And Where Should I Start?

the song:

I want to go outside. The weather looks nice.

Am I late for work? wait... What day is it today? something feels wrong.

Where are my friends? I wonder if they are coming today.

I want to go to that place with them today. Then I need to get ready to go out.

Where is that place anyway?

Should I ask someone? what was I going to ask?

ah yes, I want to drink tea.

wait, I’m going to my room first.

My friends are waiting for me.

she’s familiar,

there’s this person behind me,

she’s kind,

she’s family.

I think she knows where that place is.

It’s hard to see this wall of memories. Sometimes I don’t think these are mine. Because if the person in these pictures was me, I should remember, shouldn’t I? these faces, tickles my memories.

‘this is uncle Cam, this is your best friend Alex, the others are your cousins’, she explained

she said it’s okay, that I didn’t have any recollection of who these people were.

I remember watching a very funny show with them.

but, I know them now. I wonder where they are right now... I want to eat dinner with them.

She said she will take me to that place, but not now. I need to prepare to meet my friends.

The look on her face, I can’t understand it. Was that fear? Was that pain? Why?

What should I do now? I have been forgetting things. I feel left behind.

She knew what I was thinking. She gave me tea and asked my plans for tomorrow.

What was my plan for tomorrow?

Tomorrow? Should I go to that place? What about today? I really should start writing my plans

That’s right, I need to meet my friends. The weather today is great.

Will I be able to meet them all? I want to meet them again. I want to go to that place. I really should start contacting them.

What if they are busy? Do they still go to work? I really should start writing things down.

She said that I can take it slow. I will be able to go there, to that place. She said its better to go together, and that I am free to do the things I need to do whilst waiting. She said I can call them, and that she’ll remind me to if I forget.

She

said don’t worry. The weather today is great.

I

understand now that I have been doing it. That I didn’t need to start anything because nothing has ended.

I will continue on, living in this moment. and if I ever stop, I know where to look.

please tell me the stories I told you;

of places I went to and people I met.