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Thirdshortbookofthisyear,Ihadacoupleofpoemsleft whichIdidn'tincludeinthepreviousbook,soIthoughtI'd makeanewone,withadifferentideaaswell,thisoneis goingtobeseparatedtotwoparts,thefirstparthasthree poemsaboutthepainfulbreakup,thepain,agonyand depressionthatcamealong,thesecondpartisalsogoingto includethreepoems,butthistimethey'reaboutthehappiness thatenteredthisperson'slifeafterthisheartbreakhas happened,oncethispersonhasmovedonandfoundtheone he'sbeendreamingof,howalloftheseeventshaveledhimto thismoment,howeverythingwasconnectedandhowthis heartbreakwasanimportantfactorforthismantoreachhis DESTINY. Youmightcallthisthetwosidesofthesamecoin,the darknessandthelight,themoonandthesun,regardless,I hopeyouenjoywhatI'vepreparedforyou. THANKYOU!
Another Test
Falling for you was a big mistake, we were going to end up together, fight for what’s next, I thought choosing you was the best decision I made, all I wanted to do was to hug you, feel you and in everything you did, I was ready to partake. I wish there was a way, a miracle that could happen, which would help me retake, my choices, my actions, my soul to wake, loving you was a great chapter of my life, the memories, the little talks, and everything we shaped, yes it hurts, my heart still aches, but I’m just not ready, not awake yet, to break this cassette. You once told me to hold your hand, feel your face, kiss your lips and let the night breeze do the rest, at that moment, I lost control, my mind went blank, felt like I was possessed, by your smile, by your eyes, the way they glowed, the way you were dressed, I never blamed myself for being in love with you, you were everything I wanted in a partner, ‘til the last sleep, in our relationship I was ready to invest, to give it all up, sacrifice my whole, just so you could live your best, at first everything was going great, nay amazing, like by heavens above, I got blessed, maybe I tried too hard, showed you more than your cold heart could comprehend, it’s just that my first and last goal, all I aimed for, was to make you impressed, I was wrong, I never should’ve texted you first, never should’ve approached you, I confess, but the moment you walked into the room, the moment I looked at your face, I got obsessed, like I needed to have you, to make you mine, to engrave your name on my chest, the pain that came along, the anger, the disappointment, all of those, I suppressed, my demons warned me, everyone saw me, being tortured, in agony, but against my right mind I pressed, eventually I understood what was happening, what I was going through, what was my destiny with you, you were a lesson, someone to help me grow, someone to show me what I needed to know, you were just another bloody test.
Still Have Faith
This room in my mind, this dark space, it’s where I hide all the memories of her, all in one place, the ones I’m afraid to visit, the ones that remind me of the fake love I chased, the ones that remind me of my awful mistakes, what I did, and everything I sacrificed that went to waste, to get to her, to make her mine, the challenges, the obstacles I faced, always chose to ignore, chose to unsee her toxic traits, what hurts is I still remember all of our conversations, all of our special dates, had her on my mind for far too long, that I got used to the pain’s taste, I’m constantly looking for a way out, searching for escapes, to rest my shoulders, remove these burdens, these heavy weights, to find someone else, someone that would bring happiness back into my life, someone I could embrace, her is hard to replace, but I know that whatever is behind those gates, regardless of whatever for me awaits, I still have hope, I still have my mates, I still have faith. We were supposed to stay together, forever grow old, through thick and thin, in sickness and in health, each other’s hands to hold, spent all of my time having her on my mind, many poems I wrote, despite the pain, plenty of songs I composed, just so I could see that smile, the one that is more expensive than gold, consulted my loved ones, all they said, and I quote “just leave her, forget about her and be bold”, maybe I should’ve listened, ended this earlier, but my ears were closed, felt like they didn’t want to hear anything bad about her, any negative thought, against these people, against my friends I opposed, I was wrong I admit, and truth be told, I thought she was my other half, nay, my whole, the one that pushes me forward, the one walking with me on this never ending road, to my pure heart and innocent mind, I apologize, by her deceiving charm, I left you get controlled, used to be the one who comforts, the one who listens, ended up being the one who needs to be consoled, I know I made you rich, when I bought all the lies you sold, oh it’s been a long ride, and I just want this to end, I just want my heart to turn cold.
Just Say You Love Me
Take me back to the night we met, when there was no remorse, nothing to regret, when all I craved for was your smile, and everything your lovely hands did, when every time I sat across your pretty face, I’d sweat, not because I was shy or that I needed my daily cigarette, but because that beauty of yours has become a threat, gave me core memories which got me worried that one day I’d have to force myself to forget, that one day I’d be on my knees, hands open, praying to God for my past to reset, for all of these events to not have happened yet, for me to no longer be upset. I miss your voice, when you used to call me, when I used to hear my name, the moments we spent together, when we used to sit, next to each other, breathe the same air, talk about our problems, struggles that held us back, dreams that we wanted to share, we always got along, barely fought, almost a perfect pair, whenever you were with me, I knew my future was also there, your name I was constantly mentioning, to my friends, family and even in my prayer, the loveliness that was surrounding you, all of the amazing dresses you used to wear, the way your beauty made me a different person, the way they made me declare, my love towards you, and the reasons why no one to you could be compared, I never thought you’d leave, I never thought I’d be in this much despair, but guess life is a lot of things, but for one thing, it isn’t fair, I’m happy believing a lie, so just say you love me, just say you care.
Queen to My Soul
They asked me, “what’s for you a perfect day?” So I said, when she’s by my side, it’s every day, even if it was about to rain, and the sky turned grey, we’d always find a way to turn this sad display into a fun colorful portray, our favorite song, we’d sit together and play, outside on the grass, next to her, my heart I want to lay, my soul to sway, because no matter, how short is her stay, she can make my whole world light up and turn my life into an everlasting holiday, she makes all the pain go away, makes me feel more than okay, say things only my eyes may, think of her even when I pray.
Hold me close, listen to my heart beating, oh how amazing is this feeling, being with her, truly gave my life a meaning, asleep or awake, of her I’m always dreaming, in my mind, her name, I’m keeping, of her beauty, I’m constantly speaking, touching her face, to my wounds it’s a healing, in angels, in heaven I started believing, the moment I look into her eyes, I find myself hardly breathing, like my soul has just hit the ceiling, her smile, to cheer me up, I’m always needing, memories of her, stuck in my hand, and they’re never leaving, stay with me, and let us begin achieving, all of the great things, together, our eternal love we will be preaching, two broken people, into our hearts, each other we allowed, built this relationship, made our love so profound, a queen to my soul, I crowned, to never leave, we vowed, in her eyes I drowned, smiling, joyful, elated, whenever she’s around, oh I’m keeping her, the most amazing girl, I found.
Beautiful Heaven
I wanna know how beautiful heaven can be for the living, so hold me close, let me hear your heart singing, the moment I look at your face, you make my world start spinning, whenever you’re not around, your smell I be missing, for you to live forever in my mind, I’m wishing, give it my all so you would never leave, I’m willing, the way you call me, the way you laugh, happiness into my life you’re bringing, myself to this relationship, I’m ready to be committing, your lips all day, I’m dreaming of kissing, oh who am I kidding ? I’m in love with you and that is just the beginning. I want you to know that you’re the best, the most amazing girl, different from the rest, even if someone goes looking from south to west, they wouldn’t be able to find another gem, not one like this, the way I found you, the way I fell into your arms, oh I’m so blessed, at first I thought you were just someone whose stay is short, in other words, just a guest, but then I saw that smile, the way you looked, the way you were dressed, and suddenly, without knowing it, in your eyes I got possessed, like something pulled me towards you, towards the heart that is beating inside your chest, oh how I was broken, the way I was depressed, you healed me, restored me, removed my stress, I know that I’ve never confessed, but my love for you, can no longer be suppressed, the way you charmed me, the way you got me obsessed, please stay on my mind, in my thoughts, that is my only request.
Make You My Bride
Girl I wanna stay with you ‘til the night is over, watch a movie, talk about our goals before we get older, please don’t go away, please stay and put your head on my shoulder, heal me and bring me delight, bring me closure, oh no matter what I’m going through, even if I’m stressed, I know with you I can find composure, the way I look at you, the way you look at me, you see me as your soldier, and for you I’d take a bullet to the heart, just to keep you safe, even travel to outer space, glorify your loveliness, your grace, everything about you, especially your traits, oh you’re so amazing, impossible to replace, stay and never let me forget your perfect face. Constantly thinking of you, it’s paradise in my mind, always questioning myself, how did I find, this rare gem buried deep, this one of a kind, gonna protect you, push you from behind, towards your achievements, your goals, forever by your side, too many thoughts, myself I must remind, that you’re a masterpiece, your soul is divined, I still dwell on how everything that I did led to this, on how these events have aligned, when that day came, the moment to message you replied, got me panicking, caught me by surprise, too much pressure, what do I text next, I couldn’t decide, that’s how much I was obsessed about you, the feelings I tried to hide, scared of being rejected, being declined, but I finally stopped these negative thoughts that have arrived, shut my demons, put my fears aside, asked you out, proved that from you I cannot be deprived, that I’m ready to spend the rest of my life with you, make you my bride.
