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Mar. 18
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Mar. 22
I checked out the Salesforce Tower outside my window before I sleep. It is the same as last week. Most of the floors are dark.
Although the city becomes quieter at night, I began to have lots of questions in my mind.
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It was not my plan.
I don’t want to go back to China immediately after graduation.
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I spend more time with my headphones. I listen to music
while I am doing my homework, reading books, working out at home, sometimes I even wear it when I take a nap. I recently
like future bass a lot.
me stop thinking about
situation right now. with my friend.
This kind of music makes
all questions in
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this anxious
last time I went concert
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We’re running out of food! Therefore, we decided to go to Costco. I felt a little nervous to go shopping in such markets with a lot of people.
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After the shopping
in the grocery store
downstairs I felt refresh again. When I
got home I made a healthy dish which I used to eat a lot. However I thought there was
something missing in it. I
might have forgotten to buy something.
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Because of the coronav irus, they co ately in Feb uldn’t hold it ruary. I miss immedied a lot of th ings during this time I stayed in San Fr ancisco. The last time I saw him wa through video ch s at. He was lying on the bed in the ho pital unconsciously s.
This is the first time I have experienced this kind of thing. Actually before I came to the US for my master’s degree, he was very sick. It feels wired. It seems as long as I don’t go back, everything stays the same as the past.
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al. He lived in another city which is
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know my friends
and my family are
time with them.
I felt that it was not actually happening in my life. However, deep down in my heart, I know that I won’t see him again.
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