Rinto ising Above the Chaos Consciousness by Jocelyn Dietrich For a great deal of my life I had been stuck in the same unhealthy patterns that would negatively affect my physical, emotional and spiritual health for years to come. I’m talking about the better part of 15 years. It seems like as a society we are getting sicker and yet more comfortable in our toxic bodies. We have become complacent. Which in turn affects our emotional and spiritual health. Say what? Yes, we are ignoring the warning signs and refusing or even worse can’t hear when our body or spirit speaks to us. I’m not saying it’s a substitute for regular visits to our medical professionals but just think about it…we have the most amazing resources right at our fingertips – our intuition being one of them. The magical way our body simply knows what it needs and/or what to do. Its like having a bird’s eye view of our own situation. Unfortunately, when we choose to tune out our intuition, we obsess over things like yo-yo dieting, body image and become consumed by anxiety. When we get into this mindset, we are unable to see, hear, and sense the subtle cues. After many years of disordered eating, putting undue pressure on my body and being caught in the nasty binge/starve cycle that many women and men get sucked into for multiple reasons including societal pressures and childhood trauma. I slowly realized that my health was deteriorating at rapid speed especially for my relatively young age. With the help of some spiritual professionals as well as the power of my own intuition and new-found healer abilities I forced myself off the endless wheel of negative patterns that I had come to identify with. These negative patterns had literally become a part of my being. They had imprinted onto my soul and I clutched onto them with a vengeance. I honestly didn’t know who I was without identifying with 14

the negative patterns. They were my comfort and I welcomed it. Because of this I allowed these patterns to continue much longer than they had to. The prolonged cyclical eating patterns and blocking out my intuition was causing infection and disease to work its way through my body. In my case this was in the form of auto immune and candida. Once I accepted that I had a strong spiritual bond with allowing victim hood to control my life and realised that my thoughts, negative or positive would turn into the reality that is around me. Usually that looked and felt like chaos. Everyone’s version of chaos will be different. Ultimately, I decided to take some steps to break free. This too will look different for everyone. But the end goal is the same. Personally, I embarked on a few months’ worth of intense shadow work where I worked through accepting all parts of me, dark and light and the role that I played in continuing the chaos that was not intentionally started at my own hands as a young girl. Life isn’t always fair, and I had to let that go. I did two candida cleanses to get my body back on track and rid myself of all the years of pressure that binge eating put on my body. I try to eat intuitively. I worked on filling my house up with healthy and filling foods. I try to cook meals at home. I have incorporated light exercise (mainly walking) outdoors into my days. I meditate each morning and keep a journal of my daily thoughts. Good or bad they get put down on paper so that I can let them go at the end of the day. I surround myself with positive people. I started a food journal online which helps to fuel my creativity and keeps me motivated to continue the path of good health and happiness. Most importantly, although it was hard, I chose Feb / Mar 2019