Do you feel that the world “sees you” now? Were you invisible before, and is there a difference in the way you are treated? If so, how do you manage this emotionally? Does the reflection on the difference in how you were treated then versus today affect you? David: Inverting that question I would say that “I see” the world now. I would always keep my head down making my presence and feelings as invisible as possible. I never invested my time in others, so how could I possibly expect the same treatment? Now, whenever I walk down the street or if I’m being served in a shop, I always smile and make an effort to engage with them.
The one thing I notice is that there are so many people who seem impossibly shy and socially isolated the way I was. This is irrespective of their weight or appearance and probably more to do with the fact that so many people interact freely online that they’ve lost track of that tangible element that makes us human. Either that or my barista is thinking “what are you so happy about weirdo? Take your fu**ing coffee and leave!” Sam: I think for me the real difference is how I allow myself to be treated by others.. looking back I put up with so much, I genuinely believed the world was just a bit miserable, now people
A Burden Lifted: A Journey From Weight Loss To Love
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