NOURISHMENT IS ONE of the only two things humans need to persist—the other thing is shelter. Hello? Not sex. Hellooo? Not Lil Wayne Pandora. Hellooooo? Not magick. O. The Knight of Swords (Reversed)
She asked me if I read her the letter because I was having bad thoughts. I was not. At Township, I did a tired 8 minutes of standup comedy and drank a small plastic bottle of whiskey in the bathroom.
The Knight of Swords represents determination—victory by any means necessary. However, in its reversed position, it stands for futility. It’s like sinking in a well. Like being very low in a well and then sinking even lower. That’s how it is to sink in a well, I guess. I walk to a bar called Township on California and Milwaukee. It’s near Christmas. While walking, my exposed hand dries out and freezes because I am talking on the phone with my mom. The day before, I read her a letter of gratitude into a microphone at a show. I stood in front of her and an audience of forty to report her powers and describe her kindness. And I talked about how she held my hand when I woke up in the hospital. She held my hand for 23 hours--the most amount of hours you can be held in a hospital before it becomes a full day.
O. The Eight of Wands
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Wands represent inspiration, and the number eight represents a stage in a cycle of ten. Thus, the Eight of Wands is toward the end of a cycle of inspiration and creativity. Mental energy has been spilled on the matter around you, and the highest pitch is a noise coming from around the corner. I am not hungry, and I have an apartment. I am nourished and sheltered. Who knows? Maybe we should change the meaning of the word “nourishment.” We’ll have it mean something else. Instead, we’ll have it mean “when you stop feeling like you are full of mold.” Maybe I should just change the meaning of the word “nourishment” for myself, and everyone else will be confused when I speak in a