Eunoia Issue 4 by La Estrella Verde

Eunoia

THE OFFICIAL FEATURES MAGAZINE OF LA ESTRELLA VERDE

as the silenced voice echoes

THE CONSCIOUSNESS ISSUE 4 A.Y. 2021-2022

EUNOIA: THE FOUR SUITS FINALIST: BEST STUDENT ORGAN HIGH SCHOOL CATEGORY

ABOUT THE COVER The gloom is a symbol of the restraining quandaries that she conquered. Within the darkness, she attains iridescence.

Eunoia THE OFFICIAL FEATURES MAGAZINE OF LA ESTRELLA VERDE

ISSUE 4 | THE CONSCIOUSNESS A.Y. 2021-2022

TABLE OF CONTENTS CONSCIOUS When the luminescence radiates its prowess

Mahal kita, at iba pa:

Before the timer reaches zero

Peeking through a woman’s lens

Hitting the play button

Recharging Sweets:

Mga anyo ng pagsinta

A drained student’s menu

Layers of a Pinterest-ready ensemble

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Hushed casualties of conflict

Mga bida sa pagitan ng mga tagpo

Treading the line of endeavors

Paglalaro sa tabla ng katauhan

As the silenced voice echoes

UNCONSCIOUS Exuberant conclusion of a dismal sprout

Into the depths of Philippine cinema

The child behind the prodigy’s shadow

Mga oda sa bawat yugto ng buwan

The Seoul of Stars

An offspring of yesterday’s heartbreak

Beyond the stage of merriment

FOREWORD

n this day of age where digital media has been placed at the forefront, aesthetic visuals have become one of the key considerations people examine when consuming this kind of content. For instance, magazines have noticeably shifted their focus on being the “eye candy”, seemingly forgetting their original purpose—to inform and educate. However, here in La Estrella Verde (LEV), we emphasize the way we produce our work by ensuring that we serve the student body of DLSU-D with factual and reliable information. Even with all the setbacks, we continue to press on and adapt to provide quality and entertaining content that engages with the community’s interest. Over the years, the expertise and knowledge that has been passed on to the members of LEV have manifested in the quality of their craft. And as we continue to remain true to our responsibility of upholding the truth and being the heralds of change, we proudly introduce to you the fourth issue of LEV’s award-winning features magazine—Eunoia. For this year’s installment, join us as we explore the depths of the three levels of human consciousness, likened to an iceberg where conflicting psychological forces operate in its three distinct layers. Albeit abstract, this concept underscores the vital role of awareness and how it seeps into our personality and behavior. From the rationality of our consciousness, the latent state of our preconsciousness, and the reservoir of our desires in our unconsciousness: learn how to embrace these layers as part of our one, true self.

Franchez Cassandra Escander Editor in Chief

EDITOR’S NOTE

yriads adhere to the beliefs that one’s eyes and minds can comprehend, without navigating the underlying depths that a particular concept entails. With this, exquisite wonders remain unseen, and distorted musings still meander in the lightless void. And we, La Estrella Verde, decided to embark on this journey and alter these circumstances, hence, Eunoia: The Consciousness was created. As journalists, it is within our aim to craft a magazine that not only bequeaths the events that transpire on the surface but also accentuates them. We write to understand the middle, the average, and the stagnant. We write to unravel the concealed stories that are meant to be heard. Dwell in the espials nestling beneath the currents of the levels of consciousness for this year’s issue, and witness the realities ingrained within the conscious, the discoveries hidden between the spaces in the preconscious, and the misshapen impressions waiting to be revealed in the pages of the unconscious. An epiphany enlivened by words, the journey of making this magazine was marked with insurmountable arduousness; and with that, a few statements of gratitude must be pronounced. To the creatives who brought wondrous embellishment beyond expectations; to all the editors who were keen to produce a quintessential issue; I am thankful to all of you. Lastly, to the writers who tailored the stories with splendid words, saying that I am proud of you is an understatement. Conundrums emblazoned with different hues along the way have arisen, but still, your fervent hearts prevailed, and with that, I will always be grateful. Eunoia: a word that means beautiful thinking. A word with each of its letters standing to represent the wonders our very mind holds; marvels that lie even in the innermost recesses of one’s thoughts. And this is what Eunoia encompasses.

Ma. Ladeevie Tamonan Features Editor

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When the luminescence radiates its prowess Words by Francine Angela Dela Fuente Photos by Elisha Jezreel Ang

As the sky finally opens, the peeking hour of sunlight transpires. For some, it’s hard to flip the page of the beginning when they cannot seem to escape the rain of agony. Yet for one, the sunlight is but a beam of hope—the kind of hope that reaches the abyss of catastrophe while reaping the people’s smiles. Even with the sheen of light, one can create refinement out of a moonless mishap and give the warmth of enthusiasm in the rays of finding a purpose.

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MILLIONS OF PEOPLE continue to search the trodden way of possibilities in all possibles, some seek opportunities while others are waiting for the perfect time. However, for Ma. Angelina Editha “Maya’’ Golla (STM26), the unforeseen has knocked on her door unknowingly will turn her life vividly from one epiphany to another. As her journey in volunteering starts, a desire to blossom herself also begins.

As the dawn lights upon

At a young age, contrary to what Maya does now as a volunteer, she revealed that she grew up as spoiled, “Lagi ako napapagalitan ng parents ko noon kasi sobrang out of touch ko sa mga pangyayari to the point na [pinipilosopo] ko sila,” she said while chuckling. Eventually, because of her being privileged and continuously spoiled can be the last straw, which twists her faith coupled with her life as her father compels her to join medical missions with her mom. But because of Maya’s notion before, it made her believe that helping is an obligation. Needless to say, the purpose is far long way in her hands, “Lagi ako naiinis nung time na iyon kasi gigising nang maaga tapos buong hapon kayo then 'yung ginagawa ko doon ay assistant (ng) mommy ko.”

Little by little, through the peek of the cloud, the cast of mind that has been ingrained in humanity becomes the eye-opener, and the discovery that has been unfolded thus become the spark of fuel leading towards serving the community. “Habang tumatagal, doon ko na-realize na I’m really blessed kasi may mga bagay na mayroon ako na wala ‘yung iba and doon na-exposed ako sa reality,” she stated. Like most people, there is often an inclination that serving is similar to an open door that can be a chance to do keen productive deeds. Hence, for Maya, the vicissitude of spark isn’t a finger snap as there is still a rough road that lingers in her thoughts—ignorance. Nonetheless, what pushes her to become a student-volunteer is the same environment she grew up in. “Both of my parents are busy because their [main job] is to serve the people, and pag nagkukwento sila about sa mga nangyayari during that time na-i-inspired ako maging kagaya nila,” she said.

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As the dazzle cast the realm

From there, the cusp of growth continued. And, this can’t stop her to stretch the golden arms in uncovering the means as she gradually started to serve her peers as part of the student council. When asked about her first volunteer experience, she said it was when she and her colleagues donated Noche Buena packages for prisoners in Dasmariñas, “Natuwa ‘yung [SC] adviser namin kasi ang active namin and mas lalo niya (kaming) mino-motivate at ‘yun ‘yung nag-push sa akin na i-continue ‘yung ginagawa ko,” she stated. Maya then recounted that aside from the programs of the student council, she also served in her community with her mother prior to the pandemic, “In a simple way, we give food around Imus, and sometimes, (we plant trees).”

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EXPECT NOTHING, APPRECIATE EVERYTHING. YOU PRACTICE GRATITUDE NA WALA KA DAPAT IN-E-EXPECT FROM ANYONE.

She recommenced, “One of my favorite (projects) is the ‘Bake for a Cause’, kasi ‘yung mga proceeds na natanggap namin ay napunta sa mga hospital staffs,” she worded. Through the lenses of time, Maya devoted her love to find ways to grant wishes. Thereby, she knew that this is her call of an avenue that she didn’t expect as she first became a project head of Bethel No. 8, Cavite, Philippines - Job’s Daughters International, a non-profit organization that molds young women to become confident and to take part in the community.

Few of her projects before revolved around team building and fundraising activities. But now, she is the current president of the said organization, “My first project as (the) president (was) the donation drive for Typhoon Odette. We coordinated with other non-profit organizations and our specific location at that time (was) Cebu because we have a contact there,” she mentioned. As they say, when one’s conscious ignites the spark of kindness, it will never cease to die down. Maya’s experience deeply gained an understanding of the needs in her community, “Our society needs to be [more] open about rooted problems that will make people have background knowledge [about topics they don’t usually encounter].” The gap between social classes drives her to make little ways of combining the efforts on helping the lives of people.

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Beneath the promise of light

Indeed, the act of service calls for ordinary people who have the purest heart—a heart where a simple gesture echoes gratification. At first, Maya never thought that she would be able to cultivate the person that she is today. “Sobrang (laking) factor ng parents ko, especially my dad kasi sila ‘yung (nag-e-encourage) sa akin to go outside and learn to socialize with my community,” she expressed. On the facet of how volunteered changed her life and perspective, she said that every people she met in volunteer programs had an array of stories and experiences that prepared her for the life ahead. “As you emerge with the community, you get to know them better. And, kahit hindi ka nakaka-relate sa pinagdaanan nila, there is something na ma-a-apply mo sa sarili mo to improve your understanding,” she commented. “Before, hindi ko pa nakikita ‘yung purpose ko na nakaka-help pala ako sa mga tao [kasi akala ko parang bare minimum lang ‘yung mga nagagawa ko], pero growing up, nakikita (ko na) ‘yung impact niya,” she remarked. It was a true pleasure that small steps make remarkable differences to the world, as the unimaginable things were deemed fulfilled with immeasurable happiness. From being a little girl who has zero recognition of her surroundings to a grown-up woman who opens countless keys on contribution to serving, hoping to quest that genesis of fervor. Maya’s experience molded her into that alleyway of the verisimilitude that can question your principles and worth but as long as the beacon of amiability and effort is there, they will not falter.

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The starlight of tomorrow

Passion, eagerness, and integrity are the rays of eternal flames that compose volunteerism. Thus, whatever actions you do, it makes an influence to each person because anchoring on the sea of moments is limitless, one just has to find a way to make it happen. “Volunteering will always be part of my life because this is where I started, and this is the reason why I find purpose in myself,” she divulged. As they say, to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service for people. For Maya, she realized that she wants to be successful in helping others. ”Nakakatuwa na si-ne-share mo ‘yung blessings na mayroon ka. [K]asi may mga tao na kagaya ko rin, at isa ‘yon sa naging reason para ipagpatuloy ko ito,” she explained. Maya’s sailing journey is a one-time incidental pinpoint as no one anticipated it, “Para akong may calling (sa) [pag-se-serve] kasi it feels natural na ginagawa ko itong lahat ng walang pressure or against my will.” As people say, one doesn’t need an extraordinary event to spur them into action.

But as one turns from a blank canvas into a painting showing its essence sometimes the gift of what people chased down is there; one just has to prick it to come forth. When asked about the takeaway she got through her voyage, Maya expressed, “Expect nothing, appreciate everything. You practice gratitude na wala ka dapat in-e-expect from anyone.” In the midst of chaos brought by the woe of society, there are still people who walk through the horizon of stars. Just like Maya’s story, countless opportunities may come along the way that can fuse the goodness of the world. She also uttered that anyone can be a volunteer as long as they have genuine intentions, “Don’t do it just because of your personal agenda or credentials na pwede makuha kasi, in the end, you only deceived yourself on the preciousness that lies within.” Underneath the night sky, the path of stellar shares the ideals of a breakthrough as one abides the shooting star can lighten the burdens of dusky humankind.

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“There is always a lesson in every turn you take because, with every stepping stone, you become better at making wise decisions,” she finally noted. For Maya, one can find joy in the magic of service if seeing someone smile is the greatest bestow upon. To all the twists and turns that resonated in her life, volunteering made her understand an aspect of the world from a new angle, wherein building a purpose is not just for commitment but a meander of love and action. As the sun succumbs to the moon, the day just passes and chances surpass, but it’s not the end as long as the little hope that perches the soul is effective. The misery will stray and the warmth of unexpected enthusiasm will reign, symbolizing the sun will soon rise to another expedition of faith onto the set of the shining tread. *Editor's note: We thank Ma. Angelina Editha "Maya" Golla for her valuable participation.

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Mahal kita, at iba pa: Mga anyo ng pagsinta Mga salita ni Ma. Ladeevie Tamonan Dibuho ni Aya Ahmad

Sa unti-unting paglipat ng pahina ng libro sa isang panibagong kabanatang hitik sa mga karakter na masintahin, hindi maiiwasan ang tuluyang pagdistrungka ng nakasanayang kagawian sa pagsasadula ng pag-ibig. May ilang gumawa ng panibago, mayroong sumunod sa nakagawian ng karamihan, ngunit mayroong mga iilan din na tuluyang piniling ihayag ang pagmamahal gamit ang mga payak ngunit makahulugang pamamaraan.

CONSCIOUS MARAMING MGA KINAGAWIANG paraan ang mga tao sa kanilang pagpapahayag ng apeksyon; at ang tawag dito ay love languages. “It’s a concept kung paano tayo nag-re-receive or give love,” pagpapaliwanag ni Humanities and Social Sciences faculty Geordan Carungcong. Ayon kay Carungcong, may limang klase ng love language: pagbibigay ng regalo, quality time, words of affirmation, physical touch, at service, ngunit may isa rin siyang paalala—sa patuloy na pag-abante ng lipunan tungo sa inobasyon, masasabing kasabay nito ang paglitaw ng ilang makabagong ekspresyon ng pagmamahal.

“Kumusta ka na?” Maipipinta ang bawat kurba ng pagmamahal sa pamamagitan ng pangungumusta. Lumipas man ang nakapapagod na araw at magpatong-patong man ang mga gawain at responsibilidad, sa huli hindi pa rin makakalimot ang isang taong nagmamahal. “The thought of them still remembering you after a long busy day is already a sign of love,” paglalahad ni Jessica Magno (ABM14). “I consider catching up as a form of love language,” ani ni Kyle Benzon (STM18). Minsan, sa simpleng pangungumusta ng sinisinta, mayroong mga hiwagang nabubuo, lalo na kung sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon, mayroong pinagdadaanan ang taong iyong binibigyan ng pagpapahalaga. “Showing concern to others makes them feel that [they are] needed, and you value them,” dagdag ni Benzon.

“Nirerespeto kita.” Mahahanap din ang mumunting piraso ng pagmamahal sa mga puwang ng respeto. Para kay Andrei Tañedo (HMS13),“It gives you a sense of security.” Kapag nariyan ang siguridad, susunod na rin marahil ang kapayapaan ng isipan. “That’s when you feel that this person genuinely cares for you, and won’t make you uncomfortable.” Ang pagmamahal ay hindi kasingkahulugan ng panghihimasok sa buhay ng iyong ginigiliw. “(I) like it when someone respects my boundaries,” wika ni Christine Ramos (HMS24). Maaring iba talaga ang pakiramdam sa tuwing naiintindihan ng iyong mahal na mayroong lugar sa iyong buhay na tanging ikaw lamang ang maaaring maglakbay. “(W)hen someone knows (I) [would rather] have them with me quietly, than hear their advice, (I) find it so endearing.”

“Proud ako sa’yo!”

Isa ring mukha ng pag-ibig ang pagsasabi ng ‘proud ako sa’yo!’. Ayon kay Benzon, “Na-bu-boost ‘yung confidence ko since walang pagsisising naiisip ‘yung iba kapag proud sila sa‘kin.” Talaga nga namang masarap sa kalooban sa tuwing mararamdaman ng iyong puso na hindi ka kailanman magkukulang—sapat ka. “I feel happy, and (it is) rewarding kapag (na-a-appreciate) rin ng iba ‘yung hardwork ko,” pagpapatuloy ni Benzon. “Hindi naging sayang ang oras at pagod ko dahil napapahalagahan na rin ito ng iba.” Gaano man kahirap ang pinagdaanan bago nakamit ang hangganan, kasiyahan pa rin ang mananaig basta’t marinig ang papuri ng mahal sa buhay.

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“Naiintindihan kita.”

Katumbas din ng mga salitang ‘mahal kita’ ang pagkakaroon ng kakayahang umintindi. “Being understanding is very important in forming better relationships,” saad ni Colleen De Leon (STM25). Kanya ring isinalaysay na hindi ito sapilitan, bagkus ay isang mahalagang elemento sa pundasyon ng bawat relasyon, “It is more of a building block.” Umaaligid ang mga paru-paro ng pag-ibig sa mga sikmura sa tuwing nagpupursigi ang isang taong malakbay ang pagkatao. “[W]hen a person takes time to listen and understand the hows and whys of you, it can easily make you feel like you’re on cloud nine,” pahayag ni Ramos. Minsan, ang kailangan ng isang tao ay isang pusong maunawain at handang makinig sa anumang istoryang nais sabihin. Bukod pa rito, hindi rin mapigilan ang pag-agos ng kagalakan sa mga puso sa tuwing ang mga nararamdamang mga emosyon, at mga anino ng nakaran ay kinikilala—hindi binabalewala. “For someone to say ‘sorry about that, I did not know about your trauma’ goes such a long way,” saad ni Ramos.

“Pakinggan/Panoorin mo ‘to!” Ang bawat pelikula at musika ay naglalaman ng sari-saring damdamin; at kasama na rito ang pag-ibig. Kaya naman, maaaring isa itong paraan ng pagsasadula ng ‘mahal kita’. “You can feel na even the little things like, ‘pakinggan mo itong kantang 'to, or panoorin mo ito’ willing silang i-share sa‘yo,” salaysay ni Tañedo. “(A)nd that connection is what I think is love.” “It’s possible na it reminded them of you in ways na you didn’t even know,” saad naman ni De Leon. Sa bawat pantig ng kanta, sa bawat linya ng pelikula, marahil ay nakikita ka ng iyong mga sinisinta—at sa payak na bagay na iyon, maaaring sumiklab ang pag-ibig. “And suddenly, the song or film alone, would mean so much more than it was before,” madamdamdamin niyang paglalahad.

“MARAMING LOVE LANGUAGES; HINDI NATIN SIYA PWEDENG IKULONG SA IILANG BILANG LAMANG.

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“[Love languages] are important kasi it’s a way of communication,” saad ni Carungcong. “[Ang] mga partners, friends, or even (families), iba-iba ang love language nila sa bawat isa.” Masasalamin ng pagkilos ang pagsinta, kaya naman, sa modernong kapanahunan na kinaroroonan ng henerasyon ngayon, ang pagtuklas nito ay tunay na mahalaga. Maaaring maituring ang pag-ibig bilang isang malawak na konsepto kaya’t ang bawat tao na nananahan sa romansa nawa ay patuloy na magbigay ng pagmamahal na naaayon sa kanilang kagustuhan, dahil hindi kailanman maaapula ng baha ang isang damdaming nag-aalab ng sinseridad.

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Before the timer reaches zero Words by Anielle Mendoza Photos by Elisha Jezreel Ang

Small and unassuming, the seemingly harmless bomb only leaves destruction and wreckage once ignited. A bright flash, a deafening boom, then a loud roar, smoke, and ash fill the air as nearby objects are blown away by the force of the explosion. Seeking to recreate the beauty of the blast, one sets to scheme a plan that will lead to them marveling once more at the ruins left in the bomb’s wake. “A HEALTHY RELATIONSHIP is not always about (the) happy moments, good times, and romantic dates,” Humanities and Social Sciences faculty Kimberly Dela Cruz began. “There will also be compromises, disagreements, and sacrifices.” However, Dela Cruz also enunciated the importance of knowing the red flags that may come with one’s partner and choosing one’s self over their relationship. “[D]espite how much you want to keep the person, you should always know when to quit and when to choose yourself over [the relationship].” The following are some ways in which one can seek refuge against the threat of the bomb’s imminent explosion.

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Set the fuse alight

Of course, one cannot have the big blast they desire without first igniting the bomb. Before that, however, one must take the necessary precautions to ensure that such a weapon of destruction is left to blow up somewhere away from human activity to guarantee the safety of others. It is only a matter of identifying where such a place could be that might pose the problem. It is only then that one can light the fuse. “Red flags are signs that tell us when to stop and quit a relationship,” Dela Cruz established. “These vary in different forms such as physical, verbal, and emotional abuse.” She explained that red flags come in many different forms that may take the shape of being either too much or too lacking in a relationship, expounding that one should take the time to identify which red flags they might be currently experiencing. Having said that, Dela Cruz mentioned the level of difficulty in identifying these red flags depending on how far along one is in the relationship. “[Red flags] are hard to determine if the person is already investing too much in that relationship.” She described that red flags are more difficult to spot in long-term relationships than in new ones, saying that most find it easier to stay than to let go. “People [do this] even if it means that you have to accept and tolerate the acts of abuse.”

Running for cover

Once having found a place to release the bomb, one cannot be reckless and forego safety. Knowing the damage and destruction the object could do must be enough to warn one of the dangers of staying too close to the point of detonation. So, after lighting the explosive, it is only right that one runs as quickly as they can for cover—hiding in a place well outside the range of the explosion. Following one’s acknowledgment of their red flags, it can be difficult finding an answer, especially when one is still devoted to maintaining the flame. Because of this, Dela Cruz said, “When people get too immersed in their current relationship, they tend to neglect these red flags, (making them) more susceptible to abuse.” Having said this, Dela Cruz mentioned how advantageous it is to listen to others. “[I]t is very helpful to listen to people with different perspectives.” Dela Cruz further described how these people can play a great role in one’s process of unlearning the toxicity and abuse they faced in their relationship. “Having a support system and engaging in various hobbies and activities can greatly help you throughout your healing process,” she said, adding that it can help one acknowledge the red flags they are facing too.

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Awaiting the bang

Tucked in safety away from the imminent danger, one must now stand by for the impending boom that comes with the ferocity of the bomb’s blast. Counting down the seconds before the explosion hits might be filled with trepidation and excitement for the explosive end they have been longing to see is almost finally within their reach. After identifying the possible red flags lurking in one’s relationship, it is vital that one must acknowledge them lest they only hurt the person in the end. “[N]o one should be in a denial mindset after witnessing repetitive toxic behaviors,” Dela Cruz declared. “Once you’ve noticed any of these red flags, you must end the relationship.” She explained that red flags are a valid reason for a person to leave their current relationship. “You have to initiate a conversation and be direct and firm with what you want to happen,” Dela Cruz advised, saying that there is no point in beating around the bush. She then stated that in order to accept the red flags in the first place, one must remember that relationships are supposed to nourish a person and not bring them down. “Keep in mind that relationships should be inspiring and not life-draining,” she said.

Cleaning the ashes

The timer hits zero and the bomb goes off. One takes in the sight of the blast consuming all that is in its vicinity—swallowing all objects and spitting out plumes of fire and smoke. Upon witnessing the sight of demolition before their naked eyes, one is able to rediscover the beauty and exhilaration that comes with the hazard and risk of orchestrating an explosion, and they are left to wonder if the wreckage had been worth their time. Dela Cruz had previously mentioned the significance of choosing one’s self over their relationship when toxicity and bad behaviors become too much. However, she reminds one to never fail to try and fix things with their partner before deciding on anything drastic. “Always remember that before ending the relationship with your significant other, it is very important to resolve things first at the initial signs of a red flag,” she said. She added the importance of communication and honesty if one seeks to address and fix any present issues in their relationship. “You have to acknowledge it and communicate immediately,” she said. “You must also be honest with your partner (so that you two) can set boundaries.”

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In the aftermath of the wreckage—once the smoke has set and the flames have dissipated—one is amazed at the amount of destruction left in the bomb’s explosion. Red flags may act as a ticking time bomb in one’s relationship; waiting to blow up at the slightest touch and indication from either party, yet it is vital to try and work things out with one’s partner before deciding on anything big. Knowing this, Dela Cruz also cautioned for the possibility of the opposite to occur. “[I]f the red flag (happens) again,” she began. “[Y]ou must know that it is time to leave, because oftentimes, a red flag can never turn green.”

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Peeking through a woman’s lens Written by Alexie Jeanne Masangkay Art by Ranie Marie Pucan

Gandering in this massive and prismatic world, one may wonder which spectacle shall be used in order to seek the most wondrous perspective. Numerous eyes see the world through an archaic camera—the custom one. However, it is overwhelming with calloused and erroneous way of thinking towards women. With this, the female gaze materializes—ready to topple any ounce of unjustness.

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The ladies’ view

As many believe, different eyes see different things; espcially if the pair of eyes peering in the camera belongs to a woman. For Core Education faculty Keziah Sarte, “[Female gaze] is a feminist ideology referring to how women and girls perceive other women, men, and things in life.” As the female gaze can possibly give a clear view of the fixed mindset set by society about women, it could become a canvas for women to paint a picture and better understand themselves. Also, through the feminine point of view, safe spaces for women could emerge. A gentle oasis where women could attain their liberty to bare their own mind’s musings. Sarte added, “[W]e live in and have been dominated by a predominantly male worldview. The female gaze is critical for understanding women’s experiences and emotions.” It can possibly be an outlet for a better understanding of women’s perspectives towards their surroundings.

The distortions

Looking through the tiny lens with hopes of seeing a world where kaleidoscopic colors can be captured, the photographer tries to secure the shot, however, ruins from the harsh reality started to surround the lens, causing the picture to be contorted. “[U]ltimately, [male gaze] refers to a way of characterizing and viewing women in which men are empowered while women are objectified and diminished,” Sarte described. Seeing how women want to see themselves can be really difficult when there is a man controlling the narrative. Depiction of women from a man’s point of view opposes what women actually are. It may sometimes be depicted in a very stereotypical and sexist way. Sarte quoted, “[W]omen are turned into passive objects to (be acquired and used) as props.” Women seem to be regarded as entertainment, illusions, and caricatures. “[T]he majority of women (have) been subjected to street harassment. Girls learn [the patronizing side effects of patriarchy] at a young age (wherein) they are constantly being watched, especially by men,” she added.

Moreover, it shows how both genders differ in perspectives and what they want to see. Sarte mentioned, “[I]t is about the various types of looking and how they relate to identification, objectification, and gender performance, among other things.” Glancing at the two lenses side by side, one might found out how massive the disparities between the two gazes, and could further discover the menace that the primitive one embodies.

The outcome shots

Capturing a realistic portrayal of the scenic feminist landscape, the preeminence that the pictures possesses is undeniably beguiling. “[I]t (brings) awareness, consciousness, and balance to people by providing new perspectives,” Sarte explained when asked what is the importance of a feminine point of view. She then emphasized how this female ideology can broaden one’s horizons and create better aspects in understanding women, their feelings, and emotions. “[T]he female gaze seeks to portray women as real human beings rather than as a fantasy for men. As a result, this gaze not only depicts women realistically but also as they would like to be seen,” Sarte stated. The female gaze seems to be the new model for accurate depiction and representation of women that the male gaze does not have.

The developing image

The photographer finally arrives at her studio—aiming to develop the promising portraits taken through the womanly lens. Sarte noted, “[F]uture generations of women will be inspired to be properly represented by the female gaze.” Instead of following stereotypes that society has patterned throughout time, it is a way to show what they are actually like. Rather than fantasizing about a fairytale type of story, it serves as a message that reality isn’t the illusion everybody is expecting. The gaze entitles women to break gender roles and commence change.

Also, it can obliterate any sense of apologeticness that women has just so the world will exhibit them through the right way. It builds confidence, liberation, and boundaries when it comes to their sexuality. Inspiring women, even men, to improve in their craft and stand up when they are being portrayed wrongly. Sarte said, “[W]e see women as three-dimensional people, rather than as a dream, a fantasy, or something to idealize.” “[I]t seeks to equalize (men) and (women) in all aspects,” Sarte quoted, as it can establish a balanced depiction of all genders by reflecting on reallife occurrences and struggles. It can exhibit what actually runs inside a woman’s head and what they go through every day. Hence, the female specs could be described as an astonishment that the society needs to foster a community with harmony. *** The picturesque landscapes were rendered with utmost magnificence, but the shots taken through the woman’s prowess are more than just a photograph for its beauty lies beyond the surface. Female gaze emanates hues that are far more entrancing because of the hope and change that it entails. “[W]omen (should be) seen as people with feelings and intelligence,” Sarte concluded. Peeking through a woman’s lens will mean recognizing women as real comprehensible people who can contribute a lot to society rather than a fruitless illusion in a man’s head.

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Hitting the play button Words by Francine Angela Dela Fuente and Jose Miguel Octavo Photo by Jethro Dela Cerna

As the cloudy skies meet the gentle breezes of blustery mornings, a new episode begins as one prepares their day with the latest perceived raw and unfiltered moments, altering the character into a pristine as the flicker of the camera commences, divulging the legendary line—Hi guys, welcome to another vlog! VLOGGING OR VIDEO blogging has been the talk of the town where people create content to share their innermost selves to the world. “It allows anyone to have the courage to record themselves. (Thus), this can be their diary (where) they (can) put (a) page of their life," Informations and Communications Technology faculty Carl Albert Lozada stated. With the combination of travel, product reviews, daily life updates, and everyday activities, audiences tend to lure their comfort by watching others’ lifestyles, hoping their goal would live in themselves someday.

Playing the reels

Entering the digital era, people shift their attention from celebrities to these online vloggers, as creating a day-to-day hustle and bustle mesmerizes the allurement of subscribers. Moreover, with the innovation of social media platforms, one can sit all day in front of flashy lenses telling their wistful memoirs. “Vlogging is indeed a medium where people can share their thoughts and knowledge. Just like how persuasive speech works, but in a creative and entertaining manner,” Elyza Midem (STM19) said.

With random and spontaneous records, these vloggers lie their quirky and diversified personas in their best possible ways under ten to fifteen minutes while bringing forth the entertainment advantage into modern dairy. “As social media becomes relevant, people seem to bring out their comfort by doing documentaries (about) their life and that includes their interests which people might relate to as well,” Cielo Dizon (STM212) mentioned.

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MARAMI TAYONG (NATUTUTUHAN) IN TERMS OF HOW PEOPLE MANAGE THEIR DAILY LIVES IN THIS PARTICULAR PLACE, (LIKE THEIR) DAILY ACTIVITIES THAT INVOLVE UNUSUAL (SETUPS) WHICH WE FIND AMUSING,

Beyond the pixel of the screen

As the rise of vlogging upholds, the notional link between the viewers and vloggers continues to spark as one feels the authentic relationship like a peer converse, “Rather than comfort, vlogs give [me satisfaction] kasi parang may virtual friend na nag-a-update sa’yo about life [and] ikaw, as a viewer, you learn how to communicate with them,” Carylle Guiman (ICT21) commented. “Vlog is more than just what it can give to you, such as entertainment,” she added. The depictions of culture beguile as viewers tend to understand the way of living in prominent countries, thus reducing the misconceptions of cultural shocks, leaving the familiar fascination endless. “Marami tayong (natututuhan) in terms of how people manage their daily lives in this particular place, (like their) daily activities that involve unusual (setups) which we find amusing,” Guiman expressed.

Peeking into one’s mind

Capturing boring routines that are transformed into delectable, bitesized experiences takes assiduous back-breaking work. Innumerable hours in a day are put into the production of a quality vlog with their own niche. “It is interesting because of the content and how [each vlogger] creates their videos, whether funny, dramatic, lively, or adventurous,” Queenie Alexandra Nillo (STM19) remarked. For aspiring people full of drive and determination, vlogging aids in exhibiting one’s perplexing quirks and flairs to the world for audiences to see. Guiman added their two cents on vloggers’ unrivaled grit to post videos, ”I think ‘yung pinaka (naging) reason talaga kung bakit na-pu-push ng ibang tao ang mag-vlog is [because] passion nila ‘yun.”

Diving deeper into the depths of one’s inner works, one often shows vulnerability and shares their stances on matters and affairs. For Kenzel Lawas (ABM21), it is perfectly acceptable for vloggers to have different perspectives, “There is nothing wrong with expressing vulnerability in vlogs; however, they must consider all possible scenarios that will happen, especially receiving hate online.” In this day and age, agonizingly, people only display their “true self” in a smartphone, seemingly becoming mere figments of a reality filled with uncertainty about whether they’re showing pure genuineness.

As fervors pay off

While fresh avenues of opportunities migrate to the inner beings of our minuscule handheld devices, vlogging can be discerned as a window to earn a sizable deal of affluence with minute risks. Leaving immense enterprises to even the average Joes trying to take ahold of it. “(The) [vlogging industry] produces income for the vloggers that fascinates other people to pursue and start (vlogging),” Oscar Madrid (HMS21) responded. Through sponsorships and advertisements, the sheer amount of money one can acquire from solely vlogging is transcendent and unparalleled in comparison to white-collar jobs. Dizon emphasized the money-making aspect of vlogging brought by brand partnerships, “Vloggers are sometimes also sponsored by different brands which only shows how influential (they) really (are).” Nevertheless, inspiration could be the most important prize one can get from the industry they made in.

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As complex and extravagant video blogging can be nowadays, what matters most is at its essence, viewers should be able to take something meaningful from it. “[As subscribers] we should be wise (enough to know) what we (watch) and not just be fanatic but also critical,” Lozada reminded everyone. The art of vlogging truly is one for the books. Enticing humans to take interest in the boring lives of their fellow humans who, all the while, share their thoughts, experiences, traumas, and opinions. As one ends another episode of their life in a measly ten-minute video to be put out in the world, one awaits what comes next and hopes that whatever that may be, a camera would be there along the way.

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Recharging Sweets: A drained student’s menu Words by Alexie Jeanne Masangkay Photos by Elisha Jezreel Ang and Joanna Elaine Desiderio

Desserts are meant to revamp one’s mood. No matter where you are around the world, desserts are there to satisfy your cravings. Sweets not only can increase adrenaline and stimulate the brain to feel energized after a long tiring day of online meetings and piles of homeworks. What is life without a dose of sugar to boost your energy?

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Chocolate Chip Cookies Chocolate chip cookies have it all. It is chewy, soft, and sweet. It comes to no surprise that chocolate chip cookies became the most popular cookie and the favorite of Cookie Monster. What makes it so good and irresistible? Well, the butterscotch scent, the chocolate chips poking out from the cookie, and the taste really makes you want to eat more while dipping it in a warm glass of milk. Also, the sugary element of the cookies gives you the energy to go through the day.

Blueberry Cheesecake There are many other varieties of cheesecakes, but the blueberry version really stands out. Made with cream cheese, vanilla, graham crackers, and of course, blueberries, it is one dessert that increases your appetite and makes you want to tuck a napkin into your shirt. Cutting through it is like slicing through butter which makes your mouth water. It is also one good dessert to eat under the hot temperature of the Philippines.

Iced Coffee As one of the mosting addictive beverages, coffee has really taken over the world by storm. What is breakfast when you don’t have a cup of iced coffee as your drink partnered with any baked desserts? Coffee not only stimulates your energy and stamina, but the sweetness also sticks to your tongue. Besides the taste, the aroma of the coffee leaves a trail that lures you into a coffee shop and makes you buy more.

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Krispy Kreme’s Original Glazed Doughnuts Nothing like an Original Glazed (OG) doughnut paired with a hot cup of coffee from Krispy Kreme. The creamy glaze that covers the doughnut makes it more delicious and mouth-watering. While stopping by to pick up a box of OGs, you can watch the fun and satisfying process of how they fry and glaze it up in the store factory. From the first bite of the OG, the sweetness and the vanilla taste will stay in your mouth until the last.

Dunkin’ Donuts’ Choco Butternut Munchkins The soft orange-covered Munchkins have that amazing coconut and cocoa taste that makes you finish the whole bucket in one sitting. This is one of those desserts you can find at many parties. As you eat one Munchkin, it will melt and leave that sweetness from the chocolate in your mouth. One Munchkin can make your tummy feel satisfied. These choco butternut Munchkins can be seen in social media a lot because many people crave them.

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Sorbetes (Dirty Ice Cream) No matter how hot or cold the weather is, you will crave for this desert. “Sorbetes” is a Spanish word for “Sorbet” which means “iced drink”. It can be made from carabao’s milk or coconut milk which makes it delicious and different from other varieties of ice cream. The popular flavor being served at colorful carts by sorbeteros are cheese, mango, chocolate, avocado, and ube. It’s cheap and easy to find since there are a lot of manong sorbeteros pushing their carts and ringing their bells outside.

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Taho Made with silken tofu, sago pearls, and a brown sugar sweetener called arnibal, taho has become a staple Filipino food which is luscious and affordable for anyone. The popular flavor is the classic brown sugar-flavored taho, but there are more to enjoy like strawberry, caramel, ube, chocolate, and so many more. In Baguio, the strawberry flavor is the alternative for arnibal since the fruit is very popular and beloved there.

Ensaymada This cheesy, sugary, and buttery bread is originally from Spain and can be consumed no matter what time in the day. Devouring this spiral-shaped bread no matter what size it is feels like having a whole meal in just one bite. Besides the pandesal, the ensaymada is one of the best sellers in bakeries around the country. This sweet bread can be dipped in hot coffee for an early morning snack or merienda under the hot afternoon rays.

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Halo-Halo From the name itself, Halo-halo is mixed with all kinds of famous desserts like ice cream, Leche flan, Ube Halaya, and jellies; fruits like saba, macapuno, langka, and mangoes; side ingredients such as sweetened beans, sago pearls, and corn kernels. Also, the main components that blend it all together are the shaved ice and milk. The Halo-halo is a Filipino dessert that shows the mixed influence of the countries that colonized and that are around the Philippines. A spoonful of Halo-halo can have a fiesta in your mouth!

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Through devouring these scrumptious delights, one could replenish their vigor to strive. So stop by to get your grub on because there is nothing like these sweet desserts to recharge and continue the day energized.

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Layers of a Pinterest-ready ensemble Words by Jelaigne Szanel Liong Photos by Elisha Jezreel Ang and Angienette Laurza

Puzzled by the realm of experience—the realm of the beauteous, the ugly, the unusual, the grandeur, and the regal, Gen-Zs had found ways for them to showcase their quirky styles into everyday fashion. Some of fascination, others due to criticism, and most of the fine art; teenagers living in the 21st century have uncovered a variety of different aesthetics which provides them sensuous enjoyment.

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e-girl BORROWING THEIR LOOKS from some Japanese anime series, you’ll find these girls with dyed hair in line with their hyper-stylized and exaggerated makeup looks. Any dark clothing is considered as their statement piece. T-shirts with big prints cinched in with black corsets or big belts before being tucked in short skirts is the usual look. With shining silver jewelry, colorful hair clips, mesh arm sleeves or stockings, and black choker necklaces, these girls know how to really pull off the extreme online vibe.

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cottage core This aesthetic gives great reference to the hues of the world; green, white, and brown. From the name itself, this is often affiliated with vintage, nature, and art. Their clothes are mostly straight out of the beguiling paintings, focusing on flowers and plants. You’ll spot them flaunting their a-line white floral dresses, polos, and suspenders having picnics in colorful fields. To sum up the look, these girls have their white dresses paired with aesthetically pleasing accessories.

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softboy Often found in soft-colored pants, this aesthetic showcases its appreciation for the colors pink, white, and anything pastel. These teens usually layer their clothing with long sleeves on top for the whole cute ensemble. They aim for the dreamy with a touch of minimalist vibe.

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indie Over-detailed printed tees are a must for this type of aesthetic. They have a darker color palette than most styles which is reflected in their choice of clothing. They are often seen wearing oversized jeans paired with Y2K style of accessories. Throw in some sneakers, beanies, and you’re done!

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grunge If anything dark tickles your fancy, then this aesthetic is for you! The people who prefer this aesthetic base their outfits on 90s inspired clothing, and take note: flannels! Long sleeves layered with a black statement tee tucked in dark plaid slacks for men or skater skirts for women. This aesthetic also gets huge influence from Nirvana and other bands during those times. Their styles are similar to the e-girls' concept, except it involves less jewelry and little to no chains.

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Aesthetics are a mix of personalities, fashion sense, preferences, and everything in between. In a way, teenagers use these trends for them to express themselves in the most powerful and confident manner. Now, grab the most quirky pair of heels or put on the most prepossessing outfit yet. In other words, do you! *Editor's Note: We thank the following models for their valuable participation: Zoe Olivia Cavinta, Nicole Infante, Denise Preclaro, Jethro Dela Cerna, Elaine Desiderio, and Gabriel Francis Gatdula.

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Hushed casualties of conflict Words by Jose Miguel Octavo Art by Rianne Nicole Ocampo

Ear-shattering bombs in the distance, rounds of ammo clattering on the cold hard ground. A once picturesque land blessed with trauma for generations to come. Piercing bellows for help heard from outlying areas with no one to hear them. Amidst the bloodshed, across a neighboring town, one wonders what the new day will bring while war-sunken victims wonder about the prospect of a new day.

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Gold-plated serving of ignorance The motive for one’s neutrality is something that sparks curiosity. Carungcong said that neutrality is rooted from privilege. When one is far from the reality the majority is facing, turning blindly on issues becomes easy. Privilege separates people from being first-hand or even second-hand victims of prejudices given that they have all the advantages one can hope for. Furthermore, he added that neutrality would have been the only choice for those who choose to be silent because of misinformation, “Maaari rin na sila ay misinformed, natatakot, nag-iingat, o hindi naaabot ng balita.” Alarmingly, fake news has evolved to be indistinguishable in comparison to reliable and trusted news sources. Consequently, this intimidates a select few to radio silence in fear of unknowingly sharing fraudulent information. May it be an option or a final resort, showing neutrality is a reflection of what one believes is good or bad based on experiences. Like Adrian Amboy (HMS21) emphasized, “[Neutrality] says a lot more about you than it says (on) the nuances of what you’re neutral about.”

Blaring repercussions of silence The damage neutrality could implant in our society is daunting, not only harming the oppressed but also destigmatizing the actions of their oppressors. For Belinda Vivien Reyes (HMS11), who is particularly inclined in voicing out their opinion through social media, the act of being silent normalizes an iron-fisted behavior, “Staying silent (contributes) to the population of people who tolerate and are not condemning the people who oppress.” The presence of social media in one’s daily lives likely shaped how one perceives the world. Through meaningful discussions on the internet, whether civil, confrontational, or outright outbursts, humans have found a way to interact efficiently. However, neutrality puts a hold on this. For Amboy, neutrality muffles a society that should be loud in voicing out their opinions, “All that neutrality would do is either delay truly provocative, meaningful discourse about what we, as a society, should accept.”

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delay truly provocative, meaningful discourse about what we, as a society, should accept.

Silence, as tame as one might discern it, has been said to have a very apparent effect on those who are oppressed. “When we isolate ourselves so willingly and so constantly from taking any stand, even ones so clearly grounded in injustice, then we’re acting with no sense of empathy,” as Amboy worded it. Oftentimes, when one actively chooses to stay silent, it becomes more of a moral and ethical dilemma because of its implications on humanity. Voice past muffled barriers As prejudice continues to thrive, action must be taken. And for Archimedes Lagunilla (HMS24), it has to start somewhere, “Small changes in society [are born] within the comfort of our homes.” Building blocks of a society comes from homes, starting at the foundation and working one’s way up.

People, victims, or bystanders, can make a change by simply using their voice, just by not spectating the battlefield from a distance. Holding out a placard and showing one’s opposition can do wonders, but for Lagunilla, using your voice has its limitations, “[We speak out] not for the sake to argue, but for the sake of voicing your opinion, your word, and your thought.” As entitled people, “Having a voice is a privilege, and if we can, we can amplify the concerns of those who [cannot] speak up,” Reyes concluded. Liberty from being subjected to scrutiny warrants support to those in the spotlight at the very least. When one doesn’t need to think about their rights or their future, reaching out a helping hand and fighting alongside to deplete the enemy forces is the bare minimum.

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Mga bida sa pagitan ng mga tagpo Mga salita ni Jedd Rudolf Caldo Mga litrato ni Nicole Infante

Sabi nila, mas nagniningning ang mga bituin sa pinakamadilim na gabi. Mistulang mga bituin sa telebisyon, mga taong tanyag sa pagganap ng mga karakter ngunit unti-unting kumukupas ang sikat. Tunay na hindi nakikita ang halaga ng lahat ng bagay sa isang iglap. Isa na rito ang mga pang-gitnang anak na hindi man kalimitang nabibigyang pansin, nagtataglay pa rin ng istorya at potensiyal na mas malinaw pa sa mga tala.

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Awdisyon sa papel ng kapalaran

Sa mundo ng pagtatanghal, kalimitang naririnig na walang maliit na papel sa mga dulaan. Ika nga nila, ang mga aktor lamang ang tanging lumilikha ng kani-kanilang kinang sa entablado at nasa kamay na ng mga bituing ito ang pagtatag ng isang tanyag na pangalan sa industriya. Gayunpaman, hindi laging totoo ang ideyang ito pagdating sa tunay na buhay, lalo na sa mga pang-gitnang anak na maaaring hinahanap pa rin ang kanilang puwesto sa tahanan. “Hindi [ko] naman (nilalahat) pero kaya hindi siguro paborito ang mga middle child ay dahil may (tiyak) na tungkulin na ang mga panganay at bunso,” ayon kay Princess Diane Pedro, isang guro mula sa Humanities and Social Sciences faculty. Habang namumulat ang mga mata sa labas ng mundong kinagisnan, patuloy na kinukuwestiyon ng naturang bituin ang kaniyang gampanin sa labas ng entablado. Dagdag pa ni Pedro, “Kilala ang mga panganay [bilang mga] magagaling na lider at ang mga bunso naman ay (laging) binibigyan ng [dagdag na] atensiyon sapagkat mas nakababata sila.” Patuloy na sumasabak sa daloy ng kani-kanilang istorya habang pinapatunayan na sila ang bida sa sariling mundo, ano man ang kanilang puwesto.

Agawan sa sinag ng madla

Kung nasaan man ang sinag ng ilaw sa entablado, malamang na nakasunod dito ang mata ng madla. Sa dinami-rami ng mga karakter, hindi makakailang bilang lamang ang kanilang oras sa spotlight. Sapagkat ito lamang ang ilan sa mga sandali kung saan nararanasan ang atensiyon at pagmamahal ng mga manonood. Tulad ng mga munting sandali kung saan nararamdaman ng mga anak ang halaga nila sa pamilyang kinabibilangan. Subalit, may mga pagkakataon na hindi pa rin nakikita ang kinang ng kanilang mga mata, kahit pa nasa sentro na ng entablado. Ibinahagi ni Enrico Manuel Sunga (HMS24), “[K]apag nakikita nila na maraming [parangal] ‘yung ibang anak nila, nawawalan ng [halaga] ‘yung small achievements [ko].” Idinagdag ni Sunga na hindi niya iniinda ang favoritism sa kanilang pamilya at binabalewala na lamang niya ang kaniyang mga nararamdaman. “I remembered getting the constant fear na if mas magaling sa akin si ate, mas mamahalin na siya nila Daddy at Mommy,” ipinagtapat ni Sophia Francesca Fortin (STM23). Ipagtulakan man ang sarili sa mata ng masa, unti-unting nang nasasanay ang ilang pang-gitnang anak. “[I]t broke my heart as a kid.” Kahit anong gawing eksena, sadyang may pinipiling mga karakter ang mga manonood. “Lahat naman siguro tayo, kahit matanda na, makakahalata, magseselos, at malulungkot kung ikaw [‘yung] nasa harapang nag-aalaga sa mga magulang mo, pero ‘yung paborito [nilang] anak ang mas madalas nilang hanapin,” dagdag pa ni Fortin.

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Pagkupas ng kinang

Hindi laging nagniningning ang mga bituin sa kalangitan, kumukupas din ito sa paglipas ng panahon. Mistulang mga tao, kagaya ng ibang middle child, na unti-unting nawawala ang tiwala sa sarili sa kabila ng kanilang nakapaloob na kislap. Hindi lang sa loob ng apat na sulok ng kanilang bahay masisilayan ang kanilang pagiging tahimik at mahiyain, ngunit kapansin-pansin din na nahihirapan sila makabuo ng relasyon dahil sa kanilang malilim na pagkatao. “[Isang] factor kung bakit [karamihan ng mga] middle child ay introvert is kapag nakipag-usap sila sa iba, na-re-remind sila no’ng favoritism and iniisip nila na [maaring] hindi ulit sila (mapansin),” batid ni Pedro. Sa kadahilanang sanay sila sa lilim at patuloy na nangangambang umapak at lumagpas sa linya ng liwanag. Isinaad ni Sharilee Encarnacion (ABM25) na nahihirapan siya makipagkaibigan dahil lagi siyang nauunahan ng kaba, “I don’t particularly enjoy parties or crazy social gatherings, rather I find it exhausting,” idinagdag ni Encarnacion. Gayundin ang saloobin ni Mark Lenard Gadiano (ABM11), “[D]ahil sa problema at stress, minsan pinipili ko na lang na hindi [masyadong] magsalita.” Mga damdaming kasing bigat ng mga eksena ang patuloy na humihila sa kanila pababa, ngunit hindi basta-basta magpapatinag ang kanilang loob.

Pagsasara ng kurtina

Sa pagsapit ng epilogo, kasabay ng pagladlad ng mga kurtina ang pagyuko ng mga aktor. Maaaring natapos na ang kanilang palabas, ngunit tila nag-iwan ng marka sa kanilang pagkatao ang mga karakter na ginampanan—mga markang naimprenta sa kanilang isip dala ng mga karanasang tumatak sa kanilang buhay sa labas ng entablado. Katulad ng mga anak na dinadala hanggang sa kanilang paglaki ang mga bagahe ng nakaraan. Ibinahagi ni Fortin, “Though it is easy for me to blend in sa iba, I find it hard to blend in with my family kasi I learned na mas [gusto] nila ‘yung humor ni ate kaysa sa akin.” Inihayag naman ni Gadiano na paminsan-minsan siyang nahihirapan makipag-ugnayan ng maayos sa kaniyang mga kapatid dahil kalimitan siyang nasa posisyon na neutral, kung saan napapagitnaan siya ng responsibilidad at atensiyon. Hanggang sa pagkurap ng mga ilaw at sa unti-unting pagtayo ng mga manonood, nakaiwan na ng lamat sa kanilang personalidad ang mga eksenang mistulang galing sa tunay na buhay.

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Ang ilan sa mga pinakatanyag na bituin sa telebisyon ay nagsimula sa maliliit na gampanin. Lahat ay may iba’t ibang pinanggalingan at pinagdaanan sa buhay. Ganito rin ang situwasyon sa maraming mag-anak. Lahat ay may sariling landas at halaga na idinaragdag sa mundo. May kaniya-kaniyang importansya ang bawat anak at ang kaniyang sariling mga kamay na lamang ang magtatakda kung saan ito makakarating. Para kay Gadiano, “Kaysa magtanim ng galit [dahil sa mga suliraning hinaharap ng isang middle child], iniisip ko na lang [ang aking halaga] at (ang) mga bagay na [espesiyal at natatangi] sa akin.” Bitbit ang karanasan mula sa mga nakaraang papel na ginampanan, oras na upang hanapin ng bituin ang kaniyang pagkakakilanlan at ipamalas ang kaniyang pagkatao sa tunay na mundo. *Editor's Note: Aming pinasasalamatan ang mga sumusunod na mag-aaral para sa kanilang mahalagang pakikibahagi: Mark Lenard Gadiano, Sophia Francesca Fortin, Enrico Manuel Sunga, at Sharilee Encarnacion.

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Treading the line of endeavors Words by Francine Angela Dela Fuente Photo by Tricia Faye Velasco

As dusk turns into morning twilight, the plucking rhythm of the clock reverberates as one starts crackling up while embracing the chilly vibe of the wee hours. The rest of the world is still in slumber while the chosen ones are ascending, chasing the chime of priorities before the upper rim occurs in the horizon of sunlight—settling the hustling in the midst of persisting.

Beginning of the end

HUSTLE CULTURE HAS been a norm for most people, especially students, where the grit and grinds era overflows through the veins of the hustlers as undertaking responsibilities already became a lifestyle. “It is more of a multitasking, in a sense that you can do many things aside from your main activity in a day or so,” Humanities and Social Sciences faculty Ersyllen Biñas said.

In this generation where 7 am to 4 pm working hours could be considered as a convention while adding extra hours for the gigs to complete the rotation, would one still own a moment with vigorous regard or would one just face the beating drum of burnout?

Maybe they were right. It’s about time, it’s about power, one stays hungry and devours because behind the mainstream of hustle culture is a person who works relentlessly, and any sense of fulfillment depends on the amount of graft they exert. “[Y]our career is the topmost of your priority while other aspects of your life are below it,” Kean Bognot (STM25) commented. The days of listed chores gearing up together and personal leisure don’t have a place.

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In a nutshell, hustle culture is a rise after grind until the work is done. It is a hype version of a glorified workaholic. For Biñas, it can be a strategy because it’s a terrific approach to figure out what you’re capable of, “With this, you have other options na may kaya pa pala ako gawin.” The idea of where productivity is aligned with the taste of hard work builds the concept of hustling.

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In retrospect, hustling might be a polished point where people can develop their skills before sending them to the real world, just like how Erin Madlangbayan (HMS22), who juggles academics, eight organizations, and two business ventures, considered herself as a hustler. When asked what influenced her to become that, she answered, “Most likely because nasimulan ko na siya, and there was this fear na baka ma-disappoint ko 'yung mga taong nasa paligid.” Meanwhile, as hustle culture prevails, the belief of increasing productivity may lead to success. For Leanne Dagsil (STM28), the reason why she decided to engage in various avocations is because of the prolonged period brought by the new normal. “I joined an organization to be able to interact (with) and contribute (to) people. As for my part-time job, I applied spontaneously because I (wanted) to challenge myself,” she said.

Into the restless line

As they say, nothing is impossible if you work hard, and thriving is the greatest thing one can do. However, in hustle culture, people have ingrained that more responsibilities equate to being motivated. Perhaps, being a student alone requires substantial management. But for Elisha Bulante (ABM13), it makes her feel fulfilled and accomplished to contribute to other things aside from studies, “I [always] think about how unprepared I would be (shortly) after if I don’t have organizations and my small business as a training (grounds).” Moreover, following the idea of commitment and drive, the empire of versatility is also the reason of doing extra work within a day. “I need to explore as much as I can, and because I was also influenced by the people as I see them hustling and it pushes me to become one,” Madlangbayan uttered.

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BEING REFERRED TO AS A HUSTLER CAN BE FASCINATING AS IT CAN PROVIDE A SENSE OF ENTITLEMENT, BUT IN THE LONG RUN, THE TOIL OF EACH TICK CAN EITHER MAKE YOU OR BREAK YOU.

Grim of prizes

Although hustle culture may lead to a new wave of adventure, it can also foster toxicity as one sees it as work with no rest in digging their own grave due to tiredness. “There are instances (when) I feel like there is no point in doing extra work because it will make you dread, (as) some (of it) can be quite tedious,“ Dagsil admitted. The hustle and bustle mindset that strives students to push better can be seen as a working machine, for spending too much on leisure can decrease the fruitful pursuit. Moreover, the glamorization of hustle culture heightens chiefly because of modernization, “Hustle Culture is a product of too much exposure of social media lalo na ‘yung generation ngayon,” Biñas stated. She also indicated, “You can get easily swayed by the influencers or enablers (na) mga napapanood natin, lalo na 'yung mga messages na binibigay nila.” There is no denying that hustle culture can be an immense pressure for students, as being a student alone is already demanding, and putting on extras may increase the vulnerability of having mental problems. “Someone may feel compelled to do things simply because others are doing it and that completes the notion of social pressure,” Biñas mentioned.

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“You have reasons to be aggressive in meeting your objectives, but you need to acknowledge that achieving goals requires time,” Biñas remarked. Being referred to as a hustler can be fascinating as it can provide a sense of entitlement, but in the long run, the toil of each tick can either make you or break you. Maybe the culture grows bigger and harder to stop, but one does not need to face the tug-of-the-door race before reaching triumph. “If you rush things, you might not have time to do everything,“ she concluded. Now, as the strike of each pendulum begins with bucket sweat of juggling, this can swiftly turn the hitch of dawn into a healthy and warm vibe, whereas balancing in the rope of dreams can now be setting the boundaries between work and life.

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Paglalaro sa tabla ng katauhan Mga salita ni Anielle Mendoza Mga dibuho ni Maria Sophia Emelda Initorio Nakatayo ang nag-iisang manlalaro sa ibayo ng mesa na may tablang puno ng puti at itim na mga piyesa—matiyagang naghihintay na galawin ng manlalaro. Tila nag-iisip siya kung ano ang kanyang unang ipambabato; kung ano ba ang piyesang pinakamagandang gamitin. Kanya itong ginagawa upang tawagin bilang panalo, ngunit sa dinami-daming pagpipilian, ang manlalaro ay nag-aalinlangan kung siya ba ay makokoronahan.

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Patintero sa tabla ng itim at puti

Unang ginalaw ang puting piyesa, at sa ngayon minarkahan na ang simula ng laro. Walang nakakaalam kung papaano ito magpapatuloy. Ngunit libo-libong paraan ng pagsugod ang maaaring gamitin hanggang sa bandang huli, isa na lamang ang natitira. “Usually, we [change personalities] depending on who we are interacting with,” saad ni Humanities and Social Sciences faculty Michael Adam Evangelista nang tanungin kung bakit nagbabago ang kalooban ng isang tao kapag kaharap ang iba. Ang mga itim at puting piyesa’y nagsisimula sa kanilang paglalakbay sa ibayo ng tabla. Ang paggalaw ng mga piyesang nakadepende sa sulong ng iba. Nagbigay si Evangelista ng halimbawa upang mapatunayan ang kanyang pahayag. “[F]or example, kung ang kinakaharap natin or na-mi-meet natin is mga well-known personality or formal ‘yung event,” sabi niya. “Syempre, ‘yung personality na ipapakita natin is naaangkop dapat doon sa event na (‘yun).” Ayon sa kanya, kapag ang isang tao ay nasa harap ng mga nakakataas sa lipunan, siya’y umaagapay sa kanilang ugali upang gumanda sa kanilang paningin.

Sari-saring paggalaw at diskarte

Ang laro ay umuusad, at mga piyesa’y hayon sa nakakalitong galaw. Patuloy ang tagisan ng kaisipan ng mga manlalaro, pilit gustong pumaibabaw sa isa’t isa. “That affects your real personality,” sabi ni Evangelista. “Lalong-lalo na kung paiba-iba ka.” Pinangangatwiran niya na sa isang banda, ang tao ay maaaring malito o maguluhan sa ipinapakita niyang personalidad na kung saan, ang resulta ay pagkamangha ng ibang tao sa taglay niyang ugali. Habang ang laro ay dahan-dahang umaabot sa kasukdulan nito, walang kahit anong hinto ang pagbabato ng piyesa ng mga manlalaro. “Nagkakaroon ng interchange [of personalities],” ayon kay Evangelista. Ang isang tao ay patuloy na umaakto ng pabago-bago na nagdudulot ng pagkalito sa iba, na tila ba lumilikha ng ibang personalidad na hindi maipaliwanag. “Naiimpluwensiyahan ng real personality mo 'yung fake personality mo,” kanyang paglalahad. Nagbigay si Janine Caye Nepomuceno (STM27) ng halimbawa tungkol dito. “For example, kasama mo ‘yung best friends mo, then of course, super comfortable niyo na sa isa’t isa,” sabi niya. “Unlike, (kapag) may nakakilala kang new friends, (magkakahiyaan) pa kayo.” Dito, ipinaliwanag ni Nepomuceno na mag-aalala ang isang tao sa opinyon ng iba, kung saan nagiging sanhi ito ng mababang kumpiyansa.

Sa paningin ng manlalaro

Sa patuloy na pag-usad ng laro, isa sa mga naglalaban ay unti-unting nalulula sa masalimuot na galaw ng mga piyesa sa tabla. Nakatutok ang mga mata sa larong nasa harap nila, ang dalawang manlalaro ay nananatili sa paglaban upang sila ay gantimpalaan. “I am an open book kind of person,” sambit ni Nepomuceno nang tanungin kung papaano umaakto ang kanyang mga nakakasalamuha sa kanyang ibang personalidad. “People tend to mind [me acting differently] at first, but later on proceed and not care about it at all.” Ipinaliwanag niya na sa pangkalahatan, ang mga tao ay binabalewala lamang kung makita man siyang umaakto ng hindi pangkaraniwan. Upang suportahan ang pahayag ni Nepomuceno, ibinigay ni Jacob Sanchez (HMS24) ang kanyang pagmamasid tungkol dito. “Of course, they’d act (surprised),” sabi niya. “One time, they see you as a dignified individual, then all of a sudden, they see you (behaving the opposite way).” Ayon kay Sanchez, magugulat na lamang ang isa dahil makikita nila ang personalidad ng tao na biglang mag-iba. Subalit ipinapaliwanag niya na kung siya ang makakasaksi nito, magiging iba rin ang kanyang pananaw. “I’d find it interesting. [A]nd it (would be) nice, because I (would get) to see (my friends in) a different light.” Kahit na ang ganitong pagkakaiba ay balot ng mga tanong, dagdag ni Sanchez na talagang maraming bagay ang dapat isaalang-alang upang maintindihan ang dahilan ng pagbabago sa personalidad. Nang maabot ang huling yugto ng kanilang paglalaban, mapipilitang sumuko ang isa sa mga manlalaro.

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[DIFFERENT PERSONALITIES] (DON’T) NECESSARILY MEAN A FAKE PERSONALITY, SINCE IT ALWAYS DEPENDS ON THE PERSON YOU’RE INTERACTING WITH,

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Sa bandang huli, ang katunggali ay susuko kapag ang hari ay nabihag. Ang nagtatagumpay ay makatuwiran na magbubunyi. Subalit ang nagapi ay tuluyang pagluluksa ang nadarama sa sarili. Dito, ipinaliwanag ni Nepomuceno ang kanyang paniniwala ukol sa tunay at hindi tunay na personalidad ng isang tao. “I don’t believe (you’re) showing a fake personality when (you’re) with a variety of people,” sabi niya. “For me, (you’re) still showing the real you, but in a (lowkey) version.” At sa pagsang-ayon nito, ibinahagi ni Sanchez ang kanyang pananaw tungkol dito. “[Different personalities] (don’t) necessarily mean a fake personality, since it always depends on the person you’re interacting with,” sabi niya. Sa ganitong pahayag, ang dalawang mag-aaral ay naniniwala na ang lahat ay naaayon sa palagay o kaisipan ng bawat isa upang mapanatili ang magandang relasyon ng bawat tao sa ating lipunan.

Nabanggit din niya na ang dalawang personalidad ng isang tao ay magagamit din upang pangalagaan ang kanyang sarili. “Without losing awareness on your real personality, parang ginagawa mo lang (‘yung fake personality) as pang-protekta sa’yo,” dagdag ni Nepomuceno. Ngayon at tapos na ang laro, maaaring maiwan ang magkatunggali ng mga bagong pagkatanto—tungkol sa laban at sa kanilang mga ginamit na sulong.

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Sa pagtatapos ng laro, ang mga piyesa ay isa-isang ibinabalik sa dating anyo. Maayos at malinis muli ang pagkakahilera ng mga ito—itim sa kabila at puti sa isang dako—parehong haring nakatayo at matamang naghihintay sa kanilang paggalaw. “[S]ometimes, we (change) our [personalities] to suit the situation,” sabi ni Nepomuceno. “[B]ut ultimately, (it’s) just a series of variations (of) our deep and abiding personalities.” Sa susunod na yugto ay nandoon muli ang bagong paglaro. At sa tuluyang paggalaw ng mga piyesa, maaalala niya rin muli ang kanyang sariling katauhan.

As the silenced voice echoes Words by Ma. Ladeevie Tamonan Photos by Elisha Jezreel Ang

Legions always dwell on the thought that breakthroughs are borne out of a prophecy that can transpire in a moment. An overnight triumph, as they say. However, one’s sound doesn’t have a thundering start. It is a hum that gradually resonates as manacles undertake to halt it and the dreamer's will to enchant the crowd.

PERFORMING ON THE stage with an exquisite voice and splendid cadences is a talent that Mitzi Josh Casacop (HMS24) possesses. With her passion for singing flaring as time passes by, pursuing it as a career was then deemed inherent. However, navigating her way through the industry is not as easy as it seems, especially since her dream has always been a series of perilous risks and exacerbating hurdles.

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The melodic rhythm arises beat by beat as the daybreak of a lifelong journey begins. The young girl’s heart beamed with innocence and ardent as she picks up the mic. “I think it started as a dream,” she said as she treaded on the memories that made her fall in love with music. “I grew up in a musically inclined family. [S]o growing up talaga, I was (already) surrounded (with) music,” Mitzi narrated. “My parents saw a potential in me, so they enrolled me in a summer voice workshop when I was six years old.” Ever since her first performance, she discovered revels within the industry, and it came like a revelation to her that being on the stage is something she wanted to do. Establishing a singing career could be an arduous journey, but with her family, particularly with her mother who was willing to bear some of her weight, it became worthwhile. “[S]he’s the first person who believed in me, and siya talaga ‘yung kasama ko all throughout. Auditions, competitions, tapings, and shoots, lagi siyang nando’n.” Singing Sarah Geronimo’s “How Could You Say You Love Me?”, Mitzi started to take her passion as a profession. “[W]hen I was twelve years old, (naging) performer kasi ako sa Enchanted Kingdom…and that was my first work as a singer.” She narrated that she did not feel any ounce of nervousness all throughout the show. Wearing a dazzling orange gown, a twelve-year-old Mitzi stepped onto the stage, without knowing that it was the first of many ones.

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“MARAMING REJECTIONS AND MA-TE-TEST TALAGA ‘YUNG FAITH AND PATIENCE MO,

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Upon discovering the splendors within the currents of every tone therein, Mitzi’s fondness ascended—binding between her and her fervor unbreakable. “I love to perform. [I]t’s my passion,” she said. She narrated that no matter how depleting her performance, a surge of merriment still beholds her heart because she loved how she can inspire people through her gallantry. ”No matter how tiring and long ‘yung araw, [hindi] ko siya nararamdaman kasi I really love what I’m doing and nag-e-enjoy talaga ako.” Indeed, when the resonance of your heart aligns with your actions, a profound sense of happiness will follow.

“I also decided to pursue this career because I want to help my family. [M]ay dream din ako for them and I want [to] fulfill that,” Mitzi added. The wholeness she may attain through painting a smile in her family’s faces could easily make the unyielding voyage be a wondrous path that she will enamor. Upon recalling the reason why the aura of artistry became stronger, Mitzi realized how blessed she is. “Ang saya lang kasi I’m doing what I love to do, and at the same time, I earn and nakakatulong din ako sa family ko financially.”

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The upbeat tones that a singer belts out will dim as she prepares for the most challenging part of the song—the part that might be beyond her reach, wherein she might find a room for doubts in the walls of her consciousness, and let it suppressed her. “Honestly, it’s a very difficult journey,” Mitzi expressed when asked about her experiences in rising to fame. “Maraming rejections and ma-te-test talaga ‘yung faith and patience mo,” she added. Mitzi started her career from the bottom—without any connections from the industry. Hence, the accounts of her experiences were marked with intense difficulty. “[S]iguro ‘yung isa sa mga 'di ko [malilimutang rejections] was when I joined The [V]oice [T]eens [S]eason [O]ne and no one turned for me,” she narrated. “I was fifteen that time and super nalungkot ako kasi feeling ko that was it.” A sense of disappointment inevitably coursed in her system after the unfortunate event, for she said that she had done her very best but still ended up failing.

Her wavering hope was further subdued by the insecurities she harbored for her peers. “[A]ng tagal ko na nag-ta-try and all, [tapos] parang walang nangyayari. ‘Yung ibang kasamahan ko nakukuha na nila ‘yung big break nila tas ako parang wala pa (rin),” she confessed. It was an immature thing to do, as Mitzi described. But as an artist, the aforesaid feeling bears normalcy, as waiting alone can truly be challenging. “There are times na nawawalan na ako ng hope and nag-iisip na ako ng ibang career kasi feeling ko hindi talaga ito ‘yung para sa'kin.” Lingering thoughts of negativity have momentarily dominated her mind. She even considered letting this dream of hers remain as it is—a distant dream—and thought about pursuing a career in the medical field instead. However, the pensiveness caused by her doubts immediately surrendered and bowed to its conqueror—her unyielding passion. “Na-realize ko na this is what I really want. And, I can’t imagine myself having [a] different career.” When sheer despondency besets you, it takes only a trip back to the reasons why you started in order to be captured by the artistry’s charm once again.

She also added that letting her desire to continue dwindling would mean that she is not acknowledging the support she has been receiving back when she was just starting. “Naisip ko kung sila nga hindi nag-gi-give up mag-support and maniwala sa‘kin, ako pa ba ‘yung susuko?” Mitzi enunciated. “I realize na [the hardships are] all part of my journey,” Mitzi voiced out. “Lagi (kong) iniisip na may sari-sarili tayong time. [A]nd maybe, hindi pa ito ‘yung para sa‘kin and may mas magandang plan sa‘kin si Lord.” The rising star, therefore, continued to sing, even after the agonizing intrusions that almost muffled her avidity to beguile the crowd through her heavenly voice.

The crowd rejoices

As the lady triumphantly orchestrates the most crucial part of the piece, enthrallment hovered within the listeners’ minds—finally, the faint voice that was once hushed has managed to start carving her emblem on the stage. “[I am] (now) a Sparkle GMA artist,” Mitzi proudly disclosed. The young singer narrated that her winning an online singing competition paved the way for her dreams, because an entertainment that handles heaps of prominent celebrities offered her a contract. “Sobrang [hindi] pa rin ako makapaniwala sa lahat ng nangyayari,” she exclaimed. “Before, parang dream ko lang ‘yung mga ‘yun, pero ngayon nangyayari na silang lahat.” After various impediments that she faced, Mitzi finally felt that her career is slowly ascending. Nonetheless, she embraced the fact that there are many faces behind her progress. “I am very grateful and blessed to everyone who helped me in my journey,” she gratefully stated.

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OWN (TIMELINES), SO WE SHOULD JUST ENTRUST EVERYTHING TO HIM.

*** The once muted resonance was revived and was now rendered as an echo that goes past beyond the soul of the audience. Mitzi shared, “Always trust in the process and never (lose) hope.” The ones who are courageous and passionate enough to withstand the raveling hindrances are the ones whose voices will vociferate the most. “We all have our own (timelines), so we should just entrust everything to Him.” Upon the young dreamer’s momentous bow, the stadium’s momentous uproar dissipated believing that the show finally reached its wondrous end. Yet, Mitzi was aware of the fact that she has still a long way to go. With her relentless vigor, she thenceforth prepares herself for a more bridling course to take, ready to take on more difficult notes to sing and higher stages to be in. *Editor's Note: We thank Mitzi Josh Casacop for her valuable participation.

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Exuberant conclusion of a dismal sprout Words by Jose Miguel Octavo Art by Klaire Niña Llarena

In an attempt to save a plant from suffering its final days, one waters with all its might, thinking it’s the only way to save a plant from untimely death for it to live to see another day. Without knowing, the copious amount of heat that one thought was the plant’s salvation was actually its demise. And alas, it has struck them, too much of a good thing never ends well.

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“[POSITIVITY] IS APPROACHING situations in an optimistic perspective,” Student Wellness Center Counselor Agnes Berosa Gibas explained. Typically, optimism and positivity are used hand in hand to portray one’s urge to look for the brighter side of things and to focus on making life happier and successful. However, there are instances where positivity is used so much it becomes the main reason to forget problems. Venturing into the corroding greenery The evergreen, unbeknownst to one, is more than what meets the eye. Underneath its perky leaves and its new growth lies a disease that threatens to spread and kill the innocent plant inch by inch. “Toxic positivity is when we put positivity in the wrong context,” Gibas stated. When it comes to this mindset, the true essence and meaning of positivity is dismissed and is instead used in a one-size-fits-all situation. Gibas also added that positivity is overly-romanticized. Problems that arise are widely agreed to become disregarded, instead, one possibly looks for the brighter side of things. And when done in every circumstance where action is needed, it tends to become a complication. “Positivity is over-emphasized across all situations,” as Gibas worded it. Pest-infested roots Regardless of its astonishing leaves, one doesn’t seem to notice the plant’s roots getting decimated. For Gibas, being optimistic is ubiquitous, “It is a universal and collective experience.” Remaining positive was instilled because of various human experiences, that whenever things get rough, one simply forgets. People around an individual also are the reason why one thinks the way one does. Friends and family are the first people one comes to when faced with a problem. “There were a lot of instances where my friends and family told me to just think positively when I was having a difficult time so that it would be solved,” Quivara* confessed.

Instead of bestowing advice and a course of action, they tend to suggest positivity as a possible solution. “It felt like they were (sugarcoating) my problems,” Germaine Paolo Arcilla (STM115) stated. Though nothing wrong is meant by this, it can implant a thought that personal problems are easily refutable and can be denied by simply turning a blind eye to them. Pressure from tribulations brought on by life, may it be minuscule or lifechanging, makes it so that people succumb to positivity, to temporarily escape the anxiety that comes with it. “[Toxic positivity] is a coping system,” Gibas remarked. One desperately grasps on false hopes and beliefs every time something goes wrong, chasing make-believe situations to lift off the weight of problems. Forgetting, as Gibas added, provides nothing but a brief way out. “Nag-da-daydream ka and hoping for a miracle pero wala ka namang ginagawa to address the matter.” Digging beneath the ground Despite the signs, one continues to suffocate the almost lifeless plant. Seeing its browning leaves and cries for help, one hopes that it bounces back into life. Quivara* remarked that positivity gives people hope. To many, positivity acts as one spark of ember in a hopeless attempt in starting a fire. It provides a temporary assurance that in a world seemingly full of worries, things can get better. “Positivity will help a person to clear his or her mind,” Tonnie Roraldo (STM115) stated. Constant mix-ups and muddles find ways to cloud one’s thoughts and poison their well-being. Having a bright outlook counteracts one’s foggy mind and helps a personage focus on other things. “It has become a mantra,” Gibas said. Using positivity as a mantra should help us take on challenges headfirst with no hesitation. For Gibas, having a worryfree state of mind requires deliberation, “It is our job to capitalize on the good to counteract the bad.” Positivity, if used effectively, tends to battle drawbacks seamlessly and effortlessly.

First ray of sunlight As dawn approaches and the sun creepily inches towards the surrounding earth, one realizes that a plant’s life does not rely solely on water. For Quivara*, the constant pressure to remain optimistic provides a certain level of frustration, “[I]t does give a bit of support but not so much that it would give me a solution [to] the problem.” When any negative emotion towards something is seen as bad, genuine human emotional experiences are denied leaving one feeling incomplete. “They are pushing themselves to be okay even if they are not,” Roraldo exclaimed. The constant pressure of trying to look “okay” deprives someone of the true range of emotions they feel inside. Drowned by the heaps of water poured onto an almost lifeless plant, one doesn’t try to see for themselves that maybe what they thought was the cure was what will deal the killing blow. “Too much of a good thing is bad, kailangan balanse talaga ang lahat,” Gibas said. And when one deeply holds on to this mantra for everything in life, the glasses with which they view the world will be nothing but a rose-colored utopia. “Nagkakaroon tayo ng false belief sa positivity,” Gibas emphasized. *** They say water is a plant’s source of energy, one component that is needed through all walks of its life. Inevitably, there will come a time when things go south, and no amount of water will save a dying plant. “It’s okay to feel negative,” Gibas remarked. It is widely agreed that humans are complex creatures, and even then, one can have limitations, “[H]indi tayo exempted from feeling those emotions.” There is only so much one can take before a plant’s life gives up. Looking for other solutions rather than holding on to one, drastically improves a rather hopeless situation. “We have to acknowledge that certain situations are difficult,” Gibas added. However, nature is very forgiving, even after one’s neglect, it comes back stronger than ever. After everything one has learned, there will come a day where a new sprout graces the soil in which it once lived. *Some interviewees wanted to be anonymous.

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Into the depths of Philippine cinema Words by Anielle Mendoza

Having numerous films and TV shows surfacing internationally can become quite difficult for one to tread through the sea of quality motion pictures, with each one seemingly better than the rest. Alas, for what purpose would one begin to look back at their little island of local films and shows if there is an endless sea of so much more right in front of them—providing the allure that attracts the people’s awareness to it, as if magnetized. But just like the rich culture and history the country possesses, Filipino movies and series do hold their own charm and appeal that may make looking back worth it. The following are a few of those motion pictures that might just tempt the mind even more.

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As a film that strengthens the value of Filipino families, Seven Sundays tells the story of siblings who, after falling out, reunite upon receiving news that their father has been diagnosed with cancer. Setting their differences aside, the siblings must learn how to grow past their disputes and find forgiveness in each other as they try to spend their father’s remaining days with him in happiness.

Losing his family in a snowstorm’s wreckage, Bren Park moves to the Philippines from South Korea after finding out the identity of his biological father. Having quit basketball due to his loss, Park finds himself being slowly sucked into the sport once again as he finds himself an unlikely family in Barangay 143’s basketball team of misfits. Playing the sport once more, Park realizes there is more to the barangay than just its powerhouse team.

Kalel is a Catholic boy who longs for acceptance and recognition from his peers. Being a part of a dysfunctional family, Kalel is desperate to find validation, prompting him to turn to the Internet and act recklessly—chatting and meeting up with strangers online. Breaking several social norms and finding out he is HIV positive, Kalel must learn how to wade through life while accepting the consequences his actions have brought him.

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Bar Boys is a 2017 comedydrama centered around the misadventures of three young men who try their luck at becoming lawyers. Juggling family matters, relationships, their friendship, and their own personal convictions, they must find balance in their lives while chasing after the dreams they hold dear.

Dying at her 60s due to diabetes complications, Lisang is finally set to cross over to heaven after staying in purgatory and causing the other souls trouble for two years. Raring to go, Lisang is prepared to move on when her ex-boyfriend and true love, Manolo, dies and is designated to stay at the waiting room she was in. Now refusing to go up to heaven, Lisang prolongs her stay in purgatory to spend lost time with the man she loved.

This 2018 animated musical features Crisanto and Dolores, a middle-aged couple doing all that they can to stop their marriage from coming apart at the seams. When Crisanto is diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s disease, their relationship is tested even further as more and more of Crisanto’s memories leave him and Dolores falls into even deeper depression. Salvaging all they are able, the couple attempts to survive and thrive together despite their fading memories and fleeting identities.

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In modern-day Manila, unbeknownst to the eyes of normal humans, dark, supernatural forces rule the criminal underworld and partake in evil and illegal proceedings. It’s up to Alexandra Trese and her friends to keep the peace, not knowing that there is a storm, larger than any of them could imagine, brewing beneath the surface.

Eerie is a 2019 horror-thriller film set in an exclusive, all-girls Catholic school run by nuns. The story follows a guidance counselor’s quest to uncover the mystery behind the gruesome death of one of the students named Erika. Traumatized by their own encounters, Erika’s apparition continues to haunt the other students as the guidance counselor does all she can to unravel the true story behind Erika’s death.

Set in the Philippine coastal town of Pandan, Antique, high school student John Denver’s world is upended as he is falsely accused of stealing one of his classmates’ iPad. After having been caught on video fighting the said classmate, Denver’s life takes a turn for the worse as the video grows viral in the most vicious way. Facing the ridicule and the bullying thrust onto him by his peers, Denver must fight through the lies and prove his innocence to society.

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A multitude of great Filipino films and series are kept sequestered away from all as the crowd may be too focused on those produced beyond the waters of their country. However, if they happen to take a little look back, they might discover the hordes and hordes of local motion pictures with that unique touch of Filipino magic added in.

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The child behind the prodigy’s shadow Words by Jedd Rudolf Caldo Photos by Angienette Laurza and Jethro Dela Cerna

Life is a mere comparison to a symphony and each person has their own journey in finding their sound in the midst of the drowning cacophony of tunes. As each piano has its keys, and every guitar has its strings, an artist has a person beneath. Just like behind every child prodigy, there is a shadow engulfed in the heaping amount of pressures of musicality.

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JAMES JOHNROY MABESA (HMS21) is an incredibly musically blessed individual; from performing various instruments to writing and composing his own songs, James is not one’s average musician. Achieving each milestone at such a young age, a child blessed with much talent’s journey to stardom is destined from his humble beginnings. However, as the prestigious side shines more, the child behind the success blurs out, thus, getting to know him is often harder than finding the right pitch.

Tuning the right pitch

As the static television zaps and turns on, a particular tone flows out of the screens and trances one’s eyes. Seeing these idols enjoy their primetime in the limelight sparks an aspiration that ignites one’s passion for something they never knew before, this is how little James started off his musical journey. “I started off liking music when I saw artists (such as) Juan Karlos Labajo, The Beatles, Eraserheads, and the musical play, Hamilton,” James shared. With nothing but a microphone and a dream, James sang his heart out and unwrapped one of the gifts that never stop giving. “I actually came from a family of dancers—however, since I was not fond of dancing, my mom asked me to pursue singing and (to play) the piano at an early age,” James expressed as he reminisced about his musical awakening. With every note hidden in his pocket, he was ready to discover the world of music and for this world to discover him. As his knees tremble and his voice cracks in the midst of the piercing sound of the mic feedback, the star’s journey was not always pitch-perfect. “During my first singing recital, I can recall that I tend to switch the mic between my hands to prevent (from) looking nervous and having (a) [pitchy] and shaky voice at some points,” James admitted. However, as soon as the curtain drapes across the floor, the steady turmoil of cheers overpasses the nervousness that once was. “I started to compose songs and share them with my friends and family, as I grew confidence in playing the guitar and refining my lyric writing,” James disclosed. Knowing that he had something special, he began to realize that these musical notes were always surrounding the path he had taken.

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It’s show time!

Just like most songs, one’s journey does not always start at the climax, it slowly develops as each line is sung and melody is played. However, as the conductor picks up his pace, the notes overflow out of his strokes while each applause surpasses the surface. Similar to James, he grew into a better artist that is now ready to brace any treble that comes his way. “I can apply my knowledge in (the) music theory used in acoustic guitars, electric guitars, piano, drums, and even bass,” James shared as he tells the proudest moments of his musical career. “Showcasing my songs at online gigs makes me feel proud of the lyrics I have written (when I see) how people can connect to it,” James added. He found his strength in music which has always been the missing key that will eventually add melody to his life. A person who never loses his identity amidst the superficial pressure is an artist through and through. Riding the flow of each melody with ease, he soon felt the warmth of the people’s cheers just like the idols he used to look at on the television screen. “My family started to recognize my talents and (continuous improvement), and my friends noticed it as well,” James admitted. He added that though he does not see himself as a musical prodigy, he feels special in a way that he is finally good at something. However, people started to stack each pressure as if layering multiple dimensions to orchestral chaos, but little does one know the burden behind the shine.

Whelming epilogues

Once all the stage lights turn off, all eyes are set on the child himself, not the artist that once pleasured one’s earworm. Beneath all of the high notes of his journey, he always struggled with finding a sturdy footing when it comes to other aspects of his life. “Being a singer-songwriter, it is hard to capture the audience’s attention in an original song, especially when I only showed interest in this journey during the pandemic,” James admitted. It is true that sometimes having something great, is not often good, some things are just sharp notes that may sound off-key when the wrong buttons are pushed. “Being knowledgeable in music, people rely on me when it comes to music-related activities and it adds pressure because of the image that I have built,” James stated. He also admitted that being known for having sufficient background in music made it harder for him to work with other people, especially when they already have a preconceived notion of him. Singing above an audience gives one an uplifting feeling, but once the crowd leaves their seats, so does a star’s disposition. “I pressure myself (with) my own insecurities, as I crave some attention and approval, especially from people who have already seen me perform since I (always) want to prove my capabilities.” “Outside of music, I can (still) somewhat enjoy my childhood [though] I find it (limiting) at the same time,” James expressed. Being all caught up in the hazy stage’s fog and uproar from the crowd, the artist prospers while the child beneath fades into the background.

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As the volume turns down

As the artist’s tracklist ends, all applause is showered and all the flowers have been given. Each vocal training, instrument lesson, and late-night gig surely paid off in the end. “Capturing the audience’s undivided attention feels liberating, and breaking stereotypes in music makes me feel good about myself,” James expressed. It is his strong belief in his capabilities that set him past these minor voice breaks. He admitted that it grounds him that people see something special in him, but he also admits that he has something to learn from other artists. “It humbles me in a way that I still have room for improvement.” However, there is so much more to the artist that gives him the opportunity to share his voice with everyone. Behind every success is the person who achieved the milestone and the people that stand beside him. “My parents are open-minded and supportive, despite the (expenses), they give their all in supporting my passion,” James stated. He also added that his friends are his best cheerleaders when they hear his original songs before releasing them to the public. Though balancing the life of being a musically talented individual and a student might seem outlandish at some moments, it is the will to be authentic to one’s self that holds an artist’s identity afloat. “If an artist is not authentic, most people could tell and see between the lines,” he advised. He urged that being authentic helps him be true to himself and not compromise on other people’s rules. He displayed his true tones amidst the pressures of being pitch-perfect all the time. “Music is not an easy path, but it helps to keep trying and never be afraid of letting other people hear your true [voice].”

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If I could talk to my younger self, I would tell him that music is just an option, (because) there is so much more to life ***

In a song, the best parts are what make it stand out, but these are not the only lyrics that give it meaning. Similar to most journeys, these achievements make life special by highlighting the great events, but there is usually more significance aside from these high points. It is the lows and highs that valley throughout one’s life that give people their character and mold them into the prodigies they are today. *Editor's note: We thank James Johnroy Mabesa for his valuable participation.

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Mga oda sa bawat yugto ng buwan Mga salita nila Kenan Christian Geda at Ma. Ladeevie Tamonan Mga dibuho ni Cecilia Nazarine Bicol Sa pagtaklob ng karimlan sa sanlibutan, sumasabay ang tuluyang pagmulat ng iilan; tila senyales ang pagtaas ng buwan ng nagbabadyang pagod na tatahakin dala ng isang mahaba at malalim na gabi. Kaya naman ihanda na ang papel, panulat, at mainit-init na kape sa byahe ng bawat mukha ng buwan lulan ang mga liriko at nota.

Pumatak na ang takipsilim. Ang pag-ikot ng mundo’y tila nagsisimula nang humupa. Ngunit para sa ilan, ito’y tanda lamang ng isang umpisa—sinisindihan ang mga ilaw sa sandaling lumubog ang araw, pinagkakaitan ang kadiliman ng pagkakataon nitong balutin ang mundo. Kaya’t kasabay ng iilang mga huni, salubungin na ang nagbabadyang dilim sa abalang buwan. Spoliarium