a new language with similar words. Language is not nourishment or shelter. I will persist, and persisting is important. O. The Knight of Cups The Knight of Cups represents a person in your life. One that cares about you and is loving. The feeling of hands on your shoulders. From Township, I set a course for Mike’s house. I set a course to drink cheap beer and make fun of a TV shows Like that show with a man who has an anger vein in his neck. He yells at bar owners to help them or something. That show is easy to make fun of. My stomach starts hurting on the way. I am not hungry, and it is very cold. It was so cold that when I woke up the next day, my muscles ached from tensing my body and shivering. O. The Three of Swords Uh oh. The Three of Swords represents heartache. That person-shaped divot in your bed will only last one more day. That t-shirt that they left on your floor will stop smelling like them. Alligators have sex. I wonder if that means alligators get lonely. Isn’t loneliness somehow connected to sex? My stomach hurts bad. As I walk, I calculate the nearest bathroom. Maybe a bar on Milwaukee. I can’t remember what the bar
is called. It becomes clear that the bar I can’t remember is not on this stretch of Milwaukee. Maybe the bar that I can’t remember is somewhere else. Ah, somewhere else. The Belly Shack. My stomach hurts as I enter the Belly Shack. I am a vegetarian, and I am not hungry, and I have an apartment near Western and Armitage above a pizza place. It does not affect you that I am a vegetarian. So please only think about it later, when it becomes important. I have not tried the pizza at the restaurant below my shelter. I use the bathroom at the Belly Shack. This event could be described as “ferocious.” O. The Knight of Pentacles (Reversed) A reversed Knight of Pentacles represents represents overworking yourself for material gain and neglecting your emotional health. YOU ARE BORING EVERYONE AROUND YOU. My stomach stops hurting after a ferocious event. My brain stops concentrating on anything. I am relaxed and drunk. I am warm in the Belly Shack on Armitage and Western. Near my shelter. Near the Blue Line train stop. I could have taken the Blue Line from California to Armitage but I didn’t. Instead I was cold. I like to be cold and think “I am cold.” I like to be hungry and think “I am hungry.”
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