Ampersand 2014-15

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ŝ A publication of the Omicron Nu Chapter of Sigma Tau Delta The International English Society 2014-2015

Editorial Board Britney Gordon, Editor Hannah Mason Rachel Wurster

Special Thanks to: Alli Bertozzi-Proofreader Dave Thomas-Proofreader Tasha Taylor-Graphic Design/Layout

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Table of Contents

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Letters from Tom.............................................................1-4 Pittsburgh Overlook............................................................5 Enjamming........................................................................6 Kindred Spirits..................................................................7 Ivy.......................................................................................8 Bookended...........................................................................9 Idiosyncrasy................................................................10-16 Memphis Zoo at Sunset...................................................16 The Promise of Spring......................................................17 Night.................................................................................18 7KDW¡V (VSUHVVR 3DO Does That Complete Your Order?......................................20 Petal on a Wet, Black Bough.....................................21-23 No Good Deed Goes Unpunished......................................24 Lemma..............................................................................24 This Is Only Pain........................................................25-29 Thoughts............................................................................30 [The Setting of an Old Sun]...........................................30

Es Schneit.........................................................................31 There Were Three of Us, Once.....................................32-36 ĎŻ Â

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ŝŝŝ Fall in Grand Vue #1......................................................37 Stock................................................................................37 [B. Mary].........................................................................38 Awakening......................................................................38 [I was Feeling Hunger]...................................................39 Beast Within.............................................................40-42 Niagara Falls #1.............................................................43 Great Heights..................................................................43 Blizzard of 1888.............................................................44 My Selfish Apologies......................................................45 Final Frontier..................................................................46 Otto Zwicker.............................................................47-49 The Capital of West Virginia..........................................49 Muse of Wanderlust........................................................50 Into Yellow.......................................................................50 The Storm........................................................................51 12-by-19....................................................................52-57 ϰ

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>ĞƩĞƌƐ ĨƌŽŵ dŽŵ

DĂLJ ϳ

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ĞĂƌ ZĞĂĚĞƌ͕

dŚĞ ĮƌƐƚ ŵĞŵŽƌLJ / ŚĂǀĞ ŽĨ ŵLJ ĨĂƚŚĞƌ ǁĂƐ ĨƌŽŵ Ă ƚƌŝƉ ǁĞ ƚŽŽŬ ƚŽ ƚŚĞ 'ƌĂŶĚ ĂŶLJŽŶ͘ /

ĐŽƵůĚŶ͛ƚ ŚĂǀĞ ďĞĞŶ ŵŽƌĞ ƚŚĂŶ ƚŚƌĞĞ Žƌ ĨŽƵƌ͘ / ƌĞŵĞŵďĞƌ ŝƚ ďĞŝŶŐ ĚĂƌŬ Ăƚ ĮƌƐƚ͘ tĞ ǁĞƌĞ ƐƚĂŶĚŝŶŐ ŚŝŐŚ ŽŶ ĂŶ ŽǀĞƌůŽŽŬ͕ ĂďůĞ ƚŽ ƐĞĞ ĨŽƌ ŵŝůĞƐ ĂŶĚ ŵŝůĞƐ ŝŶ ĂůŵŽƐƚ ĂŶLJ ĚŝƌĞĐƟŽŶ͘ dŚĞŶ͕ ƐůŽǁůLJ͕ ƚŚĞ ƐƵŶ ďĞŐĂŶ ƚŽ ƐƟƌ ŝŶ ƚŚĞ ĚŝƐƚĂŶĐĞ͘ ƌŝŵƐŽŶ ůŝŐŚƚ ƌĂĚŝĂƚĞĚ ĨƌŽŵ ďĞŚŝŶĚ ƚŚĞ ĐůŽƵĚƐ͕ ǁĞĂǀŝŶŐ ŝŶ ĂŶĚ ŽƵƚ ŽĨ ƚŚĞ ĐĂŶLJŽŶ ĂƐ ĨĂƌ ĂƐ ƚŚĞ ĞLJĞ ĐŽƵůĚ ƐĞĞ͘ /ƚ ǁĂƐ ƚŚĞ ŵŽƐƚ ďĞĂƵƟĨƵů ƐŝŐŚƚ / ŚĂĚ ĞǀĞƌ ƐĞĞŶ͘ DLJ ĨĂƚŚĞƌ ĂŶĚ / ďŽƚŚ ƐƚŽŽĚ ƚŚĞƌĞ ũƵƐƚ ǁĂƚĐŚŝŶŐ͘ ^ŵŝůŝŶŐ͘ EĞŝƚŚĞƌ ŽŶĞ ŽĨ ƵƐ ƐĂŝĚ Ă ǁŽƌĚ͘ dŚĂƚ͛Ɛ ŚŽǁ / ůŝŬĞ ƚŽ ƌĞŵĞŵďĞƌ Śŝŵ ŶŽǁ͘

Ɛ / ůŝĞ ŚĞƌĞ ǁƌŝƟŶŐ ƚŚŝƐ ůĞƩĞƌ͕ / ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ŚĞůƉ ďƵƚ ƚŚŝŶŬ ŽĨ Śŝŵ͘ /͛ǀĞ ŶĞǀĞƌ ƐƉŽŬĞŶ ƚŽ ĂŶLJ

ŽĨ ƚŚĞ ŽƚŚĞƌ ŐƵLJƐ ŚĞƌĞ ĂďŽƵƚ ŵLJ ĨĂŵŝůLJ͘ ZŝŐŚƚ ŶŽǁ ŝƚ͛Ɛ ƐƟůů ƚŽŽ ĨƌĞƐŚ͘ EŽ ŽŶĞ ŚĂƐ ƌĞĂůůLJ ĂƐŬĞĚ ŵĞ ĂďŽƵƚ ŵLJ ůŝĨĞ ďĞĨŽƌĞ ĐŽŵŝŶŐ ŚĞƌĞ͘ ŶĚ ŶŽ ŽŶĞ ĞůƐĞ ƐĞĞŵƐ ŝŶ ƚŚĞ ŵŽŽĚ ƚŽ ƚĂůŬ ĂďŽƵƚ ƚŚĞŝƌ ŽǁŶ ůŝǀĞƐ ĞŝƚŚĞƌ͘ EŽ ŽŶĞ ĞdžĐĞƉƚ >ĞŽŶĂƌĚ ƚŚĂƚ ŝƐ͘ >ĞŽŶĂƌĚ ŝƐ ďLJ ĨĂƌ ƚŚĞ ƐŵĂƌƚĞƐƚ ŽŶĞ ŽĨ ƵƐ͘ ,Ğ ŝƐ ĂůƐŽ ƚŚĞ ĐƌĂnjŝĞƐƚ͘ ,Ğ ƚŽůĚ ŵĞ ŚĞ ƵƐĞĚ ƚŽ ǁŽƌŬ ĨŽƌ ƚŚĞ ŐŽǀĞƌŶŵĞŶƚ ďĞĨŽƌĞ ƚŚŝƐ͘ ůů / ŬŶŽǁ ŝƐ ƚŚĂƚ ŚĞ ǁŽƌŬĞĚ ŝŶ ƐŽŵĞ ŬŝŶĚ ŽĨ ůĂď͘ dŚĞ ƌĞƐƚ ŚĞ ƐĂLJƐ ŝƐ ͞ĐůĂƐƐŝĮĞĚ͘͟ ,Ğ ŶĞǀĞƌ ŚĂĚ ƟŵĞ ĨŽƌ ĨĂŵŝůLJ͕ ǁŚŝĐŚ Ăƚ ĮƌƐƚ / ƚŚŽƵŐŚƚ ǁĂƐ ƐĂĚ͕ ďƵƚ ŶŽǁ / ƚŚŝŶŬ ŚĞ ŝƐ ƚŚĞ ůƵĐŬLJ ŽŶĞ͘ dŚĞƌĞ ĂƌĞ ĚĂLJƐ ǁŚĞŶ / ǁŝƐŚ / ŶĞǀĞƌ ŚĂĚ Ă ĨĂŵŝůLJ ƚŽ ďĞŐŝŶ ǁŝƚŚ͘

ĞĨŽƌĞ Ăůů ƚŚŝƐ͕ / ǁŽƌŬĞĚ ĨŽƌ Ăŝƌ ƚƌĂĸĐ ĐŽŶƚƌŽů͘ / ǁĂƐ Ă ĐŽŵŵŝƩĞĚ ĨĂŵŝůLJ ŵĂŶ͘ DLJ

ǁŝĨĞ ĂŶĚ / ŚĂĚ Ă ƐŽŶ͘ ǀĞƌLJƚŚŝŶŐ ǁĞŶƚ ǁĞůů ĨŽƌ ƚŚĞ ůŽŶŐĞƐƚ ƟŵĞ͘ dŚĞ ůŽŶŐĞƐƚ ƟŵĞ ĞŶĚĞĚ ŝŶ :ƵůLJ Ă ĐŽƵƉůĞ LJĞĂƌƐ ďĂĐŬ͘ / ĐĂŵĞ ŚŽŵĞ ĨƌŽŵ ǁŽƌŬ ĞĂƌůLJ ŽŶĞ ĞǀĞŶŝŶŐ ƚŽ ƐƵƌƉƌŝƐĞ ŵLJ ǁŝĨĞ͘ tŝƚŚŽƵƚ ŐĞƫŶŐ ŝŶƚŽ ƚŽŽ ŵƵĐŚ ĚĞƚĂŝů͕ / ĨŽƵŶĚ ŚĞƌ ŝŶ ďĞĚ ǁŝƚŚ ĂŶŽƚŚĞƌ ŵĂŶ͘ dŚĂƚ ǁĂƐ ƚŚĞ ŵŽŵĞŶƚ ǁŚĞŶ / ƌĞĂůŝnjĞĚ ŽƵƌ ŐƌĞĂƚ ůŝĨĞ ƚŽŐĞƚŚĞƌ ǁĂƐŶ͛ƚ ƐŽ ŐƌĞĂƚ ĂŌĞƌ Ăůů͘ / ůĂƚĞƌ ĨŽƵŶĚ ŽƵƚ

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ƚŚĂƚ ƐŚĞ ŚĂĚ ďĞĞŶ ŚĂǀŝŶŐ ĂŶ ĂīĂŝƌ ǁŝƚŚ ƚŚŝƐ ŵĂŶ ƌĞŐƵůĂƌůLJ ƐŝŶĐĞ ƚŚĞ ďĞŐŝŶŶŝŶŐ ŽĨ ŽƵƌ

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ŵĂƌƌŝĂŐĞ͘ dŚĞ ĚŝǀŽƌĐĞ ǁĂƐ ĚƌĂǁŶ ŽƵƚ ŽǀĞƌ ƚŚĞ ŶĞdžƚ ĨĞǁ ŵŽŶƚŚƐ͘ KƵƌ ƐŽŶ ĚŝĚŶ͛ƚ ƚĂŬĞ ŝƚ ǁĞůů Ăƚ Ăůů͘

Ƶƚ ŝƚ͛Ɛ ŐĞƫŶŐ ůĂƚĞ͕ / ƚŚŝŶŬ͘ /ƚ ĐĂŶ ďĞ ŚĂƌĚ ƚŽ ƚĞůů ƚŚĞ ƟŵĞ ŽĨ ĚĂLJ ŚĞƌĞ ƐŽŵĞƟŵĞƐ͘ /

ǁŝůů ƚƌLJ ƚŽ ǁƌŝƚĞ ĂŐĂŝŶ ƐŽŽŶ͘

^ŝŶĐĞƌĞůLJ͕

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ƵŐƵƐƚ Ϯϴ ĞĂƌ ZĞĂĚĞƌ͕

/ ĂƉŽůŽŐŝnjĞ ĨŽƌ ŶŽƚ ǁƌŝƟŶŐ ĂŐĂŝŶ ƐŽŽŶĞƌ͘ tĞ͛ǀĞ Ăůů ďĞĞŶ ǀĞƌLJ ďƵƐLJ ƚŚĞƐĞ ƉĂƐƚ ĨĞǁ

ŵŽŶƚŚƐ͘ tŽǁ͕ / ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ďĞůŝĞǀĞ ŝƚ͛Ɛ ďĞĞŶ ŵŽŶƚŚƐ ĂůƌĞĂĚLJ͘ dŚĞƌĞ͛Ɛ ƐŽŵĞƚŚŝŶŐ ĂďŽƵƚ ďĞŝŶŐ ŝŶ Ă ĐŽŶĮŶĞĚ ƐƉĂĐĞ ǁŝƚŚ ŽƚŚĞƌ ƉĞŽƉůĞ ƚŚĂƚ ƌĞĂůůLJ ŵĞƐƐĞƐ ǁŝƚŚ ŵLJ ƐĞŶƐĞ ŽĨ ƟŵĞ͘ /͛ǀĞ ďĞĞŶ ŬĞĞƉŝŶŐ ƚƌĂĐŬ ŽĨ ƚŚĞ ĚĂLJƐ ŝŶ ŵLJ ŶŽƚĞŬ͘ Ɛ ůŽŶŐ ĂƐ ĞǀĞƌLJƚŚŝŶŐ ŐŽĞƐ ƐŵŽŽƚŚůLJ͕ / ƐŚŽƵůĚ ďĞ ŽƵƚ ŽĨ ƚŚŝƐ ƉůĂĐĞ ďLJ ŚƌŝƐƚŵĂƐ͘ ǀĞŶ ƚŚĞŶ͕ / Ăŵ ƵŶƐƵƌĞ ĂďŽƵƚ ǁŚĂƚ ŝƚ ǁŝůů ďĞ ůŝŬĞ ŝŶ ƚŚĞ ŶĞǁ ƉůĂĐĞ͘ dŚĞ ŽƚŚĞƌ ŐƵLJƐ ŚĂǀĞ ďĞĞŶ ƚĂůŬŝŶŐ ĂďŽƵƚ ǁŚĂƚ ƚŚĞLJ ƚŚŝŶŬ ŝƚ ŵŝŐŚƚ ďĞ ůŝŬĞ͘ ^ŽŵĞ ƚŚŝŶŬ Ă ůŽƚ ŽĨ ƵƐ ǁŝůů ďĞ ĚĞĂĚ ǁŝƚŚŝŶ Ă LJĞĂƌ͘ KƚŚĞƌƐ ĚŝƐĂŐƌĞĞ͘ / Ăŵ ůŽŽŬŝŶŐ ĨŽƌǁĂƌĚ ƚŽ ŝƚ͘ dŚŝƐ ŝƐ ƵŶĐŚĂƌƚĞĚ ƚĞƌƌŝƚŽƌLJ ĨŽƌ Ăůů ŽĨ ƵƐ͕ ĂŶĚ / ƌĞĂůůLJ ũƵƐƚ ŶĞĞĚ Ă ĨƌĞƐŚ ƐƚĂƌƚ͘

ĞĨŽƌĞ͕ / ƚŽůĚ LJŽƵ ĂďŽƵƚ ŵLJ ǁŝĨĞ ĐŚĞĂƟŶŐ ŽŶ ŵĞ͘ Ɛ ŚŽƌƌŝďůĞ ĂƐ ŝƚ ǁĂƐ͕ / ĚŝĚŶ͛ƚ ƚĂŬĞ

ŝƚ ĂƐ ďĂĚůLJ ĂƐ ŽƵƌ ƐŽŶ ĚŝĚ͘ ,Ğ ǁĂƐ ƐŝdžƚĞĞŶ Ăƚ ƚŚĞ ƟŵĞ͘ ,Ğ ŚĂĚ ũƵƐƚ ƌĞĐĞŝǀĞĚ ŚŝƐ ůŝĐĞŶƐĞ͘ dŚĞƌĞ ǁĂƐ ŽŶĞ ŶŝŐŚƚ ƚŽǁĂƌĚƐ ƚŚĞ ĞŶĚ ŽĨ ƚŚĞ ƵŐůLJ ĚŝǀŽƌĐĞ ƉƌŽĐĞƐƐ ǁŚĞŶ ŚĞ ƚŽůĚ ŵĞ ƚŚĂƚ ŝƚ ǁĂƐ Ăůů ŵLJ ĨĂƵůƚ͘ ,Ğ ƐĂŝĚ ƚŚĂƚ ŝĨ / ǁĂƐŶ͛ƚ ĂůǁĂLJƐ ǁŽƌŬŝŶŐ ƐŚĞ ŶĞǀĞƌ ǁŽƵůĚ ŚĂǀĞ ĚŽŶĞ ŝƚ͘ / ůŽƐƚ ŵLJ ƚĞŵƉĞƌ ǁŝƚŚ Śŝŵ͘ / ƚŽůĚ Śŝŵ / ǁĂƐ ĂůǁĂLJƐ ǁŽƌŬŝŶŐ ƚŽ ƉƌŽǀŝĚĞ Ă ďĞƩĞƌ ůŝĨĞ ĨŽƌ Śŝŵ ĂŶĚ ŚŝƐ

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ŵŽƚŚĞƌ͕ Ă ůŝĨĞ / ŶĞǀĞƌ ŚĂĚ ŐƌŽǁŝŶŐ ƵƉ͘ tĞ ƐŚŽƵƚĞĚ ďĂĐŬ ĂŶĚ ĨŽƌƚŚ ĨŽƌ Ă ǁŚŝůĞ ƵŶƟů ŚĞ ŚĂĚ

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ĞŶŽƵŐŚ ĂŶĚ ůĞŌ͘ ,Ğ ƐĂŝĚ ŚĞ ǁĂƐ ŐŽŝŶŐ ƚŽ ŚŝƐ ŵŽƚŚĞƌ͛Ɛ ŚŽƵƐĞ ĂŶĚ ŚĞ ŶĞǀĞƌ ǁĂŶƚĞĚ ƚŽ ƐĞĞ ŵĞ ĂŐĂŝŶ͘ / ŬŶĞǁ ŚĞ ǁĂƐ ďĞŝŶŐ ŽǀĞƌĚƌĂŵĂƟĐ ůŝŬĞ Ăůů ŬŝĚƐ ŚŝƐ ĂŐĞ ĂƌĞ͘ / ŬŶĞǁ ŚĞ ǁŽƵůĚ ĐŽŵĞ ďĂĐŬ ĂŌĞƌ ĐŽŽůŝŶŐ ĚŽǁŶ͘ / ǁĂƐ ǁƌŽŶŐ͘ /ƚ ǁĂƐ Ă ƌĂŝŶLJ ĂƵƚƵŵŶ ŶŝŐŚƚ͕ ĂŶĚ ŚĞ ǁĂƐ ĚƌŝǀŝŶŐ ƚŽŽ ĨĂƐƚ͘ ,ŝƐ ĐĂƌ ĐĂƵŐŚƚ Ă ƉĂƚĐŚ ŽĨ ůĞĂǀĞƐ͕ ĂŶĚ ƚŚĂƚ ǁĂƐ ŝƚ͘ ,Ğ ŶĞǀĞƌ ƐƵīĞƌĞĚ ĚƵƌŝŶŐ ƚŚĞ ĐƌĂƐŚ͘ /ƚ ǁĂƐ ŝŶƐƚĂŶƚĂŶĞŽƵƐ͘ Ƶƚ / ƐƟůů ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ŚĂŶĚůĞ ŬŶŽǁŝŶŐ ƚŚĂƚ ƚŚĞ ůĂƐƚ ƚŚŽƵŐŚƚƐ ŚĞ ŚĂĚ ǁĞƌĞ ĂďŽƵƚ ŚŽǁ ůŽƵƐLJ Ă ĨĂƚŚĞƌ / ǁĂƐ͘ / ǁŝƐŚ ŵŽƌĞ ƚŚĂŶ ĂŶLJƚŚŝŶŐ ƚŚĂƚ / ŚĂĚŶ͛ƚ ůĞƚ Śŝŵ ůĞĂǀĞ ƚŚĞ ŚŽƵƐĞ ƚŚĂƚ ŶŝŐŚƚ͘

/ƚ ǁĂƐŶ͛ƚ ůŽŶŐ ĂŌĞƌ ƚŚĂƚ ƚŚĂƚ / ŵĂĚĞ ƐŽŵĞ ŵĂũŽƌ ůŝĨĞ ĚĞĐŝƐŝŽŶƐ͘ dŚĂƚ ǁĂƐ ƚŚĞ ŶŝŐŚƚ

ƚŚĂƚ ƐĞƚ ŵĞ ŽŶ Ă ƉĂƚŚ ƚŽ ǁŚĞƌĞ / Ăŵ ŶŽǁ͘ ŶĚ ĂƐ / ůŽŽŬ ĂƌŽƵŶĚ ƚŚĞ ƌŽŽŵ͕ / ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ŚĞůƉ ďƵƚ ǁŽŶĚĞƌ ŝĨ ƚŚĞ ŽƚŚĞƌ ŵĞŶ ĂŶĚ ǁŽŵĞŶ ŚĞƌĞ ŚĂǀĞ ƐŝŵŝůĂƌ ƐƚŽƌŝĞƐ͘ / ŐƵĞƐƐ ŝƚ ǁŽƵůĚ ďĞ Ă ŐŽŽĚ ŝĚĞĂ ƚŽ ŐĞƚ ƚŽ ŬŶŽǁ ƚŚĞŵ Ăůů ďĞƩĞƌ͘ ŌĞƌ Ăůů͕ ƚŚĞƐĞ ĂƌĞ ƚŚĞ ŽŶůLJ ƉĞŽƉůĞ / ǁŝůů ĞǀĞƌ ƐĞĞ ĂŐĂŝŶ ĨŽƌ ƚŚĞ ƌĞƐƚ ŽĨ ŵLJ ůŝĨĞ͘

^ŝŶĐĞƌĞůLJ͕

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ĞĐĞŵďĞƌ Ϯϱ ĞĂƌ ZĞĂĚĞƌ͕

tĞ ŵĂĚĞ ŝƚ͘

/ƚ͛Ɛ ďĞĞŶ ƐĞǀĞŶ ŵŽŶƚŚƐ ƐŝŶĐĞ ƚŚĞ ďĞŐŝŶŶŝŶŐ ŽĨ ƚŚŝƐ ũŽƵƌŶĞLJ͕ ĂŶĚ / ĐŽƵůĚŶ͛ƚ ďĞ ŵŽƌĞ

ĞdžĐŝƚĞĚ͊ Ɛ / ǁƌŝƚĞ ƚŚŝƐ͕ / Ăŵ ůŽŽŬŝŶŐ ŽƵƚ Ă ǁŝŶĚŽǁ Ăƚ ƚŚĞ ǀĂƐƚ ůĂŶĚƐĐĂƉĞ͕ ĂŶĚ / ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ďĞůŝĞǀĞ ǁŚĞƌĞ / Ăŵ͘ / ĨĞĞů ĂƐ ƚŚŽƵŐŚ / Ăŵ Ă ĐŚŝůĚ ĂŐĂŝŶ͕ ůŽŽŬŝŶŐ Ăƚ ƚŚĞ 'ƌĂŶĚ ĂŶLJŽŶ Ăƚ ƐƵŶƌŝƐĞ͘ KŶůLJ

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ƚŚŝƐ ƟŵĞ ŵLJ ĨĂƚŚĞƌ ŝƐŶ͛ƚ ŚĞƌĞ͘ /ŶƐƚĞĂĚ͕ ŚĞ ŝƐ ǁĂƚĐŚŝŶŐ ĨƌŽŵ Ă ǁŽƌůĚ ĂǁĂLJ ũƵƐƚ ůŝŬĞ ĞǀĞƌLJͲ

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ďŽĚLJ ĞůƐĞ͘

/͛ůů ŶĞǀĞƌ ĨŽƌŐĞƚ ŚŽǁ ƉƌŽƵĚ ŚĞ ǁĂƐ ŽŶ ƚŚĞ ĚĂLJ ƚŚĞ ƐŚŝƉ ůĞŌ͘ ,Ğ ŝƐ Ă ƌĞƟƌĞĚ ĂƐƚƌŽŶĂƵƚ

ŚŝŵƐĞůĨ͕ ĂŶĚ ŝƚ ǁĂƐ ŚĞ ǁŚŽ ƐƵŐŐĞƐƚĞĚ ƚŚĂƚ / ǀŽůƵŶƚĞĞƌ ĨŽƌ ƚŚŝƐ͘ ŌĞƌ ŵLJ ƐŽŶ ĚŝĞĚ͕ / ƚŽůĚ Śŝŵ ƚŚĂƚ / ĚŝĚŶ͛ƚ ĨĞĞů ůŝŬĞ / ĐŽƵůĚ ůŝǀĞ ŽŶĞ ŵŽƌĞ ĚĂLJ ŽŶ ĂƌƚŚ͘ dŚĂƚ͛Ɛ ǁŚĞŶ ŚĞ ƐƵŐŐĞƐƚĞĚ ƚŚĂƚ / ǀŽůƵŶƚĞĞƌ ĨŽƌ ƚŚŝƐ ŵŝƐƐŝŽŶ͘ /ƚ ƚƌƵůLJ ŝƐ Ă ĨƌĞƐŚ ƐƚĂƌƚ͘ ŶĚ ŶŽƚ ũƵƐƚ ĨŽƌ ŵĞ͕ ďƵƚ ĨŽƌ ĞǀĞƌLJŽŶĞ͘

dŚĞ ĚĂLJ ǁĞ ůĂŶĚĞĚ͕ ǁĞ ǁĞƌĞ ďƌŽĂĚĐĂƐƟŶŐ ůŝǀĞ ďĂĐŬ ŚŽŵĞ͘ / ŐƵĞƐƐ / ƐŚŽƵůĚŶ͛ƚ ĐĂůů

ĂƌƚŚ ŚŽŵĞ ĂŶLJŵŽƌĞ͘ dŚŝƐ ŝƐ ŵLJ ŚŽŵĞ ŶŽǁ͘ dŚĞƐĞ ƉĞŽƉůĞ ŚĞƌĞ ǁŝƚŚ ŵĞ ĂƌĞ ŵLJ ĨĂŵŝůLJ͘ dŚĞƌĞ ŝƐ ŶŽ ŐŽŝŶŐ ďĂĐŬ͘ Ƶƚ ĂƐ / ǁĂƐ ƐĂLJŝŶŐ͕ ǁĞ ǁĞƌĞ ďƌŽĂĚĐĂƐƟŶŐ ůŝǀĞ͘ / ĐŽƵůĚŶ͛ƚ ŚĞůƉ ďƵƚ ƚŚŝŶŬ ŽĨ ǁŚĞŶ / ǁĂƐ Ă ŬŝĚ͕ ĂŶĚ ƚŚĞLJ ƐŚŽǁĞĚ ƵƐ Ă ƚĂƉĞ ŝŶ ƐĐŚŽŽů ŽĨ ƚŚĞ ƉŽůůŽ ϭϭ ŵŝƐƐŝŽŶ͘ dŚŽƐĞ ŵĞŶ ǁŝůů ďĞ ƌĞŵĞŵďĞƌĞĚ ĨŽƌĞǀĞƌ ĨŽƌ ǁŚĂƚ ƚŚĞLJ ĚŝĚ͘ ŶĚ ƚŚĞLJ ƐĂLJ ǁĞ ǁŝůů ƚŽŽ͘ / ĚŽŶ͛ƚ ĨĞĞů ůŝŬĞ Ă ŚĞƌŽ͘ / ũƵƐƚ ŶĞĞĚĞĚ ƚŽ ŐĞƚ ĂǁĂLJ͘ Ƶƚ / ĐĂŶ͛ƚ ĚĞŶLJ ŚŽǁ ŝŶ ĂǁĞ / Ăŵ ŽĨ ƚŚŝƐ ƉůĂĐĞ͘ Ɛ Ă ĐŚŝůĚ͕ / ĂůǁĂLJƐ ĨĂŶƚĂƐŝnjĞĚ ĂďŽƵƚ ŐŽŝŶŐ ŝŶƚŽ ƐƉĂĐĞ ǁŝƚŚ ŵLJ ĨĂƚŚĞƌ͘ Ƶƚ / ŶĞǀĞƌ ĚƌĞĂŵĞĚ ŽĨ ƚŚŝƐ͘

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ƉĂƐƚ͘ Ƶƚ ƚŚŝƐ ƉůĂĐĞ ƐŽŵĞŚŽǁ ŵĂŶĂŐĞƐ ƚŽ ĂůůŽǁ ŵĞ ƚŽ ŵŽǀĞ ŽŶ ǁŝƚŚŽƵƚ ĨŽƌŐĞƫŶŐ ǁŚĞƌĞ / ĐĂŵĞ ĨƌŽŵ͘ Ɛ / Ɛŝƚ ŚĞƌĞ ǁŝƚŚ ĂŶ ĞLJĞ ŽŶ ƚŚĞ ŚŽƌŝnjŽŶ͕ / Ăŵ ĂďůĞ ƚŽ ƐĞĞ Ă ǀĞƌLJ ďƌŝŐŚƚ ĨƵƚƵƌĞ ŽŶ ƚŚŝƐ ďĂƌƌĞŶ͕ ƌĞĚ ƉůĂŶĞƚ͘

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Enjamming Walking with the beat that sweet rhythm moves my feet, arms, hips, lips, navigate the great abyss.

I gravitate towards the meter of the measure

of the fissure of time.

I cannot hear the wind outside my headphones, %XW , IHHO LW RQ P\ IDFH , GRQ·W KHDU WKH OHDYHV UXVWOH across the ground³but I am well acquainted with the sound. So I forgo the obvious for the ambiguous. The path less traveled for the thrill of the surprise.

What song will play next in my shuffle of life?

Kaisi Ritter ϭϬ

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/ ǁĂƚĐŚ ŚŽǁ LJŽƵƌ ƐŽŌ ďůĂĐŬ ŚĂŝƌ͕

ůŽǀĞůLJ ĂŶĚ ŵLJƐƚĞƌŝŽƵƐ ĂƐ Ă ĚĂƌŬ ĂŶĚ ďƌŝƐŬ EŽǀĞŵďĞƌ ŶŝŐŚƚ͕

ŐĞŶƚůLJ ŬŝƐƐĞƐ LJŽƵƌ ƚĞŶĚĞƌ ƚĞŵƉůĞƐ

ǁŚĞŶ LJŽƵ ŵŽǀĞ LJŽƵƌ ŚĞĂĚ ƋƵŝĐŬůLJ ƚŽ ŽŶĞ ƐŝĚĞ͘ zŽƵƌ ŝŶƚĞůůĞĐƚ ƐŶĞĂŬƐ ƵƉ ŽŶ ŵĞ

ǁŚĞŶ / ůĞĂƐƚ ĞdžƉĞĐƚ ŝƚ͕ ĂůŵŽƐƚ ůŝŬĞ ƚŚĂƚ

ŽǀĞƌǁŚĞůŵŝŶŐ ƐĞŶƐŽƌLJ ƌĞĂĐƟŽŶ

ƚŽ ũƵŵƉŝŶŐ ŝŶƚŽ Ă ůĂŬĞ LJŽƵ ĞdžƉĞĐƚĞĚ ƚŽ ďĞ ůƵŬĞǁĂƌŵ

ďƵƚ ƋƵŝĐŬůLJ ĐĂŵĞ ƚŽ ƌĞĂůŝnjĞ

ŝƐ ŵŽƌĞ ĐŚŝůůŝŶŐůLJ͕ ďƵƚ ŵŽƌĞ ƌĞĨƌĞƐŚŝŶŐůLJ͕

ĂŶ ĂďƐŽůƵƚĞ ĚĞůŝŐŚƚ ƚŽ ŵĂŬĞ ǁĂǀĞƐ ŝŶ͘ dŚĞ ĮƌƐƚ ƟŵĞ LJŽƵ ĂĐĐŝĚĞŶƚĂůůLJ ǁĂůŬĞĚ ƚŚƌŽƵŐŚ ŵLJ ůŝŶĞ ŽĨ ǀŝƐŝŽŶ͕

ŵLJ ĞLJĞƐ ƐĂǁ ƐŽŵĞŽŶĞ ǁŚŽ ŚĂĚ ĐĂƵŐŚƚ ƚŚĞŵ

ďĞĐĂƵƐĞ ƚŚĞLJ ǁĞƌĞ ƋƵŝƚĞ ŽůĚ ĨƌŝĞŶĚƐ͕

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