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Letter from the

Dear Reader,

Have you ever had a day or a moment you wish could last forever, but you know it couldn’t, so you painfully accepted that fact and moved on? Have you ever had a dream you would love to pursue, only to watch it fade because of your adult responsibilities? Have you been hiding your battles while waiting to be healed? Do you come from a broken home and are hoping you can break the cycle? If yes, this issue is for you.

Quoting Olaf from the movie “Frozen 2,” he said, “I wish this could last forever, and yet change mocks us with her beauty.” This issue talks about those moments, the ones we want to hold on to, and the ones we have to let go of. It talks about uncontrollable changes we experience in life, regardless of whether it is happy or sad. Just like how Winter turns to Spring, our seasons in life come and go, and we are left with the responsibility to adjust, grow and keep moving forward.

In the following pages, you will find stories of change, transition and resilience. I hope you realize you are not alone in the seasons of your life. Remember, there is beauty in change.

Embrace your seasons! But you don’t have to embrace them alone.

Yours truly,

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Motherhood

Habits to success

The gift of failure

Constant state of becoming

A moment’s epiphanies

Rooted, refined, ready

Divine power creates miracles

The first to go

Buzzed not broken

Dreaming of the future

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Life slows. In the stillness, we face endings, find solitude, and gather quiet strength. Beneath the silence, something within prepares—healing, transforming. Winter teaches us endurance and the quiet power of becoming.

bold healing

At a university known for its cultural diversity and spiritual focus, BYU–Hawaii students from varying origins found common ground in the quiet battles they fought behind their academic success. Valerie Joy Agustin, a senior political science and accounting major from the Philippines; Mun Hon Jared Chan, a freshman biology major from Utah; and Gavin Davis, a freshman hospitality and tourism management from Texas, shared how the weight of expectations, mental health challenges and the struggle to please others shaped their journeys at the university. What began as silent suffering became a transformative pursuit of healing, faith and leadership, said the students, as they learned to speak up, find purpose and redefine success, not just by accolades, but by the courage to face their inner selves and serve others with empathy.

Journey beyond achievement: Valerie Joy Agustin

While sharing some anecdotes about her childhood, Agustin said, “Growing up, I learned that integrity is one of the most important values in life, no matter what circumstances you’re in.” Raised in a home where her father served in government, Agustin said she was taught early on that standing by one’s principles was non-negotiable. As the eldest sibling, she said she quickly became a pillar for her family—to learn, to lead and to protect.

“There were expectations placed on me—to learn things early, to be strong, to protect my siblings and to be independent,” she recalled. “I always felt that if something were to happen to my parents, I needed to be the one to stand for the family.”

But with high expectations came mounting pressure, she said. When she was 6 years old, Agustin said she unknowingly stepped into her first academic competition. “At first, I didn’t even know it was a competition—I just thought I was reviewing math problems,” she said. “I won the competition and people started expecting me to be good at everything—not just math, but English, science, everything. And suddenly, it wasn’t just about learning anymore. It was about being the best,” she recalled.

Agustin said fear stayed with her into adolescence as she started to push herself too hard. “I’d get embarrassed even with one mistake on an exam,” she said. “I didn’t want to show it to my parents because, in my mind, one mistake equaled failure.”

She said her deepest fears were tied to her relationship with her father. “I feared that if I stopped achieving, my parents—especially my dad—might stop loving me. I know that’s not true, but it was a fear that lived inside me,” she shared.

Agustin shared even amid her struggles, her father remained a constant as he remained by her side. “He was always there. He would still come to every competition, no matter the outcome. So I felt guilty— like I had to make him proud because he was the only one who always believed in me.”

Ironically, she said it was through losing that she found her way forward. “I lost what I thought was my ‘purpose’—being the smart one, the achiever—but that opened a door to something else: Service and leadership,” she said. “I realized I could use my knowledge not to win medals, but to help people.”

“Never be afraid to walk away from a place where you’re no longer growing.”

Valerie Joy Agustin

Valerie Agustin says recognizing she has value because of who she is and not just what she can do, helped her overcome the pressures she felt growing up to achieve.

Photo by John Andrew Quizana.

From helping with her family’s convenience store to taking on leadership roles, she said she discovered something beyond academic validation. “It gave me a sense of purpose that felt more meaningful.”

“BYU–Hawaii gave me a fresh start,” she said. “No one here knew about my past achievements or the pressures I grew up with. I didn’t have to live up to anyone’s expectations. I could study what I wanted and enjoy learning again—not for awards, but for growth,” she said.

Agustin recalled some worries she had ever since her childhood. She said by the time she was 8, she was already waking up at 5 a.m. to cook breakfast and make sure her siblings got to school on time. “It wasn’t just about being responsible—it felt like I had to hold everything together,” she said.

“Sometimes, I fear losing what I’ve already earned—not just accomplishments, but things like the respect of others, or the love I feel I’ve received because of what I’ve achieved,” she confessed. “I know it’s not what my family truly thinks, but part of me struggles with this internal conflict: That maybe, if I stop being an achiever, if I am no longer winning competitions or bringing home medals, my parents won’t love me the same way.”

Agustin said she began to unlearn the idea that her worth was tied to performance. “Being in this environment helped me realize I’m more than my achievements. I have value because of who I am, not just what I do,” she said.

But with time and courage, Agustin said she embraced her voice. “I see myself as someone ready to shake the ground and speak her truth, no matter the pressures life may bring,” she said. “In the coming seasons, I hope to make a meaningful impact whether by standing for international justice, defending the marginalized or inspiring those who doubt their potentials. We are never limited as we think, we just need the courage to rise,” she said.

When asked about any advice to students, Agustin said, “Never be afraid to walk away from a place where you’re no longer growing.” She also said life isn’t about accolades. It’s about becoming someone you’re proud of. “As my dad told me on my graduation day, ‘Your greatest achievement isn’t the summa cum laude title. It’s becoming the person you always dreamed of being.’”

New light from old paths: Jared Chan

Chan said he carries with him a layered past—one shaped by the gospel, shaken by family challenges and ultimately restored by a decision to go on a mission that changed everything.

Chan said his upbringing revolved around Church values. “Growing up, our values were very church-based. Our cousins, whom we lived with, were also members. But as we got older, my siblings fell away from the Church, and even my oldest cousin, who was like an older brother to me, rejected the teachings as well,” he said.

Chan said his parents slowly stopped pushing the gospel on them and it became more of their choice. “My siblings had been pushing the limits for a while. My sister had an unexpected pregnancy when she was 18, and that broke a lot of my parents’ expectations. Then, my brother also expected a child at 19. By that time, my parents let go of all their expectations for us,” he said.

Chan said he started to feel the weight of independence earlier than most. “In high school, it felt like I was basically on my own. I knew my parents would support me and give me resources, but everything felt like it was on me.” Though he still attended church occasionally, Chan said he was spiritually distant.

“Gospel-wise, I felt no pressure. I would go to church, but I wouldn’t read my scriptures or pray. I wasn’t even thinking about that,” he shared. He said he had no close friends who were active members of the Church so during that time, he fell away. “I felt very lonely and estranged. I didn’t know who I was or what I was supposed to be.”

He said although he secretly looked up to his siblings, witnessing them make serious mistakes made him question following their paths as well. He said the most devastating moment happened one night during high school. “One time, my dad had a breakdown. After my brother did something really bad, my dad told my mom, ‘We failed as parents.’ I overheard that—and it was crushing.”

Chan recalled feeling like a disappointment to his parents even while still in high school. He said that sense of failure led him to withdraw, stop attending school, skip classes, lose motivation and isolate himself in his room.

Chan shared after high school, most of his close friends headed off to college, while none pursued missions—except for one acquaintance from his ward. Attending that friend’s mission farewell made him consider the idea himself, he said. At first, he said, it was just a way to divert his parents’ attention. When they began urging him to serve, he said he agreed mainly to avoid further pressure, completed the application and then put it out of his mind.

Even when the time came to be set apart, he said doubts lingered. “Eventually, it got to the day I would be set apart and start online Missionary Training Center (MTC). And up to that point, I hadn’t done any preparation. I wasn’t reading scriptures, still hung out with friends of bad influences and wasn’t living within the gospel standards,” he said.

Chan said the turning point happened at 3 a.m., the night before he was supposed to leave for the on-site MTC. He told his parents he didn’t truly want to serve a mission, admitting he lacked testimony and had only gone through with it because of their pressure, he said. In that vulnerable moment, he said he made a heartfelt request—he asked them to affirm their belief in the gospel with complete sincerity. When his parents shared their testimonies, it moved him enough to say he would give it a try, he said.

“Right now, I discovered a lot about who I am and what I’m capable of,” Chan reflected. Earlier in life, he said self-motivation was not his strength. “Growing up, my parents were both professors. They taught me a lot, but I never really wanted to do what they taught me. I would apply some of it, but I was never fully immersed. I just became lazy,” he said.

Chan reflected that while he had always known he was capable of achieving things if he truly committed, he often lacked the desire—so he ended up doing nothing. However, he said returning from his mission sparked a change in him. He said he came to realize he genuinely wanted to accomplish meaningful things—and he could, if he truly wanted to.

Chan also talked about making an impact. “I can be a great influence on other people. I can be a great leader. I can go beyond doing good things just for myself. I can serve and uplift others, help them overcome their challenges and achieve their potential,” he said.

He said he never knew he had it in him, but now he feels a desire to focus not only on himself but also on becoming a leader in his community, friendships, Church callings, academics and career pursuits. He added this is something he didn’t realize before and that he has discovered who he truly is.

Reflecting on the aspirations of many of his peers, Chan shared his observations about a common mindset he sees among his friends. “Something I see in a lot of my friends is they’re hoping for something very comfortable. Their goals, and even why they study, are based on comfort. But they don’t want to fulfill the full measure of what they can do,” Chan said.

“I believe everyone, in their own way, can become a great tool in the Lord’s hands—if they trust Him enough,” he said. He shared the key is to ask the Lord what He needs you to do, trust that there is a way, or at the very least, ask God to change your desires to align with His. He emphasized that by doing this, a person will become someone they never expected to be.

Chan said his past is now a faded silhouette. “Now, I can’t even remember who I used to be. I only see who God has helped me become. And five years from now, I have hope that I can become someone even greater.”

“I encourage you to want to be the best person you can be—and the best person you can be is the person God wants you to be,” Chan emphasized. He said when it comes to one’s career, friendships, and personal growth, it is important to ask God and give everything to Him. He assured that God would make it greater than anyone could on their own.

“I encourage you to want to be the best person you can be—and the best person you can be is the person God wants you to be.”

Jared Chan

Jared Chan shares taking the comfortable path won’t help you reach your true potential. Photos by John Andrew Quizana.

The purpose behind the pause: Gavin Davis

Davis said, like many members of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, he grew up with clear expectations: Attend church, participate in youth programs and ultimately serve a mission. Yet, his journey toward becoming his own person has not followed the conventional path people anticipated, he said.

“I was born and raised in the church, so my family are all members. The values and expectations I grew up with were pretty normal for an LDS family: Go to church, participate in Young Men or Young Women’s, do Scouts, go on a mission, that kind of thing,” Davis said, reflecting on the framework that shaped his early years.

For church members, serving a mission right after high school is almost a given, said Davis. However, for him, that idea didn’t feel right. “I didn’t have much of a testimony right out of high school. I just remember thinking I’d go on a mission, but a couple of months before graduation, I got my mission call, and I had a lot of time to think about it,” he said. He said when he got the call, it really started to sink in, and he began to wonder if he could actually do it.

Rather than following the expected route, Davis said he took a step back, choosing to go to Alaska as a fishing guide at a remote lodge. With no Wi-Fi or phone service, he said it was a period of solitude and meditation. “It helped me a lot,” Davis shared. “I just had time to think about what I really knew, what testimony I had, and why I was doing this. I realized I didn’t have much of a testimony. So, I canceled the mission call.”

“That decision was monumental,” he said. “It gave me the space to reflect. Without distractions, my thoughts became clearer—and that’s when I realized I wasn’t ready. So I canceled it, but I didn’t walk away. I just knew it wasn’t the right time yet.”

After a year of working and attending vocational school for firefighting, Davis said he re-evaluated his life. He said his time away from home allowed him to process what truly mattered. “Eventually, my brother came home from his mission, and he told me I should serve. That helped me reconsider,” Davis recalled. “I had a lot of experiences that led me to feel it was God’s hand guiding me to serve.”

A year later, Davis said he submitted his papers again—and received the same mission call to Japan.

This story of courage, self-reflection and trust in God’s timing is one that has deeply impacted Davis’ faith and understanding of his purpose, he said. “In a good way? I’m more full,” he reflected, comparing who he is now to the person he was before. “I feel like I’m happier. I feel like I see my purpose, and I see the ‘why’ of life. I see the ‘why’ of hard things. If you have a purpose, if you know the ‘why,’ you can do anything.”

But it wasn’t just the mission experience that shaped Davis, he said. He said he also had internal struggles and fears along the way. “I felt I disappointed my family. But I came to realize that I didn’t disappoint them. They were really supportive. I also felt like I was falling behind my friends who went to college while I stayed home. It was tough.”

In his vulnerability, Davis said he acknowledged the emotional toll of not meeting expectations, both external and internal. Yet, it was through these struggles he learned invaluable lessons about purpose, faith and resilience, he said.

“Everything hinges on action— faith becomes real only when I choose to act on what I’ve learned and felt.”

Gavin Davis

For Davis, understanding his purpose was the turning point. “It’s incredible,” he said, speaking to the power of knowing one’s purpose in life. “Bad things will happen, but you can stay positive, continue to work hard, and keep that determination.”

The journey that led Davis to his mission—and eventually to the university—was not without its challenges, he said. But through it all, he said he gained clarity on his path, learning to trust that God’s plan would unfold in its own time. “Never give up on God, no matter how interesting or strange the path may seem. He is there and knows what He’s doing. Continue to seek revelation, follow the basic answers, and trust in His plan. Don’t lose hope.”

While reflecting on his journey, he shared the lessons he’s learned close to his heart. “I learned the importance of aligning my daily life with divine purpose by seeking to be on the Lord’s errand—waking up each day ready to bless others through spiritual promptings. I discovered the power of spending quiet, intentional time with God through meditative prayer, and how giving the ‘firstlings of the flock’—the best part of my day—to God through scripture study and prayer brings immediate blessings,” he said.

Davis also said he learned that visualizing is a gateway to revelation. By slowing down and envisioning with purpose, I create space for divine insight. “Most importantly, I realized that everything hinges on action— faith becomes real only when I choose to act on what I’ve learned and felt,” he said.•

Gavin Davis smiles with while standing on a green field, framed by the mountains of Oahu in the background. He says trusting in God’s plan for you brings blessings.

Photos by John Andrew Quizana.

Alden Kiel Joves

BYUH student Alden Kiel Joves shares how he overcame his shyness and other struggles into motivation for his future

BY JOHN ANDREW QUIZANA

Before finding his voice and vision at BYU–Hawaii, Alden Kiel Joves, a senior majoring in biochemistry with neuroscience emphasis, said he quietly navigated life as a shy, soft-spoken student from the Philippines, unsure of how—or if—he would fit in. Beneath that reserved surface, Joves shared he was a determined scholar shaped by gospel-centered values, hardworking parents, and an inner fire to improve himself.

Through cultural challenges, academic pressure, and personal struggles with anxiety and perfectionism, Joves said he steadily transformed—from a first-time dishwasher to a graduate with a heart set on medicine and service. Now in his final year, he shared he remains confident in his purpose: To heal, uplift, and lead with the same courage that once helped him rise.

from shY to DrIven

Before coming to the university, Joves said beneath quiet exterior was a strong-willed competitor, especially in academics. “I am very ambitious when it comes to learning, and I am determined,” said Joves. “When I want something, I do my best to improve and accomplish it through spending more hours studying and finding available resources,” he shared.

Joves said this mindset was instilled early on by his parents. “My mom has always emphasized the importance of education. She encourages me and my siblings to do our best in school,” he said. “From my dad, I learned that not everything can be gained within the four corners of a classroom. That’s why I’ve always been open to learning from different experiences. I enjoy trying new things, learning from others, and I truly believe that everyone you meet has something to teach you,” he emphasized.

Joves said he also found strength in his spiritual foundation. “Most of my personal values are rooted in the gospel. I grew up a member of the Church, and my faith shapes who I am,” he said. That spiritual and intellectual hunger led him to BYU–Pathway in the Philippines in 2018, an experience that would later influence his decision to study at BYU–Hawaii, he shared. “It made me realize how much it aligned with my values—particularly my love for knowledge and faith. Eventually, I knew I wanted to receive my education in that kind of environment.”

Though he began his journey quietly, he said his determination and love for learning soon helped him grow into someone who takes on challenges with courage and a sense of purpose.

facIng the unknown

Joves shared his transition to college life in Hawaii came with unexpected problems.

“There were a lot of challenges, especially when I first arrived,” he said. “Being in a different country, not knowing many people, and not being a native English speaker made it difficult for me to communicate and express myself. I often felt intimidated by others. There were times I questioned whether I belonged here. I even wondered if I should have just stayed in the Philippines. It felt like I was starting again from scratch,” he recalled.

In those moments, he said he leaned on his faith and his support system. “Since my family wasn’t here, I depended on my friends, my leaders, and my counselors. They were truly helpful and supportive.”

Through it all, he said he kept grounded by trusting the process. “Though I sometimes doubted my purpose in being here, I constantly reminded myself to trust the transition process—that things would get better if I just kept pressing forward,” he said.

Joves said his first job was washing dishes at a restaurant in the Polynesian Cultural Center. He said it was intimidating at first. “I had zero job experience,” he said. “I didn’t know what to do, and suddenly I had to deal with customers, supervisors, and managers. On top of that, I had a lot of school assignments waiting for me after work.”

But through perseverance and hard work, he shared he found growth. “Eventually, I became a lead in that job—even while I was still in my freshman year,” he said. “I started to believe in myself more.”

Progress, not PerfectIon

Despite his accomplishments, Joves recalled his struggles with toxic perfectionism. “Before coming here, I struggled with expecting too much from myself,” he said. “But I’ve learned that I can’t be good at everything—and I don’t have to be. Just trying each day is already a form of success.”

He credited several experiences with refining his outlook. “First, my personal struggles,” he said. “I’ve suffered from anxiety and depression for many years. Each time I fall and get back up, my spirit feels more refined.” He shared while those struggles haven’t disappeared, he has learned to manage them better over time. The journey of coping and healing became an essential part of his personal growth.

“Second, my exams,” he added. “Even when I didn’t do well, I learned the answer isn’t to give up—it’s to keep going.” Studying biochemistry with a neuroscience emphasis, Joves said there were times he had to study for hours just to improve his scores. He said he faced difficult classes and tough exams, but he learned to exert more effort, ask for help and talk to his professors. “Help is always available—you just have to reach out.”

And third, he said, a professor who challenged him. “He once said, ‘I’ve heard many good things about you—but right now, I still don’t see it.’ That really struck me,” Joves said. “Later, he told me, ‘If you want to become a doctor—which has always been your dream—you need to be assertive.’ That pushed me out of my comfort zone.” Inspired by that challenge, Joves said he took a leap and worked a public-facing role at Career Services, despite initially being introverted and unsure of his communication skills.

a LIons heart

Joves recalled an encounter he had with a former statistics professor back when he was in junior high school. “Before I left high school, I had a conversation with my professor about where I should go after junior high school. I was considering transferring to a different school, where they offered me a scholarship, but maintaining it would require me to do really well. I expressed my doubts, unsure if I could succeed,” he said.

Joves said the professor looked at him and said, “Alden, you’re like a wounded lion. You’re a lion who got wounded. The more you get wounded, the fiercer you become” He said his professor’s words stucked with him, reminding him that despite his doubts and challenges, he had the strength to overcome obstacles and push himself even harder.

LookIng aheaD

Now in his final year, Joves said he looks forward with clarity and confidence. “This university prepared me to serve better—in my community, in my chosen field, and within my family,” he said. He shared he dreams of becoming a doctor who serves both in the Philippines and abroad. “I want to use the intercultural understanding I gained here to help patients from all walks of life,” he said. “I also want to keep serving in the Church, build a family, and become a good husband and father.”

Reflecting on his time at BYU–Hawaii, Joves said he recognizes how much the challenges and experiences have shaped his goals. He said he no longer sees obstacles as setbacks but as stepping stones that have refined his spirit and prepared him for the future. He said his vision for serving others has evolved to encompass not only his professional aspirations, but also his personal commitment to nurturing relationships and making a meaningful impact on those around him.

Additionally, Joves emphasized the lessons he has learned about perseverance, empathy, and growth will continue to guide him as he moves forward, both in his medical career and in his personal life. “The connections I’ve made here, with both professors and fellow students from diverse backgrounds, have broadened my perspective. I’m excited to take that intercultural understanding and use it to better connect with people in all aspects of my life,” he said.•

I’ve learned that I can’t be good at everything—and I don’t have to be. Just trying each day is already a form of success.”

Alden Kiel Joves

Photos by John Andrew Quizana. Page design by Ice Cesario.

DIVINE POWER CREATES MIRACLES

Senior missionaries reflect on how God has a specific plan for all people

BY ANN GOEBEL

Through the experience of growing up in a home that did not prioritize education to miraculously attending Princeton, Elder Robert Johnson, a service missionary and professor in the Faculty of Business & Government from Utah, said he firmly believes God has a plan for each of His children. “He works hard for us to find our way. There is a definite and deep purpose for each of us.” He said he believes God has work for every BYU–Hawaii student to do.

Receiving a revelation

Johnson said he was raised in an inactive family of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints in Southern California. His father was a JCPenney salesperson, he said, and they were not financially well off. “He worked all the time. My dad went to one semester of college and dropped out because he married my mom and then I came along.” His mother also dropped out of college, he said. “There was not a great deal of emphasis on education.”

One Friday night, when Johnson was about 10 or 11 years old, he said he was watching a crime drama on television while babysitting his two younger brothers. The show discussed the crimes of two Princeton University students. As he watched, he got the distinct impression that he would one day attend Princeton University for college, he said. Though he knew nothing about the school at that time, he shared he never forgot that impression.

Feeling discouraged

During his freshman year of high school, Johnson’s family moved to the Bay Area in Northern California where they lived for about two years, he said. While there, Johnson’s father, “all of a sudden was discov-

ered at the JCPenney corporation and he was promoted,” Johnson said. His father got a job offer in New York City, he said.

Their entire family moved to New Jersey so his father could commute to work, and Johnson said they lived in a more affluent neighborhood than in California. “I was now living in a place where people talked about going to college,” he said, adding his school counselor encouraged him. At that point, he discovered Princeton was also in New Jersey, he shared.

“[However,] I learned you had to be pretty unique to go to Princeton. I did not fit the bill, so I was pretty confused.” Johnson shared, “I was pretty ordinary. I was a nondescript person in New Jersey.”

Revelation fulfilled

A popular, leather-jacket-clad student nicknamed Weasel was one of Johnson’s few school friends in New Jersey, Johnson said. Weasel asked Johnson if he would like to be the student body president of their high school, he shared, and Johnson thought it was a hypothetical question. Weasel told Johnson, “Sign up to run, and I’ll take care of the rest,” he said. Miraculously, with Weasel’s help, Johnson said he won—despite his lack of popularity.

Even though Johnson said he was not a particularly exceptional student, he received high marks on his Preliminary SAT and his counselor encouraged him to apply for Princeton. His experience as student body president and his test scores helped secure his admission.

While at college, Johnson said he met Bruce, one of the few members of the Church at Princeton. He said he believes God guided him to Princeton specifically so he could meet Bruce. Johnson and Bruce were close lifelong friends who had worked closely together.

Teaching in a Christlike way

Talking about what he has learned from his instructor, Samuel Hironaka, a senior political science major from Canada, said, “Our purpose on earth is to do the best we can. As long as we are honest with ourselves, we can rest easy knowing Christ will make up the rest.” This understanding of Christ’s grace–expecting effort while offering mercy–is reflected in Johnson’s teaching style, Hironaka said. “Elder Johnson has many sayings that he will offer the class. Two of my favorites are, ‘Comparison is the death of joy’ and the second being, ‘Don’t let perfection be the enemy of the good.’”

Trusting God’s plan together

Senior missionary Sister Gloria Johnson, Robert Johnson’s wife, said she has also feles God has a plan for her and her husband. When they were first engaged, she said her husband “had accepted an offer in a master’s program to a university in another state.” However, he was approached by the dean of the new BYU law school, she shared, who suggested he change his career path to study law.

Elder Johnson had not considered law school, but after making “[their] pros and cons list of which school to attend and which subject to pursue,” fasting and praying, she said they decided Elder Johnson would study law at BYU. “At the time, we felt as though it was a risky choice, but we chose to trust Heavenly Father. He knew us well and we knew it was the right decision.”

Finding peace and guidance

The belief that God knows each of us and is involved in the details of our lives is something that the Johnsons hold onto, said Sister Johnson. Believing in God, “takes away worry, and it brings peace and confidence to one’s soul,” she said.

She advised BYU–Hawaii students facing stressful and impactful decisions about issues, like marriage and careers, to seek as much information as possible about their situations and be open in prayer with God. “When you make the choice Heavenly Father knows is best for you, trust Him. He knows better than anyone .… You won’t need to ask anyone else what they think of your decision.”

Looking back at the stress Hironaka felt in high school, he said he now “can see that issues, while important at the time, were not that important.” He shared, “If you can honestly say you are [living by the directions and example given by Christ and Heavenly Father], then you can see your problems for the trivial and temporary things that they are … Knowledge of God’s plan has enabled me to take life one day at a time.” •

Believing in God, “takes away worry, and it brings peace and confidence to one’s soul.”

Sister Gloria Johnson

Photos by Hiroki Konno.

Page design by Ice Cesario.

BEYOND THE CLASSROOM: FIELD STUDY AT THE UNITED NATIONS

Working with U.N. policy makers on real-world issues, says BYUH students and a professor, connected classroom theories to actual practices

BY FRANCE VALERIE LUCILLO

BYU–Hawaii students traded textbooks for firsthand diplomacy as they stepped inside the United Nations Headquarters in New York City, presenting research, engaging with ambassadors and experiencing global policymaking at the Permanent Forum on Indigenous Issues. Students said they found themselves far from a typical classroom setting —where theories are being applied to real world diplomacy.

Christina Akanoa, an assistant professor of Faculty of Business & Government, said the purpose of the conference, held in New York from April 25 to May 3, 2025, was to bring classroom learning to life. “It’s about how the students learn how the United Nations and international community works—how they make decisions on a global level and understand its dynamics,” Akanoa said.

She explained students began preparing for the trip several weeks in advance and are now finishing the POSC 392R field study class this semester, which focuses on the Pacific Islands and Asia. “We’re meeting every week and working on their research paper before we go to the U.N.,” she explained.

Akanoa said students must take certain prerequisite classes to qualify for the field study.

“It’s the U.N. and International Organization class, which is POSC 384, and I also require them to take Pacific Regionalism and

Diplomacy, which focuses on the Pacific and on the international level,” she said.

Qudaela Taleni, a senior from Samoa double majoring in political science and anthropology, said the trip gave students the opportunity to attend the United Nations Permanent Forum on Indigenous Issues (UNPFII). “We witnessed the United Nations and other international organizations firsthand while also taking notes on the issues and recommendations each country and indigenous group seeks to advocate for,” Taleni said. She said topics such as climate change, nuclear testing, seabed mining, and the need for financial aid to assist with the initiatives to help combat these previously mentioned challenges were mentioned as well.

Taleni shared students were able to ask questions not only about research topics but also key priorities and issues that each Permanent Mission seeks to address at the U.N. level such as climate change, environmental and indigenous issues.

Taleni said, “The field study was an eye-opening experience, since we only learned about the United Nations in class, but actually experiencing and observing how the United Nations operates was mind-blowing.” She said she also appreciated visiting different Permanent Missions of the Pacific, including the Philippines (a non-Pacific island), as it gave her a better understanding of the Pasefika region’s

priorities at the U.N. and a deeper appreciation for the diplomats’ service to their countries.

John Andrew Quizana, a sophomore from the Philippines double majoring in accounting and political science, said students who were part of the field study were able to present their research papers to the ambassadors. “I had the opportunity to present my research on the implementation of the United Nations Declaration on the Rights of Indigenous Peoples in the Philippines, where I evaluated its successes and shortcomings while incorporating perspectives from various Asian countries,” he shared. He explained this experience deepened his understanding of the struggles indigenous communities face—particularly their limited representation in high-level government decision-making.

Akanoa said, “The highlight of the field study is for the students to sit down and have a talanoa or a discussion with ambassadors and permanent representatives of their own countries.” She said the students were able to present their research paper to the diplomats, ambassadors or permanent representatives from their respective home countries, who in return, provide up-to-date insights on the topics discussed. “It’s something you can’t read in books because it’s currently what they’re doing, how they’re prioritizing the issue they have in their country,” she explained.

Akanoa highlighted three key benefits students gain from attending international conferences like the annual U.N. forum in New York. “Students can learn where they can understand and accelerate from classroom to field level, they can make connections through networking, and lastly, they can understand the position of their own country as well,” Akanoa explained.

Quizana said it was a great experience for him to be able to come to the field study. “It’s kind of stressful because [political science department] usually sends seniors to the conference, but it was also an eye opener for me that I’ll be able to understand specific responsibilities and actions that the U.N. have,” Quizana said.

“I hope the students will use [this opportunity] to their advantage,” Akanoa stated. She shared students who joined this year’s conference were lucky enough to be able to go to New York as it did cost a huge amount of money. “We’re so fortunate to get funding from the university,” she said.

Akanoa hoped students who participated would go on to meaningfully contribute to their own countries. “Students usually ask the ambassadors [in U.N.], ‘So as a student, how can we contribute to our own country?’ And a lot of the times the ambassadors would say ‘Stay in school, graduate, get your degree, and then go back and serve your people in whatever capacity you can’,” she shared.

She stated opportunities like this conference help students become self-reliant and eventually help their own people. “Being self-reliant is not just about having resources that will last you for a lifetime. It’s also about accumulating knowledge and accumulating the necessary skills that’s going to help you take care of yourself, your family, your village, your community, your country,” Akanoa said.

As a political science major, Quizana described it as a privilege to engage in opportunities that bring his classroom learning to life. “I believe students learn more effectively when they can witness real-world events and applications,” he explained. “At BYU–Hawaii, we’re often given valuable information about global issues or specific topics, but not all students have the chance to apply that knowledge outside the classroom. These experiences help bridge that gap.”

“Being self-reliant is not just about having resources that will last you for a lifetime. It’s also about accumulating knowledge, accumulating the necessary skills, that’s going to help you take care of yourself, your community, your country.”

Christina Akanoa

“Attending conferences like this helps me better understand my purpose,” Quizana said, reflecting on how such experiences have shaped his path. He shared that these opportunities have inspired him to pursue a life grounded in service. “Being given the privilege to participate in events like this brings me closer to that purpose—to live a meaningful life dedicated to serving others,” he added.

“This experience has increased my desire to serve my country and to be a voice for those who do not have a voice, especially coming from an island nation. This experience has also motivated me to seek more educational opportunities to better serve my people,” Taleni said. •

The United Nations General Assembly Hall

Photo by John Andrew Quizana.

Photos of political science students during their interactions with United Nations leaders.

Photos provided by John Andrew Quizana. Page design by Elizabeth Schofield.

Photos of political science students during their interactions with United Nations leaders.

Photos provided by John Andrew Quizana. Page design by Elizabeth Schofield.

the LorD knew what was best for me

Jason Ila expressed remaining on the covenant path despite challenges is God’s plan for him

BY LINDA LAULU

Jason Ila, a senior from Papua New Guinea studying social work at BYU–Hawaii, said faith has never just been a part of life — it has been the foundation of every decision he’s made. From turning down a university offer to serve a mission to adjusting to life far from home, Ila said his journey is one shaped by deep gospel roots, sacrifice, and an unwavering commitment to his purpose.

Rooted in the gospel

Growing up, Ila said he was taught that the restored gospel of Jesus Christ should be the core of everything he does. “Sunday Sacrament services, ward, stake conferences, Family Home Evening, family scripture study and family counseling were a priority and not just a to-do list,” he said.

He said his grandmother was the only faithful member of his family and served as a spiritual guide throughout his life. He said, “Her faith, love and support have strengthened me financially, spiritually and physically.” He said she would sacrifice what she needed for him, and she would work so hard to help him earn whatever he needed.

Although his parents were not members of the Church, Ila said it did not stop him from going to church, and nourishing his faith through constant commitment to the gospel teachings. “Over time, I was eager to know what my future would be,” he said.

President Russell M. Nelson, in his April 2022 General Conference talk titled “The Power of Spiritual Momentum,” said, “I promise that as you consistently give the

Lord a generous portion of your time, He will multiply the remainder.”

Mission over university

“After high school, I received an offer to pursue my studies at one of Papua New Guinea’s (PNG) most [prestigious] universities, The University of Papua New Guinea, as a social work major in 2017,” said Ila.

However, he said he felt a greater calling. A few years later, he had the desire to be an instrument in the Lord’s work through missionary service. He said, “I applied and later received my mission call to serve in Papua New Guinea, Lae Mission, while still attending the University of PNG. Right there and then, I decided to withdraw from the university six months into school and serve my mission.”

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Sister Monica Kauwe, first lady of BYU–Hawaii, said, “Seeking revelation from God is vital not only for your personal spiritual growth but also for the success of your marriage and family.”

Ila shared, “On my mission, I had experiences that I wouldn’t trade with anything in this world. I have met so many souls on the mission, and seeing them turn to the Lord through baptism and finding light, opened my heart to learn and love more as Christ did.”

Though he knew most of the basic truths and doctrines of the gospel, Ila said, he still longed to know where life would take him. “There I was convinced to experience [life] for myself, by exercising faith,” he said.

Facing trials with faith

Toward the end of Ila’s service, he said he faced obstacles and was not able to fulfill this goal all the time as a missionary, but at the end of his mission, he said he felt inspiration to return to his home. He said, “It took a while to fully understand the Lord’s plan for me.

However, after constant prayer and fasting, immersing myself in the power of the Savior’s infinite Atonement through repentance, I found peace and reassurance that I have a loving Heavenly Father, who loves and will never forsake us especially in our hard times.”

Quoting Elder Dale G. Renlund from his April 2015 General Conference talk “Latter-day Saints Keep on Trying,” Ila said, “God cares a lot more about who we are and who we are becoming than about who we once were.” He shared this quote motivated him to keep having faith in the Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, and the power of His infinite Atonement.

He continued, “Even though it was not easy to remain faithful at a very chaotic time, with people around me who pointed fingers, judged, and mocked me,” he still felt called to share the gospel with his family. “I know for myself the Lord has a very sacred call for me in my home, sharing the same light and love I did on my mission, with my parents and loved ones who needed to hear and taste the truthfulness of His restored gospel.”

“...The Lord Himself will guide you through the path that seems difficult.”

A mother’s wish and a change of path

Ila said after a year, “I got redirected to make education a priority after counseling with my mother. Furthering my education was something she really wished for” him to do. He said he didn’t want to attend school at the time because he was influenced by some of his friends to serve in the military. “One day, I shared my feelings with my mother about what I wanted. She said, ‘I need you to attend BYU–Hawaii. If you choose to go into the military, I will not consider you my son.’ My mother’s words resonated with me the rest of my life,” he said.

“In 2021, I applied for BYU–Hawaii and got accepted. I started school in the Fall of 2022 and chose to continue pursuing my interests as a social work major,” he said.

Inspired to serve his people

With the encouragement and motivation from President Dieter F. Uchtdorf’s October 2008 General Conference message “Lift Where

Jason Ila pose while looking at the Laie Hawaii Temple

Photo taken by Hiroki Konno. Page design by Cho Yong Fei.

You Stand,” Ila said, “Seeing my people’s suffering in poverty, abuse, and environmental issues, moved me to pursue this dream.” His wish is to give back to those in his home country by motivating all to have freedom through their thoughts and everything they do.

Ila said he wants to use “the knowledge, skills and talent gained in this university to expand knowledge and help individuals from home have a voice.”

“Similar to meeting new souls and seeing their eyes light up with joy and peace in the gospel of Christ, I am moved to strive and maintain effective studies and remain on the covenant path in this journey so I can do the same returning home, lighting more eyes in the joy of life,” he said. “Despite many difficulties, such as lack of sleep, hunger at times, discouragement, and missing home a little extra, I continue so I can reach my goal and serve my people.”

A life-changing decision

“Looking back, I would say making the decision to decline a university offer to serve a full-time mission was the greatest sacrifice and yet a life-changing moment for me,” Ila said. “The Lord knew what was best for me even in moments of doubt, discouraged by families and friends, but it had a great impact on me to have faith.”

He said, “In life, it can be hard if you can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, but through faith, the Lord Himself will guide you through the path that seems difficult.” He said what has encouraged him is knowing that by obtaining a good education, doors of opportunity would be opened for him.

Adjusting to a new world

“Being given the opportunity to study here at BYUH and being the only child in my family,

I feel a sense of responsibility to my parents and familiy members who look up to me as a source of light, strength and inspiration,” Ila said. Attending this university, he added, gives him so much pride and joy, yet he also fears the challenges that come with it. “Cultural shock was definitely a challenge,” he said.

He said adjusting to a new lifestyle of balancing work and studies simultaneously was something he wasn’t prepared for. “However, I was able to manage this adjustment by learning the importance of time management and prioritizing my schedules to balance studies, work and social life,” he said.

President Nelson once said, “Education is a religious responsibility.” Ila added, “Although it took me a while to figure out the best way to navigate my college [experience], this adjustment has taught [me] a lot of life lessons as I prepare to go into the real world.”•

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BLOOMING THROUGH THE SEASONS OF motherhood

BY WINSLETTE QUIRAY-SANTIAGO

A young BYUH mom reflects on how each season of her first year with her baby carried growth, sacrifice and a deepened understanding of love

The last day of the Spring 2024 Semester marked not only the end of the classes but also the beginning of a life-changing journey into motherhood for Nia Balledos, a junior majoring in health and human science from the Philippines. Reflecting on her experiences, she shared how motherhood transformed her in ways she did not anticipate, mirroring the changing seasons.

Becoming a mother, she said, showed her a glimpse into how Heavenly Father sees and loves His children. With a son, Kaven, who is almost 1 year old, she shared, “When I look at my baby, I feel this indescribable special love. I have this desire to protect and love him no matter what.”

Reflecting on how God continues to love His children even when they fall astray and still wants to take care and guide them in the right direction, Balledos said she feels the same way about her son. “I never thought I could love like this,” she expressed.

Kate Babetin, a registered psychotherapist in Ontario, says in her article titled “The Birth of a Mother: A Psychological Transformation,” there is no experience more impactful, all-encompassing and life-altering to a woman’s life than becoming a mother. “The transformation from woman to mother is a psychologically-profound experience that both overlaps and is separate from the physical experience of becoming a mother,” she says.

Springing into a new chapter

Though the pregnancy was planned, Balledos said the emotions that came with it were still overwhelming. “It’s still a different kind of excitement when we found out we were expecting a child,” she said. “Hearing the baby’s little heartbeat in my belly was really special,” she added.

Describing herself as the type of person who always seeks growth and does not want to feel stagnant, she said attending BYU–Hawaii provided her an opportunity to grow even more. With an additional family member coming, she said it brought her and her husband more joy and more opportunities for personal development.

Nia Balledos with son Kaven smiling at the camera. All photos taken by John Andrew Quizana.

Balledos said her thoughts now turned towards the future. “That’s when I realized this is really a change not only just for me but also for my relationship with my husband and family,” she said. “I know it is not going to be easy, but we can go through it together,” she said.

She said the feelings of excitement are also paired with feelings of nervousness. She said she had a new sense of responsibility, and she had to ask herself questions like: “Do I ride my bike or not?” during the early months of her pregnancy. “I have to take care of this baby because God has entrusted me to take care of someone so special,” she shared.

Having studied pregnancy in textbooks and lectures, Balledos said she felt privileged to experience it firsthand, especially as a first-time mom. “It was a blessing to take care of something so fragile,” she said.

A labor of love

The summer heat brought the long-anticipated arrival of baby Kaven, she said. “I was in labor and gave birth literally the last day of Spring Semester,” Balledos said. Likening the wait for her baby’s arrival to students anticipating summer break, she said, “Just like a student hoping for the best in their last final exam the last week before summer, we were also praying and hoping there wouldn’t be any complications in the delivery.”

Despite hearing stories of intense pain during delivery from others, she said, “I actually don’t know if I just have a high pain tolerance, but it is also not as bad as I thought it would be.”

Recalling the moments a few hours before her delivery made her and her husband laugh and brought fond memories, she said. “It was getting hot, and I was feeling all the contractions and the tightening of the belly,” she recalled. Even so, she said her husband still managed to finish an exam, and they were still able to have dinner at home before heading to the hospital.

After calling to report she was already spotting and having contractions every 5 minutes, she said, “The nurse warned us they might send us home because they can’t believe I was still able to talk.” She said they decided to go since the hospital is in Kailua, an hour and 30 minutes away from Laie.

“I know it is not going to be easy, but we can go through it together.”

When they arrived at the hospital, the nurses immediately checked Balledos and found she was already 5 centimeters dilated, halfway through labor. “The pain accelerated very quickly when I was at my 6 to 7 centimeters. I was shaking already,” she said.

Starting their summer as parents, Balledos expressed becoming a mom changed how she viewed others, and she developed a new appreciation for mothers. “I used to look at other moms and think I could do it too, since they make it look so easy. Now I never look at mothers the same way again,” she shared.

Once discharged from the hospital, Balledos said they were on their own. “When I experienced it, it was really hard. There is no manual on how to be a good mother, but as you learn and go through it, you will realize you can do it,” she said.

Learning to let go and grow stronger

The weight of the responsibility of taking a newborn child was immediate, Balledos said. “I already knew it wasn’t going to be easy, but I also didn’t know it would be this hard. I had to learn to let go of myself,” she expressed. Balledos said that was the hardest thing for her to experience.

Before having a baby, she said she focused on caring for herself, her husband, and spending time with friends. “When the baby comes, you don’t have a break,” she said. A baby is now fully dependent on her to take care of and survive, she said. “I have to sacrifice my sleep even though I am so tired and want to sleep more. It always felt like I was in a rush, and it was really tiring,” she explained.

She said her marriage also felt the shift since becoming parents was a new experience for both. “At first, my husband and I would fight. It used to be just the two of us, and now there would be someone crying to be fed or to pay attention to,” she shared.

Amid the hardships and sacrifices, Balledos said she still found fulfillment in taking care of her child, someone she loves. “I saw my husband change and stand up to his responsibility as a father,” she said. “He took care of me before, but he cares for me more now, and of course, the baby,” she explained.

Although she learned to become more selfless for the baby, this experience also reminded her of the importance of self-care. “Pregnancy and taking care of the baby can really take a toll on our bodies and mental health, especially with postpartum depression,” she said.

Because a woman’s mind and body go through a lot of changes, overwhelming feelings of sadness and anxiety lasting longer than two weeks during and after pregnancy may indicate postpartum depression, according to the official website of the Office on Women’s Health under the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services. “Treatment for depression, such as therapy or medicine, works and can help you and your baby be as healthy as possible in the future,” it says.

Nia Balledos and husband playing outdoors with their son. All photos taken by John Andrew Quizana.

“I saw my husband change and stand up to his responsibility as a father... He took care of me before, but he cares for me more now, and of course, the baby.”

“I realized that I can still step up my game. I applied for jobs and now I am working on my dream campus job, which is at the Health Center. It’s all part of God’s plan.”

Navigating the cold realities post-pregnancy

Balledos said young mothers can feel isolated, especially when family is miles away. “There will be times when you feel lonely and no one sees you,” she shared. “It’s never easy to have the heavy responsibility of being a mother, but what comes with this was pure fulfillment and the kind of joy that you can never describe and compare,” she said.

Returning to work just two weeks after giving birth was difficult, Balledos said. “When I get to work, I feel like crying because I miss my baby so much,” she expressed, describing the “mom guilt” she felt as she juggled between work, school and parenting.

“It was really hard because I wanted to be home with the baby. We had been together for nine months, and now I have to leave him behind at home to fulfill my responsibility to work,” she explained.

Balledos said balancing everything as a wife, student and an employee feels impossible at first. “I did not expect to still be sociable. I thought if I were a mom and juggling with everything, I would be too busy,” she explained. While navigating all of this, she also quit her job and took a break because it was getting too hard.

She said one thing she realized is she can make time for herself and make time to visit friends or hang out with them. “I realized I can still step up my game. I applied for jobs and now I am working on my dream campus job, which is at the Health Center. It’s all part of God’s plan,” she said.

She encouraged others not to be afraid to reach out to the resources available on campus for expectant and young mothers. “Don’t hesitate to reach out to Women’s Services and Resources and the missionaries who are ready to help, whether it’s with lactation support, adjustment to motherhood or professional help,” she said.•

Nia Balledos and Kyle Bernadas with their son smile as they pose for a family picture.

Photo taken by John Andrew Quizana. Page design by Elizabeth Schofield.

IRIS MCGEORGE SAYS HABIT CHANGE LED HER TO SUCCESS

McGeorge says her accomplishments come from daily habits of discipline, inner self-belief and making meaningful connections

BY PIM HOOTINI

Photos taken by Hiroki Konno.

Planning, self-belief and human connection are habits that shape success, said Iris McGeorge, a junior marketing major from Thailand. “Being homeschooled taught me how to plan and improve myself, but now I’m learning to let people in because no success in life can replace the relationships you have,” she said.

WHILE BEING HOMESCHOOLED

Growing up in Thailand, McGeorge said having a homeschool background allowed her to create her own curriculum with the help and guidance of her parents. “I planned what I studied and my parents would double-check it with educational experts to make sure it was a good plan,” she said.

Before she was homeschooled, McGeorge said she attended a formal school where she struggled academically and felt inadequate. “My grades were bad and people told me I wasn’t going to succeed, but my mom homeschooled me to prove I was just as smart as everyone else,” she said.

“It took long hours and hard work, but when I finally did well on a test, I realized I could succeed too,” said McGeorge. During her homeschool years, she said she worked with tutors and followed a strict academic schedule, which eventually helped her see her potential.

She said one of the most important habits she developed was learning to stop discrediting herself after failure. “You still feel disappointed when things go wrong, but you have to keep going and not let those emotions stop you,” she continued.

Through those formative years, McGeorge said she slowly built confidence by focusing on her progress instead of perfection. “I didn’t feel fully confident until I was around 18 or 19, but I needed that time to figure out what I was capable of,” she said.

TRANSITION TO CLASS IN PERSON

Now in college, McGeorge said transitioning from homeschooling to attending class in person was challenging because she said she wanted people to see more of who she is beyond her organized planner personality. “When you’re always organizing and planning, you forget to leave space for people to really know you,” she said.

McGeorge said this habit became important to her after realizing rigid schedules and task lists were limiting her ability to connect with others. “I want to be more present with people and have deeper conversations, not just focus on what’s next on my to-do list,” she said.

Since the Fall Semester of 2024, McGeorge said she has made an intentional effort to open up to friends and family and create more shared experiences. “I’ve been making more time for my loved ones and our relationships have gotten stronger,” she said.

As she’s learned to let others in, McGeorge said she’s seen growth in her friendships and a deeper sense of community. “We don’t just talk about our favorite movies anymore. We understand each other’s struggles and that makes life feel lighter,” she said.

When asked how she works on new habits, McGeorge said she doesn’t rely heavily on books or online resources but she values real conversations and honest feedback. “Talking to people and getting their perspective helps the most because other people see you differently than you see yourself,” she said.

She said relationships have become a priority in her personal development because no achievement can replace the support and love of those around her. “No amount of success can substitute for meaningful relationships,” she said.

Photos of Iris McGeorge and Veheani Krause finding joy in a good book under the open sky. All photos taken by Hirokki Konno.

VISION FOR THE FUTURE

Looking ahead, McGeorge said she hopes to become more approachable and friendly, especially as she prepares for a career in the business world. “I can come off as serious or distant, but I want to be someone people feel safe and comfortable to be with,” she said.

McGeorge said she envisions herself working in the Business-to-Business (B2B) marketing field, particularly in civil engineering, where clear communication and trust are essential. “People open up more about their needs when they feel heard, and that only happens if you’re friendly and approachable,” she said.

To build that image, McGeorge said she is focused on visualizing the kind of person she wants to be and then taking small, consistent steps to get there. “You have to picture who you want to become and then slowly fill in that outline,” she said.

As she reflects on her childhood dreams, McGeorge said she once imagined becoming someone like a Disney princess, always happy, smiling and full of light. “But I realized you don’t just become that person. Life shapes you through hard times,” she said.

She said she’s still on the journey of becoming the person she imagined, but with more depth and resilience than she expected. “I can still be that person in my head, but only if I let life shape me in a positive way,” she continued.

When it comes to knowing what habits to work on, McGeorge said it starts with being honest with yourself and listening to the people who care about you. “You have to know your worth while you’re changing. That’s what helps you grow without losing who you are,” she said.•

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It takes a vILLage

Married students share how friendship turned to family with the coming of two new babies

BY GENE CYMMER RAMIREZ

According to a 2022 article in Frontiers in Public Health by Andrea Reupert et al., there is an African proverb that teaches, “It takes a village to raise a child.” The article explains the proverb conveys the message that providing an ideal and flourishing environment for a child requires the efforts and warmth of more than just the parents. Whether it’s through directly caring for the child, or just through supporting the parents in this new chapter of their lives, the “villagers” provide a crucial and helpful role, explains the article.

In spite of this, the article also raises the concern that many communities today are now indifferent in providing help or for asking for it, as many countries now have fragmented and dissipated “villages” who further contribute to the isolation and disconnection of families and communities. For a circle of married couples on the BYU–Hawaii campus, however, as they welcomed babies Kaiel and Kaleah into their ‘ohana,’ their bonds of friendship and family have only grown stronger.

Though Kaleah and Kaiel have their loving parents, L. Tom Cabais, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in psychology, shared they are blessed with an even bigger family, one they can rely on at any time. “Our friends who take care of our children give them the love and care they need, and so they have cultivated something more than friendship. They’ve created an ohana for our children to grow in.”

Miguel Agustin, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in computer science, said their friends were always present whenever they needed help. “They would initiate cleaning our home when we can’t, carrying Kaleah if we wanted to rest and taking care of her if we needed to be somewhere,” he said. Because of their friends’ act of service, their friendship and support last until eternity, he shared.

Cabais shared their friends’ support reaches further than temporal objectives. “They have helped me as a father, in my goals to honor the divine design of presiding, providing and protecting my household,” he said. Whenever he needs help with Kaiel, he knows he can call on his friends anytime, he shared.

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Jeya Eder, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in psychology, said she saw her friends grow as they took on the roles of fathers and mothers.

“Having a child isn't an easy responsibility.We saw our friends show maturity in their decision by putting their child's wants and needs above their own,” she said. Eder said it was scary at first to try and take care of Kaiel and Kaleah for the first time, but the fear turned into excitement as they felt their friends’ encouragement and support.

Photos taken by Hiroki Konno.

“Together as friends, for their babies, we’ve built relationships that naturally extend love and care.”

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“We see it as a special opportunity because we treat their child like family too,” said her husband, Jhayvee Eder, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in information technology. He said it’s important for them to come together as a community so the children can feel love and support beyond their immediate family. He said there is a special, divine purpose to their friendship and that is them being instruments to share the love the Savior has for them.

Zia Martinez, a junior from the Philippines majoring in computer and information science, said while their friends now had more responsibilities with their children, they are still able to focus on what truly matters, which is why they are ready to help them in any way they can. “We love their baby, and we genuinely want to help,” she said.

Her husband, Michael Martinez, a junior from the Philippines majoring in business management, said life gets overwhelming especially for working students who have just become firsttime parents. “Together as friends, for their babies, we’ve built relationships that naturally extend love and care,” he shared.

whatever Love we are LackIng

“Despite the isolation in the world today, we must never be alone when raising our child,” said Meredith Villaluz, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in business management. She said

her friends showed her it is important as a mother to receive support and affirmations from others that they are doing alright. As individuals who are still navigating the world of parenting, she said she is grateful to have friends who act as families when they are far from their own.

“There is no limit to how much love a child can receive. Our friends’ love fills whatever love we are lacking,” said Villaluz. She said their friends’ compassion towards Kaiel helps him feel that he is loved by everyone around him, which is the most significant thing a friend can do.

With friends who treat them like family and have helped in ways she could never have imagined, Ana Carmela Agustin from the Philippines, shared she is deeply grateful for the selfless service and powerful examples their friends have set. “They’ve provided us with food and even offered free counseling and therapy through conversations that have helped me more than I could have ever expected,” she said.

“Their presence in our lives is a blessing, and Kaleah is lucky to have such wonderful role models,” said Ana Carmela Agustin. She shared the positive influence of their friends has been a constant source of encouragement and has made their journey as parents even more fulfilling.

as new Parents

Ana Carmela Agustin said she felt a combined emotional rush of happiness, excitement and anticipation as she imagined the future and all the moments she would experience with her baby.When their daughter Kaleah finally came into their lives, Agustin said it wasn’t easy at first. Though she had already taken care of babies–nephews and nieces–before, she said having her baby felt completely new and different because it came with the role and love found only in motherhood.

Agustin and her husband worked hard to figure out how to give the best for their baby, she shared. “It was a bit overwhelming at times, but we kept learning, adjusting and supporting each other to make sure we were doing the best we could for our daughter,” she said.

When her husband, Miguel Agustin, first learned he was going to be a father, he felt overwhelmed in the best way, he shared. He said though he had no idea how to raise a child and kept asking himself if he was ready, the joy he felt in realizing he was going to be a parent overcame his fear. “Deep down, I knew it was going to be life-changing and even though I was scared, I

“There is no limit to how much love a child can receive. Our friends’ love fills whatever love we are lacking.”

Meredith Villaluz

was also really looking forward to this new chapter,” he shared. He said everyday is a day of learning with their daughter as they strive to prioritize giving all they can to Kaleah.

Villaluz also said, “Being a mother is the hardest role a person could ask for.” After giving birth to their baby boy Kaiel just a month ago, Villaluz said taking care of a child is the most challenging but most rewarding job. She said having her baby opened a new perspective in life, one that promises joy and goes beyond all the sleepless nights.

Her husband, Cabais, said a precious moment he felt in the first moments of being a father was when he saw his son overcome the many tests, needles and samples to make sure he was a healthy baby. “One of the most fulfilling things about being a father is seeing your child sleep, eat and grow,” he said.•

Photos by Hiroki Konno. Page design by Ice Cesario.

better habIts for a better mInD

Discover the impact of daily habits on mental well-being and explore practical solutions to support mental health

BY TAY KANG

The belief that small habit changes don’t have a tangible impact on mental health is a myth, said Ember Christensen, a physician from BYU–Hawaii’s Health Center. While one small habit might not solve serious mental health challenges, she said changing habits is worth it because the habits of an individual make up their character and determine their direction in life, for better or worse. “The small things we do each day determine where we’ll be and what we’ll be doing 10-20 years from now,” she said.

One practical habit every student should try to support their mental well-being is having a daily prayer, Christensen emphasized. “Prayer centers us on Jesus Christ, our Creator, who knows and understands us perfectly. If we can keep ourselves centered on Christ, our daily challenges will seem smaller, and we’ll have the strength and focus to overcome each challenge,” she said.

For those who feel too busy or overwhelmed to prioritize their mental health, Christensen shared the teaching of the Prophet Russell M. Nelson. The Prophet said caring for our spiritual health is as important as eating food to care for our physical body. “Just like we need to eat regularly, we need to take care of our spirits and minds each day,” she said.

Christensen encouraged students to reach out to Counseling Services if they want to take better care of their mental health but don’t know where to start. “Our Counseling Center on campus has amazing therapists with a range of experience and expertise. I would start there,” she said. She explained each counselor is well-qualified to help students and will refer them to the Health Center when medical intervention is needed.

The infographic on the next few pages presents simple, effective and attainable habits experts say can support a person’s mental health.

Irregular sleeping schedule

In the long term, it increases the risk of depression. In the short term, it may cause a foul mood.

Doom scrolling

It can worsen depression, anxiety, negative thoughts and feelings. It leads to irritability and a lack of productivity.

Dehydration

It causes brain fog and low-quality sleep. One may experience rapid heartbeat, muscle tension and fatigue.

Regular sleeping schedule

It improves mental and physical performance and makes coping with stress and minor negative experiences easier.

Digital-detox

It reduces stress and anxiety and improves concentration, sleep, productivity and connection to reality.

Hydration

It promotes calmness and alertness while decreasing tension, depression and confusion.

-Sleep seven to nine hours each night, sleeping and waking up at the same time

-Use bedtime and wake-up alarms

-Keep a bedtime routine to relax and prepare for sleep: Meditation, yoga, relaxing music, journaling and reading

-Avoid bright lights and screen time at least 60 to 90 minutes before bed

-Step away from digital distractions for a designated period–a day or even a week

-Set a tech-free area where electronic devices are restricted

-Replace with alternative activities: Exercise, reading, listening to music, meditation

-Take breaks from scrolling intermittently

-Consume four to six cups of pure water daily

-Always carry a water bottle

-Eat food with high water content (e.g., grapes, cucumbers, celery, zucchini, cauliflower)

-Start the day with water, as it improves the entire day’s cognitive function

Social isolation

It causes loneliness, which leads to depression, dementia, suicidal tendencies, and increases the risk of early death.

Overtraining

Excessive physical stress without sufficient rest develops symptoms of irritability, anxiety, and depression.

Poor postures

Slouching stresses muscles to work harder to support one’s body, easily draining one’s energy.

Healthy relationship

Oxytocin, a love hormone generated from social interaction, increases generosity and a sense of altruism.

Proper and moderate exercise

It pumps endorphins, increasing happiness and energy while reducing stress and pain.

Good postures

It can sustain self-esteem and positivity and reduce negative moods. It increases speech rate and relieves self-focus.

-Join and invite people to a group with shared interests

-Strive to support, thank and be responsive to others

-Invest time in socialization: family, friends, neighbours, volunteer organization, local community

-Seek to communicate and resolve negative feelings and conflicts

-Take a break for at least six hours between periods of exercise

-Dedicate one day every week to recovery

-Track workouts and feelings of well-being

-Acknowledge body’s pain, fatigue and stress; talk to professionals

-Learn simple stretches and do them a few times a day

-Get up and move around every 20 to 30 minutes

-Practice looking down on screens with only eyes, not bending the neck and keeping the chin up

-Seek a physical therapist and physiatrist for serious help

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Illustrations by Guen Ramirez. Page design by Ice Cesario.

Avoiding professional help

It may limit social and occupational opportunities and develop serious psychosis, as well as a higher risk of relapse.

Seeking professional remedy

Early intervention minimizes the risk of developing more serious symptoms and secondary complications.

-Realize mental illness is not an individual’s fault or weakness, where one should overcome it by oneself

-Reach out to mental health supporting resources: counselor, psychiatrist, local and national groups

-Prevent isolation, reaching out to trusted family, friends and supporters

-Call or text 988 for immediate help, (808) 832-3100 for Hawaii CARES

THE FIRST TO GO

BY LINDA LAULU

Attending college isn’t just about themselves: It’s about their families and future generations, say first-generation BYUH students

Photo provided by Lusila Lealii E’e

Being the first in her family to attend college comes with pressure and pride, said Lusila Lealii E’e, a senior studying Pacific Island Studies from New Zealand. She shared one of the biggest challenges is doing things independently. “Because I hadn’t had people before me [to attend college,] I had to figure out everything. It was hard because it felt lonely at times,” she said. Despite these challenges, E’e said she found ways to adapt and thrive as she accepted her mother’s advice to consistently attend the temple, surround herself with those she loved and do her best in her studies.

Thrilled but tested

Recalling her acceptance to BYU–Hawaii, E’e said, “I remember I got the acceptance letter around April 2021. It was just over a year after my mission and COVID was still looming. We were all living in uncertain times, and I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to go.” The acceptance letter brought a sense of purpose and excitement during a time of uncertainty, she added.

Haley Cowan, a senior majoring in elementary education from Taylorsville, Utah, said she feels her family’s pride and support when she decided to go to college. “Since being a student, I have felt how proud my family is of me. This goes back to even aunts and uncles, grandparents and even my ancestors,” she shared. The connection to her family’s sacrifices and hopes is a powerful motivator, she shared.

Cowan said she wasn’t accepted the first time she applied to BYUH, which was difficult because she felt strongly she was meant to be there. “After some time, I decided to apply again and was accepted. I can’t explain the spirit I felt confirming this was exactly where I needed to be,” she said, reflecting on the resilience that brought her to campus.

Being a first-generation college student felt overwhelming at times, she said, especially knowing her education could shape her future.

“It’s been hard not having people in my family who have gone through the same experiences,”

The homesickness and the weight of expectations were significant hurdles, but she said her determination kept her going.

Attending college was not only for them but their loved ones.

Malia Ekuasi, a junior from Tonga majoring in business management said, “Starting school was super exciting because it felt like it was the beginning of a new chapter for me.” Reflecting on her challenges as a first-generation college student, she said, “No one really prepared me for all the endless homework, assignments, stress, hair loss and sleepless nights. It was a new environment and lifestyle that I had to discover on my own,” she explained. The transition was tough, but it also brought growth and resilience, she added.

Support systems and family connections

E’e’s friends became her family away from home, she shared, “They have helped me to stay focused in school but more importantly stay gospel focused,” she added. Through consistent check-ins, gatherings, ventings and time together through video calls and chats, she shared a strong sense of support and love, feeding my soul with words of encouragement daily. It has increased her confidence to keep pushing forward day after day, she said.

For Cowan, her parents were her biggest supporters. “They have helped me in more ways than I could’ve ever asked or hoped for. They are always checking in on me and encouraging me to keep going with my education,” she said. Their sacrifices and encouragement were a constant source of strength, she added,

College changed Ekuasi’s perspective on family. “Being in college opened my eyes to understand the world differently and also understand my family. It helped humble me and helped me connect and understand each and every one of my family members,” she said, and deepening her appreciation for her loved ones.

Advice for new students

Believing in the reward of perfect assignments when done ahead of time, Ekuasi’s advised students to avoid procrastination and be on top of deadlines when it comes to completing school work.

E’e advised new students to enjoy every moment. “Prioritize school of course, but don’t let that hold you back from being in the moment and having fun. Time is so precious here and goes by way too fast,” she said.

Cowan’s advice is to embrace learning from every experience. “This goes deeper than just the education. It is the connections with people from all over the world, the work opportunities that connect you to new cultures, the spiritual experiences, and embracing the fact that things change and that’s okay,” she advised. •

Photos of Haley and Malia taken by Cho Yong Fei.

Page design by Lizzy Schofield

BY TAY KANG

BYUH students share how culture shock became a catalyst for personal growth

blooming throughculture shock

Culture shock opened doors for personal growth, said BYU–Hawaii students. From exploring new aspects of identity to navigating self-reliance and adapting to different learning environments, students said their journey shaped them into more confident, independent and open-minded individuals.

Nurturing self-identity amid alienation

Victoria Husted, a freshman majoring in Pacific Island studies and biology from California, said she was surprised by Hawaii’s openness and aloha spirit. Growing up half-American and half-Romanian, she said she felt alienated when trying to form deeper cultural connections, which motivated her to explore her identity more deeply.

In Hawaii’s ethnically diverse environment, Husted said she was amazed by its inclusivity. “The Aloha spirit is so strong, and everyone has each other’s back here,” she said. She noted the everyday generosity in Hawaii, especially in public transportation. Unlike the mainland, where riding the bus never felt safe to her, she shared she felt safe in Hawaii. The buses display shaka and mahalo signs to express gratitude, even in inconvenient situations, she said.

Despite Hawaii’s hospitality, Husted said her unique heritage made it difficult to feel a sense of belonging. “Being the only half-Romanian in this university made me feel alone,” she said. Watching ethnic groups in BYUH bond and support each other, she said their enthusiasm helped her make friends but left her struggling to connect culturally. “I can connect as an American or a foreigner, but connecting with Eastern European culture is difficult since it’s so rare on campus,” she said.

Although she grew up exposed to the Romanian language, cuisines and traditions, she explained she remained unfamiliar with its deeper cultural aspects. Seeing Polynesians enthusiastically practice their roots, speak their languages, and stay connected to tradition, she said made her more aware of what she lacked. “I never got to learn my mother’s

language because I had a speech disability growing up. I couldn’t connect to my mom personally, and it sometimes made me feel like an outsider, even as her daughter,” she said.

Husted said her Introduction to the Pacific Island Studies class helped her reflect on her heritage. In Professor Norman Thompson’s lectures on cultural identity and subjugation, she said she realized the importance of enthusiasm and energy in self-discovery. “It was eye-opening as someone trying to connect to both my mom’s Romanian side and my dad’s side. It gave me a broader view of what I need to do to connect those two cultures and embrace the different cultures in my family,” she said.

Inspire by the Pacific Islanders’ resilience, Husted said the course motivated her to learn her mother’s language and explore Romanian culture beyond recipes and history. “It was an eye-opener. Despite all the challenges, they preserved their culture and language and are still fighting for their identity within the world. That also inspired me to fight for mine,” she said.

Support from friends helped her adjust to culture shock, Husted shared. “During new student orientation, I was actually crying the whole time, getting emotional that my parents were leaving,” she said. As she returned to her dorm, trying to hide her tears, she said another freshman from Fiji noticed and asked why she was crying. “I told her it was my first time being alone without my parents, and I felt vulnerable. She told me it’s completely fine to cry,” she said. Husted said she felt emotionally supported as they walked back to their dorm, having arms around each other.

Overcoming the difficulty of feeling excluded as a cultural minority, Husted said her social connections at BYUH helped her feel included. “You can connect by being friends, finding common ground, or enjoying each other’s presence. The emotional support I gain from these relationships really helped me adjust,” she said. She added joining the Aotearoa club, despite not being Maori or from New Zealand, she found a sense of

belonging. “Regardless of background, I felt unity. I was having fun, and I didn’t feel like an outsider,” she said.

Moving to Hawaii helped her reflect on her identity, but the journey isn’t over, Husted said. “My identity will continue to evolve. Who knows if I will continue to experience culture shock? I’m still learning things about Hawaii. I have much more to go and develop,” she said.

Growing self-reliance in individualism

Coming to BYUH alone for ollege without the support of family and close friends both challenged and strengthened her to be self-reliant, said Enkhchimeg Zorigt, a senior majoring in business management from Mongolia. “Everyone here is very independent and has personal space. Also, people don’t care about you much because they focus more on themselves. Here, you have to do it on your own,” she said. Coming from a collective and family-oriented society where close relatives and friends care for and support her, she shared it was a major lifestyle shift.

Zorigt shared the changes brought emotional challenges, especially since she didn’t have close friends to lean on when she first arrived. “I had a really hard time in my first year. I was crying almost every day,

thinking I could not handle this, but I wasn’t a kid anymore. I had to behave and think like a grown-up. I had to deal with problems on my own,” she said.

Driven by her dedication to pursue education, Zorigt shared she faced such difficulties with courage. “If I were back home, I might have given up. But I cannot just go back home, so I have to deal with it whether I want it or not,” she said. She added this mindset helped her make decisions independently and confront problems directly.

Zorigt added she struggled with language barriers, challenging her to express herself and share her opinions. “I decided to study and improve my English to communicate better, so I don’t have to cry anymore,” she said. By overcoming each challenge step by step, she shared she gained confidence in solving problems on her own. “I still cannot tell if I am completely mature, but I developed much more than when I was back home,” she said.

Developing independence helped her engage in a business competition, where individual preparation was essential for team success, Zorigt said. “We had to meet almost every day as a team, doing our own part, no one telling us what to do. You have to do everything on your own,”

Photos of Enkhchimeg Zorigt taken by Hiroki Konno.

she said. She explained collaboration based on individual contributions enables greater and more meaningful teamwork. She added that individualism helped her communicate clearly, reminding her the responsibility to interact with and progress as a team.

“Collaboration roots from independence and interdependence,” shared Zorigt. While preparing for a presentation during the competition, she shared she had to memorize her script solely. “There were some parts where I worked with my teammates, but they cannot be with me 24/7. I had to memorize it alone, with nobody instructing and reminding me to work on it,” she said. She took the initiative to learn to be self-motivated, proactive, and productive. She said these skills led to stronger teamwork, ultimately winning in the competition.

Overcoming culture shock, Zorigt shared a growth mindset and positive attitude helped her move forward. “Even though you fail today, there’s always tomorrow. You can do better,” she said. She explained she reminded herself that every day was a new opportunity and a beginning to grow. Friends in Hawaii supported her through tough times, and she explained staying in touch with family and friends back home empowered her. “In every situation when battling things happened, I would pray

to God to feel strength. Every time I overcome or face a challenge, I find blessings,” she said.

In her first year, Zorigt said she often missed Mongolia. At the same time, she explained she saw her home country as a developing nation with many difficulties, such as air pollution and traffic and did not want to return. “I was seeing all of them as problems, not as opportunities to grow,” she said. Through studying business, she said she learned problems can represent opportunities, as people have chances to improve and create change.

“Here, everything is already developed. But in Mongolia, we have room for development. There’s so much more we can do in Mongolia than here. So, I see Mongolia as more of an opportunity,” Zorigt said. She expressed she hopes to contribute her passion for business to help her country prosper.

Cultivating adaptability in educational differences

Thipwigorn Khamjan, a junior majoring in business management from Thailand, said she experienced her biggest culture shocks in BYUH’s classroom settings, leading her to develop new learning skills

“...Every time I overcome or face a challenge, I find blessings”

Enkhchimeg Zorigt

and build confidence. “In our culture, we don’t speak up much in the classroom. We mostly stay quiet and listen to the professor,” she said. Speaking up and asking questions during class were common in the U.S. educational environment, she added. “I felt like they were so smart, and I’m too shy to speak up,” she said.

Because of this difference in attitude toward education, Khamjan shared she worried she might be perceived as disinterested or unengaged in lectures and courses. “We were taught to be obedient to our teachers, so it wasn’t something I couldn’t change in a short amount of time,” she said. Even when she did participate, she often felt misunderstood due to language barriers while communicating in her second language.

Wanting to adjust, Khamjan explained she began trying to understand why people shared their thoughts and asked questions. “Listening to instructors expands our knowledge, but it’s also important to participate in classes. We can invite people into our opinions, and when others share theirs, we learn from them. Not all learning comes from the professor,”

she said. She emphasized balancing traditional and new educational approaches to optimize her learning experience.

She also highlighted acknowledging herself that it will take time to adjust to help her overcome challenges. “Not everything can change in split seconds. I had to accept and soothe myself, reminding myself it’s not a weird thing but a new thing,” she said. As she adapted, she said she learned to open her mind and appreciate the beauty in different cultures.

Over time, Khamjan shared she learned to appreciate the uniqueness of her and others’ cultures, growing more open-minded and less judgmental. “Now I‘m more comfortable with new cultures, it takes a shorter time to adapt to them,” she said. She added she feels more confident sharing her opinions than she did as a freshman. “I’m not much of an eloquent person, but when I strongly want to share my testimony and feel prompted to speak up, I confidently follow it and share,” she said. She shared the experience helped her adjust to and communicate at her internship in Honolulu, where everyone was a native speaker. •

“Not everything can change in split seconds...”

Thipwigorn Khamjan

Photo of Thipwigorn Khamjan in class and taking notes. Photos taken by Hiroki Konno.

“The Aloha spirit is so strong, and everyone has each other’s back here,”

Victoria Husted

Photo of Victoria Husted posing for the camera.

Photos taken by Hiroki Konno.

Page design by Cho Yong Fei and Marlee Young Yen.

kauwela

summer

Life bursts with color. We love louder, live bolder, and move with purpose. In these vibrant days, we don’t just exist—we shine.

BY PIM HOOTINI

Married students share how they strive to be good husbands despite their parents’ separation

BYU–Hawaii students shared how growing up with divorced or separated parents shaped their resilience and future goals. Daniel Hootini from Tahiti, Dallin Orr from the Philippines, and Janjira Kamnueng from Thailand, said their experiences growing up in broken families taught them independence, forgiveness and the desire to build loving families of their own.

growIng uP wIthout a fuLL-tIme father fIgure

Daniel Hootini, a senior computer science major, said he grew up in a single-parent household and was raised by his mother alongside his older brother and sister. “My parents divorced around the time I was born. Although my father didn’t live with us, he was present whenever he could be,” he said.

As a child, Hootini said he became aware of his father’s absence mostly during events like Father’s Day. “The ward would organize a

Young Men’s camping activity where everyone brought their dads. I would go and just hang out with my friends and their fathers,” he said.

Despite these moments, he said he never felt sad or angry. “I knew my dad still loved me and tried his best to be there [for us] even though he was far away,” he said.

Hootini said his older brother stepped in to fill the gaps his father couldn’t, teaching him things like shaving and supporting him during milestones. “For big moments, like getting the priesthood or my mission call, I wished my dad were there,” he said.

Orr, a sophomore majoring in fine arts from the Philippines, said his parents separated when he was 8 years old and he had to take on responsibilities early. “My siblings and I stepped into roles typically filled by a father figure, like fixing a leaky roof or broken pipes in our home,” he said. Orr’s older brother also became his primary father figure and taught him practical skills and emotional resilience, said Orr. “He became the dependable person we all looked up to,” he said.

the emotIonaL ImPact of Parents seParatIon

Hootini said the emotional challenges of growing up without a full-time father figure were eased by the love he received from family and church members. “The church teachings helped me understand I am a child of God, and my worth doesn’t change whether or not I have my father’s presence in my life,” he said.

But for Orr, he said his father’s absence led to fears about his own future as a husband and father. “I always felt scared that I might not be a good head of the household because I didn’t have an example growing up,” he said.

Orr said not hearing affirmations from his father affected his selfworth as a child. “I’d see my friends’ parents cheer for them at graduations, but I never heard my dad say, ‘I’m proud of you,’” he said.

Ironically, Orr said he later learned his father spoke proudly of him to others. “His students told me he often bragged about my achievements, even if he never told me directly,” he said.

Orr said the loss of his father in 2024 made him feel his father’s absence more deeply than his parents’ separation. “I’d always had access to him, but now I realized I’d never get to see him again, especially for big milestones like my wedding day,” he said.

DIvorce brought strength anD unDerstanDIng

Kamnueng, a freshman visual arts major from Thailand, said her parents' divorce taught her resilience and independence. She said, “My parents didn’t have time for me because they had to travel for work, so I moved to another city alone to continue my studies and lived in an apartment by myself at 14,” she said.

“I promised myself, my dad, my bishop and the Lord that I would become the best version of myself.”

The divorce, Kamnueng said, was the best way forward for all of them. “[Divorce] allowed my parents to live happier. They kept trying to make their relationship work, but couldn’t find common ground,” she said.

Kamnueng said she began struggling with depression linked to bullying and family stress. “I was bullied because I have darker skin, being a Thai Nigerian mixed. I was also worried about my parents’ well-being after the divorce,” she said.

Kamnueng said she understood her parents’ decision and is grateful for them because they worked hard to provide for her and her younger brother despite being separated. “They gave me a good education and taught me to love and understand others without judgment,” she said.

breakIng the generatIonaL cYcLe

Hootini said witnessing his mother’s strength growing up inspired him to break what he called the cycle of divorce in his family. “She worked, took care of us and fulfilled her church callings all on her own. I wanted to emulate that strength and be a better man for my future wife,”

Now a parent himself, Hootini said he’s committed to creating the loving, gospel-centered home he experienced growing up. “I want my children to have the same experiences like going to church, learning about the gospel and building their own testimonies,” he said.

When Orr became engaged, he said he consciously decided to break the cycle of emotional absence. “I promised myself, my dad, my bishop and the Lord that I would become the best version of myself,” he said.

Orr married his wife and committed to being fully present in their relationship, said Orr. “I want to be the best husband and future father I can be,” he said.•

To the left: Photo of Dallin Orr smiling taken by Camille Jovenes.

To the right: Daniel Hootini with daughter Lily taken by Hiroki Konno.

Top right: Dallin Orr and his wife in front of the Laie temple, taken by John Andrew Quizanna.

Page design by Cho Yong Fei.

Daniel Hootini

In a constant state of

BECOMING

From sketches to carvings to paintings, Poerava Ah Sing’s artistic journey is one of self-discovery and endless transformation

BY SAMANTHA FAITH SATORRE

For Poerava Ah Sing, what began as a little fascination with manga sketches transformed into an artistic vocation rooted in individuality, cultural heritage and perpetual change. She said her art started with mirroring online trends and inspirations, but after a long journey of experimentation and getting in touch with the world around her, she finally found a style that is both authentic and unmistakably her own. She said although her art is constantly growing, it will never cease to reflect her unique identity and the boundless passion driving it.

Ah Sing, a junior from Moorea, French Polynesia, majoring in visual arts with a concentration in painting and illustration, said her passion for art started with sketching that eventually expanded to carving and painting. While other artists express themselves through the metaphors of literature or rhythms of music, she said her self-expression makes use of visuals—be it on paper, wood or fabric. “I’m not really a music person; I’m also bad at writing. But I am pretty good with my hands, so I compensate with that,” she expressed.

Finding her own artistic voice

From the shores of Moorea to the diverse community of BYU–Hawaii, Ah Sing shared her art has undergone several stages of growth, making her style evolve into something more expressive and grounded.

She said discovering a personal style was nothing short of challenging, especially when her earlier creations were driven by online trends. “I tend to copy whatever I see or whatever’s trending. It was hard for me to not be in that kind of bubble,” she expressed.

Acknowledging the risks of always imitating online content, she said, “By following whatever’s on the Internet, you are compromising your self-expression, because that’s not actually you and how you feel.” What shifted her approach, she shared, was attending the Center of Arts and Crafts in French Polynesia, where she learned carving.

Reminiscing on her time in arts school, she also shared the transformative guidance she received from a teacher who told her to just keep creating everyday. She said this practice of daily creation taught her not to dwell on her self-doubts and just get right into creating. “Following that advice helped me stop overthinking the process and relying on online inspiration,” she shared. Since then, she said her personal style has only grown stronger.

Since coming to the university, Ah Sing said her greatest source of inspiration is the vibrant diversity surrounding her wherever she goes. “Whenever I interact with people here, this thought always comes to mind: I can see myself drawing them in a way that is different from how they see themselves,” she expressed. She said simply strolling around the

area, with the extraordinary view of the ocean, landscapes and people going on with their lives, has always been enough to drive her art.

The people around her, she added, can see the joy and fulfillment she radiates whenever she creates. Ashton Kaopua, a junior from Washington majoring in Hawaiian studies and biology, shared the experience of being Ah Sing’s muse. “She put so much care into every part of the painting. I felt honored and proud to be part of something she created,” he expressed. Her art, he said, is overflowing with joy and life, capturing not only a person’s appearance but also their personality.

The art of becoming

Having been an artist most of her life, Ah Sing said making art is her way of sharing a piece of herself with the world—every artwork is imbued with a significant part of her identity. She has already incorporated a variety of materials into her pieces— ink, charcoal, oil and acrylic paint—but the most critical ingredients, she said, are always going to be authenticity and a personal style rooted in her character.

“My style is definitely evolving over the years,” she shared. She said she strives to make her style flexible enough to be modified and fine-tuned for different contexts, but stable enough to consistently mirror her identity as the artist. “I don’t exactly change my style, because that is where my identity lies, but I do make improvements on it,” she said.

could exist. Let’s say we started with just a shell, but you can actually change its shape or even the entire outer layer,” she expressed. Pearls and shells, she explained, are made up of multiple, multicolored layers, so she said she could never guess what color she will get before she starts carving into it. “It’s a surprise of nature, in a sense,” she shared.

Despite taking up painting and illustration for college, she said she did not want to leave her love for carving behind. “Carving is my second job here. I am one of the carvers at the Polynesian Cultural Center. It has become a hobby now,” she said.

She also shared how attending the Center of Arts and Crafts introduced her to the importance of authenticity and the beauty of cultural arts. She described it as a phase of reconnecting with her roots and remembering where she came from. That experience, she said, was where she conceived her personal style.

She said she started making art at the age of 9, when her half-Japanese, half-Tahitian friend’s talent in drawing Japanese comics sparked her interest in the field. This fascination, she shared, eventually grew into something greater when she started dabbling in drawing herself. “I have to thank her, because her influence was my gateway to becoming an artist,” she expressed.

At 18, encouraged by her mother’s cultural roots, Ah Sing said she decided to take up carving, ultimately learning to love the craft’s unexpected beauty. “I think I like creating things we never imagined

“When people see my art, they know it’s mine. It’s very special to me that they can recognize my style,” she expressed.

Ever-evolving artistry

Moving forward, Ah Sing said she aims for a much more mature and confident artistic voice. As she continues to evolve as an artist, she said she will keep striving for the perfect balance between authenticity and unrestrained exploration, as well as between embracing the influence of others and staying true to herself.

“I love trying new things. It helps me relax,” she expressed.

Having witnessed Ah Sing’ growth, Kaopua shared, “I’ve seen her grow more confident in her style. She’s always had talent, but now her pieces feel even more refined and expressive.” He said it is always a fun experience to watch her take on new challenges and upgrade her skills with each project. “Her work always feels thoughtful and creative, and there’s a real sense of joy in the way she paints,” he expressed.

Ah Sing said she has been recently experimenting with different styles, such as digital arts. “Honestly, it’s really easy and convenient with digital tools. You get all the brushes and colors without mixing them yourself,” she shared. However, she expressed her enduring loyalty and connection to traditional arts, saying, “I like the feeling of it—the texture and pressure. I’m more into that.”•

“There’s a real sense of joy in the way she paints”

Ashton Kaopua

Poerava Ah Sing with her sketches and drawings.

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BY MYCO MARCAIDA

BYU-Hawaii student redefines beauty and identity through her hair

Cutting her hair was not just a matter of style, it was a moment of emotional release, identity reclamation and empowered self expression, said Maheta Vena Wily, a sophomore majoring in Pacific Island Studies from Utah. She recalled cutting her hair the second time. “I braided my hair into two sections and chopped it with dull scissors. It felt like a release not only with the tightness of the braids but the weight of everyone else’s opinions,” she said.

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In Samoan and other Polynesian communities, hair is sacred, said Wily. According to a 2014 award-winning essay by a Native Hawaiian writer Kasie Apo Takayama, long hair is tied to divine power or mana. “Laws once prohibited hula dancers from cutting their hair. In many Pacific cultures long hair symbolizes strength, femininity and ancestral heritage,” Takayama added.

Wily said she grew up feeling misidentified. “People would mistake me for being Latina, Black or Hawaiian, and they thought I didn’t take care of myself because I let my hair out naturally,” she said.

Willy said she often thinks about her identity as a Polynesian woman. “Growing up other than hair being a feature of many Pacific Islanders, I knew I was important, but since buzzing my hair, I think it identified my Polynesian side more now than before,” she added.

LettIng go of exPectatIons

She said the first time she buzzed her hair was out of practicality. “It was hot. I had a clear vision and I did it. But the second time was more emotional. I needed to feel like myself,” she continued.

The timing was not without consequence, said Wily. She said, “I buzzed my hair two days before Culture Night and felt in some dances that my hair did not align with the ladylike image associated with femininity.”

In a more positive light, Wily said dancing for Aotearoa did not feel like hair or the lack of it defined her as a performer. “I felt more empow-

She said she had more positive reactions than negative ones to her hair from people around campus. “I am getting way too much unwanted attention. I like to stay under the radar, but you can’t stay under the radar when you just made a huge change. Thankfully it was mostly positive

“I think there were some people who thought that I was trying to make a statement or prove a point or be someone I’m not,” said Wily. “I feel like society in general ties beauty to hair and the more hair you have on your head, the more beautiful you are,” she continued.

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Wily said there was a lot of hardship in getting to a new version of herself, especially having people focus so much on her appearance rather than her intentions. “It’s sad to just hear the assumptions. It felt like there had to be something tied to my appearance or my appearance meant everything to me and nothing about why I actually did it,” she added. Dr. Sylvia R. Karasu from Psychology Today said short hair on women was once considered rebellious and transgressive. “In ‘Bernice Bobs Her Hair,’ F. Scott Fitzgerald’s 1920 short story, the protagonist cuts her hair in an effort to fit in, falling into other’s expectations,” she said. According to the IMITATIO website, French theorist Rene Girard’s mimetic theory also comes into play. “People imitate others’ desires, leading to social rivalry and pressure to conform,” the

Wily’s decision to buzz her hair defied the concept. “I can make my own standard, and if others don’t like it, it’s okay,” she said. •

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Photos taken by Marlee Young Yen.

dreaming of the future

BY ABIGAIL ADAMS

With dreams of becoming performers, coaches and bakers, three BYUH students share the evolution of their dreams from when they were children to the present day

From zookeepers to performers, singers to coaches and models to bakers, the answer to the question, “What do you want to be when you grow up?” is constantly changing, explained three BYU–Hawaii students.

“There were points where I was really interested in being an elementary school teacher or an actress,” shared Brianna Frehner, a senior from Utah majoring in vocal performance. “I don’t think it’s fluctuated that much, but … I’ve tried to pick a route that would be sustainable for me mentally and financially,” she said.

On the path to perform

Upon arriving at BYUH, performing was never in her vision, Frehner shared. “I’ve been performing since I was 6 years old, and after I finished high school, I was like, ‘Okay, that’s it. I’m done with that part of my life,” she said. Frehner had initially planned to study marine biology because of her childhood love for animals, she said. “I always wanted to be a zookeeper and work with animals. I’ve always had a really huge interest in animals and a lot of empathy for them, especially growing up.”

However, after pursuing a marine biology education, “I felt something was missing in my life,” she explained. “I felt prompted to audition for the musical, and when I did … I just remembered how much I loved that and how significant [performing] was in my life,” she continued. Her performance in “Twelfth Night the Musical” remains one of her

“I get to pursue my culinary dream, and I get to cook for my wife, so I think that’s a dream in the making,”

Dane Prado

favorites, “because I was able to reconnect with the environment and art that I’m most passionate about,” she shared.

Frehner said finding her way back to performing helped her realize her new dream. “Singing and acting have been my talents ever since I was young,” she explained, “So I figured I would have a lot more success and enjoyment in general if I pursued that kind of career instead of marine biology.”

As she continues on her path of performance, Frehner said her love for animals is still at the back of her mind. “My dreams and goals would be to find a sustainable job that has to do with theater, like at a professional theater company or even a traveling theater company,” she shared, while also working with animals in her spare time.

Finding purpose through pastries

Dane Mcline Prado, a sophomore majoring in hospitality and tourism management from the Philippines, said his dreams have drastically shifted from when he was a child. “As a kid, I wanted to be a model,” he said, “I would join pageants and represent my school,” But after returning home from his mission, he said he had a realization that shifted his mindset. “I asked myself, ‘Is this really what I want to do with my life? Is pageantry or being a model all that I want to do?” he shared.

Thinking about his mission experience, Prado said he remembered the love he had for cooking and baking. “[They] really brought me a sense of peace, so as I got home from my mission, that was what I want-

“I felt prompted to audition for the muscial, and when I did.. I remembered how much I loved that and how significant [performing] was in my life,”

Brianna Frehner

ed to pursue now,” he explained. Once home, he obtained his Bread and Pastry certificate, “used my baking skills to fund my [study at] BYU–Pathway,” and set his sights on attending university, he shared.

Prado explained pursuing this new dream hasn’t been easy, but he said his desire to build a better future for his family has been a motivator. One of the biggest challenges he faced was trying to attend BYUH, he said. “I applied three times, and only got accepted during the third time,” he explained.

Carrying his family’s financial worries on his shoulders, he said the first rejection letter was the most difficult. “I was working at a fast food restaurant, [as] a virtual assistant and baking [on the side], so a lot of things were on my shoulders. I wanted to finish it and go to college immediately,” he explained.

Through faith and persistence, he said he was finally accepted at the university and is now a part of the Polynesian Cultural Center’s culinary apprenticeship program.

After college, Prado said he hopes to bring his knowledge and experience back to the Philippines with a business of his own. “I always tell my wife about building my own sit-in bakery as a business in the Philippines where I can be creative and be imaginative,” he shared.

Dribbling toward success

Jerzel Soriano Prado, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in health and human science, said growing up, she dreamed of being a

singer, but her exposure to basketball opened her eyes to new opportunities. “I always heard my mom singing at our house and playing the piano, so I wanted to join her,” but after being introduced to sports, “basketball became my life,” she explained.

Fully committed to the sport, Jerzel Prado said, “We would finish four hours of training, and I still wanted to practice more. [My teammates] would have already left, and I would still be practicing,” she said. This commitment taught her the value of perseverance, dedication and discipline, she explained.

Despite her dream of being a singer taking a backseat in her life, she said she found ways to incorporate both interests into her life. “Singing is still a part of me that helps me with everything I’m doing,” she shared, “I just changed my perspective [and] what to focus on.”

With basketball at the forefront, Jerzel Prado said it has influenced who she has become as a person. Basketball opened her eyes to people from different backgrounds, she explained. At her initial tryouts, she said, “When I arrived at the meeting place, I saw a bunch of tomboys. I was the only girl there with long hair.” While she was intimidated at first, she said she pushed forward, made it onto the team and had opportunities to get to know the other players. Having to work on a team “has helped me in my life to understand people, to not just judge them,” she shared.

Throughout her basketball career, Jerzel Prado said she dreamed of competing in Palarong Pambansa, a national sports competition in

the Philippines, but she was always one step away from that goal. “I thought it was going to be over [after high school], but then a video [of me playing basketball] from my mission went viral,” she explained. This opened up many opportunities to share the gospel, she said. “We were so grateful because we got to be instruments of the Lord during that time,” she shared. As she pursues a career in coaching, she said she hopes to help others find the same joy in basketball as she has.

Dreams becoming reality

These students’ dreams have come true in different ways, they shared. Frehner said this has manifested through her performances at BYUH. “I’ve been in all the musicals, was a featured soloist in Salsa Orchestra for four years, this past year a featured soloist in the studio orchestra and I’ve been in the Ho’olokahi Chamber Choir for the past four years,” she explained.

Accomplishing his dream of modeling by winning competitions, Dane Prado said he is now pursuing his next aspiration. “I get to pursue my culinary dream, and I get to cook for my wife, so I think that’s a dream in the making,” he said.

Jerzel Prado shared, “My dream [of singing] faded and is gone now, but I started a new dream.” With basketball, she said she became a varsity player, was chosen to compete in provincial and regional meets and continues to play in her free time. “Because of my dream, I am who I am today,” she shared. •

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Change arrives gently, asking us to let go. In reflection, we find clarity and wisdom. Fall is a season of harvest and release, where letting go makes space for what’s to come.

THE GIFT OF FAILURE: GROWING THROUGH WHAT WE GO THROUGH

Two BYU–Hawaii students and an alumna share that growing from failure means becoming better version of yourself

BY FRANCE VALERIE LUCILLO

While most people tend to avoid failure at all costs, three BYUH students shared the opposite opinion saying they have grown from failures, learnedhow to work with other people, became more Christlike and changed their perspectives on what failure actually entails.

“Failure leads to a stronger perspective, a more beautiful place because you learn from it,” said Yu “Bruna” Yamamoto, a senior majoring in social work from Japan. “Don’t run away from [failures]. Face it and learn from it,” she shared. She explained failure is a human-made concept, where it is a word humans made to describe a mistake. “But it is actually a lesson where you can learn and grow and become a better person–a greater version of yourself,” she stated.

Failure and becoming humble

Yamamoto said growing from failures makes an individual humble. “You learn from it and keep going,” she said. She recalled the time when she failed at her very first job. “My English was not good enough, and I didn’t know anything about the Polynesian Cultural Center. That’s why I didn’t get in the first time as a tour guide,” Yamamoto said.

“But I knew in my heart I wanted to be a tour guide,” Yamamoto explained. She said failing to get hired the first time as a tour guide gave her the chance to work at the school cafeteria for nine months and become a ticket taker for PCC for seven months. “After [more than] one year, I eventually became a tour guide,” she said.

She said being able to experience other work before becoming a tour guide led her to meet people who helped her along the way. “They helped me have the courage to try one more time [as a tour guide],” Yamamoto said. Although she was devastated by the first rejection, Yamamoto said she learned everything happens in its own time. “I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I didn’t fail,” she said. She said not being able to get in the first try as a tour guide at PCC led her to appreciate what she went through and what she has now. “I experienced different jobs, which led me to understand there is timing for all things,” she said.

“I can relate to other people. I have empathy for people who have the same experience as me,” Yamamoto said. She emphasized it is a gift to understand someone else’s pain. “Not many people can do it,” she said.

Failure and becoming hopeful for the future

Aaron Joseph Badinas, a senior from the Philippines majoring in accounting, said growing from failure means having hope there are good things ahead of you. “You are willing to get up whenever you hit a wall or whenever you stumble,” Badinas added. He said it is easy to lose hope when you fail. However, he explained people can get sad a bit when they fail, but they will grow from it. “It doesn’t mean it won’t happen again, but you’ll know what to do next time,” he shared.

“You can’t be the best without failing first,” Badinas said. He explained if you have not failed yet, you have not learned from life yet. “No

one in this world is destined to be perfect, so make the most mistakes in life as you can and grow from them,” he added.

Badinas stated there is a difference between making the most mistakes then growing from it and just making the most mistakes. “If you keep making the same mistakes all over again and not learning from it, then you’re not growing, but if you made a mistake and learn from it, that means you’ve grown as a person. It made you stronger and resilient,” he shared.

He talked about failing an accounting class, and it “made me think, ‘Is this really the program for me?’” Badinas said. He said it made him feel sad when he realized he failed the class. “I thought I was already a genius, an intelligent person because I came to BYU–Hawaii with just my first try,” he shared. Badinas stated he was lucky enough to be part of the higher educations sections when he was a child. “It made me feel chosen,” he added.

He said failing a class made him question his purpose and confidence. “I didn’t want to do my best anymore because I felt like my best was never enough [for the program],” Badinas said. He shared he became complacent after that incident. “I was too comfortable to just pass and get a C, which I regretted because I know I could have done better– studied more and played less,” he explained.

However, he said he learned if you chose to do something and you commit yourself to it, then you go forward with it, learn from your mistakes and then leave the feeling [of sadness] behind, he explained. Badinas said there are degrees of his feeling of failing. “I did not completely overcome it, but I just learned to forget it, learn from it and move on,” he said.

“When I failed the [accounting] class, I called my mom cause it kept on bothering me. I thought she’s gonna be mad but she said, ‘It’s okay. Just do your best [next time]’,” Badinas shared. He said he has someone so significant in this life who comforted him during those troubling times. “It kind of hits me like, ‘Oh, it’s okay to make mistakes.’ It gives me more motivation to get back up again,” he explained.

Badinas said the failures he encountered led him to appreciate collaboration with other people. “I learned that it’s okay to ask for help from other people. It’s okay if you’re not the smartest in the room. You just need to find resources that are accessible for you to use,” Badinas said. He said it is one of his definitions of success. “Success means being better than who you were yesterday,” he added.

Failure and becoming more Christlike

“Growth doesn’t mean you have to get back up and be the best [right away],” said Jaleh Pahio, an alumna of BYU–Hawaii from California. She emphasized people usually confuse growth from success. “It’s like, ‘Oh, I’m in a bad spot right now, and it’s only gonna be worth it if I succeed or overcome this’,” she added.

Pahio said growth from failures means having patience and taking the time to understand yourself. Growing up, Pahio said she had a lot of health problems. “Although I’m the oldest in the family, I am the

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weakest,” she stated. She said she assumed she would never be able to do things physically. She added before coming here at BYU–Hawaii, she was studying animation in BYU in Provo. “I was also in a relationship and I was dealing with an eating disorder. I just feel like the Spirit has been telling me that I wasn’t where I was supposed to be,” Pahio said.

However, she emphasized a friend named Melody Christman reached out to her to help. “We served in the same mission and one time, she invited me to go on a hike. I didn’t do well [on that], but she was there kindly and patiently saying, ‘I’m gonna be there for you,’ and we made it on top of the mountain,” she said. Pahio said she realized she needed help and Christman was there to help her. “She helped me get appointments with WSR and Counseling Services,” she stated.

“I realized that I am always worth it, and I think that was a big part of my identity that I got to understand,” said Pahio. She added by saying a mantra to herself, “Just a little bit more,” helped her to keep going no matter what challenges she faced. Pahio stated besides help from her friend, Christman, her husband, Keanu Pahio, helped her as well to see her failures differently.

She said through her fair share of failures, it opened opportunities for her to grow more. “I get callings in the Church, such as being an emotional resilience teacher, which allows me to help others as well,” Pahio said. She added the calling helped her grow in terms of maturity. Before the calling, she said she would “just be kind of emo and curl up and cry about how my life, but now, I have become more mature in thinking that, ‘This isn’t gonna last forever’,” she explained.

“I feel like I’ve succeeded when I become more Christlike,” Pahio said. She said people cannot be impatient with others if they are patient with themselves. Despite the failures she has gone through, she said, being able to know her worth paved the way for her to learn how to not compare herself to others. “If I could go back to my past self, I would say that, ‘You are worthy of so much more and you can start living like it’,” Pahio stated.•

“Success means being better than who you were yesterday.”

Aaron Joseph Badinas

A photo of Aaron Joseph Badinas reading a textbook.

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THE BRAIN FEARS, BUT THE HEART HOPES

BYUH student and alumnus say changes become opportunities for growth when navigated with others

BY SAMANTHA FAITH SATORRE

“Some changes are positive, some are tough, but all of them can lead to growth. And if it gets too difficult, don’t go through it alone.”

- Joshua Paul

Just as leaves take on new colors in autumn, students from around the world leave their homes behind to attend BYU–Hawaii—an experience Vanessa Kate De Guzman described as a mix of excitement and pain. The beginning of a new semester—meeting new people, sharing a room with a stranger, taking new classes and navigating a new culture—can be overwhelming, said Joshua Paul. However, by seeking the help from others, developing healthy habits, practicing emotional honesty and utilizing available resources, De Guzman and Paul said this daunting transition can become a hopeful path to success.

From a psychological standpoint, De Guzman, a sophomore from the Philippines studying psychology, shared, “Change creates a painful experience in the brain.” While she sees studying in Hawaii as a blessing, she said, moving thousands of miles away from home was still a major transition in her life that brought significant emotional strain.

Paul, an alumnus from Malaysia working as an office assistant at the university’s Counseling Services, said starting school is a major adjustment. “You’re suddenly dealing with new roommates, new responsibilities, new lifestyle, attending classes, going to work and much more,” he explained.

“No man is an island. No one can navigate change in isolation.”

- Vanessa Kate De Guzman

Drawing from their experiences in psychology and social work, De Guzman and Paul said embracing change can foster emotional resilience and personal growth. “Some changes are positive, some are tough, but all of them can lead to growth. And if it gets too difficult, don’t go through it alone,” shared Paul.

Everyone needs someone

“There’s a story to tell behind every behavior. There’s a need behind every struggle,” De Guzman expressed. She said she believes every person can change for the better if adequate support and resources are accessible. “No man is an island. No one can navigate change in isolation,” she shared.

Having someone in your corner, Paul said, makes the journey lighter. “Seeking support helps you navigate change with a more hopeful and grounded outlook,” he added. He empha-

sized empathy as key to fostering connection and supporting others in a meaningful, positive way. “As students, we often feel left out, disconnected or socially anxious. Empathy helps bridge that gap,” he voiced. Real support, he said, happens in spaces that foster connections.

“No one is ever beyond help. No one is a hopeless case,” expressed De Guzman. She explained change looks different for everyone—sometimes dramatic, other times quiet and subtle. A person’s environment, she added, plays a vital role in their ability to cope. “I believe we grow positively when we feel safe with the people around us.”

According to Verywell Mind, psychosocial rehabilitation specialist Kendra Cherry writes, “It’s important to remember that other people might not be able to recognize your need for a specific type of support.” While affirming the value of social support, she says clearly communicating your needs is a great start. “Being specific and making a direct request can help ensure that you get the help that you need,” she explains.

“Even if the path is hard, if you know where you’re going, change becomes part of the process—not something to fear.”

- Joshua Paul

“If you are willing to experience discomfort, shame, failure, awkwardness and embarrassment, you can do anything.”

- Vanessa Kate De Guzman

Choosing self-compassion

Fear, De Guzman said, is a natural response to change and an indication that she cares for herself. “However, I did not want to let fear incapacitate me,” she voiced. She said every uncomfortable step she willingly took led to growth. “If you are willing to experience discomfort, shame, failure, awkwardness and embarrassment, you can do anything. The little steps we take will soon lead us to greater paths,” she expressed.

Drawing from his experiences at the Counseling Services, Paul said self-care is not selfish. It’s essential. “Do things you enjoy: Listen to music, go for a walk, cook something delicious, read a book by your favorite author or relax at the beach,” he said. Low-pressure activities, he explained, help people release tension and anxiety.

He also emphasized the value of mindfulness. “Mindful breathing, for example, involves paying attention to each inhale and exhale,” he shared. This intentional focus, he said, grounds people in the present and reduces panic and anxiety. “It helps you recognize where you are

Photos of Vanessa de Guzman at Malaekahana Recreational Park.

right now. That helps a lot, because usually, when people get stressed out, they don’t know what to do,” he explained.

Having a clear direction in life, Paul added, equips individuals to navigate change more effectively. “When you know where you’re headed, you can better handle life’s transitions,” he shared. He said without a sense of direction, the chaos of change can lead people to dark places. “Even if the path is hard, if you know where you’re going, change becomes part of the process—not something to fear,” he voiced.

Adaptability, said De Guzman, is not innate—it’s learned. She said that’s why change varies in intensity and meaning for every individual. To manage it, she said people should learn to embrace their emotions. “Sit with your feelings. Growth requires emotional honesty, not suppression.”

Help is within reach

Doubting she’d survive college so far from the comfort of home, De Guzman said fear and anxiety initially paralyzed her. “That’s why it’s great the university offers plenty of resources, such as Counseling Services, to help us navigate our lives here,” she said. Determined to embrace change as a constant in her life, she said she decided to take advantage of the resources available to her. People often forget these supports, she said, when overwhelmed by sudden change.

“When I went there, my counselor advised me to keep a journal,” she shared. Following that advice, she said, gave her a sense of control and helped her establish a new routine. “I was finally starting intentional efforts to embrace the transition,” she expressed.

Changes, De Guzman said, could be painful and devastating—much like getting punched or breaking a bone. “The brain interprets change as a threat, especially when sudden. It can trigger anxiety, fear and resistance,” she shared. To fully accept transitions, she explained, the brain needs time to rewire itself and reframe change as an opportunity rather than a threat.

Paul said that is where the Counseling Services plays a vital role. “If left unaddressed, this can lead to a crisis where students feel completely overwhelmed and may even consider harming themselves,” he explained. The goal of the center, he said, is not just to respond to crises but to prevent them. “If a student starts feeling homesick or experiencing small symptoms of stress, we encourage them to seek help early,” he shared. He said addressing small issues early on keeps them from escalating.

“If you walk around campus, you’ll see prompts with questions like, ‘Are you feeling homesick?’ or ‘Are you having trouble sleeping at night?’” he shared. These prompts, he explained, are intentionally gentle, because directly addressing mental health issues could be intimidating, especially for students from cultures where the subject is stigmatized. “Using clinical language tends to scare people off or make them hesitant to acknowledge their struggles,” he shared. He said that’s why they prioritize using simple, relatable and compassionate language in conversations with students.

They also make sure students in serious emotional distress receive immediate support, he noted. “We do our best to connect them with a counselor as soon as possible,” he shared. While social support from friends, family and church leaders is important, he said certain situations call for professional mental health care.

“We also offer several types of support and workshops,” Paul shared. He said these workshops run for about five-to-six weeks each semester and cover essential mental health topics like stress management and anxiety. He also highlighted the Calming Creations program,which allows students to engage in creative activities in a relaxing, low-pressure environment. “Lastly, we have Rooted Garden Therapy, which takes place in a garden setting rather than a classroom,” he said. The project, he explained, focuses on mindfulness, meditation and connection with nature.•

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A MOMENT’S EPIPHANIES

How does a heart hope? A student answers the question through a story of becoming and dreaming of more

BY GENE CYMMER RAMIREZ

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In the book “The Alchemist” by Paulo Coelho, a famous quote reads, “You will never be able to escape from your heart. So it’s better to listen to what it has to say.” How does one know when the heart has something to say? What things does a soul yearn for? Monique Regio-Ramirez, a sophomore from the Philippines majoring in psychology, answered such questions by reflecting on her past and pondering about her future. “By doing so, one is able to truly understand their identity and write their own destiny,” she said.

Yearnings of the heart

Opportunities to pause and reflect are important experiences in Ramirez’s life because these are the best times for her to get to know herself better, dream of the future and hope for things to come, she said. She shared she uses these moments to remind her of how far she has come and how much more she can achieve, bolstering her for the road ahead. “Whenever I find myself daydreaming or reflecting on my life, my heart is healed a little bit because I am able to ground myself and remember what really matters,” she said.

“It’s always in the temple where I get to ponder about these dreams, because that’s where I feel the most comfort and peace,” Ramirez shared. She said because the temple is where she is closest with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ, pondering there convinces her that all her dreams could come true. Her reflections in life feel significantly more fulfilling and validated in the temple because she is able to view it with an eternal perspective and with her purest identity, she shared.

Ramirez said her reflective and hopeful characteristic stems from her experiences with her mother. “My mother has always taught me about trusting in the Lord, and I’ve seen how her hopes for us have been achieved because of that,” she shared. Because of her mother, she shared, she knows no dream is too far-fetched and the best dreams are found when one listens to their divine heart.

Monique Ramirez poses at the Laie, Hawaii Temple.

A life’s desires

“Since I was a child, I’ve always dreamed of having my own family and being a mother,” Ramirez shared. She said this is what she usually reflects on when she finds herself pondering because it is something she had always yearned for after growing up in a broken family. She was raised by a single mother with two lovely sisters she can always rely on, she shared, but she knows there’s even more love to be cherished as she pursues the great joy of a complete family. She said now that she’s married, she has seen that desire slowly fulfilled as she prepares to be a mother of her own children.

Ramirez said she is deeply grateful for the blessings and miracles she received through her loved ones as she grew up, and because of that she hopes to do her best in being an instrument of love and help as well. “I have these dreams and aspirations because of my family. I wanted to give them the best I can, and be the best version of myself for them,” she said.

Because being a light unto others is such an important aspect in her life, Ramirez strives to someday become a psychologist, she shared. “I want to make more people feel like they belong despite the challenges they have,” she said. Because she felt and expe-

rienced moments of isolation, disconnection and anxiety in her life and was able to overcome and understand them, she felt that helping people heal was also part of her life’s purpose, she continued

Ramirez said the dream to become a psychologist first started when she served her mission as a service missionary in the Philippines Missionary Training Center. “I was a service missionary and had my own mental health challenges, but was blessed to be surrounded with people who I can relate to,” she said. Many challenges in life are just preparations for bigger and more fulfilling callings, she shared.

Charting the uncharted

Ramirez said before she could truly understand the purest ambitions of her soul, she first had to meditate on her life’s journey, where it has already taken her and where it will lead her next. Describing and mapping out her experiences, she said, “It is like a long drive going to a beautiful place, yet filled with unexpected stops and turns, both challenging and beautiful.” She said life will never have any guarantees in the journey and there is no way of knowing how easy or difficult it will be, but it is enough to know that the destination will always be reached and it will always be a beautiful one.

“The end of the chapters of our journey will always be meaningful and fulfilling. If it doesn’t look like that yet, then that chapter of your life hasn’t ended yet,” she said. She knows her decisions in life will determine if she reaches her dreams, and finds power in the fact that the future is what she will make it to be, she shared.

“Happiness for me is having a fulfilling life and always looking forward to whatever the world throws at you and still being enthusiastic,” Ramirez said. The only way she can achieve her dreams is by recognizing the small but consistent steps she has made and finding hope through her life’s purpose, she shared.•

Monique Ramirez poses while reading a book.

Photos taken at Laie, Hawaii Temple.

Photos by Hiroki Konno.

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LeeAnn Lambert shares parting lessons she learned as a journalist and Ke Alaka’i adviser for over 20 years

BY MYCO MARCAIDA

Though unsure what retirement will look like, LeeAnn Lambert, the Ke Alaka’i adviser originally from California, said she will miss spending time with students. “I hang out with students at work, I teach courses, and that’s going to be hard because the students here are great,” she said.

As the adviser to Ke Alaka’i, Lambert said the work was more than editing, and it was more about empowering students. “Ke Alaka’i is a wonderful creative outlet. When I saw what [the team] could do in five weeks for the [photography and literature] issue, it was amazing.” She said she will miss the creativity, the ability to gather information, and being able to present projects in an engaging, informative way.

Lambert recalls her journey into journalism, which began with a suggestion from her mother. “My mother suggested that I major in journalism in college. I started taking news writing classes, and I loved it.” Eventually, she was hired as a writer at BYU in Provo’s daily student newspaper, printing five days a week, she shared.

Over the years she studied communications and journalism at BYU, Lambert said she served in multiple roles working as a writer, senior writer, editor, and editor-in-chief. “News writing is a hard profession. It’s time-consuming, challenging, a lot of research, and can be considered negative. Plus, it doesn’t pay great. But it pays better now than it used to,” she added.

Her transition to BYU–Hawaii came through a phone call, said Lambert. She said she received a call from the university saying someone from BYU in Provo recommended her to work there. “I got a call from Napua Baker, who was the vice president of University Communications, and after 20 minutes of talking to her and learning about the mission and the students, I had a change of heart, and they hired me,” she shared.

Throughout her career, Lambert said some of her most valuable lessons came from trial and error. She recalled writing an article about shifting the academic calendar, which taught her a key journalism principle. “I would submit the story, but my editors would say it isn’t complete. I do remember that story because it taught me that the more points of view you can include in an article, the better it is,” she shared.

Lambert also stressed the importance of suspending judgment in interviews.“When you assume things about people, you’re gonna be wrong. Also the more you can tell people what you’re hoping to gain or what you’re trying to find out, the more they are open to sharing with you,” she continued. She said interviewers need to ask people about their experiences and let them tell their stories.

Even as the industry evolves, Lambert said the fundamentals of storytelling remain the same. “You change as your skills and abilities change. The storytelling part of it is the same. You still have to be able to

many interesting things to do at different times in your life. “If you feel inspired to do something, you should do it,” she shared. As she prepares for retirement, Lambert said her future includes

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LeeAnn Lambert with Ke Alaka’i Magazines and employees.

Photos taken by Cho Yong Fei.

Page design by Marlee Young Yen.

Illustrations by Guen Ramirez.

The evolution of Ke Alaka’i

See how BYUH’s Campus News center has changed over time

BY ABIGAIL ADAMS

1955

Advised by Jerry K. Loveland, Ke Alaka’i published its first newspaper issue on Dec. 16, 1955.

Ke Alaka’i published its first magazine issue on September 8, 1978.

1978

Ke Alaka’i began publishing biweekly newspaper issues in Nov. 1960, informing students about campus events, announcements and news.

1960

1992

After several other advisors, LeeAnn Lambert was appointed as the advisor for Ke Alaka’i in 1992 and remained until 1996.

Lambert returned to Ke Alaka’i in Jan. 2005 and remained the advisor until her retirement in May 2025.

2005

2006

The Ke Alaka’i webpage was created in Oct. 2006, allowing stories from BYUH to be shared all over the world.

Due to printing issues, Ke Alaka’i staff switched to only publishing magazine issues. The last newspaper issue of Ke Alaka’i was published on Dec. 4, 2008.

2008

The Ke Alaka’i YouTube channel was created on Jan. 29, 2009, providing a platform to share footage of campus events and student voices.

Making the switch from weekly issues in April 2016, Ke Alaka’i began publishing magazine issues every month, focusing more on feature stories than campus events.

To share student stories to a wider audience, the Ke Alaka’i Instagram page was created on Jan. 15, 2014.

Ke Alaka’i was nominated for the Associated Collegiate Press (ACP) Magazine Pacemaker Award and placed as a finalist in Oct. 2016. Nominations were received nearly every year following.

2014 2016

The first episode of Ke Alaka’i: the Podcast was published on Jan. 20, 2020.

Ke Alaka’i won the ACP Magazine Pacemaker Award on Nov. 2, 2024, after numerous nominations since 2016.

Ke Alaka’i published its largest magazine issue in April 2025 with 128 total pages.

Information obtained from the BYUH archive website.

Page design by Marlee Young Yen.