Journey Through Tiberia II: Understand me for who I am and who I want to become. After a lot of contemplating, I decided to put down in words, the most intimate and personal reflection of the past week on here to share with others; which I have only shared with one person at camp and from camp, thus far. Thank you for allowing me to open up myself to you and listening to my struggles. Before arriving to Sa Mac Tiberia II, I became hesitant and reserved. Although months before, I had no reservation about attending HLHT cap III Lãnh Đạo. As the date got closer and closer, I became more worrisome and fearful of attending a training that I did not feel ready for; however, even though, I did not feel ready, I knew there was no harm in attending and the camp would only be beneficial for myself, đoàn, and phong trào. Servant leadership was the main theme of this sa mạc. After the first day, I examined myself, I knew that I must grow in spiritual-
ity, leadership, and so on; if I say that I am a Huynh Truong, I am serving for các em. I need to prepare myself after sa mạc. I need to see where I can change, openness – open minded. This past week, seeing NS, HS, and HT from Đoàn Đồng Hành, put out their time to help out here was a real eye opener because they were a part of 58 SMS and a full staff of Ban Điều Hành, who put lots of time out of their busy life to be here with us. Two people who helped out with Phụng Vụ really stood out for me this past week, em Giúp Lễ (I wish I knew his name) and em Kevin (who played piano for us for all the masses). I have not seen such dedication in helping out with Thánh Lễ for so long. I am glad I knew some people before I entered sa mạc - Nancy, Adam, Henry, Long, etc. who encourage me to follow through with the sa mạc. On Tuesday, in Denver, I was about to ask customer service for the first flight back to Orange County. I was very adamant about that, but I'm glad I didn't pursue that path now. This HLHT cap III required and still require a lot of soul searching. I feel that at this time, I'm at my deepest struggles and certain downfalls, which turned me away from sa mạc. Is it authentic and honest, of my feelings? What is love? What are you (I) willing to give? Pay less, give more. Could I possibly grow if I don't open up myself. After adoration on Wednesday night, it changed some of my perspectives on everything that has been going on, then being in Cha Thi's khóa about adoration, it made me reevaluate a lot off my personal beings. I 20 heart was no longer in the moment and in its place. My heart and knew at that moment, I didn't care as much as I know I should, but my soul was not ready pre-camp and it may have been on the condition that I did not take the time to prepare myself. More and more into sa