Poems from gaurav

POEMS

By Gaurav Basnyat

CONTENTS 1.

Country And they burn in pride Another one Diary of revolutionary (Part I) Other side of immortality 2.

Feminism 2.1 Women 3. Friends And those eyes (ode to e….part III) And you smile (ode to e….part II) The bubble or the smile (part I) To the future (ode to e….part IV) 4. Life A race with time Bound to my hate Colors of life Dear suicide On a lone highway On a lone highway (Part II) On a lone highway (final part) Reality the new dream Superficial life The garden The new dawn 5. Romance A lil poetry Across the street Conflicts of life Face in the crowd Floating Friends beyond the sky Immortality my love Its so beautiful Last ballad for the star Love and beyond Melancholy (Part I) Ode to you……Deep Search (Part I) Seems The fall Thinking about yesterday Unchangeable

Wonder if

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COUNTRY

And they burn in pride Another one Diary of revolutionary (Part I) Other side of immortality

1.1 AND THEY BURN IN PRIDE A bullet it pierces, He falls back to ground, Blood it seeps out, And he dreams of his youth, When he imagined how, His death, he projected, Is so true now.

As a youth he dreamed, A red flag in red, On his dead body, And a bangle it speaks, Guns fired to the air, Towards heaven he strides, Immortality he grabs.

The guns of winter, He saw the line, The uniforms of pride, The medals on the chests.

And his head held high, Towards the sky he talked, Sadness over which he overtook.

He doesn't dream of violence, Peace he loves too, But fight it continues, And he fights for his life, The hearts of lions, They don't tremble, And I can just question, They burn and for whom??

1.2 ANOTHER ONE And one more dies, He bites the sands, And life is over, Time to sleep.

And all this, For a small cause, Burnt for stupidity, Ideal less ideals.

And what are we here, Stone of the forever, Hands those never tamed, Are now tamed by blood.

Innocence was his life, And violence is yours, And the jokers of liberty, Keep poking fingers.

Laugh at this farce, And drink to the dead, Don’t worry my friend, We will all follow you there.

For we are cowards, Drenched in stupid fear, Materialistic ignorance, Dripped in greed within.

And someday I hope, Men like you are free,

And someday I wish, We at last awake.

1.3 DIARY OF REVOLUTIONARY (Part I) Is this a dream?

If it is please go away, For I can see it's wrong, And forever will be.

The feelings are not true, But truer the lies they send you, The unknown boundaries, Man has kept on the world.

Happiness they can't see, Is not bound by poverty, Love none can see, Is not bound by social integrity.

Heaven doesn't have doors, It’s all free for us, Hell my friend is true, Not by the consequence of evil.

I am the god they say, Who thinks to climb the walls?

Or am I the dog, With his tails down and out?

Was this love of the eye?

Or the heart never did give in?

And truer words were seldom spoken, When I said is this a dream?

For all I can say or do, Has lost its meaning,

For all that life can offer, Is that all true or is it you?

Revolution I see in the streets, And evolution I can't see in your heart, The word is out and if you've not heard, The old have gone and new are true.

1.4 OTHER SIDE OF IMMORTALITY Where can we see?

The smiles of mine, The young ones they get lost, The burning of wood, The souls of a warrior, Tears they smile at me, My heart skips to think.

To those who live, Pride and thought, They don't mean a thing, Temper saw a life, Heavens open wide, But they don't rain red, On the white worlds.

He who takes away, Has a chance to give in, A man dies for a soil, A family burns in pain, Medals do find them, Pride it confines them, Who are we to blame?

We look at those innocent eyes, Feel a sorrow within, They search a star, We named it peace, Everyone drinks alcohol, We named it violence, They roam to see, the night.

And I say don't shed, Nor blood nor the tears, We just search for you, Lost in space by the truth, And they die on the world, Awake in heaven, Why are we here to judge?

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2.1

FEMINISM

Women (Part I – on mothers)

2.1 WOMEN

(Part I – on mothers)

We search them all over, And they stand here, We profoundly praise creator, While the creators are here, They stand beside us.

And men try to contradict, Talk of greatness and victory, Women they never really need to, Forever is their thoughts, It is heard like stones.

They join islands, The fools are we, We never realize life, Love is not in our heart, It is radiating from them.

Search the thousands depths, And you won't find love, Put your arms around, Your mother, you will find, The warmth so great.

And so much they are, So less are some words, Life can't be long, But I’m sure love can, And we get all from them.

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3.1 3.2 3.3 3.4

FRIENDS

And those eyes (ode to e….part III) And you smile (ode to e….part II) The bubble or the smile (part I) To the future (ode to e….part IV)

3.1 AND THOSE EYES (ODE TO E‌.PART III)

Profound thoughts they emerge, Like a window, like a door, They all try to get adversity, I only see a friend.

The genuine thought of life, It doesn't make any sense, For something to be great, It has to be above rest.

Think and see into the eyes, They all make me feel all right, The same rays I see, From my mother or my life.

And those who stand, Think of things in negativity, I laugh at them all the while, To see them lose a friend.

All it says let it run, A fragile wall of feelings, They eyes are some as that, They burn when touched.

But will not burn others, Like it might burn itself, Some beings they are fools, They try and test the heat.

Eyes please do tell me,

That’s its all true, The feelings that they emit, Are ever so true.

And those eyes can't lie, They can't burn you, For I feel certain, Because they belong to you.

3.2 And you smile (ode to e‌.part II) They swim across the skies, Like birds of awesome wings, They call themselves a smile, And utmost pleasure I have, To call them no one else, But only eternity in you.

Why don't you smile again?

I sometimes like to ask, And then you spread wings, Is it I who is blind, Or the world that can't see, The gloom of the day, That can't spread around.

Undisclosed are no fears, Or the eternal fights, They fade upon us all, Like they wonder above, I wonder below it, They see all that’s membrane, I see purity of all.

Judgment they try to awake, Fingers they might point, The mind of the unsung past, Molded into the vessels of distance, They can cramp you for a while, Stumble you can, you will, But that smile kills it all.

And men may come and go,

They may or may not smile, For your serenity of life, Women may smile, To burn some desires, Forever they might point you, Not understanding, colours within you.

Never change the canvas, For god never meant it to, Winds might blow you, Put dust in your eyes, Water might fall from the fern, But they won't be in vain, For they will purify the earth.

A helping hand on me, Affectionate look by you, A hand drenched in dirt, But underneath the line, They are oh so clean, I try to hide my strength, I drench into my pain.

Forever though don't take me, As wrong as I want you to, My life, they complicate it, I just make my life, A place to sleep a night, And the morning it will come.

Never, forever it comes, Tomorrow is here and today, You see has gone like a wind, Come along or go along, I wish I never could, But forever upon all, You smile like, you only do.

3.3 The bubble or the smile (part I) And it bubbles out, Like the clouds above, You just seem to be, Another sunshine that stands, And everyone likes to catch, A butterfly or two, But they just don't know how to.

The flower blooms, Like everything has to, But they never seem to amount, The way you everyday do, And life it will take a backseat, But your smile will never.

As this life seems so dark, Sometimes I wonder, Why doesn't that power, Come upon my soul, Imagine your happiness, To be so eternal, Why haven't I felt like you before?

Some may see you there, How they imagined you, And those ponds with black edges, Hope they never see the world, For greed is what is there, The eyes of those in mental despair, Who never seem to realize, You are not so... there.

People always burst the bubbles,

That arouse now and then, But I plead to all, Just don't burst the bubble like you, I might not be there to make you realize, But tomorrow they will see you, On their walls of happy eyes.

3.4 To the future (ode to e….part IV) Future it will come, I might never reach, The stars, those ways, And how you changed me.

But I will, I say, Be a life boat, If you are stranded, Ever in the sea of life.

And I say today, Its true promises they forget, But I never seem to, Don’t worry, you don't need to.

The trains they leave, The stations they loved, But one day they'll return, And the stations they stand there.

Try a mountain or a hill, I’ll pave the path, The things you felt unreal, Reality I’ll produce.

My promise my words, As a friend I say, Tears they'll roll, But remember my hands.

Sands of time, You will see, It can change you,

But I’ll change never, Try a way to forget, I know you will, The looks of paved ways, Transformed to broken mud.

Lines in my hand, They tell me the lie, But you'll see, A true friend in me.

And as death approaches, Just like to all, You and me can see, The friendship set us free.

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LIFE

4.1 A race with time 4.2 Bound to my hate 4.3 Colors of life 4.4 Dear suicide 4.5 On a lone highway 4.6 On a lone highway (Part II) 4.7 On a lone highway (final part) 4.8 Reality the new dream 4.9 Superficial life 4.10 The garden 4.11 The new dawn

4.1 A race with time Yesterday thank god it went away, Today, when will it go?

Tomorrow, when will it come?

I always flirt with time, Though it keeps edging me, But I escape somehow.

This time though I might be back, Or is it just a calm before a storm, I know I can burst ahead, But do I really have the time, Always running ahead, I guess I want to find, how it feels behind.

Truth it does help me, A lie it ignites my soul, They say god is looking, But I just don't care, For gods here below can't touch, Heavens above are too far away.

And yesterday, my friends I was young, Today, I’m still youthful, Tomorrow I shall burn out, But the smokes they will rise, And my words of strength, Evolve through generations to come.

4.2 Bound to my hate Trembling my own fear, Floods that bleed, I united without, The face of anonymity.

It all fades to roses, Desert sand they are moist, How my thorns of life, It just broke away.

A meaning of my own, To swim in the thoughts, Where I got lost again, I do find myself sometimes.

Wind it talks senseless, Who does it talk to?

My ears are closed, And my thoughts are bound.

Depths of my feelings, Measured by my truth, Time it traps me, I try to trap time.

Towards that far light, It burns my eyes, Taking a word back, Taking a thought forward.

Temptations of love, My true anger for life, True to my own hate,

Untrue forever to you.

4.3 Colors of life And the water washes it all, The colors that are sprayed, The body which is colorless, It is dipped in the colour of love, I wish these colors, They never wash away, But my intentions overlook, The hard truth of these worlds.

Sometimes I myself called life, As a dark narrow road, Filled with uncertainty, But I wish I could make it, As colorful as the rainbows, Men might come and discover life, They might see a sense of hope, But they overlook the simple colors.

My love, is it the truth, Or just a simple dream of happiness, Death it seems has no colour, But it does some times, We all bleed crimson red, And we all see black when we close our eyes, The colors of life, They are so unreal sometimes.

And the lads they bring out, A love in their smile, A colorless water of feelings, But we with hearts so huge, We always try to get power,

I hope one day to return, To the my playground, The simple playground of colors.

You try to picture life, I try to paint it, Heavens they are waiting they say, But I never know how they say, The blue sky sometimes cries, And the colors they fade away, My life my eyes my truth my sound, These colors they awake, my way.

And the heavy hearts they will see, My body in agony, On the pyre they see, Colorless as it can be, Fire it will burn my truth, With high flames of my love, And all men they do get here, And forever the flame it burns.

4.4 Dear suicide They all try to bind me, With love and happiness, But they don't see, I have wings now, My flight has begun, And I will stop for no one, My mind subjected by tears, Or my left nothing to burn.

All that effort, We all put in, Where does it go?

It has no use at all, Everyman for himself, Or every soul for others, I lost the compassion, To live or even to die.

Blind me with greed, Or I shall despise this world, Bound me with chains, Or I shall change this world.

Many will die with me, The doors are closed, But windows are open, Forever they remain free.

I imagine you dead, On the floors soaked red, But how I forgot, Poison I made you drink, Human life can't be true,

Death can't ever look good, But it is, Why don't you understand it is!!!

4.5 On a lone highway Runaway from the future, Live in the past, Where you dwell your mind, I just awoke.

All I believed, Throughout my life, You have proved them wrong, And I have no words to protest.

The very ground, That I stood on, It has vanished in thin air, You stole it from me.

Where are the lies, That we swam on?

Have they gone away.

Like the seasons of my life?

My song without a reason, A love without pain, Fight without anger, And it all fades away.

Am I wining or losing, Closed my eyes forever, Speak no worry no more, Shed no tear for a loved one.

Living my life on a lone highway, Burning my love, Standing alone and out,

On this fire of hate.

4.6 On a lone highway (Part II) Grave the end, I stand back to see, Where you used to dwell, I just retrieved hell.

Sank a stone in air, Floated a life in blood, Become a emotionless god, A heartless warrior for all.

Joke no more for you, Life is not just true, I have no ground, To walk on anymore.

No life I see has love, Eyes drenched with hate, Blood mixed with water, A book full of pornography.

Mind to you is subjected, To all my truths, That I had no worries, Of all I lied about.

Still I stand, Dark, gloomy and alone, An old man can't walk, A young man can't run.

My fight on this road, Friends my lone soul,

Gravel my house, Sun my only shade.

Like a heavenly being, On this lone highway, I still roam, And I will roam.

4.7 On a lone highway (final part) Walked miles just did, Was it love or is it greed?

No more of the concrete, Highway was my creed.

Chose to stay awake, To make a last day, A lost night, For my unloose mind.

Standing alone for myself, Don’t know if I’m standing tall, All that’s awoke me, Have slept for eternity.

Never wrote a poem, For this love of mine, Never seeked freedom, From this unholy shrine.

Have I lost the way?

No I haven't I believe, Because I’m not the walker, But I’m the highway myself.

4.8 Reality the new dream In the world full of virtuality, I dream of reality, Reality on your face, And reality on my face.

Reality in a lover’s words, Reality on my friend’s words, I dream of reality, Till the infinity.

I do believe that the world is a reality, But I’m afraid that virtuality might take over, Reality is not virtuality, And virtuality isn't a dream.

I seek reality in a rulers face, I seek reality in a policeman’s dress, But can only find them in my dreams, Because reality is only in dreams.

People say reality bites, But I have been bitten by virtuality, People say and you do too, That follows your dreams.

But following a reality, Is harder than thinking virtuality as reality, So this is my saying and rule, Reality is the new the dream.

4.9 Superficial life Learn, why have you just, Isn’t the truth within you?

Is it so hard to believe?

In something you do.

And you are the ones, That forever will judge me, For this world can't see, The deep blue sea in me.

A figure based on ignorance, Can life be just that?

Hail the almighty for it, For dwelling pointless strides.

They are running like sheep’s, For greed they search, Let’s all forget we're on two legs, And just fight for the world.

Come on my men of sanity, Take these golden woods, And burn away the life, That can be filled with love.

Compassion under the sands, Laughter to me is so superficial, One day I’ll give up to it all, But wait till I get my rebel blood.

Youth it will fade away, I know I hope it goes, But my songs of truth,

Let them stay, On the cemetery of those youthful days.

4.10 The garden The gardens where I got, My sense of being alive, The flowers of knowledge, Where they grew like all.

The trees they are old, But they grew with me, And like eternal cycle, The grasses grew and died.

Where is heaven they ask?

These gardens seem like it, The heavens that taught me, Life, like birds on the fields.

The sun does shine, Always over my shoulder, My only warmth of happiness, A true clear blue sky.

You know I grew here, On these soils I have my roots, And my soul will be here, And my ashes, sprinkle it here.

4.11 The new dawn The egg shells, I know they broke, The war trials, The lion it roars.

Somewhere deep, Within my own self, I discovered, Truth not so far, And the seas, That sailed on faith, Like betrayal, They plunged deep.

A darkness felt, Eyes I never opened, And as I see, Disappointment stands.

But here I come, Back to my strength, My strength I roar, Swimming through the woods.

The new dawn, It breaks and breaks up, The old dusk, It sinks and trembles.

So I care no more, For the dusk and dawn, Its time we wake up,

And get what you want.

And the new dawn, Is not really mine, For it never was anyone’s, But it keeps breaking.

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5.1 5.2 5.3 5.4 5.5 5.6 5.7 5.8 5.9 5.10 5.11 5.12 5.13 5.14 5.15 5.16 5.17 5.18

ROMANCE

A lil poetry Across the street Conflicts of life Face in the crowd Floating Friends beyond the sky Immortality my love Its so beautiful Last ballad for the star Love and beyond Melancholy (Part I) Ode to you‌‌Deep Search (Part I) Seems The fall Thinking about yesterday Unchangeable Wonder if

5.1 A lil poetry

Everytime i hurt you i hurt myself every time i make you sad i am sad myself so why do i do it?

I question myself you are the picture of my dreams i know it you are the beauty of this world and i know it so why do i frown i don't know it? heavens they fall into your eyes i can see the smile of your brings mine i can see and the world is nothing i finally can see so why do i make you sad? i really can't see it No matter how many time i make you sad infinite more times i try and make you smile so don't you go away from me just be what you are for i don't want you to change because i love that same old you and i fell in love with that you

you might be angry a lot i don't care you might be bossy i don't care you might be loud i don't care you are happy and smilling thats what i care so my princess you can smile for i love you you can jump around for i love you you can paint the world pink or red for i love you and forever will do!

5.2 Across the street across the street you stand while i don't worlds are apart but seem so close a wish of the heart a decision of the brain love of bridges or the road of infinity stay away and i see you smile forever at me a rubicon of my heart never to be crossed i sometimes wonder why why i don't do things i should when i know its right sure thing i runaway but if i thought once more you could be mine but i rather try remember you and forget you after my fate

5.3 Conflicts of life tommorow the day explodes things seem so unreal Sun it looks so pale and life it looks so frail My child of hope and fantasy killed in the womb Every man is a woman inside why do they still fight i regret my mistakes tommorow i will awake they will charge me with pain but i will recover from it like eternal days of gloom a small flower it rises sweet smell of life i hope it comes back again heritage thats surrounds me i wake to see them stand they fell upon these new trees trying to get some groove Oh my friends i still love for i'm not a miser taking a time of my life just eating a piece of the cake

5.4 Face in the crowd

who can deny beauty my eyes never do stand all that anxiety and greed it doesn't really matter i was lost like ever thought about going down but i never thought i was never to be drowned i look around in the crowd and a face lits up my eyes no it doesn't arouse me it enlitens my senses i try not to look at it not feel a regardless thought i gaze and gaze ,her face the eternal bliss i regret my life today i am not an artist for i would sketch the image so great her hands on her chin a sight forever to see time,can't you stop for this is beyond what you stand for and as her eyes pour out inocence i wonder how she is

at the heart i power myself to ask if her heart was beautiful but the noises of hindrance they crack my intention a face in the crowd just a face to cherish ends at that forever blinding me for a while

5.5 Floating

again i try to think the existence of my space and how you stand imagineing life how you face life everyother moment i forget you the way i like another beautiful moment and i find you there i try but i can't no i'm not in love seems like i am floating through my own fake sea all it takes is a few feet and i'm into you i'm scared i'm a coward i like to float this bridge of immortality or the river of flow the love boat captain please take me home

5.6 Friends beyond the sky once those eyes i saw see how they grow on the world the legs once vexed to walk stride on this world you and i were so weak now they are weaker at heart the love within the sky now again beyond space friends they walk along do they form a nest they might die out like winds but still i remember them heaven opened for us hell it closed below and you can make a god you can't make a friend those who stand below never can they be weak those who stand above are they strong as they think? above it all i stand like broken tree they always will see my reflections will they see my reality?

5.7 Immortality my love

a clock work of life turns to the wrong way my dream of sadness my hope of undone life can i seek you on me or it has just beeen so immortality my love i give you my heart forever the things i see the beautiful people the silence of my music deafening cry of magic i give roses to you but i can't imagine leaving the truths of my own lies but i know my love my true love isn't you my true love is death but still immortality i love you

5.8 Its so beautiful

runing are the emotions but when did it came over the winds all that always sang a song to the ears and they just burst apart the prison that was created that turned into gardens heaven that he thought are they as real as they seem

beauty is not the body but beauty is the love my own eyes burned sometimes but how can they just be a smile but a huge opening in the heart one man can't be a tree and a woman can't be always a flower they have to keep their own and it all burns away always like life but it seldom means not to love when its there its heaven and if its not then it is too love is not the criminal but the interpretation is crime everyone runs toward what it feels they bind it in life and death i bind it forever in you... and love is so beautiful it just makes me feel heaven

and its not to worry my friend it all boils out to you ....

5.9 Last ballad for the star

the page it keeps turning i search the words pictures that smile at me i frown at them tried to picture you on the skies that are so unclear strange noises in my heart the waves towards you my life fooled by humour i tried to laugh at love and it just got me here to the rivers of pain i search you in my dreams my mind of self control tried turning you to stone gaze and gaze at it could i touch you or would eyes be better the silent worlds and my heart beating noone can feel my song they do not like to hear why can't you hear me through thick airs within you and me you dropped like rain smoothed out forever

and as you dance my pain seems to fly away forever i could have kept it but i just had to feel my tears are false my heart is always true can it be,you just thought to where all stands to or maybe i never did come out of my shell and you might think of me i sure do,forever my eternity is seconds i spent feeling you people try and judge me my life i say ,i burned ashes that she will carry my love it haunts i pictured you here now i see there should i try one time or just die ,fine a vapour of thought tried to run away found a road to hate but once more it led to you bury me,my life i will never love again trying hard just to cry and they don't see it now it just fades it burns on the funeral

i will not touch the ashes for they infect me saying goodbye to a place i try to think i was never there where was i ? and you just be fine never light the candle let the room be dark and lets get lost for each other

5.10 Love and beyond

flow of love awakes my mind the freedom to lose isn't my perfect sin a world a mind spread on the vulgarity and how we lost the purity of it all a moment of eternal the beauty of creation potrayed by the world in a shoddy delivery my eyes do not see the mistake in it i forget the obsenity for the true meaning of all

5.11 Melancholy – I

Sadness creeps into the light of my day insanity brought it into my own ways can I seek to fly and not to unravel those things I thought now I don’t want always gave it all was I wrong I question that face tells me all my mistakes they were For a heavy heart I try to lighten it nothing can relieve me of the sins I have committed pictures I painted now I stand to criticize them love I wandered upon lost its true ways

and as my heart weeps a bitter tune of pain I seek to fade away Into catacombs of the world

5.12 Ode to you there i searched a life of eternity and she gave me immortality in form of that love i asked nothing else but there was something more she gave me everything in form of that smile finally i thought i had got it all but she gave me something more she gave me my happiness where was i to find all these things i never could understand how i got it all from her and now i know why they never could define beacause only she could make me understand thats its just love

5.13 Search part – I

the wood work comes off and another one just fades have i really lost my way or did i never see the way sometimes it feels so strange to lose things that never were grab a bit of air how it never stays,or does it? definiton ,i build day after and truth i try to hide some come and stay and many never do go away like my life itself its so short and slow and i make mistakes i know but i need to make them sometimes i search the books for nothing a knowledge i never want who can question my life like it always seems so question me and those faces i love so dear have they been stones or have i acted as to search things i find infront of me why can't i make my life round like the world it seems always

and everything i touch can it turn to flowers or gold? come save me and my search somewhere i see the path my enlighted path of love or just another wasteful land come my precious we must live or shall this death search end how i like you to stay but they always fly i know ,dreams search search what do i need to can't i find my life and truth my friend it gets far and this search never ends

5.14 Seems

forever i tried to please the things i thought were mine but never was i wrong to believe my life wasn't theirs it was mine to me my myself i do believe no one else is mine they are all dead and buried under their own love am i not the same thing may be i have changed for good you can make me sing a song but you can't make me cry tommorow life takes a turn you live for your own agony i live for my own laughter or is it the sadness that'll prevail? seems to them they laugh seems to me i laugh at them i try and never to fight but i do lose my mind sometimes how am i to define love my hate i just got it strenghthened heavier my sins that i'll bear but heavier than those are my hate my own angriness towards you

all verbal abuses to hide i always was not in emotion but i always ran away so be it i never thought i was more powerful than myself it scares me to death when i see my own unwanted hate you may be a star to which some pray i may be the rag doll that lies in vain but i am what i made but you are what i made you so i burn away my power so i burn away my own desire i live for noone but for my own trust god i hate you for me i love you for them they always try to bound me from me i always am out so how am i to be bounded they say i'm the smile no i say i'm the smile on a teardrop i like to deicive but was it my own the love i say ,but they do kill me sometimes but in the end i seem to forget all my beautiful eyes so much to see my death it nears my agony i think and it always seems......

5.15 The fall

I thought I was drowning But I was Wrong I thought I was breaking But I was Strong It was all an illusion And today I know It had an easy solution That I never could Show And today I fell Into the real Hole ANd its this never ending Well Which keeps on deepning in my Soul

5.16 Thinking about yesterday

Light a candle and it burns out see this life a moment and it folds up yesterday it was so beautiful today its gone tommorow i don't see any of that coming back true,it was worth it untrue ,it was forever for once the sun rises sometime it has to set life cannot stop at it and i know it won't say a few words and love it just freezes can i make my life forever like yesterday no,the time hasn't gone away but it will go oneday i'm the seeker or they're seeking me i'm just a story or am i a mystery? time it can stop for in my heart i've stopped it

life it can't stop for its changing me so i don't think no more i just take my stand and times they were good but today its not so bad either

5.17 Unchangeable

somethings never change and you don't want them to they keep their dimensions like we always like to time passes us like the song the water flows and comes they keep their head high whatever it may cost one man passes and the other they remain the pillars for eternity does it fight those enemies that keep running truth keeps visiting me and it comes forward like the winds of my heart where does it dwell Past can't reprimend and they who stand can't think what's true towards what remains And the ashes they burn Or will they bury them for hell i seek them they level heaven to command

5.18Wonder If Sometimes i wonder if i ever will be a good man and would i ever see the sun upon my shoulders for others to see sometimes i wonder if i'll ever live to see the day when my troubles and travails over and gone can take me away sometimes i wonder if death shall embrace me with immense pride that even death might feel after embracing men so great heavens can't open for me and the hell is never closed i keep wondering towards the sky for the wanderers are meant to wonder if and then finally i realise i don't have to wonder if because there is one thing i don't need and thats your love