LITERARY|Strength in Fragileness

Strength In Fragileness

by Paper Roses

One folk once told

My story was great to behold

Of how I fought proud and bold

Persuading me to write them and unfold

Many will say that I am strong

They haven't seen what I through for long

Sixteen was not sweet

Unveiled I was sick

A traitor illness came to meet me

Cancer by name, changed my life entirely.

Ineffable sufferings begin

Injecting anesthetic to my vein, cells are burning

Body weakens, hairs are falling

Tiring.

Slowly, hope is losing.

Getting weaker each day

I tear for exorbitant pain

Just be brave they say

How can I? when I know this battle will just go in vain

I was drained emotionally, physically, and financially

The excruciating process of chemotherapy

Just an inch close to despair

Death was even a wish in my prayer

Darkest of the darkest nights

In front of the altar, I was kneeling and sobbing

“Lord ‘di ko na kaya, just let me die” uncontrollably whining

Can’t anymore take the torment I am feelin

There, I felt a presence

A comforting embrace

A soft caress

I cried even more

For I knew it was Him

Telling me I’m not alone

There shines a ray of light

It was so bright

That I saw the reasons on why I need to fight: My family, my friends, and my dreams.

I realized; I still have the chance to live

I still have life; I will live on behalf of my friends who have left

Hoping they’re proudly watching from heaven

That I’m still here, surviving.

Ironic it may sound

The strength and greatness will be found

At the lowest and most vulnerable part of our lives

It is okay to be weak, the important thing is you thrive to survive