INNER LIGHT MInistries Journal Volume 22 Number 2
August, 2010
Loving Change by Jim Gordon, President of ILM
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(from Divine Inheritance, 11/15/09)
ometimes the hardest thing to do in our lives is to confront change. Change is challenging for most of us. But everything in life is ever changing. Sometimes it’s very dramatic and it’s right in our face, boldly challenging us; and other times there are these little, subtle changes that we aren’t even aware of until after a certain point. It’s as if someone is slowly pulling the rug out from under our feet and then, all of a sudden, there is one big tug and there we are, in the midst of change. So, if we look at our lives right now, and look at where we were prior to starting this pathway, would we all agree that even though a lot of things have changed and dropped away, our lives are better now than they were prior to being on this pathway? From a spiritual standpoint, we have begun to understand and experience, and to choose into neutrality, into loving, into forgiveness and acceptance. We’ve begun to choose into “putting God first.” We have begun to take responsibility for our own thoughts and feelings, for our actions and reactions, and not put this responsibility upon others. And all of these changes make our lives simpler and more fulfilling because we are beginning to experience that movement of Loving which is a fulfillment of oneself in this creation. To be able to live in that movement of Loving is fulfillment.
Since starting this Pathway Home to God, our relationships with our parents may have changed, or with our siblings, or with co-workers; our belief systems, our attitudes, and maybe our careers and finances may have changed. But all these changes have helped to move us into neutrality, into the centeredness of this pathway, into one of the key actions of this pathway: detachment. And what is detachment? It’s a choice. It really is a choice. We look at something and ask, “Is that really important? Do I have to keep holding on to keep this relationship alive? Do I have to feed it all the time and make it happen? Or, do I just let it go?”
If we’ve walked this pathway for a while and we’re doing the meditation, we are witnesses to our own life changes. Others may see some changes in us, but only we know the truth of those changes, and only we know what it took to move through all those things to make our life what it is today. And so, my question to you, right now, would be: “Where you are today, after all these changes, after many meditations, after this action of Loving in your life, would you give all this up and go back to before you began this practice of meditation? Would you want to go back to that?” Most of us would say, “No, I don’t want that anymore; that was hell.” I hope none of us want to ever go back, and anyway, there’s really no way we can. We could try but it wouldn’t be the same because of what we now know. Back then, we didn’t know the choices and so we weren’t making them. We were just living what was present in the moment. We have since experienced that movement of the Divine inside. We have since witnessed ourselves change and grow, and we have since experienced a greater peace and joy. Even if we do go back to the old ways, they’ll just transform and move back into this new action of Loving. It would just be automatic because wherever we take Loving things change. Once we have Loving anchored inside, we can’t give it up and we can’t stop it from moving. It is ever in action. Now, we could do one thing. We could do what we did when we first entered into the physical creation, and that is to turn away from the realms of Spirit and look back into the world. But Spirit is right there and we know it. If we were to turn away from that Truth now and turn back to the illusion, we couldn’t forget. We can’t forget this time because God will ever remind us back to the Truth of who we are, through the longing, through the pull, through the call to remember, so that we can continue the journey Home to God. We can resist, we can fight, we can turn away, but ultimately, today, tomorrow, twenty years from now, the next lifetime, we will choose back into the Loving once again, and just pick up where we left off.