Naugatuck Valley Community College
STILL LIFE IN WIND Julian Hogan I can’t talk now. Sorry. The wind’s caught me up again and you wouldn’t hear me. Where it’s taking me, I wouldn’t know, but I can see your house from here. I always wanted to say that. Up here, the air is clean, the skies are clear and the world is very big—seriously, I could be going anywhere. I hop a train for a while…just seeing the sights…until I was forced to jump. I toss around from here to there, then catch a cab. A dog sniffs me, then pees on me. Can you believe that? I mean, it’s like he didn’t even see me there. Well, I get out and get out quick. I run up a tree and into some punks with their sheens of greens and they’re sooo funny. “Hey, old man, why are you so brown.” The group of them shake with laughter. “Look at him, he’s all wrinkled and gross, he’s falling apart.” A swishing staticky sound fills the air—more of their laughter. I try to gesture rudely, but part of my rib breaks off. “What’s that? You’re breaking up!” I cast myself from the branch with a new rise of shimmering of giggles at my back, thankful as the distance slowly swallows the noise—as well as my embarrassment. What do they know! Have they burst into being with the songs of nature to greet them? Yes…yes, maybe they have. But, have they felt the bright summer sun dance blazing white patterns or play games of tag with the shadows on their glossy bellies? Yes, maybe that too has been a part of their fortunes. Still, they know nothing of the vibrancy of being yellow, then lording over all who see you as gold before shifting to red and finally brown? That is the glory I have experienced. But then I guess that memory too will one day be shared by them. Still, when most of those tragic souls are bagged, tagged and burned, there will be few—a lucky few—who will see beyond their branches—beyond their trees. These will play with the children who will toss about in their piles. They will float with the fishes on cool running water. They may even feel their hearts leave them as they fall from where only the eagles go. They will see the world, farther than they ever dared imagine. For those favored few, they will see…there is life after death. 81
