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I am w r i t i n g i n response t o t h e q u e r i e s about F i r s t United Church and i n s u p p o r t of C h r i s Downing's l e t t e r i n t h e last newsletter.

C h r i s i s a woman w i t h g u t s . When s h e c h a l l e n g e d u s on s t a f f a t F i r s t United Church about racism s h e was t a k i n g a chance. How many of us w h i t e m i d d l e - c l a s s people l i k e t o f a c e up t o o u r i g n o r a n c e and p r e j u d i c e ? Well, some of u s w h i t e middle-class t y p e s did hear on s t a f f and on t h e board what C h r i s and J a c k i e and Tracy a r e s a y i n g about r a c i s m and c l a s s i s m , and we j o i n e d them i n naming t h e i s s u e s and w a n t i n g t o change t h i n g s .

Things have changed a l r i g h t but n o t f o r t h e b e t t e r . S t a f f have been f i r e d , have become ill o r have q u i t . And t h e community worker group i s no l o n g e r i n existence.

What a r e t h e q u e s t i o n s b e i n g asked t h a t l e d t o t h e c r i s i s ? Well, some of

- why i s n ' t t h e r e community r e p r e s e n t a t i o n on t h e church governing board (Oversight Board)?

- why do w h i t e middle-class p e o p l e who d o n ' t l i v e anywhere n e a r t h e downtown a r e a and who a r e n ' t even c l o s e t o b e i n g p o o r g e t t o make a l l t h e r u l e s about what s e r v i c e s poor people g e t ?

- why a r e w h i t e m i d d l e - c l a s s people running s e r ~ i c e s / ~ r o g r a mwhen s the people coming through t h e d o o r s a r e mostly N a t i v e ?

- why i s i t okay t o c r i t i c i z e g o v t . p o l i c i e s f o r b e i n g r a c i s t and opp r e s s i v e t o poor pebpI.e and n o t okay t o examine o u r own o r g a n i z a t ions?

Because t h e r e h a s been such f o r c e f u l and s w i f t s t a f f changes a t FUC and because some of u s have been a b l e t o speak o u t about i t , many p e o p l e a r e now aware t h a t t h e FUC a d m i n i s t r a t i o n

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And p r o b a b l y F i r s t United i s n o t t h e o n l y o r g a n i z a t i o n i n t h e downtown e a s t s i d e t h a t needs t o look at t h e i r i n t e r n a l racism, classism a n d power i s s u e s . There. a r e . . s t i t r i n g s t h a t o t h e r groups need t o a d d r e s s q u e s t i o n s l i k e t h o s e above.

I am a w h i t e m i d d l e - c l a s s woman who t h o u g h t s h e h a d a h a n d l e o n race a n d class -issues. Working w i t h z h i r s , T r a c y a n d Jackie h a s t a u g h t m e o t h e r w i s e . Over t h e p a s t f e w m o n t h s we h a v e become f r i e n d s a n d I ' v e come t o , u n d e r s t a n d how well-meaning p e o p l e still need t o unlearn a t t i t u d e s t h a t I hope t h a t o t h e r oppress others. p e o p l e s t a f f i n g and d i r e c t i n g o r g a n i z a t i o n s i n t h i s community make a p o i n t o f l e a r n i n g n o t f r o m t h e i r own c l o s e d systems which o n l y r e i n f o r c e i n e q u a l i t y , b u t f r o m p e o p l e who know a b o u t t h e s e i s s u e s b e c a u s e o f t h e i r own experiences.

I n o l o n g e r work a t F i r s t U n i t e d Church.

I am s a d a n d I am a n g r y t h a t my employment e n d e d o n t h e n o t e t h a t it has.

G o r g i n a Narshall

I n t h e l a s t 2 i s s u e s of t h e C a r n e g i e N e w s l e t t e r t h e r e have been l e t t e r s q u e s t i o n i n g t h e a c t i o n s & t a c t i c s of t h e adm i n i s t r a t i o n of F i r s t Church. The l e t t e r you've j u s t r e a d , w r i t t e n by Georgina M a r s h a l l , a g a i n shows t h e r e s u l t : Georg i n a , one o f t h e s t r o n g e s t advocacy worke r s e v e r t o b e a , p a r t of o u r community, no l o n g e r works a t t F i r s t Church (FUC) I n May I ' d w r i t t e n a r e p o r t on a k b i o n s t a k e n , t a c t i c s u s e d , by t h e Oversight Board f o l l o w i n g t h e f i r i p g o f . C h r i s t i n e Downing. It would have t a k e n up about 8 pages. The m a j o r i t y on t h e N e w s l e t t e r Review committee f e l t t h a t because FUC was a "cornmunit y o r g a n i z a t i o n " and worked w i t h and f o r Carnegie u s e r s , t h e r e p o r t should b e more b a l a n c e d o r p r e s e n t e d w i t h more i n p u t from FUC' s a d m i n i s t r a t i o n .

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f a s t when d e l a y s a l l o w more of t h e same a c t i o n s & t a c t i c s C h r i s Downing. f i r e d ; Alan A l v a r e r e s i g n e d b e c a u s e t h e s t r e s s of working under FUC's O v e r s i g h t Boazd was s e r i o u s l y a f f e c t i n g h i s h e a l t h ; now Georgina g o t h e r n o t i c e and i s gone.

I n p u t - t h e r e a r e , of c o u r s e , ' o f f i c i a l e x p l a n a t i o n s 1 ; a s k i n g anyone a t FUC w i l l a u t o m a t i c a l l y g e t you r e f e r r e d t o one of t h e r e v ' s , and what t h e y s a y i s supposed t o be believed a s gospel t r u t h (!)

The p e o p l e a c t i n g a s an O v e r s i g h t Board supposedly have a 'Mission' t o empower & s e r v e , t h e n e e d s o f o u r community, y e t a l most a l l p e o p l e a c t i v e i n o u r community g e t t h e h o n e s t f e e l i n g s of workers who were e l i m i n a t e d s t a t i n g i t is a c r i s i s . . t h e same workers who were o r d e r e d t o b e s i l e n t and t a l k t o no one i n o u r communit y about any of t h i s .

P e o p l e n e e d i n g w e l f a r e a d v o c a t e s had an e x c e l l e n t r e s o u r c e i n t h e s e community workers a t FUC. Now t h e y have been e l i m i n a t k d . C h r i s was doing a damn good job y e t s h e was f i r e d f o r b e i n g " d i s r u p t i v e " ; Alan & Georgina had o v e r 15 y e a r s e x p e r i ence between them and had earned r e s p e c t and t r u s t t h e h a r d e s t way. T h i s o v e r s i g h t Board had looked f o r a y e a r t o f i n d someone w i t h a " t h e o l o g i c a l background'' t o h i r e f o r t h e job C h r i s was d o i n g . .

Is it more i m p o r t a n t t o t h e O v e r s i g h t Bd. t o have s t a f f , who a r e e x p e r i e n c e d and i n volved i n o u r community o r who have t o bow t o t h e s u p e r i o r wisdom of t h e c h u r c h ' s O v e r s i g h t Board? Is i t worth it t o a s k t h e f i l l - i n s : a theology s t u d e n t . . o r t h e woman who d i d advocacy few y e a r s ago?

For t h e p a s t 4 y e a r s about 20 c o p i e s of every i s s u e of t h e N e w s l e t t e r have been p u t i n FUC. They a r e around f o r a t l e a s t a few d a y s . The l a s t ' 2 i s s u e s , w i t h t h e mentioned l e t t e r s & q u e s t i o n s , ' d i s a p p e a r e d ' - a l l 20 , c o p i e s of e a c h - magic!! Did everyone t h e r e want t o r e a d them a t t h e same t i m e . . o r d i d one o r two p e o p l e n o t

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m i n i s t r a t i o n h a s caused t h e s e p e o p l e t o l e a v e . A l e t t e r from t h e Revs t o t h i s Newsletter w i l l be a b a r e beginning.

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THAT'S HOW M A N Y CANADIANS ARE SOFTBALL PLAYERS

On JULY 27, from 12-6pm, there will be a community craft fair held at Oppenheimer Park (400 Powell St.).

This is an invitation for artists and craftspeople to pre-register to show their work. It is also an opportunity for artists to assist in the development of this fair.

Tables will be set up for every artist registered. Music and economically-priced food will also be provided. This is a chance to show your work to a large audience who will be coming from outside the local area.

Interested? Please call 665-2210 (for Pam) or leave messages: 665-2274.

BRAVES Hi-Lite of Little Lite

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San Francisco's Little Lites - the pre-tournamnet favourites - went home empty-handed when the local Downtown Eastside Slowpitch League teams finished in the top four positions when the Ninth Annual L.L. Tournament concluded last weekend.

Braves downed the Eagles 14-10 in the final, winning top honours. The Eagles were second, followed by the Orcas and the Maritimers. The champions won all four games; the hard hitting of Dave, Rob, Sandra, Glenn and Elroy coupled with Brad's pitching & Elroy's fielding was too much for their rivals.

Bob Hay's hardworking Orcas were chosen the Most Sportsmanlike Team, while Marion McGrath (Eagles) and Glenn Quocksister (Braves) were the Most Valuable Players.

In the consolation final, Blue Demons were forced to go an extra inning to subdue the Black Sox 8-6. Marie Narcisse was the winning pitcher.

The Dog Throughout history, always called down Dog gone this, Dog gone that Yet he remians loyal and obedient Dog catchers love to nab them; just 'cause they left a lettle fertilizer on some lawn or lifted a hind leg on some rose bushes that needed watering.

Still he'll remain my friend forever, 'Lause he'd sooner wag his tail than his tongue.

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I ' m writing i n regards t o Sheila B a x t e r ' s i s s u e i n t h e June 1 5 t h Newsl e t t e r . The i s s u e was rape. I do n o t b e l i e v e f u l l y i n what s h e s a i d , which was t h a t s o c i e t y ' s a t t i t u d e i s o f t e n one of d i s b e l i e f . Not t r u e !

I was raped i n 1980. It was t h e I most h o r r i d e x p e r i e n c e of my l i f e . f e e l t h a t i f someone does n o t p u r s u e t h e i s s u e of going t o c o u r t , t h e rapi s t has t h e r i g h t t o do i t a g a i n , w i t h t h e p o s s i b i l i t y of g e t t i n g away w i t h i t again. ~ o n ' tg e t me wrong. I f u l l y a g r e e w i t h h e r t h a t what t h e r a p i s t d i d was degrading and b r u t a l .

When i t came t o going t o c o u r t I was t e r r i f i e d . T h i s was going t o be t h e h a r d e s t t h i n g I e v e r had t o do i n my l i f e , because I knew t h a t a l l t h e

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d e t a i l s would be heard by everyone i n t h e courtroom, ~t a l s o took a v e r y l o n g t i m e t o mend e m o t i o n a l l y . I ' l l always be s c a r r e d by t h a t awful experience.

For m e , I was lucky t o have a v e r y s u p p o r t i v e o f f i c e r handle my s o - c a l l e d c a s e . What t h e p o l i c e o f f i c e r s a i d t o m e s t i l l r i n g s c l e a r i n my mind: "Are you going t o l e t t h a t r a p i s t do t h i s t o someone e l s e ? " Because of t h i s he was s e n t t o p r i s o n f o r what he had done t o me.

A f t e r he went t o p r i s o n I f e l t resp o n s i b l e f o r p u t t i n g him t h e r e ; ~ u t ,I a l s o had t o r e f l e c t back on 'why' he went t h e r e . Although I f e l t no blame f o r t h e r a p e happening I was a f r a i d everyone I knew would t h i n k i t was my f a u l t I was raped.

I n my e y e s , i f I had n o t charged him I would have g i v e n him t h e o p p o r t u n i t y t o do i t a g a i n . I f I had g i v e n him t h a t o p p o r t u n i t y I t r u l y would be t o blame f o r h i s n e x t rape.

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Annette ( O f f i c e of O f f i c i a l Opposition Calgary, A l b e r t a )

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A s we approached Canada Day my mind went back t o where I w a s born and

grew up.

Saskatchewan w i l l always have a s p e c i a l p l a c e i n my h e a r t bec a u s e of many happy childhood memorI l o v e going back t h e r e f o r reies. unions.

It i s wonderful t o g e t back

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I have always been f a s c i n a t e d by t h e A r c t i c as A l b e r t a and Saskatchewan were c a r v e d o u t of t h e Northwest T e r r i t o r i e s i n 1905. I r e a l l y m i s s t h e s m e l l of w i l d p r a i r i e g r a s s and endl e s s blue skies.

Grandpa w a s a g r e a t s t o r y t e l l e r and was h a p p i e s t when h e w a s surrounde d by a l l o f h i s g r a n d c h i l d r e n . One of o u r f a v o u r i t e s t o r i e s w a s t h e one he t o l d a b o u t t h e w h i t e man s t a r t i n g t h e s c a l p i n g because they loved t h e b e a u t i f u l b l a c k h a i r f o r wigs. H e ended t h e s t o r y by s a y i n g t h e I n d i a n s p e r f e c t e d t h e s c a l p i n g and d i d a much b e t t e r job.

Grandpa o f t e n t o o k u s f o r w a l k s a l o n g t h e Saskatchewan R i v e r . H e a l s o showed u s a f o r d i n t h e r i v e r where t h e l a s t I n d i a n wars were f o u g h t .

Saskatchewan i s a n Cree word meaning " s w i f t l y flowing waters".

One day I found y e l l o w t i g e r l i l l i e s which a r e r a r e w h i l e w a l k i n g i n t h e woods.

The d e e r were s o tame t h e y used t o l i c k t h e same s a l t b l o c k w i t h the c a t t l e .

We s h o u l d a l l be proud of o u r h e r i t a g e and t h e most i m p o r t a n t t h i n g i s t o p a s s on o u r f a m i l y h i s t o r y t o t h e c h i l d r e n s o t h a t t h e y know who t h e y a r e o r where t h e y came from.

O r i g i n a l l y o u r d o l l a r c o i n s were supposed t o p o r t r a y a b e a v e r , however t h e mint was s t o l e n . P e r h a p s i t i s j u s t as w e l l because a b e a v e r is a n h o n e s t and r e s p e c t e d animal w h i l e t h e Looney d e p i c t s t h e t r u e c h a r a c t e r o f o u r prime m i n i s t e r . The b e s t Canada Day p r e s e n t w e c o u l d r e c e i v e i s t o be a b l e t o impeach B r i a n Mulroney.

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By IRENE SCHMIDT

Sex abus "at problem'

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A "staggering" 50 to 70 per cent of native people interviewed for Canada's first in-depth study on residential schools disclosed sexual abuse.

The study of 187 adults, twothirds of whom attended the StJoseph's Mission Catholic - -- - - - residential school near Williams Lake, "suggests abuse is an enormous problem," says University of Guelph clinical psychologist Dr. Roland Chrisjohn.

He says the residential school students who had been sexually abused displayed more anger, sexual problems and depression linked to alcohol abuse and suicide than other students.

Three Catholic clergy have been charged or convicted of abuse at St. Joseph's.

Chrisjohn's study was presented yesterday during a residentialschool conference in Vancouver, which concludes today with responses from officials from W w m C atholic, Anglican and United churches, which ran the schools.

Tsimshian elder Harvey Brooks, 59, said he and many other boys bad been sexually abused at the United Church's Alberni residential school.

Brooks said he was whipped and locked in a closet for up to 24 hours with only bread and water.

"They abused me ysycholol(irally and made us feel we were wrthless and evil," he said. "l'm afraid I passed that on to iny kids and I had an alcohol problem until I got sober four years 11g0." ijv~ u z k t n eFournier

Mercredi to em Stories Staff Reporter by Canada's "I lth premier" - the new chief of the Assembty of First Nations - says he will place aboriginal child welfare at the top of his priority list.

Hcalin generations of native people w(t,o attended residential schools is critical, AEN chief Ovide Mercredi told the first national !conference on residential schools in Vancouver yesterday.

I But he said the healing - must 'extend to today's children.

"I am not blind to the fact the churches and government have responsibility to our people to make sure resources are available to individuals and our community on our self-directed quest for recovery," said Mercredi, a Cree lawyer from Grand Rapids, Man. "Our children still feel the impact of residential schools toda .

"All Indian communities shou d have the o portunity to get control of their c ild welfare system outside agencies cannot help.

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e residential-school issue He also wants the ne Royal "What happened to our children has been called cultural genocide Commissiorr on Aborininsl7 Affairs bv Manitoba Judge W n Kimel- to look at compensatio~for natives -

our peoge did not learn parenting $kills at residential schools and the result was the massive removal of Indian children.

"Now there is a need for repatriation of Indian kids taken to the U.S. and MERCREDI Europe."

Mercredi said he has a list of topics "as long as your arm" to raise at his first meeting with lndian Affairs Minister Tom Siddon next Wednesday.

Mercredi said he wants swift action from Siddon on compensation relakd to the schools.

If Siddon stalls, Mercredi said a private member's bill will be introduced by aboriginal Liberal MP Ethel Blondin.

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who attended the 80 residential schools in Canada. They were run by churches for the federal gwernment. The last one closed in 1980.

"I support recommmendations that the Royal. commission has a mandate to do a full review, including compensation," said Mercredi.

The government's stated goal was to use the schools to prepare natives for the labor force and to eradicate native culture and religion through Christianity.

Revelations of abuse at the schools have rocked the church and the native community, which is using traditional methods and psychotherapy to recover from shame, loss of culture and parenting skills.

The conference aimed at personal and political strategies.

"We included healing workshops so people wouldn't go home to their communities feeling more pain," said organizer Charlene Belleau of the Cariboo Tribal Council.

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Yn-eclipsed He comes in power, With moral, laurel and rose, Un-solipsed forgiving flower, Underneath the nasties nose; That sniffed at fantasy policy, Suffering He to Himself depose. ~ a l m z m ipraise ~ ~ the blameless one, Synesthasians praise the stainless one, Pray for nameless Lady Poverty To Grace the Face of Fun.

Some of the more interesting ones include the Atlantic Canada Opportunities Agency where 30% of its 299 employees are francophone (and this based in Atlantic Canada), the Canadian Intergovernmental Conference Secretariat where all 17 employees are francophone, the Law Reform Commission of Canada where 71% of its 34 employees are francophone and the Office of the Chief Electoral Officer where 86% of its 65 employees are francophone.

Now, are these examples of effective bilingualism or examples of blatant

ernment departments.

Darren Lowe

KATHY THOMSON REIGNS Most of o u r p a t r o n s probably know o u r Kathy Thomson who works t h e t h i r d f l o o r when s h e ' s n o t gardening a t t h e S t r a t h c o n a Cornunity Gardens. Kathy i s famous ( o r imfamous) f o r h e r o u t rageous s e n s e of humour.

Kathy's a c t u a l l y been working a t Carnegie f o r t h e p a s t f o u r y e a r s ( i n a highly i r r e g u l a r fashion!).

With t h e completion of t h e k i t c h e n , C i t y Counc i l agreed t h e r e would be enough addit i o n a l c $ e r k / s t e n o time f o r us t o p o s t a r e g u l a r f u l l t i m e p o s i t i o n (complete w i t h s i c k l e a v e , paid v a c a t i o n , t h e works !)

Because w e a l l a p p r e c i a t e Kathy and h e r work and because s h e w a s t h e o n l y c a n d i d a t e c e r t i f i e d by t h e C i t y ' s Pers o n n e l Dept., t h e i n t e r v i e w p a n e l (Donald, Diane, S i b y l and Board member Margaret P r e v o s t ) decided t o u s e t h e l i g h t h e a r t e d approach. W e planned a s e r i e s of tricks/tests/psychological assessments and we asked some of ~ a t h y ' smale buddies t o t a k e t u r n s dropping i n t o d i s r u p t t h e i n t e r v i e w .

W e prepared a word-association q u i z , a f i l l - i n - t h e - b l a n k s s t o r y , a gobbledygook t y p i n g t e s t , and Margaret P r e v o s t was determined t o keep a s k i n g t h e same q u e s t i o n over and o v e r a g a i n -- "So, Kathy, why do you want t h i s job?"

But, Kathy's t o o quick f o r t h e l i k e s of us.

She a r r i v e d i n unusual a t t i r e : gumboots, f e l t b e r e t (complete w i t h a dangerous h a t p i n ) , 1940's s u i t corsaged w i t h a crushed f l o w e r , w h i t e g l o v e s , s p a r k l i n g r h i n e s t o n e d sunglase s , two watches around h e r neck p l u s one on h e r w r i s t and q u i t e unusual make-up ( c l a s s i c ruby r e d l i p s p a i n t e d i n a p e r f e c t small "moue"). H e r p u r s e ( a l s o w i t h a l a r g e c l o c k f a c e on t h e f r o n t ) and Mickey Mouse shopping bag f i l l e d w i t h props. Kathy had a t r i c k y , funny response t o every one of o u r

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q u e r i e s . When i n doubt she'd r e f e r t o t h e P r o f e s s i o n a l S e c r e t a r y ' s Manual s h e c a r r i e d under h e r arm, o r used a prerecorded c u r t l i t t l e message o f f a small tape recorder.

From t h e moment s h e e n t e r e d t h e room, Kathy took c o n t r o l of t h e i n t e r view. Even down on h e r knees t r y i n g t o plug i n t h e t y p e w r i t e r , s h e k e p t up a running commentary.

T h e r e ' s n o t h i n g l e f t t o be s a i d exc e p t t h a t Kathy topped u s , b e s t e d u s , showed u s who's t h e boss (and even used a l i t t l e blackmail -- Now s h e t e l l s me h e r l i t t l e t a l k i n g box a l s o recorded t h e e n t i r e i n t e r v i e w ! ) So we h i r e d h e r . God h e l p u s a l l !

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A Pseudo-Poem by Kazutoshi Wakatsuki Everyone in hislher life, at one time or another, finds himlherself in circumstances which he/she didn't think of nor did even dream of getting into.

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Hopeful Hope i s a t a n end of a l l t h i n g s :

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Dear PaulR Taylor, 000PS!...the collective letter you published (Thanks) in June 1, 1991 issue of Carnegie Newsletter was from a Conference on Global Awareness. Our workshop was on poverty and poverty does inter-relate to many issues around the Globe but it was one of the workshops. The other workshops were: Animal Concerns, Issues for Children, Recycling, The Middle East, African Issues, Native Issues, Central America, Deforestation, Global Warming, Poverty and Media Perspective. I didn't want

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IS THE FEAR OF POVERTY A FORM OF POLITICAL CONTROL?

I am enclosing a Syntax Newsletter which has a reprint from the Calgary Herald of a newsstory about a sign we have running on the Calgary Transit system. After June 23 the poster will be available. We wondered if other cities would like to put the sign on their bus systems. Do contact me or Syntax if you want further information.

FORM OF POLITICAL CONTROL?

Poverty coalition,tackles politics Campaign tries I to turn poor into a pub1ic concern

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By Lorraine Locherty ( H c d d rn~hr)

A campaign is under way to make Calgary's poor a political force.

In an unusual coalition, artists, lawyers. social workers and other professionals are joining forces with welfare recipients, the homeless and the working poor to form the Calgary Poverty Focus Group.

The group began last fall as an experiment in pplitical organizing and appears to be gathering momentum. Its latest campaign strategy, the result of a meeting with local artists, is a poster de-

figned to make poverty a public issue.

The poster poses the question: "Is fear of poverty a form of political contro~?~l and wiu be visible all over town for the next three weeks on city transit buses and the LRT. The poster was designed by local artists Mireille Perron and Paul Woodrow.

"We wanted to sensitize the public to the way fear - of losing a job, or of being punished by the system if you don't have a job silences people," commented Marilyn Seelye, who belongs to the poverty group and to Syntax Arts Soc~ety.

About 105,000 Calgarians, or 16 per cent of the population, live below the poverty line, says Statistics Canada. ~h~ number is work& out us. in, ~ ~~ ~ ~of we1faress ,~ ~~

necessary for a single Person to live adequately in a city the size of Calgary. The minimum income for a four-person family is $28,061.

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High Marks f o r DERA: tical."

Libbv Davies. member of Counc i l , did not accept t h i s dismal reason.

P r a c t i c a l l y every group o r organizae d * Marathon, Concorde ic Boss t i o n t h e C i t y i s involved w i t h h a s some m u l t i n a t i o n a l s worth b i l l i o n s political significance; it certainly Brothers got nothing* DERA put in d o e s n ' t s t o p u s from working w i t h them f o r f i v e s e p a r a t e p r o j e c t s and won t o p if t h e best f o r t h e job at hand. honours and $lo in funds What p l a c e does m e r i t have i n your vote?'i f o r t h e b i g g e s t one!

The h i g h marks? J i m Green, r e p o r t i n g When people come ahead of p r o f i t on t h e 6+5 r e j e c t i o n , s a i d simply: "The NPA voted 'no' s o w e ' l l do it With f i r m s u n p o r t from community anyway." DERA workers & v o l u n t e e r s w i l l groups, s o c i a l p l a n n e r s , e n g i n e e r s do most of t h e work, f i g h t i n g f o r peoand a broad spectrum of p r o f e s s i o n a l s p - lawyers, a r c h i t e c t s , s e n i o r o f f i c i a l s l e over p r o f i t , and i n a few y e a r s t h e in the city's s t a f f DERA went t o C i t y same people who t r i e d t o s t o p them t h i s t i m e w i l l be t e l l i n g everyone of a n o t h e r Council t o win a p p r o v a l & funding f o r o f Vancouver's unique s u c c e s s e s . o p e r a t i n g i n Downtown South. The NPA's 1-vote m a j o r i t y s a i d no. "DERA i s p o l i By PAULR TAYLOR

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But you'll never break my spirit.

You can destroy my art but my ideas will live on.

Knowing that we've reached an impasse.

We've gone as far as we can go with one another.

And now, firm in resolve not to return to my tormentors Justifiable rage against those who have defiled and diminished me.

To be understood and revitalized rather than drained by constantly having to explain myself.

To select by whom I wished to be touched, Given tenderness and held and caressed and soothed When conflict has given me losses and great sadness, When my beliefs and essence of being are diminished Oh, but the craving of earthly flesh.

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the sadness disappointments misunderstandings recriminations craziness of love

And the violence and atrocities and torturous methods Committed by the ugly and jealous in power Against the sweet and the beautiful Who dare to raise their voices against injustice.

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The sliding door closes.

YOU press. You rise, then you stop in mid-air, and cry yourself to sleep on the floor of horror. YOU

Too late they come, and open the mind-raping cell, setting you free to bruise.

A week. Six months.

Or has it been over a year?

The healing is upon you, my friend. Let it flow within.

You'll be who you were; only better for having run the gambit thru Frankenstein's Alley; like the first time.

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Time could not exist in a vacuum, A vacuum is like a black hole, 6 we will only reminisce about a world like this If a dreamweaver's dream can be stole.

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Stealing a dream is not easy, Federal agents.. their talents do fail For the dreamweaver's dream has been dreamt And the dreamweaver is not for sale.

The generation's spent their last dime, Balls fly A black hole has in a holy silence, white doves swallowed up time, bearing prayers to Heaven and me And the system that claimed already on my knees. it was supportive, But it's some other acolyte shouts While people lived, worked ingo go !" or was that, "Amen!" & died on the street, Has been arrested As in other places of worship and convicted the congregation here is mostly female and God Of ultimate fraud & deceit. is male: Caller watching all his flock The dreamweaver's dream bestowing blessings has been dreamt on the just and unjust alike.

The dream is for Has he got my number? one & for all Dusty, whatever god or gods you got, And the Man for all people He/She/It has got your number all right.

Is telling you now of this call.

Sooner or later, you'11 collect Aardvark Dusty Sunday Worship at the Mission Hall

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S c r i p t s gone s t a l e .

How many S e r i o u s Cinematographers, p r e v i o u s l y , who a r r a n g e d him a t s u c h and s u c h p r e c i s e a n g l e , t h e g a f f e r s w i r i n g him i n t o s p o t , y e t who n e v e r g o t him t o s t a n d q u i t e s t r a i g h t enough or stay perfectly still l o n g enough -H e h a s watched them, p r o u d l y , grow weary and withdraw, c i t i n g h i s intransigence.

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Some y e a r s ago I had s o l d a b l a c k & w h i t e TV. About 3 . d a y s l a t e r t h e buyer brought i t back. He was i n a bad mood because now h e had sound b u t t h e p i c t u r e had e n t i r e l y d i s a p p e a r e d , l e a v i n g t h e s c r e e n d a r k . I i n v e s t i g a t e d and found h e had a c c i d e n t a l l y t u r n e d t h e Brightness c o n t r o l completely o f f .

When I t u r n e d t h e knob t h e p i c t u r e r e t u r n e d . "That w a s n ' t v e r y b r i g h t Georg e , " I t o l d him i n a b r i l l i a n t d o u b l e entendre.

I f t h e s c r e e n g o e s d a r k , check t h e Brightness control.

T e l e v i s i o n s e t s v a r y i n what cont r o l s t h e y have a t t h e back of t h e s e t .

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Always u s e a l i g h t touch.

The Focus c o n t r o l i s u s e f u l o n l y when you a l r e a d y h a v e a p i c t u r e and you want t h e g r e a t e s t p o s s i b l e c l a r i t y .

(A m i r r o r i s u s e f u l i n s e t t i n g t h i s . ) Midway i n i t s t r a v e l , r a t h e r t h a n a l l t h e way i n one d i r e c t i o n o r t h e o t h e r , may g i v e you t h e b e s t and s h a r p e s t picture.

The same i s t r u e of t h e Sharpness c o n t r o l ( i f t h e r e i s one).

I f y o u r set conks o u t , b o t h sound and p i c t u r e , t r y t h e r e d b u t t o n . It i s a b r e a k e r s w i t c h , t a k i n g t h e p l a c e of o n e o r more f u s e s . With t h e set plugged i n & t u r n e d on, p r e s s i t i n , holdi n g i t i n a minute b e f o r e r e l e a s e .

I n t h e next i s s u e , provided I d o n ' t m i s s t h e Editor's deadline, I ' l l t a l k a b o u t a d j u s t i n g a t t h e back f o r t h e best possible colour.

By ERIC ERICKSON

FUTILE DREAMINGS

T i m e t o c e a s e your f u t i l e dreamings, Wasting hopes t h a t cannot be; T i m e t o l e a v e , t o S t a y no-longer, Leave t h i s s t r e e t of misery.

Hide your h e a r t and your emotions, Now i s n o t t h e t i m e t o g r i e v e ; You must t e l l h e r on t h i s h o u r , T e l l h e r now t h a t you must l e a v e .

She i s S p r i n g and you a r e Autumn, Autumn l e a v e s must tumble down; I f you f e e l s h e needs your p a s s i o n , You a r e n o t h i n g but a clown.

Do n o t l e t h e r t e a r s i n p a r t i n g , Blind your e y e s o r touch your h e a r t ; Loving h e r would be l i k e g r a s p i n g , Empty shadows i n t h e d a r k .

Loving h e r i s wasted p a s s i o n , ' T i s a love t h a t has a price; She would p l a c e you on a n a l t a r , As a blood-spilled s a c r i f i c e .

Through h e r body churns a c r a v i n g , Churning deep a r e c r y i n g t h i r s t s ; S t a y w i t h h e r and y o u ' l l be keeping, Sorrows from a h e a r t t h a t b u r s t s .

Stay Lost Stay Know

w i t h h e r and you s h a l l wander, upon a burning p l a i n ; w i t h h e r and know t h e meaning, t h e f e e l i n g t h a t is p a i n .

Special p a i n ' t h a t s t a y s forever, Searing p a i n , y o u r e y e s w i l l see; Clutching p a i n f o r e v e r t w i s t i n g , Tearing a t your memory.

Then t o l i v e w i t h d e s p e r a t i o n , Naked a s a rocky s h o r e ; Knowing i f s h e l o v e s you e v e r , She w i l l l o v e t h e Needle more.

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While i t h o l d s h e r w i t h i t s hunger, With i t s t a s t e , i t s touch a s w e l l ; She w i l l spend each l i v i n g moment, Racing through t h e h a l l s of H e l l ,

Watch your l o v e t u r n i n t o a s h e s , When you t r y t o make h e r choose; You must know t h a t i n h e r answer, That d e c i s i o n , y o u w i l l l o s e .

Time t o c e a s e your f u t i l e dreamings, Wasting hopes t h a t cannot be; Time t o l e a v e , t o s t a y no-longer, Leave t h i s street of misery.

Michael James McLellan

Helping Spirit Lodge To:

A l l I n d i v i d u a l s , Native O r g a n i z a t i o n s , R e f e r r a l Agencies

W e are p l e a s e d t o i n f o r m y o u t h a t as o f J u n e 3 r d , 1 9 9 1 HELPING SPIRIT LODGE TRANSITION HOUSE I S TAKING REFERRALS. H e l p i n g S p i r i t Lodge c a n p r o v i d e t h e f o l l o w i n g s e r v i c e s f o r b a t t e r e d a b o r i g i n a l women ; - a s a f e p l a c e f o r women a n d t h e i r c h i l d r e n - f r i e n d s h i p a n d s u p p o r t f r o m a b o r i g i n a l women who a r e q u a l i f i e d counsellors - a s i t u a t i o n i n w h i c h t h e women a n d c h i l d r e n w i l l learn a b o u t f a m i l y v i o l e n c e i n terms of awareness, p r e v e n t i o n & p r o t e c t i o n - c o u n s e l l i n g i n a l c o h o l / d r u g a b u s e , s e x u a l abuse and c h i l d r e n ' s counselling r e f e r r a l s t o s p e c i a l i z e d t r e a t m e n t w h i c h may n o t b e a v a i l a b l e a t t h e t r a n s i t i o n home on-going s u p p o r t and follow-up s e r v i c e s

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RECLAIMING YOURSELF: Many p e o p l e f e e l "powerless" - b u t know somehow a t t h e g u t l e v e l , i n s t i n c t i v e l y , t h a t t h e y o n c e were powerful b e i n g s , & t h a t t h o s e p e r s o n a l "powers" were p a r t of t h e i r natural birthright, - t h e i r inherit a n c e ( h e r i t a g e ) a s human b e i n g s . These "powers" a r e n o t h i n g u n u s u a l . . n o t t s t r a n g e o c c u l t o r m y s t e r i o u s . They o n l y seem t h a t way now t h a t most of u s have l o s t a c c e s s t o them. None of u s gave up o u r p e r s o n a l powers w i l l i n g l y , w i t h o u t a s t r u g g l e .

They were f o r c e f u l l y t a k e n from u s by a g e n t s o f a s o c i e t y t h a t d o e s n o t unders t a n d t h e v a l u e of them,& t h e r e f o r e f e a r s them. S c h o o l s , c h u r c h s , law-enforcement agencys, b u s i n e s s e s , governments, a l l f e a r t h e powers i n h e r e n t i n one human bei n g - you, me, t h a t o t h e r p e r s o n - i n f a c t , e v e r y human e n t i t y - e a c h of u s i n d i v i d u a l l y c o n t a i n s t h e s e "powers" s o c i e t y s e e k s t o c o n t r o l , deny & e v e n t u a l l y g e t r i d of.

s p a r e n t s s t a r t working t o l i m i t o r ' n o r m a l i z e ' them a t a n e a r l y age. Most of t h i s " s o c i a l i z i n g " & " s y s t e mitizing" is c a r r i e d out unconsciously, unknowingly; i t ' s j u s t p a r t o f t h e a u t o m a t i c b e h a v i o u r t h a t was p u t i n t o p a r e n t s when t h e y were growing up - t h e y d i d n ' t want t o r e c e i v e i t from t h e i r p a r e n t s any more t h a n t h e i r c h i l d r e n want t o r e c e i v e i t from them.

So t h i s c h a i n of d e n i a l c o n t i n u e s , & i s a v e r y s e r i o u s b u s i n e s s t o s o c i e t y , which i s n o t h i n g more t h a n a group of " s o c i a l i z e d " b e i n g s a t t e m p t i n g t o c r e a t e more s o c i a l i z e d beings.

A n i n d i v i d u a l who d i s c o v e r s , c o n t r o l s & l e a r n s t o i d e n t i f y with & use h i s o r her own p e r s o n a l powers d o e s n o t r e p r e s e n t s o c i e t y , but-something h i g h e r , deeper & g e n u i n e l y r e a l t h a n any " s o c i e t y " c o u l d e v e r be. These h i d d e n & l a r g e l y d e n i e d powers o f r h e i n d i v i d u a l have b o t h c r e a t i v e & d e s t r u c t i v e a s p e c t s . The d e s t r u c t i v e c l c m e n t s , s o f e a r e d by a s o c i e t y of

socialized individuals, a r e there f o r a very good r e a s o n . - t h e i r main p u r p o s e i s t o c l e a r away a l l t h e deadwood - g e t r i d of o l d c o n c e p t s t h a t d o n ' t work anymore & destroy t h e l i e s t h a t s e e k t o confuse us.

Those who b e l i e v e & c l i n g t o t h e s e l i e s a r e d e t e r m i n e d t o p e r p e t u a t e them.

Thus they engage i n a l i f e - o r - d e a t h s t r u g g l e w i t h whoever m a n i f e s t s t h e s e " d e s t r u c t i v e " powers. T h e i r most e f f e c t i v e weapons against things they f e a r a r e t h e l a b e l s insanity, craziness, they o u t on them madness, d i s a b i l i t y , r e g r e s s i o n , e t c . ) When d e s t r u c t i v e p e r s o n a l powers manifest a s serious p o l i t i c a l action, other l a b e l s a r e used ( t e r l o r i s t a n a r c h i s t , r a d i c a l , e t c .)

Yet i n t h e r e a l m of i n d i v i d u a l psycho&ogy, d e s t r u c t i v e p e r s o n a l powers a r e simply t h e r e t o c l e a r t h e way f o r b r i l l i a n t c r e a t i v e i m p u l s e s t h a t a r i s e o u t of r e a l contact w i t h one's o r i g i n a l s e l f . . .That is " o r i g i n a l s e l f " ? - n o t h i n g more t h a n t h e s e h i d d e n powers t h a t a r e t h e r e a l you - t h e real m e before society f o r c e d u s t o deny who we a r e .

I f you t h i n k I ' m j u s t t a l k i n g a b o u t mys e l f o r someone e l s e & t h a t t h e s e powers d o n ' t e x i s t i n you, a s your n a t u r a l b i r t h r i g h t , i t o n l y p r o v e s how f a r s o c i e t y h a s led you from t h e p a t h of your r e a l s e l f .

Now t h a t many o f u s have s e e n s o c l e a r l y how much i s wrong w i t h t h i s s o c i e t y (& the n e g a t i v e a s p e c t s of i t a r e u n d e n i a b l y overwhelming) i t ' s time t o dump your f a l s e s e l f & s e t o u t i n s e a r c h of t h e r e a l t h i n g .

The b e a u t y of i t i s t h a t you d o n ' t have t o go anywhere i n t h e o u t s i d e world t o accomp l i s h t h i s . . . b u t you do have t o l e a r n t o go d e e p e r & d e e p e r i n s i d e y o u r s e l f . There is nothing mystical, strange o r o c c u l t about t h i s - s u c h i d e a s a r e c r e a t e d by people who've n e v e r looked i n t o i t - t h e y a r e p a r t of t h e l a b e l l i n g p r o c e s s used by s o c i a l i z e r s t o d i s c o u r a g e you from e x p e r i encing t h e powers t h a t b e l o n g t o you.

I n a t o x i c , i n d u s t r i a l i z e d environment, where t r u s t & f r i e n d s h i p a r e t r e a t e d a s t r a n s i e n t s o c i a l e n t e r t a i n m e n t , we must l e a r n t o f e e l & t h e r e f o r e r e c l a i m o u r own bodys. T h i s h a s n o t h i n g t o do w i t h s e x which i s a n o t h e r l a b e l t h e s o c i a l i z e r s want you t o b e l i e v e i n .

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Too many p e o p l e jump i n t o t h e s e t h i n g s u n p r e p a r e d , u s e m a s s i v e amounts of powerf u l d r u g s t o b l a s t t h e i r way i n t o themselves t h e y t h i n k i t ' s funny o r b r a v e t o do t h i s & n e v e r r e a l i z e t h a t a s i m p l e , g e n t l e , slow s t e p - b y - s t e p i n v e s t i g a t i o n of t h e i r i n n e r p r o c e s s e s i s p o s s i b l e . These t h i n g s t a k e t i m e - b u t of c o u r s e t h e s o c i a l i z e r s have convinced a l m o s t everyone t h a t i t ' s r u s h Lour & t h e r e ' s no time l e f t t o be s i l e n t , slow & c a r e f u l .

When you have f i n a l l y g i v e n up on a l l t h e c o m p l e x i t y & s o p h i s t i c a t i o n of t h e s o c i a l i z e r s , t h e o n l y h o n e s t way t o approach t h i s e x p l o r a t i o n of i n n e r p r o c e s s e s i s from s q u a r e one - you have t o s t a r t a l l o v e r a g a i n . The maps & s i g n p o s t s provided by s o c i e t y w i l l o n l y m i s l e a d you. A l l t h e " a u t o m a t i c " t h i n g s a b o u t y o u r s e l f - how you move, b r e a t h e , e a t , s l e e p , wake up, t h i n k , t a l k & f e e l must b e r e - e x p e r i e n c e d from t h e point-of-view of one who knows n o t h i n g a b o u t b e i n g t h i s way - one who i s j u s t d i s c o v e r i n g f o r t h e f i r s t time what .jit means t o be human.

I f you l o o k i n t o t h e s e t h i n g s , you w i l l b e g i n t o d i s c o v e r how s t r i c t l y l i m i t e d t h e y a r e . How much of your l u n g s you d o n ' t u s e . . . How l i m i t e d t h e r a n g e of your v o i c e i s . . . How r e s t r i c t e d & mechanical t h e movements o f your body a r e , even when everyt h i n g seems "normal". You w i l l b e g i n t o r e a l i z e how l i t t l e your e y e s a c t u a l l y s e e ; how your e a r s f i l t e r o u t t h i n g s t h e y d o n ' t want t o h e a r . How you respond e m o t i o n a l l y & a u t o m a t i c a l l y t o buzz-words & body l a n guage o t h e r s u s e t o m a n i p u l a t e you..how l i t t l e you a c t u a l l y t a s t e of t h e food you eat.

I n s h o r t , you w i l l come t o know how l i t t l e of your s e l f you a c t u a l l y own - how much s o c i e t y h a s f o r c e d you t o g i v e up.

To r e c l a i m f u l l awareness i s a f u l l - t i m e j o b . You need 24 h o u r s a day f r e e time t o even b e g i n t h e p r o c e s s of r e - d i s c o v e r i n g what i s r i g h t f u l l y y o u r s .

Those who d o n ' t do t h i s work a r e j u s t p r o c r a s t i n a t i n g . P e o p l e who s o c i a l i z e & s y s t e m i z e t h e m s e l v e s f o r merely economic ' p u r p o s e s a r e w a s t i n g t h e i r humanity & cont r i b u t e n o t h i n g o f any r e a l v a l u e t o t h e future.

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Dear C a r n e g i e News,

I r e a l i z e what your problem i s . You a r e o p e r a t i n g w i t h impeccable conduct and m o r a l decency. ~t a l l began w i t h a s h o r t a r t i c l e I w r o t e on r a b b i t s . P a u l , t h e e d i t o r , t o t a l l y screwed i t up and somehow became a c r i p p l e .

I have been somewhat c r i p p l e d mys e l f . I consider t h a t he t o t a l l y fucked up h i s b r a i n waves i n d e a l i n g w i t h my d i a t r i b e , s e t h i m s e l f up i o r an a c c i d e n t , which f u r t h e r e d my c a r e e r i n t h e looney b i n .

The whole t h i n g i s u t t e r nonsense.

R e a l l y , i f you would open y o u r s e l v e s up, p r e t e n d t h a t you a r e a s t a t i o n t h a t c a n p l a y looney t u n e s , and i n t h e v o i c e of b i t t e r e x p e r t i s e - be n o t s o concerned w i t h c o m p l e t e s e t s , maybe somebody would pay you f o r Your good taste.

Wendy Tompson

I ' v e enjoyed reading t h e Carnegie Newsletter.

This n e w s l e t t e r f a i r l y z i n g s w i t h v i t a l i t y and h o n e s t y !

Thanks f o r ( u n e d i t e d ) p u b l i c a t i o n s of some o f my own s c r i b b l i n g s . I may be back t h i s way a g a i n i n September, and i f I am, I s h a l l l o o k forward t o r e a d i n g (and c o n t r i b u t i n g t o ) t h e N e w s l e t t e r once more. Take c a r e !

PHOTO WHAT? THE Bear t r e e , 85% b e e t l e s b e e r can o f Kokanee a t o p a n o t h e r t r e e B a t t l e s h i p s and Kayaks f r e e z i n g by t h e l a k e r a i n i n g and t h e Geese knew i t would be a b i g m i s t a k e Don't camp o u t any l o n g e r and d o n ' t m i s s t h e bus!!!

S t a n d i n g on t h e w a i t l i s t c o n s t i p a t e d members d e c r y u n s u i t a b l e f o r membership o r h o u s i n g God g i v e n s e l f e v i d e n t ( i t w a s u s ) i n t e r e s t s invests percentages accrue Programs on t h e c o l o u r e d t u b e outstanding l i k e i t , not r e j e c t i o n and r e f u s e a l l t h e y d o n ' t have t h e a n s w e r s e i t h e r & Lord i t o v e r a l l Yah, t h e s l u g on t h e mountain p a t h Brown t r o u t l e a p i n ' i n t h e l a k e f l i e s and bugs and t h e m o s q u i t o e s and t h e d e e r s t a n d i n g by t h e highway, a second hand r e c o r d c o l l e c t i o n .

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I kind of feel sorry for Me1 Couvelier. Don1t70u folks? It's not easy to find work at his age. I have to give him credit though..no low-paying job for him, no sir. Shoot for the top. Me1 doesn't know it yet - you good eople out there do not want him as the top dog of B.C. By the time he finds hat out, he'll have two'options: Retire an? take up knitting. open an ffice (that is if he has any money left).

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Closed socred government trying to run and hide

* When the socred govt. was asked to live On the first day of the current legisup to its commitment to pass a freedomlative session, Rita Johnston told us her of-information law, their answer ehowed government had dbsohtely nothing to hide. a govt. that cantt organize itself to The facts say that's simply not true. deliver on that promise, first claiming They tell the story of a eocred governthe questionllwas"out of order," the: ment trying to run from its record; a saying this reflects future policy. govt. working to keep you & I in the dark 2 . When-coqfuseddefl _ e ~ t ~ ~ ~ G h _ e r s . and refusing to answer questions in the * To a question regarding Rita Johnston's legislature. Rita Johnston has regularly admission that her govt. is borrowing deflected questions meant for her to oth$1.2 billion to cover this year's budget, ler cabinet ministers - even those questand not the $395 million dishonestly ions relating to statements she made. claimed by her cabinet, she refused to ' Two stonewalling tactics have emerged : answer and said go talk to the finance minister.

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----,----L----,* To another question asking her to recon"en asked that a Richmond ban on the cile her statement that she was "scared imminent dumping of contaminated Expo stiff" of a free trade deal with Mexico, 1 soils on their farmland be dealt with while her govt. actively supported the , urgently, the socred govt. was caught previous trade deal with the U.S., Rita flat-footed, saying they would "take it Johnston again deflected the question to on noticeL1.and get back (later) with a another cabinet minister. response .I' * W e n requested to tell parents of It adds up to a socred govt thati,cantrary 14,000 kindergarten students hurt by to Rita Johnston's claim, has a lot to hide. the cancellation of 'dela entry' what After five long years in office, they've plans the government now had for these grown more secretive,unable to even honestchildren half-in &-.half-out of the ly answer straightforward questions. And as school system, the socreds showed the they grind down to the last months of the extent of turmoil in their govt, when last year of their mandate, it's clearly they declared it was "still under contime for an election and it's time to sideration" and that it may or may not change the government. be "future policy."

Ey MIKE HARCOURT

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