Child Of God By Katie Nelson

C H I L D O F G O D

By Katie Nelson

It’s taken me a long time to confidently believe in God’s goodness. There’s a song by the band Cain that says, “On my best day, I’m a child of God, on my worst day, I’m a child of God… I’m so blessed.” I’ve grown incredibly grateful that this is true. I have experienced extremely difficult days, and I’ve had some amazing days. Life can sometimes feel like a rollercoaster taking sudden twists and turns - yanking you one direction and then suddenly spinning you the other way. One day you have your hands thrown in the air with carefree abandon, and the next, you’re hanging on for dear life.

I became a Christian when I was 16, and as a young Christian, I had this overwhelming fear of being alone. I fell in love with the idea that God would write an amazing love story for me. Then, it wasn’t happening. I saw friends dating, getting engaged in college, and then getting married right after. I felt like God had forgotten me.

I know that’s not a life-or-death situation, but I’ve been disappointed in the face of some of those challenges. A few years into my faith journey, I remember praying and praying for God to heal someone, only to have them pass away days later. My trust and faith in God were shaken. I experienced a deep depression after that. Was God not as good as I thought?

Even when I’ve doubted and questioned, He’snever let me go. There have been times whenI’ve been hanging by a thread. I’ve ignoredHis guidance and went my own way morethan I’d like to admit. But, His love anddevotion are strong.

Martyn Lloyd-Jones said, “This eternaleverlasting God has become our Father,and the moment we realize that,everything tends to change. He is ourFather, and He is always caring for us, Heloves us with an everlasting love, He soloved us that He sent His only begottenSon into the world and to the Cross to diefor our sins. That is our relationship to Godand the moment we realize it, it transformseverything.”

I know that life isn’t going to geteasier. There will always be ups anddowns, joy and sorrow, gain and loss.But, I hope I will always rest in the factthat God is my Heavenly Father. Theband Cain ends the song by singing, “It

doesn’t matter about the rest. I’ve gotyou, Lord, hallelujah I’m blessed.”Sometimes I have to remind my heartof that truth, but it still stands. As achild of God, I’m so blessed. Thank you,Lord.

Katie Nelson

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Katie knows that life is full of challenges, but she wants to remind readers that it is also full of joy, redemption, and grace. When she's not writing, you can find her chasing after her energetic family, watching adorable dog videos, or drinking a chai latte. For more information about Katie's books, head to her website katies-journal.org or connect with her on Instagram @mustlove_romcoms.