Laurie Juszkiewicz :: THE INVITATION TO NEW WAYS OF BEING
When I think of fear and uncertainty, a time in my life comes up that I don’t like to think about, let alone talk about or share in public.
It’s hard because I don’t want to give my power away. I don’t want this moment in my life to define me and be the thing that people think of when they see me or talk to me. AND, at the same time, this article is asking to be written. It is not escaping me that as I am writing this article on fear and uncertainty, I am literally navigating fear and uncertainty. Have you had a time in your life where you KNEW something needed to be shared or acknowledged simply because it just wouldn’t go away no matter how 58
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As I am typing this article, I have exactly four days until the deadline to turn the article in. I am just starting it now. It’s not because I haven’t wanted to write it, but because it’s really fucking hard to write this one.
much you wanted it to? It’s like this thing is saying, “I’ll just wait here patiently, looming over you in the background until you are ready to say what needs to be said.” That IS this article for me! Fear and uncertainty can come up when we’re in unfamiliar territory. When we don’t know what the “normal expectations” are or what the “results and outcomes” will be. So often in our lives we have past experiences to go by to help us maneuver through the unknown, the fear, and the uncertainty. But, what happens in those times when you don’t have past experiences to guide you through? What happens when you don’t have those past experiences to lean on? And all you have to go on is what is happening right now? And this is where my story begins! Fear and uncertainty show up in an enormous way when you’re being stalked and harassed. I was uncertain of how long it would last. I was uncertain of how far he would go to hurt me, my family, and my kids. Would I be able to make it through the day without being followed to the gym or to the grocery store? Would he be there waiting for me? Would I be able to stay at the gym for the whole class or would I have
