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both s i d e s gets e n t i r e l y d i f f e r e n t answers every time. I wonder a t t i m e s what i s s o s e c r e t i v e i n t h i s Centre ... i t ' s w o r s e t h a n Ronnie Reagan and t h e I r a n i a n A r m s Deal. Both s i d e s a r e g u i l t y o f some o f t h e c h a r g e s a b o u t s i t uations they've created. The f i r s t i n c i d e n t happened on t h e s e c o n d f l o o r when I was w a l k i n g w i t h Tony S e a v e r s and we p a s s e d a c e r t a i n i n d i v i d u a l . Tony s a i d n o t t o t a l k i n f r o n t o f him. I s h o t back t h a t I o r h e c o u l d s a y a n y t h i ~ l gwe want a s l o n g a s i t ' s t r u e . However, M r . S e a v e r s , I'm supposed t o e a t y o u r b u l l s h i t and be l a b - r e l l e d a s t a k i n g s i d e s f o r doi n g s o . You s h o u l d a p o l o g i z e t o t h a t p e r s o n i f you were any k i n d o f man a t a l l . Your b r o o d i s l i k e o l d man ~ d o l f : h e wanted peace i n Poland, F r a n c e , E n g l a n d . .i t ' s been t r i e d already. I t ' s n o good t o t r u s t what someone t e l l s me p r i v a t e l y , a s t h e y c a n j u s t deny i t i n p u b l i c , b u t a t t h e n e x t Board m e e t i n g I have t o g e t some c l a r i f i c a t i o n s a s t o o u r Constitution.