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TAMARA ALBURY How Diamonds Are Made
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FROM THE EDITOR Welcome back to Issue No. 2. The first story I received for this issue was an essay about failure by writer Jade
Emerson. Tears rolled down my cheeks as I moved through each paragraph. I think it was because I could relate and knew what she had been through the last two years, which isn’t unlike what a lot of women endure — failure to meet the endless
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demands made on us balancing work and our personal lives. My next thought was,
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I can’t wait to share this with all of the women who read this. As the other stories rolled in, my elation grew, because what founder and owner Adrienne Martinez and I are doing is humbling — the timeless effort of giving a voice to all women in our community through talented writers’ essays, poems, short stories and reporting. I know people have been changing lives through pictures and words since we lived in caves, but to carry that baton for women is life-giving work. I mean, we have Pulitzer Prize-winning journalist Gayle Reaves contributing her heart-opening poetry to this issue. How Amber Davis’ illustrations dress up the writing throughout in the finest of clothes is awesome too. And the way our cover illustration coalesced is some sort of magical kismet just like all of the other ways this magazine has come together. Adrienne found chalk artist Jan Riggins on Instagram. Her wheels started to turn. If this second issue’s cover story is about the Young Women’s Leadership Academy principal’s life journey, and chalk is used in schools, then maybe our next cover illustration could be a chalk mural on the wall at the school, illustrating how diamonds are made through heat and pressure, just like principal Tamara Albury. Voila! While that offered a little insight into how Adrienne’s wheels turn and how she pours her heart into everything, the way it happened also reflects the beauty of this magazine — she found a female artist to support who also wanted to support other women through her passion and craft, which then tells a story about another woman through her art, whose passion as a principal helps countless young women. It then created a moment for the students at school to come together and experience women empowering other women as they chalked words of empowerment onto the mural one morning. My hope is that these ripples in the water unfurl into a surge of kindess to people everywhere as we are reminded that women like Tamara don’t wake up one morning a badass — they are made that way through a life full of experiences being tested in the fire like the coal and
With gratitude,
gems in jars on her desk. There is not enough room on this page to share everything I am over-the-moon excited about in this magazine, but I hope you feel as much joy as I did reading
JOCELYN F TATUM
Executive Editor
these pages. Or at least find inspiration to start your own journey. Let us know how we can help you along the way.
What is the best gift you have ever received?
S arah An g le WRITER
Ce le st in a B lo k WRITER
The best gift I’ve ever received is my son Bo. Having a child in my late 30s added more chaos to my already hectic life but at the same time slowed me down in the best possible way.
J ill B o ld WRITER
The best gift I’ve received in my life would be my planner — it is my lifeline. I’ve gone through several over the years, but I received my first one as a gift from my grandmother, who told me that by mastering my time and writing down my tasks I might find some freedom in chaos. Thank you, Mimi.
J e n n ife r Cass e d ay- B lair WRITER
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.” John 3:16
Amb e r Dav is I L LU ST R ATO R
When I was a kid, my grandmother began bringing me to her oil painting class on Saturday mornings. I begrudgingly attended a studio full of old Bob Ross groupies instead of slumber parties with my peers for about six years. I believe this is the greatest gift I have ever received. I found a creative outlet that is still changing my life for the better, and I am forever grateful.
Jad e E me rs o n WRITER
Sharing a story, especially the ones that are closest to us, requires so much bravery, so the best gift I’ve received is the stories that people trust and share with me.
Agustin Gonza lez PHOTOGRAPHER
The best gift I have received was a Canon film camera, and it was so meaningful to me, because with that camera, it brought me life lessons I could not get anywhere else. I have not received many gifts so I had to really think hard on that one.
M yr ia m Gonza lez WRITER
The best gift I ever received was when I was 10, and my cousin gifted me a turquoise “Lion King” diary. It was the first legitimate item I could write my thoughts in, and it came with a lock, which made it super secretive and special.
Angie M a r tinez WRITER
The best gift I received in life was my children. They completely changed the course of my life in the absolute best way. And my husband gifted me a pair of handmade cowboy boots from M.L Leddys as my wedding gift! Boots are nearly 9 years old and still going strong.
E r ic Ra mirez PHOTOGRAPHER
The guitar my mom gave me for Christmas in seventh grade and which I still have. It ignited my passion for music.
Gayle Reaves WRITER
The best gift I think I ever received was my own (illustrated) copy of Anna Sewell’s Black Beauty when I was about in second or third grade. I loved horses, and I loved that book so much that I remember memorizing the first several pages of the children’s version so I could recite it to my parents. On my birthday, when I unwrapped my own brand-new copy, I was speechless.
Amb er Shuma ke PHOTOGRAPHER
My son. His birth mother gave us the most incredible gift when she allowed us to adopt him. When I see him, I am reminded daily of her courage and the capacity within each of us to love one another.
Shilo Ur b a n WRITER
A Crayola Caddy. Creativity + Organization = Pure Bliss
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My mom gives me the gift of time and love every Monday when she picks up my daughter from school.
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Women of Fort Worth Who Inspire
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38 Hailey Hernandez Determined Profile
42 As the Crowe Flies: Profile of a Runner Short Story
46 Painting with the Dark Poetry by Gayle Reaves
48 Oyster Farming Poetry by Gayle Reaves
50 Big Blues in Cowtown Poetry by Wynn Amargein Ellis
28 TAMARA One to Know
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Women of Fort Worth Who Inspire
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SPOTLIGHT 8 SINGER ‘I Get in Where I Fit In’
WORTH 12 STAYING Fresh Airbnbs
14 MAKING
Holiday Gifts for Loved Ones
18 TRYING
Taking the Reins
SUPPORT 20 WINTON + WAITS
BE WELL 60 MINDFULNESS
22 ART ROOM
64 MENTAL HEALTH
Impact Maker
Make a Little Room for the Art Room
READER’S REVEAL 24 WHAT IF If you had an hour of free time right now, how would you spend it?
LIFE 52 AT HOME
Home Design Tips on a Budget
56 PROFESSIONAL
Work Too Much? Blame the Pilgrims
Failing Her Way Toward Success
ESSAY
Better Box
68 HEALING
When East Meets West
FOOD 72 MATRIARCHS
Why Can’t I Cook Like My Mother?
PHILANTHROPY 76 STONE’S THROW FARM CO.
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“More specific to my identity as a Black woman [...] we don’t get heard or seen in the fullness of our identity very often in a general sense. It is really important to create space to do that. When we create
space, other people see space that they, too, can take up, and they feel like they are freer to speak out when they see other people actually doing that thing [...] It really
helps draw others out who might share the same marginalization or sexualization or racial issues.” - ‘I Get in Where I Fit In’, by Jocelyn Tatum, P 8
horses gave me a place of acceptance and love that I didn’t 7 often find amongst my peers. Now as an adult, I feel I am “As a child and preteen, riding and being close to
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“These radical English Calvinists [aka Pilgrims] have long hogged the spotlight in our country’s founding myth, their flaws overlooked, their big black hats obscuring the central contributions of Native Americans, African slaves and the Spanish (to name a few).” - Work Too Much? Blame the Pilgrims, by Shilo Urban, P 56 “And so the question becomes no longer if we will fail, but rather what things do we care so deeply about that they are worth failing for — love, work, art, family, school, dreams? I want a full existence, even if that means it is full of failure. Because when it comes down to it, a life without failure is no life at all.” - Failing Her Way Toward Success, by Jade Emerson, P 60 “What we inherit from our mothers, whether it comes in the
form of a recipe or a memory, is something that we carry with us throughout our lives, whether or not we
can recreate it. So maybe we aren’t meant to reproduce it but rather carry that memory with us and help it evolve into new experiences with our families and friends.” -Why Can’t I Cook Like My Mother?, food essay by Angie Martinez, P 72 “Here, we’re about sisterhood, we’re about empowerment, we’re about being kind. In a world that really is not set up for girls to be successful, we create a bubble where they are.” - How Diamonds Are Made, the cover story by Jade Emerson, P 28
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returning home. I started riding again six months ago after losing my mother unexpectedly. I have rediscovered that love and acceptance, and something deeper.” - Taking the Reins, by Jennifer Casseday-Blair and Jocelyn Tatum, P 18
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Holiday Gifts with Meaning
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Holiday Gifts for Loved Ones By Celestina Blok
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pread holiday cheer with gifts that have meaning in more ways than one. These local shops and studios offer classes for creating artisan goods, from candles and crystal necklaces to ceramics and glassware. Recipients will swoon over the love poured into each project, and local businesses benefit from the purchase. It’s a giving season win-win.
GOLD WIRE-WRAPPED CRYSTAL NECKLACES Creatively Beaut Goods Bronx native Cecilia Navarro opened her boho accessories boutique in March 2020 before being forced to shutter shortly thereafter, thanks to the pandemic. But thanks to support from loyal customers, Navarro was able to reopen four months later in a larger location in the River East District. The new space was expansive enough to comfortably display not only her own handmade jewelry and products, but goods from her favorite local vendors. Popular items include vintage clothing, macramé earrings, and gold wire-wrapped crystal necklaces, the latter of which may be custom-made by customers in Navarro’s jewelry-making classes. Participants get to select their own crystal for a completely unique piece. The class is $68 per person and runs about two hours, typically held in the evening.
2900 RACE ST., SUITE 164, FORT WORTH
682.707.9985 creativelybeautgoods.shop
CERAMICS 1725 SIXTH AVE., FORT WORTH
Kendall Davis Clay
214.395.1653
From sake sipping sets to her popular speckled coffee mugs, Kendall Davis’ clay creations are in high demand. At her Near Southside shop and studio, customers can create their own ceramic masterpieces under Davis’ expert guidance during her once-a-month workshops. The $65 class features a different theme each month, and beginners to experts are welcome. After students hone the technique, Davis will fire and glaze their ready-to-gift creations. Note that classes are BYOB and are typically held on a Sunday afternoon.
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HAND-POURED CANDLES The Worthy Co. Create a candle and help empower survivors of sex trafficking. This Near Southside nonprofit invests 100% of its profits into fulfilling its mission of employing trafficking victims, who may be recovering from trauma or struggling with addiction while looking to rebuild their lives. Survivors handcraft all jewelry and candles available for sale in Worthy Co.’s beautiful brickand-mortar boutique, located just off Magnolia Avenue. The space also features a candle studio, where custom candle-making classes are offered for small groups. The $45 class includes all tools needed plus private shopping time with a 20% discount. (Note that candles take a couple of days to set, so they’ll need to be picked up later or shipped for an additional $8.) Classes are BYOB (there’s a $5 outside beverage fee per party), and participants are also welcome to bring their own bites (don’t forget plates and napkins). Book a class time online or contact hello@worthy-co.com to ask about private parties.
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Finding Therapy on Horseback
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Taking the Reins With a stampede of adults seeking out new therapeutic hobbies, many rode the wave of a global pandemic on the back of a horse By Jennifer Casseday-Blair and Jocelyn Tatum Illustration by Amber Davis
She got back into horseback riding
when her mother died in December 2020, shortly after the COVID-19 pandemic made the already shrinking four walls around her seem smaller. She rode when she was young several times a week, but a torn ACL and then college pulled her away. Like so many people battling the tidal waves of anxiety being thrown off by political unrest, social injustice and a smoldering pandemic, Cari Freehan needed to get back outside again, finding therapy on horseback again some 35 years later. “As a child and preteen, riding and being close to horses gave me a place of acceptance and love that I didn’t often find amongst my peers. Now as an adult, I feel I am returning home. I started
riding again six months ago after losing my mother unexpectedly. I have rediscovered that love and acceptance, and something deeper,” she says. Horses are mirrors. They show riders where they are in life in a way a therapist can’t — spiritually, physically and mentally. “They mimic you and what you feel. They mimic insecurities and fears,” she says. This gives Cari an awareness she’s never experienced anywhere else, and through that mirroring awareness, healing. The horse points to her wounds and then carries her in the most majestic and gentle way to the other side of that pain, she reflects. Molly Thomson, owner of Benbrook Stables, says she saw a dramatic rise in the number of adults wanting to take riding lessons during the
Where to Saddle Up Benbrook Stables
$65 for 45-minute group lesson, $85 private lesson STYLES OFFERED:
Currently only accepting riders who bring their own horse STYLES OFFERED:
Western 395 Roseburg, Azle 817.475.7010 robbinsarena.com
Silver Creek Ranch
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10001 Benbrook Blvd., Fort Worth 817.249.1001 benbrookstables.com
$45 for 45-minute lesson
Curragh Equestrian Center
9400 Silver Creek Road, Fort Worth 940.366.6315 johnwiley3254.wixsite.com/ silvercreekranch
$50 for 55-minute group lesson, $80 for 45-minute private lesson STYLES OFFERED:
pandemic. “We heard stories about how they once rode as a kid and always wanted to get back into it … We also hear from our younger and older adults that taking riding lessons has helped with the depression associated with staying at home from work or school due to COVID-19. Other adults are just so happy to have found a new way to get outside and enjoy learning a new skill,” Molly says. For Cari, the sensitivity of a horse creates a connection to a world that is deeply spiritual. “It has given me a way to heal and so much more,” Cari says.
$55 for one-hour group lesson, $65 for one-hour private lesson
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Western, English, Bareback
Robbins Arena
Western, English
Dressage, English
Starline Stables
5595 Ben Day Murrin Road, Fort Worth 817.443.3777 curragh.com
STYLES OFFERED:
Fort Worth Stockyards Stables and Horseback Riding $45 for 30-minute trail ride, $75 for one-hour trail ride STYLES OFFERED:
Western 157 E. Exchange Ave., Fort Worth 817.239.8830 fortworthstockyardsstables.com
Freedom Equestrian Center STYLES OFFERED:
Dressage, Show Jumping, Western, Natural Horsemanship 1005 Hood Court, Granbury 817.403.6291 freedomequestriancenter.com
Little K Acres
Dressage, Hunter/Jumper 1212 Dove Hill Road, Justin 940.368.6698 starlinestables.com
Star T Ranch
$55 for one-hour lesson STYLES OFFERED:
Dressage, English, Western, Cross-Country 4225 Kelly Road, Aledo 817.247.9257 startranchtx.net
Trinity River Farm & Equestrian Center
$55 for one-hour semiprivate lesson, $70 for one-hour private lesson STYLES OFFERED:
Dressage, Hunter/Jumper, Eventing 8375 Randol Mill Road, Fort Worth 817.683.5610 trinityriverfarmtx.com
$60 private lesson, $40 semiprivate lesson (small group of 2 – 4 riders)
Triple Cross Ranch
STYLES OFFERED:
Western
Western 414 Cagle Crow, Mansfield 817.946.2180 littlekacres.com
$40 for one-hour lesson STYLES OFFERED:
5617 County Road 913, Godley 817.319.3915 3crossranch.com
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Is it winter on your side of town? Has the sea risen? Due perhaps to shifting lunar orbits or suitcases packing and unpacking in unison. Denial and acceptance move up and down my thighs like tides, and I learn a different breathing. My eyestalks grow longer but see less. Lips of shell open and close with cloudy currents, straining nourishment from the passing parade. I have begun to layer you with shiny excrescence, so as not to feel the small jabs. They cannot make me bleed. They cannot enter the tender parts. They increase my worth. I am full of pearls. I will put them on a watch to sell on eBay.
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Work Too Much? Blame the Pilgrims How Christmas-banning zealots from 400 years ago are burning you out. Photos and Story by Shilo Urban
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The U.S. is notorious for mastering the art of busyness and feeling guilty when relaxing. We simultaneously scoff at and envy the one-month-long holiday Europeans enjoy in August. Well, you can thank our Puritan forebears, at least for part of it. It’s estimated that 35 million Americans today are descendants of the Mayflower’s 102 passengers. But we are all heirs to their ethos of incessant striving, which continues to shape America’s work-work-work culture. Regarded by many as strict, stodgy, fun-hating grumps—the Puritans are profoundly untrendy. A recent trip to Barnes & Noble revealed zero books on the Pilgrims in the entire store. These radical English Calvinists have long hogged the spotlight in our country’s founding myth, their flaws overlooked, their big black hats obscuring the central contributions of Native Americans, African slaves, and the Spanish (to name a few). They have a complex and checkered legacy; they were humans, after all. Separation of church and state? That’s the Pilgrims. Janet Jackson’s nipplegate pandemonium? You guessed it. But love them or hate them, the Puritans’ philosophy still affects the daily lives of millions of Americans, whether we are faithful Christians or hardened atheists — and whether we know it or not. The Pilgrims celebrated the first Thanksgiving in the autumn of 1621, and more than 20,000 Puritans joined them in Massachusetts over the next 20 years. The two groups of Calvinists merged over time, drawn together by distinct values that they planted in the soil next to the pumpkins and corn: diligence, discipline and development (of the self and society). They shared a deep-seated conviction that it was possible to make the world a better place, and they labored with incredible intensity to close the gap between their ideals and reality. Where did this obsessive drive come from? For the Puritans, hard work wasn’t just good — it was sacred. They didn’t invent this idea; sloth had long been one of Catholicism’s seven deadly sins, and Martin Luther had spawned the Protestant work ethic a century earlier. Idleness, he proclaimed, was “the greatest plague on earth.” Photo Opposite Page: A Pilgrim’s work is never done. Women sewed and mended clothes whenever they sat down between gardening, cleaning, cooking, and caring for children. Only six women survived the first winter and were on hand to help prepare the first Thanksgiving meal—a three-day feast for an estimated 140 people.
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Failing Her Way Toward Success Why failure is often the best thing that can happen to us
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So, I started running in the opposite direction — I took a gap year instead of attending college. The disappointment and defeat I felt led me to the best experiences — and challenges — of my life. I cooked in Paris. I wrote in Copenhagen. I studied in England. Failing was the best thing that could ever happen to me because it allowed me to become so much more than my plans ever allowed me to be. The paradox in our modern world is that we are conditioned to avoid failure while also expected to meet the impossible demands of perfection that pave the path to falling short. We are to be both mothers and career women. We are to be strong and soft. We are to be accomplished and accommodating. “Pursuing perfection can prevent progress,” says Adam Grant on Twitter, Wharton professor and organizational psychologist. “Success is the quality of our lives, not just the quantity of our achievements.” The most painful and difficult lesson I have learned in my life is this: Failure is nothing to be afraid of. Only when I face failure have I ever found peace. You will lose. You will get a B (eventually). You will say the wrong thing at the wrong time. You will fail. And you will be better because of it. Because you will no longer be afraid to try. “An ambitious goal raises your odds of success. It also boosts your odds of feeling like a failure,” Grant tweets. “My favorite solution is to set two targets: an aspirational goal and an acceptable result. If you fall short of the aspirational goal but hit the acceptable one, you haven’t failed.”
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e are born invincible. Around our small, new existence, the rest of the world revolves. In our fresh, untouched minds, we are free to dream and discover. This feeling of invincibility sticks with us for a while. But there comes a time in every life, whether it’s at 7, 17 or 70, when we realize that we are, after all, vincible. We learn that bones break and flesh tears. We learn that hearts can stop and be shattered. We learn that sometimes no matter how badly we want it, some dreams don’t come true. We learn consequence, disappointment and loss. And whether that blow happens at 7, 17 or 70, we never quite recover. Failure is ingrained in us. And so becomes our fear of it. Every step becomes calculated. We run the numbers and weigh the risks. We choose the safest, smartest course. And yet, in some baffling and utterly frustrating way, we still fail. For me, this realization hit at 18. As a senior in high school, I held the belief that if I worked hard enough, studied enough hours, and if I took all the right classes, then I would be accepted into any school I wanted, I would have a full ride, and I would be happy because I would be successful. I would do what no other human had before: I would not fail. But then I did. I didn’t receive enough in scholarships, I was rejected from my dream school, my class rank dropped, and I got stressinduced shingles. Shingles.
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