Striving Sagittarius

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STRIVING SAGITTARIUS a poetry pamphlet

2 CONTENTS 1) THREE 2) FLEDGE 3) HOUSES 4) NEW JOB 5) ADAPT 6) WOODLAND 7) IDEA 8) TIME 9) BALM 10)IMPOSTER 11)IDENTITY 12)DIFFERENT 13)GLUE 14)SOLO 15)OFF-BOOK

THREE

I was not alone and I didn't want to be; I had you with me.

I still see you both but we are further apart, geographically.

I miss seeing you, without making an effort, but we're adults too.

I'm never alone; for, though you are far away, I can count on you.

FLEDGE

We're the manifestation of your love; that's what you say, and you're right.

We're more than just your children, yet we wouldn't exist without you.

There was a time when you let me fly. When I must fledge again, it should not make you cry.

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HOUSES

I grieve houses like they're people; it's less painful but I do. I resent impermanence like transience is meaningless.

Large houses are meant for those with children yet to grow; I have flown the nest before and I know I must again. But houses help me feel calm; they give me equilibrium. And there are so many memories that are bound up in them.

I know this sounds like privilege, but these buildings have shaped me; losing somewhere that I loved, recharts my life completely.

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NEW JOB

I am still learning. It will become a habit but that might take time.
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ADAPT

I have been held back by old unhelpful habits, but I must adapt.
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WOODLAND

Branches covered us as I confessed my feelings and you walked away.
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IDEA

I liked the idea of you before I knew you, but loved the real you.
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The days and hours pass and I am not always glad, but I can’t fight time.
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BALM

I trap pain with words. If I don’t, I cannot cope. Poems are my balm.
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IMPOSTER

I am a benevolent imposter; I do not think like you do.

The world isn't suited to me but it is my world too.

It is hard to cleave to a focus when your brain tries to resist.

My mind works in binaries but they don't really exist.

I do not fit in comfortably here but it's easier when you're near.

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IDENTITY

I was told my true self did not exist and then warned not to repress it.

Could both statements be true –a personality both fated and contingent?

I do not have the answer, but I am sure of one thing.

I'd leak doubt, rather than blood, if you punctured my skin.

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DIFFERENT

My brain's not like yours. That is hard to understand but it is still true. There's a name for it: executive dysfunction. That's what I'm fighting. Try to understand: I do the best I can but I can’t always win.
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GLUE

We are insignificant, but this does not signify. Our problems matter to us, although they can be trivial.

The words "It could be worse" have never raised my spirits.

I can't comprehend their tragedies and retain my own sanity. The world is overwhelming, but it's achingly beautiful too.

When I have fallen to pieces, please use your love as glue.

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SOLO

I relish infatuations, but don’t let people in.

My brain fears and flees from feelings, but my heart disagrees.

I try hard to protect myself, but just end up alone.

I think that I’m unlovable, but hope you’ll prove me wrong.

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OFF-BOOK

I am most comfortable at home, but long for fresh air and sun.

I am most comfortable alone, but get so lonely in solitude.

I am most content with simplicity, but seem to seek out stress.

I am most focused when it is quiet, but loathe comfortable silence.

I am most myself when I am writing, but must live my life off-book.

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This is a poetry pamphlet, which touches on the themes of family, love, introspection, and growth.

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