INNER LIGHT MINISTRIES Journal
Staying Present
Volume 26 Number 3
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by Jim Gordon, President of ILM (from a letter to an Initiate)
he ego was formed out of reaction and is continually fed by reaction. It came forward out of the mind in reaction to things in the world that made us feel unsafe and threatened. The ego will always run in reaction to the world and to the people in the world. Being in such reaction does not allow for our best work and expression to come forward. When the energy of reaction comes into balance, the ego dissolves, and the energy that has been locked up in ego expression of protection, self-centeredness, and trying to get above others, will begin to dissipate. It can be challenging when we first begin to go inside and meditate, because the ego may suddenly feel threatened. That part of the ego will eventually die in some way, but the good news is that the knowledge, the strength and determination of the ego will live on. These qualities of the ego will be used by the soul to fulfill us inside and in the world in greater ways, rather then in the familiar, empty motives that the ego most often thrives on. We can, then, move more easily into the flow of Loving and service, and awaken to the truth of who we are as Soul.
December 2014
that will make the process easier. It is up to you to continue to choose into this new place inside you; it is up to you to allow the ego to weaken by no longer feeding it, nurturing it, and giving it authority over you. It truly is your choice. The thing to do is to love the warm loving place inside you and feed that with the loving, rather then feeding the ego. Truly the greatest way to rise above the ego is through meditation. Meditation takes us above the ego and mind, and allows the energy of the ego to be moved into new and better ways of expression and action action rather than reaction. Remember, the ego was formed out of reaction and is continually fed by reaction. Lifting up above the reactive mind and ego, and allowing our selves to live more in the active flow of the loving of the soul, is the way to let go of the ego. We created the ego through our reactions to the world, and it is up to us to take action, to let go of the reaction, and to stand free of the ego. And yes, the ego will ever try to run our lives and do everything it can to keep us off balance so it stays alive and strong, but it’s up to us to change all of this.
The thing to realize is that when the ego that has been driving us, that has tied up our energy, begins to dissolve, we will be able to express ourselves in greater ways through the natural flow of Loving that we truly are.
The loving that you see in yourself, and have seen in others is ever present; it is up to you to choose to live more from that place rather than from the ego, the mind, and your reactions. We are the Loving. You are the Loving, and it is up to you to keep choosing into the “true you” and letting go of the worldly you. Once you have seen this part that is the true you, you will find that it will soon become easier and easier to keep choosing into the true you. The challenge will be, of course, to stay ever present and handle what is right now in front of you in every moment.
That very warm part of you that you talked about is you becoming aware and is truly the loving place of the soul’s expression. The ego is beginning to align so that the soul’s true expression is coming forward. Now that you know the difference it will be easier for you to choose into that loving warm place inside you and it will be easier to let go of the hard place that is of the ego. You now know you have a choice, and
Do what you can to be in loving with it all. You are the one who can make the changes and do things differently. So rather than going into old patterns of the unconscious and of the reactive ego that only keeps you caught up in the world and feeling limited, remember the key is to stay present, see what’s happening right now, and then make conscious choices that will keep you more and more in the Loving.