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This publication is the culmination of so much love, hours and hours of hard work and a collaborative team spirit. I was privileged to work with one of the most hard-working, insanely creative and continuously supportive team that I’ve ever worked with. I consider myself to be one of the luckiest Rebel editors of all time to be able to work on the 60th edition of this award-winning publication. I will always hold a special place in my heart for the hours I spent, friends made, and amazing artists that I’ve had the privilege to work with over the last year. I consider this year to be one of the best creative and administrative work opportunities I’ve had thus far. I truly hope that each one of you who reads this publication will thoroughly enjoy the experience, derive creative inspiration and be able to connect emotionally and spiritually with what you see. Finally, I invite you to enjoy the 60th edition of Rebel!

Emily Brinley EMILY BRINLEY Editor-in-Chief

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This publication is the culmination of so much love, hours and hours of hard work and a collaborative team spirit. I was privileged to work with one of the most hard-working, insanely creative and continuously supportive team that I’ve ever worked with. I consider myself to be one of the luckiest Rebel editors of all time to be able to work on the 60th edition of this award-winning publication. I will always hold a special place in my heart for the hours I spent, friends made, and amazing artists that I’ve had the privilege to work with over the last year. I consider this year to be one of the best creative and administrative work opportunities I’ve had thus far. I truly hope that each one of you who reads this publication will thoroughly enjoy the experience, derive creative inspiration and be able to connect emotionally and spiritually with what you see. Finally, I invite you to enjoy the 60th edition of Rebel!

Emily Brinley EMILY BRINLEY Editor-in-Chief

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VISUAL ARTS Best in Show Book Arts Ceramics Drawing Graphic Design Illustration Metal Design Mixed Media Painting Photography Printmaking Sculpture Textile Design Wood Design

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LITERARY ARTS Fiction Non-Fiction Poetry

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DIGITAL MEDIA ARTS Animation Filmmaking Music

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VISUAL ARTS Best in Show Book Arts Ceramics Drawing Graphic Design Illustration Metal Design Mixed Media Painting Photography Printmaking Sculpture Textile Design Wood Design

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DIGITAL MEDIA ARTS Animation Filmmaking Music

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Best in Show –“Lock Out” “This piece likens rhythms of body building to rhythms of hand-weaving, while juxtaposing concepts of feminity and masculinity. “ – Megan Turner

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Best in Show –“Lock Out” “This piece likens rhythms of body building to rhythms of hand-weaving, while juxtaposing concepts of feminity and masculinity. “ – Megan Turner

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“Lock Out” By: Megan Turner

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First Place –”The Errand” “This was one of my final projects that I made in the Animation program.

I got the idea for the story while I was teaching at a community arts center, and I thought it would be a cool project to take on.” – Phoebe Lewis Second Place –”Target Kinetic Logo” “The inspiration behind this piece was to take the Target logo and bring it to life through animation. This animation transforms the logo using After Effects and upbeat music to emphasize the upbeat rhythm of Target.

Pieces in this animation move around the screen to keep the viewer engaged and entertained.” – Andrew Tuso Third Place –”Sword Motion Capture” “This animation was recorded through motion capture software & exported using Maya. For this piece, I wanted to tell the story of an egotistical character who thinks he can accomplish anything. This tells the story of finding a sword stuck in the ground & the struggle this character encounters trying to pull the sword out.” – Andrew Tuso Honorable Mention –”Aperture Logo Animation” “When we were given the logo project in art 3082, I chose a logo from the game “Portal” and “Portal 2” to animate because I have always loved those games. I learned quite a bit from this piece, & I’m very happy with how the audio & glitch effect came out!” – Alexandra Smith

To view, go to: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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First Place –”The Errand” “This was one of my final projects that I made in the Animation program.

I got the idea for the story while I was teaching at a community arts center, and I thought it would be a cool project to take on.” – Phoebe Lewis Second Place –”Target Kinetic Logo” “The inspiration behind this piece was to take the Target logo and bring it to life through animation. This animation transforms the logo using After Effects and upbeat music to emphasize the upbeat rhythm of Target.

Pieces in this animation move around the screen to keep the viewer engaged and entertained.” – Andrew Tuso Third Place –”Sword Motion Capture” “This animation was recorded through motion capture software & exported using Maya. For this piece, I wanted to tell the story of an egotistical character who thinks he can accomplish anything. This tells the story of finding a sword stuck in the ground & the struggle this character encounters trying to pull the sword out.” – Andrew Tuso Honorable Mention –”Aperture Logo Animation” “When we were given the logo project in art 3082, I chose a logo from the game “Portal” and “Portal 2” to animate because I have always loved those games. I learned quite a bit from this piece, & I’m very happy with how the audio & glitch effect came out!” – Alexandra Smith

To view, go to: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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“The Errand” By: Phoebe Lewis

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“The Errand” By: Phoebe Lewis

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“Target Kinetic Logo” By: Andrew Tuso

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“Target Kinetic Logo” By: Andrew Tuso

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“Sword Motion Capture” By: Andrew Tuso

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“Aperture Logo Animation” By: Alexandra Smith

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First Place –“Carolyn: Grieving Muscles” “This book of paintings was a study that I did on arthritic hands. I was inspired by the phrase “grieving muscles” and immediately thought of my grandmother and her story. She used to be an artist, but now is unable to do much artistically due to severe arthritis in her hands. I chose to explore this through making a book of paintings, because I wanted something I made using my hands, and others could touch with their hands.” –­­ Emily Benson

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First Place –“Carolyn: Grieving Muscles” “This book of paintings was a study that I did on arthritic hands. I was inspired by the phrase “grieving muscles” and immediately thought of my grandmother and her story. She used to be an artist, but now is unable to do much artistically due to severe arthritis in her hands. I chose to explore this through making a book of paintings, because I wanted something I made using my hands, and others could touch with their hands.” –­­ Emily Benson

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“Carolyn: Grieving Muscles” By: Emily Benson

Book Arts: First Place

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“Carolyn: Grieving Muscles” By: Emily Benson

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Second Place –“Vase Without a Flower” “This vase without a flower is an absence of the acts of love. We often have a beautiful idea of love, but can sometimes find this idea unfulfilled.

Sometimes this action takes as small an effort as placing a single flower, or token of love. Take a minute today to tell someone special how much you love them, you never know just what will bloom.” – Lacey Hargroder Third Place –“House in Tuscany” “Dreams of rolling turquoise hills and terracotta rooftops, and the smell of lavender in the air inspired me to create House in Tuscany. – Laura Frye

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Second Place –“Vase Without a Flower” “This vase without a flower is an absence of the acts of love. We often have a beautiful idea of love, but can sometimes find this idea unfulfilled.

Sometimes this action takes as small an effort as placing a single flower, or token of love. Take a minute today to tell someone special how much you love them, you never know just what will bloom.” – Lacey Hargroder Third Place –“House in Tuscany” “Dreams of rolling turquoise hills and terracotta rooftops, and the smell of lavender in the air inspired me to create House in Tuscany. – Laura Frye

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“Kintsugi Teapot” By: Rachel Clark

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“Kintsugi Teapot” By: Rachel Clark

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“Vase Without a Flower” By: Lacey Hargroder

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“House in Tuscany” By: Laura Frye

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“Wood-Fired Bottles” By: Rachel Clark

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First Place –“Observe, Regurgitate, Profit” “Observe, Regurgitate, Profit is a stream of consciousness drawing, drawn primarily in graphite on hot press water color paper. Through working on this piece, it slowly became about the act of generating ideas through the process of observing and re-creating those observations for profit. In addition, the piece trails through a cycle of the mental states of generating ideas and repeats.” – Michael Richardson Second Place –“Inside of Trich I & II” “I am still in the process of discovering what concentration I should get into.

I do know that I will stick to painting and drawing, even if I am not accepted into the program. I was very hesitant on the subject matter because it is something I have dealt with since I was small. I suffer from trichotillomania, the urge to pull out my hair, and it has caused me to challenge my selfconfidence. I felt I needed to get out of my comfort zone in more than one way. Not only did I confront the issue that I didn’t want to face, but I also experienced ink wash for the first time and grew to love it. The spontaneous ink was inspiration from schizophrenic Chinese painters, paricularly that of Xu Wei Doing. These drawings actually helped me understand myself better and I hope to keep understanding.” – Carla Rivers Portillo

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First Place –“Observe, Regurgitate, Profit” “Observe, Regurgitate, Profit is a stream of consciousness drawing, drawn primarily in graphite on hot press water color paper. Through working on this piece, it slowly became about the act of generating ideas through the process of observing and re-creating those observations for profit. In addition, the piece trails through a cycle of the mental states of generating ideas and repeats.” – Michael Richardson Second Place –“Inside of Trich I & II” “I am still in the process of discovering what concentration I should get into.

I do know that I will stick to painting and drawing, even if I am not accepted into the program. I was very hesitant on the subject matter because it is something I have dealt with since I was small. I suffer from trichotillomania, the urge to pull out my hair, and it has caused me to challenge my selfconfidence. I felt I needed to get out of my comfort zone in more than one way. Not only did I confront the issue that I didn’t want to face, but I also experienced ink wash for the first time and grew to love it. The spontaneous ink was inspiration from schizophrenic Chinese painters, paricularly that of Xu Wei Doing. These drawings actually helped me understand myself better and I hope to keep understanding.” – Carla Rivers Portillo

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“Observe, Regurgitate, Profit” By: Michael Richardson

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“Observe, Regurgitate, Profit” By: Michael Richardson

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“Inside of Trich I & II” By: Carla Rivas Portillo

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The lazy ochre light filtered in from the curtains onto the pea-green walls and orange furniture. Miles stretched spread-eagle across the shag carpeting and made puttering noises as he flew his rocket through the air. Jamie’s sandals clacked against the sticky linoleum kitchen floor. She searched for the smaller spoons and baby Sean bobbed in his high chair. Miles soaked in the smell of frying flour sizzling above the caked undercurrent of tobacco that riddled the scent of chicken every so often.

“Hey. Mama. Hey, hey Ma,” said Miles. He arched his back from the shag carpet so he could just barely peer over the kitchen island.

“Yeah, hon,” said Jamie with a grunt. She heaved the window sill up so just a crack of the screen showed. She rapped the pack of Winstons against her wrist and flicked one into her mouth. Jamie spritzed the water lily in the window with a spray bottle.

“Mama, hey, I have a question,” said Miles. He flopped back down and held his rocket in the setting sunlight that streamed through the bay window.

“I’m listening sweetie, what is it?” He squinted at the thick black letters.

He could tell what the “a” and the “o” were, but that was about it. “Do...do you think I could fit in a rocket?”

Jamie rested her elbows on the counter and watched the smoke plume with her breath in the November air through the screen. “Sure thing. They fit a whole lot of guys in there. Ask Mrs. Laney tomorrow in class. She could tell you who to send a letter to.” She teased the cigarette in her teeth as she twisted the top off the jar of pureed sweet potatoes.

“Hey, Mama?” Jamie ducked her head under the stove vent and exhaled the smoke.

“What’s up, honey? Let me finish my cigarette right quick, clears my head.” She ran the faucet, stubbed the cigarette out, and rolled the rest of the pack back into the fridge’s crisper drawer.

“Do you think I could fly up into outer space or higher?” Miles asked.

She puffed her cheeks at the baby in the highchair and dipped the spoon into his mouth as he laughed. “You betcha, I’ll send you up some moon pies to share with Benji too, if you’ll share with your friend, you miser. Hold on one second, let me give Sean his dinner.”

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The lazy ochre light filtered in from the curtains onto the pea-green walls and orange furniture. Miles stretched spread-eagle across the shag carpeting and made puttering noises as he flew his rocket through the air. Jamie’s sandals clacked against the sticky linoleum kitchen floor. She searched for the smaller spoons and baby Sean bobbed in his high chair. Miles soaked in the smell of frying flour sizzling above the caked undercurrent of tobacco that riddled the scent of chicken every so often.

“Hey. Mama. Hey, hey Ma,” said Miles. He arched his back from the shag carpet so he could just barely peer over the kitchen island.

“Yeah, hon,” said Jamie with a grunt. She heaved the window sill up so just a crack of the screen showed. She rapped the pack of Winstons against her wrist and flicked one into her mouth. Jamie spritzed the water lily in the window with a spray bottle.

“Mama, hey, I have a question,” said Miles. He flopped back down and held his rocket in the setting sunlight that streamed through the bay window.

“I’m listening sweetie, what is it?” He squinted at the thick black letters.

He could tell what the “a” and the “o” were, but that was about it. “Do...do you think I could fit in a rocket?”

Jamie rested her elbows on the counter and watched the smoke plume with her breath in the November air through the screen. “Sure thing. They fit a whole lot of guys in there. Ask Mrs. Laney tomorrow in class. She could tell you who to send a letter to.” She teased the cigarette in her teeth as she twisted the top off the jar of pureed sweet potatoes.

“Hey, Mama?” Jamie ducked her head under the stove vent and exhaled the smoke.

“What’s up, honey? Let me finish my cigarette right quick, clears my head.” She ran the faucet, stubbed the cigarette out, and rolled the rest of the pack back into the fridge’s crisper drawer.

“Do you think I could fly up into outer space or higher?” Miles asked.

She puffed her cheeks at the baby in the highchair and dipped the spoon into his mouth as he laughed. “You betcha, I’ll send you up some moon pies to share with Benji too, if you’ll share with your friend, you miser. Hold on one second, let me give Sean his dinner.”

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Miles rolled over to his lunar lander. He picked it up and put it in the sunbeams.

“Benji says that he won’t go to space with me because I’ll pee in my bed and it’ll all float

me, to celebrate beating the aliens up there.”

Jamie rolled over and held Miles close to her, her chin on the top of his head.

around and stuff. And he said I can’t go anyway ’cause I’m not tall enough yet. He really

“Anything you think up, Miles, I want you to go for it. Try your best, we named you

said that, too.” He winced as the gold foil of his lunar lander sparkled in his eye.

right, keep going on and on, Miles. For miles and miles.”

Jamie scooped the orange dribble off Sean’s lips and back into his mouth. “Good thing

She nuzzled her cheek into his forehead until he pushed her face away with a giggle.

you haven’t wet anything for two months then. And short astronauts will have more room, and

Her long black hair draped like a bed curtain around his face, quieting the music of life in

you’ll get to lay out and Benji will bang his elbows on everything. It’ll work out, baby.”

the house—his baby brother in an active mumble monologue and the muted pop of grease.

A glint of sunlight reflected off the lander onto a picture frame on the mantel.

Miles frowned in confusion. The left-half of the photograph was missing, an arm in

The hissing of the closet’s air filter in the alienating silence was the only sign that

fatigues draped over Jamie’s shoulder. The thickly creased picture showed Jamie,

the house ever held life. Miles found himself listening to the rustle of his facial hair

smiling as she clutched a baby Miles and held her swollen stomach. “But mama, do you

against his finger tips and clearing his throat to fill the quiet that still startles him.

think I can go to the moon, though?”

She laughed, and Sean giggled. “Well you’ll already be in space, so just hop down onto it. They’ll need someone to change out the flag by then.”

Miles sighed. “Well, I guess so,” he said, pausing with his eyebrows furrowed. “But is our Daddy on the moon? ’Cause really, I’ve looked everywhere around here. When I

The quilt of dust on the bottom of the closet floor dampens the reek of cigarette smoke that somehow burrowed itself into the wool overcoats, even after forty years. His nostrils thicken from the stirring of grime and his face twitches in the miasma of mothball until it is no longer worth the nostalgia.

went to the library, I asked Dr. Ridley since he’s pretty smart, and his face got all wrinkly and he hadn’t see him either. Maybe I’d see him on the moon with my telescope, looking

Miles stands up from the closet floor, his knees popping and grinding like

down at us, but I haven’t been there yet, so I’ll send NASA a letter like you said.”

twisting apart turkey legs. Miles tucks the tin toy rocket into his belt. He leaves

Jamie put the spoon into the food jar, and folded down onto the floor next to Miles. “Is that why you want to go to the moon? To see if Daddy’s there?”

the rest of the toy box in the back of the closet and wipes the dust off the bottom of his shoes from clearing the attic onto the matted carpeting. He twists through

Miles sighed, “I mean, NASA wouldn’t tell me to look for him, but it’d be on the way.”

the galley of a kitchen and his belt loop catches on the drawer knob of the kitchen

Jamie leaned over him and fondled the rocket in the fork of her fingers. “But

island. It thrusts out, tugging him back. A stack of envelopes yellowed together

would you want to go with NASA to the moon even if he wasn’t?”

Miles rubbed his chin like he saw on television, like the Professor when he tried to

spill out from the bottom of an empty scrapbook with a Coney Island sticker on the front. Miles flicks out his pocket knife and unglues the grease-caked

fix the radio with coconuts. He felt more like a Gilligan. “Yeah, ’course I would. And I’d

envelope. On the card, Winnie the Pooh holds a balloon with a backwards five on

take pictures of our house from there to show everybody I wasn’t fibbing, honest.”

it. He wipes the bottom of his eye from under his glasses. The inside of the card

Jamie smiled and gave him the rocket. “Good. I’ll put up a sign on the roof, saying ‘We Miss You Milo” and I’d make sure they gave you some more moon pies for

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reads, “Hope your birthday is as sweet as—”, the word “hunny” scratched out for “Moon Pies!”

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Miles rolled over to his lunar lander. He picked it up and put it in the sunbeams.

“Benji says that he won’t go to space with me because I’ll pee in my bed and it’ll all float

me, to celebrate beating the aliens up there.”

Jamie rolled over and held Miles close to her, her chin on the top of his head.

around and stuff. And he said I can’t go anyway ’cause I’m not tall enough yet. He really

“Anything you think up, Miles, I want you to go for it. Try your best, we named you

said that, too.” He winced as the gold foil of his lunar lander sparkled in his eye.

right, keep going on and on, Miles. For miles and miles.”

Jamie scooped the orange dribble off Sean’s lips and back into his mouth. “Good thing

She nuzzled her cheek into his forehead until he pushed her face away with a giggle.

you haven’t wet anything for two months then. And short astronauts will have more room, and

Her long black hair draped like a bed curtain around his face, quieting the music of life in

you’ll get to lay out and Benji will bang his elbows on everything. It’ll work out, baby.”

the house—his baby brother in an active mumble monologue and the muted pop of grease.

A glint of sunlight reflected off the lander onto a picture frame on the mantel.

Miles frowned in confusion. The left-half of the photograph was missing, an arm in

The hissing of the closet’s air filter in the alienating silence was the only sign that

fatigues draped over Jamie’s shoulder. The thickly creased picture showed Jamie,

the house ever held life. Miles found himself listening to the rustle of his facial hair

smiling as she clutched a baby Miles and held her swollen stomach. “But mama, do you

against his finger tips and clearing his throat to fill the quiet that still startles him.

think I can go to the moon, though?”

She laughed, and Sean giggled. “Well you’ll already be in space, so just hop down onto it. They’ll need someone to change out the flag by then.”

Miles sighed. “Well, I guess so,” he said, pausing with his eyebrows furrowed. “But is our Daddy on the moon? ’Cause really, I’ve looked everywhere around here. When I

The quilt of dust on the bottom of the closet floor dampens the reek of cigarette smoke that somehow burrowed itself into the wool overcoats, even after forty years. His nostrils thicken from the stirring of grime and his face twitches in the miasma of mothball until it is no longer worth the nostalgia.

went to the library, I asked Dr. Ridley since he’s pretty smart, and his face got all wrinkly and he hadn’t see him either. Maybe I’d see him on the moon with my telescope, looking

Miles stands up from the closet floor, his knees popping and grinding like

down at us, but I haven’t been there yet, so I’ll send NASA a letter like you said.”

twisting apart turkey legs. Miles tucks the tin toy rocket into his belt. He leaves

Jamie put the spoon into the food jar, and folded down onto the floor next to Miles. “Is that why you want to go to the moon? To see if Daddy’s there?”

the rest of the toy box in the back of the closet and wipes the dust off the bottom of his shoes from clearing the attic onto the matted carpeting. He twists through

Miles sighed, “I mean, NASA wouldn’t tell me to look for him, but it’d be on the way.”

the galley of a kitchen and his belt loop catches on the drawer knob of the kitchen

Jamie leaned over him and fondled the rocket in the fork of her fingers. “But

island. It thrusts out, tugging him back. A stack of envelopes yellowed together

would you want to go with NASA to the moon even if he wasn’t?”

Miles rubbed his chin like he saw on television, like the Professor when he tried to

spill out from the bottom of an empty scrapbook with a Coney Island sticker on the front. Miles flicks out his pocket knife and unglues the grease-caked

fix the radio with coconuts. He felt more like a Gilligan. “Yeah, ’course I would. And I’d

envelope. On the card, Winnie the Pooh holds a balloon with a backwards five on

take pictures of our house from there to show everybody I wasn’t fibbing, honest.”

it. He wipes the bottom of his eye from under his glasses. The inside of the card

Jamie smiled and gave him the rocket. “Good. I’ll put up a sign on the roof, saying ‘We Miss You Milo” and I’d make sure they gave you some more moon pies for

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reads, “Hope your birthday is as sweet as—”, the word “hunny” scratched out for “Moon Pies!”

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The drone of silent stillness prickles against his ears, taunting him about the irony

outfield. Miles’ stomach had lurched, knowing he would be told to go to left outfield

of forgetting this memory, like his mother was rubbing off on him. Miles feels guilt

and pick dandelions. After the game, Dr. Ridley spoke down warmly to Miles, splaying

for the thought boring into the pit of his stomach. He cannot stand sifting through

Miles’ fingers in an awkward “V” for a fast ball. The coach’s hushed “sh” sounds

the corpse of the house any longer. He clears his throat once more and was too

through his mustache tickled the back of Miles’ neck. His cheeks burned at the

aware of his boot’s acoustics against the linoleum as he lumbers out.

attention, but the same heat felt caustic at his core. He did not want to learn from the

The chilled edge of the air filter hushes.

man. Miles betrayed his father, he learned his fast ball from a man that did not hold him

Spurts of crisp air chilled Miles and Sean’s legs. Brief drafts of wind in the

on his shoulders to see fireworks or sing like Elvis along to the radio. He did not have

temperate heat buffeted them like quickly opening and closing a freezer door. Both

a man that did those things yet, but he was still saving those moments, and Dr. Ridley

were in shorts, savoring the last remnants of summer as winter nipped at their heels.

took it from him. He was not a father, he was not even a “mister.” He was a doctor that

Miles incessantly shifted his shoulders in his large itchy jersey while Sean huffed

did not give out medicine, just talked to people, so what did he know?

behind him, shuffling into the newly raked leaves on their way home.

“But Milo, if it was your birthday today instead of next week, then you

Sean giggled at a squirrel that fell off a bird feeder.

Miles was not mad at himself, but he was mad for Sean, who did not know

could have picked us up quick, right?” said Sean, stamping on the wet leaves

that he was supposed to feel defiled. “Sean...does Mom...ever say anything

slicked by rain on the sidewalk.

about our daddy?” asked Miles.

“Forget it, Sean, Mom would still have to drive. You can drive when you turn sixteen, I’ll be eleven. It’s the rule,” said Miles.

“But, but you’re not lis’ning. I said if your birthday was today,” Sean said, he

Sean gave Miles a parental grin. “Nope, only when you ask. Don’t feel bad, Milo, we don’t got a daddy, but Mama says it’s all fine and all.”

Sean looked up at Miles’ downturned eyes. “I don’t need a daddy cause you take

paused for effect, looking up at his brother. “Then you would have five more birthdays

me to play baseball with you. You fix my bike for me too. I’ll stop getting the chain

quicker, and then you could drive me home in a few years.”

twisted, honest,” said Sean.

Miles raised his eyebrow at Sean, who was shaking his head at his brother at the simple logic. “Thanks, Sean, I guess I didn’t think about it that way before,” said Miles.

Miles picks at his jersey. “Well I’ll make sure my kids know who their dad is, not no one else,” he said.

“Thank you, no one lis’ins to me around here.”

“Or their mama,” said Sean.

Sean hummed and craned his head up at the trees. Miles slid a turkey oak leaf

“Especially not to forget about their mama,” said Miles, and he thumped Sean’s

across the pavement with one foot, grinding it down with a dull sense of impotence that simmered behind his forehead. He looked over at Sean, who jaunted with his hands in his pockets like a noir detective—minus two and a half feet. Miles was not angry, but felt an undirected sense of perversion that gnawed at him inwardly. Sean was happy to play baseball, but a shallow pit wore inside Miles that made him feel like a traitor.

Dr. Ridley had pulled Miles aside after another batter smashed the ball into the

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cap down over his eyes.

Sean grunted and pushed into his brother. “Come on Milo, ‘lax, Mama will get enough presents for your birthday, like from both a mommy and daddy,” said Sean.

Miles slid his baseball glove off the end of his bat and tossed it to Sean. “See if it fits,” he said, “Your birthday isn’t too far away either.”

Sean grinned and shoved on the glove. It was a bit big, but he flapped his arm like

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The drone of silent stillness prickles against his ears, taunting him about the irony

outfield. Miles’ stomach had lurched, knowing he would be told to go to left outfield

of forgetting this memory, like his mother was rubbing off on him. Miles feels guilt

and pick dandelions. After the game, Dr. Ridley spoke down warmly to Miles, splaying

for the thought boring into the pit of his stomach. He cannot stand sifting through

Miles’ fingers in an awkward “V” for a fast ball. The coach’s hushed “sh” sounds

the corpse of the house any longer. He clears his throat once more and was too

through his mustache tickled the back of Miles’ neck. His cheeks burned at the

aware of his boot’s acoustics against the linoleum as he lumbers out.

attention, but the same heat felt caustic at his core. He did not want to learn from the

The chilled edge of the air filter hushes.

man. Miles betrayed his father, he learned his fast ball from a man that did not hold him

Spurts of crisp air chilled Miles and Sean’s legs. Brief drafts of wind in the

on his shoulders to see fireworks or sing like Elvis along to the radio. He did not have

temperate heat buffeted them like quickly opening and closing a freezer door. Both

a man that did those things yet, but he was still saving those moments, and Dr. Ridley

were in shorts, savoring the last remnants of summer as winter nipped at their heels.

took it from him. He was not a father, he was not even a “mister.” He was a doctor that

Miles incessantly shifted his shoulders in his large itchy jersey while Sean huffed

did not give out medicine, just talked to people, so what did he know?

behind him, shuffling into the newly raked leaves on their way home.

“But Milo, if it was your birthday today instead of next week, then you

Sean giggled at a squirrel that fell off a bird feeder.

Miles was not mad at himself, but he was mad for Sean, who did not know

could have picked us up quick, right?” said Sean, stamping on the wet leaves

that he was supposed to feel defiled. “Sean...does Mom...ever say anything

slicked by rain on the sidewalk.

about our daddy?” asked Miles.

“Forget it, Sean, Mom would still have to drive. You can drive when you turn sixteen, I’ll be eleven. It’s the rule,” said Miles.

“But, but you’re not lis’ning. I said if your birthday was today,” Sean said, he

Sean gave Miles a parental grin. “Nope, only when you ask. Don’t feel bad, Milo, we don’t got a daddy, but Mama says it’s all fine and all.”

Sean looked up at Miles’ downturned eyes. “I don’t need a daddy cause you take

paused for effect, looking up at his brother. “Then you would have five more birthdays

me to play baseball with you. You fix my bike for me too. I’ll stop getting the chain

quicker, and then you could drive me home in a few years.”

twisted, honest,” said Sean.

Miles raised his eyebrow at Sean, who was shaking his head at his brother at the simple logic. “Thanks, Sean, I guess I didn’t think about it that way before,” said Miles.

Miles picks at his jersey. “Well I’ll make sure my kids know who their dad is, not no one else,” he said.

“Thank you, no one lis’ins to me around here.”

“Or their mama,” said Sean.

Sean hummed and craned his head up at the trees. Miles slid a turkey oak leaf

“Especially not to forget about their mama,” said Miles, and he thumped Sean’s

across the pavement with one foot, grinding it down with a dull sense of impotence that simmered behind his forehead. He looked over at Sean, who jaunted with his hands in his pockets like a noir detective—minus two and a half feet. Miles was not angry, but felt an undirected sense of perversion that gnawed at him inwardly. Sean was happy to play baseball, but a shallow pit wore inside Miles that made him feel like a traitor.

Dr. Ridley had pulled Miles aside after another batter smashed the ball into the

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cap down over his eyes.

Sean grunted and pushed into his brother. “Come on Milo, ‘lax, Mama will get enough presents for your birthday, like from both a mommy and daddy,” said Sean.

Miles slid his baseball glove off the end of his bat and tossed it to Sean. “See if it fits,” he said, “Your birthday isn’t too far away either.”

Sean grinned and shoved on the glove. It was a bit big, but he flapped his arm like

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he was about to take flight. It would not fall off, and Miles laughed.

Sean asked Miles to pull it off. “Milo, I’ve still got some nickels from my ’lowance left, will you stop worryin’ me if I get you some ice cream?”

The cold wind scattered leaves from the yards into the street. Sean yipped and

could you get those candles? The phone’s Cammie. I bet she’s stuck on the ice cream cake, but Mom mentioned German chocolate from Burnie’s.”

Sean gave a slapstick salute. “Aye aye, boss man.”

Jamie bent over and started sweeping the candles into her apron. She called

hopped through them as the breeze swirled them around Miles. They both dove into

up from the floor to Miles, “Tell her I’m not particular about it. Heaven knows that

the massive mound of leaves at the corner of their yard.

woman has been through enough with you sending her looking for three million candles. How about you break in those new marriage vows and go have an argument in

Miles hauls out the last of his mother’s clothes in computer boxes, sorting them by season and color. The variety was more for the staff rather than his mother.

the store with her instead of over the phone?”

Sean spun around. “Ma, come on, I’ve got those, go sit and watch the rest of the

She could wear the same floral blouse and mint green nightgown every day and

Sunday Morning Show, or whatever you old people do. You’re going to miss all the

never get tired of it.

birds and babbling brooks at the end.”

Jamie dropped a mound of candles back onto the counter and divvied them out.

Miles slides the grill into the garage and sifts the ashes into a bucket underneath.

“Sixty-three? Going back a bit, Mom?” Sean laughed. She grimaced at him and

He barely manages to squeeze out of the narrow passage from the cluttered

slid over three more. Miles strode through the kitchen to snatch the car keys out of his

garage. Throughout the house, Miles sees no vestiges of entertainment, no

hat. “All right Ma, if you insist on the extra year I’ll let it slide, but I’ll have to get the

paintbrushes or paper, no stitching fabrics or beginnings of quilts anymore,

fire department over since I only had sixty-five of ’em cleared.”

just duster wands and Pine-Sol. The kitchen, living room, and bedrooms of the

Miles closed the door behind him but could not shrug off his mother’s strained smile.

house are immaculate, not a single fiber out of place. However, closets, garages, and cabinets accumulate the rest of the home’s refuse, like each day his mother

Miles locks up the house and slips the key ring around the nose of the toy rocket.

cleaned her way across the house, but began again the next day—never making it

He hefts the last box into the back of the truck and gazes one last time at the

to the home’s extremities.

home. Without the velvet curtains keeping the waning sunlight inside, he could

Miles cannot help but think what kind of life his mother will try to breathe into a home where everyone else does the living for her.

see to the back of the house. Just a husk, none of the encyclopedia sets that got hocked onto them by Benji or the Apollo 17 poster in the skylight anymore.

The summer breeze gushed into the kitchen and brought with it the sizzling of the grill, the click of dog nails on linoleum, and Miles’ clipped curses.

The husky tried to bound onto the counter, but knocked the counted-out

The trees in the yard had become sparser, through storms and lumbering, but also in the sobering way adults shrank from towering giants to fit into a

birthday candles underneath the kitchen island and the rest of the candles scattered

firm handshake. Miles had learned to appreciate the warm sepia haze of intact

across the counter. The phone in the den started to ring off the hook.

memories, and to imbibe in the cozy wash, to let it seep through his bones before

Miles scooted the dog back outside and shouted back into the kitchen: “Sean,

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it drifted away. He wants to get away from the house before the image of its

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he was about to take flight. It would not fall off, and Miles laughed.

Sean asked Miles to pull it off. “Milo, I’ve still got some nickels from my ’lowance left, will you stop worryin’ me if I get you some ice cream?”

The cold wind scattered leaves from the yards into the street. Sean yipped and

could you get those candles? The phone’s Cammie. I bet she’s stuck on the ice cream cake, but Mom mentioned German chocolate from Burnie’s.”

Sean gave a slapstick salute. “Aye aye, boss man.”

Jamie bent over and started sweeping the candles into her apron. She called

hopped through them as the breeze swirled them around Miles. They both dove into

up from the floor to Miles, “Tell her I’m not particular about it. Heaven knows that

the massive mound of leaves at the corner of their yard.

woman has been through enough with you sending her looking for three million candles. How about you break in those new marriage vows and go have an argument in

Miles hauls out the last of his mother’s clothes in computer boxes, sorting them by season and color. The variety was more for the staff rather than his mother.

the store with her instead of over the phone?”

Sean spun around. “Ma, come on, I’ve got those, go sit and watch the rest of the

She could wear the same floral blouse and mint green nightgown every day and

Sunday Morning Show, or whatever you old people do. You’re going to miss all the

never get tired of it.

birds and babbling brooks at the end.”

Jamie dropped a mound of candles back onto the counter and divvied them out.

Miles slides the grill into the garage and sifts the ashes into a bucket underneath.

“Sixty-three? Going back a bit, Mom?” Sean laughed. She grimaced at him and

He barely manages to squeeze out of the narrow passage from the cluttered

slid over three more. Miles strode through the kitchen to snatch the car keys out of his

garage. Throughout the house, Miles sees no vestiges of entertainment, no

hat. “All right Ma, if you insist on the extra year I’ll let it slide, but I’ll have to get the

paintbrushes or paper, no stitching fabrics or beginnings of quilts anymore,

fire department over since I only had sixty-five of ’em cleared.”

just duster wands and Pine-Sol. The kitchen, living room, and bedrooms of the

Miles closed the door behind him but could not shrug off his mother’s strained smile.

house are immaculate, not a single fiber out of place. However, closets, garages, and cabinets accumulate the rest of the home’s refuse, like each day his mother

Miles locks up the house and slips the key ring around the nose of the toy rocket.

cleaned her way across the house, but began again the next day—never making it

He hefts the last box into the back of the truck and gazes one last time at the

to the home’s extremities.

home. Without the velvet curtains keeping the waning sunlight inside, he could

Miles cannot help but think what kind of life his mother will try to breathe into a home where everyone else does the living for her.

see to the back of the house. Just a husk, none of the encyclopedia sets that got hocked onto them by Benji or the Apollo 17 poster in the skylight anymore.

The summer breeze gushed into the kitchen and brought with it the sizzling of the grill, the click of dog nails on linoleum, and Miles’ clipped curses.

The husky tried to bound onto the counter, but knocked the counted-out

The trees in the yard had become sparser, through storms and lumbering, but also in the sobering way adults shrank from towering giants to fit into a

birthday candles underneath the kitchen island and the rest of the candles scattered

firm handshake. Miles had learned to appreciate the warm sepia haze of intact

across the counter. The phone in the den started to ring off the hook.

memories, and to imbibe in the cozy wash, to let it seep through his bones before

Miles scooted the dog back outside and shouted back into the kitchen: “Sean,

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it drifted away. He wants to get away from the house before the image of its

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shambling corpse latches into him and festers the fond memories.

Sean put the Santa hat on and dug underneath the tree. “Mom, whose bag is this?”

Miles walks up to the mailbox to take the monogrammed holiday flag off. He

“It belongs to your lady, son.”

stops underneath the holly tree. It made it through three hurricanes and a young

“You mean Becky?”

electrician with a new cherry picker, and it would last another Christmas without

“Sure, I can’t keep up with them anymore, shug.”

them. He snips a laurel with his pocket knife for the mantel.

“And this one’s for...‘Cassidy?’”

The cool blue sheen of the night’s fresh snow chilled the greens of the trees and red of the holly berries darker. Miles peered through the window to see a rich golden glow from the fire and the bright faces of his wife and baby girl shining, and the resounding laughter from Sean huddled with Becky, the beginnings of his brother’s better half. Miles’ mother rocked in her recliner with a reserved but proud smile by the fire that tightened her faint wrinkles and emblazoned her ash-colored hair.

Miles walked back into the house with a relieved Buck, and shimmied past Cammie bent over the stove with gingerbread. She fed a piece to pig-tailed Samantha in the high chair. Cammie gasped as he pinched her and he strolled into the den to help his mother rearrange the antenna as It’s a Wonderful Life stuttered behind the static. It came in as clear as it could with the snow drizzling into drifts outside. Miles slipped the holly cluster into his mother’s hair.

“Cammie, come on, leave the bread! You’ve been working yourself to the bone.

It’s Christmas, even Jesus took a break at the end of the week,” said Miles.

Sean draped his arm across the rest of Becky not swaddled up in the burgundy quilt. She pulled her turtleneck back up and cradled her head in the crook of his arm.

Sean piped up, “Well you’re only a testament off.”

Cammie sidled up next to Miles, bouncing baby Samantha on her knee, and Jamie nestled back into her recliner.

“I swear Sean, if you get The Good Book out, I’m walking two blocks down to spend the rest of Hanukkah with the Shultzes,” said Miles.

Jamie raised her arms and said, “Come on now, boys, be civilized. The Schulzes have a tree up at least. Come get your presents before the women folk start thinking I raised ingrates.”

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“Do I have to get up and give them out myself?”

“Mom, is everything fine?” said Miles.

Cammie sat up. “Ms. Connelly, it’s fine, thank you for the present—no matter what name is on there,” she said, and grinned thinly at Miles.

Sean looked up at his mother and wiped the evergreen needles off his palms.

“Mama, Miles and Cammie have been married three years.”

Miles frowned at Sean. “Give it a rest. Honest mistake.”

Sean sat upright. In the next room, he could see a miniature Ferris wheel with a bow on top. “To my Moon Man,” read the card next to it.

He looked over at his mother. “Well, maybe we should get Dr. Ridley down after New Year’s. Have him over for your monkey bread,” said Sean.

Jamie dug her nails into the armrest and looked back over at Miles. The fingers on her left hand formed a “V,” primed to pitch a cigarette between them. “Mason Ridley has plenty of business in Syracuse.”

She turned up the TV. The tinny dialogue and crackling static pressed heavily against the blanket of silence that fell over the room.

“Mother, don’t you remember me? I’m your son, George.”

“George who? I’ve never had a son, named George! Get out of here before I call the police!”

Jamie muted it. “I’m going to step out to smoke, y’all open up what Santa left you. Going to think for a bit. If you’re lucky, it’s not all clothes.”

Becky breathed out and cinched the quilt higher around her neck. The storm door hissed shut behind Jamie, the cold flickering the fire. Sean and Miles exchanged uneasy looks and the television flashed across their faces in the silence.

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shambling corpse latches into him and festers the fond memories.

Sean put the Santa hat on and dug underneath the tree. “Mom, whose bag is this?”

Miles walks up to the mailbox to take the monogrammed holiday flag off. He

“It belongs to your lady, son.”

stops underneath the holly tree. It made it through three hurricanes and a young

“You mean Becky?”

electrician with a new cherry picker, and it would last another Christmas without

“Sure, I can’t keep up with them anymore, shug.”

them. He snips a laurel with his pocket knife for the mantel.

“And this one’s for...‘Cassidy?’”

The cool blue sheen of the night’s fresh snow chilled the greens of the trees and red of the holly berries darker. Miles peered through the window to see a rich golden glow from the fire and the bright faces of his wife and baby girl shining, and the resounding laughter from Sean huddled with Becky, the beginnings of his brother’s better half. Miles’ mother rocked in her recliner with a reserved but proud smile by the fire that tightened her faint wrinkles and emblazoned her ash-colored hair.

Miles walked back into the house with a relieved Buck, and shimmied past Cammie bent over the stove with gingerbread. She fed a piece to pig-tailed Samantha in the high chair. Cammie gasped as he pinched her and he strolled into the den to help his mother rearrange the antenna as It’s a Wonderful Life stuttered behind the static. It came in as clear as it could with the snow drizzling into drifts outside. Miles slipped the holly cluster into his mother’s hair.

“Cammie, come on, leave the bread! You’ve been working yourself to the bone.

It’s Christmas, even Jesus took a break at the end of the week,” said Miles.

Sean draped his arm across the rest of Becky not swaddled up in the burgundy quilt. She pulled her turtleneck back up and cradled her head in the crook of his arm.

Sean piped up, “Well you’re only a testament off.”

Cammie sidled up next to Miles, bouncing baby Samantha on her knee, and Jamie nestled back into her recliner.

“I swear Sean, if you get The Good Book out, I’m walking two blocks down to spend the rest of Hanukkah with the Shultzes,” said Miles.

Jamie raised her arms and said, “Come on now, boys, be civilized. The Schulzes have a tree up at least. Come get your presents before the women folk start thinking I raised ingrates.”

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“Do I have to get up and give them out myself?”

“Mom, is everything fine?” said Miles.

Cammie sat up. “Ms. Connelly, it’s fine, thank you for the present—no matter what name is on there,” she said, and grinned thinly at Miles.

Sean looked up at his mother and wiped the evergreen needles off his palms.

“Mama, Miles and Cammie have been married three years.”

Miles frowned at Sean. “Give it a rest. Honest mistake.”

Sean sat upright. In the next room, he could see a miniature Ferris wheel with a bow on top. “To my Moon Man,” read the card next to it.

He looked over at his mother. “Well, maybe we should get Dr. Ridley down after New Year’s. Have him over for your monkey bread,” said Sean.

Jamie dug her nails into the armrest and looked back over at Miles. The fingers on her left hand formed a “V,” primed to pitch a cigarette between them. “Mason Ridley has plenty of business in Syracuse.”

She turned up the TV. The tinny dialogue and crackling static pressed heavily against the blanket of silence that fell over the room.

“Mother, don’t you remember me? I’m your son, George.”

“George who? I’ve never had a son, named George! Get out of here before I call the police!”

Jamie muted it. “I’m going to step out to smoke, y’all open up what Santa left you. Going to think for a bit. If you’re lucky, it’s not all clothes.”

Becky breathed out and cinched the quilt higher around her neck. The storm door hissed shut behind Jamie, the cold flickering the fire. Sean and Miles exchanged uneasy looks and the television flashed across their faces in the silence.

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The first murmurings of the cicadas and bleats of the tree frogs electrifies the

of the pictures on the mantel, shining like the gold glint of a lunar lander toy. “They

silence that had comforted Miles as he watches the last twinkling of life shine

don’t have a salary, but money isn’t much of a problem for them, no.”

through the house’s eyes.

Miles folds the last of his mother’s clothes into the trunk and straps it down to the truck bed. He climbs onto the back and sits facing the house. The sunset begins to dip below the trees and the home’s roof eclipses the last of the deep orange waves lapping against the pines, tinting the house a melancholy blue.

He slaps his jeans and clambers off the truck bed with a grunt. He pulls out his

“Do you and Mommy have sal-ries?” asked Samantha.

“Yeah, we do, but princesses get a lot of money from their parents, they just do a couple things here and there to help out their people. Like the Princess of Wales,” said Miles.

“Like Ariel? She had whales, I think. I know mermays are all made-up, but can I be a princess?” asked Samantha. She clapped her hands to her cheeks and then clapped her father’s arms, to make sure he was listening.

“Your Mom and I can’t help the heredity part, otherwise you’d already be a

phone to call Sean, in case his battery needs to be jumped. They’d have to stay

princess, but yeah honey, you could still be a princess, but you have to find a prince

the night in the house, of course. The engine turns over without a hitch. Miles

first,” said Miles. He leaned back and sat her on his knee. He perked his eyebrows at

trains the mirror on the window of his old bedroom. The truck spits gravel into

her, and said, “I guess your best option is to marry a dashing European prince. You

his diminishing view of the hollow house.

get a castle out of the deal, or a really big house depending on the EU, I guess.”

The oven fan still droned to extract the last of the grease fog. Cartoons flashed

Samantha grimaced and shook her head. “Nuh-uh, nope. Not happening. Princes stink.”

and yelped on the television with Samantha sprawled out across the floor, the

Miles laughed. “Yeah, those guys do smell funny.”

epicenter of a hurricane of dolls, horses, and pink castle masonry. She bent her head

She frowns and cups her chin in her hands. “Oh man,” Samantha said.

over her castle walls to gape at her show.

“What, you don’t like the perks of social democracy, honey? It’s a

Miles settled into his recliner and scraped the last of the grits out of his bowl. He would have to shower at some point, but he snapped open his laptop and stewed in the cloud of bacon that rolled off him. He began to type, “NASA Application Draft,”

pretty sweet deal for royal people.”

“We-ell, I mean, what do I do with all that? It’s not my castle then, is it? I don’t get to have my own kingdom. Oh, poo, I’ve got to sleep on that one, Daddy,” said Samantha.

sighed, and added “#6.” He paused and bit his lip before he scavenged through his

Miles tickled her side. “What, you don’t want to be a princess anymore?”

graveyard of leadership positions and research credits. Samantha giggled and danced

Samantha put her arm over his shoulder, and said “But I won’t be helping people

her footie-pajamaed legs in the air, tossing a princess over the castle. He pattered out

that way! I mean, Jasmine, Ok? Jasmine still gets to jump all over the place, she gets to

a boldened header: “Make her proud. You aren’t finished.”

help people, and...and she gets a tiger.”

“Hey, Daddy. Dad,” said Samantha.

“Oh, you want a job then?” said Miles with a smile.

“What’s up, Sammie?” asked Miles. He closed the laptop and scooted

Samantha lights up. “Yeah, I wanna help people, and, and maybe,” she said, “all

onto the carpet with her.

of the people will be real happy and maybe they’ll like me so much that they say, ‘Hey,

She puffed out her cheeks in befuddlement. “Well, Daddy, do princesses make money?”

giver the kingdom,’ and I’ll get a bear, because bears are a lot cooler than tigers ’cause

The morning sunlight streamed through the curtains and he caught a glimpse

tigers are big cats and cats are all itchy and bears can carry me around and tuck me in

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The first murmurings of the cicadas and bleats of the tree frogs electrifies the

of the pictures on the mantel, shining like the gold glint of a lunar lander toy. “They

silence that had comforted Miles as he watches the last twinkling of life shine

don’t have a salary, but money isn’t much of a problem for them, no.”

through the house’s eyes.

Miles folds the last of his mother’s clothes into the trunk and straps it down to the truck bed. He climbs onto the back and sits facing the house. The sunset begins to dip below the trees and the home’s roof eclipses the last of the deep orange waves lapping against the pines, tinting the house a melancholy blue.

He slaps his jeans and clambers off the truck bed with a grunt. He pulls out his

“Do you and Mommy have sal-ries?” asked Samantha.

“Yeah, we do, but princesses get a lot of money from their parents, they just do a couple things here and there to help out their people. Like the Princess of Wales,” said Miles.

“Like Ariel? She had whales, I think. I know mermays are all made-up, but can I be a princess?” asked Samantha. She clapped her hands to her cheeks and then clapped her father’s arms, to make sure he was listening.

“Your Mom and I can’t help the heredity part, otherwise you’d already be a

phone to call Sean, in case his battery needs to be jumped. They’d have to stay

princess, but yeah honey, you could still be a princess, but you have to find a prince

the night in the house, of course. The engine turns over without a hitch. Miles

first,” said Miles. He leaned back and sat her on his knee. He perked his eyebrows at

trains the mirror on the window of his old bedroom. The truck spits gravel into

her, and said, “I guess your best option is to marry a dashing European prince. You

his diminishing view of the hollow house.

get a castle out of the deal, or a really big house depending on the EU, I guess.”

The oven fan still droned to extract the last of the grease fog. Cartoons flashed

Samantha grimaced and shook her head. “Nuh-uh, nope. Not happening. Princes stink.”

and yelped on the television with Samantha sprawled out across the floor, the

Miles laughed. “Yeah, those guys do smell funny.”

epicenter of a hurricane of dolls, horses, and pink castle masonry. She bent her head

She frowns and cups her chin in her hands. “Oh man,” Samantha said.

over her castle walls to gape at her show.

“What, you don’t like the perks of social democracy, honey? It’s a

Miles settled into his recliner and scraped the last of the grits out of his bowl. He would have to shower at some point, but he snapped open his laptop and stewed in the cloud of bacon that rolled off him. He began to type, “NASA Application Draft,”

pretty sweet deal for royal people.”

“We-ell, I mean, what do I do with all that? It’s not my castle then, is it? I don’t get to have my own kingdom. Oh, poo, I’ve got to sleep on that one, Daddy,” said Samantha.

sighed, and added “#6.” He paused and bit his lip before he scavenged through his

Miles tickled her side. “What, you don’t want to be a princess anymore?”

graveyard of leadership positions and research credits. Samantha giggled and danced

Samantha put her arm over his shoulder, and said “But I won’t be helping people

her footie-pajamaed legs in the air, tossing a princess over the castle. He pattered out

that way! I mean, Jasmine, Ok? Jasmine still gets to jump all over the place, she gets to

a boldened header: “Make her proud. You aren’t finished.”

help people, and...and she gets a tiger.”

“Hey, Daddy. Dad,” said Samantha.

“Oh, you want a job then?” said Miles with a smile.

“What’s up, Sammie?” asked Miles. He closed the laptop and scooted

Samantha lights up. “Yeah, I wanna help people, and, and maybe,” she said, “all

onto the carpet with her.

of the people will be real happy and maybe they’ll like me so much that they say, ‘Hey,

She puffed out her cheeks in befuddlement. “Well, Daddy, do princesses make money?”

giver the kingdom,’ and I’ll get a bear, because bears are a lot cooler than tigers ’cause

The morning sunlight streamed through the curtains and he caught a glimpse

tigers are big cats and cats are all itchy and bears can carry me around and tuck me in

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like you do when I’m all tired out from helping people, and he’ll be really fuzzy and my

Faint squeaks and purring draw Miles’ sight to the base of a tree at the edge of

eyes won’t all itch up from his fur from algaes like Jenny’s kitty does.”

a clearing. Two baby rabbits wriggle through the fallen straw, one with a blade

Miles looks at her surprised. “But if you do that, won’t you miss sleeping in your castle? Bears can’t fit in a house,” he said.

Samantha shook her head again. Her daddy just does not understand it. “Oh,

of grass in its mouth dragging itself to its bleating sibling. Miles watches with abashed curiosity, and realizes that for the entire hour he has lounged, the infant bearing food had been crawling toward their hole. It stops just short with

no way, I’ll still be a princess, don’t worry about it. You get a bear too to tuck you in

one final heave, enough for the racking squeaks to stop and his brother to eat.

because you’re too heavy for me to tuck you in if you fall asleep in the car,” she said.

Miles waits uneasily for the small brown lump to chirp. Its brother nudges it. No

Miles laughed. “I hope I don’t fall asleep in the car, because I’ll really need the bear to carry me in then. Helping people and being a princess sounds like a real good job for you, Sammie,” Miles said.

She looked at him quizzically, with her signature edge of cheek. “Well if you get to be a princess and run everything, it’s part of the job. Doesn’t the princess in America help people? She’s a-sposed to.”

Miles could not help it, and laughed again, hugging her. “Took the words right out of my mouth. You’ll be a better princess than we’ve got right now,” he said.

He nuzzled Samantha until she pushed him away. His beard was too crusty, she

movement but its rib’s silent heaving. The sibling wiggles back into its hole.

Miles grunts to return to his truck, but swishing in the underbrush keeps him glued to his heels. The mother rabbit bounds from a nearby bush and waddles to its kit crying for its mama. They nestle close, and the nodding infant feeds and curls into sleep. The mother hops to its other child, sniffing. It is still breathing shallowly. The mother rabbit hops away again into the growth.

A new, morose edge to the reedy rhythm of nature that Miles has been enjoying gives a hollow edge to his bones. Despite the cheery sun, Miles feels a cutting

said. Miles sat there, holding his daughter and watching cartoons with her. A wistful

undercurrent among the murmuring forest, dividing him from the rest of nature.

joy curled through him as a rocket took off on the screen. He looked up at the mantel,

Now feeling the isolation of the clearing, Miles tosses away the bag lunch into a

and he was in every single picture with his family.

municipal dump—stamped trash can he had not noticed in the cleanly-circular

Cammie walked into the living room, yawning with her hand pressed against her back. Her maternity dress hung off of the swollen stomach she cradled with her other

glade. Miles hurries to his truck and tears away from the disquieting rest stop.

Miles pulled the pickup up under the speckled shade of the holly tree. The

arm. Miles guided her down to the floor and kissed her hair. He picked up a princess

sweltering July sun was enough to roast his forearms across the steering wheel, and his

doll with a glittering blue gown, gave it to Cammie, and all three became a royal family.

skin slithered out from beneath his shirt against the smothering humidity. The pickup

The periodic plink of the condensation in the truck’s exhaust pipe is the only manmade noise in the highway’s scenic rest stop, besides the rustling of the paper bag that held Miles’ lunch. He lets the sluggish sunlight wash over him while he ate until his forehead grows taut. The whispering pines and warbling songbirds lulls him into a trance, the first moment in weeks he has had a clear mind.

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door clunked shut, but nothing else could be heard besides the whisper of the tops of the pines. No martins, no tree frogs. The air conditioner sizzled silently without even the light tink of condensation.

Miles nervously ran his finger across the band of sweat underneath his watch. He picked up his walk to the front door into a brisk clip.

He rapped the storm door. “Mom?” No answer. “Mama?”

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like you do when I’m all tired out from helping people, and he’ll be really fuzzy and my

Faint squeaks and purring draw Miles’ sight to the base of a tree at the edge of

eyes won’t all itch up from his fur from algaes like Jenny’s kitty does.”

a clearing. Two baby rabbits wriggle through the fallen straw, one with a blade

Miles looks at her surprised. “But if you do that, won’t you miss sleeping in your castle? Bears can’t fit in a house,” he said.

Samantha shook her head again. Her daddy just does not understand it. “Oh,

of grass in its mouth dragging itself to its bleating sibling. Miles watches with abashed curiosity, and realizes that for the entire hour he has lounged, the infant bearing food had been crawling toward their hole. It stops just short with

no way, I’ll still be a princess, don’t worry about it. You get a bear too to tuck you in

one final heave, enough for the racking squeaks to stop and his brother to eat.

because you’re too heavy for me to tuck you in if you fall asleep in the car,” she said.

Miles waits uneasily for the small brown lump to chirp. Its brother nudges it. No

Miles laughed. “I hope I don’t fall asleep in the car, because I’ll really need the bear to carry me in then. Helping people and being a princess sounds like a real good job for you, Sammie,” Miles said.

She looked at him quizzically, with her signature edge of cheek. “Well if you get to be a princess and run everything, it’s part of the job. Doesn’t the princess in America help people? She’s a-sposed to.”

Miles could not help it, and laughed again, hugging her. “Took the words right out of my mouth. You’ll be a better princess than we’ve got right now,” he said.

He nuzzled Samantha until she pushed him away. His beard was too crusty, she

movement but its rib’s silent heaving. The sibling wiggles back into its hole.

Miles grunts to return to his truck, but swishing in the underbrush keeps him glued to his heels. The mother rabbit bounds from a nearby bush and waddles to its kit crying for its mama. They nestle close, and the nodding infant feeds and curls into sleep. The mother hops to its other child, sniffing. It is still breathing shallowly. The mother rabbit hops away again into the growth.

A new, morose edge to the reedy rhythm of nature that Miles has been enjoying gives a hollow edge to his bones. Despite the cheery sun, Miles feels a cutting

said. Miles sat there, holding his daughter and watching cartoons with her. A wistful

undercurrent among the murmuring forest, dividing him from the rest of nature.

joy curled through him as a rocket took off on the screen. He looked up at the mantel,

Now feeling the isolation of the clearing, Miles tosses away the bag lunch into a

and he was in every single picture with his family.

municipal dump—stamped trash can he had not noticed in the cleanly-circular

Cammie walked into the living room, yawning with her hand pressed against her back. Her maternity dress hung off of the swollen stomach she cradled with her other

glade. Miles hurries to his truck and tears away from the disquieting rest stop.

Miles pulled the pickup up under the speckled shade of the holly tree. The

arm. Miles guided her down to the floor and kissed her hair. He picked up a princess

sweltering July sun was enough to roast his forearms across the steering wheel, and his

doll with a glittering blue gown, gave it to Cammie, and all three became a royal family.

skin slithered out from beneath his shirt against the smothering humidity. The pickup

The periodic plink of the condensation in the truck’s exhaust pipe is the only manmade noise in the highway’s scenic rest stop, besides the rustling of the paper bag that held Miles’ lunch. He lets the sluggish sunlight wash over him while he ate until his forehead grows taut. The whispering pines and warbling songbirds lulls him into a trance, the first moment in weeks he has had a clear mind.

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door clunked shut, but nothing else could be heard besides the whisper of the tops of the pines. No martins, no tree frogs. The air conditioner sizzled silently without even the light tink of condensation.

Miles nervously ran his finger across the band of sweat underneath his watch. He picked up his walk to the front door into a brisk clip.

He rapped the storm door. “Mom?” No answer. “Mama?”

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He leaned into the door and it swung open effortlessly. The surge of torrid heat

bond is over on the desk. Cammie sent me the pictures in the mail. Danny’s got your

steamed up Miles’ glasses. A scream from the kitchen. The kettle’s shriek tapered

chin, but thank goodness, he’s got those pretty eyes of hers. Maybe he’ll get his smarts

down after Miles switched off the stove.

from both of you,” she said. Her eyes twinkled and she elbowed Miles.

“Mom?”

He laughed. “Maybe he’ll be the one to get to the moon, then.”

“In the back bedroom, honey!” Jamie called.

“I don’t doubt any of it. He’ll get there for sure, you guys keep popping

Puzzled creases rumpled across his face as he explored the kitchen. Crumbs crackled underneath his boots while he walked to turn the thermostat down by fifteen degrees.

“I, uh, brought back your pie tins, Mom. Do you want them back under the stove?”

He craned his neck around the corner of the kitchen to the dark hallway that retreated to the back of the house.

“Just sit them on the island counter, I’ve got some apple preserves left to finish off,” she called.

Miles sat them down with a clack, next to the calendar pillboxes. Monday and Tuesday were untouched. He flipped on the light switches as he wandered to the back room. “Do you want me to fish the apples out of the pantry? I can get the back-room thermostat if you want,” he said.

“Miles, just leave it. It was as cold as a witch’s tit last night and the quilt’s in the wash. My clumsy hands went and spilled some chicken and rice soup on it,” said Jamie.

Miles hugged her from the back. “I don’t know how you do it, it’s a high of eighty-nine and muggy enough to strangle frogs,” he said.

“I’ll come back up to the den in a second, I’ve been dragging my feet all week and I’m finally getting around to the laundry,” Jamie said. She shooed him off, not making eye contact. A yellow splotch on the folded blouse caught Miles’ eye.

“Ma, did you put in enough detergent? There’s a spot on your shirt there.”

“I’ve been doing my own laundry for sixty years, I don’t think I need any help,”

them out till one of them can send me back a moon rock. I’ve still got an empty space on the mantel,” she said.

Miles looked down at his mother’s busy hands. One hand spread out the apples while her left extended two fingers forked for a cigarette.

She looked back over her shoulder at him. “Honey, pass me those cigarettes.

I’ve been putting aside money for Winstons for fifty years, and they up and change the recipe on me. Taste like ditch weeds now. How’s that for brand loyalty?”

He tapped her pack of Pall Malls against his wrist and passed one to her. “The moon’s supposed to be real big tonight,” Miles said.

She walked to the window and hunched her shoulder down to the screen. Jamie laughed. “The prettiest moon I ever saw was back in...back in...yeah, it was 1953.

That was when I was up in Brooklyn. That was after your Uncle Wally got his number called for Korea, at the end of the whole ordeal, but still, I wanted to find somewhere that had a little more to plan for than make tea and wait for the rest of your brothers’ letters to come in the mail. So I hopped a train up to New York. I was thinking that I could find somewhere in Manhattan, dance in the streets, and bump into Frank Sinatra at the laundromat. So I found a dump in Brooklyn.”

Miles saw his mother exhale under the sill and a dreamy smile crept across her face.

“That moon sure was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, somehow grander than over Brisco. Like it sparkled. You took me over to Coney Island, you hoped I

she snapped. Miles walked back to the kitchen and ducked into the pantry for the

forgot, didn’t you? You showed up with three daisies and were soaked from the knees

canned apples. Jamie shuffled in and took the pie crust from out of his hands.

down, but you made sure that hat on your head poked out at an angle.” Jamie laughed.

“That’s a handsome baby boy, Miles. I know he’s fresh from the nursery, but bring him to visit. He’s got to get used to his Nonnie pretty quick, now doesn’t he? His savings

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“And then you took me out to Coney Island. Yessiree, I had a ball, I really did.

We held hands and the moon was as big as the Ferris wheel. You had that spark in

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He leaned into the door and it swung open effortlessly. The surge of torrid heat

bond is over on the desk. Cammie sent me the pictures in the mail. Danny’s got your

steamed up Miles’ glasses. A scream from the kitchen. The kettle’s shriek tapered

chin, but thank goodness, he’s got those pretty eyes of hers. Maybe he’ll get his smarts

down after Miles switched off the stove.

from both of you,” she said. Her eyes twinkled and she elbowed Miles.

“Mom?”

He laughed. “Maybe he’ll be the one to get to the moon, then.”

“In the back bedroom, honey!” Jamie called.

“I don’t doubt any of it. He’ll get there for sure, you guys keep popping

Puzzled creases rumpled across his face as he explored the kitchen. Crumbs crackled underneath his boots while he walked to turn the thermostat down by fifteen degrees.

“I, uh, brought back your pie tins, Mom. Do you want them back under the stove?”

He craned his neck around the corner of the kitchen to the dark hallway that retreated to the back of the house.

“Just sit them on the island counter, I’ve got some apple preserves left to finish off,” she called.

Miles sat them down with a clack, next to the calendar pillboxes. Monday and Tuesday were untouched. He flipped on the light switches as he wandered to the back room. “Do you want me to fish the apples out of the pantry? I can get the back-room thermostat if you want,” he said.

“Miles, just leave it. It was as cold as a witch’s tit last night and the quilt’s in the wash. My clumsy hands went and spilled some chicken and rice soup on it,” said Jamie.

Miles hugged her from the back. “I don’t know how you do it, it’s a high of eighty-nine and muggy enough to strangle frogs,” he said.

“I’ll come back up to the den in a second, I’ve been dragging my feet all week and I’m finally getting around to the laundry,” Jamie said. She shooed him off, not making eye contact. A yellow splotch on the folded blouse caught Miles’ eye.

“Ma, did you put in enough detergent? There’s a spot on your shirt there.”

“I’ve been doing my own laundry for sixty years, I don’t think I need any help,”

them out till one of them can send me back a moon rock. I’ve still got an empty space on the mantel,” she said.

Miles looked down at his mother’s busy hands. One hand spread out the apples while her left extended two fingers forked for a cigarette.

She looked back over her shoulder at him. “Honey, pass me those cigarettes.

I’ve been putting aside money for Winstons for fifty years, and they up and change the recipe on me. Taste like ditch weeds now. How’s that for brand loyalty?”

He tapped her pack of Pall Malls against his wrist and passed one to her. “The moon’s supposed to be real big tonight,” Miles said.

She walked to the window and hunched her shoulder down to the screen. Jamie laughed. “The prettiest moon I ever saw was back in...back in...yeah, it was 1953.

That was when I was up in Brooklyn. That was after your Uncle Wally got his number called for Korea, at the end of the whole ordeal, but still, I wanted to find somewhere that had a little more to plan for than make tea and wait for the rest of your brothers’ letters to come in the mail. So I hopped a train up to New York. I was thinking that I could find somewhere in Manhattan, dance in the streets, and bump into Frank Sinatra at the laundromat. So I found a dump in Brooklyn.”

Miles saw his mother exhale under the sill and a dreamy smile crept across her face.

“That moon sure was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen, somehow grander than over Brisco. Like it sparkled. You took me over to Coney Island, you hoped I

she snapped. Miles walked back to the kitchen and ducked into the pantry for the

forgot, didn’t you? You showed up with three daisies and were soaked from the knees

canned apples. Jamie shuffled in and took the pie crust from out of his hands.

down, but you made sure that hat on your head poked out at an angle.” Jamie laughed.

“That’s a handsome baby boy, Miles. I know he’s fresh from the nursery, but bring him to visit. He’s got to get used to his Nonnie pretty quick, now doesn’t he? His savings

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“And then you took me out to Coney Island. Yessiree, I had a ball, I really did.

We held hands and the moon was as big as the Ferris wheel. You had that spark in

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your eye, and we took off down the pier and splashed out onto the beach. When you squeezed my hand, I felt like I had swallowed that moon whole and I hoped my teeth were sparkling and my eyes were shining, just to impress you. Right then and there, I knew I had gone and fell in love with you, Richard.”

Jamie blinked. Her mouth silently gasped and she pursed her lips tight. With a

saw Sean catch his gaze over the din of the wedding reception.

Sean’s ear-to-ear grin that wouldn’t crack throughout the entire wedding drooped as he steered Miles into the chapel’s anteroom.

“Listen, Miles, I sure as sunshine don’t want to bring down the mood—believe you me—but after Mom got here, you haven’t looked at her the same. You’ve seen it

knit of her brow, she flicked the cigarette in the sink. Jamie finished the pie in silence,

too. I know I could pick a better time, but I want to have a heart-to-heart with just you,

but Miles thought, Richard, Richard, Richard, and wouldn’t forget the name.

and it’s hard to do that from three states away.”

The lull of the humming country roads and the permission of the drooping sun urges Miles to shift his gaze to the distant hilltop to his left. The small crosses that pricked the hilltop carry their languid whispers to him in the lilting breeze that skims the browning trees. The crosses speak of the same name that was breathed into his ear in countless cemeteries over the past six years, until one cross showed Miles where his father Richard waited for him. Not under the mares of the moon, but beneath a listless headstone bearing an engraved American flag. As he stood stiffly over the grave, he did not hear his father, but Sean’s voice slip between the marble crosses. His father was still the man on the moon. But not his daddy.

Miles shrugged his brother’s arm off his shoulder. He adjusted his vest and glared, twisting his wedding band. Sean returned his glare unwavered. “This talk has to happen, you know it more than anyone. I’m talking to you for your own sake. She’s my mother, she tucked me in every night, and let me get away with faking the chicken pox so I could watch cartoons. I love her more than anyone in the world. Except you,” said Sean.

Miles turned around to walk back into the banquet hall. Sean clamped down on his shoulder. He tried, but Miles couldn’t help but feel his brother’s words weave through his heartstrings and resonate in some core place that he didn’t recognize.

“It’s a hole, Milo. Any hope that you might see down there, it’s another rope so you can go deeper. Your kids know how wonderful a woman she is, and we have to think about

The grinding of his wheels against the notches on the side of the highway

where she might have to settle down. Don’t entertain those fantasies of hers anymore. Let

snatch Miles from his reverie. Newer names replace “Richard,” as the empty

Samantha and Danny remember their Nonnie before she can’t do the same for them.”

crater worn into his heart has not been filled but woven over with the threads that connect him to his blossoming family.

And Jamie, Sean, Cammie, Samantha, and Danny will not forget him.

“Wow, I’ll try my best to remember, Becky Connelly, this time, sorry brother, not used to you being a tied-down man,” laughed Miles. He adjusted his vest that kept

Miles pulled Sean in and they embraced. “I love you, Sean. But I can’t promise anything,” Miles said. “She’s still my mama, not all the time, but when she’s there I can’t let her forget that.”

Shuffled footsteps crept up behind Sean and tapped him on the shoulder. Jamie held his arm and spoke to him, trying valiantly to look secretive.

wrinkling above his developing potbelly. Sean clapped him on the back, “Plenty of

“Sean-Bon, do you know where they are?” Jamie asked.

time for talk after I get back from Bermuda.”

He sighed, “Becky’s over by the buffet table, Ma.”

Clinking of champagne glasses and hearty chuckles reverberated down from the dark wood arches of the chapel. Warm rainbows scattered across the tiled floor from the mosaic windows. Across the sea of smiling heads and shimmering dresses, Miles

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She shook her head. “No, everyone’s crying. Is there a wake? So I can pay my respects?”

Sean’s shoulders dropped. He slumped down and hugged her tight. Miles saw the playful look Jamie cast at him, but the corners of her mouth were a bit too flat, her

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your eye, and we took off down the pier and splashed out onto the beach. When you squeezed my hand, I felt like I had swallowed that moon whole and I hoped my teeth were sparkling and my eyes were shining, just to impress you. Right then and there, I knew I had gone and fell in love with you, Richard.”

Jamie blinked. Her mouth silently gasped and she pursed her lips tight. With a

saw Sean catch his gaze over the din of the wedding reception.

Sean’s ear-to-ear grin that wouldn’t crack throughout the entire wedding drooped as he steered Miles into the chapel’s anteroom.

“Listen, Miles, I sure as sunshine don’t want to bring down the mood—believe you me—but after Mom got here, you haven’t looked at her the same. You’ve seen it

knit of her brow, she flicked the cigarette in the sink. Jamie finished the pie in silence,

too. I know I could pick a better time, but I want to have a heart-to-heart with just you,

but Miles thought, Richard, Richard, Richard, and wouldn’t forget the name.

and it’s hard to do that from three states away.”

The lull of the humming country roads and the permission of the drooping sun urges Miles to shift his gaze to the distant hilltop to his left. The small crosses that pricked the hilltop carry their languid whispers to him in the lilting breeze that skims the browning trees. The crosses speak of the same name that was breathed into his ear in countless cemeteries over the past six years, until one cross showed Miles where his father Richard waited for him. Not under the mares of the moon, but beneath a listless headstone bearing an engraved American flag. As he stood stiffly over the grave, he did not hear his father, but Sean’s voice slip between the marble crosses. His father was still the man on the moon. But not his daddy.

Miles shrugged his brother’s arm off his shoulder. He adjusted his vest and glared, twisting his wedding band. Sean returned his glare unwavered. “This talk has to happen, you know it more than anyone. I’m talking to you for your own sake. She’s my mother, she tucked me in every night, and let me get away with faking the chicken pox so I could watch cartoons. I love her more than anyone in the world. Except you,” said Sean.

Miles turned around to walk back into the banquet hall. Sean clamped down on his shoulder. He tried, but Miles couldn’t help but feel his brother’s words weave through his heartstrings and resonate in some core place that he didn’t recognize.

“It’s a hole, Milo. Any hope that you might see down there, it’s another rope so you can go deeper. Your kids know how wonderful a woman she is, and we have to think about

The grinding of his wheels against the notches on the side of the highway

where she might have to settle down. Don’t entertain those fantasies of hers anymore. Let

snatch Miles from his reverie. Newer names replace “Richard,” as the empty

Samantha and Danny remember their Nonnie before she can’t do the same for them.”

crater worn into his heart has not been filled but woven over with the threads that connect him to his blossoming family.

And Jamie, Sean, Cammie, Samantha, and Danny will not forget him.

“Wow, I’ll try my best to remember, Becky Connelly, this time, sorry brother, not used to you being a tied-down man,” laughed Miles. He adjusted his vest that kept

Miles pulled Sean in and they embraced. “I love you, Sean. But I can’t promise anything,” Miles said. “She’s still my mama, not all the time, but when she’s there I can’t let her forget that.”

Shuffled footsteps crept up behind Sean and tapped him on the shoulder. Jamie held his arm and spoke to him, trying valiantly to look secretive.

wrinkling above his developing potbelly. Sean clapped him on the back, “Plenty of

“Sean-Bon, do you know where they are?” Jamie asked.

time for talk after I get back from Bermuda.”

He sighed, “Becky’s over by the buffet table, Ma.”

Clinking of champagne glasses and hearty chuckles reverberated down from the dark wood arches of the chapel. Warm rainbows scattered across the tiled floor from the mosaic windows. Across the sea of smiling heads and shimmering dresses, Miles

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She shook her head. “No, everyone’s crying. Is there a wake? So I can pay my respects?”

Sean’s shoulders dropped. He slumped down and hugged her tight. Miles saw the playful look Jamie cast at him, but the corners of her mouth were a bit too flat, her

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eyes too tepid. She tried to hide it with humor, but he could see the questions that her pursed lips kept from bubbling to the surface.

The rolling hills along the road slope down, winding down to a lake with spiraling white specks that circle the surface, glimmering in the low sun. Miles passes a tourist station, the flapping stars and stripes above it snapping his gaze.

Despite all the questions Miles had about Richard, he still came too late, and

Cammie leaned her head onto his shoulder and reached her arm up to rub his back.

“I told Sam and Danny that we aren’t going to Disney. They didn’t go quietly, but it could’ve been worse if Samantha had already seen the Cinderella dress you got her. Just get some rest, I’ll bring them back tonight. The receipts were still in the bag.”

She brushed her lips against his neck. He didn’t look up, so Cammie closed the door to the office behind her. But Miles spoke up.

“She called him Steven today. I’ve never seen Sean cry, so I walked out to go to

Miles has learned to appreciate the unanswerable. He only knows Richard as the

the bathroom. She tried to take the stitches out of the spot on her arm, so he tried to

outline of the questions he has collected, and he created his own answers that

stop her. I couldn’t believe what she said. She wasn’t Mama anymore, she told him

his mama entertained. Thirty years ago, his father was an astronaut, and then a

‘Don’t you touch me, you’ve done enough, putting me in here so you can wait for me

cowboy, then a famed playwright, and then simply a man. But Miles knew all of

to die without faking that lying grin of yours.’” Miles laced his fingers behind his head

those as his father, and now too as the picture of the man in his wallet, with Sean’s

and looked up at Cammie. Dried tears stained his glasses.

grin and Miles’ mole on his neck.

He turns down the radio, rolling into the outlet, crunching along the mile drive to Swan Valley.

Only the incandescent desk lamp lit a corner of the study. Miles sat alone and cradled his head in his hands with no concept of how long he had been sitting apart from the wood grain imprint on his forearms and each crack of the clock’s hands.

The buzzing silence when Cammie treaded in from the dark into the doorway with a kindred, but plaintive expression.

“Swan Valley? Miles, we can’t move her to any assisted living facility closer—let alone a village. They cut me down to ten months, and you already put your chips all-in,” said Cammie. She scooted onto the desk bench next to him. She exhaled and began to flip through the envelopes and binder-clipped stacks strewn across the desk to create some order among them.

“I won’t try to weigh in on this. You don’t have to say a word. She’s your mother, and I wouldn’t know what to begin to sacrifice to show my mother the kind of love that she feels from you.”

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“She said, ‘Go get Milo, my son.’”

Miles heard Cammie shuffle across the carpet back to their bedroom. The television switched on. He sat alone and listened to the isolating tick of the clock.

Miles’ rheumy eyes dragged up to see a photograph of his mother surrounded by Miles, Cammie, Danny, and Samantha. They were all smiles, but Jamie gazed past the camera, her head slightly angled. He flipped the frame face-down.

“Daddy?” Danny peered over at his father, hugging the doorway.

“What’s up, champ? Want me to get you some milk and a moon pie?” asked Miles, with a faint smile.

“Nah, I already have to pee, and Mommy’ll make me brush my teeths all again,” said Danny. “I was walking home from school, okay, and all of these guys were playing baseball in the park, and I saw that and I was like, ‘That looks like it’ll be fun and, and good for my cord-nation like Daddy says.’ And then I walk over there, and I see Mr. Jim, just talking at them. He says he’s the coach. And I can play!”

Danny looked downward. He said, “But I don’t have nothing to play it with,” but Danny brightened up. “Could you teach me how?”

Miles sat up and looked at his boy’s beaming face. He looked at the frame face-

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eyes too tepid. She tried to hide it with humor, but he could see the questions that her pursed lips kept from bubbling to the surface.

The rolling hills along the road slope down, winding down to a lake with spiraling white specks that circle the surface, glimmering in the low sun. Miles passes a tourist station, the flapping stars and stripes above it snapping his gaze.

Despite all the questions Miles had about Richard, he still came too late, and

Cammie leaned her head onto his shoulder and reached her arm up to rub his back.

“I told Sam and Danny that we aren’t going to Disney. They didn’t go quietly, but it could’ve been worse if Samantha had already seen the Cinderella dress you got her. Just get some rest, I’ll bring them back tonight. The receipts were still in the bag.”

She brushed her lips against his neck. He didn’t look up, so Cammie closed the door to the office behind her. But Miles spoke up.

“She called him Steven today. I’ve never seen Sean cry, so I walked out to go to

Miles has learned to appreciate the unanswerable. He only knows Richard as the

the bathroom. She tried to take the stitches out of the spot on her arm, so he tried to

outline of the questions he has collected, and he created his own answers that

stop her. I couldn’t believe what she said. She wasn’t Mama anymore, she told him

his mama entertained. Thirty years ago, his father was an astronaut, and then a

‘Don’t you touch me, you’ve done enough, putting me in here so you can wait for me

cowboy, then a famed playwright, and then simply a man. But Miles knew all of

to die without faking that lying grin of yours.’” Miles laced his fingers behind his head

those as his father, and now too as the picture of the man in his wallet, with Sean’s

and looked up at Cammie. Dried tears stained his glasses.

grin and Miles’ mole on his neck.

He turns down the radio, rolling into the outlet, crunching along the mile drive to Swan Valley.

Only the incandescent desk lamp lit a corner of the study. Miles sat alone and cradled his head in his hands with no concept of how long he had been sitting apart from the wood grain imprint on his forearms and each crack of the clock’s hands.

The buzzing silence when Cammie treaded in from the dark into the doorway with a kindred, but plaintive expression.

“Swan Valley? Miles, we can’t move her to any assisted living facility closer—let alone a village. They cut me down to ten months, and you already put your chips all-in,” said Cammie. She scooted onto the desk bench next to him. She exhaled and began to flip through the envelopes and binder-clipped stacks strewn across the desk to create some order among them.

“I won’t try to weigh in on this. You don’t have to say a word. She’s your mother, and I wouldn’t know what to begin to sacrifice to show my mother the kind of love that she feels from you.”

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“She said, ‘Go get Milo, my son.’”

Miles heard Cammie shuffle across the carpet back to their bedroom. The television switched on. He sat alone and listened to the isolating tick of the clock.

Miles’ rheumy eyes dragged up to see a photograph of his mother surrounded by Miles, Cammie, Danny, and Samantha. They were all smiles, but Jamie gazed past the camera, her head slightly angled. He flipped the frame face-down.

“Daddy?” Danny peered over at his father, hugging the doorway.

“What’s up, champ? Want me to get you some milk and a moon pie?” asked Miles, with a faint smile.

“Nah, I already have to pee, and Mommy’ll make me brush my teeths all again,” said Danny. “I was walking home from school, okay, and all of these guys were playing baseball in the park, and I saw that and I was like, ‘That looks like it’ll be fun and, and good for my cord-nation like Daddy says.’ And then I walk over there, and I see Mr. Jim, just talking at them. He says he’s the coach. And I can play!”

Danny looked downward. He said, “But I don’t have nothing to play it with,” but Danny brightened up. “Could you teach me how?”

Miles sat up and looked at his boy’s beaming face. He looked at the frame face-

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down and back at Danny. “Sure thing, but I’ve got to drive over to see your Nonnie tomorrow, but I can do it this weekend if you’re game,” said Miles.

Danny perked up, nodded, and walked out of the study into the dark. Miles heard him talk to Cammie. “He said “no.’ Can Mr. Jim pick me up?”

Miles’ heart plummeted through his chest and sunk into a crater that deepened

Jamie slumped against her walker and lurched to the window next to Miles. Her dry hand rasped against the weathered canvas of his jacket. When her hand began to tremble on his shoulder, he turned his head to the sunset. Her fingers slid down his arm, but he caught them, and held her fast.

She smiled thinly up at him and looked out the window too. The right side of her

with age, a hole in the shape of a father’s hand. Without a word, Miles slid the photo of

smile drooped down but she still managed to make it curl at the end. “Moon’s pretty

his mother into the desk drawer out of sight and flicked off the desk lamp. The lonely

tonight, Milo,” she said. He squinted up at it, the faint glow blurring his vision.

night reclaimed the house, without a beacon to guide Miles to bed or through the

“It’s still pretty down here,” he whispered.

desolate halls of his dreams.

“I wish I could’ve taken you to Cape Canaveral. I keep thinking that if you saw

Although the glass walls and sunshine highlighted the modernity of the

a rocket get all the way up there, actually see it go so high that it disappeared, you

facility, the empty hallways and stone and wood architecture did not

might’ve made it on the next trip up,” said Jamie.

diminish how Miles viewed the assisted living community: a cold lockbox,

“I thought about it too, Ma. It’d get pretty lonely. I think I’ve found everything

a primed coffin in all but name to put family aside until it’s opened again to

I was looking for down here instead. You, Sean...Cammie, Sam, and Danny,” Miles

crack inheritance out of their dead brittle fingers.

said. He looked down at her. She nodded at the empty names and didn’t say a word.

Miles walks up to the front desk. “Hi, is Jamie Connelly in her room?” The receptionist’s bangs bounce as she shakes her head. “Out by the pond, Miles.

She’s been harassing all the nurses to bring her out today. Eventually Reggie heard, and you know he’s got a soft spot for Miss Jamie.”

He looked back up to the sky.

“I’d be afraid that after a while, Danny would forget how my snoring sounds, and he would stop complaining. I’d be afraid I’d forget the small things that make my family,” Miles said. He looked down pensively at Jamie. The creases under his eyes were cracked from too many floods and the dark bags discolored from his heart when it leaks through his tears.

He scratches down his name and lets the pen dangle, the chain clacking against

“Are you afraid of forgetting things too, Mama?”

the linoleum desk. The receptionist leans over to catch him before he heads out.

She stretched her fingers underneath his hand, forking her front two. “You’d never

“Not bringing her any moon pies today?”

Miles twists to push the door open with his back. “Not this time, Sharon. Just the gift of conversation.”

forget your family, Milo. They’d never let you go a day without making sure you knew it.”

Her fingers went lax. “Hey, just got back from the house, three roast beef sandwiches, from the butcher in Brisco,” said Sean, walking in from the hallway.

Sharon leans back into her chair. “She might fall asleep on you, she’s been

Jamie nudged Miles and whispered in his ear, “Did you call a nurse?”

keeping the swans entertained all day, and they’re good listeners.”

“Yeah Ma, I called him before I got here, so he could get it ready for a

“See Ma, this one’s not as bad, look out the windows. Swans. And Miss Sharon up front, she’s real nice, she says that you can go down to the pond any time you like when you’re waiting for me. The swans will keep you company until I can drive over.”

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picnic if you wanted,” said Miles.

He looked back and shook his head to Sean. Sean’s eyes went placid, his face engraved in marble. “What did he say to you?” he asked Jamie.

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down and back at Danny. “Sure thing, but I’ve got to drive over to see your Nonnie tomorrow, but I can do it this weekend if you’re game,” said Miles.

Danny perked up, nodded, and walked out of the study into the dark. Miles heard him talk to Cammie. “He said “no.’ Can Mr. Jim pick me up?”

Miles’ heart plummeted through his chest and sunk into a crater that deepened

Jamie slumped against her walker and lurched to the window next to Miles. Her dry hand rasped against the weathered canvas of his jacket. When her hand began to tremble on his shoulder, he turned his head to the sunset. Her fingers slid down his arm, but he caught them, and held her fast.

She smiled thinly up at him and looked out the window too. The right side of her

with age, a hole in the shape of a father’s hand. Without a word, Miles slid the photo of

smile drooped down but she still managed to make it curl at the end. “Moon’s pretty

his mother into the desk drawer out of sight and flicked off the desk lamp. The lonely

tonight, Milo,” she said. He squinted up at it, the faint glow blurring his vision.

night reclaimed the house, without a beacon to guide Miles to bed or through the

“It’s still pretty down here,” he whispered.

desolate halls of his dreams.

“I wish I could’ve taken you to Cape Canaveral. I keep thinking that if you saw

Although the glass walls and sunshine highlighted the modernity of the

a rocket get all the way up there, actually see it go so high that it disappeared, you

facility, the empty hallways and stone and wood architecture did not

might’ve made it on the next trip up,” said Jamie.

diminish how Miles viewed the assisted living community: a cold lockbox,

“I thought about it too, Ma. It’d get pretty lonely. I think I’ve found everything

a primed coffin in all but name to put family aside until it’s opened again to

I was looking for down here instead. You, Sean...Cammie, Sam, and Danny,” Miles

crack inheritance out of their dead brittle fingers.

said. He looked down at her. She nodded at the empty names and didn’t say a word.

Miles walks up to the front desk. “Hi, is Jamie Connelly in her room?” The receptionist’s bangs bounce as she shakes her head. “Out by the pond, Miles.

She’s been harassing all the nurses to bring her out today. Eventually Reggie heard, and you know he’s got a soft spot for Miss Jamie.”

He looked back up to the sky.

“I’d be afraid that after a while, Danny would forget how my snoring sounds, and he would stop complaining. I’d be afraid I’d forget the small things that make my family,” Miles said. He looked down pensively at Jamie. The creases under his eyes were cracked from too many floods and the dark bags discolored from his heart when it leaks through his tears.

He scratches down his name and lets the pen dangle, the chain clacking against

“Are you afraid of forgetting things too, Mama?”

the linoleum desk. The receptionist leans over to catch him before he heads out.

She stretched her fingers underneath his hand, forking her front two. “You’d never

“Not bringing her any moon pies today?”

Miles twists to push the door open with his back. “Not this time, Sharon. Just the gift of conversation.”

forget your family, Milo. They’d never let you go a day without making sure you knew it.”

Her fingers went lax. “Hey, just got back from the house, three roast beef sandwiches, from the butcher in Brisco,” said Sean, walking in from the hallway.

Sharon leans back into her chair. “She might fall asleep on you, she’s been

Jamie nudged Miles and whispered in his ear, “Did you call a nurse?”

keeping the swans entertained all day, and they’re good listeners.”

“Yeah Ma, I called him before I got here, so he could get it ready for a

“See Ma, this one’s not as bad, look out the windows. Swans. And Miss Sharon up front, she’s real nice, she says that you can go down to the pond any time you like when you’re waiting for me. The swans will keep you company until I can drive over.”

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picnic if you wanted,” said Miles.

He looked back and shook his head to Sean. Sean’s eyes went placid, his face engraved in marble. “What did he say to you?” he asked Jamie.

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Miles gave another curt shake, but Sean couldn’t let the glimmer of fear he saw in his brother slide again. “Ma’am, I apologize, did you want roast beef? I got in a rush, but I think I remember you telling me you were more of a BLT gal,” said Sean.

Miles squeezed his mother’s hand, anything to give her a signal. She looked

“Here you go ma’am, already had your glasses, looks like,” said Sean, pointing to the chain around her neck.

“Thank you, shug! I get so absent-minded sometimes,” she laughed.

“Not a problem at all. And ma’am, so sorry to bother you about this, but could

up at him fazed and said, “I’m not picky young man, just sit them over there on the

you tell me more about your other son, Sean? He said over the phone he’d show up for

nightstand, Miles will set up a blanket for us two down by the pond in a bit.”

the picnic, but I can go look for him to make sure he didn’t get lost. The hallways are

Sean’s face crumpled from statue to thunderhead, but before he could open his mouth, Miles snatched him by the shoulder to the corner. “Sean, do not do this. She’s got nothing else.

She’s all alone till I can get here, don’t ruin the few times she can enjoy being herself,” he said.

Miles lowered his voice. “I found Daddy.”

Sean looked him in the eyes listless. “You should be ashamed. That won’t bring her back and you know it. You just want her lucid for a second, just long enough to say she loves you one more time. And mean it. And bold-faced lying to your mother like

real confusing in here, I swear.”

Jamie held her breath. “Well,” she began, “He’s always had the smoothest honey hair, a gorgeous grin, and a little boy on the way! Make sure to ask him about that, he lights right up, you’ll know it’s him from the smile. He can’t wait to be a daddy.”

Without missing a beat, Sean pointed to himself in the family photo on her mantel. “Is that your son?”

Jamie gave him a kind, curious look. She tapped her forked fingers against

that to do it, just pushing her deeper in her head. You might not see it, but I sure do,

her chin, like she could not decide whether to take a drag from a cigarette. Miles

she gets farther away quicker than the last. Each chance you get, you let her drift off to

saw her concentrate, her jaw bulged against her teeth. She crumpled her fingers

New York, China, or even if she says she fought little men on Jupiter. It’s not a mercy,

back into her pocket in defeat.

you’re just sitting there, watching her drown, Miles! When she comes back for air,

Sean looked across the room at Miles. A gnarled smile etched into his

you don’t pull her out, you just push her right back under—right back to Candy Land. I

cheeks, twisting his glistening eyes further back. “Have a nice day you two. And

know she hates it here, she wants to be somewhere else, but don’t be selfish Milo.”

congratulations ma’am, for stopping smoking. It had to be difficult, I know my

Miles turned back to look at Jamie, scrambling through drawers for the glasses hanging around her neck. Sean spoke directly into his ear: “Please don’t do it. You love them more than that. We’ve seen more than enough. Sam and Danny don’t need this.”

Sean’s voice hitched. “I showed her Becky’s ultrasound. Her grandson. She smiled at it and asked me if Border Collies shed that bad. Miles, look at me. I pointed

mother had a hard time with it,” said Sean. He walked out the door and dabbed the collar of his jacket at his eyes.

“Thank you, honey! It was the hardest thing I ever did, but it was sure worth it!

Didn’t want them growing up sick, so I did it for my two boys.”

Miles almost feels sick to his stomach. He watches her snow-white head bob in

to it, ‘that’s going to be Cole, Mama.’ She patted my hand and said, ‘That’s a beautiful

her wheelchair, out at the dock. The swans flutter across the pond and pirouette closer

name,’ and I went to get her some water. She turned around and told me to sit down,

to her. His fingers rub the worn folds of the two pictures in the plastic of his wallet.

I’m the best nurse she’s had all day, the other ones can go get the coal.”

Cammie and himself, tottering in the lake holding up Sam and Danny, grabbing at

Miles grabbed the nearest blanket and the sandwiches to corral his mother toward the door, but Sean planted himself in the way.

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their parents’ hair. Miles as a child, stoic while Sean cracked his winning smile—Jamie squeezing his shoulder to get him to sit still. He flicked out the photo of Richard

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Miles gave another curt shake, but Sean couldn’t let the glimmer of fear he saw in his brother slide again. “Ma’am, I apologize, did you want roast beef? I got in a rush, but I think I remember you telling me you were more of a BLT gal,” said Sean.

Miles squeezed his mother’s hand, anything to give her a signal. She looked

“Here you go ma’am, already had your glasses, looks like,” said Sean, pointing to the chain around her neck.

“Thank you, shug! I get so absent-minded sometimes,” she laughed.

“Not a problem at all. And ma’am, so sorry to bother you about this, but could

up at him fazed and said, “I’m not picky young man, just sit them over there on the

you tell me more about your other son, Sean? He said over the phone he’d show up for

nightstand, Miles will set up a blanket for us two down by the pond in a bit.”

the picnic, but I can go look for him to make sure he didn’t get lost. The hallways are

Sean’s face crumpled from statue to thunderhead, but before he could open his mouth, Miles snatched him by the shoulder to the corner. “Sean, do not do this. She’s got nothing else.

She’s all alone till I can get here, don’t ruin the few times she can enjoy being herself,” he said.

Miles lowered his voice. “I found Daddy.”

Sean looked him in the eyes listless. “You should be ashamed. That won’t bring her back and you know it. You just want her lucid for a second, just long enough to say she loves you one more time. And mean it. And bold-faced lying to your mother like

real confusing in here, I swear.”

Jamie held her breath. “Well,” she began, “He’s always had the smoothest honey hair, a gorgeous grin, and a little boy on the way! Make sure to ask him about that, he lights right up, you’ll know it’s him from the smile. He can’t wait to be a daddy.”

Without missing a beat, Sean pointed to himself in the family photo on her mantel. “Is that your son?”

Jamie gave him a kind, curious look. She tapped her forked fingers against

that to do it, just pushing her deeper in her head. You might not see it, but I sure do,

her chin, like she could not decide whether to take a drag from a cigarette. Miles

she gets farther away quicker than the last. Each chance you get, you let her drift off to

saw her concentrate, her jaw bulged against her teeth. She crumpled her fingers

New York, China, or even if she says she fought little men on Jupiter. It’s not a mercy,

back into her pocket in defeat.

you’re just sitting there, watching her drown, Miles! When she comes back for air,

Sean looked across the room at Miles. A gnarled smile etched into his

you don’t pull her out, you just push her right back under—right back to Candy Land. I

cheeks, twisting his glistening eyes further back. “Have a nice day you two. And

know she hates it here, she wants to be somewhere else, but don’t be selfish Milo.”

congratulations ma’am, for stopping smoking. It had to be difficult, I know my

Miles turned back to look at Jamie, scrambling through drawers for the glasses hanging around her neck. Sean spoke directly into his ear: “Please don’t do it. You love them more than that. We’ve seen more than enough. Sam and Danny don’t need this.”

Sean’s voice hitched. “I showed her Becky’s ultrasound. Her grandson. She smiled at it and asked me if Border Collies shed that bad. Miles, look at me. I pointed

mother had a hard time with it,” said Sean. He walked out the door and dabbed the collar of his jacket at his eyes.

“Thank you, honey! It was the hardest thing I ever did, but it was sure worth it!

Didn’t want them growing up sick, so I did it for my two boys.”

Miles almost feels sick to his stomach. He watches her snow-white head bob in

to it, ‘that’s going to be Cole, Mama.’ She patted my hand and said, ‘That’s a beautiful

her wheelchair, out at the dock. The swans flutter across the pond and pirouette closer

name,’ and I went to get her some water. She turned around and told me to sit down,

to her. His fingers rub the worn folds of the two pictures in the plastic of his wallet.

I’m the best nurse she’s had all day, the other ones can go get the coal.”

Cammie and himself, tottering in the lake holding up Sam and Danny, grabbing at

Miles grabbed the nearest blanket and the sandwiches to corral his mother toward the door, but Sean planted himself in the way.

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their parents’ hair. Miles as a child, stoic while Sean cracked his winning smile—Jamie squeezing his shoulder to get him to sit still. He flicked out the photo of Richard

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Connelly and slipped the wallet back into his pocket.

He brushes a fly away from her eyelid.

“Hi, Momma, how’re the water lilies this morning?” asks Miles, the iron patio chair

“The flies and mosquitos aren’t as bad down there since we have a place on the

scraping the dock as he pulled it next to her wheelchair.

“Oh Richard, darling, they’re just grand. Look at that one there, as white as

waterfront. There’s a breeze. It wouldn’t take too long to pack a bag and get on the road. The folks here could drive the rest to us, and you could tell me your stories every day,” Miles says.

snow, that one,” she said. She withdrew her hand from underneath her quilt, leaning

He holds the picture of Richard in front of her vacant eyes.

toward Miles, her hand wavering at the willow at the other end of the pond. The warm

“I found Daddy, Ma. A colonel at Camp Atterbury, said he was a historian, found

wind slipped the lily closer to the pier, like a blushing classmate passing a valentine

him for me. He told me that his medical record was pulled after he got back from

across the desk toward them.

Vietnam. They think the defoliants gave him leukemia, but he waited too long. Could

Both of them look over the pond at the geese flying in an arrowhead loosed to land

you tell me about him, Mama?”

thankfully far away. Somewhere else than the bleached village milling with calloused

Jamie laughs a little to herself, dragging out the last chuckle till her breath faded.

women in bleached frocks, wheeling about aimless men and women with bleached hair.

Miles exhaled raggedly. “You let him go, so we wouldn’t see him lose who he was, didn’t you?”

Miles saw the geese snag one man’s gaze, carrying it for him. Maybe to Florida.

Her head bobs with the light that dances around the lily, ebbing closer. She offers an agape

He digs into his pocket and slides her the crisp new photograph. Miles nestles the picture into her aged leather hands. “You can keep this one of the grandkids, Ma. Put it on your mantel next to the other pictures.”

She smiles, her eyes drifting back to the swans.

“Danny and Sam are really enjoying their new school. We moved down to Tampa

grin. “Richie, do you remember telling me that? About the lilies on the river? I’d try to save one for the mantel, but it’d always die after a day or so. But you told me, ‘Jamie, just let it be.’”

She closes her trembling hand around his. She turns to him with a sharpness Miles couldn’t recognize in her anymore, two of her shaking fingers on her left hand stretching into a “V”.

“Richie, you’d tell me, ‘Jamie, just leave the lilies be,’” she says, her voice

a bit back, and Sam’s already got herself a place in the school play. She’s going to be a

catching in her throat. “They always find their way back, as white as you saw them last,

great Dorothy, but we were worried a bit about Danny. It was all for nothing, though,

even if they dry out, they’ll come back if you put them where they belong.’ And then

since he’s gotten keen on the Scouts. It’s something new every month with him, but hey,

you put the lily back in the river, and wouldn’t you know it, the next morning it was as

at least it’s expanding his horizons. Well, he’s still as fired up as ever to play baseball

white as the snow. I think about that more than you’d imagine...Richie.”

every week. Got a great arm, that boy. Cammie’s having a time getting the house

Miles holds her hand as her eyes struggle to train on the lily, glistening with

straightened since by the time the kids get home, everything’s scattered across the house

tears, but she couldn’t follow it as the pad drifts under the pier. He twists his wedding

again. You know how Cammie is, she always has to be worked up over something.”

band around his finger, looks down at it and grimaces. He hears the words echo, but is

Jamie continues to sway in her chair.

“She doesn’t mind though, especially when the kids ask if friends can come over,” says Miles.

He paused. “What do you think about somewhere warmer, Mama?” A swan flies over the willow and her head turns with it. Miles watches her lips chanting silently, maybe reminding herself to tie off a few floating memories. Anchored so they don’t drift away like lilies.

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numb to any feeling of them.

“Mama, what would you say about heading home with me? Sam and Danny would like to see you and I’m sure Cammie wouldn’t mind after a bit. What do you say? I think it’s about time, Mama.”

She turns back to Miles with a bewildered look, unfurling her hand from his. She looks back out over the pond with placid eyes.

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Connelly and slipped the wallet back into his pocket.

He brushes a fly away from her eyelid.

“Hi, Momma, how’re the water lilies this morning?” asks Miles, the iron patio chair

“The flies and mosquitos aren’t as bad down there since we have a place on the

scraping the dock as he pulled it next to her wheelchair.

“Oh Richard, darling, they’re just grand. Look at that one there, as white as

waterfront. There’s a breeze. It wouldn’t take too long to pack a bag and get on the road. The folks here could drive the rest to us, and you could tell me your stories every day,” Miles says.

snow, that one,” she said. She withdrew her hand from underneath her quilt, leaning

He holds the picture of Richard in front of her vacant eyes.

toward Miles, her hand wavering at the willow at the other end of the pond. The warm

“I found Daddy, Ma. A colonel at Camp Atterbury, said he was a historian, found

wind slipped the lily closer to the pier, like a blushing classmate passing a valentine

him for me. He told me that his medical record was pulled after he got back from

across the desk toward them.

Vietnam. They think the defoliants gave him leukemia, but he waited too long. Could

Both of them look over the pond at the geese flying in an arrowhead loosed to land

you tell me about him, Mama?”

thankfully far away. Somewhere else than the bleached village milling with calloused

Jamie laughs a little to herself, dragging out the last chuckle till her breath faded.

women in bleached frocks, wheeling about aimless men and women with bleached hair.

Miles exhaled raggedly. “You let him go, so we wouldn’t see him lose who he was, didn’t you?”

Miles saw the geese snag one man’s gaze, carrying it for him. Maybe to Florida.

Her head bobs with the light that dances around the lily, ebbing closer. She offers an agape

He digs into his pocket and slides her the crisp new photograph. Miles nestles the picture into her aged leather hands. “You can keep this one of the grandkids, Ma. Put it on your mantel next to the other pictures.”

She smiles, her eyes drifting back to the swans.

“Danny and Sam are really enjoying their new school. We moved down to Tampa

grin. “Richie, do you remember telling me that? About the lilies on the river? I’d try to save one for the mantel, but it’d always die after a day or so. But you told me, ‘Jamie, just let it be.’”

She closes her trembling hand around his. She turns to him with a sharpness Miles couldn’t recognize in her anymore, two of her shaking fingers on her left hand stretching into a “V”.

“Richie, you’d tell me, ‘Jamie, just leave the lilies be,’” she says, her voice

a bit back, and Sam’s already got herself a place in the school play. She’s going to be a

catching in her throat. “They always find their way back, as white as you saw them last,

great Dorothy, but we were worried a bit about Danny. It was all for nothing, though,

even if they dry out, they’ll come back if you put them where they belong.’ And then

since he’s gotten keen on the Scouts. It’s something new every month with him, but hey,

you put the lily back in the river, and wouldn’t you know it, the next morning it was as

at least it’s expanding his horizons. Well, he’s still as fired up as ever to play baseball

white as the snow. I think about that more than you’d imagine...Richie.”

every week. Got a great arm, that boy. Cammie’s having a time getting the house

Miles holds her hand as her eyes struggle to train on the lily, glistening with

straightened since by the time the kids get home, everything’s scattered across the house

tears, but she couldn’t follow it as the pad drifts under the pier. He twists his wedding

again. You know how Cammie is, she always has to be worked up over something.”

band around his finger, looks down at it and grimaces. He hears the words echo, but is

Jamie continues to sway in her chair.

“She doesn’t mind though, especially when the kids ask if friends can come over,” says Miles.

He paused. “What do you think about somewhere warmer, Mama?” A swan flies over the willow and her head turns with it. Miles watches her lips chanting silently, maybe reminding herself to tie off a few floating memories. Anchored so they don’t drift away like lilies.

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numb to any feeling of them.

“Mama, what would you say about heading home with me? Sam and Danny would like to see you and I’m sure Cammie wouldn’t mind after a bit. What do you say? I think it’s about time, Mama.”

She turns back to Miles with a bewildered look, unfurling her hand from his. She looks back out over the pond with placid eyes.

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Miles turns away, shoving his hands into his pockets. He stands up and leaves his chair next to her. He kisses her forehead. She jolts, and sternly returns to the water.

He places the picture of Richard on her quilted lap.

“I love you Mama,” said Miles.

Her brow furrows and her sloped frown purses. She turns to face the swans soaring over the tree line. She points to the lone bird that fades into a “V” in the bruising sunset, but lowers her finger to the willow beneath it.

“Hey Richard, you see that water lily over there beneath that tree? Remember that time you took me down to the river?”

He opens his mouth to speak, to ask her to tell him the story one more time like he had never heard it before, to egg her on at the same pauses so she can get wound up and say, “It’s true! I know it, I know it!” at the same jokes that she sparks life into. So she can laugh again. And he can ache again. But he fastens his mouth shut.

His iron chair screeches against the pier when he starts to walk away, but turns back when she began to speak.`` “Has that woman had her baby yet?” Jamie asks.

Rivulets of tears trickle down to meet the corners of his smile. Miles says, “Becky had Cole last week. Sean says your grandson will be wild since there was a full moon out.”

Jamie sighs, sliding back in her chair—the last of the tension in her leaking out through her settling bones. The crook of her two fingers relax against the side of her wheelchair, allowing the last memory of her cigarettes to slip into the water.

He settles his ring back in place, and walks back to the truck in silence.

Miles shifts the rearview mirror back on his mother. A man, a nurse, walks over and sits down in the chair next to her, nodding along as she waves her hands. The nurse laughs and so does she. Miles hopes more than anything that the engine turns over.

It ignites immediately and the gravel clacks against the truck until he gets to the highway. Miles looks up at the moon, but is weighed down by either sorrow or relief as the sun floats down over the valley and the swans flap away from the village.

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Miles turns away, shoving his hands into his pockets. He stands up and leaves his chair next to her. He kisses her forehead. She jolts, and sternly returns to the water.

He places the picture of Richard on her quilted lap.

“I love you Mama,” said Miles.

Her brow furrows and her sloped frown purses. She turns to face the swans soaring over the tree line. She points to the lone bird that fades into a “V” in the bruising sunset, but lowers her finger to the willow beneath it.

“Hey Richard, you see that water lily over there beneath that tree? Remember that time you took me down to the river?”

He opens his mouth to speak, to ask her to tell him the story one more time like he had never heard it before, to egg her on at the same pauses so she can get wound up and say, “It’s true! I know it, I know it!” at the same jokes that she sparks life into. So she can laugh again. And he can ache again. But he fastens his mouth shut.

His iron chair screeches against the pier when he starts to walk away, but turns back when she began to speak.`` “Has that woman had her baby yet?” Jamie asks.

Rivulets of tears trickle down to meet the corners of his smile. Miles says, “Becky had Cole last week. Sean says your grandson will be wild since there was a full moon out.”

Jamie sighs, sliding back in her chair—the last of the tension in her leaking out through her settling bones. The crook of her two fingers relax against the side of her wheelchair, allowing the last memory of her cigarettes to slip into the water.

He settles his ring back in place, and walks back to the truck in silence.

Miles shifts the rearview mirror back on his mother. A man, a nurse, walks over and sits down in the chair next to her, nodding along as she waves her hands. The nurse laughs and so does she. Miles hopes more than anything that the engine turns over.

It ignites immediately and the gravel clacks against the truck until he gets to the highway. Miles looks up at the moon, but is weighed down by either sorrow or relief as the sun floats down over the valley and the swans flap away from the village.

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“Sundowning” By: Garrett Yarbrough

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I kissed a girl once.

And no, for the record, I’m not a lesbian, or bisexual, or experimenting, or anything of the sort- just completely heterosexual. It was fall, it was high school.

We were at some all-county art event. The staff told us we were having lunch outside. There was a slight breeze in the air. It smelled like someone was burning firewood nearby. I sat next to that girl. We met online and just so happened to go to the same high school. We were friends. She was tall and skinny- super skinny. She had recently dyed her dark brown hair strawberry-blonde and cut it just above her shoulders. Her skin was pale and her cheeks were rosy. She always wore this black XL men’s jacket, even though it barely fit her.

We were eating lunch and generally having a good time- laughing with the new people we’d just met, telling jokes, sharing anecdotes, et cetera. I remember dropping something on the ground. I don’t remember what it was since that was seven years ago, but it’s not really important. When I looked down, that’s when I saw it: her pain, her suffering, her sadness. It was all there, displayed as red slashes and scars on her right wrist. I felt my stomach flip and my heart sank. I self-

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consciously pulled my own sleeves down.

I reached over and touched them and she whipped her head around and looked at me. Her smile had faded. My hand was still holding her wrist. I pulled my own sleeve up slightly so she could see my own, then I yanked it back down and held her wrist again. I’m here for you, I mouthed to her.

Her eyes started watering. I lifted her arm up and kissed her scars gently.

I let go of her arm and she pulled the large sleeves of her jacket back over her hands. We hugged, having had an entire conversation without saying anything out loud. I pulled away from her and held her at arms length, then just smiled at her. She smiled back.

We’re closer friends now, we’re both better now.

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“Scars” By: Aolani Brinson

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I kissed a girl once.

And no, for the record, I’m not a lesbian, or bisexual, or experimenting, or anything of the sort- just completely heterosexual. It was fall, it was high school.

We were at some all-county art event. The staff told us we were having lunch outside. There was a slight breeze in the air. It smelled like someone was burning firewood nearby. I sat next to that girl. We met online and just so happened to go to the same high school. We were friends. She was tall and skinny- super skinny. She had recently dyed her dark brown hair strawberry-blonde and cut it just above her shoulders. Her skin was pale and her cheeks were rosy. She always wore this black XL men’s jacket, even though it barely fit her.

We were eating lunch and generally having a good time- laughing with the new people we’d just met, telling jokes, sharing anecdotes, et cetera. I remember dropping something on the ground. I don’t remember what it was since that was seven years ago, but it’s not really important. When I looked down, that’s when I saw it: her pain, her suffering, her sadness. It was all there, displayed as red slashes and scars on her right wrist. I felt my stomach flip and my heart sank. I self-

POETRY

consciously pulled my own sleeves down.

I reached over and touched them and she whipped her head around and looked at me. Her smile had faded. My hand was still holding her wrist. I pulled my own sleeve up slightly so she could see my own, then I yanked it back down and held her wrist again. I’m here for you, I mouthed to her.

Her eyes started watering. I lifted her arm up and kissed her scars gently.

I let go of her arm and she pulled the large sleeves of her jacket back over her hands. We hugged, having had an entire conversation without saying anything out loud. I pulled away from her and held her at arms length, then just smiled at her. She smiled back.

We’re closer friends now, we’re both better now.

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“Scars” By: Aolani Brinson

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I no longer remember what you looked like,

The tears falling, a hurricane erupting from her silent sobs,

dementor cloak and all as you snuck around my room

My sister and i, me and my sister

stealing every precious thing from me—

frightened and blaming

No, wait.

ourselves.

Not my room.

I am glad, now, that I slept by that window.

Our room.

I only wish I had known what

My sister and i, my sister and i, my sister

other precious things you were taking not only from me

And i.

but from her, my sister.

I no longer remember what your name was

We do not talk of it

because every man after you

I do not know which boogey man haunts her room at night.

was the same.

I am glad to see her smile

All different,

but all I want is to cry.

but all able to steal the warmth from the room and make me feel

I remember nothing of you; not your name, not the year, not the day, not the reason

scared—

I let it happen more than once.

No, wait.

I do, however, remember your shout

Not me.

as I yanked open the blinds.

Me and my sister, me and my sister, me and

Scolding me for revealing your horns and tail

my sister.

“Don’t do that!”

And you ran.

I often asked myself why you were released from azkaban.

And I remember your bare-ass naked outline running to the hallway.

Why Dumbledore would allow you to roam free around the muggle land,

My boyfriend asks why I don’t wear nightgowns.

stealing soul after soul.

And I say because snakes are liable to climb up and then i’d have to not remember

I will always remember the way she cried.

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“To Not Remember All Over Again” By: Kenzie Sharp

all over again.

Poetry: First Place

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I no longer remember what you looked like,

The tears falling, a hurricane erupting from her silent sobs,

dementor cloak and all as you snuck around my room

My sister and i, me and my sister

stealing every precious thing from me—

frightened and blaming

No, wait.

ourselves.

Not my room.

I am glad, now, that I slept by that window.

Our room.

I only wish I had known what

My sister and i, my sister and i, my sister

other precious things you were taking not only from me

And i.

but from her, my sister.

I no longer remember what your name was

We do not talk of it

because every man after you

I do not know which boogey man haunts her room at night.

was the same.

I am glad to see her smile

All different,

but all I want is to cry.

but all able to steal the warmth from the room and make me feel

I remember nothing of you; not your name, not the year, not the day, not the reason

scared—

I let it happen more than once.

No, wait.

I do, however, remember your shout

Not me.

as I yanked open the blinds.

Me and my sister, me and my sister, me and

Scolding me for revealing your horns and tail

my sister.

“Don’t do that!”

And you ran.

I often asked myself why you were released from azkaban.

And I remember your bare-ass naked outline running to the hallway.

Why Dumbledore would allow you to roam free around the muggle land,

My boyfriend asks why I don’t wear nightgowns.

stealing soul after soul.

And I say because snakes are liable to climb up and then i’d have to not remember

I will always remember the way she cried.

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“To Not Remember All Over Again” By: Kenzie Sharp

all over again.

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First Place –“Free” “Growing up, I wasn’t allowed to have a longboard, and so longboards were kind of a symbol of freedom to me. When I got to college, I had all this freedom I didn’t have at home and when I got my longboard, not only did I have all this freedom, I could also get to more places when I wanted to. I didn’t have to wait for buses, I didn’t worry about getting gas, I could just go. I know it might seem strange to put that much importance on an object, but for me, a kid who grew up without wheels, it’s more than just a longboard, it’s my escape.” – Nick Leach Second Place –“Stoned” “This is a music video for a song I wrote entitled Stoned. The concept is based off of a passage from the bible and reflects on how people judge one another.” – Katie Chruch Third Place –“Secure” “College is one of those points in life where everything changes. This film is a piece about my friend Sean, who, after coming to a crossroads at the end of highschool, realized he wasn’t doing what he really wanted to do.

He realized that his dreams were what was most important, which, in turn, brought him to ECU.” – Nick Leach

Watch films at: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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First Place –“Free” “Growing up, I wasn’t allowed to have a longboard, and so longboards were kind of a symbol of freedom to me. When I got to college, I had all this freedom I didn’t have at home and when I got my longboard, not only did I have all this freedom, I could also get to more places when I wanted to. I didn’t have to wait for buses, I didn’t worry about getting gas, I could just go. I know it might seem strange to put that much importance on an object, but for me, a kid who grew up without wheels, it’s more than just a longboard, it’s my escape.” – Nick Leach Second Place –“Stoned” “This is a music video for a song I wrote entitled Stoned. The concept is based off of a passage from the bible and reflects on how people judge one another.” – Katie Chruch Third Place –“Secure” “College is one of those points in life where everything changes. This film is a piece about my friend Sean, who, after coming to a crossroads at the end of highschool, realized he wasn’t doing what he really wanted to do.

He realized that his dreams were what was most important, which, in turn, brought him to ECU.” – Nick Leach

Watch films at: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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Filmmaking

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“Free” By: Nick Leach

Filmmaking: First Place

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“Free” By: Nick Leach

Filmmaking: First Place

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“Stoned” By: Katie Church

Filmmaking: Second Place

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“Stoned” By: Katie Church

Filmmaking: Second Place

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“Secure” By: Nick Leach

Filmmaking: Third Place

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“Secure” By: Nick Leach

Filmmaking: Third Place

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First Place –“Transcend Trademark and Brochure” “This is a trademark or logo and brochure I made for my brand Transcend.

It is a line of self-improvement products for people with high interest in health and spirituality. I went through many different ideas when trying to come up with the concept and I ended up drawing inspiration from an EDM artist logo to come up with the idea of the bird. Thanks Illemium!” – Katie Church

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Second Place –“Amberjack” “Target audience for the graphic design project was the working class.

I decided to go alone with an environment to distinguish the fun, relaxing activity a working class member would do after a day of hard work. Amberjack comes from the name of a fish that can be found anywhere in the fresh waters of the United States. I wanted the name of the beer and imagery to represent a common memory for a hard-working individual.” – Jacob Dickens Third Place –“UCDA Poster” “This Piece was designed with the purpose of informing graphic designers about an upcoming conference that was centered around the idea of hand and machine.

This refers to the importance of both traditional and modern graphic design. This idea is referenced in the poster by incorporating a photograph of metal type through a stencil.” – Brooke Povich Honorable Mention –“Hungry” “Letterpress created with wood type that tells a story. Each print leaves an impression on the type, showing a part. The dinner table is also a place where stories are told. Eat, eat, eat reflects 3 meals a day; meals and opportunities to share stories with loved ones.” – Kayla Clark

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First Place –“Transcend Trademark and Brochure” “This is a trademark or logo and brochure I made for my brand Transcend.

It is a line of self-improvement products for people with high interest in health and spirituality. I went through many different ideas when trying to come up with the concept and I ended up drawing inspiration from an EDM artist logo to come up with the idea of the bird. Thanks Illemium!” – Katie Church

GRAPHIC

Second Place –“Amberjack” “Target audience for the graphic design project was the working class.

I decided to go alone with an environment to distinguish the fun, relaxing activity a working class member would do after a day of hard work. Amberjack comes from the name of a fish that can be found anywhere in the fresh waters of the United States. I wanted the name of the beer and imagery to represent a common memory for a hard-working individual.” – Jacob Dickens Third Place –“UCDA Poster” “This Piece was designed with the purpose of informing graphic designers about an upcoming conference that was centered around the idea of hand and machine.

This refers to the importance of both traditional and modern graphic design. This idea is referenced in the poster by incorporating a photograph of metal type through a stencil.” – Brooke Povich Honorable Mention –“Hungry” “Letterpress created with wood type that tells a story. Each print leaves an impression on the type, showing a part. The dinner table is also a place where stories are told. Eat, eat, eat reflects 3 meals a day; meals and opportunities to share stories with loved ones.” – Kayla Clark

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Graphic Design

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“Best natural health products on the market.”

-Allure

“First company to successfully blend health and spirituality into the perfect line of self improvement products”

TRANSCEND

-Thoughtfully

“I can’t believe it’s not synthetic” -Kaya age 27 from Florida

A Guide to Higher Living

“This company truly changed my life and opened my mind up to so many things I was missing before.”

TRANSCEND

but go above and beyond to ensure that we are delivering a real health based, fulfilling, and all-natural experience. We believe that natural is the only real way to go these days and use only the best types of homegrown spices, herbs, and plants to create or products. Our team has spent years researching and discovering what people are missing in their lives and have produced many creative and innovative ways to satisfy those unmet needs. We strive for growth and as the years go on we will only continue to improve, finding new ways and methods to transcend your lifestyle.

This is a guide to higher living.

This seven-day replenishment system is unlike any you've seen before. There are seven days in a week and according to ancient eastern spiritual practices, seven central chakras (or energy points) on the human body. These seven points along the center axis of your body each control specific mental, physical, and emotional capabilities. The creams and lotions that come in this replenishment system are each made with specific natural ingredients to target and increase energy flow in each specific chakra. Our researchers have spent years studying these concepts and old practices. They also have a deep understanding of ancient herbal remedies and with this knowledge have finally developed a topical based system with which anyone can use. Throughout the course of just one week, this kit will take you on a journey of discovery and self-healing. By the end, you will have restored your energy, and balanced your life.

Well-Being

and we're always creating new products that fit those needs in order deliver a new kind of self-improving experience. We explore so much more than your average everyday cosmetic company,

Skin Care

spirits and strengthen your soul. Our focused has always been on human health and spirituality

The Brand

Here at Transcend, we strive to create natural, wholesome, and quality products that lift your

-Anna age 40 from Virginia

Reviews & Testimonials

-NewBeauty

“Wow! It really is natural!”

Diffuse and alleviate your environment

The diagram below displays where the chakras are located and what they represent or control.

When it comes to improving your life, health, and spiritual well-being, a focus on hygiene can be a great starting point. Here

Intuition Controls perception and inner vision. Renewing this chakra can make you wiser and help depression.

Enlightment

at Transcend, we've found that skin health is one of the most vital

Controls the cerebral cortex and mental understanding.

Renewing this chakra can relieve psychological problems.

of products designed to exfoliate, replenish, and moisturize deep

experts in nutrition and how the chemical compositions of certain skin. This two-part system should be applied two to three times a

Controls thyroid glands in arms, hands, and shoulders.

Renewing this chakra can help boost creativity and communication skills.

Identity Controls Digestive system, pancreas, and adrenals.

Renewing this chakra can help any anger problems and boost inner sense joy.

Controls the kidneys, and circulatory system.

Renewing this chakra can help prevent obsessive or compulsive behavior.

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week to sufficiently keep skin glowing, radiant, and strong. With ingredients like aloe, tea tree oil, and rose clay, not only will it make your skin feel great but also leave a subtle natural rose scent, no synthetic fragrances needed.

Have you ever felt constantly overwhelmed or stressed in a particular environment? Whether it be our workplace or home, we can often feel uncertain or tense in specific places due to either a feeling of stress that we associate with that place or because unplanned sporadic events may occur that we just wish we could put to rest. With Transcend's Meditation Room Mist, you can partially diffuse these environmental stresses. This spray is made with essential ingredients like lavender, chamomile, and rosemary, which are all proven relax the mind and evoke feelings of peace and harmony. Our spray is not overwhelming like other air fresheners but yet subtitle and renewing. Also, Being that it's all-natural, this spray is highly unlikely to cause allergic reaction or breathing problems. Just spray, inhale, and release your worries.

“Transcend Trademark and Brochure” By: Katie Church

Release

Raw Emotion

is always through natural means. Our product developers are

Hygiene

The System

Controls lungs, heart, and thymus gland. Renewing this chakra can help your sense of compassion and balance your emotions.

into the skin. We believe the best way to improve human health

plants can work together in order to heal, repair and restore the

Self-expression

Compassion

elements of hygienic health. For this reason, we've created a line

Graphic Design: First Place

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“Best natural health products on the market.”

-Allure

“First company to successfully blend health and spirituality into the perfect line of self improvement products”

TRANSCEND

-Thoughtfully

“I can’t believe it’s not synthetic” -Kaya age 27 from Florida

A Guide to Higher Living

“This company truly changed my life and opened my mind up to so many things I was missing before.”

TRANSCEND

but go above and beyond to ensure that we are delivering a real health based, fulfilling, and all-natural experience. We believe that natural is the only real way to go these days and use only the best types of homegrown spices, herbs, and plants to create or products. Our team has spent years researching and discovering what people are missing in their lives and have produced many creative and innovative ways to satisfy those unmet needs. We strive for growth and as the years go on we will only continue to improve, finding new ways and methods to transcend your lifestyle.

This is a guide to higher living.

This seven-day replenishment system is unlike any you've seen before. There are seven days in a week and according to ancient eastern spiritual practices, seven central chakras (or energy points) on the human body. These seven points along the center axis of your body each control specific mental, physical, and emotional capabilities. The creams and lotions that come in this replenishment system are each made with specific natural ingredients to target and increase energy flow in each specific chakra. Our researchers have spent years studying these concepts and old practices. They also have a deep understanding of ancient herbal remedies and with this knowledge have finally developed a topical based system with which anyone can use. Throughout the course of just one week, this kit will take you on a journey of discovery and self-healing. By the end, you will have restored your energy, and balanced your life.

Well-Being

and we're always creating new products that fit those needs in order deliver a new kind of self-improving experience. We explore so much more than your average everyday cosmetic company,

Skin Care

spirits and strengthen your soul. Our focused has always been on human health and spirituality

The Brand

Here at Transcend, we strive to create natural, wholesome, and quality products that lift your

-Anna age 40 from Virginia

Reviews & Testimonials

-NewBeauty

“Wow! It really is natural!”

Diffuse and alleviate your environment

The diagram below displays where the chakras are located and what they represent or control.

When it comes to improving your life, health, and spiritual well-being, a focus on hygiene can be a great starting point. Here

Intuition Controls perception and inner vision. Renewing this chakra can make you wiser and help depression.

Enlightment

at Transcend, we've found that skin health is one of the most vital

Controls the cerebral cortex and mental understanding.

Renewing this chakra can relieve psychological problems.

of products designed to exfoliate, replenish, and moisturize deep

experts in nutrition and how the chemical compositions of certain skin. This two-part system should be applied two to three times a

Controls thyroid glands in arms, hands, and shoulders.

Renewing this chakra can help boost creativity and communication skills.

Identity Controls Digestive system, pancreas, and adrenals.

Renewing this chakra can help any anger problems and boost inner sense joy.

Controls the kidneys, and circulatory system.

Renewing this chakra can help prevent obsessive or compulsive behavior.

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week to sufficiently keep skin glowing, radiant, and strong. With ingredients like aloe, tea tree oil, and rose clay, not only will it make your skin feel great but also leave a subtle natural rose scent, no synthetic fragrances needed.

Have you ever felt constantly overwhelmed or stressed in a particular environment? Whether it be our workplace or home, we can often feel uncertain or tense in specific places due to either a feeling of stress that we associate with that place or because unplanned sporadic events may occur that we just wish we could put to rest. With Transcend's Meditation Room Mist, you can partially diffuse these environmental stresses. This spray is made with essential ingredients like lavender, chamomile, and rosemary, which are all proven relax the mind and evoke feelings of peace and harmony. Our spray is not overwhelming like other air fresheners but yet subtitle and renewing. Also, Being that it's all-natural, this spray is highly unlikely to cause allergic reaction or breathing problems. Just spray, inhale, and release your worries.

“Transcend Trademark and Brochure” By: Katie Church

Release

Raw Emotion

is always through natural means. Our product developers are

Hygiene

The System

Controls lungs, heart, and thymus gland. Renewing this chakra can help your sense of compassion and balance your emotions.

into the skin. We believe the best way to improve human health

plants can work together in order to heal, repair and restore the

Self-expression

Compassion

elements of hygienic health. For this reason, we've created a line

Graphic Design: First Place

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“A m b e r j a c k ” B y : J a c o b D i c k e n s

Graphic Design: Second Place

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“A m b e r j a c k ” B y : J a c o b D i c k e n s

Graphic Design: Second Place

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“UCDA Poster” By: Brooke Povich

Graphic Design: Third Place

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“UCDA Poster” By: Brooke Povich

Graphic Design: Third Place

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“Hungry” By: Kayla Clark

Graphic Design: Honorable Mention

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“Hungry” By: Kayla Clark

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First Place –“The Hobbit” “My art works around fantasy. I love to read fantasy novels and graphic novels, and there is where I pull most of my ideas into my art.” – Phia Xiong Second Place – “Groucho Religion” “This piece is a mix of graphite charcoal & pastels. It is supposed to convey a narrative that leaves you wondering what exactly is going on.”

– Michael Richardson Third Place – “Isolation” “Most often, people think of isolation & being introverted as something negative or self-destructive. However, I feel that isolation, whether it’s a physical location or just a period of time, can reenergize, refocus and motivate when used widely.” – Alfonzo Johnson Honorable Mention – “Introspection” “A man coming to the end of his life engages in pondering his existence.

The breadth of his experiences and thoughts encompassed in the numerous outstreched branches of a willow oak.” – John Sommer

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First Place –“The Hobbit” “My art works around fantasy. I love to read fantasy novels and graphic novels, and there is where I pull most of my ideas into my art.” – Phia Xiong Second Place – “Groucho Religion” “This piece is a mix of graphite charcoal & pastels. It is supposed to convey a narrative that leaves you wondering what exactly is going on.”

– Michael Richardson Third Place – “Isolation” “Most often, people think of isolation & being introverted as something negative or self-destructive. However, I feel that isolation, whether it’s a physical location or just a period of time, can reenergize, refocus and motivate when used widely.” – Alfonzo Johnson Honorable Mention – “Introspection” “A man coming to the end of his life engages in pondering his existence.

The breadth of his experiences and thoughts encompassed in the numerous outstreched branches of a willow oak.” – John Sommer

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“The Hobbit” By: Phia Xiong

Illustration: First Place

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“The Hobbit” By: Phia Xiong

Illustration: First Place

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“Groucho Religion” By: Michael Richardson

Illustration: Second Place

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“Groucho Religion” By: Michael Richardson

Illustration: Second Place

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“Isolation” By: Alfonzo Johnson

Illustration: Third Place

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“Isolation” By: Alfonzo Johnson

Illustration: Third Place

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“Introspection” By: John Sommer

Illustration: Honorable Mention

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“Introspection” By: John Sommer

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Second Place – “Fragment Brooch #1” “This brooch combines etched sterling silver with carved porcelain. The inspiration for this piece is drawn from fragments of sand dollars collected along the coast of North Carolina. The wearer is invited to consider interior experiences along with the imprints left by the exterior world.” – Nadia Massoud Third Place – “Worry Ring” “This ring, produced by casting carved wax in sterling silver, draws its inspiration from the geological phenomenon known as “Tafoni”. The piece functions as sculpture off the body. When worn, the wearer is invited to move the piece in the hand like a worry stone.” – Nadia Massoud Honorable Mention – “Afton House” “One piece in a collection called Layers that focuses on the adobe buildings, homes and structures that make up a part of my New Mexican heritage. This piece is a miniature depiction of a home built during my great-grandparents time, now only a ruin left as an unofficial monument in the middle of the desert. By collecting adobe directly from the site as material to shape this ring, I am able to document and preserve a bit of the original structure’s history.” – Carolina Reyes

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Metal Design

METAL DESIGN

First Place – “Touching Me/Touching You” “Drawing upon the gay subculture of bears and otters, this series explores the use of animals as as symbols of identity. Bear fur pendants placed in juxtaposition to bear imagery reference both the real and imagined animal, hunting trophies, and historical cameos. The tactile qualities of the bear fur act as an enticement to engage the viewer into an intimate space, resulting in a more erotic experience. I am interested in mapping the relationship between animal and queer symbols and how that might lead to a greater understanding of the self.” – Adam Atkinson

METAL DESIGN

METAL

DESIGN

METAL DESIGN Metal Design

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Second Place – “Fragment Brooch #1” “This brooch combines etched sterling silver with carved porcelain. The inspiration for this piece is drawn from fragments of sand dollars collected along the coast of North Carolina. The wearer is invited to consider interior experiences along with the imprints left by the exterior world.” – Nadia Massoud Third Place – “Worry Ring” “This ring, produced by casting carved wax in sterling silver, draws its inspiration from the geological phenomenon known as “Tafoni”. The piece functions as sculpture off the body. When worn, the wearer is invited to move the piece in the hand like a worry stone.” – Nadia Massoud Honorable Mention – “Afton House” “One piece in a collection called Layers that focuses on the adobe buildings, homes and structures that make up a part of my New Mexican heritage. This piece is a miniature depiction of a home built during my great-grandparents time, now only a ruin left as an unofficial monument in the middle of the desert. By collecting adobe directly from the site as material to shape this ring, I am able to document and preserve a bit of the original structure’s history.” – Carolina Reyes

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Metal Design

METAL DESIGN

First Place – “Touching Me/Touching You” “Drawing upon the gay subculture of bears and otters, this series explores the use of animals as as symbols of identity. Bear fur pendants placed in juxtaposition to bear imagery reference both the real and imagined animal, hunting trophies, and historical cameos. The tactile qualities of the bear fur act as an enticement to engage the viewer into an intimate space, resulting in a more erotic experience. I am interested in mapping the relationship between animal and queer symbols and how that might lead to a greater understanding of the self.” – Adam Atkinson

METAL DESIGN

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“Touching Me/Touching You” By: Adam Atkinson

Metal Design: First Place

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“Touching Me/Touching You” By: Adam Atkinson

Metal Design: First Place

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“Fragment Brooch #1� By: Nadia Massoud

Metal Design: Second Place

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“Fragment Brooch #1� By: Nadia Massoud

Metal Design: Second Place

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“Worry Ring” By: Nadia Massoud

Metal Design: Third Place

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“Worry Ring” By: Nadia Massoud

Metal Design: Third Place

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“A f t o n H o u s e � B y : C a r o l i n a R e y e s

Metal Design: Honorable Mention

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“A f t o n H o u s e � B y : C a r o l i n a R e y e s

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First Place –“Feel Like This Premiere” “Feel Like This is a mixed media piece realized in Pro Tools. The source material for this piece comes from a speech given by a 9-year-old Charlotte native, Zianna Oliphant in response to police brutality. Utilizing filtering, distortion, and phasing, this piece conveys the struggles and changes experienced when combating injustice through the intermingling and transformation of timbres.” – Brittany Green Second Place –“Tetramania” “Tetramania is a piece that I wrote largely as an experimental project.

This is the first serious piece that I’ve written for electronic media, and my goal was to see how much of a variety of sound/timbres I could create with a single original sounds file.The original sound itself is a four-note motive that I recorded on an acoustic piano (F-C-E-B in descending motion). I then manipulated this piano sound in a wide variety of ways, including pitch and frequency manipulation and adding reverb and harmonic amplification.

The title is derived from the idea of the original motive F-C-E-B, which, in music, can be identified as a tetrachord.” – Dallas Herndon Third Place –“We’ve Got Wings” “We’ve Got Wings is a song off my newly released album, “Love Songs for Nobody”. This song is about releasing your past and choosing to dive head-first into love. True love can never be found if not for that initial leap of trust and every time we take that leap, all we can do is hope to God that we’ve got wings so we’ll be able to fly.” – Christopher Short

Listen to these fantastic original compositions at: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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Metal Design

Metal Design

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First Place –“Feel Like This Premiere” “Feel Like This is a mixed media piece realized in Pro Tools. The source material for this piece comes from a speech given by a 9-year-old Charlotte native, Zianna Oliphant in response to police brutality. Utilizing filtering, distortion, and phasing, this piece conveys the struggles and changes experienced when combating injustice through the intermingling and transformation of timbres.” – Brittany Green Second Place –“Tetramania” “Tetramania is a piece that I wrote largely as an experimental project.

This is the first serious piece that I’ve written for electronic media, and my goal was to see how much of a variety of sound/timbres I could create with a single original sounds file.The original sound itself is a four-note motive that I recorded on an acoustic piano (F-C-E-B in descending motion). I then manipulated this piano sound in a wide variety of ways, including pitch and frequency manipulation and adding reverb and harmonic amplification.

The title is derived from the idea of the original motive F-C-E-B, which, in music, can be identified as a tetrachord.” – Dallas Herndon Third Place –“We’ve Got Wings” “We’ve Got Wings is a song off my newly released album, “Love Songs for Nobody”. This song is about releasing your past and choosing to dive head-first into love. True love can never be found if not for that initial leap of trust and every time we take that leap, all we can do is hope to God that we’ve got wings so we’ll be able to fly.” – Christopher Short

Listen to these fantastic original compositions at: www.youtube.com/channel/UCSABOcplZSYl4VlNoL0rhxA/videos

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Metal Design

Metal Design

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First Place – “The Universe Works” “Inspired by both the physical and metaphorical concepts of roots, I created this piece using handmade stains of walnut and coffee to reflect nature as a perfect system of balance. The black acrylic circle represents my mother whose words of wisdom are my foundation, giving me the strength to embrace each challenge that I encounter. ” – Sarah Goski Second Place – “The Invisible Man” “This is my interpretation of writer Ralph Ellison’s book The Invisible Man. I scanned in some papers as well as acrylic paint to tell the story of a man who felt invisible in Harlem during the Harlem Renaissance.” – Marcus Adkins Third Place – “Aggressive Temperaments” “Handmade, simple fabric dolls with oil painted expressions. These dolls represent the cultural learning of aggression and other behaviors. Many people believe that children naturally learn to show aggression, but it is an expression learned from peers and caregivers.” – Ashley Mathews Honorable Mention – “She’s Poison” “This piece is a narrative that was done with graphite and high-resolution scans of textures and digital color.” – Michael Richardson

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Mixed Media

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First Place – “The Universe Works” “Inspired by both the physical and metaphorical concepts of roots, I created this piece using handmade stains of walnut and coffee to reflect nature as a perfect system of balance. The black acrylic circle represents my mother whose words of wisdom are my foundation, giving me the strength to embrace each challenge that I encounter. ” – Sarah Goski Second Place – “The Invisible Man” “This is my interpretation of writer Ralph Ellison’s book The Invisible Man. I scanned in some papers as well as acrylic paint to tell the story of a man who felt invisible in Harlem during the Harlem Renaissance.” – Marcus Adkins Third Place – “Aggressive Temperaments” “Handmade, simple fabric dolls with oil painted expressions. These dolls represent the cultural learning of aggression and other behaviors. Many people believe that children naturally learn to show aggression, but it is an expression learned from peers and caregivers.” – Ashley Mathews Honorable Mention – “She’s Poison” “This piece is a narrative that was done with graphite and high-resolution scans of textures and digital color.” – Michael Richardson

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“The Universe Works” By: Sarah Goski

Mixed Media: First Place

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“The Universe Works” By: Sarah Goski

Mixed Media: First Place

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“The Invisible Man” By: Marcus Adkins

Mixed Media: Second Place

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“The Invisible Man” By: Marcus Adkins

Mixed Media: Second Place

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“Aggressive Temperaments” By: Ashley Mathews

Mixed Media: Third Place

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“Aggressive Temperaments” By: Ashley Mathews

Mixed Media: Third Place

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“She’s Poison” By: Michael Richardson

Mixed Media: Honorable Mention

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“She’s Poison” By: Michael Richardson

Mixed Media: Honorable Mention

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First Place – “Living Luminance” “Living Luminance is a digital painting that I printed and painted on with acrylic paint. For this piece I was very interested in the way the light reflected and the colors it created. I titled it Living Luminance because I am always interested in the way the frame of the candle “dances” around and how it is reflected throughout the room.” – Emily Benson Second Place –”A Moment With Nature” “I grew up running threw the woods. Pressing my palm to a tree, I could feel the forest fairies whisper. Take a moment. Breath that air and feel the essence of the woods. Take a moment with me please.”– Lindsay Hutchins “A Moment With Nature No. 2” “Wow. Isn’t this interesting—these beautiful little petals of life clinging to the wood? The delicacy of even the smallest of things in the forest are endless.

Wow. Take a moment. Take this moment with me.” – Lindsay Hutchins Third Place – “You Are What You Eat” “Playing with the idea that you are what you eat. This is a completely digital painting.” – Michael Richardson

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Painting

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First Place – “Living Luminance” “Living Luminance is a digital painting that I printed and painted on with acrylic paint. For this piece I was very interested in the way the light reflected and the colors it created. I titled it Living Luminance because I am always interested in the way the frame of the candle “dances” around and how it is reflected throughout the room.” – Emily Benson Second Place –”A Moment With Nature” “I grew up running threw the woods. Pressing my palm to a tree, I could feel the forest fairies whisper. Take a moment. Breath that air and feel the essence of the woods. Take a moment with me please.”– Lindsay Hutchins “A Moment With Nature No. 2” “Wow. Isn’t this interesting—these beautiful little petals of life clinging to the wood? The delicacy of even the smallest of things in the forest are endless.

Wow. Take a moment. Take this moment with me.” – Lindsay Hutchins Third Place – “You Are What You Eat” “Playing with the idea that you are what you eat. This is a completely digital painting.” – Michael Richardson

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Painting

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“Living Luminance� By: Emily Benson

Painting: First Place

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“Living Luminance� By: Emily Benson

Painting: First Place

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“A M o m e n t W i t h N a t u r e N o . 1 & 2 � B y : L i n d s a y H u t c h i n s

Painting: Second Place

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“A M o m e n t W i t h N a t u r e N o . 1 & 2 � B y : L i n d s a y H u t c h i n s

Painting: Second Place

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“You Are What You Eat” By: Michael Richardson

Painting: Third Place

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“You Are What You Eat” By: Michael Richardson

Painting: Third Place

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First Place – “Mirrors” “This was my first experience making a photogravure, and after many trials and errors, I loved the process in the end. This is the strongest piece out of the series of images I created by far, and the photograph was just by chance. I think the unplanned photos turn out to be the most outstanding, making unplanned the best plan.”– Alexandra Cox Second Place – “I Just Don’t Completely Know You” “This work is about my relationship moving to the south & to a small town.

How I am trying to feel a part of a tight-knit community without feeling as though I am invading?”– Dana Smessaert Third Place – “When the Flower Blossoms, the Bee Will Come” “When a bee sits with its wings down, more often than not, it is comfortable and at peace. When The Flower Blossoms, The Bee Will Come, is about that sense of peace, but within one’s self, and the calm that it brings.”– Jordan Davis Honorable Mention – “Untitled” “This piece is an image that captures movement of life with my family. I like to show the moments that are unique to my family and our adventures together, always asking myself what is a normal family, and is there such a thing? ”– Amberlynn Bishop

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Photography

Photography

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First Place – “Mirrors” “This was my first experience making a photogravure, and after many trials and errors, I loved the process in the end. This is the strongest piece out of the series of images I created by far, and the photograph was just by chance. I think the unplanned photos turn out to be the most outstanding, making unplanned the best plan.”– Alexandra Cox Second Place – “I Just Don’t Completely Know You” “This work is about my relationship moving to the south & to a small town.

How I am trying to feel a part of a tight-knit community without feeling as though I am invading?”– Dana Smessaert Third Place – “When the Flower Blossoms, the Bee Will Come” “When a bee sits with its wings down, more often than not, it is comfortable and at peace. When The Flower Blossoms, The Bee Will Come, is about that sense of peace, but within one’s self, and the calm that it brings.”– Jordan Davis Honorable Mention – “Untitled” “This piece is an image that captures movement of life with my family. I like to show the moments that are unique to my family and our adventures together, always asking myself what is a normal family, and is there such a thing? ”– Amberlynn Bishop

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Photography

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“Mirrors” By: Alexandra Cox

Photography: First Place

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“Mirrors” By: Alexandra Cox

Photography: First Place

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“I Just Don’t Completely Know You” By: Dana Smessaert

Photography: Second Place

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“I Just Don’t Completely Know You” By: Dana Smessaert

Photography: Second Place

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“When the Flower Blossoms, the Bee Will Come” By: Jordan E. Davis

Photography: Third Place

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“When the Flower Blossoms, the Bee Will Come” By: Jordan E. Davis

Photography: Third Place

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“Untitled” By: Amberlynn Bishop

Photography: Honorable Mention

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“Untitled” By: Amberlynn Bishop

Photography: Honorable Mention

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First Place – “Cornucopia” “Much of our food today comes from corn. The meat we eat comes from animals. Our bread and candy are made with high-fructose corn syrup.

Apple wax can contain corn, and even baking powder uses cornstarch. Corn is everywhere in the grocery store, even hidden in the worst foods that we purchase. Here, it is revealed.”– Margaret White Second Place – “Laundromat” “This lithograph was done half digital and half with hand-drawn films.

Only 6 of these prints exist, 2 were distributed to the model Chamois Faith and photographer Jonah Wall; both ECU undergraduates. My work is about woman power and the end of human trafficking.”– Brandon Lee Third Place – “Playing Ostrich” “I am from South Korea and issues that are happening in South Korea still interest me. My work is based on general Korean media such as internet news. The work is a direct response to that general media.”– Youngjae Kim Honorable Mention – “Reflection” “This piece is a result of a highly experimental relief printing process. The process began with figuring out ways to mark paper without consciously using my hands. I collected textures from inking-up and printing multiple objects. I then scanned those textures into the computer, resized the image and laser cut the marks into wood blocks. These blocks were then used to relief print the patterns and textures onto the final piece.” – Jurman Leveston

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Printmaking

Printmaking

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First Place – “Cornucopia” “Much of our food today comes from corn. The meat we eat comes from animals. Our bread and candy are made with high-fructose corn syrup.

Apple wax can contain corn, and even baking powder uses cornstarch. Corn is everywhere in the grocery store, even hidden in the worst foods that we purchase. Here, it is revealed.”– Margaret White Second Place – “Laundromat” “This lithograph was done half digital and half with hand-drawn films.

Only 6 of these prints exist, 2 were distributed to the model Chamois Faith and photographer Jonah Wall; both ECU undergraduates. My work is about woman power and the end of human trafficking.”– Brandon Lee Third Place – “Playing Ostrich” “I am from South Korea and issues that are happening in South Korea still interest me. My work is based on general Korean media such as internet news. The work is a direct response to that general media.”– Youngjae Kim Honorable Mention – “Reflection” “This piece is a result of a highly experimental relief printing process. The process began with figuring out ways to mark paper without consciously using my hands. I collected textures from inking-up and printing multiple objects. I then scanned those textures into the computer, resized the image and laser cut the marks into wood blocks. These blocks were then used to relief print the patterns and textures onto the final piece.” – Jurman Leveston

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Printmaking

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“Cornucopia� By: Margaret Claire White

Printmaking: First Place

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“Cornucopia� By: Margaret Claire White

Printmaking: First Place

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“Laundromat” By: Brandon Alexander Lee

Printmaking: Second Place

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“Laundromat” By: Brandon Alexander Lee

Printmaking: Second Place

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“Playing Ostrich” By: Youngjae Kim

Printmaking: Third Place

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“Playing Ostrich” By: Youngjae Kim

Printmaking: Third Place

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“Reflection” By: Jurman Leveston

Printmaking: Honorable Mention

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“Reflection” By: Jurman Leveston

Printmaking: Honorable Mention

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First Place – “Fragment (Contemplation Object)” “Carved from a solid piece of leather-hard porcelain, this small-scale sculpture acts as a support for contemplation. The viewer can trace the contours and surfaces of the object, considering the play between void and structure. Through changing orientation, the piece draws to mind the difference between what is hidden and what is revealed.”– Nadia Massoud Second Place – “America First” “This piece is my interpretation of nationalism. The simplicity and boldness of the work is open to viewers. What they feel when they see the work varies from individual to individual, and I believe it says something about their own worldview.”– Jessica Bradsher Third Place – “Birth of Augur” “In ancient Rome, augurs were priests who interpreted omens by observing the flight of birds. These interpretations guided important decisions such as the appointment of political officials. While reflecting on the mysterious and somewhat arbitrary candidate selection process for MFA programs, the ancient role of the augur comes to mind. This piece signifies my transition into the role of graduate art student and future gatekeeper of MFA applicants.”– Robin Carter

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Sculpture

Sculpture

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First Place – “Fragment (Contemplation Object)” “Carved from a solid piece of leather-hard porcelain, this small-scale sculpture acts as a support for contemplation. The viewer can trace the contours and surfaces of the object, considering the play between void and structure. Through changing orientation, the piece draws to mind the difference between what is hidden and what is revealed.”– Nadia Massoud Second Place – “America First” “This piece is my interpretation of nationalism. The simplicity and boldness of the work is open to viewers. What they feel when they see the work varies from individual to individual, and I believe it says something about their own worldview.”– Jessica Bradsher Third Place – “Birth of Augur” “In ancient Rome, augurs were priests who interpreted omens by observing the flight of birds. These interpretations guided important decisions such as the appointment of political officials. While reflecting on the mysterious and somewhat arbitrary candidate selection process for MFA programs, the ancient role of the augur comes to mind. This piece signifies my transition into the role of graduate art student and future gatekeeper of MFA applicants.”– Robin Carter

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“Fragment (Contemplation Object)” By: Nadia Massoud

Sculpture: First Place

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“Fragment (Contemplation Object)” By: Nadia Massoud

Sculpture: First Place

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“America First” By: Jessica Bradsher

Sculpture: Second Place

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“America First” By: Jessica Bradsher

Sculpture: Second Place

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“Birth of Augur” By: Robin Carter

Sculpture: Third Place

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“Birth of Augur” By: Robin Carter

Sculpture: Third Place

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First Place – “Faith in Layers” “I started this piece wanting to embed meaning within the layers of the woven structure.

The loom structure was created with the word “faith” that was translated and transformed repeatedly woven in a systematic order. The warp of the weaving was hand-painted with resist dye techniques. The layers of the weft correspond with the colors of the warp, each precisely chosen to best execute the layers.” – Allison Stokely

Second Place –“Untitled” “This weaving was inspired by the colors you see in Palm Springs, California.

The rich colors are found in the dense desert landscapes.” – Alicia Roueché

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Textile Design

Textile Design

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First Place – “Faith in Layers” “I started this piece wanting to embed meaning within the layers of the woven structure.

The loom structure was created with the word “faith” that was translated and transformed repeatedly woven in a systematic order. The warp of the weaving was hand-painted with resist dye techniques. The layers of the weft correspond with the colors of the warp, each precisely chosen to best execute the layers.” – Allison Stokely

Second Place –“Untitled” “This weaving was inspired by the colors you see in Palm Springs, California.

The rich colors are found in the dense desert landscapes.” – Alicia Roueché

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Textile Design

Textile Design

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“Faith in Layers” By: Allison Stokely

Textile Design: First Place

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“Faith in Layers” By: Allison Stokely

Textile Design: First Place

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“Untitled” By: Alicia Roueché

Textile Design: Second Place

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“Untitled” By: Alicia Roueché

Textile Design: Second Place

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First Place – “Prayer Object” “I created this piece as a “prayer” or object of devotion in response to the mass anxiety that is being recognized amongst our society, culture, and nation. Where many reach out for a $4.99 “fidget spinner” at the local convenient store for treatment, I believe in seeking peace and soul rest to treat anxiety and woes of the 21st century.” – Holly Roddenbery

Second Place – “Amper-Seat” “The Amper-seat is an observation of craft. This process-driven piece included experimentation with large and small industrial machinery and testing the bonding tenacity of mixed materials. With Amper-Seat, viewers have the unique opportunity to experience the ampersand, a typographic character, in an unexpected three-dimensional form.”– Kayla Clark

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Wood Design

Wood Design

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First Place – “Prayer Object” “I created this piece as a “prayer” or object of devotion in response to the mass anxiety that is being recognized amongst our society, culture, and nation. Where many reach out for a $4.99 “fidget spinner” at the local convenient store for treatment, I believe in seeking peace and soul rest to treat anxiety and woes of the 21st century.” – Holly Roddenbery

Second Place – “Amper-Seat” “The Amper-seat is an observation of craft. This process-driven piece included experimentation with large and small industrial machinery and testing the bonding tenacity of mixed materials. With Amper-Seat, viewers have the unique opportunity to experience the ampersand, a typographic character, in an unexpected three-dimensional form.”– Kayla Clark

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Wood Design

Wood Design

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“Prayer Object” By: Holly Roddenbery

Wood Design: First Place

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“Prayer Object” By: Holly Roddenbery

Wood Design: First Place

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“Amper-Seat” By: Kayla Clark

Wood Design: Second Place

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“Amper-Seat” By: Kayla Clark

Wood Design: Second Place

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Student Media at ECU: Director: Advisor:

Editor:

John Harvey Terrence Dove

The School of Art and Design at ECU: Director:

Faculty Advisor for Rebel:

Head of Photography:

Kate Bukoski Craig Malmrose Angela Wells

ECU School of Art and Design Photography Team:

Pitt County Arts Council at Emerge:

Theo Davis Printing:

Brian Culbertson Dana Smessaert Epiphany Knedler Holly Garriott Theo Davis Printing

Judges: Visual Arts:

Literary Arts: Digital Media Arts:

Sim Asher Katy Mims Liz Steiner Anonymous Anonymous

Designers:

General Manager:

Emily Brinley Matthew Thompson Brenna Townsend Victoria Schule

Student Media Staff:

Director:

Advisor:

John Harvey Terrence Dove

Student Media at ECU: Director: Advisor:

Editor:

John Harvey Terrence Dove

The School of Art and Design at ECU: Director:

Faculty Advisor for Rebel:

Head of Photography:

Kate Bukoski Craig Malmrose Angela Wells

ECU School of Art and Design Photography Team:

Pitt County Arts Council at Emerge:

Theo Davis Printing:

Brian Culbertson Dana Smessaert Epiphany Knedler Holly Garriott Theo Davis Printing

Judges: Visual Arts:

Literary Arts: Digital Media Arts:

Sim Asher Katy Mims Liz Steiner Anonymous Anonymous

Designers:

General Manager:

Emily Brinley Matthew Thompson Brenna Townsend Victoria Schule

Student Media Staff:

Director:

Advisor:

John Harvey Terrence Dove

The mission of Rebel, East Carolina University’s Art and Literary Journal, is to produce an annual publication that features only the best work created by the current graduate and undergraduate students who attend ECU. This work is submitted by the students prior to the opening of the annual Rebel exhibition after which the work remains on display at Emerge Gallery for several weeks. Because of the vast quantity of work submitted to the show every year, it is necessary for a panel of qualified judges to review the work and choose only the best to be displayed and published. This publication has served as a creative outlet for art students, writers, musicians, and dancers for 60 years and has won many national awards. ECU’s department of Student Media and the School of Art and Design work together as joint partners to produce this publication along with the students of ECU. This publication is a student-run publication for students of ECU, and it is our mission that this publication remain so in the coming years. Thank you for your support and we hope you enjoy this issue of Rebel. We’re excited to anticipate the future of Rebel!

The mission of Rebel, East Carolina University’s Art and Literary Journal, is to produce an annual publication that features only the best work created by the current graduate and undergraduate students who attend ECU. This work is submitted by the students prior to the opening of the annual Rebel exhibition after which the work remains on display at Emerge Gallery for several weeks. Because of the vast quantity of work submitted to the show every year, it is necessary for a panel of qualified judges to review the work and choose only the best to be displayed and published. This publication has served as a creative outlet for art students, writers, musicians, and dancers for 60 years and has won many national awards. ECU’s department of Student Media and the School of Art and Design work together as joint partners to produce this publication along with the students of ECU. This publication is a student-run publication for students of ECU, and it is our mission that this publication remain so in the coming years. Thank you for your support and we hope you enjoy this issue of Rebel. We’re excited to anticipate the future of Rebel!

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