Epiphany of a Lifetime
I Am...
Leticia Mota
Eboni Berry
I was angry for quite a while It wasn’t just that single day that caused it. I remember seeing all the bad and evil rushing to my head at the speed of sound. My mind had its own speed, opposed body, running in slow motion, or so it seemed. As I collapsed I felt all the anger in my soul leave my body, evaporating like water. I yelled in pain, except this wasn’t pain I didn’t want to feel at that moment. The feeling was so overwhelming that when it came to an end, although I couldn’t physically do it, I smiled in my thoughts. There wasn’t a care in the world simply me lost in thoughts of joy and peace. It wasn’t the drugs, NO, this was a greater High. “Do you feel angry with your life?” She asked while holding her clipboard. I took a deep breath and replied with a grin on my face, NO. My days after that, for as long as they lasted, were of forgiveness, peace, and love. It wasn’t a love you feel for a certain someone. It was as if I saw everyone as brothers and sisters. I made peace with my enemies. I knew their faults as people and that they would continue to be people. Without hesitation, I took upon forgiving, not caring if their apologies weren’t real. I hold on to that feeling dearly for peace, love, and forgiveness can heal so many wounds.
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I am what you made me That’s what I answer to myself I am the pain I am the fire I am cuts within my veins, I am What is called nothing I am pain I am what you called depression Because you are my oppression There is no destination So I am his temptation Because I own my own operation I am the sensation Of life Because me and you have no association I love; I wonder I am the hearts Cuts deeper with an open knife I am fear That ends with an unloving tear That no medicine can cure I am change of the suicidal derange The heart that always seems to experience pain I AM…
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