Miraculous Journey Towards Divine Mother – Srividya Sadhana by S.R.Balaji (India) Praying Mother of all Mothers Sree Varahi, to bless the content to convey, that which she bestowed on this being, out of her unconditional love and grace, be reached to fellow spiritual seekers with relevance and sense. Blessed are those, getting right belief, understanding and guidance, to reach out and receive from the divine. Our karma acts in many ways, with our own ego as base, hinders our way to reach the right path, that suits us. It is actually the divine that unfolds the path, to those who seek with sincerity. Divine mother feeds her child in many ways, so does she for the being in me. As each one’s journey and experiences are different. Sharing with one another, imparts flavor, adds interest, encourages, gives new perspectives & insights ,reinforces and enhances, our Self, on this path, I believe. With that intent, would humbly share few learning that happened in my ongoing spiritual journey here, for following questions mentioned. Conveyed as I received or understood it. Q 1. Does the Darshan, vision, dreams of divine appearance are true or it is illusion, imagination or hallucination out of our continuous feeling towards the divine form ? Q 2. No student reaches anywhere in spiritual plane unless a Guru lifts him. Why so? Q 3. Do we attract those people and events, that knocks us away from spiritual path? Why ? Why do I suffer and struggle to hold on to my Self and progress on my path? Q 4. Am not able to be in state of awareness continuously. I fall often. The anger, bitterness, other low emotions in me erupts at times, hurts myself and others, that in no time, I undo all the good progress I made. Why so? . I feel guilty and hurt, to go back and stand infront of mother, aspiring spiritual progress ? What is the way out? Q 5. Why self realization is the foremost, one should intend? Why is it, the one, most needed on spiritual plane, to begin ? Ans 1 : Almost an year back, I started praying to Ma Varahi, for her grace and to get me a Guru to reach to her. I was excited to see a verse in a book, where it is mentioned, reciting it sincerely, will bring experience of Mother, like hearing boars sound or hearing horse sound of Ashwaruda Varahi in the night, to assure that the sadhak is under her protective ring. There were versus to seek her grace, get her darshan etc. It was mentioned the experience one gets is based on his karma and sincereity. I started praying mother with those versus with sincererity. Though my innerself started elevating during such pujas and prayers, I couldn’t hear anything as mentioned neither I got any darshan. I continued. One night, I was little depressed. Is my prayer is not sincere enough to get her darshan or feel her presence and went to sleep. That night during sleep, I saw a tall, well built person, in king like attire with golden body with divine beauty. Though graceful, His appearance was immensely powerful that I got afraid and