Eternal Present

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EternalPresent isaseriesofhieroglyphicfreeversepoetrythatprogressesthroughatrilogy of abstract human-emotion-driven hero's journeys of dream-like lucidity using modern minimal symbolic imagery reminiscent of and inspired by Swiss psychiatrist Hermann Rorschach’soriginalinkblottests Thegoalwastocapturethetimeperiodofanappcentric generationwherepsychologyandtechnologyconjoin Theexperiencesdepictedinthisbook arederivedfromapersonaldreamjournalinrecountsofmysticalintrigueanddeepimmersive emotion felt during dream state and/or during psychedelic ceremonial exploration and the deathoftheegoexperiencedwithDMTincludingayahuasca,5me0DMT,psilocybin,LSD, andmostimportantlysoberluciddreaming.Allofwhichshouldbeexploredinmoderation and respect with a team you trust in a ceremonial setting. Recreational use can be very damagingand notrecommended.Proceedwithcaution&wisdom.Outofallmyexperiences, nothing was more powerful that true sober dreaming as the human brain produces DMT naturallyduringREMsleep. RobertMosssaysinhisbook“Dreamgates”,whetheryouare asleeporawake,yourexperienceisstillvalid.Thepointis,ifyoucanaccessluciddreams,you canlearnfromthoseexperiences,regardlessifyoudeemtheexperience“reality”.Dreamgates changedmylife.IhavedeeprespectfortheplantmedicineexperiencesIhavebeensograteful tobeapartof;medicinesincludingAyahuasca,Psilocybin,Wachuma,&Bufo Ibelievethese plantspiritswereabletoshowmeselfloveinawayIcouldneverunderstandwithouttheir inuence The plants teach that self love is a daily choice for eachofusandforthatIam beyondgrateful

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Thisbookis amaptondyourwayoutofthedark.Wheneveryoumay ndyourselfthere,thelightofathousandsunsshinesfromwithinyour heart. Travelinwardtondyourwayoutofthedarkness. Ihopethis bookbringslighttothoseawaitingaguidedeepinthenightofthesoul ofhumanity.

Theiconsthroughoutthisbookaremeanttogivethesubconscious asubtlesuggestionwhileleavingspaceandroomfortheaudienceto llintheblankswiththeirowncreativesubconsciouspower.

Eachofthethreebooksbuildsuponthelasttofuelthenextpoetic journeyinthetrilogyandeachpoemrepresentsasteponthe12part processofthehero’sjourney.Inbetweeneachcompletedjourney,is anElixir.Thiselixirisessentialtocompletingthenextjourney withthethreejourneysagacompletingwiththethirdelixirgained. Thebooksaremeanttobeconsumedsequentially.

ThisbookisdedicatedtomymotherNancy.Shehasalwaysknown howtondmeandbringmebacktothelight. Shehasalwaysbeen myguidewhenIneededonethemost.ThereisnobetterMother.

Thank you for your dedication to motherhood in all its forms.

When I was 5 years old I told her I would be an Author. This publication is a checkmark of that 5 year old’s goal and the perseverancetoproducesomethingoriginalthatIamproudofasa creator.Itwasanexceptionalchallengeofselfreection,selfdoubt, anddedication.Iknowitistherstofmanytocome. InthewordsofmylatefriendClayVillanueva ongratitudeforthedarkness:

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Night airiscool andgettingcolder OrIam A dimlight downthehill holdingback fearfullyclinging likeacape. Too timid toshinethrough thedierence; Too nervous toghtthrough thesurface thatlayswiththesky. Thenightholdshertight likeIonce heldlies. Onlyayear remaininghere ofsmallwindowstopeerout.

Theend… ofthebeginning… isdrawingnear… liketattooshops; … hovering inrhythm withthecosmos.

. . Only ifyouknew mytrueintentions, butwhatif turnsmyfaceblue.

Idon'tthink I'llchaseyouanymore... Thisplacemakesmynucleusshake. NuclearPower. Disturbingshadowsdevour herbeautifulface astheoutbreakdevastates pollinating owers.

Exploring space makesmecrave takingdrasticantics toincreasemychances ofescape. Ican’tmaskit. Ionlydeeplyfear onethought innearvisions. I'mscared ofstayinghere gutshot withstrangealiens. Theyhavelanded. Who? Please Takemewithyou. Don'tleavemehere emptyhanded. . Ilovedblanketsasababy, andIwouldputmineonlikeacape.

Iwouldimaginesometimesying onacarpet likeAladdin catchingthewake behindyourspaceship yinghigh

yingonmysafetyblanket.

Hypnagogia

Existing inthewhitesandbeachesofluciddreams, highprestigegrantsaccesstodiamondleaves atopgoldenpalmtreesinthemidstofthe lingeringhotsteamdenseasdreamscents owingthroughthecleanceilingvents ofahabitatenvironment; abalancedbio-system ofharmony. Thedomeceiling ismadeof mercury toimitatethesun duringdaylighthours. Weareinagoldenchorallounge.

Quantumessentials arrangethesoundsospace-bound basketcasesgetaround likedolphinsin Fhloston’sParadise.

Bikinimermaids deliver quench-thirstingdrinks inrhinestonetuxedo-shapedbikinis. Whenyousilentlyadmityouarethirsty, theyswimrightuptoyou. ThisplacerunsonaTelekineticsea. Don’tspeak.Noneed. Iputmybowtieon &tipmycap soyoucanseeme. Let'strade eachotherpowers likevampiresteeth onHalloween. Nowyouseeme… Nowyoudon’t. Fillmybodywithwhitelight Somewill,somewon’t. Angelicvapor. Protectmyvesseltonight asItravelthroughtheether. ProtectmeasIexitlovelylight andenteremptydark.

Isurrendertothenight. I’mdeaftoyourbark. Exitingthelight andenteringthedark. Weareneveralone, butweareeachlone sidebysideinseveredvessels, comfortableindarkness envelopedinvioletsmog tetheredtoeachother'ships likecandiednecklaces, Iridescentinthefog vibratingslowly inopposingdirections likesamesidemagnets, comingclosetoconnection, butresistedbyinvisibleforces andharnessedbypowerfulhorses likemyastralpegasus. This12-Bitdreamis SegaGenesis.

SleepParalysis

Mysoul isnolonger insidemybody. Sleepparalysis. I'vemovedon andreplacedit withacopy. Doppelgänger. Ihadto. Iwasindanger. Ican'tseemtond asinglehuman Iwouldn'tcall astranger. Ijustwanttolive forthefunofit. Quitpouting. Quitrunningfromit. Iwantto quitquitting andcountonit. Countin.

Open Mysoul isnolonger insidemybody. It’sgone. Sleepparalysis.

I'vemovedon andreplacedit withacopy. Doppelgänger. Ihadto. Iwasindanger. Ican'tseemtond asinglehuman Iwouldn'tcall astranger.

He wants toescape andfadeaway. Don'tsayhisname. Abeingwasbornfromhisbrain likeMythology. TheycallhimFang. Workingwithre, dancingforrain, Hislaughechoesincaves

spookingtheslavesnearenough tohearit. Hearit? Hisuntamedheart cravestheunknown. Headspound.Soulsmoan. Armsbound. It'sdark. Heisalone andnowheknowsit.

SheWolves

Thedarkisstirring

eversincethelastfullmoon. Moving toacertaintune, themomentisspurring.

-She-Wolvesarelurkingpantingthirsting; achingforsoothing. Withneedlesharpteeth theyneverseizeacutelymoving. Thenwithoutwarning, theymethodicallydropguard andclimboutofthewoodwork

-Workingit-

Twerkingforthatfaintfeeling theyrememberstealing andfeedingon. Thepumpoflife deliversthebloodoflove; Itrunsthroughit.

Wearevampires. EachFiending forthatspecialfeeling, Thirstyforthetune. Fiending forthatspecialfeeling eversincethelastfullmoon. Darkisinevitablystirring. Inrhythmwiththetune, Yesthemomentisspurring. -Tune-inThewindiswhirring. Theshe-wolveswearinggasmasks aresusceptibletoswooning. Theyarelurkingpantingthirsting foraspecicsoothingtune toinnitelytwerkto. That'sthedream. Justonespecicsoothingtune toinnitelybend &twerkto.

Tunein.

I am telling you. They arethirsting forthatspecictune theycaninnitely bend andtwerkto.

I’venoticedabehavioralpattern. Ikeeprevolving liketheringsofSaturn andI’mgettingnowherefast.

What’sthepointofcaring whentheworld’snotbuilttolast?

ohmygod...

Ijustmadesenseofmyfuture andmyruthlesspast... Idon’twanttoorbitanylonger. I’msureitisawaste.

What’sitcosttowager thestillness ofouterspace?

Iwakeup

Inthemiddleoffalling. You’rebreakingup whenI’mcalling. Yourvoiceisalwaysenough. Falling tonoend Igraspthecollapsingashes asIpicturemydreams andthetimeIliketospend

Falling Falling Falling deeper intothenight.

The amesofthere tickledthesensesbetweenthedensebers ofourinternaldesires asthedarknessshookthesurgingameslikeprey.

Deepconjuringstormsonthehorizon crackedlightningwhips intotheearth'ssurface asweturnedinahammock spectatingthehavocofaforeignpower. Darkgreythundercloudsswirleduntil agoldenorbitinglightsphere enteredtheatmosphereamongstthesmog pulsatingfromwhitetodierentshadesoforangeand yellow. Thestormandthesphere seemedtohavecorrelationintheirenergysurges asthespheremovedthroughoutthecloud-lledsky feedingupontheearth'sthunderstorm; chargingthebatterybylinkingupwiththelightning andparasiticallymakingawithdrawalfromthestorm. Itmovedsosmoothandintentionally. Itslitheredlikeasnake.

All Ieverwanted wassilence&darkmatter. Fillmyheartwithlove andjustradiateheat inacoldspace alone. Iwouldgladlyforfeittheheat forsilence. Redcheeks. Seetheobjective. Still.Unknown. Outstanding. Reective. AmIdreaming?

Iwanttosqueezeyou toconrmyouarereal andtoremindmyselfIcanfeel. Thevividmemory makesmyheartstartpounding. I'mtoofarout.Mayday. Asatellitealarmsounding.

Hey Justthink...

Whatmakesscreamingsoloud? It’sonly thereceptionofthesound. It’sthehearing,butyousee... I’mfarfarout. Muchtoofar foryoutohearmyshout. It’scoldandquiet. Iamherenow. Iamsoundasleep. Iamthesoundofsilence. We’realmostthere. Notmuchlonger. Ipromise tokeeptryingtoshare aslongasIhavereception. Ipromisetoneverbescared Because,well… Westillhaveaconnection.

TheUpperRoom

There’snothing outthere. It’sinside. Closeyoureyes. Tight. Youreyesaregluedshut. Lookup. Youaregoingthroughthedoor. Itshutsrightbehindyou. You are taking an elevator to the bottom oor.

Doorsopen.

There’saplasticwhitechair Inthemiddleoftheroom intheattic ofthebasement oftheworld. You takeaseat inthechair inthemiddle oftheemptyroom.

Aboveyou

Theresastring danglingfromthelight hangingotheceiling. You reachup andpullthestring

Justhardenoughtofeeltheclick asthelightbulbignitestheshadows Withwhitelightasfarasyoucansee.

Theooriscoatedinasea ofcreepycrawliesthatscatterinalldirections; scurryingfortheshadowedcornersoftheroom. Whenthelightbeams, theyalwayseefortheshadows ofthemindwheretheycaneventually beignoredonceagain andwhenthishappens ithitsyou.

YOUAREINTHEUPPERROOM. Thisisanepiphany. Lightning insidethebrain strikesignitinganecho ofbrainactivity. Nowit’ssafe. youcanletgo.

On occasion thedamphaze sneaksoutfrombehindmybrain andcloudsmywanderinggaze.

Icanneverguesshowlongitlasts, butit'salwaysatemporaryphase.

Sometimes

IthinkImaynevercomeout, asitstretchesfromhours tomultipledays andIcan'tbringmyself toclimbdown backtoearth; backto myhumanways.

Until wepulledthelatch andlettheliquidllourlungs, thechamberwasairtight. Wecouldwatchandtheorize, butnointeractionwaspossible. Weweresafefromtheforces thatpressedupagainst thethinlines; untilwewelcomedtheminside andthensuddenlyeverythingchanged.

Fromthenearpast webecameestranged.

EvolutioninltratedstrandsofDNA andadaptedasweincubatedincages enduringthestagesofourmutation untilourgillsfullyformulated andthenwewerereleased intotheshadowdeep ofourownimagination tomasterit’singeniousways andmimicthemdaily; mimictheimagination ofourdreams.

LiquidUranium. Thespacebetweenus. Thedistanceincreases. Thelesstimespent, themorepeace impeaches fragmentedpiecesamongst mysleep. ThemoreIseparate, themoreIacclimatetothatwhich hasinfusedintomystate. Clarity. Themirrorreectsit; Theintegratedorganicmagnet. Iamextractingthenexus. Thegeneticstrands Idon'tunderstandinmyface; strandedinspace. Theforeignrace thattraveledthroughmyveins, inltratedtheheart, movedthroughtheshadows, andstucktothegallowsinthedark soImaynotdetectit.

Itisgenetic. Iamattachedtothecenter. Origin. Nomoredeections. Bornagain. IsitdepletedUranium thatpulsatesthroughmyveins?

Aletheia: Thatwhichhas notbeenforgotten. Icanseeit; theunderlyingfate beneathmysupercialface. Iwillneverbethesame.

Iampureliquid; deletingthedepletedUranium. Thefutureiscoming. Iaimtoforeseeit. Nexus; HowIpulledthetrigger andbeguntobeit.

Takingactionthatwhich I'veneverforgotten. Itistheplasmainmyveins.

InthemirrorIcanseeit: Aletheia.

TheEnd ofBookI

ElixirI

RecurveBow

Mymemoryzapped forward orwasitback; Idon'tknow,but…

Iwassuperhighupintheseinsanelytalltrees… andIwashuntingbaboons withabow. Ihadonly attemptedacouplelongshots, butnonelanded;noneofthatIknow. IrememberdesiringtoincreasetherateofthatwhichIgrow; youknow,speeduptheshow,sotospeak. So,Istumbledthroughthefoliage amidsttheverticaloraandfauna. Itwassteamylikeasauna. Flyinginsectsexercisedtheirwattages. Andtherewerethese quitespacious AirBnB communitycottages. Yesyouheardme. IwastiredsoItriedtorentone, butthebrownhairedladysaidIcouldn'taord itandscoedatme;shewingmeotheporch. NaturallyIthought,"Howunfair" becauseItwasallpreconceivedjudgment;shedidn'tknowhowmuchmoneyIhad, butshewasright,allIhadforcurrencywasbananasandleather; Iwas,afterall,onababoonhunt. Itjustrolledothetongue, butIblurtedout“Gofuckherself”onaccident. Icouldn’thelpit, wordvomit.

SoIwentbacktohuntingbaboonsalone. Thesunslowlywentdown. Eventually itstartedtogetdark. Thecricketscameout. Ifeltsoathomegrippingthebark.

Thetemperaturedropped. Myeyesightgotworseandworse. Itcreptuponme,butsuddenlyIrealized myonlyallywasthestark envelopingmyhumanbody andIcouldn'thelpbutshiver asthebreezecreptupmyspine andIsqueezedmythinningquivernervously. IhadlessarrowsthanIhadrealized. Myheadwasintheclouds. Sometimesmyimaginationjusttakesorunning, Ichaseittryingtocatchupfrantically andIforgetwheremybodyisinspace;it'sstunning.

Ihadbeentrackinganoisypackforacouplehourswhen IrealizedInolongerrecognizedthevinesIswungfrom; adierentspeciesthanthevine accompanyingthepathIhadpavedinthepast; afewswingsbehindme,butgetthis: Atsomepoint,myjourneytransitioneddrastically withoutmeknowingit;

ItrulybelievedIwashuntingbaboons, buteventuallythetablesturned. That’swhenIrealizedthebaboonswerehuntingme...

TheymusthavesplitupwhenIlostsightofthem, andtheiracrobaticagilityallowedthemtodoacompletethreesixty topositionthemselvesbehindme.Theyclimbedwayupthenbackanddown intoposition.Theybecameaggressive. Theypoundedtheirchestsandwhoopedandholleredshowingtheirteeth. Theynarrowlycorneredmeonataughtvine grownfrombiggreentreetobiggreentree. IshotatthemnervouslyrealizingallthemistakesIhadmaderecently. Truly,Iknewitwouldbeovershortly.

IbecamefrightfuloffallingastheyaggressivelyshookthevineIstoodon. Thecacklingandhootinggrewlouderandlouder onceIhadonearrowleftinmyquiver.

AndIrememberhavingallofmyawarenessfocused onkeepingmybalancefortheimpendingdoom; fallingtomydeathwasquiteevident. Thensomethinghappened;Ijustquit;justlikethat.

Thebaboonsclosedinonme. Theygotlouderandlouderandstrippedmybowfromme.

ImadeupmymindthatI'dratherfallforever ratherthanletthemhavetheirwaywithme, soIletmybalancego

andthelastthingIsawwasthelookintheireyes; “No,pleasedon'tgo.”

Theglimmerofahint theywereonlypullingmyleg andifIwouldhavestoodstrong, Iwouldhavebecometheirmage; theonewhocouldshowthemhowtogrow. Itwastoolate.Ihadmadeupmymindintheblinkofaneye; Iwasn'twillingtoshowthemtheway.SoIwentwhereIknewIwouldbehappy.

Alone&Free. Backtomyeternalhome, backtothegivingtree. Iwokeupinthemiddleoffalling. Inmybed.Isobbeddeep;extravagantly.

Iremembersayingoutloud:“Ishouldhaveledthemtosee.” Isobbedmywaybacktosleep,butthetreeswereempty. Theylosttheirgripitseems; Ortheyjumped… Thebaboonsfollowedme. Monkeydo.Monkeysee. Ijumpedoutofmyhead; intothedeepcoverofmypolyestersheets andstaredattheceilingforhours.

Sometimesknowing makesyoutakeonestepforwardandtwostepsback. InternallythereisnothingIlack. It’stheenergybehindmeandtheparanoia ofbeingstabbedintheback thatkeepsmyheadonaswivel, butweareheadingintherightdirection.

Leaveyourthoughtsatthedoor eveniftheykeeprunning takeyourshoeso. Wejust installednewoors. Thisunitcomesfurnished; stainedredwood. Theheatcomesfromthefurnace.

Shadowedyetshiny.

Miraculousviews

ofwhitesandshoresareblinding andlendtothetallceilings thatkeepyourheadspacefervent.

Mindthegap.

Itis recycled, yetmodern. Theunitcomes equippedwithit'sown personaltaxidermist tokeepyourideasfreshlystued anddisplayedonthewalls soyoucanviewthemfrequently, whichisidealformanifesting.

Here'smycard.

Nowyouknowhowtoreachme. BeforeIgoanyfurther...

...Haveyoueverregrettedbreathing?

But Idon'tfeelold. I'mstilljustteething. Maybe88isthenew18. I'manalienspecies; Earnest, swimminginasea ofhumanfeces.

you'remakingmequeasy. Areyoumeaningto? Humansareeasy,butfeisty. They'resavorylikecumin. I'mBruceLeespicy. Newman. �� Youcan'ttrustme. I'minawholedierentleague; Youguysarebush.I'mivy.

Fromtheinside, Iteachlucidlessonsintense likeSpikeLee. Manymeanings leaveheadsspinning. Maybeit'stimetoinsertthei.v. Yousayyou'rewinning. Jynx! Iforgotmyglasses, Ican'tseetoowell, isthatyou CharlieSheen? OhToosoon? Canyouholddownyoursolids? You'relosingliquids. Protectyourwallet. Maybeit'stimetoliquidize beforeyouloseallofit.

Youarelagging. Ican'tstanditanymore.

Canyouupgradeyourbandwidth?

Evercatchyourselfsnoring?

It'shappeningfaster thanyouthink. Thegoodnewsis: itishappening. Neura-link. aha!

You'recaught! I'mwired.

SeeeveryoneIgot‘em!

Itwasmethewholetime!

Quityourjoboryou'rered. Thebestwaytodieisjustretire, butdon'tblinkoryou'llmissit.

Don'tgiveupontheplanetyet. Wecouldstillxit! Ohcomeon, Someofusaregifted. Ifyou'rereligious, startprayingtoElon. He'sthemostpowerfulpeon ineons. Foroncestepback; stepoutofyourhead. Sinceyou'rehere, Wouldyoumakesure mysharefed? Comeonin. Nobody'shome. NoNoNo, yousee... Nobody isthenameofmydrone. Hecanhearyou. Don'tberude; Sayhello.

Mirage

It'sonlyrealifyoucanfeelit. Canyoupinchme? AmItherealest? OrmaybeI'mdead... Myveinsemptied thenrelledwithled andI'm

tothebottomofthesea soslow. Letthethinkinggo. Sinking

Iwokeupwithasteelanchor inmybed. Underwaterblinking. Staringintothedarkblue shadow ofmyheart. Ihadbarnaclesonmyfeet; crustaceansinmyears, seaweedinmyteeth, sandinmyhair.

Sheusedhergillstollmewithair Justtokeepmethereamomentlonger. Togetherweareoil&water herlovepaintedourshareddreams leakingthroughtheocean likesmoke fromasnowlacedcottage inthemountains upawayfromme driftingtooxygen.

She swamincircles aroundme. Occasionally shewouldstop andpressherear tomychest andlistenedtomyheartbeat throughmylifevest.

Ididn’twanttoleave. Iwasinlovefromthestart.

Itwasme whocouldn’tbreathe andfellasleep inherarms. Awakening totheseadraining downmycheeks soslow. Sobbingheavy; Shesaid “Pleaseno,don’tgo.”

Cometothesurface. Water. Beach. There’snothingmore. Crash. Deep. Splash. It’scold. Wavespulsemethodically. Thewindpinsmyspeechtomyteeth. Youkeepdriftingouttosea fartherandfartherawayfromme. Yourhandtohold. Yourface.Yoursoul. Yourspeech. I’mdownstream. Insomnia. Twosheetstothewind orthewindtotwosheets… Neverawakeandneverasleep.

Neverending. Lifebetweenthescenes. Liquidbetweenmygenes. Fogbetweenthetrees. Lovebetweenthesheets.

Iam betweeneverything. I’mjust a ghost.

Lord oftheRinging

Canyouseeme?

Notmyspacesuit, butmyinnersoulbeaming? Canyousearch thedepthsofcorneas withonlinestreaming? Yourtractorgaze leavesmyeyesglazed gleaming.

Unconscioustruthfulhaze.

Brushregreens keepmysexdriveself-esteeming. Hypnotizedheartpatterns urgemetoseekoutteeming. Sterilizethepastbest withcloroxbleachcleaning. Dirt-freeanddamp she'sinneed ofclotheslinestringing. Iliveherenowwhileyoubuild forfuturestructureleaning.

Whatgoesupmustcomedown. Topoorsecho withinnocentvictimsscreaming. Toolateforchange. Beforethisbeginslet'send topreventstageveclinging. Peoplearestrange.

Subconsciousreceptorsidentify myresonatingmeaning.

Noneedforice,unlikethugs, Ihavecrystal-shine eyesightblinging. Yourheartisabell andI'mLordoftheRinging. Blackcrowsandblue-jayssinging providemotivesforrebel endyardgnomesscheming infrontyardsbehindlies ofroyalone-eyedjackspeeking. Imissmymistress.

It'squiteanemptyfeeling.

Ifyouwantedto, youcouldknow thedepthsoftheow Iresiduallytapinto. It’sopentoeveryone. Myfaceconcealstheshow. It'sfallingbehindmyeyes. Eternallysearching fortheslipperyslide landinginlucrativespaces like"Liquid"inLasVegas waterinavase andsimulatingfacelifts underthecoverofporcelainmasks IamaSpanishslasherlikeVega. I'veneverbeentoSpain, YetIamtheSonic andthisplaceisSEGA soIentertain.

Iamaplug-intothebrain ofanAmericanOmega. I'mtoofargone. Justletmeloose. Ilivetotellstories.

IamtheWhollyMotherGoose. Whiletheirtheoriesareporous;

Ibeganspeakingintongues inthemiddleofpeacefullysnoring. Ifit'sarace, thenIamthetortoise.

Ummm...

Mylegsjustwentnumb, wouldyouplease justtellme wheretheooris?

Theendofallthegold; Ifelttheglowingmeaning oftunnelvisionlight. Liquidmoltengoalsare distantembercoals inthenight; There'sgalaxiesinmyeyes; Thechaosisalwaysschemingnearby. Attemptingdeeperleaking; creeping,butInolongermind. Luckyforme, someoneisstandingby: asilentprotectivespy. Darkbeings seektheholesinmybeing; methodicallymonitoringmymind. Steeltrap. It'sseeping.

WhenIgothere, canIhandlethecold? Myhomeisaloneinthenight.

CanIhandlewhatI'llnd?

It'sherethatrecently akeenbeingreachedintomysleep whileIwasluciddreaming. Hetuggedonmywristgently realigningmymeaning. Deliberate. Teemingwithwhitelight. NowIgetit.

It'sseekingtoreunite. I'mready.I'mreadytoght. Handinhand;tethered. I'mwillingtoworktogether. Iwillbeginadialogue. Wewillbegintonight. WhenIgetclose, I'llremember tofocusonmybreathing. Staytunedforexistentialstreaming.

Iamstandingout inspace. Outstanding. Outofbody. Iamhavingaconversation withthereectionofmyface otheglassfromtheovercast ofthemoonshadow onmyfacemask with

N O T H I N G left aroundme asIoat indenitely choking on innity.

Iamhappy. It’samiracle Iaminthisbody. Outofalltime now is pristine.

TrueSilence is Resounding. Toning, exingfocus, honingintoshowus thespaceweneed between the smallest things thatincreaseourrateofbreathing; andoxygenateeternalknowing thathasalwaysrun throughtheinniterivers ofourancient family’s blood stream. To shrinktheego Anddissolvethedoubt thatglowsbehindoureyes. BehindYours. BehindMine. To proveweknow; wegureditout, justreadbetweenthelines.

To seetheforestthroughthetrees. Be NOTHING inplainsight. Ithasbeen right beneathyournose thewholetime.

Bethespace enveloping therealityyouchoose toresideinandtheninstantly everythingfallsintoplace andyouarealigned fortheveryrsttime. And Youarehappy. It’samiracle Youareinthisbody. Outofalltime now is pristine.

Mylifeis theghostofmydreams.

Sometimesthesignalscross, thoughitseems, andIamlookingdownatmyself. Idon’tlosethefrequency, I'mjuststaring throughthebookshelf whenmyownvoice shattersmybody andthreeofmyngersfallasleep whenIcan’tescapemyhobbies. WhenIfallasleepIevolve. Mylifeistheghostofmydreams. Sometimesthesignalscross thoughitseems, andIamlookingdownatmyself. Ididn’tlosethefrequency, I'mjuststaringthroughthebookshelf whenmyownvoice shattersmybody andthreeofmyngers fallasleepwhen Ican’tescapemyhobbies.

Aashoffearcanbeseen onthesurface;crystalclear. Inbetweenthefeelings Ioncefacedinthemirror. It’sthewavinggleam ofmypurpose, andIcan’tdecodeit’smeaning, Juststaticonthetvscreen, Itashesthrougheverything

EMP toIdentifytheshining Mylifeis theghostofmydreams. Sometimesthesignalscross thoughitseems, andIamlookingdownatmyself. Ididn’tlosethefrequency, I'mjuststaringthroughthebookshelf whenmyownvoice shattersmybody andthreeofmyngersfallasleepwhenIcan’tescapemy hobbies.

Ashscaleglimmerentersmyeyes astheshimmeringprismoflightconvertsbrainwaves fromburntorangeemberstorainbowbrightpureallure amidstthemistinthemiddleoftheforestnight. Shivers. Mylifeis theghostofmydreams. Sometimes thesignalscross, thoughitseems, andIamlookingdownatmyself.

Ididn’tlosethefrequency, I'mjuststaring throughthebookshelf whenmyownvoice shattersmybody andthreeofmyngers fallasleep when Ican’tescape my hobbies.

PyroTing

Thererises. You'dbewisetoprotectyourmomentum, restrictthewindandextractthevenom beneathdisguises. Comeclean. Admitit. Bruisedisyourego. Weknowtheroots ofthehumancoup. Weknow.

Placingthemoonindirectlineofview ofthelightemitted; Eclipses. It'snotacircle; yousee… It’sanellipsis.

Theseedgrows inthemindofthefew braveenough toourishandconjureit.

Floraandfaunais dominantfornow. Sittinginthesauna issomewhatpositive. Butit'sinevitable. It'smagnetic; Positiveattractsnegative. Lifeisbasicphysics; sosimplyrepetitive. Thelightwillclaimallofit. Thespiralvortex willbethefallofit. Quake. Wearejustinthewake ofepicpowersatstake. Bow. Youarestillbreathing, atleastfornow. Butthere... Youfeelit? Itrises.

Sword

Headed straight intothedarkness. There’snothingtodo, but Bluntmysharpness.

Dao. Whoknowsjust howsharpmyswordis. Nothingcanstopit. Ihavesomethingtoshowyou; pullingoutskeletons inmypocket. Voodoo. Dao. Dropit.

Iam imbedded inthedarkness. Nooneknowsjust howswordmysharpis. Nothingcanstopit. Dao. IamtheShogun.

ATelekineticblowgun withlaserfocus. Dao. IamtheShogun.

Telekineticblowgun withlaserfocus. Onandon, Iwillremainmolten; indarkness. Dao.

Liquidheat. Noonewilleverknowjust howsharpmyswordis. Mybladeisdragon. Nothingcanstopit. Dao. Unsheathit. I’mfree. Dao. IamtheShogun. Mymind’stheblowgun. Mynatureisthebladeof adragon’spointofview. Dao. Bluntyoursharpness.

Conundrum

Thereissomething else beneathmyskin. Thefriction melts icicleswithin.

Somethingisgrowing…

No...Someone!

Mybrainisadeadconundrum. I'mbecomingtheshadowedone. I'mblowingupandimploding.

Isitlikethisforeveryone?

Someone is growing.

Somesay

Ichanged toadierentplane wherehumanfrequencies don’tmesh. Istartedprocessing chlorophyll throughmysprouting esh. Istartedspeaking throughthestones inducingher ingest.

Iamamansotheysay... orsothestorygoes, myemptybodywitheredaway frommyheaddowntomytoes.

Italldecayeddespite thethoroughegyptianmold thatwasmeanttosaveaplace forthereturningofmysoul.

Legendstold ofaPharaoh’squest infusedwithliquidgold andapyramid iswhattrappedherheart insidemychest andallthatremainedwasobsidian. Shebecame theobsidianseawithinme; beneathmytatteredskin; liketheinkshetoodrained, ignitingvibrationswithin. It’scoursingthroughmyveins.

Thosewhochoosetoswim areimpervioustodeath andreverttountaintedvirgins; theyreverttobaby'sbreath.

Everynight Iswimandyes, beforeIchose,Iknewtheprice. Nomorehumanparades. Nomorethrowingrice. Nomoreplayingcharades. Nomorepooradvice. Noweverynight, Iswimintheseaofobsidian.

Idive50feetdeep thentreadintooblivion.

NowIliveinthedepthsofthedeep. ObsidianiswhatIbreathe. It’sthefountain fromwhichIdrink. Iuseittobrushmyteeth. IcoatmythroatbeforeIspeak andI’ddoitover andoverandoveragain ‘causethisiswhereIpique. ThisiswhatIlivein. I’minbetweentheglowofgold andthedarkvapor obsidian.

alignmewithmydestiny, DearSun. Thereisonlyone; Therestareallimposters. Tofulllmylegacy, myson, IswhyIcametoearth.

Eversincemybirth

I’vebeenworking towardsthismoment. Movingforward I’llhoneinon howtobestcondoneit.

Alignyouwithyourdestiny, DearSun. Thereisonlyone; onegod, onefather. Therestareallimposters. Tofulllyourlegacy, myson, iswhyyoucametoearth.

Eversinceyourbirth you’vebeenworkingtowardsthis moment. Movingforward you’llhoneinon howtobestcondoneit.

Alignuswithourdestiny, DearSun. Thereisonlyone; Therestareallimposters. Tofulllourlegacy, Aten, Iswhywecametoearth.

Eversinceourbirths we’vebeenworking towardsthismoment. Movingforward wehoneinon howtobestcondoneit.

TheEnd ofBookII

ElixirII

TheGuide

Ibrokethrough anewlevel

Imetaspiritguide . . . .

Atrstitwassunny. Notacloudinthesky. Itwas75Fahrenheit. Thenwewerehitbyacrazystorm. Likeanamberalert, Everyone’scellphonestartedmurmuring withanextremeweatherwarningsiren inthemiddleofa75degreecloudlessbluesky.

Ourtechnologyforewarnedus soweknewitwouldbeontopofusfast. Wehidundertheseoldshittyredwoodenbleachers becausewewerecaughtoguard. Wehadnothingelse. Theweatherreportread: “largeiceballsstrikingwithgreatforce…” Hail. Weembracedwhatwasabouttohappen. Eventhoughwehadthebleachersbetweenus, manyofuswerestillstruckbyfallingice;someintheface. Iwasoneofthem. Ithurtsobad.Iwasconcussed.Icanrecallthethrobbing; Thepressurefromtheswollentissuearoundmynoseandjaw. Myfacewasbruised.Irememberthinking"Whydidthishappentome?"Mynosewas broken,butworsemyheartwasshattered.AmanemergedfromallthatIhadwritten oastoofargone.Fromtherubble,acaucasianmandressedinmaroonandyellow foundme.Abitover6feet,hehadshortverystraightdirtyblondehairandwasin whatonemaycall"ninja"shape. Hewasaguide;onewhopronouncedhiswisdomnonverbally. HewasaJediofsorts.

Thiswarriorfoundme

andthestrangestthoughtcametome; Iknewhim. Hewasanoldclosefriend. Hehadadistinctqualityofpeace underhisskinIhaven'tseeninthislifetime. Ihadforgotten.

Heputonengerprintofwetburntyellowpaint onmylefttempleandamaroonone inbetweenmyeyes. Therewasincenseburningaroundme. HesangmeamelodyandthenIsangitbacktohim. Facingme, hegrabbedmyshoulders rmlyandacutelyonbothsides. Hepeeredsofarintomyeyes. Whenhisgazereachedthecoreofmybatteredsoul, Hebegantosingadistinctmelody.

Mahmuhsuhdayeeeeee Nuhdahahah

Mahmuhsuhdayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Nuhdahahhahhhhhhhhh "Nowyoutry." hesaid,clear,calmandprecise. Irepeatedittohim withincrediblesatisfaction ofmyowntonalityandability tohitthecorrectnotes.

Imirroredhisreverberation andwhenthelastsyllableleftmylips myinsideswerelledwithwhitevapor. Itwassolucid.

I'veneverhadsuchacalmfeelingovercomemysenses. Purelove. Itreorganizedmeinternally. Istillfeeldierent.

AGAPE

The universecannever getridofme. Iamtherecycledenergy oflegendsofold. Iamthestory that'stold overandoveragain. Youcannevergetridofme. Idon'tlikeitanymorethanyoudo.

Asabove,sobelow. Ancientvoodoo supportsthestars; the12thplanet orbitingMars. Thereisalotofworktodo. Wewillnever stop evolving.

Whenwewereyoung, newwavescamethroughson, wavesyou’regrateful youneverknew. Theywerefasterthantherest, sharperthanthebest, anddetermined toshapeourviewofyou.

Thatdrearyday thespadescamethrough becamethechange thatunchainedourview ofhowthesystemusesyou.

Today weseethispointofview becauseoneday newwavescamethrough tounchainourviewofthechanges wecouldchoosetomakeeveryday, tostraightenourswayingways untilwereachourhighestplaceinspace togazeattheproofwemade, tohowlatthemoon inspades.

Whenwewereyoung, newwavescamethroughson, wavesyourgrateful youneverknew. Theywereheavierthantherest, sharperthanthebest, anddeterminedto shapeourviewofyou.

Thatdrearyday thespadescamethrough becamethechange thatunchainedourview ofhowthesystemusesyou.

Today

weseethispointofview becauseoneday newwavescamethrough tounchainourviewofthechanges wecouldchoosetomakeeveryday, tostraightenourswayingways untilwereachourhighestplaceinspace togazeattheproofwemade, tohowlatthemoon inspades.

TheSheep’sCount

Ican'tseem todrinkenoughwater. Ipantsteam intheheatofthesolder. Ican'tseem tokeepanythingdown.

Liquidgoesin,thenleaksout. Ohmygod I'moozing.

I'mreectingon ThechoicesI’mchoosing. Mybody'shere, ButI'vepeacedout. Bewareofdog. Simplykeepout. Awe. Whatgood isaphonecall, Ifyoudon't haveamouth?

AmIcountingsheep

oramIthesheep'scount?

Someday thecloudswillsubside andi'llregainpigment.

Oneday realitywilloverride andI’lldetaingments thatrunamuckinmybrain andIwillthenberegular.

Iknowwhattodo. I'llfeedyousuperfood

tochangetheinsideofyourspacesuit. I'llbegintoraiseyou andinnitelycaressandembraceyou untilyougettheloveyouneed.

Toplant inanothertheseed thatIemphaticallygaveyou. It'sallaboutthetrees. See, whatdoesn'texistinspace isthesoftembraceofthebreeze; nothingtophaseortakeyou tosomeunintentionalplace.

Oursecretis althoughourfacecommunicates anironthirstforcreed fromresonanceofbloodwetaste tothelovewegladlybleed, Weareinfactthepreytoo. SoItisaboutthetrees.

Remember, Whatdoesn'texistinspace isthesoftembraceofthebreeze, nothingtophaseortakeyou tosomeunintentionalplace. Fromnowon Iwillgiveyoutheloveyouneed. Ineverknewotherscouldnotphaseyou Quite likeyou'vephasedme. Thankyou. Iam thepinnacle ofthefoodchain.

Justenoughtopraiseyou; totapintoethericplanes, pivotyourface, andinnitelyshapeyou. Levitatingslowly Awayfromouterspace. veryslowwithmyhandsout, withnothinglefttowaste.

MostsayIperished fromtheelixirIwasgiven. Itwastoodeeptostand. Immersed. Thesuperjuicegotmelost intheunderwaterjungle ofmysoul astheseaweedtentacles rockedmewiththewaves ofthegreenwatersofthelagoon. Isurrendered.

Ibecamethemancubbeneath theleavesthatshade hereverybreathasshecradledme likeanewbornbabyandIrememberedherlove encouragingmeasaseed, breathingonmyembersinmynewborncrib kickingmylegsandlaughing, bicyclekicksforhoursonend, reachingbeyondthedanglingtoys toreceivehergoldenlight inmyfuzzyredonesie.

Shehasalwaysdrivenmycuriosity. Shewasalwaysrightaboveme. Shewillalwaysbeabove andjusttotheright insideourminds andrightbelowourfeet. Shellsmyheartwithbelief thatairisworthbreathing.

Shemakesmeblushrst thenburst withoverowingbeauty andappreciationforlife andthoseinit; andforher andtheloveshegivesme unconditionally. Loveyourmother.

6 tests,allies,&enemies

Moonmilk

Peelingstarts

likesun-burnedskinsparks

sharpfeelings startpeeling onplasticlimelight, hidingfromblindlight. Screamsilent. Farfromviolent like ashingambulancesirens &falsedaylight. Youtyrant.

Feelinghearts

liketoastedpoptarts inmorningsunshine; meltedjelly. Let'sdostartnew becausewedeserveto.

I'mslowlylosing it slipsfrommyngertips slow nothingtoknow asIwatchitslip frommyviewofyou. Slow fadingtogrey farawayfromme

incoloredTVwetouchngertips

electricity runsthroughus butescapes throughourleaks asimperfectlightbeings thenwereturn toblackandwhiteTV. Falsedaylight.

Feelingheartsliketoastedpoptarts inmorningsunshine; meltedjelly.

Let'sdostartnew becausewedeserveto.

Iwouldprefertoevaporate.

Icandoitbetterbymyself masterbait attractstrophywives andmassivewavesforsurng, monstersoflagoonsarelurking undertheshadowsofsurfacereections I'vetestedpositiveforinsanity. Youcanlaughatme tocushionit

crushingaluminumcans likevanity.

It'stimeforeverlastingsleep. Stopchasing falsedaylight. Goodnight. Feelinghearts liketoastedpoptarts inmorningsunshine; meltedjelly.

Let'sdostartnew becausewedeserveto.

Wherethetrailtakesus wedon’tknowuntil webecomeonewithethericdust intheshadowofthehollows andcontinuetothetruth wewereblindlymeanttofollow. Unkinkthehose. Wearealljustpassingthrough. Thepressure makesithardtoswallow. Unthinktheproseamidstthemist; Thesoothingmysticether.

Darkmatterisamaster hoodedkeeper.

Feelgratefulforthoseyou'vekissed forethetatteredmeaning liesbeneath, disguised deeper.

Canyouseeit?

Readbetweenthebleachers. Lookforwaystoshinethrough inthestaticoftheirspeakers, orthecloud-shapedcreatures aboveourheads, thetwinklebehindtheireyes andthesparklesaboveourbeds. Letthesignsdirectyou tothosewhostillneedyou.

Ifyoustayopen, youcanstillseethem; thegoldenstrands disguisedinplainsight thatweneverbanish. Theuniverseisapreacher. Broadenyourbandwidth. Passingisadimensionalshift; Justasteponthepath oftheinniteethericteacher. Deathis aprofoundtransitionalfeature.

Lifeisdeceptivelyfast. Nooneyethasfound thefountainthatmakesitlast. Makeitcount. Travelwiseandswiftgoodsir. Settlein, foretheroadislongahead; andlitteredwithmeteorshowers.

Keepthewindatyourback. Flowonward. Beholdthepower. Neverstopyourfeet; alwaysmoveforward. Always remember thescentofowers andleanonyourbreathing. Iamstillhere. Youknowhowtoreachme.

Youtaughtmetoneverstopteaching. AuRevoir.

GardeneroftheRealm

Evolvingintothesun orseizingtogrow. SleepingMarsrevolvesaroundme. What’sinsidethemoon? Doesanyoneknow?

Nyquilstar-gazingmakesmedrowsy.

Weneedtoow.Wellnotallofus.

I’mholdingthereins,buthesteershimself.I’mdrifting.

Floatthroughadarkverselikesingle-cellearth, Soulsearchingthesurfacenight.Sifting.

DoesEarthsecondguessherpast?

She’smostbeautifulfromthisheight. Wouldshedoitalldierentlylookingback?

Onecouldsayshemight. Herloveis asmallforestnaturallyhousingpyramidpower.

I’mamadoristexperimentingonwildowersina spearmintfortress.

Farawayyoucaughtme spectatingmeteorshowerswitheyesup andaVenusFlyTrap.

IPiggy-backBoris, myonlytangiblefriendbesidesmypurplenightcap.

He’saGalapagosTortoise.

Helovesthenightwalks.

Herbivorebuets

fulloffeedingcusandwateringteatrees. Withinyourgardenradially, I’vebecomeinvisiblysneaky. Itmustbepeaceful toknowyourmeaning. Insteadofailingaround andchaoticallyteething. Clearthesmokebeforeyouchoke. It’lldriveyoucrazy. You’retooclose. Nexttime, Ihaveonerequest: A One-Track-Mind seeksanOrbit-Quest. Inspacepleaseplaceme? Itrytokeepup, butI’mbroke. DocsaysIcaughtpocketwatchsyndrome.

Yousee? IneedtheTHCsmoke tomedicateme. Canyouhearthetick-tock?

Thisplacehasbeguntophaseme likeMarvin’slaserglock.

Theworld’savase andI’mthewater, butIdon’twishittoshapeme. Lukewarm, Iamyourfather. BlackVader maskandcapeme. Suckthepowerfrommyveins. Ihaveenoughtofeedyou andmaintain. Takeadvantage. Tasteme.

Myheads progressedtohazyplaces onceingested throughporcelainfaces. It’scrazytodigest. Myeshwillmanifestlife.

Someday

I’llbepushin’daisies, althoughrightnowit’sonlynight, whenthesuncomesup, evolution willreplaceme.

WeKnow

I know enough toknowjust howlittleIknow. Trustme Iknowenough. Iknow. Gohome. Wearedivinebeingsaligning. Letgo. Weknow theywilllettheirego saythings, butthatdoesn’tchange what weknow. Weknewfarbeforethisshow.

Youknowenough toknowjust howlittleyouknow. Trustme, youknowenough. Youknow. Sogoahead. Youcansaythings, butthetruthremains. Youknow.

Youknewfarbeforethisshow andwewillneverstopevolving. Weknowenough toknowjust howlittleweknow. Trustmeweknowenough. Weknow.

Weknow theotheranimals won'tstopus. Theywill just watchus killit andgodown withtheship like MobyDick. TheCaptainneverabandons. Heisgloballynoble.

Amongstallthetearsandquiveringlips… Heremainseternallyhopeful.

Here ismytranslucent rose-goldheart studdedwithrenedrubies, outlinedinliquidplatinum, slowlyturningthreesixtydegrees andbeating, antiquedwithplanets fromthegalleryofthegalaxy; Sirius.Nibiru.Pleiades. Ireachintomyribcage, pullitoutofmychest andholditoutinfrontofyou, asitcontinues rotatingthreesixtydegreesandbeating antiquedwithplanets fromthegalleryofourgalaxy. Sirius.Nibiru.Pleiades.

Here ismytranslucent rose-goldheart studded withrenedrubies, outlined inliquidplatinum, slowlyturning threesixtydegrees andbeating, antiquedwithplanets fromthegalleryofthegalaxy; Sirius. Nibiru. Pleiades.

Iwantnothing, buttobenearyou; toshareenergyandstareatyou, tosharepoetryandpassnotes, layaroundandmakejokes untilthesuncomesup.

Iwannagetlost betweenthesheets

andkeepyoutherewithme, keepyouupjusttostareatme, justuntilthesuncomesup.

Just sharepoetry; passnotes,layaround, makejokes, justuntilthesuncomesup. Iwantnothing, buttobenearyou. Justshareenergy andstareatyou hoping thesun nevercomes forus.

TheEnd ofBookIII AGAPE

ElixirIII

Ihaven’tbeencommunicatingwith my SELF. Bufo broughtmytwo Selves together Higherselfiserce. Hecutsthroughthenoise bywieldingthevastemptiness; |ENTERTHEDAO| Stillness. Silence TheWay. Zen.

HigherSelfisAncient Natureisthatofagalacticsamurai.

Iambeyondpowerful Harnessthepower or Letitkillyou andothers.

AspowerfulanddirectashigherSelfis, SmallSelfis complainingsomuch thatHigherSelfenteredintoourconsciousness toprovideirondirection; SteelForgingStructure; andlaiddowntheonlyprinciplethatdissolvesallofthesemindleakssimultaneously:

Iwasonlyabletoidentifyrst andthenbecomeN O T H I N Gbyusingsound tomatchmyfrequencyto…

SoIsaid“NOTHING!”sharpandconcise. Irepeateditlouder witheachconsistentpassingoftime untilscreaming “NOTHING!” Rhythmicandpunctuated. SteadyIexed;pushingtogethermyhands inthemiddleofmychest. Myfocustuned; itzoomedincloser;betweenthespace inthethingsofmatter. Isaiditsharper. “NOTHING!” Theworldbegantobendaroundme Istartedtobelieve. OnceIcommitted towhatNOTHINGisonavibrationallevel, IbegantotrulybeNOTHINGtruly forthersttimeandthechaosensuing allaroundmebeganmeltingintotheether; sheddingoofmybeinglikehotdrippingwax; wateronthewindshield attheendofacarwashinthefaceofheat evaporatinginslowmotion; A galactic G O N G vibrationshatteredallthatIclungto; Fleshturnedtoglassthenglasstoashes. The G O N G shatteredporcelainbaggage

AndinstantlyIwaslighterthannitrogen; TheG O N Grungagain andthenmyskeletonsshattered. InstantlyIwasfreedfromalifeofchains

Bufoletmeletgo.

Bufoforcedmetondthewaybycreatingasimulationofdeath.

DeathsimulationfoolsHigherSelf intoreconveningwithSmallerSelf. Hecomesdown fromsourcethroughtunnel likelightning andconfrontssmallself headon Itisatimeoutmid-game tocohesivelygetthesetwo backonthesamepage Witnessthemiracle; thedivinealignmentofthetwopolesofthesoul.

TheloudestdierenceinexperiencingBufoasopposedtoAyahuascawastheresounding knowingthatenergyenteringmewasaversionofself;aversionofme InAyayoufeelasifLa Madrevisitsandspeakswithyou

ItisalsoentirelypossiblethatIhavedrasticallychangedsincemylastAyaceremony. 10monthssoberhasacceleratedmygrowth10fold Itwasmethewholetime. IntriguingisthethoughtofexperiencingAyaagainfromthisperception. AndeventuallyexperiencingBufoagain.

HowlongdoesonewaitbetweenBufosessions? Goodquestion. Don’tworryI’llwait.

Bufo morethananyothersubstance I’veeverexperienced wasafullandcompleteoptimallysound anddialed

HERO’SJOURNEY

Themostpowerfulofmymemories fromtheBufoexperience arebecauseofthesoundvibrations.

Almostasifmymemory wasabletorecallmore becauseofthesoundheardandremembered It’skindoflikethesoundwasthechiselusedtoetchtherecordingofthememoryintomy head. Idon’tknow ifthismakessense toothers, butmyownvoice.

Thesoundsthatcameoutofmehavechangedmeforever Mysoundcreatedananchorinmyexperiencethatprovidedclarityaroundmy memoryrecordofwhathappenedwhileIwasspeakinginsidebufo. Thetoneanddepthoftheexpressionsandinectionsinmyvoice conrmthatwhatIwasexperiencingwas thesolutiontothequestion “WhyamIhere?”

AlthoughIcan’trecalleyevision, thememoryofmysound paintsapictureofrst eternalrealization andthebathingineternalknowing.

Thereis no end Thereis only NOTHING Iamonlynothing. IamNothing.

AlthoughIdon’trecalleyevision, I’venoticed that Ihavememories ofadimensionIexperienced withinthebufotrip Thataresharper thanthebestHDtechnology. Thisworldispiercinglyclear; soclearIbelievemyeyesighthasimproved AndthenIrealizedthiswassomethingelse. Itwas3Din4K,butnocolor, onlyblackandwhite. Feelingsarefrequencies

Soundsarefrequencies. Botharevibrations.

Areyoureadytogothroughthedoor?

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