Day 24 The Big Hurt of My Childhood On this 24th day of Authenticity, identify your “Big Hurt” from childhood. You might not have one, or you might have so many it’s hard to choose one. Map out what the hurt was and everyone who was involved in it. Again, err on the side of being thorough, as writing it out will offer a layer of clarity and some healing. If it is responsive to you, read it aloud to yourself, a Connection Buddy, or another supporter. My Big Hurt from childhood was my mother and father arguing, and one time it was a very bad scene. I was 11 years old. I chose for My Big Hurt the loss of my dog, who was run over at the same time my sister went off to college. That’s when I started using drugs in a serious way. I didn’t have a major hurt at that time, but an ongoing hurt, which was the whole family ignored me. My sisters got attention, but I was on my own. That was the Big Hurt. If the hurt is very deep in the brain, be sure that you do some Anger Cycles as they balance anger and go deep. Stay with expressing anger until it turns into gratitude. Think of it as an emotional refresh!
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