Re-upload My September 2021 and My Mind

• I think about someone.

In silence. And not to be seen by others.

When I imagine It can be as dark as space and matter To him I seem to matter I wish I could make you feel better

Nadiya

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Hoaxed And Cased ( Little Freudian style ) I think back of a honest thought A image of me making love with a man

Humanity and us together What a force I have no idea if it really happened Years it took me to lay down and feel me longing to someone who must have touched me Munich I remember as a city that made me decide Stuttgart I remember as a city where I survived and fought back Braunschweig i remember as a city where I would stop and rest After waking up I felt the clouds moving away Dreamt of someone who I have seen before touching me like never before (Feels like) no one ever cared about me Does someone care?

I shared a moment A thought With millions of money that could not compare to Maybe it wasn't just a thought As I can not stop thinking about it Does he for once think about me?

Blurred image it became He passing me by I feeling a bit like: hey you have got style Without a word Without even a goodbye I imagine of making love to a man I wish to talk to Nadiya Amina Aweis Mohamed Mohado Sheikh Nur 30-11-1995

For Stealing My Poems And Art And The Karma Wave Right After He just made a choice between Flat HD screens and real life technology and me Rules and law Reputation and love

Together with strong minds I write this now and bow To a audience that may will love me in the future I now say goodbye to a monster in this toilet in Münster To wasted time recycled, wasted and again now recycled I have seen you, probably felt you and now leave you Patient forever for someone else patient Numb by the time, numb by the reality and the youth I belong to Twenty-five to who wants to be her wife and have her child?

I sit here with memories that I wish to leave and investigate Paradoxes haters and possible lovers along the way I have made For being honest Cause I was, am, honest Forever honest I seem to belong to a appearance of rest All over me, all over him when I smile I smile And so he smiles Because he cares I am in love with him I feel the future keeping us on pause Will it be you? Him? Or someone else I wish to meet and love?

As long as I can feel and see Free me and be In the present with you Breathe the same air in and out Without flat HD screens to make a choice between real life technology and me Dare to care and share You will see You and me *7 March it was when I would scream "They are going to kill me" You must have heard me before I haven't screamed our pleasure rhythms away in my present time with you still Do you dare, still?

Once I have been yours! ...Once I have been his For moments I can not recall On some line I do not reach out to He left me in the dirt with shadows he saves from himself He needs me to be free and leaves us in shelters Even shelters refuse me and so human rights I think someone you know would done me better even without any money With no penny along on my side he would dare to endless fight

For my love to be seen with him and so with us together The present would belong to us He dares to care and send me unsent letters To patiently wait Time I share It should be in sync with everything I am I am more than someone else's scam Or a selfie cam and the way how you would come Do you see the pure?

Even on this toilet now i seem not to be safe In danger because of a stranger That took me and left me Theft and possible ways to be Dead Not in a million years I will accept to be dead Because of love Blurred A lesson learned What will I do?

What will you do?

What will he do?

What will they do?

I do what feels right.

Nadiya Amina Aweis Mohamed Mohado Sheikh Nur 30-11-1995 In a toilet in Münster hbf 2:51AM 25-09-2021 In danger, because of the crowd seeing me as very rich and famous I have nothing. No human rights or shelter. I think of seeing my parents again. Left completely vanished almost. Have some memories of man. Blonde. And sharing passion that I was not ready for. It didnt seemed honest for my eye or soul. Maybe the next time it will go better. I need some love from my parents. I am alone.

Breaking into databases is highly illegal. So for them knowing about my family estate that way. Making honest people look like criminals for decades. 100 years of brainwashing or so i am afraid. Its sad.

I fight for my life. Ends up that its a about tht it didnt worked to make me inferitile, give me hiv, or anything else to make me to not pass it through. Healthy babies with magic and love I can share too. If i want to! I became a testingthing for medicine. Hiv? Other diseases? My cells are the answer! I can be your cure! I am afraid it really goes that way since being a

child. I brought prob in millions. And my family. In many ways. Mostly for europe. People had no idea. I had no face. I am not allowed to talk. As they seem so jealous that people still feel something for me if they see me. Or feel healthy. Better. Like human again. With only talking.

Or a honest look in the eye. Copying seems impossible. So i should be dead. Crazy.

I hope i could stand up for deutschland (now home again alive) Thanks to deutschland i have a face! Almost fell in love many times. Almost. I knew this could work. Said no. I see how it goes. And said no. Again. No. To everything. I wait. Its unfair.

I always fight back. For love. And i dont fall for lies. I became robot like smart. Oooh. More empathy. I sketch even on that level.

Blablabla. And woopss. As they say. It goes too quick that it looks easy. "She just does something". I understand men, from the past. Artists. Woman were mostly highly rare and murdered out. I know my family name and others stories.

-On dwdd, to a beautiful man Terlou, "you people seem hard to find" "we have found you" such things. 2016. He has so much talent. I have found love for him through art. My poems in june are mostly about him. Offc i have never seen him."-.

Eye (Felt) Witness Your pressure touched me Softer harder and structures kissed on me I recall a feeling I should have felt

Or didnt?

For years I would crave for it To these days only recall it all the sudden?

No soul, no face, no love along with it?

I try to make my way back home and see if law saves me still Or love?

I sit in the cold on a bench about to be homeless I think you should confess And I to my made ill parents by who?

A confess Please?

I am about to leave To darkness carried by someone who calls himself Dutch I do not judge I think you should talk to me Nadiya Amina Aweis Mohamed Mohado Sheikh Nur 30-11-1995 In Münster without money but millions they have stolen from me I know but smile I have never committed a crime I love and wait for honesty The new sexy I want my name, money and art back.

I know a little bit of law too.

7 march heroe(s) I have seen your face I fight for you if no one else does Silently Selfie at a expo in Hamburg from a criminal mind?

Confess Lose it, excuses, I think you should ignore the bruises Building it up with no answers Question, hey, i've asked you a question Ready to make a confession?

Lose it, loose, lose it So I learn to ignore past bruises Do you love me still?

Too young, too wise, Always, too, two past that too, Please do, for once ignore Would you?

And could you?

Love?

So I lose it on you Feelings i have never told you about Bold you are I've lost As I sit here jusr as homeless Friendless Worthless And eventually to care less Ready to confess?

My only, My wisdom My question Why? I've lost it to ignore the past it's bruises I love you still.

(Your courage, beauty, talent and honesty. For Shawn Mendes, celeb crush).

Nadiya.

29/08/2021

I only show my face My screen gets brighter and darker in a weird way. Weirdo hackers. Still.

Water is hard to find. I drink water from the sink from toilets.

My body doesnt says no. I eat ricewaffels. Too much salt. I have nothing else to eat. My ex stole the things i bought for my son from me. Not only my son. But also the stuff i bought from him. He lets me pay a fine. Gave me 1000 last week. I lost +1000 after it as i expected.

But didnt payed the fine i have to pay while i followed the rules according to administration.

Phone. Police steps in the train when it stopped at Bonn. ICE 625. Munchen hbf is the destination. Fake tickets. I have with me always even (france ticketmachine). +1000 stolen.

Tickets I have never used because things would happen to me. They want to steal my stuff.

And stole. From wallets to devices. Police. After writing and making stuff. When I could sleep at a hotel. And offc. I could taste how it was to be a bit wealthy. As hotels are for the wealthier people.

I show my face one time and police or so could end me. There are so many good ones out there. Mostly. But its not allowed to show feel. Why? None of your business. I think there are more better things to do. Than being busy with what your colleague does in his or her free time. Unless you are in love with them. Gay or not. Admit at least. Instead of killing. Torture.

Or more. Hidden. I don't fight with men, I said. As i can with my broken pelvis, caused cancer that doesn't grow as nature wants it so, fight back. You don't want to see that. Or feel that. A survivor. A little girl that survived killings now has to go through the same thing again. Why? Gay men are okay. Why not just admit? Jealous? Admit. Respect you will get. A higher position in the end. So it goes. Say no to the fear to be judged. I can see it in others' eyes. I dared. Once. And many times. Without crossing my borders.

And so people all the sudden want to be me. That easy. Without dying multiple times at first for it. I'm just 25.

ID frauding, pandemic like it became.