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I nanat t emptt oar chi vecont entf r om i s s uepoi nt five.Ideci ded t or un t hi s i nt er vi ew we di dl as t year .Havi ng pl annedt hi smont hsaheadoft i me,I coul dn’ thavebeen happi ert os eean emai lf r om J os hwi t ht hedet ai l sofhi s l at es tpr oj ect .Is t ar t edt hei nt er vi ew off wi t haques t i ont hatIf el tIs houl das kat ever yi nt er vi ew butwes omehow have f or got t enal ongt heway.-Rol by W hen’ syourbi r t hdayandwhatki ndof c akedoyoul i ke? Oct ober23. Il i ket her i ches tdar k chocol at e you can f ucki ng i magi ne. Es peci al l ywhent heyar r i vebymai l . W her edi dyougr owup? Imovedar oundever yf ewyear sasaki d. Iwasbor nonanAi rFor cebas ei na s mal lt owni nI daho. Myf ami l yt hen moved t o ar ur alt own i ns out her n I l l i noi swher eIgr ew up,andt hent o Phoeni x,Ar i zonawhenIwas16.Idi d col l egei n Tucs on and moved t o San Fr anci s co,CAwhenIgr aduat ed.Il i ve i nBer kel eynow. Canyoudes c r i bes omedefini ngmoment s i nyourl i f et hats hapedwhoyouar easan ar t i s tandani ndi vi dual ? My ear l i es tmemor yi sofmy mom, aunt ,and gr andmal i s t eni ngt o El t on J ohn’ ss ong“Dani el ”ont hecouchi n t hel i vi ngr oom on t hedayaermy br ot her ,whos enamewasal s oDani el , di ed.Ir ememberbei nggi venaG. I .J oe puzzl et ooccupymymi nd.Is pental ot oft i meal onedr awi ngandcol or i ng.-

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-Even asIgotal i t t l eol derIr emember Al t houghIqui tgoi ngt ochur chcamp,I j umpi ng on t he t r ampol i ne outback and act ual l y became f ur t her i nvol ved wi t h i magi ni ng what power s he was gi ven i n campusChr i s t i anor gani zat i onsi nTucs on. Heaven.That ’ ss t i l laver yf unnyi maget ome. I t ’ sal ongs t or y,butes s ent i al l y,t her ewas l aunched agai ns t me a s i l ent -t r eat ment WhenIwasgr owi ngupi nI l l i noi s ,Iwasact i ve campai gn i n whi ch dor m mi ni s t er swer e i nchur chands pents ummer satchur chcamp. evi dent l yi ns t r uct ednott oacknowl edgemy Someoft het hi ngst hatwentont her ecer t ai nl y per s onwhenIpas s edby,andevent ual l ymy i nf or medmyi deasasIgotol der .I nt hefinal gi r l f r i endwasper s uadedt os pl i twayswi t h year t hatI at t ended chur ch camp bef or e mei n or dert o becomeamemberoft he movi ngt oAr i zona,al lt heki dswer es t ar t l ed chur ch. She became pr egnants omet i me awakebyoneoft hecampcounci l or s .Back s hor t l yt her eaer .Theywer eoppos edt omy t hen,wes l epti ncabi ns ,s egr egat edbygender . dai l y comi cs t r i p,whi ch qui t e hones t l y Hewasatt het hr es hol di nt hemi ddl eoft he offended j us taboutever yone r el i gi ousor ni ghtands eemedaf r ai di nawayt hatyou’ r e not ,t hatr ani nt hes choolnews paperwher eI notaccus t omedt os eei ngadul t swhenyou’ r ea wasacar t ooni s tandcol umni l l us t r at or .Ij us t ki d,and,nat ur al l y,webegan t o pani c. I t houghtt hes hi tIwascomi ngupwi t hwas r emembers omeones haki ngmyl egsf ors ome t oof unnyNOT t odr aw.Ihadachar act er r eas on,andIwast hi nki ngs omeonemus thave cal l ed The Goddamn Gr umpy Cl own beens er i ous l yhur tordi ed.Butt heywoul dn’ tt hr oughwhom Icoul dbi t chatl engt habout t el lus what was happeni ng. We wer e anyt hi ngIpl eas ed. i ns t r uct edt ogooutt ot het aber nacl e,whi chi s anout doorchur ch,es s ent i al l y,andt owai tf or Gr oupbehavi ori ss omet hi ngIl i ngeron i ns t r uct i ons . Wet hr ew ourcl ot hesonand eveni nt hepr es entday. TheBayAr eaar t headed out . Myf r i end Tr avi sand Iwer e s cenewor ksmuchi nt hes ameway,andi s ,i n maki ngj okesbecaus ewewer ener vous ,t r yi ng i t s el f ,aki ndofl es s -t han-or gani zedr el i gi on. t okeepi tl i ght . Aeraf ew moment s ,t he ButIwoul ds ayt hemos tdefini ngmoment Pas t or ,whol eadt hepr ogr am,cameoutand i nmywor k,whi l el i vi ngi nt heBayAr ea, emphat i cal l yr ei t er at edwhatwe’ dhear dmany woul dbet hefir e.Oneofournei ghbor si na t i mesbef or e--t hatt hi scoul dbeourl as tni ght near byuni t ,i n afitofemot i onalt r auma onear t handhadwer epent edandaccept ed bel i evedhi ss t udi ot obepos s es s edbyanevi l J es us i nt o our hear t s ? Butbecaus et hi s pr es enceorbads pi r i t sands etfir et ot he occur r edi nt hemi ddl eoft heni ght ,t her ewas apar t mentbui l di ng,whi chl euswi t houta s omet hi ng aki nt o amas spani c,i n whi ch pl ace t ol i ve. Aboutt hr ee year sl at er ,I manyki dss t ar t edt ocr yandabout80% ofus t r ackedhi m downandfinal l yconvi ncedt he headedupt ot heal t erorf r ontpewst opr ay f or mernei ghbort o par t i ci pat ei n an ar t andr epentandt ohavecounci l or spr ayoverus . pr oj ect . Ii nt er vi ewed and phot ogr aphed Thi swast he fir s tf eel i ng ofdoubtIcan hi m and t hr ee ot her peopl e who wer e r ememberexper i enci ng.Iwasol denought o i nvol vedi npi vot almoment si nmyl i f e. I under s t andi tasmani pul at i onandt of eelt hati tt henus edt hevi deoi nt er vi ewsasr ef er ence waswr ong.Is eem t or emembermus i cs i nce f or a 12-mi nut e ani mat i on cal l ed “The t her ewasal waysaband,andi namemor yt hat Evangel i s t s ”whi chi snow onvi ew atFr ey Idoques t i on,r ememberacoupl et eenagegi r l s Nor r i sCont empor ar yandModer ni n San doi ngs omes or tofangel i ci nt er pr et i vedance Fr anci s cot hr oughApr i l28.Theani mat i on i nwhi t el eot ar ds .Imi ghtbeconflat i ngmor e f unct i onsast heconcept ualcent erf ort he t hanonememor y.Myfir s ts exualexper i ences ent i r eexhi bi t i on,ent i t l ed,“TheI magi ned al s ohappenedatchur chcamp,s ot her ewas Chas e, ” whi ch i ncl udesnew pai nt i ngs ,a t hatpar adoxabouti t . 16-f oots cul pt ur e,andas etofuni quepr i nt s .

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