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‫ﻏﺮﻭﺏ ﺧﺮﻭﺷﺨﻮﺍﻧﺎﻥ ‪١۵........................................................................................................................................................‬‬ ‫ﺣﺪﺱ ﺯﺩﻡ ﻣﻲ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﺪ ﺗﻤﺮﮐﺰ ﻓﮑﺮﯼ ﺍﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺑﺮﻳﺰﺩ ‪ .‬ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺭﺍ ﮐﻨﺘﺮﻝ ﮐﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﺑﺎﺯﯼ‬ ‫ﮐﻪ ﺭﺍﻩ ﺍﻧﺪﺍﺧﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺧﻨﺪﻩ ﺍﻡ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ‪ .‬ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﻏﺮﻳﺪ‪» :‬ﺍﻋﺘﺮﺍﻑ ﮐﻦ ﺿﺪ ﺍﻧﻘﻼﺑﯽ؟!«‬ ‫»ﻧﻪ!‪ ...‬ﻧﻴﺴﺘﻢ‪«.‬‬ ‫ﻋﺼﺒﺎﻧﯽ ﺷﺪ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺧﻂ ﮐﺶ ﻳﺎ ﭼﻮﺏ ﺩﺳﺘﺶ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺖ ﺗﻮ ﺳﺮﻡ ﻭ ﻓﺮﻳﺎﺩ ﺯﺩ‪» :‬ﺍﻋﺘﺮﺍﻑ‬ ‫ﮐﻦ«‬ ‫ﺳﺮﻡ ﺩﺭﺩ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ‪ ،‬ﺩﺳﺘﻢ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﺭﻭﯼ ﺳﺮﻡ ﻭ ﺍﺯ ﻧﺎﭼﺎﺭﯼ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪» :‬ﺑﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺿﺪﺍﻧﻘﻼﺑﻢ‬ ‫!«‬ ‫ﺳﺮﺵ ﺭﺍ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﮏ ﺁﻭﺭﺩ ﻭ ﺁﻫﺴﺘﻪ ﮔﻔﺖ‪» :‬ﺑﺮﺍﯼ ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﻣﯽ ﭘﺮﺳﻢ‪«.‬‬ ‫ﮐﻼﻓﻪ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﻧﻤﻲ ﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﭼﻪ ﺑﮕﻮﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻧﺎﺭﺍﺣﺘﯽ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪» :‬ﺩﺭﺳﺘﻪ ﻫﻢ ﺿﺪ ﺍﻧﻘﻼﺑﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻫﻢ ﻧﻴﺴﺘﻢ!«‬ ‫ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﭼﻨﺎﻥ ﻣﺤﮑﻢ ﺯﺩ ﺭﻭﯼ ﺑﺎﺯﻭﻱ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺭﺍﺳﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﮐﻪ ﺩﺳﺘﻢ ﻣﻮﺭﻣﻮﺭ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻫﻢ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﺯﻭﯼ ﺍﻡ ﺑﻴﺤﺲ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﻧﺘﻮﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﺗﺎﺏ ﺑﻴﺎﺭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎ ﮔﺮﻳﻪ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ‪» :‬ﭼﺮﺍ ﻣﯽ ﺯﻧﯽ؟ ﺍﺯ ﺟﻮﻧﻢ ﭼﯽ‬ ‫ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺍﯼ!«‬ ‫ﺑﻴﺸﺘﺮ ﻋﺼﺒﺎﻧﯽ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﻳﻘﻪ ﺍﻡ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ ﻭ ﭼﻨﺪﺿﺮﺑﻪ ﭘﺸﺖ ﺳﺮﻫﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺳﺮ ﻭﺻﻮﺭﺗﻢ ﺯﺩ‬ ‫ﻭ ﻓﺮﻳﺎﺩ ﺯﺩ‪» :‬ﺻﺪﺍﺗﻮ ﺑﻴﺎﺭ ﭘﺎﺋﻴﻦ! ﻣﺮﺍ ﻣﺴﺨﺮﻩ ﻣﻲ ﮐﻨﯽ؟«‬ ‫ﻧﺎﭼﺎﺭ ﺷﺪﻡ ﺳﺮﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺗﻮ ﺩﺳﺘﻬﺎﻳﻢ ﭘﻨﻬﺎﻥ ﮐﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﻫﻤﺎﻥ ﻭﻗﺖ ﺁﻥ ﮐﺴﯽ ﮐﻪ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﺳﺎﮐﺖ ﮔﻮﺷﻪ ﺍﯼ ﺍﻳﺴﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺁﻣﺪ ﺟﻠﻮ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ ‪» :‬ﻭﻟﺶ ﮐﻦ! «‬ ‫ﺑﺎﺯﺟﻮ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺍﺯ ﺳﺮﻡ ﺑﺮﺩﺍﺷﺖ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻥ ﺭﺍ ﺻﺪﺍ ﺯﺩ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﺒﺮﺩ ﺩﺳﺘﺸﻮﻳﯽ‬ ‫ﺗﺎ ﺳﺮ ﻭ ﺻﻮﺭﺗﻢ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺸﻮﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺳﺮﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎﻻ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻡ ﻭ ﺍﺯ ﭘﺎﻳﻴﻦ ﭼﺸﻤﺒﻨﺪ ﺟﻠﻮﻳﻢ ﺭﺍ ﻧﮕﺎﻩ ﮐﺮﺩﻡ ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺍﻳﻨﺒﺎﺭ ﺗﻮﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﺩﻭ ﺗﺎ ﭘﺎﯼ ﻻﻏﺮ ﺑﺒﻴﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﭘﻮﺗﻴﻦ ﭘﺎﻳﺶ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﮐﺮﺩﻡ ﻃﺮﺯ ﺍﻳﺴﺘﺎﺩﻧﺶ‬ ‫ﺁﺷﻨﺎ ﺍﺳﺖ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻧﯽ ﮐﻪ ﺩﺳﺘﻢ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ‪ ،‬ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﺨﻮﺩ ﺁﻭﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﺠﺒﻮﺭ ﺷﺪﻡ ﻫﻤﺮﺍﻩ ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺑﺮﻭﻡ‪ .‬ﻓﻘﻂ ﺟﻠﻮﯼ ﭘﺎﻳﻢ ﺭﺍ ﻣﯽ ﺩﻳﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﮐﻮﺭﻣﺎﻝ ﮐﻮﺭﻣﺎﻝ ﻫﻤﺮﺍﻩ ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻥ ﺍﺯ ﺭﺍﻫﺮﻭﯼ ﺩﺭﺍﺯﯼ‬ ‫ﺑﺴﻮﯼ ﺩﺳﺘﺸﻮﻳﯽ ﺭﻓﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﺯﻟﺤﻈﻪ ﺍﯼ ﮐﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺗﺎﻕ ﺑﺎﺯﺟﻮﻳﯽ ﺑﻴﺮﻭﻥ ﺁﻣﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﭼﺎﺭ ﺑﺤﺮﺍﻥ ﻋﺠﻴﺒﯽ‬ ‫ﺷﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﺳﺎﻳﻪ ﺁﻥ ﺑﻴﮕﺎﻧﻪ ﮐﻪ ﮐﻨﺎﺭ ﺩﻳﻮﺍﺭ ﺍﻳﺴﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺭﻭﯼ ﺫﻫﻨﻢ ﺳﻨﮕﻴﻨﯽ ﻣﻴﮑﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﻧﻤﯽ ﺗﻮﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ‬ ‫ﺍﻓﮑﺎﺭﻡ ﺭﺍ ﻣﺘﻤﺮﮐﺰ ﮐﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﭼﻴﺰﻫﺎﯼ ﺁﺷﻨﺎﻳﯽ ﺗﻮ ﻣﻐﺰﻡ ﻭ‪‬ﻝ ﻣﻲ ﺧﻮﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﺗﺎ ﻣﯽ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ‬ ‫ﺑﻔﻬﻤﻢ‪ ،‬ﻟﻴﺰ ﻣﻴﺨﻮﺭﺩ ﻭ ﻣﺤﻮ ﻣﻲ ﺷﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﻪ ﺭﺍﻫﺮﻭ ﮐﻪ ﺭﺳﻴﺪﻳﻢ‪ ،‬ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻥ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺖ ﭘﺸﺖ ﺩﺭﯼ ﺑﺎﻳﺴﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺭﺍ ﮐﻪ ﺑﺎﺯ ﮐﺮﺩ ﺑﻮﯼ‬ ‫ﮔﻨﺪ ﻣﺴﺘﺮﺍﺡ ﺳﺮﻳﺪ ﺗﻮ ﺑﻴﻨﯽ ﺍﻡ ﻭ ﺍﺯ ﺁﻧﺠﺎ ﭘﻴﭽﻴﺪ ﺗﻮ ﺳﺮﻡ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﺑﺎﻻ ﻣﯽ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻡ ﮐﻪ ﻧﮕﻬﺒﺎﻥ‬ ‫ﺩﺳﺘﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺭﻭﯼ ﭘﺸﺘﻢ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺖ ﻭ ﻫﻠﻢ ﺩﺍﺩ؛ ﻫﻤﺰﻣﺎﻥ ﮔﻔﺖ ﭼﺸﻤﺒﻨﺪ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﺩﺍﺭﻡ ﺍﻣﺎ ﭘﺸﺖ ﺳﺮﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺍ ﻧﮕﺎﻩ ﻧﮑﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﻭﻥ ﭼﺸﻤﺒﻨﺪ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺭﺍﺣﺖ ﻭ ﺳﺒﮏ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﮐﺮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺧﺮﻭﺍﺭﻫﺎ ﺳﻴﺎﻫﯽ ﺍﺯ‬ ‫ﺭﻭﯼ ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻧﻢ ﻓﺮﺍﺭ ﮐﺮﺩﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﺑﺎ ﺍﻳﻨﮑﻪ ﻧﻮﺭ ﺧﻴﺮﻩ ﮐﻨﻨﺪﻩ ﻻﻣﭗ ﺩﺳﺘﺸﻮﻳﯽ‪ ،‬ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻧﻢ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭﺩ‬ ‫ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﭼﻮﻥ ﻣﻲ ﺗﻮﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﺩﻭﺭ ﻭ ﺑﺮﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺒﻴﻨﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﺷﻴﺮﻳﻨﯽ ﺑﻬﻢ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺩﺍﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﺮﺍﯼ ﺩﻣﯽ ﺍﺯ ﻇﻠﻤﺖ ﺭﻫﺎﻳﯽ ﻳﺎﻓﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺣﺘﯽ ﭼﻨﺪ ﺑﺎﺭ ﻧﻔﺲ ﻋﻤﻴﻖ ﮐﺸﻴﺪﻡ ﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﺯ ﺑﻮﯼ ﮔﻨﺪ‬