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CHELLEY ROSE Selfie Life

Torn:In the Middle

BY AUTHOR RUSS RAY

I had just returned to Boulder after a two-year bartending stint on Maui. I was 23 and trying to figure out my life. I got into restaurant work to bide my time until I made sense of things.

The restaurant crew at Goldini’s was eclectic: Young people working their way through college. Older, career lifers working as managers or head waiters. And the drifters: they worked their way across the country one restaurant at a time.

It was the mid 1980s. Line cooks disappeared on three-day benders. Chefs roamed their kitchens sipping from coffee mugs half-filled with Jack Daniels bourbon or Stolichnaya vodka . The wait staff sometimes entered the private employee bathroom two, three, sometimes four at a time and locked the door. There was always an after work party at someone’s house or apartment.

The regular customers added texture to the mosaic. Some were hard working blue collar types. Some had lavish homes and country club lifestyles.

Rhonda’s first day on the job at Goldini’s Restaurant was on a weekend when I was bartending. Her trainer introduced us. She was from Florida. She had long brown hair, beautiful brown eyes, and an aura of mischief about her. We immediately had chemistry.

We often ended up together at industry after parties. We found ourselves alone from the crowd talking in kitchens or on patios. She’d have a cocktail in one hand and a cigarette in the other. Once, while we were on a backyard deck, she reached over and offered her cigarette. Our fingers overlapped. I brought her lipstick stained Marlboro to my mouth and inhaled.

She rubbed the corner of my lips and smiled.

“You’ve got lipstick on yourself.”

She held my face in her hands and kissed me.

“Now you have it all over.”

She turned and walked back into the party.

She was in a miserable marriage. The few times I saw him, he was picking her up after her shift. He was dour. I never asked about him or them. That wasn’t my concern. I never thought of myself as a homewrecker. That home was already burned to the ground. I sensed Rhonda was straining at the reins, trying to break free.

After they spilt and she was on her own, we spent nights in Boulder restaurants. Dinner dates at the Greenbriar and Pelican Petes, Happy hour drinks at The Broker and Hounan Gardens. We spent hours talking. I loved the way she looked at me when she spoke. We didn’t talk about the future. We moved from one dinner date to the next.

I didn’t tell her I was dating someone else at the restaurant.

at night all summer. The expediting area in the kitchen was a cramped quarters. Waiters and waitresses gently put hands on each other to shift each other out of their way and to let each other pass as we picked up plates filled with entrees. Whenever Pamela placed her hands on my hips or my back, I felt them linger, or at least I thought they were lingering. Our eyes met often. Her crooked smile intrigued me. She was romantic.

At the end of one shift, I asked her for her number. She wrote it down. Back in my apartment, my push button telephone sat on the coffee table mocking me. I couldn’t muster the courage. Finally, I decided she must have wanted me to call or she wouldn’t have given me her number.

I asked her out for dinner. She said yes.

I made reservations at the perfect restaurant (I hoped). I bought her flowers. I picked her up in my Toyota Corolla. Dinner was splendid. Pamela was easy to be with.

After our second date, I spent the night in her apartment. We weren’t in her bed long before I could feel her crying. We stopped. She held my hand as she turned her back to me, yet pulled me close to her. We laid in silence.

I knew without asking what troubled her. She had a broken heart. She had tried to move on too soon.

In the morning she woke up with bright eyes and a smile as if nothing happened. She rolled over and gathered me in her arms and her legs.

We spent the day together. We went to a record store. We window shopped on the mall. We ate sandwiches in a park.

She never spoke of him. I didn’t ask.

She didn’t speak of us. I didn’t ask.

Her thoughts were elsewhere. I’d often wake up next to her in the middle of the night finding her already awake, looking up at the ceiling. It felt lonely being with her.

I was in the shadow of her last love. It seemed as if she was on the verge of moving on from me. If she wasn’t, I was. The weight of her last relationship was pushing me away.

I was hopeful things would work out between us, but I knew that wasn’t possible. It was obvious he was a powerful force in her life.

One night, I arrived late at a large party at Pamela’s apartment complex. I tried to connect with her. She didn’t seem happy to see me. Was he back in her life? Were they speaking again?

Out of frustration I left the party and drove across town to see Rhonda. She answered her door in her bathrobe and let me in.

The next morning over toast and coffee we barely spoke. We could have said things that mattered. We could have laid claim to each other. Instead we let what little we had lay flat and lifeless.

As the summer drew to a close Pamela quit her job at the restaurant and returned to the University to get her degree. Rhonda, freshly single, moved back to Florida.

On a Saturday morning, I arrived at work early and filled the ice buckets back in the kitchen. I brought them to the service station at the bar and dumped them in the stainless steel ice tub. I rolled out the spill mats, counted my register, and got ready for another shift.

I should have felt flattered they picked me to help mend their broken hearts. But there is no flattery in consolation. Neither of these women really wanted me. I was simply there, a place holder. I think each knew I was a safe bet, knew I wouldn’t pursue them, knew I wouldn’t fall in love. They knew I wouldn’t complicate their lives. For Pamela I was her rebound. For Rhonda I was her next best option.

The hostess unlocked the front doors and flipped on the open sign. As customers slowly started to file into the restaurant, someone turned on the soft rock background music:

Sade, “Hang on to Your Love”

“In heaven’s name why are you walking away “Hang on to your love

“In heaven’s name why do you play these games “Hang on to your love.”

Model: Mel @chrome_honey

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Shelldeville

INTERVIEW WITH DIGITAL CREATOR + model

Photography by @_designprint

Shelldeville

digital creator + model

INDULGE: Who or what inspired you to pursue such a competitive career as an erotic model?

SHELLDEVILLE: My first modeling inspirations were Playboy models like Pamela Anderson, Anna Nicole Smith, and Marilyn Monroe. They inspired me to pursue a career in erotic modeling. I loved the glamour and beauty of it.

INDULGE: Can you share some highlights from your boudoir/erotic modeling career and any memorable experiences you’ve had?

SHELLDEVILLE: I would definitely say the biggest highlight of my erotic modeling career is being in Swanky Nude and Boudoir Magazine in the UK. That’s overseas, so that’s huge. The photos were done by former Suicide Girls photographer, Jonathan Nicholas.

INDULGE: How do you approach expressing emotions in your shoots to create a comfortable and intimate atmosphere?

SHELLDEVILLE: It depends on the shoot but I always try to channel my modeling inspirations to give a sultry and smoldering look. I really channel that from my soul. And I always speak up if I’m uncomfortable with anything.

INDULGE: What challenges have you encountered in the Adult Industry, and how did you overcome them?

SHELLDEVILLE: The biggest challenge I’ve encountered in the adult industry is scammers and creeps. When I first started years ago, I was naive and didn’t know what to look for, but now I know all the red flags and will block that person on everything immediately and then warn other women I know in the industry. A lot of “men” will try to take advantage of you.

INDULGE: How do you maintain a professional boundary during intimate photo/video sessions, ensuring a respectful working environment?

SHELLDEVILLE: I always do research on the photographer/videographer before hand. I typically take an escort with me, and I make my boundaries very clear.

“It (modeling) teaches you to have a deep love and appreciation for yourself.Having confidence in yourself will draw clients in.”

–SHELLDEVILLE

DIGITAL CREATOR + Model

INDULGE: Have you worked with different photographers, and if so, how do you adapt to their unique shooting styles and preferences?

SHELLDEVILLE: I’ve worked with many different photographers and they all have different styles. Once you’ve worked with them for a bit you know what they want and are able to adapt to them. And once you’ve had enough experience you know what to do with different settings.

INDULGE: Can you discuss the importance of body positivity and self-confidence in boudoir/erotic modeling, both for yourself and the clients you work with?

SHELLDEVILLE: Body positivity is HUGE in erotic modeling. You really have to be so vulnerable and open. The way you feel about yourself will show through the photos. It teaches you to have a deep love and appreciation for yourself. Having confidence in yourself will draw clients in.

INDULGE: How do you handle requests for specific poses or positions that you may not be comfortable with, and how do you communicate your boundaries effectively?

SHELLDEVILLE: If I’m not comfortable with something I will always say something. I use to not be able to do that,

but after years of therapy I’m able to feel like I can communicate how I’m feeling and what my boundaries are. Always say something if your aren’t comfortable with something.

INDULGE: In your opinion, what makes boudoir/ erotic photo and video sessions truly captivating, and how do you contribute to achieving that as a digital creator?

SHELLDEVILLE: Being personable with your clients is huge. And then having self confidence is another big thing. You have to love yourself like your the hottest thing in the world.

INDULGE: How do you stay updated on industry trends and continuously improve your skills as an boudoir/erotic model?

SHELLDEVILLE: I honestly don’t pay to much attention to trends in the industry. I’m always just genuinely myself no matter what. I’m always improving as a model. experience is a big one with improvement. The more experience I’ve had, the better I’ve gotten.

INDULGE: Can you share any advice for aspiring models looking to establish themselves in the Adult Industry?

SHELLDEVILLE: My biggest piece of advice is do research and be careful. Be very aware of what to look out for in red flags. If someone or something doesn’t feel right, trust your gut. You have to stand up for yourself and make sure who your working with is professional and reputable. And a good thing to do is always take an escort with you to any shoot.

INDULGE: As a professional model, how do you utilize social media and other platforms to enhance your visibility and connect with your audience?

SHELLDEVILLE: Instagram is huge for modeling, but you have to be careful with advertising Adult content on there. You have to do that in a round about way. Facebook is good for advertising modeling to. And X is really good for advertising Adult content since it allows that. Basically using any social media platform is really big with that. You just have to know how to use it.

INDULGE: How do you maintain a healthy work-life balance while pursuing a career that demands a hectic schedule?

SHELLDEVILLE: My schedule is usually crazy busy but I’ve learned how to tame it some. I try to only do what major thing a day and I always make sure to take some time for myself. You have to do self care.

INDULGE: What does a typical day in your week look like?

SHELLDEVILLE: Depends on the day but on a day I work, I get up have some coffee and breakfast, do my skincare and then check my socials/sites. Then I make some content and then get ready for work. On a day I’m off from my day job I do the same thing except I usually am getting ready for a shoot or band practice.

INDULGE: A little off subject… but I feel that music can often play a big role in our lives. What 5 albums or artists have made you who you are today? And Why?

SHELLDEVILLE: I love music, music is such a big part of my life as a musician. Music is healing. My top 5 albums are: .theater of pain by: motley crue .animalize by: kiss .skidrow (self titled album) by: skidrow .look what the cat dragged in by: poison. .Black is king by: Beyoncé All of these albums have had such a huge impact on me as a person and as a musician. They’ve all healed me in some way. And they’ve all helped build me as a musician.

INDULGE: Is there anything else you’d like to share with us?

SHELLDEVILLE: Love is the most important thing in life. Love is the greatest philosophy to live by. Love others and love yourself.