Undecided Stuck between reality and what I want to be, No one seem to know how to get me there. I try and I fail, and i still try again. And after years of trying, I’m yet to find the trick. Love, loving loved; yet there is pain and agony Endless nights and unbearable days. My heart seems to be dying out but my mind says try again. pause, thinking... The one I loved, doesn’t want me. The one who loves me, I cannot bear And the one I love has ostracized me from his thoughts. Yet strange, for he “hopes that his dreams never loses the hope of being his reality”. Hahaha! Our dreams are the same, But reality unfortunately different. I ponder at times, ‘if he had said this, done that, meant this’, then how happy we would be. Thinking... “ I will now give up, for it seems as if I were born never to have love but to share it. If so be my sole purpose; to educate about something I’ll never have, Then so be it. Who am I to defile the natural purpose of my life, A mere man, and even that I still question. Paused. Sighed.. This could just be a mere infatuation of my mind, Which never epitomize the traits of sanity. But this seemingly insane cranium thinks logic beyond compare: ‘Why after so many years, you so awkwardly appear. For a GREAT purpose I presume.’ But what, I am yet to figure out.”....
Love Me!...?
Sometimes I get emotional When I’m listening to music…like Adele I‘m hurting! Why can’t you tell???? I search your eyes for love But I don’t see it You said I love you…Could you repeat it? So maybe I could believe it… This plastic smile can’t last any longer There are tears welling up in my eyes Maybe I need to hear the lies I’m not getting any stronger! So don’t look away Don’t you dare look away… Please? Look at me! I know I’m pathetic But our love…I don’t regret it So I need to know, do you? Do you feel what I feel ? Don’t lie! Just break my heart before the old wounds heal Tara Manderson 01.11.2012
Latoya Smith 07.01.2012
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