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Volume 4: May 2005. Coral Reef Senior High 10101 S.W. 152 St. Miami, Fl 33157 Tel: 305-232-2044 Fax: 305-252-3454 http://coralreef.dadeschools.net/elysium
8UEDQ /DQGVFDSHV We ﬂoat through the days, adrift in urban sprawl. We are displaced in all places. In the midst of eddies, of swirling waters, we have emotions, introspections, dreams; we are lonely. We wind our way through the sunny skies, the colors that populate our world. We skip through dance steps, through battles, through ﬂickering ﬂux and ﬂuctuation. We listen to the music of joy; we ﬁnd companions to avoid loneliness. We try to ﬂy. We step from sunlight to darkness, from joy to sadness. The city dreams, through our deceptions and our triumphs. It ﬁnds its own accomplishments, its artists, its knowers. It transforms itself, lines sweeping around the tessellation of life. Labyrinthine journeys, ﬁery self-discovery. The city watches us – its poets, its dreamers. We come from the corners of the earth and build our havens within this city. We ﬁnd our Elysium.
(O\VLXP 6WDII Back Row: Martine Powers, Patricia Arty, Joseph Burchell, Thomas Ilic, Emily de Armas, Justin Dainer-Best, Kristine Chien, Stephen Palahach, Susan Cohen, Klara Scharnagl, Javier Ortega, Ashley Gallagher, Sarah Youbi, Rafael Rivero Middle Row: Bettina Hodapp, Natalie Tejero Front Row: Bianca Fernandez, Megan O’Connor, Erica Fabry, Whitney Arostegui, Carmella Guiol, Greta Martinez, Katherine Holmes, Anjalee Khemlani Not pictured: Beverly Acha, Nicole Chipi
(GLWRULDO 6WDII Editor: Justin Dainer-Best Layout Editors: Kristine Chien, Emily de Armas Artistic Director: Beverly Acha Technical Advisor: Megan O’Connor Webmaster: Rafael Rivero Sponsors: Mrs. Amy Scott and Mrs. Susan O’Connor
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Lost Jay Parekh
Opposites Kerri Lopez
Color Coded Bianca Fernandez
Nocturnal City Emily de Armas
Color Blind Corey Berman
Drive Me Away Sunshine Bianca Fernandez
Solid Rafael Rivero
Soma Theano Stavrinos
The Shadows Cast by Beauty Ana Pena
One-Winged Butterﬂy Thomas Ilic
She Wanted to Fly Susan Cohen
Sisterly Love Allyson Jones
The Weight Rafael Rivero
Metro Riding Justin Dainer-Best
Culture Nick Kallergis
Sunrise in Haiti Valerie Bellande
Still Frame Nicole Chipi
Ballerinas Christie Delagandara
Tears for Expression Valerie Bellande
I am What I Eat Amanda Martino
Catzilla Amber Williams
Animal Politics Steven Palahach
Lost up There Nicole Chipi
A Ghost’s End, Day’s Glee Yaeyoon (Yuna) Park
In Flux Lillian Marquez
The Unseen Canvas Luis Ocampo
I Do Not Hear My Song Bernardo Garcia
Revolution Carmella Guiol
One Earth Luis Ocampo
Finally the Boy Understands Nick Bernal
The Frozen Sea Elie Picault
My Hero Rides Again Elise Chazyn
Together We Sing Alfred V. Nicoletti
Cigaro Sonia Miranda
Misery Yaeyoon (Yuna) Park
Water Brothers Steven Palahach
Lost Railroad to China Reshma Ramachandran
Labyrinth Thomas Ilic
Assumptions Adam Kressel
His Lips are Windows Justin Dainer-Best
Front Cover Illustration: Sarah Schloss and Morgan Tinney
Back Cover Illustration: Sarah Youbi (image) and Mrs. Scott (word art)
Typhoon Christina Jay
Self Portrait Joseph Burchell Cat in the Hat Brandon Wilson Give my All Michael Suarez Truth Eileen Rodriguez Three Images of Haiti Amanda Martino Untitled Beverly Acha Revolution Francisco Gonzales Portrait of Hope Brandon Wilson Smokey Andres Suarez Lonely Path Ginelle Boyer Introspection Joshua Roth The Soft Side Darnell Johnson Oh Hush Sarah Schloss
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Untitled Whitney Arostegui Metro Kristie Conserve You Are What You Eat Darnell Johnson There There Nicole Chipi Rainbow Tree Theano Stavrinos Is You or Is You Ain’t? Alina Balaguero Whisper Courtney Askins Girlfriends Paloma Guilamo Leslie II Christina Jay Untitled Carmen Guillen-Casal Glance Adrianna Arintok Self Portrait Kristie Conserve Teen Beauty Allyson Jones Sisterly Love Allyson Jones
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Culture Nick Kallergis Explore Your Imagination Christie Suarez Catzilla Amber Williams Kid with the Chemicals Alina Balaguero I Do Not Hear My Song Bernardo Garcia Feeling Kinda Blue Brandon Wilson In the Face of Music Julianne Richardson Mouvement de Perles Beverly Acha
Contents Page Montage: Beverly Acha Chicagoband and Carta Pics; photo by Jose Pazos-Perez, Black-White Urban Landscape logo: Sarah Youbi Inside back cover: Courtyard Scene Sean Gayle
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This is my new favorite place. I write from atop a hill made of dirt and boulders. This hill was once part of a golf course. Many men have swung powerfully from its crest, waging their luck with a proud grip. A hurricane stripped away its grandeur. The failed enterprise has been replaced by luxury condominiums. All that remains is this hill and the rusty overturned shopping carts that litter it. Nature has reclaimed it, covering it with an array of weeds and shrubbery. It stands deďŹ ant before the bulldozers at a distance. As the sun recedes, I know that this lonely hill will reign supreme over the forces of mankind that plot to erode its mystique and replace it with â&#x20AC;&#x153;progress.â&#x20AC;? I used to play here long ago, before it was even a golf course.
I played here before the day when I cried because I glimpsed the horrors of our age and felt a terrible and solitary impotence.
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I’ve returned to this place at the onset of adulthood looking for inspiration. The creeping darkness is minutes away from putting an end to my writing. The only light left is the one guiding the machines in the
distance as they lift the remaining scraps of the wild and dump them into a large steel container. As this venture to a simpler time nears conclusion, I am enveloped by a sense of inﬁniteness. The shapeless mechanical animals that raze our ﬁelds and seed indifference will not destroy my sense of self. I will seek to contract mankind’s reach and focus it on nobler goals—not just to expand, expand, and expand. I will seek to preserve a delicate balance between man and nature, man and society, and man and himself, a balance struck by my Mexican ancestors. I will escape unscathed from the calculated havoc of the twenty-ﬁrst century. Call it faith or call it folly, but tonight I am optimistic that, like this hill, I will not be dismantled.
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I played here before twenty men with box cutters jolted me into awareness. I played here before Iraq, Madrid, Beslan, and Abu Ghraib. I played here before that day last month when I fervently wished that God, any God, would materialize before us and decisively part the gray sea of ethics, separating the relative and the absolute.
Rand showed me the weaknesses in my political beliefs and forced me to reassert my positions with renewed vigor. Camus armed me with the guidelines for becoming a Saint without God. Márquez gifted me with a greater empathy for man—defects and all. The great literary masters of our time with their mighty pens provided me with a strong defense against the threats of our times, sharpened my mind, and hardened my resolve to ﬁght humanity’s plagues whenever I encounter them. Still, I alone will face the bulldozers.
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guilt and shame. It is hard to be critical of ourselves. Still, there is no nobler a quality than the ability to feel remorse for others. The innocent child in East Asia is not being forced into the sex trade in regions far removed from my sphere of interest. To me, it is happening right next door, and I am partly responsible for it. The displaced cotton grower in Chad is not the victim of a vague enemy like “free trade” or “supply-side economics”. He is my victim. Some will say that I am ﬁghting an uphill battle. If that is so, I accept my quixotic burden and carry it willingly. I only wish that all of our leaders and politicians would share the sense of responsibility that I feel for the plight of all others, regardless of their status or location. I am optimistic about the future of the global society. The vast majority of the world’s citizens want peace and security - the driving forces behind all sociopolitical structures. This can be achieved only if this communal desire can transcend its limitations and be expressed fully through the individuals who lead and represent us. It all begins with our own person. I invite you to take a leap.
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It would seem to an unfamiliar onlooker that we as a race are playing out the last stages of a cat-and-mouse game between our best intentions and our worst instincts. Weary billions are mired in poverty, increasingly resisting our apologetic words of condolence. We are like the cannibal who weeps as he satisﬁes his hunger, shocked at the necessary depravity of it all. In times when it has become difﬁcult to discern the good guys from the bad guys, perhaps it is prudent to ask that we reﬂect on the very nature of our own personal politics. How would you, the reader, rule us all, were you chosen to be the leader of the world? I would rule with the same unwavering social conscience that regulates all aspects of my private life. Freedom is nothing if I apply it selectively. Prosperity is nothing if I don’t ensure that it is obtained at the expense of no one and at the betterment of all. Peace is nothing if it is wrought in war. My good intentions are nothing. It is certain that at times they will lead me to err on the side of caution. I am human - all too human. While I share this inherent ﬂaw with all others, there is one thing I do not have: the capacity for
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was in Haiti, handicapped by my love for the people, the culture, and its history. I was this young girl who hated to love a place where my friends could disappear into a mass of kidnappings, where every aspect of my life seemed to be covered by the dust of political corruption. Every night, the black box would speak the promises of politicians, both Haitian and foreign: an effortless ďŹ&#x201A;ow of words, a river of hope, and a call for unconditional support. But then the morning came; under the harsh sun, the river of hope became a river
of lies in which I could not drown.
This then is the story of my second armed robbery. At least this time I had remembered to take my pillow. I could feel the fear escalating, up, like a kite caught in a storm. This was not the ﬁrst time. My mom
was holding my hand so tightly under the bed I wondered why it did not snap. They had come for us again. They were the hunters and we were their prey. I could hear windows shattering as the gunshots went through. All the bottles on the honeycolored wooden shelf broke: medication, perfume, nail polish. The smell of spilled liquids invaded my senses: nauseating, acidic, a ﬁre in my throat. The smell of death I remember thinking, the smell of death. It is true that only prey can understand the act of being circled. It crawls under your
skin and makes you see beyond the dark. You don’t breathe; you don’t move, but in that awful moment you love so much it makes you tremble. After what seemed like hours, the stars gave way to morning. They got tired, I guess, or maybe a little afraid of our resistance.
oday the light in Haiti seems so harsh, yet it can warm you with a tender appreciation of life. Years have passed since the armed robberies, but still I wake early to watch the sunrise. It chases away my nightly fears and paints the sky with a radiant fan of warm colors.
[ 9 ] Sunrise in Haiti Valerie Bellande
Looking, and really seeing the social landscape, was like sliding a ﬁnely sharpened blade into the surface of my eye. I felt as if life itself were being forced from me; every violent act withered my heart. The gunshots rendered me deaf. The ashes blinded me, and I could taste nothing but pasty dirt. Strangely, the cruelty of this violence startled me back into caring, into seeing.
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He experienced the dreaded punishment twice: that of exile. As can be detected from his radio announcements at his return, this separation profoundly affected him; however, he remained strongly opinioned until his death in April of 2000. Another voice silenced.
It hardly matters whether one agrees with him or not. The broader landscape must be looked at; the countryside smells of the sweat of overworked farmers and clerin – a ﬂavored alcohol – in which these farmers immerse their sorrows. The city is alive with gunshots and not even the clouds of dust can hide the poverty, the corruption. Yet, the voices of protest are mufﬂed; the arguments that should lead to progress are discouraged. If I could, I would bring back more than Jean Dominique, the man: I would bring back Jean Dominique, the symbol. He embodied a precious liberty within Haitian society — that of freedom of expression.
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rural community, a community often unheard and unrepresented. The people listened to Jean Dominique. He inspired respect from his supporters and fear from his opponents. Not surprisingly, as the owner and operator of the nation’s oldest radio station, he was often at odds with the government during much of the 1980’s and 1990’s.
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Everyone is cut from a different fabric sewn by generations before them. Some humans will spend their lives sitting, pecking. Maybe they’ll have good ideas. Maybe no one will know about them. Some might be passionate and others, uninterested. They’ll have different priorities and different views about life. They’ll clash; they’ll acquiesce. They’ll rebel; they’ll remain neutral. In another universe, people won’t be content with sitting. They’ll be the ones standing. And talking. Loudly. They’ll have good ideas with the passion to back them up. They’ll be too ﬁery to be uninterested. The generations before them have sewn their fabric with revolution. They’re keeping the spirit alive.
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That day was memorable, if nothing else. The sprinklers were turned on that hot, August afternoon, whirring, sputtering Nasty hose water while we went running, shouting Mild obscenities and an occasional “I LOVE JACK!” (For at that time, the Titanic was quite the hit, and my friend Wendy was a diehard fan.)
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She said, “My, Apollo must have knocked those men on their heads. I can already sense the yellow washing off into that morbid color of decay.” He looked up and observed the surrounding suite. “Thank goodness they ran out of paint,” she said as she lit up her last cigarette. “They had to leave the maid’s chamber white,” and she stepped back into the hotel, ﬁnding it a relief to have lost him.
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plain Alexander, but something original – it’s Jig, but you won’t hear why. He’s mysterious in that calculated way. You see him in a club, in your mind’s eye, dancing with abandon under a straight-edge stupor of music and bliss. You know that if you asked his age, he’d lie and say nineteen. He’s the kind of guy who’s got an entire back-story. A birth date, an art school he’s attending. You can see it rolling off of his tongue and into the air between you, and it doesn’t even feel like a lie. You see him at a show, listening to men with violent guitars playing havoc with the air, and
But you see him there, in the half-light, humming with the wash of pure noise, mouthing the words of the song, there with his camera and his smile, there with his pen in his pinencrusted messenger bag, the pad of paper. And you don’t speak to him, but if you did, if you could hear him over the over ﬂowing, pounding bass, he’d tell you about the band that’s playing.
He’d tell you about the one time he met them and what their cat’s name is. And he’d be serious, and he’d be passionate. He always is. You can see it in the way he takes his ﬁnger and ﬂips his hair over his ear, and smiles at you now. You can see it in the way he pouts his lips and grins.
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he’s watching the boys throw themselves at each other. He’s pouting in the corner; his lips are windows into his throat, foreshadowing his slanted words. He doesn’t dance at shows, doesn’t toss himself amidst sweat and black-shoes too small. There’s an inherent misogyny, there, and he’s been known to write scathing denouncements of it.
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that’s the chance I seemed to miss that’s the chance, a simple kiss caped escape damned through time always set it place “you have to feel them with your touch you have to know who you are, burn it in you and that’s your show” display relay: a race through time
color coded tiled masses hammered bases He says to restore it I restored it.
[ 43 ] Color Coded Bianca Fernandez
buy me a pot to ﬁll in with sand this sand is shattered through pricks pricks of my own scars and silent ﬂowers dancing tulips, paper machete poisoned roses, a blood stain forgotten sunﬂowers, stinging eyes
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All I can do is cry, Remembering the day you died.
But I despise them.
The memories of you Replay in my head. I can’t laugh at our old jokes Or smile at the times we spent together. I can’t even get mad at the times You left me alone in times of need.
Spending the rest of our lives together. Helping each other through dark days. I’ll never see you again, So I sit here . . . My eyes red and My cheeks drenched. The memories replaying And the darkness consuming me.
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I despise memories Because memories keep my eyes red And my cheeks Drenched with tears.
I wish you were still here, Not only as my sister But as my friend
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It all happened so fast, not long ago A cat grew 50 feet tall from the ﬂoor No one knew what caused this chaos to occur Except for one, his name was Catour. Catour was the head chef at the master’s house He cooked concoctions With his main ingredient, a mouse Today he added something special A type of miracle grow It had abilities to change all From head . . . to toe
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“Catour!” Someone yelled from the top of the stairs “I need my breakfast right away . . . I cannot wait till the end of the day!” So Catour rushed up there in a hurry Not paying attention to the mix he had spilled It dripped and dropped into the cat chow Little by little the bottle emptied out The cat took a humongous bite And within minutes grew to an enormous size Unable to ﬁnish its meal And an appetite so much larger It went out on the town to ﬁnd a satisfying supper Into his view came his ideal snack
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What a loss! Lost losers losing losses. Red jacket, hands in your pockets, Chalk on your nose, Dark shelf eyebrows, furrowed in a frown. You looked almost broken, Pale parched almond skin pulled taut over your ďŹ ne, aristocratic bones. I know what you lost, Mother, home, religion, your mind. But you straightened up, shoulders back, almost jaunty. Spry, wry, crying girl. So you lost today, But donâ&#x20AC;&#x2122;t dare lose your lacquered-smile.
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Our twenty-six member staff produced this ﬁfty-six page volume. Each student was responsible for at least one page and some worked on as many as two spreads. All of the students were involved in the process of selecting the magazine’s literature and art. We opted to print four hundred copies, free for the artists but $3 for students. The publication was printed in full-color, thanks to a very generous donation from our principal, Ms. Adrianne Leal. We chose to use 80-lb glossy white paper with a 100-lb classic linen cover. The cover images were the end result of a magnet art contest. The body of works we selected seemed to suggest an urban theme. The works fell into the categories of Political Reﬂections, Introspections, Retrospections, Disconnections, and Transformations. The individual pieces were arranged to show a progression from darkness to light, from disorder to a tenuous balance.
Since Coral Reef has six magnets, we sought to represent the talents of the diverse student population by showcasing a range of mediums: paint, colored pencil, photography, digital art, poetry, essays, and vignettes. To showcase skills that fell out of the two-dimensional range of print, we also generated a website which included audio and video of dance, theater, ﬁlm, and music. http://coralreef.dadeschools.net/elysium. The staff of Elysium is completely made up of volunteers; we worked after school and during lunch with Dell Computers using Adobe InDesign CS and Adobe Photoshop 7.0. We used fonts AHJ Garamond and Garamond for type and AHJ Michael for titles. This entire publication was printed by Rodes Printing Corporation, 8369 S.W. 40 St. Miami, Fl 33155 Telephone: 305-559-5263
Past Awards: 1997-98 A Bronze and All-Columbian from CSPA; Excellent by NCTE
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Brandon Wilson Sarah Schloss
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