This lives in my heart

This lives in my heart Poetry inspired by a scorpio-like life.

Words by Justine Jamieson

LOVE IS the only thing THAT’s TRUE, ALL ELSe IS a lie.

Enjoy Justine X

CONTENTS 1. The Weaver 2. Lockdown Rebel 3. Clarity 4. Not forgotten 5. Not Broken 6. Scorpio Sunset 7. Soulmate Calling 8. The Gap 9. Police Report 10. Just You and Me 11. Beneath the Scum 12. Creature 13. Loss 14. Dirty Mind 15. Don’t Hesitate 16. We’re Nature 17.Unknown 18. Discomfort 19. Rose 20. Blooming 21. Perfection

THE WEAVER The weaver creates her life with intricate works of silk.

Each thread perfectly placed, not symmetrical, but balanced for the environment in which she knows. Each thread cast is an opportunity that may or may not be anything but a thread in the wind, but vital to the masterpiece.

As the conditions and elements change, her web adapts.

If her whole web is destroyed by chaos she starts anew, as deep in the centre of it all is her essence, the same creator that was birthed into this world.

There in the centre she waits with gracious presence, embracing patience and as things around her and within her die, she gives them back to the earth from which they came.

Her resilience is what gives her the ability to be creative with anything, as she knows that only she is the weaver of her own life and that makes her magic.

–1

LOCKDOWN REBEL Moulded like putty to fit, to conform, dulled and silenced.

Tamed to do what they want!

Not to be, what comes naturally.

The wild urge burning inside wants to jump the fence Suck on a bone, spit on a face.

The voice “won’t catch me” in my head.

That rebel won’t be kept or held.

I will be fueled, unleashed released.

I am an animal.

Wild!

–2

CLARITY Clarity is not found by focussing on the blindness, it’s seeing the beauty within and all around you.

–3

NOT FORGOTTEN You have been forgiven but nothing forgotten.

Your vibe sits heavy on the words of kinder souls.

Your memory still highlights my imperfections in my reflection.

Everyday I try and mask them with habit, so others don’t notice them, as God forbid they see me as not enough too.

–4

NOT BROKEN Don’t try and paste me back together, as I’m not broken.

I’m free, free from an imposed identity.

I don’t have to be anything for anyone.

I am more powerful than you’ll ever see, ME! My veins run deep into the earth and my eyes see far into the stars.

–5

SCORPIO SUNSET I’ve endured many deaths to reach this moment.

There is nothing you can teach me that my heart hasn’t felt.

No words spoken will be too blunt nor will they land too deep.

All will be forgiven.

Nothing can be taken from me that I haven’t said I love you, thank you and goodbye to.

No fear worthy a worry, as I know what is gone, clears for the new born.

As I say goodbye again to the light, my shadows sit with me tonight.

I welcome them, all is ok, for I am a Scorpio, I know how to play.

–6

SOULMATE CALLING I hear your soul calling me, the whisper loud enough for me to cross oceans to a foreign land.

I see us alone on the road singing on an epic adventure and holding each other in a blurred field of lights and dancers.

I smell the irresistible scent of your body after we make love in the tropical heat.

I hear our mind-expanding conversations, the kind that make hours feel like minutes.

I taste the warm cup of peppermint tea you make me in the morning, as we sit still together on the porch step wrapped in a blanket as the sun makes its appearance over the trees of whistling birds.

I feel our hands holding each other, supporting each other to fill our lives with passion.

I know what we create isn’t just for us and that it will be felt by everyone around us too.

I just haven’t met you

–7

– yet.

THE GAP The gap is where the magic happens.

Between words, between bodies, between actions, It’s where fairies whisper wisdom and sprinkle surprises.

Never mind the gap, allow it.

–8

POLICE REPORT May those that receive my words feel the full force of their power.

May they be carried by god on the shock waves of those that were frozen quiet.

May they give clarity to minds full of doubt.

May they soothe the aching hearts that sit in a puddle of suppressed tears of shame.

May they feed those starved of respect.

May my actions move other women’s inaction.

May my words bring peace within me, and expose the darkness to be transformed.

My body knows the truth, no matther what lies you’ve told.

–9

JUST YOU AND ME Before the sun, before the sea, there was just you and me swimming amongst the stars, making a plan, promising that when we met again. we will remember who WE are.

– 10

BENEATH THE SCUM Have exploratory wonder of what’s beneath the layer of confusion, swim bravely through the deep scum of illusion.

Let the flow wash you to where the truth deservingly awaits you.

Only then will you be crystal clear.

– 11

CREATURE See through your forehead, think with your gut, feel with your ears, speak with your heart, you will never be early, nor late.

You may not be listened to but you will be heard.

Die in every moment, while you stay living.

Don’t be the same human, be the way.

– 12

LOSS There lies empty a place once full The potential bloomed and bled.

The mind running, the heart yearning to hold, to feed, to love, to be loved.

Gone.

Just like that?

– 13

DIRTY MIND Your mind’s dirty with the sound of an old crackled age.

Frozen in a less pleasant time, your eyes closed shut not willing to see the beauty with curiosity, The love in you and the light in her, the flower that is forever always -– open and present.

Not saying “she’s not right” nor worrying about how you’ll get hurt again.

Simplicity, it escapes you, your freedom you giveaway.

All she wants is you – free, but she does not want the key to your shackles placed between her legs – not ever.

– 14

DON’T HESITATE Hesitancy allows the demons to naw at the jaw of your future experience.

Critics thrive on the stuttering of words, the flick of a gaze.

Speaking to be heard is not your responsibility.

Just speak with potency.

It’s important.

– 15

We ARE NATURE A bee doesn’t think if it’s got everything it needs before it starts its work.

A flower doesn’t look if it’s beautiful enough to attract a bee.

The dirt doesn’t search for a new location to prduce, because it knows that life will come forth from it anywhere it is.

Nature knows and we are nature.

– 16

UNKNOWN Just before the river enters the sea the vast unknown makes it ripple with fear.

The safe edges it once knew that contained and held its flow start to disappear, as it tumbles and sprawls out into the azure.

It views the hopeful golden glimmer of a distant shoreline and craves to be with its safe, solid companion.

But as the sun shines upon its surface, it knows it must first find harmony within the waves.

– 17

DISCOMFORT I’m listening to the cringes, the clenches in my jaw, I’m feeling the pains in my back, the blades.

Leaning forward as the invisible pushes me to do something without thought, just feeling.

Fueled only by faith, integrity and passion, I’m about to do something risky, something old me would never dream of.

With full faith I’ll claim my right place in the breeze and let the wind catch the rest.

– 18

ROSE Sit in presence and witness the beauty of a rose, as if you’re looking deep into the softness of your heart.

There you will see the true beauty, a place that will never harden or be discouraged from loving those that may not know what love really is.

– 19

BLOOMING With whispers of truth she opened.

With courage she got louder.

What once was only felt inside, will now be seen.

Exposed to the light, determined with penetrative grace, the full power of her beauty, is now seen.

She has arrived.

LOOK AT HER.

– 20

PERFECTION Take time to witness what’s natural.

Each flower head instinctively knows where the light is.

Each petal placed for optimum energetic efficiency.

Become present, grow in the direction of the light and see the great unfolding of your part in it all.

You are part of the beauty.

Perfectly placed – perfection.

– 21

UP THE PATH If you could catch the scent of what’s up the path, would you focus on how hard the terrain is beneath your feet?

– 22

BRILLANCE We are giants shackled with cotton thread.

Whether it takes seconds or lifetimes to find freedom, that is up to us.

Rebel against the noise of even your loudest critic.

Life is only waiting for you to acknowledge your connection to the infinite source of your creative brilliance.

– 21

Words by Justine Jamieson justinejamieson.com