are young and capable, and I can change your fate,” Jaari said boldly, “Do not let those who wish to destroy all you love have any taste of victory.”

Zaastera scoffed, “You know nothing of the boy’s fate. Only He decides that, and not even the angels tell us what He thinks. Salih, divert yourself from this fate you feel drawn to.”

“Believe what you want, old man. I know ‘His truth.’ You were once shown it, why not explain that to the boy? After all, he knows of the last artifact.”

Zaastera then drew his gaze to me, anger filling his deceitful eyes as his own flesh turned to a dangerous, red-clay color.

I heard voices calling for me from beyond the room. “Salih! Where is Salih?” The door

to the chapel flew open, and Brother Hugo shot me a glare. “Get to the wall!” he demanded, “We have orders to go into battle.”

The two who argued about my fate were suddenly gone. Forget it! I am sick of hallucinating! I had no choice but to follow my Brothers into battle. I was handed a shield with our templar symbol as I rushed to my station. I shut my eyes as I stood in line with my Brothers before we were ordered to fight on the battlefield.

With a deep breath, I was reminded that my parents were safe. I imagined I was at home with my mother. She had always told me stories that were told across all of Arabia as she grew up in a small village converted to Christianity. My beloved hero was Sindbad the Sailor, and I found comfort that he would have been one to fight for God without the fear of failure. Sindbad had a life of voyage and freedom, but I was not as lucky.

Sindbad once reflected in his stories, “I wished to command my life's good deeds to

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Allah so that He might be merciful to me, but I would remember so lamentably few.” We were at the mercy of God. We are the last of the templars. We are many, yet we appeared as few before the numerous Mamluk army.

My Brothers and I quickly looked at each other, unfortunately for the last time as one family. We stepped into the dark day once again, this time with the strongest will to fight. I looked around, and we had no commander. Hugo was beside me, “We are on our own! Advance!”

Each of us raised our shields to form a wall reliant on our strength as well as that of the Lord. On every side of me were death and despair. There was pain and suffering. My heart became caught in my throat as I was engaged in a battle with a single enemy without my Brothers beside me. I dare not call out for help. I did not want them to fear the darkness in front of me. I had been trained well, and I had an undying will to live.

As I was personally victorious, I was suddenly thrown to the ground in a collision. A few of my Brothers stood over me as some of our enemies came charging in. With blood covering our Templar tunics of white, the red cross in our uniforms seemed to lose vision… and almost a sense of meaning.

“Brother Salih!” Hugo called.

A sharp slice cut into my shoulder, and the pain made me cry out in agony. My Brother defended me. At that moment I had lost focus, and I had no choice now but to raise my sword again to aid his efforts.

“The wall is being breached! Fall back!”

I painfully lifted my shield again with my arm pulsing. Hugo and I pushed back a small group of the Mamluks, slowly making our way back to the temple behind us. We dared not to turn our backs to the enemy. “Keep moving!” Hugo called to our Brothers. His voice was

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hoarse and almost fading.

I looked at him beside me, and I put his arm over my shoulders to help him. I glanced back to where our brothers were defending the wall. Hugo used whatever strength he had to keep the two of us moving to the door of the temple wall, and we threw ourselves forward as our Brothers closed the gate.

The injured Brothers who were gathered just inside the gate with us were frightened. “What do we do?”

I gently set Hugo down and grabbed my own arm with the rainfall stabbing at its vulnerability. Brothers came and lifted Hugo to be aided in the medical ward. I then felt a tug at my injured arm. Before I lashed out at the person who grabbed it, it was Hulim who touched a burning knife to my wound, slowly, excruciatingly closing it. I couldn’t, nor would I be, mad at him. I was in agonizing pain, and at the time, I shouted with anger and irritation. “Thank you, my friend,” I said, catching my breath.

Hulim helped me to my feet, but there was no time to continue the conversation. I quickly picked up my shield and sword, “Hulim, head back to the docks of the sea.” Without any negotiation, Hulim ran back into the temple. As if time had stopped, the wall behind me erupted with a loud explosion. Out of instinct, I lifted my shield over my head to protect myself. Rocks smashed into my shield, pushing me forward. Loud shouting echoed behind me with a slight ringing that overcame my ears. With few Brothers in sight falling victim to the circumstances, I stumbled as I lifted myself up to run into the temple. “Hulim!” I yelled, “Hulim, where are you?”

Hulim came out from behind the altar in the chapel, “Salih!” I looked up at the heavy wooden cross that towered over the rest of the chapel. Is there nothing you can do? This is madness! I will not let myself die this way! I then grabbed Hulim by his arm and ran to the

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wall where the secret passage to the port was.

Hulim was frantic, “What are you doing?”

I tucked my sword into its sheath on my waist and grabbed a lit torch from the wall. I took a quick glance behind us before using all of my strength to push the brick wall passage open. Hulim was surprised. I took a quick glance at him, “Stay close to me!”

He nodded, grabbing onto my cape as we ran into the secret passage. I could hear him breathing heavily as he tried to keep up with my stamina.

“I have a boat ready for us at the far end of the port,” Hulim said through quick breaths. “I am glad you are smarter with water than you are with fire,” I remarked.

“It was one time!”

Hulim waited near the secret exit as I ran as fast as I could back through the tunnels. I suddenly stopped, frozen in my tracks. A cold feeling overcame me, and my hair stood on end once again. “Salih?” Hulim asked, “What is it?”

Another voice spoke clearly in my ear. This way, boy.

“I will be right back,” I replied sternly, “Wait here, I will be back as soon as I can.” Down the hall.

I followed the directions spoken to me.

I then turned my head as one of the secret wooden doors flew open, a cold breeze blowing towards me. I had no time to think, I just had to move. I went into the room, not thinking twice about my actions. Take it!

I tore a large piece of my cape from behind me and I crouched down in front of a wooden crate covered with a sacred pall used to cover the Holy Eucharist during our congregation hours every morning.

It felt wrong, but almost liberating when I removed it, opening the crate’s lid. Beneath a

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pile of old cloth lay King Melchior’s golden diadem before it found its way to Acre by way of a sacred man entrusting us with its power.

Bring it to me!

I shook my head to focus, “Stop whispering to me with your deceitful nature! I am taking it to Rome, where it belongs in the Lateran Palace with our Holy Leader.” The artifact was cradled in my arm, wrapped tightly with the strip of my cape.

I will be waiting for you, wherever you go, I will follow. Your fate lies in the hands of the jinn now, foolish mortal boy.

I angrily dismissed the voice, knowing full well it was not who I wanted it to be. I made my way back to Hulim, who was waiting for me in a panic. He did not question what I held in my arms, covering it with my shield. He knew better than to question a Templar of these things.

I then pushed open the door that led to the port outside. He ran out first, and I followed behind him. Hulim had left Pazuzu near the docks, and he quickly jumped onto the reliable horse’s back. He grabbed onto my arm tightly, pulling me onto the back of Pazuzu behind him. As we rode to the boat Hulim had prepared, I heard a quick whizz of an arrow brush past my ear. I raised my shield over us as I turned my head and looked up at the wall.

The Mamluks had taken the temple.

With one wrong angle, an arrow flew into my lower back. I fell against Hulim, grasping my shield tighter to protect him. He reached one of his arms behind him, holding onto me, “Hold on, dear friend.”

We reached the boat Hulim told me about, and jumped down from the back of Pazuzu. He guided me down as well, helping both Pazuzu and myself aboard. Hulim quickly set sail with an almost coincidental stormy breeze that pushed us into the Mediterranean.

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He finally sat down beside me, shaking with fear. We were silent as the burning city of Acre was behind us now. “Can I know what it is that you hold?” Hulim asked quietly, his voice still shaking, “Please, let me share a heavy burden with you. We have no home anymore.”

I shook my head, speaking with a painful stutter, “Not yet. For now, this is a burden I must carry on my own. You do not understand just yet how powerful this is. It is the last remaining artifact that has not yet been lost.”

I suddenly fell back, and I could see my own pool of blood forming beside me. Hulim said my name over and over, but everything seemed so distant. I held the artifact as if I were holding on for dear life to some ledge that led to my demise.

“What is it that you choose, boy?” Zaastera’s voice asked clearly. “She is a jinn who will destroy every ounce of true courage within you. She cannot be trusted. You must trust in the Lord!”

The two jinn appeared before me at once. Jaari’s voice came gently, “Live forever with my power, sweet boy. This is the last chance I will give you. May the jinn of the sea spare your life should you betray me. Give me the golden crown.”

Zaastera was agitated, “Live forever, and you will fail to see the face of your Creator. Continue to see the torment and pain of your kind. You will not see the truth. Your fate has already been proclaimed. You wish to change that?”

Am I tempted to give up a life so sacred, to betray all that I know?

I turned to Jaari, “I want to be with my parents again. Away from all of this. I want my friend to be safe when all he has ever known is the Lord and myself. I will hold on to the crown until I am safe in the Holy Roman Empire.”

Jaari smiled, “Trust in me, boy, and you shall be spared. Betray me, and I will make you suffer. I await your safe arrival to the Empire.”

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Dawn Powell Student Short Story Tie Winner

Lapse: (noun) a slight error typically due to forgetfulness or inattention

In September of 2059, a meteorite landed in the wilderness of central Canada, just southwest of the Hudson Bay. The research group appointed to recover the remains was composed of scientists representing Canada and the United States, who had been tracking the object from the moment it entered the outer reaches of our solar system. Astronomers had recorded strange frequencies emanating from the meteoroid as it streaked through the void of space, and there was chatter about new elements and their potential uses.

Among the youngest members of the group was Weston Harrow, a recent graduate of the California Institute of Technology. The rookie felt like an outcast among the experienced scientists in the group. Not only had he just begun his career, but his field was geology, not astronomy. He had barely explored the potentials of his own planet, yet here he was, taking samples of something thought to be from another. He surveyed the scene from the sidelines, waiting his turn to get a closer look at the thing. He shivered in the cold wind that swept through the trees, adjusting the dark green scarf around his thin neck slightly tighter.

“What do you make of all this, West?” asked Professor Elroy as he sauntered over. The man, who walked as though he’d spent the last 40 years crouched over garden rocks (He had.), was the CIT professor that had gotten Weston this opportunity in the first place.

“I think a rock is a rock, regardless of the planet it comes from,” Weston grumbled his response with an annoyed sigh. “What, exactly, do they hope I’ll find in a sample?”

“I reckon it’s the same as everything else related to space. You look for evidence of life, or evidence of a planet that could support it.” The old man shrugged and shook his head. “Ever since they built that Mars station, they've been obsessed with expansion. Personally, I don’t know why they think another hunk of rock is gonna treat them any better than this one.” Elroy gave a hearty laugh that complemented his subtle Southern drawl.

“Let them leave. I’m comfortable with this hunk of rock.” The younger man chuckled in response. Weston couldn’t stay and chat for long, hearing his name called by one of the lead researchers. He approached the woman and held out his hand to greet her. His fingers felt like ice.

“I’m Dr. Onusumba. I’ll accompany you as you examine the meteorite. Any sample you wish to take must be approved and accounted for. Your findings must be shared with the United States and Canadian governments, and any sample you take will be returned to Canada after six months.” It was clear the woman had given this exact rundown to a dozen other eager researchers that wanted to get their hands on the meteorite. “You are researching this material with the consideration that it may be harmful to your health, even without contact or ingestion. You must use extreme caution while any samples are in your possession. If there is any concern for the safety of yourself or others, you must report it to the overseeing government officials immediately.”

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Weston nodded in agreement to the stipulations of this agreement, having already signed various documents expressing the risk of radiation poisoning, alien bacteria, or chemical reactions between unknown elements. Onusumba led him down into the shallow crater and stood beside him as he knelt beside the thing. It was much darker in color than other meteorite samples he had seen. It was porous but hard. Weston pinched a protruding part with his fingers and tried to break off a small piece, but it wasn’t brittle enough to snap under human strength.

The entire meteorite was about two feet in diameter and relatively spherical in shape, with a few lumps here and there. Someone had already broken it in half with tools. The jagged break left a few chunks of the material on the ground between the halves. Weston picked one up, deciding it would be a good sample to study the main structure of the object. Then, looking closer at the internal structure exposed by the break, he noticed a light gray material peeking through the porous rock.

“May I have the chisel?” he requested, holding his hand up. Onusumba retrieved the tool from a table set up nearby and handed it to him. He promptly got to work, gently chipping away at the obsidianlike material for half an hour until he had freed up a round gray orb of stone.

Weston adjusted his wide-lensed glasses as they slipped down his nose, standing up to observe the orb in a better light. The lead looked at it with just as much curiosity as the young man who’d extracted it.

“What do you think that is?” she asked.

“It looks like some sort of geode. I’d like to crack it open in my lab and see if there’s anything interesting inside.” He watched as the woman wrote down a description of his samples and recorded his personal information.

“You will have to report frequently throughout your research. Failure to do so will result in fines and judicial action,” Onusumba explained, on script again.

“Understood.”

A few weeks later, Weston was sitting in his lab in Seattle, staring at the orb he’d taken from the meteorite, which was now called OMO-4. The other sample he’d taken was easy enough to study. He’d found the main structure of the meteorite was a mixture of Obsidian, Magnetite, and Olivine, hence the first part of the given name. Sure, the combination and structuring of these elements were unlike anything observed on Earth, but the materials themselves were unremarkable. Any hot, rocky planet could create such products.

The orb, on the other hand, was more intriguing. Weston had watched several saw blades get eaten up trying to make a dent in the solid gray exterior. He had struck it with hammers, dropped it off the roof, and ran over it with a car. After replacing his tire and fracturing his wrist on his last hammer attempt, he was sick of this softball-sized hunk of space debris. He lazily dropped it onto the surface of his desk and jumped when a beaker sitting near the back corner shattered from the mere vibration. Weston groaned, running his hands through his dark brown, unkempt hair. He was officially giving up, at least for a bit. He had six whole months before he had to return his samples to Canada. He pulled open the top right drawer of his desk and gently placed the orb with the mess of rock and crystal samples that lived there. As he took his hand away, the rough surface of the orb sliced his finger in just the right way. The wound bled fast enough to drip before he hastily wrapped a tissue around it and scoffed. Kicking the drawer shut, he decided he was done for the day before he could lose the last thread of patience he had over a stupid rock.

Over a month later, Weston found his eyes drawn to the desk drawer, curious to reapproach the enigma that was the OMO-4 orb. He sat in his chair and pushed his glasses up his nose before opening the

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drawer and freezing at the sight before him. The gray orb sat nestled in the small pile of mineral samples, split in half with an empty cavity in the middle. He cautiously grabbed one half, disappointed to find a smooth interior layer. There were no glittering crystals like the quartz geodes found on Earth. He turned it over in his hand as if the answer was written on it somewhere.

“Strange…” he uttered aloud to himself. “It almost looks like-” Weston dropped the piece back into the drawer quickly, as if it had burned him. His brown eyes stared down at it in a shocking realization.

It looked like an egg. ~~~

Lapse: (noun) a passage of time

Weston stared at his computer screen anxiously as it rang for an incoming video call. An official researcher with the United States government was calling to check in. He took a few deep breaths before answering the call and staring into the camera. He kept his hands out of frame to hide the trembling in his cold fingers.

“Mr. Harrow, how are you?” The intimidating woman on his screen made small talk like it was her least favorite thing to do.

“I’m well.” There was a moment of hesitation that was slightly too long. “And you?”

“Fine.” The official was unamused by this young, inexperienced scientist. “I haven’t received a report from you since last month. Have you learned anything about the other sample you took?”

“My other sample has proven to be… difficult to study.” Too vague. “The material is incredibly hard and I haven’t been able to reach deeper layers of the structure.” That’s better.

“Perhaps someone else has the materials needed to-”

“No!” He blurted out suddenly. The official glared at him for interrupting and he tensed up. Clearing his throat, he quickly thought up an excuse. “I’ve put in an order for more sophisticated tools. I would like to keep working on this sample. This research could jumpstart my career.” He sounded desperate, but not for the ambitious reason his words expressed. The more accurate reason was that the discovery of his current situation could destroy his career.

“Mr. Harrow, you are in possession of property of the Canadian government. We only have 6 months to get as much information as possible on OMO-4. If you are not capable of gathering sufficient information, I will have to find someone who is. I expect another report within the next month, or your samples will be confiscated and passed on to someone else.”

Weston gulped and nodded, muttering something of a goodbye and hanging up the call. He stared at his own reflection in the black screen for several minutes before working up the nerve to open the desk drawer again. He placed the two halves of the orb on the desk in front of him and scanned the inside of the drawer. Nothing else was out of place.

Grabbing some tools, he prepared some tests for the inner layers of the egg. With a sharp blade, he scraped away the white innermost layer, which was thin and powdery. Underneath that layer was a thicker, harder layer of mineral. Removing more of the white revealed deep green stone with vibrant red running through it like veins. Weston chipped away at various parts to test and then spent the next several hours identifying what it was all made of.

The white layer inside was mostly calcium, and the middle layer was green jasper and red hematite. The outermost layer that he couldn’t break through before it hatched was… well… the closest

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thing to compare it to was kimberlite, the rock in which diamond forms on Earth. It appeared to have microscopic diamonds laced throughout the structure, which explained why it was impossible to cut through.

Weston Harrow was starting to feel a bit mad. He was hoping to find something new and interesting to get his name out there. He didn’t think what he had found and confirmed was anything to gawk at. Maybe he could contribute to whatever journal would be written by whichever Canadian researcher got their hands on it after him.

Determined to get something more out of this stubborn sample, Weston grabbed his blade again, attempting to remove some of the diamond from the outer layer of the orb. It was still too tough for him and the blade slipped, slicing the tip of his left thumb. He cursed under his breath and pushed himself up from the desk, walking to the bathroom to grab paper towels. As he wrapped something around his injury to slow the bleeding, he heard a sound from his desk and looked over.

He had to blink several times to convince himself that he wasn’t imagining something. There, on the desk, was a creature he’d never seen before. It couldn’t have been bigger than a squirrel, dark in color with a short, thin tail. Weston slowly approached it, watching it as it was hunched over on the surface of his desk. The creature snapped its head up to look at him with its deep red eyes.

The man looked closer, realizing that the creature was lapping up the small amount of blood that had dripped onto the desk. As he stepped closer, the creature spooked, zipping down to the chair, then the floor. Weston danced on his toes as it ran between his feet and vanished into the storage cabinets on the far wall of his small lab.

Hesitating to go after it just yet, Weston sat down and wiped the blood away, looking over his research again as if it could give him the answer. He turned to his computer, typing something into the search bar and scrolling through the results.

“Bloodstone,” he said as he sat back and looked down at the broken orb in front of him. “The jasper and hematite in the middle layer is bloodstone… is that why-?” He glanced in the direction of where the creature disappeared, only to see it sitting on the floor, observing him. It looked slightly bigger than when he spotted it on the desk, but he blamed that on his shock causing him to misinterpret the size. Keeping his eyes on the creature, Weston reached for a plastic storage tub. He popped the lid off with one hand and slowly dumped the contents out onto the floor. The creature watched cautiously, eyeing the red-soaked paper towel around the man’s thumb.

Weston removed the paper towel and tried to get some of his blood into the container, but the injury had already clotted. Before he could talk himself out of it, he grabbed the blade from the desk and ran it across his palm, allowing the blood to drip into the bottom of the container for a moment. The creature lunged forward, landing in the plastic box to feed, only to find itself trapped when Weston snapped the lid on above it.

The man carefully picked up the box and stared through the old, scratched plastic at the alien creature he’d discovered. Yes, the alien he had discovered. Forget geology, Weston Harrow would be going down in history for something far less boring than a stupid space rock.

Lapse: (noun) a temporary deviation or fall especially from a higher to a lower state

Weston was quick to write his newest report about his discoveries. He documented the behaviors and traits of Nox, the creature. He found the Latin word for “night” quite fitting for the little… guy? The

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name felt gender-neutral anyways. A trip to the pet store had resulted in a better enclosure for the alien: a 55 gallon lizard terrarium. Weston could only assume that Nox was content in this setup.

After sending in his initial report, the young scientist headed out on his next errand to figure out what else Nox could eat other than human blood. He’d tried frozen and live mice from the pet store, but the alien wasn’t interested. Weston had resorted to asking a local butcher to collect pig’s blood for him.

When he returned home, he promptly removed his shoes and trench coat, which were wet from Seattle rain. He poured some of the pig’s blood into a shallow bowl and placed it into the enclosure. Nox rushed to feed, but quickly grew uninterested. Weston sighed and noted it in his research. It seemed human blood was the only option.

It took a lot of effort to persuade the government not to take Nox away from the random geologist that had it. Weston argued that he had it under control and could get a good start on studying this creature even with his lack of biological knowledge. Word got around about what he had found, and soon the frequent government calls turned into reporters and journalists.

Weston Harrow had become an overnight sensation just in time for Thrive, an annual conference for researchers of every field held in New York City. The event would be the perfect place for Weston to find biologists to work with. He needed someone who would let him keep the credit he deserved. When December rolled around, Weston was on his way to the Big Apple with Nox in his luggage. Since capturing the alien, he’d only fed it once. Human blood that wasn’t his own was hard to get his hands on without breaking several laws, and using his own blood wasn’t pleasant. Besides, the creature was still growing whenever it ate and would have outgrown the terrarium if he fed it too much. Its condition appeared stable without regular feeding, but Weston knew it was important to get a biologist involved before it starved to death.

First, he had to present the creature to the large crowd of people, who anxiously awaited his appearance. They were waiting for him. They wanted to hear what he knew. Weston was important, even if it was just a fleeting moment. Still, he savored it, taking his time describing Nox while the terrarium sat covered with a sheet on the stage beside him. He could feel the electric tension in the air as he shared a made-up story about incubating the egg in an attempt to melt the minerals and having it hatch instead. Finally, he reached for the sheet. He’d practiced his smile for this moment, knowing this would be on headlines across the globe for a while. Weston yanked the sheet off of the glass terrarium and gasps rang out from the audience. His attention fell to the empty enclosure. One of the glass sides was shattered. Nox had gotten out.

“Please, don’t panic. My observations have shown that this creature is not aggressive. It is curious and cautious in nature,” he advised the worried audience over the booming microphone before the intimidating woman he’d video chatted with grabbed his arm.

“What kind of game are you playing? Where is the alien?” she demanded.

“There is no game. Nox escaped somehow. I’ve never seen it even attempt to escape before,” he seemed more annoyed than concerned.

“You need to tell me everything you know about this thing, now!”

Weston repeated all that he had said before the big reveal, which conveniently left out some important information that he clearly didn’t want to share. His fumbling words were drowned out by screaming from the crowd. He turned his head to see Nox pouncing on a woman in the audience. The alien was now the size of a small horse.

The woman grabbed Weston by the collar of his shirt, pulling his face down to her level as she seethed with anger.

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“Everything!” she reiterated. Weston flinched.

“It eats human blood,” he answered.

When Nox was finished with its victim, it turned towards the stage, staring at Weston with its familiar red eyes. Was it angry at its captor? He couldn’t tell. Regardless of the creature’s emotions, Weston felt only fear as Nox rushed the stage, pausing directly in front of the young man.

There was a loud ripping sound as two wings erupted from the alien’s back. Weston stared up at them in shock until Nox grabbed him and fled the conference hall. At first, he struggled and tried to free himself from the creature’s grasp, but once they were airborne, he held on tight.

Nox took him to some penthouse balcony, dropping him there and landing on the railing. Weston sat up and pushed himself away from the creature. It stayed where it was.

“Why did you bring me here?” he asked, trying to catch his breath.

Nox tipped its head curiously at him.

“Why did you hurt that person?!” Weston rose to his knees.

Nox lifted a limb to its abdomen, signaling hunger.

“Where did you come from?”

Nox lifted its eyes to the night sky above them, staring for a quiet moment before looking at Weston again. He sighed and shook his head.

“What are you going to do now?” he asked as he slowly got back to his feet.

“F e e d…” came a deep, raspy voice from the creature in front of him. Stunned, Weston watched Nox extend its wings again and step off the balcony railing to dive towards the city below.

His knees felt weak and he stumbled to the railing for support. His heart raced in his chest, pounding against his ribs as if attempting to break out of its cage. Half an hour ago, he’d been stepping into a life of fame and luxury. He had scheduled interviews and cameos for the next few months. He had even told his landlord that he would be moving out of his tiny apartment in a month.

Now what? How much could Nox consume and how fast? Weston cringed at the sound of gunshots echoing through the labyrinth of buildings below. He was sure this was the quickest anyone had ever reached rock bottom.

Lapse: (noun) an abandonment of religious faith

Weston looked out across the city, listening to the muffled song of distant sirens. Word was quickly getting around about a dangerous alien on the loose in New York City, the dangerous alien he discovered. He looked up at the sky.

Above all of the chaos that erupted from the web of streets below him, the sky was crystal clear. The stars glimmered peacefully in their celestial void, too distant to witness the end of a planet full of human beings. He wondered how quickly humanity would be snuffed out. Was a single alien even capable of wiping them all out? He understood now why his carelessness was so irritating. Perhaps there was a reason to study this creature with more caution.

The man remained on the balcony for a while, recovering from it all. When he returned to the streets, he saw some of the carnage left in Nox’s wake, but the world didn’t appear to be ending just yet. No, despite the initial ruthlessness of the alien, it regained a sense of mercy. Weston left the city before

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the police could apprehend him. He spent a week getting back to Seattle by buses and taxis, retrieving a few essentials from his apartment before wandering into the city to hide.

Over the next year, society fell apart. People stood in the streets with signs calling the alien a demon and encouraging onlookers to repent. Weston watched in silence as fewer and fewer people walked the streets around him. Then, one day, he was the only one left. He found himself standing across from Nox as the sun was setting beyond the rotting city skyline. The creature hadn’t grown much from their last meeting. Maybe there was a limit to that characteristic.

“Is it my turn already?” he asked the beast, his voice hollow. “What did I do to deserve your mercy for this long?”

“Mercy?” Nox’s ability to communicate had developed well beyond what Weston ever thought was possible. “Did you find watching the world around you die to be merciful?”

“Are you going to kill me now?” Weston ignored its question to him and asked his own. Nox appeared to ponder for a moment before answering.

“I already have.”

The creature’s wings spread wide from its back and lifted it off the ground. Weston yelled, running along the road after it until it disappeared from sight. He had always wanted the world, and now he had it.

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Dawn Powell Student Poem Winner

My entire being longs to go, simply to leave.

I am unsure of where to, or why, but I know that I must see new eyes and hear many new voices.

Although I yearn to escape, traveling does not mean crawling out of this skin that is mine; My skin and my soul, they must stay attached, however, in each and every place that I visit, I feel a piece of my soul peel himself off, and walk away, step by step. Little by little, I begin to believe that I have lost myself…

I now ask you to consider, truly, how astronomically beautiful it is that there are pieces of me in every city that I have set foot in.

Throughout all corners of the world, I have seen nearly one hundred different versions of myself.

With this, I struggle to determine where home is.

I have found home in more places and more people than I ever would have wished. If you ask me where I call home, I will ponder telling you that the perfume I wear daily is from a shopping center in Germany.

I will think of pulling the lip oil out of my pocket and showing you the jagged tin from Egypt.

I will tell you that I inhale France every time I drunkenly throw the cigarette box into my purse, and my lighter is from a roadside shop in Greece. I wear Spain in my tattoos and the States in my piercings.

I ate honey from Argentina on my toast this morning, and I purchased my coffee beans from Brazil…

I guess I would reply that home is anywhere but my own skin.

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Dawn Powell Student Poem Runner-up

I am the Owl I am the Owl. High above the Earth, I perch on dampened wood. Sturdy are the branches That support my tired body. Yet, with every breeze We dance with staggering grace To the music of frenzied leaves.

Returned from delivering flight, Haven tasted the clouds, I eye the world beneath me. Cautious wonder intrudes the mind. Can a being of the sky Ever exist below the trees, Littered with the resting fallen?

The height of my life Is my place of contentment. My legs can not carry me Across the carpet of dirt So scarcely before explored. These wings serve as transport Their flight delivers me.

I soar with the winds

Confining to their will. Gravity combats my body, My feathers distorted and wild. The Earth calls me downward, Refusing my mother`s beckoning arms, My wings embrace the desolate air. Returned to the dampened perch, I watch through the leaves, High above the Earth.

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Dawn Powell Alumni/Faculty/Staff Winner

Grackles

A hundred grackles emerge, casting

A vast shadow that swells and stretches across The morning sky, like a pair of gloved hands, gloved in black, silencing the dawn.

Wings clapping, a hundred birds dive Into tall pines, swooping and swirling like whispers

In a whirlwind or a cape unfurling, Before drawing down to earth.

Their reckless claws scrape and scratch

At the tender forest floor furiously

Casting chunks of peat into the air like flakes

Of black ash from a forgotten fire. They scuttle

Through dusty leaves, tangles of sticks and Nutshells snapping at gnats and gulping pulpy worms.

Sated, a hundred birds poise their yellow eyes upward, and take Wing, two hundred wings, furiously beating upward, Rising like boredom and sounding

Like so many kisses goodbye.

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Dawn Powell Alumni/Faculty/Staff Runner-up

Devout Through Doubt

I didn’t ask to be here…

My conception was the beginning of things that happened to me I didn’t ask for. How could You insert the depths of fear into a body destined for trauma after trauma and nothing more? As if one third pain, and the rest a gaping hole is supposed to make up some semblance of a soul worthy of entering the home of the Creator. The Creator of the shambles that make up my life Of the shackles that are my innermost feelings Of the shadows that constantly consume me… As if shortcoming were the only color You had to paint my life.

My child.

When I created you, I took a piece of the sun, shining bright though it continually burns. I have called you to be someone who turns everything she has been through into an inspiration. You say shambles and I say pieces. You say shackles and I say perfectly timed releases. You see the shadows, and I see the light, But the only reason you see darkness is because you continue to fight me. You were not created to break down, but to help others break through. Before you were in your mother’s womb I knew you. I knew you were a survivor. I knew you would question your pain as if I destined your life to be a game that you would never win.

You are but a seed that has been planted beneath the richest of soils. Just as seeds get what they need to bloom, you will obtain strength from your turmoil to be able to receive the blessings I have in store for you.

God, You say I am the sun, but the burning is too much. You say I will be an inspiration, but my hesitation is that I won’t make it through the trials and tribulations. I cannot win a game that gives me loaded dice whenever it’s my turn to play. Either way, the hand I’ve been dealt says do not pass go, do not collect $200, skip the next two turns, move back two spaces…

When will my hand be full of jokers and aces instead of jokes and disgraces?

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My daughter, it is okay to not understand and question why you’ve been dealt what you consider to be a bad hand. But remember, when you feel like you’re in the middle of a circus, It is in your weakness, that I am made perfect. You can’t experience peace without knowing what you are going through is just a piece of the puzzle. This piece has rough edges, but it all comes together and makes the picture of your life that I have called beautiful.

It is a blessing to suffer, because through that suffering, you get to know the bottom. At the bottom, you will find Me. At the top, you will find me. When you feel like you’re surrounded Know that I surround you. I have walked with you. I have carried you. Yet you still choose to fear me. I have talked to you and you’ve listened, Yet you choose not to really hear me.

I am not worthy, my Lord.

You are worthy because I have given you breath. Instead of condemning you to an eternal death, I have personally and purposefully written your name on an invitation That will be signed and sealed by a recommendation from my Son. On the days when you are not feeling enough, And you cannot muster the strength to look up, Get down.

When you don’t feel like you are prepared, And you are hoping and praying that my favor isn’t always fair, When you keep trying and trying and all you do is fall Know that I do not call the equipped, I equip the called. When you think I have taken everything, I have taken anything that was put in your life to harm you. You just have to let it go.

You are strong, you are important, you are special, and you are mine. All things come together for those who love me, And I am always on time.

You will go through some storms as a result of sin, But you will fight and you will win, Because on your team stands my Son, And because of Him, you have already won. And after your battles, when you’re feeling damaged and diminished, Know that all I have told you is written, And it is already finished.

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Kate Carter CORE Award Winner

Shifting British Identity seen over The Remains of the Day, Mrs. Dalloway, and Beyond

Through the majority of British literary history, there has been an integral theme present in the vast majority of the most popular and influential works that attempts to ascribe a sense of superiority around the British people and their identity. This identity, which can be popularly summarized in the “Keep Calm and Carry On” slogan of the early 2000’s is that of a defiant, stoic-ideology that promotes rigid societal standards of dignity and honor, from the monarch on the throne to the disgraced gutter rat, living in impoverishment. Ironically, the British themselves seemingly cannot define what their national identity is, despite it being obvious enough that it is even a world-wide stereotype (“What is Britishness Anyways?”). All who actively partook in British society from the beginning of the European Colonial Era to the post World War IImodernist world, were expected to adhere to these standards, or suffer social ostracization. Despite this general adherence though, the identity of the British people shifted with their publishing time periods. Their stoic identity could not indefinitely withstand the waves of history, as the three novels Pride and Prejudice, Mrs. Dalloway, and The Remains of the Day showcase. As this identity shifted, generally losing strength with each passing year, so did the British Empire, as the unquestionable control and prestige of their governing social structure disintegrated alongside the prestige and organizational integrity of their colonial possessions. Set before the Victorian Era of the British Empire, Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen in 1813 examines this social construct during the on-set of the golden age for Britain and her people. Their power was rising steadily with each year, marking the beginning of the end for Napoleon Bonaparte’s French Empire and their dominance over European affairs. The British aristocracy and monarchy were growing more powerful, well influenced by the ideals of the Enlightenment, but were yet kept socially conservative by an Anglican faith through the Protestant-sect Church of England. Bearing this combination of authority over the subjects of Britain, this stoic identity was also beginning some of its most powerful days with an upcoming continuation by Queen Victoria throughout the Victorian Era.

Jane Austen’s novel is an examination of not only the British Stoic-class system, on the cusp of becoming the most influential aristocracy on the planet, but how the factors of wealth and gender play in that society. Austen displays three main contributing factors to how an

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individual can be relatively successful in this societal field. First and foremost, a character must follow vastly strict guidelines if they wish to comfortably participate and survive the ladder in the British societal game. Threatening to, or outright breaking those controlling guidelines almost guarantees certain disgrace and ostracization from the rest of society, obliterating any chance for an entire family name to either remain in or obtain a certain societal status. This becomes evident once Lydia Bennet begins her scandalous affair to Mr. Wickham, threatening to ruin the Bennet name alongside the other sister’s chances of beneficial marriages. Lydia ignorantly risked her family dropping from what little social-grace they had in their cold, stoic society, almost out-casting the family and destroying any chance for their actual survival (Vaijayanti).

Pride and Prejudice’s protagonist family of Bennets not only showed their vulnerability to this rigid social structure, but also a sharp contrast and general docility towards the wealthy, upper-class characters of the aristocracy who dominated society. While in a secret contrast with one another throughout the novel, seen by the matriarchal women of the novel playing the societal structure as if it were a game of chess, conflict between the two sides never overtly erupted outside of Mr. Darcy’s snub of Elizabeth Bennet in the beginning of the novel. Though Mrs. Bennet and Elizabeth spoke often of a general detest for Mr. Darcy in the opening chapters of the novel, their grudge was never addressed openly to the society, hardly going further than secret whispers behind closed-doors, showcasing an opinionated lower-class society that still feared an upper-class, wealthy prowess.

Only an outside force would be able to challenge the stoic, wealthy, aristocratic dominance over society with any real aptitude, and just five years of that challenge was enough to fully stop any upwardly-projected progress towards maintaining the status-quo over society, emboldening the lower-class to have more say in shaping their own society’s identity. Angry, broken, and emboldened by the physical and psychological horrors of World War I, the lowerclasses began demanding returns on the sacrifices they made in the trenches and on the home front. These returns demanded came in the form of a breaking from the overbearing nature of the aristocracy’s constructs, that governed their lives into the unparalleled slaughter and loss of the war and all the hardships that followed it. The lower-classes’ trust in the upper-class had begun fading rapidly as the British Empire began dealing with crisis after crisis, such as the Irish Question, economic depressions, growing desire for self-autonomy amongst the dominions, and the formation of various political “-isms.” The empire survived the war by the skin of its teeth, standing as the only remaining government to retain an aristocracy and monarchy not engulfed in revolution or partition by 1918, in comparison to the Russian and German Empires.

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Though in keeping with the ideals of stoicism that upper-class narrators would have ascribed to in 1925 during the publishing of Mrs. Dalloway, evidence of a growing social divide/ national identity between a damaged and less passive lower-class, and a slipping upper-class become apparent in Woolfe’s novel. Most evidently, the divide is seen directly between the damaged combatants and sufferers of World War I, and the upper-class individuals who aimed to ignore and neglect their obvious needs for help. As Septimus Smith struggles through numerous episodes of what he endured in the trenches of France, Clarissa Dalloway recalls days of her past as she prepares for the only matter of outward importance to her, her party. As the upper-class is worrying about party guests, re-solidifying their place in society, and attempting to deport legitimate British citizens to Canada, the lower-class is struggling with episodes of PTSD that make the concerns of the Dalloway social-circle seem frivolous in comparison. Despite the aristocracy’s best efforts to ignore the needs of the lower-class, the public traumas of Septimus Smith’s episodes with PTSD are impossible for the characters to ignore, as they all longingly reflect back to a time where their place in society was as detached from commoner reality, filled with romantic boat rides and days at the estates with no real responsibilities (Vaijayanti). It is this goal that Clarissa Dalloway and the rest of her upper-class peers wish to return to, moving on and forgetting the war ever happened. Their part of society is prepared to move ahead with their pompous and self-centered lives, dumping off their responsibilities to those who are damaged and broken, who cannot presently function in the society they desire to recreate to overseas. In support of this argument “World War I shattered many assumptions about society and humanity, the poetry of the first world war and the literature that came afterwards was often unsettling, disruptive and emphasized new interests and approaches” (“The Twentieth Century”). In order to attempt to recuperate on what was lost though these now breaking, societal relations, the aristocracy began moving further along in an attempt to drag the rest of the population with them, eventually towards right-winged politics and fascism in response to the growing calls of liberal-socialist politics.

Determined to restore their lost power and the prestige of Britain’s stoic identity, a group of aristocrats attempted to turn to right-winged, fascist politics in order to regain a resemblance of the order they had during the era of Jane Austen and Queen Victoria. Because the common citizen gained so much confidence and momentum in society by losing what they did in World War I, the aristocracy believed they could convince the people to restore their authority in the country by promising another British golden era. In order to do so, they declared they would return Britain’s greatness, promising to put the people of England first, and protect them from outside economic forces and corrupt politics. As it would turn out, the majority of the working-

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class population would not take to the aristocracies’ reattempts of subjugation, permanently marking a shift in British social-identity and further hacking away at the old constructs that kept it in place. It would be these fascist policies that the common citizen rejected that would help to engulf the world into the Second World War, ensuring another generation of men in Britain would have to fight for control of Europe and the rest of the British dominions against other fascist powers.

Just as the First World War would significantly damage the powers and authorities of the upper-class aristocracy, World War II would virtually spell the destruction of their influence in the country. This difference in British identity was clearly seen by 1989, having heavily shaped Kazuo Ishiguro’s novel The Remains of the Day. In BBC journalist Oliver Guiberteau’s article on the topic, a professor of history at Ryerson University in Canada is quoted pointing out how the British had to come to terms with what they had lost, and looked for things that still made them superior. The working-class would get their chance to display an excellent stoic identity during The Blitz of London, forging a new identity from their survival (Guiberteau). Not only did Ishiguro’s novel outline a national shame in allowing the promises of fascism to infect the minds of what were supposed to be the country’s best products, such as King Edward VIII, it also outlined the national desires for the aristocracy to fade out of from any kind of legitimate power and influence. Lord Darlington’s failures to install fascism, combined with World War II’s need for the lower-class to muster all possible manpower, created the biggest shift to British identity that the country would see, with the power in the hands of the serving class to tell their story and decide precedents. The BBC argues that the famed Battle of Britain during World War II became central to what it meant to be British, and for the duration of the war, a new kind of stoic identity would be created in defiance of the fascist powers seeking their destruction, an identity of lower-class endurance against all odds, and no matter the cost to defeat Germany and Hitler’s allies (“What is Britishness Anyways?”).

Questions surrounded Britain’s national stoic identity as the country came to their own realizations about the order they served. While there were those with pre-set agendas who were prepared to move forward in this new Britain, others such as protagonist Mr. Stevens in The Remains of the Day feel a sense of loss and uncertainty in this new identity. When Mr. Farraday arrives from the United States to take control of Darlington Hall, Mr. Stevens feels an unease towards him due to Farraday’s entirely different attitude towards him, in comparison to Lord Darlington’s. While Stevens ventures further on his journey across the English countryside to meet with his ex-co-worker and romantic relation, Miss Kenton, he makes many realizations that the values and identities of the British people have shifted away from the trust in the aristocracy,

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to an ignorance of them at best. Though Mr. Stevens retains some level of loyalty to Lord Darlington and the stoic, aristocratic values that he stood for, the rest of the county has moved on from faith and adherence to that identity. In the novel, the reader can speculate that some of the commoners of England that Stevens encounters on his journey even look at the aristocratic ways and values comedically, as he enters a town where some of them possibly prop him up artificially on a figurative pedestal due to his social behavior in a changed society-in direct conflict with the dignity and prestige of his post in the past. As Steven’s narration and recollection of his past becomes questionable in-terms of legitimacy, the reader is left to wonder if his lack of social comfortability is due simply to an indoctrination of servitude to Lord Darlington, or if the reality of the British Empire has always been the way it was at the novel’s present-day, and the aristocracy’s power was only delusions of grandeur. What confidently remains of the day is a changed British identity, with the light of aristocratic dignity and prestige from their sun fading into the darkness of history, alongside the ending of the British Empire and the societal identities it brought with it.

Over the course of Pride and Prejudice, Mrs. Dalloway, and The Remains of the Day, a shift in British identity occurs in relation to their adherence of a social construct that the wealthy and powerful upper-class aristocracy put in place to govern the country through status. Jane Austen’s Pride and Prejudice shows a lower-class, mostly docile in their compliance with the social construct of British Stoicism, hardly risking any chances to challenge the authority of the upper-class for fear of social shame and ostracization. Over 100 years later of British literature, Virginia Woolfe’s Mrs. Dalloway shows a different picture of social identity, with a lower-class suffering from issues in the aftermath of World War I, and making them much less ignorable, as well as much more prolific in British society. By Kazuo Ishiguro’s The Remains of the Day, the power structure of influence over national British identity had completely shifted, with an old aristocracy almost invisibly forgotten outside of flashbacks, and a much more relaxed social structure created in their place.

Works Cited:

Guiberteau, Oliver. “The Truth about British Stoicism.” BBC Travel, BBC, 2 Nov. 2020, https://www.bbc.com/travel/article/20201101-the-truth-about-british-stoicism?msclkid=a588bad 4c6a511ec9082bae33054b58f.

“The Twentieth Century.” English Department, University of Delaware, https://sites.udel.edu/britlitwiki/the-twentieth-century/.

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Vaijayanti, Prasad Mahabal. “Victorian Society Social Structure.” Victorian Era, 30 June 2020, https://victorian-era.org/victorian-era-society.html.

“What Is Britishness Anyway?” BBC News, BBC, 10 Sept. 2002, http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/uk/1701843.stm.

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Kate Carter CORE Award Runner-up

Public Schools vs Charter Schools: How Funding Impacts Children K-12

In the United States, one of the top priorities in a parent's mind is what school their child will attend. Is the school accessible? Does it meet the specific needs of their child? Is it affordable? Public schools and charter schools are just two of the options parents have in the U.S. Both of these schools are publicly funded, but not to an equal extent in Ohio. A family’s choice in schools is an important one, and they should have many options available to them. However, underfunded public schools leave many rural families with limited to no options.

Public schools are publicly funded and operated. These schools rely on funding from both the state government and from property taxes. They are held to standards set by the state government and the district that the school is located in. Some public schools are only accessible to families who live in that specific school district, while others offer open-enrollment. Not all public schools are accessible to everyone, but every child has access to at least one. In the United States, the Constitution grants every child the right to education, regardless of one’s “race, ethnic background, religion, or sex, or whether they are rich or poor, citizen or non-citizen” (American Civil Liberties Union). Public schools are an essential means to education for many families in the U.S., making funding to them extremely important. Without proper funding, this essential service cannot educate students to the best of their ability. Families might argue that by only supporting local public schools, it limits the amount of choices families can make about their child’s education, hence why some families turn to charter schools.

Charter schools allow parents to have more choice in their child’s education. These schools are privately organized and are separate from the states’ and districts’ guidelines for public schools. Charter schools allow parents to individually select which aspects of their child's education are important to them and send them to a school that meets their needs. Recently, the United States has seen a shift when it comes to education. More and more people are turning to charter schools. According to researchers from the National Center for Research on Education Access and Choice, charter schools boast high test scores and graduation rates, and prove to be

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extremely successful (Harris and Chen). The opportunity to choose their child’s school is an aspect of these schools that are appealing to parents. One criticism of the organization of charter schools is that they aren’t held accountable to the same extent that public schools are. While public schools are held to state-wide guidelines, charter schools are privately operated. Their curriculums are decided by private groups, and they aren’t required to disclose what their funding goes towards in the school. Despite this criticism, charter schools have continued to grow in enrollment over the past couple of decades (Churchill). With an increase in enrollment comes the call for an increase in government funding.

In Ohio, Governor Mike DeWine strongly supports the ability for families to have a choice in their child’s school. He believes that that choice is a “vital” one and aims to raise awareness about the options available to families (PR Newswire). While that is important, it isn’t always realistic for families living in rural areas. In Ohio, charter schools are mainly found in urban areas, making them inaccessible to families in rural areas. Charter schools mainly cater towards the needs of those living in or near well-populated cities. Focusing funding on charter schools ignores Ohioans who don’t have the ability to enroll in these schools. Charter schools also require some students to make a longer commute to school. Because most of these schools can be attended by students from outside of the district, they attract people from other towns. Not all students have reliable transportation for the distance it may take them to get to school. This could be a factor that diminishes a family’s ability to choose a charter school, making the school inaccessible to many Ohioans.

Governor DeWine is openly supportive of charter schools and mainly focuses on funding them over public schools. However, the majority of children K-12 attend public schools. According to Public School Review, a website that breaks down school attendance data for the 2022/2023 school year, there are 323 charter schools in Ohio, serving 119,291 students. Meanwhile, there are 3,136 public schools, serving 1,580,547 students (Ballotpedia). These statistics show that far more students would benefit from state funding for public schools rather than charter schools. DeWine could help more teachers and students have the resources and services they need to achieve a meaningful education if he chose to focus on state funding for public schools. Despite this, DeWine prioritizes the “choice” aspect of charter schools rather than the consequences of poor public schools. These consequences are faced by children who may not have any say in which school they attend. Regardless of their innocence in the situation,

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they suffer through the diminishing resources, services, and programs offered by their school.

Though choice is important to DeWine, many rural Ohioans are left without one when it comes to their child’s education. In rural areas, public schools are usually the only option, especially for low-income families. Most of the charter schools in Ohio are in the cities. Out of the 323 charter schools total in Ohio, a majority are found in the state’s three most populated counties alone. There are 81 in Franklin County, 73 in Cuyahoga County, and 22 in Hamilton County (Public School Review). This makes the majority of charter schools in Ohio only accessible to those in or around Ohio’s three biggest cities. This especially affects low-income rural families because they may not have the resources to travel to the city every day. Some may argue that since most of Ohio’s population is concentrated in urban areas, it makes sense that most funding would go to those places. It is true that funding charter schools would help a lot of people, but funding public schools would help more. Funding public schools helps both rural and urban families at the same time. Solely focusing on charter schools primarily benefits urban families. One must also take into account that there are still families in urban areas that cannot attend charter schools, so funding public schools would also benefit them. There are more people attending public schools in Ohio, and this applies to both urban and rural areas. Overall, prioritizing state funding for public schools would not only benefit most rural families, but also urban families.

The dismissal of rural families’ needs are shown in current-day policies that DeWine passes. In October 2022, DeWine announced that funding would be given to religious institutions, non profits, preschools, and non-public schools to help these institutions upgrade their security measures against acts of terrorism (“Governor DeWine Announces”). Though the messaging is vague in the announcement, the “acts of terrorism” likely refers to school shootings. This is an issue that public schools also face, yet they are left off the list of institutions that are receiving aid. Many rural public schools are already poor and would benefit from the same funding. By ignoring public schools, DeWine is also ignoring the majority of people who voted him into office. Five of the six most populated counties in Ohio voted for the opponent of DeWine in the 2018 gubernatorial election (“Interactive Election Results”). It is in these counties that have the most charter schools. It could be argued that DeWine is not focusing on the interests of those in the counties that voted him into office.

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mainly rely on the district’s property taxes. In places with opportunities for economic growth, this may be attainable. The political culture of a town can greatly affect taxes. People in rural areas largely vote conservatively. This includes voting for lower taxes, including property taxes. If residents in a conservative town vote for lower property taxes, the school district is left with a small budget. In Ohio, the district doesn’t get as much funding from the state government and can’t rely on the district’s taxes, so schools suffer. This means less money for infrastructure, school programs, resources, services, and teachers. Another hindrance to rural school funding is the lack of commercial activity. Rural towns don’t have as much industry as cities, so not as much money flows into these rural towns. There’s less growth, both financially and in population size. This type of town is largely unappealing to young families. People don’t want to move to towns where there aren’t many commercial venues or family-friendly activities. They also don’t want to bring their families to a place where schools are underfunded. An important factor for many families when searching for a new home is what the schools are like. Less and less people who care deeply about the prosperity of schools move to these rural towns. As a result, funding for public schools continues to dwindle.

One example of underfunded public schools is in a rural town called Madison, Ohio. Located in Lake County in Northeast Ohio, Madison Local Schools has struggled financially for decades. In this town, school levies rarely pass. As of July 2021, the Madison school district has had to cut 89 staff positions over 11 years because of insufficient funding (DeBus). To put that into perspective, there are currently only 227 staff members in 2023 according to the Madison Local Schools’ staff directory. This loss of staff has significantly hurt students’ education. Over the course of many years, the schools have had to cut program after program. This also affects teachers’ jobs and job security. Madison High School has gone from three foreign languages taught to just one. They were also forced to cut the honors program at the middle school. Students and teachers are affected by this lack of funding when it comes to the school’s infrastructure. At the high school, there are plastic trash cans that are designated and labeled with the purpose of catching water from the ceiling every time it rains. The school also has an elevator that is frequently out of service, making the school inaccessible to students who rely on the elevator to reach their classes on the second floor. The Madison Local School District is just one exhaustive example of what many teachers and students in public schools are experiencing due to a lack of state funding from Governor DeWine.

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Because of the dwindling quality of public schools, charter schools are in high demand. Charter schools are in such high demand that they have a lottery-type admission system. Whoever is lucky enough to be chosen gets to attend these state-funded schools. Unlucky families have to submit to their second option. This causes some to argue that since charter schools are in high demand, they should receive more funding. However, charter schools would be less in-demand if families had wider access to well-funded public schools. Many families’ opposition to their districts’ public schools stems from the lack of resources or opportunities that are offered. With better state funding, the resources and opportunities could improve. Before focusing on charter schools, DeWine should focus on the approximately 1.5 million students in Ohio who are already enrolled in public schools. With better funding to public schools, the disparity in quality between the types of schools would diminish. Students from previous generations had more educational opportunities than the current generation when attending public schools as state funding continues to wane. Students in Ohio today are suffering the consequences of their Governor’s and towns’ lack of funding. With the limited state funding, students in K-12 public schools are facing a continuous shortage in educational benefits. This challenge to education is a state-wide issue that needs immediate action for students’ benefit.

Works Cited

American Civil Liberties Union. “Your Right to Equality in Education.” American Civil Liberties Union, www.aclu.org/other/your-right-equality-education. Accessed 20 Oct. 2022. Ballotpedia. “Public Education in Ohio.” Ballotpedia, ballotpedia.org/Public_education_in_Ohio. Accessed 18 Oct. 2022.

Churchill, Aaron. “E-schools Drive Ohio’s Charter-school Growth.” The Thomas B. Fordham Institute, 17 Mar. 2014, fordhaminstitute.org/national/commentary/e-schools-drive-ohios-charter-schoolgrowth. DeBus, Bill, et al. “Madison School District Levy Rejected.” News-Herald, 19 July 2021, www.news-herald.com/2021/05/04/madison-school-district-levy-rejected. “Governor DeWine Announces Availability of Safety and Security Support for Religious Institutions, Nonprofits, Preschools, Non-Public Schools.” Mike DeWine Governor of Ohio, 14 Oct. 2022,

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Harris, Douglas N., and Feng Chen. “The Bigger Picture of Charter School Results.” Education Next, vol. 22, no. 3, Summer 2022, pp. 30–35. EBSCOhost, https://search-ebscohost-com.lecproxy.lec.edu/login.aspx?

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“Interactive Election Results Map.” Ohio Historical Election Results, maps.ohioelectionresults.com/internal/G/2018. Accessed 18 Oct. 2022.

PR Newswire. “Governor Mike DeWine Proclaims Jan. 23-Jan. 29 ‘Ohio School Choice Week’; Recognizes Options as Vital in K-12 Education.” PR Newswire US, 21 Jan. 2022. EBSCOhost, https://search-ebscohost-com.lecproxy.lec.edu/login.aspx?

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Public School Review. “Top 10 Best Cuyahoga County Public Charter Schools (2022-23).” Public School Review,

www.publicschoolreview.com/ohio/cuyahoga-county/charter. Accessed 17 Oct. 2022.

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“Top 10 Best Hamilton County Public Charter Schools (2022-23).” Public School Review, www.publicschoolreview.com/ohio/hamilton-county/charter. Accessed 20 Oct. 2022. ---.

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